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Target is magical I'm never leaving
#i grew up in a really small town and rhe nearest targest was an hour and a half away#you would make a day of it if you wanted to go to target#like 'im gonna get up early and go to target and meijer and get some lunch and maybe go Christmas shopping'#like target was a special occasion#then i moved away. to an apartment within walking distance of a target!!#i miss that apartment. the location was amazing but my roommate was not#so i moved from there. and then the nearest target was half an hour away through construction#so i never went to target when i lived there#but now! i live a 15 minute subway ride from a small target AND a half hour walk from a BIG TARGET#and rn im at the big target. i needed paint and hangers but now im just wandering. enjoying the smell of the in-store Starbucks#i made one lap. now im gonna make another. whatever i buy i have to carry half an hour home but it's fine#ive figured out the afterlives btw. if theyre personalized#if i die and go to hell its gonna be my job on a Saturday#if i die and go to heaven its gonna be a big Target but with a nice local coffee shop instead of the starbucks#anyway goodbye i hope you get to wander a target today!!
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The intersection of male supremacy and white supremacy: Sperm donation corruption and rape by deception of women.
Jonathan Jacob Meijer.
(There is a Netflix documentary: Man with 1000 kids)
Several women went to this Norwegian man seeking a sperm donor. He had great hair. He had great teeth. He traveled and made Youtube blogs of everywhere he went, to all of these different countries. These women went through a private website as opposed to a clinic. He told these women that his intentions were to donate to a maximum of five families.
As they began getting pregnant and giving birth, some bumped into each other. And what a funny coincidence it was that they happened to share the same donor. And then more met and knew of each other. And some realized that their kids were in the same day camp together, and what were the odds of that?
And as it turns out, this man was operating under several different aliases and traveling internationally, donating to 11 different sperm banks under different names, providing sperm privately for women on the side. And he didn't just donate to five women, he donated to hundreds of women, many of whom connected with each other over social media and formed an online group where all were concerned with what he was doing. And this resulted in thousands of children directly related to this man internationally.
And he didn't just use his sperm, but would also meet up with his bald scarred friend and mix their sperm together in the sample bottle, so many of these women non-consensually conceived children with a man they had never even heard of without realizing it. And him and his buddy and other serial donors would "joke" that they were spreading their "white seed" when they would travel to places like Hong Kong and Kenya.
When he was finally tried in court he stated that if there was concern about incest, the children can all simply wear and use a social media symbol that brands them as his so they can recognize each other. And a female judge (who's name I cannot seem to find online) in a Dutch court, sentenced him to 100,000 euro fine for every time he donated if he was ever found donating again and required him to contact the donor banks and request his material be destroyed.
Donald Cline
(Also a Netflix documentary on this: Our Father)
A fertility (gynecology and obstetrics) doctor in the 1980s who welcomed women into his clinic before cryogenic freezing of sperm was a thing and it was freshly inseminated through a procedure. He let the women know that he was using the sperm of medical students and that there would be no more than three times sperm from the same student would be used. Some women, who weren't able to conceive with their husband for one reason or another, also came into the clinic wanting to use their own husband's sperm.
Years later a woman who grew up knowing that part of her DNA was from a sperm donor began wanting to connect with her potential siblings on 23&Me. She was shocked to discover at least 10 siblings she was related to. She got in touch with them.
It turns out that Dr. Cline proceeded to use his own sperm on the female patients, hiding somewhere in the clinic to produce it immediately before using it to inseminate unsuspecting women. This man covertly reproductively exploited several women and "fathered" 94 children. Whenever the children would try to meet with him, he would show up intentionally carrying a gun to intimidate them.
One of his biological daughters, who didn't realize Cline was her biological father until adulthood, even had him as her own gynecologist. He performed pap smears and breast exams on her. He knew that she was his biological offspring and she did not have the knowledge and therefore the option to decline being sexually examined by her biological father.
Dr. Cline was also tried in court by the victims; however, the judge was sympathetic to him.
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This form of sociopathy not only majorly creates significant consequences to the gene pool for our human species as these half siblings are at higher risk of incest, but the psychological harm done to the mothers and the children are horrific. Some of these (now adult) children have described an entire undoing of their self-identity, and many struggled in processing that the men who may have raised them was not their biological father. Some of these mothers are teaching their children to always ask whoever they date if they were ever conceived by a donor. These mothers now wrestle with conflicting emotions - the fact that they were betrayed, taken advantage of, and used to fulfill a man's god-complex, while also finally having a child or children that they love with all of their hearts who were a result of a violating situation.
