#carson: dont do that or else ill cry

[carseer]

@witcheas​   inquires:   ❝ i can see right through you. ❞

  “ yeah,  well . . .  ”   she trails off,  an eyebrow raising as if it was something nonchalant.  

  of course bex sees right through this.  carson is convinced she’s fucking psychic as it is,  and that’s on a good day.  they’ve been friends for so long,  they can feel even the slightest shifts between each other in the same way a seismometer could detect an earthquake half - way across the world.   (  sometimes she’ll feel it at school.  at this point,  carson just thinks it’s psycho - somatic ;  that her love for her best friend runs so deep that she thinks she can feel the things bex does.  or maybe she’s just highly empathetic ---- after all,  bex is her best friend,  maybe she just . . .  )

    “ it’s no big deal,  yeah ?  they called me crazy,  it’s nothing i haven’t heard before.  ‘s not even creative,  y’know ?  so like,  what’s the point in getting upset ? ”

[survivorcordillerablanca]

Episode 6 Confessionals

I mean I didn't make the idol play. But um #LUKEDIDTHAT. Love he did that. But Lexi self voting??? Ruining Luke's plan of getting someone out? ICONIC!! Poor Lexi is prob going to go home lol. But I'm happy the idol I found did something but sad that its now gone and a new one? might be able to be found for those  4 remaining.

One more fake swap / fake merge and I'm going to vote myself off this island.

So iconically, Luke idolled, which i'm happy about. I'm NOT happy about Ryan being voted out considering I was kind of wanting to play a game with him. It also doesn't make sense considering... he's tried in every challenge, and has helped out the tribe greatly imo, but then again - we don't know the social dynamics and tribe outlook on their tribe. Carson told me he found an idol, and i'm superbly excited. Will he use it on me? Likely not. But it's still good to know we have it in OUR possession, and i'm not planning on leaking a word. The fact that he told me is satisfying though, and I do truly feel as if he's my #1 in the game right now. The challenge? Pass. It's something... logic puzzles are... awful (yet a little fun at times, sure). The cup thing... whomst... and the counting? I'm fairly triggered. I'm going to likely sit out because i'm busy today and I just couldn't care or want to do ANY of that. also why is there no SWAP!

Last tribal was fun with my idol play but Lexi made it less iconic with the self vote but that was completely understandable since she has a lot going on personally and I hope she's okay <3 It worked well in the sense that Jordan and Jay can still convince Lexi that they just had to do what they had to do with the tie and they saved her over Ryan. I compleTELY FUCKED UP THE COUNTING PART OF THE CHALLENGE WHICH I WAS ALREADY EH ABOUT DOING SINCE IT'S THE WORST BUT EUUURGH I MESSED UP. I'm hoping that we can win but if we don't then I hope I can trust Jay and Jordan enough to keep our 3 alliance strong and just vote our Lexi unanimously providing she doesn't have an idol or anything like that. I'll make an update after results...

Can you believe we win again? If we merge, it's gonna be 7-3. What a time to be alive!!! 

WHEWWWW i searched Mancos for the idol bc of my idol clue i got and i fucking found the idol and wow... i decided to tell Zach because I definitiely wanna nurture a relationship with him (love him so much) and we're a dynamic duo for sure!! i only talk to hi9m though and i def gotta fix that. playing this game AND another game at once is just a bit much but im still doing my best.

OKAY IM SCREAMING HOW DID I EVEN GET ANOTHER REWARD?? Idk how many rewards there have been in total bc I forgot but I've gotten 3 and didn't do 1 bc it was too risky but like what the heck how is this even happening?? I'm shook 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W5g0x_0uPJo

