#capitalism rlly popped off with that one

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Looking fresh!

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𝐚 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭'𝐬 𝐚 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐲 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐧 | 𝐣𝐨𝐬𝐡𝐮𝐚 𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐟𝐢𝐞𝐥𝐝

𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫

warnings : not rlly proofread :|

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warnings : not rlly proofread :|

notes : none

Waloed's seas were harsh unforgiving unlike the calm familiar waters that surrounded the Holy Empire. Despite you feeling the most at peace when near water something in you felt dread being in these unfamiliar waves, Joshua could tell. "You're nervous, aren't you?" He asked walking to your side as you stood on the upper decks of the Enterprise watching the ocean. You hummed in reply, "Yes, I am. The closer we get to Ash the worse I feel. Waloed...I feel as if something terrible will happen there." You confessed, maybe you were overthinking things. Joshua placed his hands on top of yours and shook his head, "Everything will be okay. You need to rest love, your lack of sleeping has been messing with your head." He offered a smile trying to comfort you. Sighing you agreed with him, "Yes perhaps you're right. A lot has happened I'm very overwhelmed as of late." You offered him a weak smile as you pushing your hair out of your face. "It's to be expected. I'll join you later I'm going to talk to Clive for a bit." He said leaning down to press a delicate kiss to your lips before you left to go to bed. Instantly falling asleep as soon as your head hit the plush pillow.

The morning came and so did the time for you to depart the ship and begin making your way through Ash to the capital.

You held your lance tightly in your hand anticipating that something would pop out and attack as you followed behind the group. Your eyes scanned the horizon, head on a constant swivel. At this rate following the cliff side to the capital would take weeks and it seemed as if Gav read your mind. "It'll be a long walk if we follow the cliffs. I'll go on ahead, scout somethin' out." He said rushing ahead. You paused noticing the tension between Clive and Joshua shift, Torgal grunted looking up at you. You made eye contact with the two brothers and coughed clearing your throat, "I'll look ahead also, come Torgal." You said clicking your tongue at the wolf, walking past the two brothers. Torgal whined at Clive, "Go on boy." He commanded.

Torgal trailed walked next to you, as you wondered aimlessly along the jagged cliff walls. Nothing was of note, just greenery and rocks. "Something's off with em, don't you think?" You mumbled looking at Torgal next to you. He whined in response before yawning. You laughed, taking it as he agreed with you, "Guess we'll leave them be and just wait for Gav." You smiled leaning down to pat Torgal's head. His fur was soft and dense, he was obviously a well maintained wolf. Torgal nuzzled into your hand his tail wagging back and forth, he then nosed at the satchel that was around your waist. You clicked your tongue wagging a finger in the wolf's face, "Ah you're just being sweet to me to con me out of some food, sneaky dog." You scolded half heartedly. Torgal barked in reply. Sighing you reached into the satchel pulling out a dried meat stick breaking it in half and giving one half to Torgal and the other you ate. Torgal seemed mildly satisfied with the treat and rubbed his head on the side of your leg, no doubt begging for more but you wouldn't give in despite how adorable you found him. "Oi, Princess whatcha doing over here?" Gav asked he climbed down the cliff's face. You shrugged, "Killing time. Seemed like Joshua wanted to talk to Clive and the tension was killin me." You replied watching the blond man walk towards you. He sighed tossing his hands up, "They got lots to talk about I assume. Ah well let's go on back to them I found a way." He grinned stepping aside so you could lead the way.

     As Clive and Joshua came back into view Torgal rushed towards them barking at the pair. You noticed something had shifted between the two the tension that was there had disappeared, you raised a brow looking at the blond. "Did I miss something?" Gav asked his eyes darting between the two men. Joshua and Clive exchanged laughs as they walked past Gav, "Only that Joshua didn't." Clive chuckled. Gav looked at you, "I don't get it." He mumbled, you shook your head shrugging your shoulders, "Me neither." You said turning to follow Joshua.