These two men share two other things in common: they have both argued that they were "helping" these women. That these women came to them in need and that they were engaging in philanthropy and giving them what these women wanted. That they should be grateful.
And that they were interested in contributing to the white race. In addition to Meijer's comments in "spreading white seed", Jacoba, one of the child victims of fertility fraud/the reproductive rape of her mother by Donald Cline, described how he was using her mother as a pawn repeatedly to fulfill religious, male supremacist, and white supremacist ideals to spread the white race.
Now, look:
Presently there are little to no regulations or legal enforcement in preventing men from committing fertility fraud/this form of sexual violation and reproductive exploitation of women. There are little to no consequence for men substantially altering the genetic pool and using women as chattel and children as genetic products. In fact, Meijer was the first case in which a judge placed restrictions on male reproductive autonomy as a consequence for causing sexual, psychological, and evolutionary harm.
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🌻Sunflower 🌻
It's a very good flower. The seasonal depression is kicking my ass but we take small victories where we can get them. Is an unusually warm Michigan winter scary? A little. But I get to wear this cute little fit. Small victories.
Maya Kern skirts continue to be a wardrobe staple time and time again. The deep pockets on these bad boys make carrying a purse unnecessary but I make an exception for my favorite sunflower purse made by Morning Witch.
Top: Old Navy
Duster: Torrid
Skirt: @mayakern @sergle
Bag: @morningwitchy
Boots: Meijers (When the ancient texts were first written)
#plus size fashion#fat fashion#geanbean#fat positvity#body positive#outfit of the day#fatshion#altfashion#fat queer#maya kern#sergle#morningwitch
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Could you reshare your shoplifting tips
I can't find it so here's a new list for you:
Identify appropriate targets. The ideal store to shoplift from will generally be a large, understaffed, moderately failing business. Walgreens right now is experiencing a huge uptick in shoplifting because its prices are too high and it doesn't have enough staff. Most of the time when I walk into my local Walgreens they don't even have enough staff to have anybody at the registers, let alone to keep an eye on the door. Usually I'm more subtle than this, but at some moments you can literally just walk out the door. Other good shoplifting targets are places like Dollar Tree, Dollar General, CVS, Aldi, non-fancy grocery stores, Meijer, places like that. Be more careful with small businesses. Be more careful with Target, or anywhere with security at the front. Neighborhoods matter too. Wealthy white neighborhoods are more heavily policed and if you stand out as visibly poor in an area where most aren't, you'll have more eyes on you.
Stake out the place. Visit the shoplifting target a variety of times, under a variety of conditions. Notice the ebb and flow of the space -- when does it get busy, when are there are a lot of staff on the floor, when are the lines really long. Check out the exits and the flow of human traffic. Pay some attention to security cameras, but don't assume that they're all even real, or being watched by an actual human. Many stores have fake cameras or only check the footage after there's been an Event. With experience, you will get better at sensing when is a good time to lift, and when not.
Steal at busy times. It's easiest to slip in and out unnoticed, especially without having bought anything, if you go at a time when there's a large traffic flow. You generally don't have to worry about customers ratting you out, unless you're in a very Karen-y neighborhood.
Carry or wear something you can subtly slip items into. I prefer using a tote bag that I act like I'm shopping into. It's very easy and casual to just place items in the bag, readjust the bag so that nothing can be seen poking out of the top, and then stroll out. (Sometimes after buying a few items, sometimes not). I have also used the side pockets on a backpack, or just my pockets. The key is to put items away in a relaxed manner, and to not obviously overstuff yourself. Don't bring TOO big of a bag, don't fill up your pockets TOO much. Keep it very light and subtle.
Avoid being sus. Don't spend a full hour in the grocery store. Don't circle the same two aisles over and over again visibly holding an item you're looking to take. Don't look around suspiciously at the cameras or the staff.
Act bored. This is my NUMBER ONE TIP to avoid being told you're not supposed to do something, whether it's tresspassing on a property, shoplifting, vandalizing, or just using the restroom you wanna use as a trans person. ACT BORED. Act tired and vaguely annoyed and like this is your last errand at the end of a long day and that you've been to this shop a million times before. People are far more likely to ignore you if you seem both relaxed and like you're too weary and over it to be even worth looking at. You can move at a decent pace, still, so long as you treat it like an errand you're just trying to Get Over With so you can get home and chill out.
have fun!!