WE WON IMMUNITY YESSS!!! going into the final 10 7-3 is definitiely amazing and im assuming luke goes on the other tribe. im fine with that bc it seems like everyone on my tribe is close to luke, so theyll be closer to me if hes gone!! im definitiely enjoying this tribe but like.. where does everyone stand?? who knows. we havent gone to a tribal since eric combusted and i dont know where i stand. i trust zach and i kinda trust bryce even if we dont talk strategy but idk where everyone else stands. katie truists me i think, but idk if i talk to her enough for it to be a FULL trust between us?? shes probably the one i trust the most after the other 2. charlotte is... whew?? she hates zach im pretty sure so like... idk about that personally. shes a good player and also like... idk i just dont talk to her as much as the other returnees. willow is cool and shes super nice but we NEVER talk strategy and also she like gave tons of info to eric allegedly then voted him out so idk if i can trust that rlly but like  thats a bit hypocritical bc i kinda used him too. i need to try talking more strategy with her. and chris... we talk and they're pleasant conversations but like willow, i dont talk strategy enough with him. plus hes a good game player from what ive seen in this game?? i know hes busy so i just gotta start getting a bit more out of him. my social game has def been slipping and if i dont get it up, im looking at a merge boot status bc tbh? i think im a pretty big threat. ideally, jordan pines is merge boot, then we can use lexi/jay to possibly get out some of our tribe, maybe charlotte?? on second thought i could use jordan for that too but like.. i dont trust jordan lmao. IDEALLY, id like a boot order of... f10: jordan f9: charlotte f8: lexi f7: willow f6: chris f5: jay f4: bryce f3: katie/zach, depends on who i think i can win easier against?? then ideally a final 2 of me winning. but survivor is always changing, so nothing is for sure. thats just how id LIKE it to happen, but nothing is gonna happen exactly so ill just pray!!

We lost immunity...again...shocker! Jay approached me earlier to potentially blindside Jordan and get him out since he's a huge threat at the upcoming merge but ultimately decided that using his connection with Katie and his reputation as a meat shield would be to our advantage since we're both winners and that is enough to get people to target us. It feels weird working this closely with Jay. If we merge next then plan to get Katie using Jordan, Carson using Jay and Zach using myself and then add Charlotte into the group and we should have a strong group. I also want to find out who gave me the immunity idol so I can first of all thank them, second of all ask them why and third if all work with them. I just hope I'm not being screwed by Jay the same way he was trying to screw Pines. 

Confessional #1 this round: Fuck ulta, i hate this tribe, i want to leave, ryan palmer let me go home

I accidently self voted last round and it tied between me and ryan because luke used an idol. so they voted ry out and i cried alittle. thats about all. 

Confessional #2- Rip Lexi, this is wrong, how the fuck are we gonna be at 3 players, after this wtf they have an entire tribe waiting to fight us

Im so happy we won again to be able to go into a merge with 7-3 majority maybe and a 4 person group into the 10 person game! Things are going well

Wish I can find the idol and hope luke doesnt go out either here

bye lexi! honestly like... idk. all newbies on their tribe are gone, it's so funny. im anticipating merge! or a swap.. or something. its 7v3 for crying out loud! im not sure what my move is going forward, but i think im confident. just kidding, i'm likely leaving. this is a bs conf but i may make one tomorrow hehe

haha I beat Jay

wow can't believe I'm this seasons challenge beast

We're really that tribe that's completely decimating everything.

I've been out all day and I see that they voted out Lexi. Every tribal that Jordan pines makes it through makes me even more nervous about getting to a merge with him around. We didn't have a good history in our last game but I'm hoping that there are more people around with bad blood with him so I can kinda just get by without getting any shots fired at me. I just want to go into a merge already. None of this potential "tribe swap" to make things even for one more round. I usually get fucked in a swap and I'd rather not have history repeat itself.