~•••~

     Waloed was quiet but you still didn't let down your guard, you didn't know if Barnabas or this Ultima being were lurking in the shadows waiting for a chance to pounce so you stayed close by Joshua's side. Not much banter happened between the four of you it wasn't until you walked into the first village where you finally spoke, "What happened here?" You asked in disbelief voice barely above a whisper. The village was deserted and the town reeked of death—yet you saw no death— it was odd. Crows and vultures circled the sky above screeching as the group entered the town. Clive paused drawing his sword as did Joshua and Gav. You immediately took a defensive stance, lance in front of you. "I knew it. Only orcs and Akashic are here." Joshua hissed through gritted teeth as the first group of fiends came rushing forward. A switch flipped in your head and your body automatically went into survival mode as you swung you lance striking down on any enemy who dared approach you. Your lance was enveloped in water so each time you slashed a sharp wave would follow slicing and knocking the enemy down. Finally it seemed like the enemy was taken care of and it was then you noticed just how desolate Waloed was. "Do you think the villagers made it out?" You asked. "We can only hope." Clive responded.

After more trekking through the rough terrain and into a small cave you finally made it out on the other side but the sound of monsters groaning and screeching made it apparent that you all were not in the clear. Peering over the cliff side you gasped taking a step back. Hoarders of Akashic and ocrs surrounded the stronghold. You covered your mouth with your hand in disbelief. "Has all of Ash fallen into Ultima's hands?" Clive asked seemingly also in disbelief, he had taken the words right out of your mouth. Joshua stared solemnly at the hoard below, something in his brilliant blue eyes had shifted. "Are we too late?" You asked. "No, perhaps Stonehyrr still stands?" Gav suggested with a half hearted laugh. It was callous but you knew the scout was probably right. Clive brushed off your comments, "We continue onto Stonehyrr. The plan hasn't changed." He said moving past you and Joshua. He seemed determined as always, nothing seemed to deter him. "Wait Clive. You must go on without ______ and I. This stronghold is perhaps more ancient than Phoenix Gate. I wish to investigate it, it may shed some light on Ultima if we are to defeat him." Joshua explained. Clive seemed to contemplate for a minute a trouble expression washing over his tanned face for a brief moment before he nodded slowly, "Alright. Just stay out of trouble." He offered a weak smile at the blond. Joshua nodded returning the smile, "I always do at least mostly. Come ______ let's be on our way." He said. "Right!" You replied following after Joshua.

You followed closely behind Joshua as you two walked down the dark steep stairs of the Stronghold; a ball of flames being the only thing that illuminated the way. The stronghold radiated an ancient aura it seemed like Joshua thought the same also, "I knew it. This is as old as Phoenix Gate if not older. I pray we find some answers." He commented looking around in fascination. You hummed in reply, "Mhmm. Say, Joshua what did you and Clive talk about earlier?" You asked curiously as you gazed at the back of his head. He paused slowly turning to look up at you as he stood on the bottom steps, "He took Jill's Eikon. That's why she didn't come with us." He plainly said. You were taken aback and balled fist came to chest, "What? He forcibly took it from here? But why? Is that what he did to Dion also?" You asked the panic rising in your voice. Joshua waved his hands in front of him trying to calm you down, "Jill willingly gave it to him. Dion, I do not know if he took all of his powers but I don't think Clive took them intentionally. It seems like when one is weak—vulnerable he can absorb their powers. I don't quite get it myself." He tried explaining but his uncertainty only made you more anxious. "Will he take mine too?" You asked voice barely above a whisper. You couldn't imagine a world without your Eikon; in your mind Leviathan was a vital part of your being it was your whole purpose! Having Leviathan taken from you, you would feel like a part of your soul and self worth would be ripped away. You were born with Leviathan and you'd die with her. Joshua shook his head placing his hands on your shoulders, "No no ______, I won't let him. I told him he can't take Leviathan from you." He said reassuring you that things would be okay. Your brows furrowed in sadness and you nodded slowly, "O..okay I trust you, Joshua." You mumbled. He nodded smiling as his hands removed themselves from your shoulders and up to cup your face, he placed a gentle kiss on your soft lips sealing the promise to protect you.