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Listeria outbreak heads up.
The USDA also confirmed this week that the products have been distributed to schools and says it will post a school distribution list on its website once one is available.
The recalled products include salads, wraps, pasta bowls, burritos, enchiladas and many other ready-made frozen and family meals, and come from brands including Fresh Express, Rao’s, Boston Market, Atkins, Dole, ReadyMeals, Taylor Farms, Home Chef and Signature Select.
The stores that carry them include Aldi, Amazon Fresh, Giant Eagle, H-E-B, Kroger, Meijer, Publix, Target, Trader Joe’s, Walmart, Wegmans and 7-Eleven.
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A major recall over pre-cooked meat and meals. Definitely check your freezer and the list if you shop at any of the brands or stores they're listing:
The recalled products include salads, wraps, pasta bowls, burritos, enchiladas and many other ready-made frozen and family meals, and come from brands including Fresh Express, Rao’s, Boston Market, Atkins, Dole, ReadyMeals, Taylor Farms, Home Chef and Signature Select. The stores that carry them include Aldi, Amazon Fresh, Giant Eagle, H-E-B, Kroger, Meijer, Publix, Target, Trader Joe’s, Walmart, Wegmans and 7-Eleven.
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Hey,
The recalled products include salads, wraps, pasta bowls, burritos, enchiladas and many other ready-made frozen and family meals, and come from brands including Fresh Express, Rao’s, Boston Market, Atkins, Dole, ReadyMeals, Taylor Farms, Home Chef and Signature Select.
The stores that carry them include Aldi, Amazon Fresh, Giant Eagle, H-E-B, Kroger, Meijer, Publix, Target, Trader Joe’s, Walmart, Wegmans and 7-Eleven.
The affected goods were produced between May 31 and Oct, 8 and bear the establishment numbers “51205” or “P-51205” either inside or underneath the USDA mark of inspection. But BrucePac cautioned that the number is only on packages it ships directly to customers, not retail packages.
“Because we sell to other companies who resell, repackage, or use our products as ingredients in other foods, we do not have a list of retail products that contain our recalled items,” the company said in a statement, adding that the best way for people to identify contaminated products is through the USDA website or by calling the company or retailer from which they got the package.
The USDA is maintaining a list of recalled products — which is 345 pages long as of Wednesday — and urging people to use the search function to look up individual products, stores and brands and throw away any that they may have at home.
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Prior to starting to make my own pizza sauce, I used to use Rao's, which is the best jarred pizza sauce I've found, and I still use it sometimes. In the last year or so, Rao's started making frozen pizza, and I really wanted to try it, but it had a quite limited distribution and I could never find any in Chicago.
But it appears Meijer now carries it, so while I don't get grocery delivery very often anymore, I did make a special order from Meijer that included one, and I finally got to try it!
It's...I mean, there's only so much you can expect from a frozen pizza. It's fine, but it's not any better than any other frozen pizza out there, about on a level with DiGiorno. I wouldn't go out of my way to procure it again, but if I saw it in the store I'd probably pick it above most other brands. A bit anticlimactic after my year-long quest to acquire it, but at least now I know!
[ID: Two images of a Rao's frozen pizza; one, right after baking, showing crisped pepperoni, a LOT of seasoning on the cheese, and some grease. The second image shows a close-up of a single slice cut out of the pizza, showing the generous sauce (which is really vrey good) and the melted cheese.]
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some of my childhood stuffed animals!!!
let’s go!!! nostalgia time!!!
first up we will look at all the webkinz (except for my frogs bc those ones are on a shelf)
there was this lil store in town that would sell webkinz for cheaper than meijers, so if i got good grades or something my mom would take me there and let me choose 2! but meijers always had a better selection so sometimes we would go there, but they were more expensive so i could only get 1.
lil kinz grey n white cat my beloved… i got her from my aunt for christmas one year :’) first ever webkinz, i was so excited!!
my mom hated the mohawk puppy because she thought mohawks were a sin
the signature clouded leopard introduced me to the animal and i was obsessed with them for a while!
the clydesdale horse is kinda special! my dad got it for me from ebay :) he normally never got me stuffed animals because he thinks they’re a waste of money. i also thought it was cool, because the internet was new to me, and i didn’t know you could buy stuff online!
