#carrie speaks

[carnations-fixations]

Question cutie, what’s gesture training ?

Oh. My. God. I am going to CHANGE. YOUR. LIFE!!!!!!

So gesture training can be hypnotic or pavlovian, either work, but the idea is a gesture is done to trigger a behavior with as little thought as possible. in HDG it's usually done for meals, so like

vine strokes the cheek, that means open.

vine strokes the chin, that means bite

vine stroke back and forth underneath the chin, that means chew

vine massages the throat, that means swallow

A pet that's exceptionally well trained won't even notice as it's happening, just obediently following commands

they can be so much more versatile than eating, too. my favorite, and one i long for, is a gentle tug down on my collar meaning kneel. just, a small tug and im dropping to my knees, thoughtlessly, ready to serve my Mistress

[smolvenger]

Moots, SAS, and other friends, this is how we should call each other!

@muddyorbsblr @lokisgoodgirl @holdmytesseract

[queen-paladin]

Always thinking of her (female character who is punished by the narrative for not being “as cool” as another female character)

[kloppool]

guys my best friend/roomie went to london over break and she got me a liverpool scarf and literally spent half of her last day running around trying to find something liverpool for me, even tho she dosen't even like or care about football and could've easily found something else to get me. i'm gonna hang it up above my bed n show you guys

[faslaidir]

I wish I was strong enough to move somewhere by myself and build my own life, but I am periodically unstable and I need my family or I fall the fuck apart. Like I don’t begrudge my family and I’m so grateful to them, I just wish I knew how to do this on my own.

[likesomekindofcheese]

Hey guys, I am going to close requests for now, to let you know. And it will be pretty permanent.

The thing is, I feel so bad about it, but I have lost inspiration and motivation to write fanfic about Queen, Beatles, and the BohRap actors. It feels so weird and sad, considering I was such a big fan since 2019, but I feel like internally I have moved on and have ideas for other fandoms and fics that I am more into and passionate about. Some of them can be read on my side blog @smolvenger or at Archive of Our Own with the username VasaliaTheWise. And at my Etsy shop, Breathing Daydreams, I will write for anyone for a letter who has the ability to pay me!

Don’t get me wrong- I am still a fan and will listen to their music and watch their movies with passion and joy. And I still want to write for The Great, too!!! I just don’t feel the pull and inspiration to write as much for those previous fandoms and people for free. And I get all these requests from people begging me to do so and then don’t get as much as a comment or a reblog and sometimes a thank you.

I will get to working on everyone’s requests in my inbox, true to my word. And if you are or know a blog who writes for one of these fandoms, let me know at once so I can share them!

I just don’t want to feel like I am wearing myself thin and forcing myself to write too much for something that doesn’t excite or inspire me as much to write. I know I will disappoint a lot of people here, but I have to stick to my guns and advocate for myself.

Thank you guys for listening and your patience!

[carrie-whites-whispers]

How do you think your Mama feels about you hanging around a Satanist?

……….. Momma don’ know……

[paper-mario-wiki]

know well that you cannot bestow Jester's Privilege upon yourself.

being as it's directly related to how people react to you, that's something that's earned. that's something that you are awarded by another.

the true fool is the one who thinks they can get away with it every time solely through virtue of being silly. silliness alone does not a jester make. silliness is the foundation. it's the well from which you draw the water. any clown can be silly.

how you draw the water, how you channel it, and how you deliver it. that's what earns your privilege.

[shima-draws]

Actually yeah it’s insane to me how Luffy carries Law around in Dressrosa and Law just. Lets him. Like he could easily struggle out of Luffy’s grip but nope he goes full boneless and allows Luffy to carry him like a sack of potatoes. And this isn’t a brief thing either Luffy literally lugs him around over the course of like 20 episodes and Law’s so quiet that sometimes I forget he’s even there but then I remember and I’m like OH. MY GOD?? He’s STILL draped over Luffy’s arm like a fucking coat. And it’s so fucking funny when I look over and see him with his hood up hanging over Luffy like this

Like. He’s going through it rn. He’s got zero dignity left in him to care

[bunnyflrt]

nah nah but like the "treat her like a princess fuck her like a slut" concept. devotional doms. doms that love sinking to their knees for their sub and kissing your legs and thighs and giving you head until you cry. doms that service and obey everywhere but the bedroom. keeping their sub up all night, making you beg for every touch, then taking you shopping the next day and carrying all your bags for you, refusing to let you lift a finger. doms that worship, not out of submission, but out of a loving devotion. doms who will say the filthiest things when you're falling apart beneath them and then whisper praises up your body. doms that kiss your stomach, your fingertips, the insides of your wrists, the back of your knees, the small of your back, all before leaving bruises and marks all over your pretty body. doms who tie you up as if it's prayer, tracing the ropes along every inch of you. doms who fuck you like a whore but love you like a devotee.

[carnations-fixations]

Sometimes i hear people on here dissing Class-Hs, the hypnotics, and i think they forget about haustorics. like, imagine this:

You're waiting by the door for your Mistress like you do every day, sitting and waiting and sitting and waiting. You feel so, so bored. Despite that, you can't think of anything else to do, and you do really want to be at the door, on your knees when Mistress gets home.

You wait, and you fidget, and you wait, forgetting that Mistress has cameras all over her house, that she's always watching her little pet. So when you finally feel like it's too much to bear, a hissing feeling, like gas let out of a tank, overwhelms your body. Your eyes flutter, your mouth lolls open, and your bored expression is replaced with a plaintive, silly smile.

You suddenly drop, dropping deep into your Mistress. She sees you do it. She's aware of just how open you are.

She knows.

She thinks you deserve a reward, and you only think what she wants you to think.

Your hands move without the permission of your body as you suddenly begin stripping off your clothes, crawling on all fours away from the door and returning with Mistress's favorite nine-inch dildo and a bottle of lube. You are going to be very, very open for her by the time she gets back.

[smolvenger]

I don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. It’s maybe burnout from my job(s) and being in a show. Then I think it manifests on me being online all the time and I get peeved online so easily and get tempted to say things back

I get peeved when someone says that being girly is already “winning” in society and that “girly” things and doing them is being oppressed and following gender roles bc I am naturally a girly person.

I get peeved when people cry that with stories and the debate about morality and that there shouldn’t be morality in stories or morality control and then say I am the morality police when something happens in a story I don’t like or find triggering.

I get distracted from my writing and can’t focus lately.

When I see hate on certain fictional characters that I find I project myself onto, I get emotional and want to yell and do things and say things on impulse when they hate on said character….like I am defending myself.

And I find myself just staring at my phone just wanting to scream and rant and then I….dont know what to do.

Could I….have a hug, guys? I may have to schedule more therapy for all that🥲

@liminalpebble @holdmytesseract @muddyorbsblr @eleniblue @five-miles-over

[queen-paladin]

I’m just a girl in a bookstore trying to decide what to get

[kloppool]

guys im from pennsylvania btw so pls keep my sanity in ur prayers tmrw

[faslaidir]

Becoming a gym regular really is the final anxiety boss battle. Like you really have to learn to take up space, look ridiculous, and ask for help from strangers.

On the plus side I am getting swol af.

[meebleagain]

season 2 caitvi posts: fully rendered paintings in immense detail, lyric captions and 5 million edits

season 2 jayvik posts: "what do you mean mo more gay" and 2 stick figures