Over the course of the past week or so, i've been attempting to mend things with Charlotte. She's the only person that I feel like would be dead set on getting rid of me, so to weaken that desire would be sufficient. I also want to work on Katie and Chris a bit more so that the newbies (since i'm already decent with Willow, I believe) would be more loyal to me. I need opportunities! As for the pending upcoming merge or swap, i'm not ready. I would hope the 7 Ulta stay together for a BIT or something, like vote out Jordan. I'm semi-close with Jay and Luke, so would I want to vote them out right away? Well, in the wise words of Jay - absolutely not. But I would if I had to. I'd be more lenient with voting Jay since i'm now developing a friendship with Luke (because of another ORG) and I really like him, he's a cool kid. Him and I have NEVER worked together in past ORGs so if we manage to survive and make it on a tribe together, it'll be something refreshing. Carson's still my favourite though. He's a social god and it's scary. The kid has school from like 7-3pm and still finds more time to message me somehow or someway. It's... wildt. I trust him to an extent and him and I both have agreed that like we'll go far but obviously we are bale to betray one another if essential to our own game. I likely won't make it that far though RIP. I told him i'd be his lapdog, despite the tag of the season o.O Bryce. I didn't mention him yet. He's cool, him and I rarely talk but I think he's overall a great person. I'd like to talk to him more but our last conversation felt dull and I can't force a convo (not his fault, communication is indeed a two way street.) Nonetheless, it's something I may have to work on for my game. Also lowkey it's so funny because two tribals ago, you provoked the question regarding returnees and newbies, and here are some facts: - Ryan asked you to stop shoving it down his throat. He got voted out consequently. Iconic, right? - All newbies on their side are eliminated - All the boots in the game in general are newbies (with the exception of my Bahamas representative Willa...RIP good soul. The good die young!) So basically a returnee will win this game. It might be slightly worrying to Katie/Willow/Chris and they may want to extend and form bonds with OG Copa so that they have backup, because obviously there's a trend with voting out the newbies. Anyway, this is my third confessional this round... more than expected hehe hope you enjoy! P.S look at this rude ass message: On 2017-09-14, at 6:36 PM, carson wrote: > Use the Golden Rope to hang urself please HSDGNISDGNDS It was so funny I choked bye now

I seriously thought I was being screwed this round because I didn't think Jay would flip on Lexi but he did and I'm still here! 5 votes against me and I'm still here which is great!! There are only 3 of us left on Copa and we're an alliance so if we don't swap/merge and lose immunity then....it's going to suck. I think maybe I'd be in the middle? But equally Jordan and Jay have known each other a lot longer than they've known me so they might see me as disposable and get rid of me which I hope isn't the case. I really wanna merge and go work with Zach, Charlotte and Carson who I know and think I could work well with. Also Bryce, a newbie from last season, someone who I'd be interested in hooking up with in this game and working with!

So I got another advantage which is lit, I guess all these advantages are making up for kvaloya, anyway who knows how I'm gonna be able to explain the randomized vote?

Okay so like I just realized I'm in another game with Eric. And I kinda led the charge to get him voted out so I'm trying to win immunity otherwise he is totally killing me so sorry this is a terrible confessional but I'm STRESSING. 

If we don't merge I'm so incredibly fucked

[survivor-all-stars-blog]

EP 3: “Nancy Drew, Eat Your Heart Out” - Owen

EMMA’S EXIT INTERVIEW

Damn fuck. 

ari you're not allowed to watch my confessionals, so ignore this.

for everyone else: the video is upside down, and it's really symbolic of the dual game twist.

love, mj

So a potential alliance might be happening eventually?  I played with  both Kait and MJ in a Big Brother game and they are the only two people left in the game that I've known before we started.  Anyway, I've been talking to the both of them a bit, Kait is super nice and I love her and then we have MJ that likes Darren Criss too! 

So then yesterday Kait randomly asked how I was feeling now that the other people from Arabia were gone, and I was pretty honest.  I told her that I was a little on the nervous side but that Nick should have been on and around and that Alex shouldn't have taken anything but that it was like I was now starting over with all these people that I didn't know that I enjoyed getting to know.  Anyway, we talked a bit more then she suggested that she, MJ and I start an alliance for later on maybe if there is a tribe swap or if there is a merge and I'm not in the place to turn down any alliance so I told her I was down!  

With the way that the votes are going these days I'm SUPER nervous.  The trend seems to be that the person that is on both tribes going to tribal council is usually the one to get voted off of both.  That just... scares me?  Like, I just don't want it to ever be me.  Carson seems to be like a comp beast anyway and I think both of my tribes are solid, I just don't want to be that unlucky person that goes to two tribal councils then gets out by the luck of the draw. :/ 

In a way I'm glad I sat out this round, I SUCK at this challenge, I don't really understand it at all and I don't think I would have done either tribe any good if I participated.  I just hate the idea of sitting anything out, I want my tribes to think I'm worth keeping around.  