not going into details about the traumatic event obviously but it’s kinda funny, because basically i had to pack a bag super quick and i spent forever deciding which plush to take with me lol (i think i was in shock or something, because i was not thinking clearly)
okay that was a lot of plushies… now i am tired… oof.
claw machine prize time!
i love claw machines, i would play them all the time! my favorite was this little one at little caesar’s in the next town over. the machine was really easy to win! i also remember walmart used to have a bunch of claw machines!
not going through the whole box, because most of them aren’t very interesting.
my first ever claw machine win is the little angry tiger! i was probably 4?? and it was at walmart. my dad moved the claw into position and i pressed the button :) i was so excited!!!!
the black and white bunny was a win from the little caesar’s i mentioned earlier. i loved it! the plush is super soft and good quality. normally claw machines have cheap toys so i was impressed!
the carrot farmer bunny is super cool! she originally had a straw hat, but the claw ripped it off :( i was never able to get it…. but that’s okay! also one of her legs is sewn on backwards. weird. but i still think she’s super cute!
next is miscellaneous plushies
i am even more tired now, so i’m not going through the entire box… sorry
these are mostly from garage sales! some of them were bought brand new though (and those ones were always so cool to me)!
i loved that chipmunk so much. i carried him with me around the house and i would sleep with him every night. i got him from the zoo on a field trip! i remember there was so many plushies, it was hard to choose just 1! unfortunately i did puke on him once, so my dad put him in the washer then dryer. when i saw him after he came out of the dryer i was so upset. he’s different! i hate change. i cried. he’s not soft anymore. i still loved him though, because it’s not his fault that his fur got messed up.
i don’t remember where the white dragon is from, but she’s so cool! i’ve heard it could be worth money but idk.
okay i’m done. super tired now. gonna sleep on the floor. goodnight <3
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Marshall Merchandise Update... Kinda.
Okay, so... funny story. Do any of you remember that merchandise update I made near the beginning of the year? The one where I said my aunt found some items of Marshall, so she bought them for me as a Christmas gift? One was a plush of Mighty (Movie) Marshall, which I said I already owned, and the other was that cube plush of Charger from Rubble & Crew (she thought it was Marshall because of the red hat). Well...
As it turns out, I was wrong about something!
It's not the same plush after all! I mean, it's basically the same style, yet one's slightly smaller and has a plastic nose. I didn't realize it at the time, but placing them side-by-side, it's quite obvious now. Huh... I'm pretty sure these were released around the same time, so I wonder why they made two different versions? The left's from Walmart, while I think the other's from Meijer. How interesting...
While I'm here, I might as well show off a brand new item I found.
This is... er... dang, why do I have such bad luck with cameras? I keep saying I'll break down and buy myself a better one someday, and... well, I probably could, if I stopped buying so much merchandise of Marshall. Hang on, maybe if I turn the flash off, that'll...
...oh my. Alright, back to my $40 TracFone cellphone camera.
Well, that's... better. Still not the results I was hoping for, but it'll have to do. In any case, this is a brand new item I found recently at a Meijer. I suppose this is what we'll get from now on, instead of those True Metal vehicles? Admittedly, I thought "Pup Squad" was something specifically for The Mighty Movie, but I see the merchandise is carrying on with that branding. I don't think they've actually said pup squad in the TV series, unless it was mentioned somewhere in the Mighty Movie (I still haven't seen it, so I've no idea).
One last item, which is...
...a common Marshall figurine and his firetruck? Wait, don't I own one already? Ah, I do... but I found a bunch of these at a flea market for $2.50, so I thought it'd be fun to have one in its original, undamaged, unopened packaging! Admittedly, I was hoping it was one of the first toys of him released back in 2013, but the copyright info instead says it's from 2019. Ah well, it still looks rather nice!
Of course... it'll look much better without that big sticker. Geez, did they have to make it so big? Stickers like that tend to be difficult to remove, since they come apart so easy and leave sticky residue.
Thankfully, I was able to get it off just fine, due to taking my time and whatnot. It pretty much looks good as new now! Of course, now I just need to find a spot for it...
...Someday.
...Eventually.
Oh, speaking of finding a spot for something...
My aunt recently gave me this small display case, and I thought about incorporating it somewhere in my collection. Perhaps I can use it to house some of my favorite and/or rare pieces of merchandise, like that hard-to-find Christmas ornament from 2016? It's kind of big, so I've no idea where I can put it yet, but I'll find a spot for it...
