#carmilla my mother

[sirlancevrot]

there will soon be art by carmilla and zestal + "notre dame de paris" 😈

[vaggieslefteye]

Appreciating Hazbin Hotel's Character Expressions ↳ ʟᴜᴄɪꜰᴇʀ ᴍᴏʀɴɪɴɢꜱᴛᴀʀ in 1x05 - "Dad Beat Dad"

[uselessalexis165]

i just thought these felt similar to me

[aimasup]

Ranking Hazbin Songs + Characters with my brother

Hazbin Hotel songs:

Hazbin Hotel characters:

sacrifices had to be made with this one 😔 we don't outright dislike any of the characters, they're all neat

This was tons of fun! btw the pics are arranged in descending order

(Song rank template by strwbrry, character rank template by GayguySorin, done on tiermaker.com)

@theshipminer

[zurdurer]

Have you drawn Dr. Carmilla??

I just love her SOO MUCH

Yk what I have never drawn her properly, allow me to amend for my sins

Honestly pretty good practice for Dr Carmilla week..

[ifthestarsarewilling]

i need to be adopted by doctor carmilla like. right now

[that-hashtag-bitch]

Ok, that Carmilla carmines a BITCH but hear me out-

HEAR ME OUT

<3<3<3

[lilythdaemon]

My fucking god, this song is playing on loop on my mind. I changed Carmilla's skirt for a more tutu shape, and tried to make her point shoes more realistic (as realistic as a leg length point shoe can be), and NO we are not taking about those hands.

[continuousmeowing]

i would trust dr. carmilla to give me top surgery.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

danny talking about how resentful she became when nobody who she self-sacrificed for cared when she died and then leaving kirsch with laura and carmilla bc "if he stays with me i might lose control again and kill him" kinda confirms my thoughts abt both newly-turnedness and anger making vampires more vampiry

but also makes me think that in more usual circumstances, when the dean turned vampires like carmilla and mattie, that shes really nice at the start to temper any of that unruly anger

[guronffs]

Happy Mother's Day!

To celebrate Mother's Day, I'd like to give a shout-out to the moms in my Hellaverse Alternate Continuity.

Millie, who pushed through fear and uncertainty to have two children she would do anything for.

Lin, who was able to do one of the strongest things imaginable, admitting the flaws of her parenting and apologizing to her children.

Amanda Burke, who shows that just because someone isn't your own blood doesn't mean they aren't family.

Ophelia, who was able to redeem herself and win back not just her son but her son-in-law as well.

Tilla, who, despite the circumstances she was in, still loved her children to her death. And here are the list of some of the moms we have yet to see in this AU of mine, as well as the would-be moms. Carmilla Carmine Lilith Morningstar Sera Seraphim Charlie Magne & Vagatha Reyes While you're here, be sure to check out the HVAC series! HBAC HHAC

[sirlancevrot]

spring has come and that's why i decided to give my mommy a light mood

[vaggieslefteye]

Appreciating Hazbin Hotel's Character Expressions ↳ ᴄᴀʀᴍɪʟʟᴀ ᴄᴀʀᴍɪɴᴇ in 1x03 - "Scrambled Eggs"

[gctchell]

@arachnaemboss asked: there's a bouquet of black hell-roses placed on carmilla's desk, neatly packed and with a handwritten note beholding his seal. "happy mother's day. -z."

There are not many events in the year which Carmilla considers worthy enough to take off time for (employees being a different matter entirely), but Mother's Day is always right there at the top beneath two birthdays. It's only now at this hour when she's returned home, shelling her purse to rest from the ivory coat hanger at the door marked with blessed tips in it bone, and that is when she spots the dark bouquet in her peripheral.

She scarcely needs to guess where they might have come from, but lifting the note for inquiry and finding that familiar wax seal puts her at ease all the same - more than a note from anyone else would. All the light buzzing from stimulation in the busy world beyond her company doors quiets with the lift of her smile.