Finally you both came to the end of the staircase and door stood in front of you. Joshua stepped forward pushing the door open, the wooden door slowly creaked open as dust flew through the air. No one had been down here in a very long time; the air was stuffy and smelled stale. "______, stay here I'll be back." Joshua ordered as he stepped into the room the doors shutting behind him with a loud thud. You sighed pacing up and down the small hallway nervously awaiting for him to return. It seemed like hours had passed as you waited, you eventually opting to sit down and closing your eyes for a quick nap.

The sound of the doors creaking open shot you awake as you quickly got to your feet weapon in hand. Joshua stumbled out looking dazed. His eyes were glazed over and then you noticed crimson red liquid staining his mouth. "Joshua!" You shouted rushing towards him, wrapping your arms around him you pulled him to his knees as your eyes rapidly examined him. "Who attacked you?!" You asked as your hands pawed his body looking for a sign of a wound but there was none. He grabbed your wrist shaking his head, "No one. It's alright my love." He said voice hoarse and shakey. His hand left your wrist and you noticed blood staining the black leather gloves, it was the same spot where his hand was. You paid no mind instead reaching into your satchel pulling out a silly white embroidered handkerchief, reaching up you began to wipe the blood off his chin and mouth. "Your illness acted up?" You asked gently. "Mhm...sorry for worrying you." He replied quietly. You shook your head, " 'is okay. Here let me get your medicine." You said putting the handkerchief away and pulling out a small glass vile of medicine. Joshua took it swallowing the bitter mixture, his mind kept flashing to things he had discovered in the room. He couldn't even manage to meet your gaze afraid to tell you the truth. "What happened in there? Did you get some answers?" You asked. He shook his head once again, blond hair falling in front of his face, "I'm still trying to decipher it. Come let's go find the others." He avoided the question standing to his feet. You watched him get to his feet and you couldn't help but feel like he was lying to you. Then the building shook and you heard rumbling from above, "let's hurry before this place collapses." You muttered standing to your feet while adjusting your satchel. You began climbing the stairs following closely behind Joshua, his ball of flames seemed to glow more dimly. "Oh, ______ please don't tell Clive." He said. "Mhm." You hummed.

~•••~

A petite pregnant woman named Edda seemed to be sole survivor in all of Waloed it was strange. You sat by her side trying to comfort her offering her a glass of cold water but she was shell shocked traumatized by whatever horrors she had seen. She wouldn't lift her head instead gazing blankly at the wooden floorboards and holding her round belly. "I'm gonna leave the glass right here, okay?" You smiled warmly at her setting that water on the table before standing up and walking towards Joshua. He stared out the window at the intimidating tower that no doubt Clive was in. "Do you think he can kill Barnabas?" You hissed quietly. Greagor knows you'd do anything to have that man dead after what he did to you. The countless nights you spent waking in horror covered in sweat, the months you spent recovering both mentally and physically, and you couldn't forget that the man had forced you to use so much aether both times you encountered him that you had started the curse. Luckily it had only manifested at the tips of fingers on your right hand which stayed gloved for most of the time so you were able to keep it a secret for now at least.

Joshua looked at you from the corner of his eyes briefly not wanting to take his eyes off the tower. "I think he can. He's stronger than ever now." He sounded confident, "______, you never told me, why are you so fearful of Barnabas?" He asked quietly as to not alert the others. You placed your hands on the window sill, finger nails digging into the soft wood, a shakey breath left your mouth, "He nearly killed me it was forever ago but it still haunts me. At the time I did not know why he left me alive, he only said I needed to get stronger for Mythos. Which now I know Mythos is Clive. I was so scared to step back into a battlefield, my wounds were grievous and seemed to not want to heal despite be going to the healing waters of Leviathan. Odin's blade had burned itself into me. I couldn't sleep for weeks and weeks because of the pain mixed with nightmares. I used so much magic both times and couldn't even defeat him. I hate him for making me feel so weak and a laughing stock. I embarrassed both myself, the Dragoons, and Dion." You confessed. Joshua frowned and placed his gloved hand on top of yours, "______, you're too harsh on yourself. Dion isn't embarrassed of you for not being able to defeat Odin. That man—Barnabas he is no doubt fueled by Ultima giving him unnatural strength. Only Clive can defeat him that I'm sure of." He said squeezing your hand. You looked up at him smiling weakly, "Thank you Joshua." You said.