...Someday.
...Eventua- okay, I'll try to find a spot for it before the third movie releases in 2026, I swear! lol
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A Dutch man suspected of fathering more than 550 children worldwide through sperm donations has been ordered to stop.
The man named Jonathan, aged 41, could be fined more than €100,000 (£88,000) if he tries to donate again.
He was banned from donating to fertility clinics in the Netherlands in 2017 after it emerged he had fathered more than 100 children.
But instead of stopping he carried on donating sperm abroad and online.
A court in The Hague has told him to provide a list of all the clinics he had used and to order them to destroy his sperm.
The man was said to have misled hundreds of women.
Dutch clinical guidelines state that a donor should not father more than 25 children in 12 families.
They are asked to limit the number of times they offer their services, to reduce the chance that siblings might unknowingly form a couple and have children together.
But judges said the man had helped produce between 550 and 600 children since he began donating sperm in 2007.
He was taken to court by a foundation protecting donor children's rights, and by the mother of one of the children allegedly fathered from his sperm.
"The point is that this kinship network with hundreds of half-brothers and half-sisters is much too large," a spokesman for the court, Gert-Mark Smelt, said.
Over 100 of the children fathered by the man were born in Dutch clinics and others privately, but he also donated to a Danish clinic which dispatched his semen to addresses in various countries.
Judge Thera Hesselink said the court "prohibits the defendant from donating his semen to new prospective parents after the issuing of this judgment".
The man is also not permitted to contact any prospective parents "with the wish that he was willing to donate semen… advertise his services to prospective parents or join any organisation that establishes contact between prospective parents", the judge said.
The donor "deliberately misinformed" prospective parents about the number of children he had already fathered in the past, the district court in The Hague said.
"All these parents are now confronted with the fact that the children in their family are part of a huge kinship network, with hundreds of half-siblings, which they did not choose," it said.
The court said it was "sufficiently plausible" that this has or could have negative psychosocial consequences for the children.
The donor, Jonathan Jacob Meijer:
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I think the jelly always went on the top for me (both the way my mom made it and the way I do it now) is because if you make it ahead of time for lunch and stick it in the fridge, if the jelly is on the bottom it can seep through the bread and make it sticky on the bottom; the peanut butter isn't moist enough to do that.
#i like them pre-made and refrigerated#not only does the bread get nice and moist from absorbing some of the jelly#but it makes the peanut butter less sticky#which reminds me#i couldn't find the peter pan peanut butter at meijers the other day#i saw the other brands#must look it up on their website to see if they still carry it or not#i know i've gotten it there in the past
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life advice: if pretending you're a video game character on a fetch quest makes it easier to run errands, do that. if pretending you're an adventure hero makes it easier to walk around downtown, do that. if pretending you're a sitcom character gets you through your boring job, do that. if carrying a book everywhere like rory gilmore makes it easier to take the train, do that.
it's not illegal to play pretend as an adult. do it
anyway i had to run to meijer for energy drinks, walmart for aspirin, the dispensary for weed, and costco for liquid iv yesterday. combining all 4 of those things in one water bottle feels like making a health potion so driving all over to get them feels like a quest. fun af
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AN ALTERNATE CRIME VERSE.... THE WITCH OF WHISPERS, WILL SEE YOU NOW 𓆩 ' 𝘢 𝘴𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘩𝘪𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘭𝘴
when zoya’s grisha power reveals itself to her on her wedding day in defense of lilyana instead of being rushed off to the capital she returns to novokribirsk with her aunt. it is there that they formulate a plan to send her to os kervo to begin an apprenticeship with an herbalist there. by the age of thirteen they have saved up enough money to send zoy. a away and she begins her journey to the port city. she does not last as an apprentice for long, her eyes were always set on the true sea and where it could take her. she began to save up money to book passage aboard a ship but eventually she grew impatient and at the rate she was saving it would be years before she could leave the city. a year passes, and when she is fourteen she finally builds up the courage to sneak aboard a trade vessel headed to kerch. when she arrives in ketterd. am she has the little money she has saved up and a collection of kerch words she had gathered from her instructor in os kervo. it was scarcely enough to get her around but it was just the right amount for her to stay at a halfway house and gather her bearings.