Her chair swivels beneath her weight, hands bringing the black roses close to breathe in and rest against her chest amongst the glowing white loops of jewelry. She turns to face the floor length windows, gazing out as the red light of Pride grows dimmer and dimmer in the sky. The world quietly tells her it's time for the routine phone call soon. She thinks he'll enjoy hearing about the day all three of them had.. Perhaps next time, he might tag along.

[infernal-feminae]

@originemesis replied: Don't worry. I'll get'em next time. <3

MOTHERFUCKER-

[majorshatterandhare]

[ID: two screencaps of tags from dark mode

First Image: tags from ×-caliber reading “#guys it's called UNRELIABLE NARRATING all caps: unreliable narrating] # shes NOT [all caps: not] evil #jonny just views her in a certain light" Second Image: tags from ceaseless-ramblerand x-caliber.

Tags from ceaseless-rambler read "#this is such a hard fucking poll because do you love her or hate her' the answer is YES [all caps: yes] #she's great but the fucking morality switch destroys me every time i think about it because. morality switch. what the fuck. #but also. gestures wildly in her direction. you understand? #doctor carmilla #the mechanisms."

Tags from x-caliber read '#prev has a great elaboration actually #bevause i answered thinking only about the unreliable narration that made people think she's evil #but i didn't actually think as far about her ACTIONS [all caps: actions] #now i do think that she had good intentions with the morality switch #that doesn't make it any less fucked up however"

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Okay in regards to this poll I'm going to do some Doc Carmilla analysis because I don't like having back and forth conversations in tags. This is long, I couldn't really find a way to cut it down

The biggest thing that fucks me up about her is Brian's morality switch. The concept of a morality switch at all is horrifying to me, taking that control away from someone. Brian's about page on the mechanisms website says the reasoning was because Doctor Carmilla found it "amusing" which. Makes me hate it even more. @x-ca1iber pointed out the fact that Jonny is an unreliable narrator, which is a good point. However, I doubt Jonny wrote everyone's bio and I don't think either morality mode would really let Brian lie about it, lying is wrong and I can't come up with ends that would justify it. Brian could be wrong about reasoning, of course, but I'm not sure why he would be. Because a lot of that second half is speculation, *please* let me know if there's anything to agree or disagree with any of it.

The two other things that make me not willing to chalk all of anti-Doctor Carmilla sentiment up to unreliable narration and character misinterpretation are the end of this video and near the end of Lashings. The first video shows Jonny cut the music and, sounding somewhat frantic, ask Carmilla what she's going to do about being thrown out the airlock. When she doesn't respond, he backs away and accuses her of planning something. This is something that isn't attributable to unreliable narration because the premise there isn't that it's a retelling but an actual event occurring. Also, the way Jonny is on edge, expecting her to do something but not knowing what/when and having to just kind of act like it's fine really makes me read it as a bad relationship for him. The end of the Lashings performance shows Nastya stressed about various other things and Doctor Carmilla coming up behind her and hugging her. Nastya visibly tenses and remains as such for the entire interaction. I've seen people argue that this was due to the aforementioned various other things, and it could very much be that! This is definitely my least compelling piece of evidence. But it's worth noting that Doctor Carmilla doesn't back off from the hug and remains sort of in Nastya's face until Nastya steps away. The situation is either Nastya being generally uncomfortable with physical contact at that moment (or in general) and Carmilla not caring, or Nastya being distrustful of her in general. Either way doesn't reflect well on their relationship.

None of this is to say that I think she's trying to cause them harm. She does see them as her kids, in her own way. The only other close relationship she had that I'm aware of is Lorelai (please let me know if you have any more information on this! I'm always open to corrections) and that wasn't exactly healthy. She could very well not know any other way to treat them, and I really do think she meant well. The problem with meaning well is that is doesn't change the ramifications of your actions. The best of intentions don't change the fact that you hurt people. This is, in my opinion, especially prominent in parental figures, which she is.

That is all about her as a person, though. As a character? She's fantastic. Trans lesbian vampire scientist with dubious ethics? Great!!! And all of the things I just talked about that make me dislike her as a person make me love her as a character. That disparity is what makes it really hard to answer the poll I linked at the beginning, because holy fuck morality switch but I love her as a character

Tags that inspired this under the cut