I'm starting to feel like there might be a swap coming up before too long, like, maybe when we get to 20 people, or even before then to even the tribes out.  It must suck for the people that have just three people on their tribes!

My goal was to not be the 23rd person out once Nick and Alex were voted out....  Now that Emma is gone (Oh god, I hope it was Emma, I'm having a hard time with all these names) I need a new goal and I think that is going to be to make it to the first tribe swaps!

The worst part about coming into All-Stars after being out of commission for so long is that EVERYONE has connections to EVERYONE. Then there's me over in the corner. I only know a few people coming into this season, and it's so intimidating because it seems like most of these recent players already know one another; I'm the odd one out. I'm not the most personable person either, so trying to create bonds is really tricky for me. I'm trying to piece together all of the preexisting connections and stuff, but this is so rough. Ahhhhhhhhhh 

welp, i asked the first person for an alliance, that being jenn. i feel like im already late to the alliance scene, and im thinking if i dont make an alliance soon, im fucked.

honest to god all the challenges in this game are ones im shit at. I really really hope Pat is really with me bc it looks like were going to lose again. also i dont have shit going on my game b tribe so if we go to tribal im gonna have to beg steffen for my life oh boy

pat: has good scores that he says we can use if we cant beat them me: stops trying 

this is technically for last episode but oh well

hooooooooly wooooooooow I'm so fucking mad about that score I got. It cost one of my tribes the win??? Which was super duper sad, but luckily Emma's other tribe lost too, so it should be and was an easy vote. I was a bit worried that Logan's relationship with her would get in the way (if it exists at all idk man), but I survived :') and now my frickin game b tribe can NOT lose again i will do WHATEVER IT FRICKING TAKES to WIN 

The cool thing though was that my OTHER tribe got first, and I was the first one to go on that reward cool fun trip to the adventure :~) I made it pretty far in... And I didn't get anything. But then I turned right around and told Jake what to do, and then Steffen, and then BOTH of Lydia's trips. I was on call with them through all of it and I'm SCREAMING kjfdshdsj because literally both ricardo and gage told me what they got too????? So like... I know Jake has the record which lets him flip the immunity scores around, and Lydia got the weird ass Whirlpool Idol, which means there has gotta be a lot of stuff in there. And Ricardo met Jordan Pines... Gage didn't get any further than I did. 

So even though I didn't get any items, I know who did, I know what they do, and I know what does and doesn't work in the adventure. I don't have a power, but I have knowledge, and in this game, knowledge is power. I'm gonna make a spreadsheet with everything that's happened so far..

The one thing I don't get is the clue Alex gave. Maybe it's fake. And Kait somehow got a clue too, but she hasn't given it to me? Sooooo SUSPICIOUS. We'll see :) if i can get it from her :)

me: i did so good!!! jakey: i got 290 me: the... fuck

like.... what kinda FREAKS OF NATURE r these people??? with these high ass scores??? like WHAT

like...

BUT on the other hand, i also made an alliance with ruthie. yes i made an alliance with the 2 girls on my tribe. what can i say? im a feminist. like... idek i feel so outmatched here everyoens so much better than me, and im just waiting to leave, but i know i should just work harder, and ill be able to do somethin. i cant just sit back and be a little bitch

Simon quit? 

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Just sped up the inevitable probably. In other news I had the worst score in that challenge so I'm glad to be morphing into the goat at an earlier stage than usual. Still alliance-less and can't wait for the first swap to murder me. Honestly I was too exhausted today to pm anyone so I just like to send ugly snaps instead x

MAKALU WON!

I'M GOING TO CRY, I'M SO HAPPY. 

Bless Owen for allowing me to use his score and for Jimmy being safe (Jessy DID THAT) and for Simon quitting to keep MJ and Kait safe and taking us to Final 21. Bless going on an adventure and Bering staying the course. But damn, can Caspian lose one already? 

Well back to things looking grim because Adventureland wasn't all it's cracked up to be. How did Jake find something on his first go? 