they begin to think her ghezen-touched... two years have passed and she is a long-sought after asset. this was not an overnight success though it had started as an accident after lingering around the exchange for longer than usual she had begun to hear whispers... of the very interesting sort. talk of shares and the flow of money none of it was luck though many of the traders spoke of it like it was such. glorified gambling, some men went to the tables in the barrel and others came here to these hallowed halls to do the same. she was privy to where the kruge would land by using her summoning to manipulate acoustics she was able to find out what shares were being bought and sold long before anyone else. in learning the value of the information she could provide she began to monetize her services under the guise of “financial advising”. her business grew but so did the target on her back as she was a young girl living alone in a foreign city. many attempts to kidnap her and force her to perform her services free of charge were made, though unsuccessfully. this is when she meets felix meijer, a kerch merchant with ties to the zemeni jurda trade.
enter, the hidden sapphire of ketterdam. she is eighteen and living in the meijer mansion in the financial district at the height of luxury. in the years prior she had gotten close to the merchant in hopes to uncover the unsavory about his trade ties and it was not long before she did. the grisha girl had found that he was selling the jurda he was receiving from overseas at a higher rate than agreed upon thus pocketing a hefty sum in his name while paying off his partners the lesser agreed upon percentage of the earnings. zoya used this information as blackmail and in exchange for keeping meijer’s secret he would set her up in his home and give her the title of mistress. this new status would allow her a certain degree of protection and let the other traders know that there would be consequences if harm were to come to her. it gives her more freedom than a marriage and also allows her some degree of mobility in ketterdam high society. she carries on this way for years no longer using her talents for anyone outside of meijer’s circle though she will consider lending her services to the highest bidder...
⊹ CURRENT WHEREABOUTS: zoya is in the process of cutting out the middleman. her arrangement with meijer is beginning to prove more trouble than it is worth. she currently is attending ketterdam university studying economics but also befriending the sons and daughters of merchants from all over the world. this is also her way of beginning to establish her own network outside of the financial district. she is finding a way to doctor meijer's will so all his assets will be left to her upon his death. before orchestrating his murder she begins to blackmail the house staff and security with her gathered secrets slowly changing the loyalty of those in her direct environment.
* IT IS IMPERATIVE HER STATUS AS GRISHA REMAIN A SECRET IN THIS VERSE OR IT RISKS TAKING DOWN THE WHOLE OF HER OPERATION.
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feeble
Sadie’s feeble limbs don’t carry her far anymore.
Thirty-six has never been as old as it is now, in the middle of March, just for her. Daniel insists they’re still young, but he’s trying too hard. Maybe they could have been young at thirty-six. Maybe. But that was before. Before they had three children, before they had jobs, before they put Sam in the ground not three months ago. It was all before.
She thought ordinary chores would feel like nothing. Breathing. Second nature. All those metaphors that feel useful until you can’t move anymore – until all you can do is lie in bed with the same reruns of The Brady Bunch electrically glowing before you. Cindy’s play, Marcia’s nose, Peter’s voice. When it’s time to change, you’ve got to rearrange. Not so easy when you’re alone. Not so easy at all.
Daniel says she’s not alone, that it breaks him whenever she says so. Just because she’s not a twin anymore, doesn’t mean –
She never lets him finish. The first half is bad enough.
He’ll never know what this is like. He can sit there and talk a mile a minute about how much it would hurt him if he ever lost his sister, but it would never be the same. Losing any sibling would rip your heart out, but losing your twin? Sadie thinks she’s breathing, but every now and then, she doubts it. She is a guest in her own body.
She’s supposed to shop for groceries. Kroger, Meijer, more stores that don’t have an apostrophe S after them, actually. She’s supposed to do everything a mother should, everything a wife should. She just can’t. If she stays away from her bedroom for more than three hours a day, it’s a win.
But it’s a win for everyone else.
She doesn’t want to be out here.
It seems unfair to be part of a life that Sam can’t see. Even if he’s in heaven, he can’t load up on cheap chips and salsa before a movie anymore. He can’t charleston or waltz clog or paint his niece’s nails and it doesn’t make sense. Why would anyone take that away from him? It’s not even about Sadie anymore. It’s about how Sam hates not being here. She knows it.
Maybe she’ll try getting out of bed for a minute. Just try dusting around the TV in her bedroom like she would have before. Like always.
Time words just don’t mean anything.
She closes her eyes and lets syndication echo all around her.
Adios, Johnny Bravo.
(part of @nosebleedclub november challenge -- day 13!)
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