Both my tribes won first I'm gonna fucking SCREECH

once again, i'm the biggest baddest adventurest bitch there is like ??? adventure??? my house. the place i was born. i crawled my ragged ass out the whirlpool and all the way up the side of the volcano and ryan tossed me in like vanuatu and now here i am, a rock monster with lobster claws and craggly skin 

anyways, I tried the riddles and failed because I was getting too caught up in capitalized letters??? im glad my english major really helped out !!! capitalization ! fun ! FUCK CASEY YATES 

anyways I told steffen how to do it, and he got this golden apple like?? I WANTED. THAT. ARE YOU. KIDDING ME. I'M SO. MAD. First of all it's like the oasis which would be good by itself but then a double vote??? that's on CRACK I WANT IT SAKJDFSH but it was worth it to tell him because at least I know where it's at which is good.

Ricardo and Jake didn't get anything, and then Jenn messaged me and SHE didn't get anything, but Lydia still has a trip thank god whew

I literally know what everyone did???? Shook. Nancy Drew, eat your heart out.

Also... Of course Simon quits. Honestly, that's really shitty of him but I didn't expect anything less with his attitude??? That's that on that. Kind of sad tribal is cancelled because I wanted chaos but oh well! Final 21, nice!

I'm expecting some kind of swap to happen at 20 like in Ol*mpics, but we'll see. For now, I have to win this next challenge... I need to go back on this damn adventure and get something for myself. I'm sick of being a charity!

Quitters are Shitters Deserters are Perverters Drop Outs are Slop Scouts

(courtesy of Thesaurus.com and RhymeZone.com)

So, Simon quit and that's kind of annoying, like WHY QUIT AN ALL STARS SEASON?  That's like a slap in the face to the hosts, they could have casted anyone and they casted you and you walked, UGH.  

I wish Alex was still around, at least he would have been more of an asset to his teams than Simon was, jeez.  

Also, in happier news, I think Carson and I are going to make a final 2 alliance and I'm SO pumped, she's one of my favorite people here and I really trust her. If we win reward or if she wins reward on her other tribe I'll even think about giving her the clue Alex left me with!  Maybe that would solidify us a little bit more!

I'm? actually kinda bummed that Simon quit. Sure, our tribal on Osh Kosh B'gosh was going to be messy I'm sure, because I'm pretty sure Matt would've wanted to keep Simon instead of Gage whereas I'd rather keep Gage over either of them. I mean like it just kinda sucks because that's not really the spirit of an All Stars season - you want people to play hard and put it all out on the line, not quit because you don't wanna lose your never voted out record. I love Simon, but it just kinda sucks I guess. I mean I could've voted Matt out 2-1-1 or something hehe wouldn't that have been fun :') 

Anyways I've been thinking a lot about my place in this game and where I see myself in social standings. There are a few people that literally have not spoken to me at all - which like I get. It's a huge cast and it's one world, it's hard to keep up with everyone. However like, nnnnnnnn hello binch I exist! Other than that, I think I have enough good connections throughout this game to at least get me to the merge provided I don't see too many tribals. I'm really feeling the pressure in my A game with my tribe only having 3 people left with myself, Matt, and Gage. I don't know how close the two of them are, but I have alliances with both of them so as long as neither of them catch on I'm the swing vote. Matt would be soooo mad at me if I voted him out, but I think it'd be better for me in the long run to have him leave because of our history together - I just don't see us really moving past it. We can work together for now, but I think that the second we meet shaky waters it's going to be game on and things are going to get ugly once more. However, Gage I trust a lot more and I feel like would potentially get me further in the game because he's a number that I think I have a lot more control over instead of Matt. Idk. Watch this be completely the opposite or somehting or watch me get fucked over if we go to tribal again or some shit. NNNNNNN. Mess. 

My plan for tomorrow is to hit up the following people - Jessy, Steven, and Abbey. Abbey.......maybe not we'll see how festive I'm feeling. I'll prob talk more to Wes also, because apparently Wes went asking Jakey for an alliance and little ol' me is feeling a little left out! Wes hasn't fucking done a single thing on the Kabru tribe, who the fuck he think he is tryna make alliances n shit! Sit down and be a productive tribe member, tHANKS.