Clive's presence was announced by Torgal barking, Joshua quickly rushed to the door just as it opened. The brunette stepping in he walked to Joshua placing a firm hand on his shoulder, "It's a damn good sight to you Joshua. I'm alright." He said. Clive looked a little warn out but he was fine only looking like he got into a small scuffle, there truly was something special him. "Did you kill him?" You asked a bit overly excited. He turned to looked at you nodding, "Yes, the king is dead.". You nearly collapsed to the ground in relief, your palm resting over your heart, "Thank goodness. Thank you Clive." The weight of fear had been lifted off your chest now you nor anyone else would ever have to encounter that mad man again.

~•••~

The sun was beginning to set over the horizon when Edda finally spoke coming to terms slowly with what had happened. Gav had been hovering around her non stop, he seemed to have a soft spot of women especially ones that were in distress. Now that she seemed well enough to walk on her own she would be heading off back to the Enterprise, the blond scout guiding her. You had gathered a large satchel of items from her home, since you weren't sure when she'd be back. "Here are some of her belongings. Edda." You said placing the bag in Gav's arms before turning to face the dark haired woman, "I packed some portraits and things that seemed sentimental for you. I'm sorry I can't do more." You said. This wasn't the first time you had been through a town that had been ravaged and it wasn't your first time dealing with those in distress, you understood how to deal with these situations. She sniffled bowing her head, "Thank you Princess." She said. You waved your hands dismissively, "Please no need to address me so formally nor bow to me." You said awkwardly. "Alright let's go goin." Gav said waving goodbye to you three.

It was then Clive explained Barnabas' ambitions the meaning of him turning his own kingdom into ruin. You clenched your fist, "What a fool." You muttered spinning on your heel walking towards the capital without waiting for Joshua or Clive. You couldn't believe the king thought turning innocents into Akashic was a mercy, he was a man with wild ambitions to save the world and he fell into Ultima's trap.

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[minquiec]

regurgitation of my jipunk headcanons here heeheehaahaa

Might update these as I go but these are all I have so far

- post getting together jia listens to london boy religiously whenever she misses him

- jia is kind of communicatively constipated in terms of dating ie if she wants to hug she doesn't know how to ask so she kinda just stares him down but I have this hc where hobie is stupidly good at reading ppl so he gets it anyways (with some difficulty bc he doesn't understand right away but knows she wants smth) but he gets used to it over time HHHAHSNRRGKKKGJ

- he definitely does that thing when they hold hands and he puts it into his jacket pocket AARRGGGGHHHH

- she listens to mostly everything music wise but her genre is like leaning towards pop so sometimes he makes fun of her for it

--> probably goes on rants abt punk music but she just listens like yep yep :]

- hb brings over british chinese takeaway just to piss her off for fun

- good singer but can't do it in command gf x can't sing bf

- they're both good w kids (babysitter hours open 24/7)

- "You're so fucking annoying." "I know 😁"

(out grocery shopping)

- someone: why tf is everything so expensive

- at the same time:

"capitalism" "inflation"

- has an actual driving license gf x does not but illegally drives bf

- sometimes jia just goes and takes out the kids for a ride to visit places or shopping (for a taste of that normality y'know AUEGH)

- cat likers unite

- jia wants to hear the kids call her jie jie so badly (dead babysat kids things LELLL)

- they're both flexible but jia is significantly more flexible

- jia has BBBAAADDDD mood swings during period but hb is pretty well versed in what to do (don't ask how he just knows) so he's pretty accommodating when her emotions are out of wack

- hb loves simple intimacy like skin to skin contact like not even in a sexual way but it's where it could just be like a hand on her neck or when she's in looser clothes he'd just hold her waist under her shirt to feel the warm skin there. there's smth about the feeling of warmness under his hand that grounds him (tears are pouring out my eyes rn)

--> I saw this hc where he has this chronic pain bc of getting flung around and stuffs so imagine sometimes he just wordlessly heads over to her place unannounced cause the dull ache in his bones makes it hard to even think 🥲 he does it cause One: her world is a lot less chaotic and her apartment is pretty quiet (despite the awful traffic and noise pollution [it's cause she lives somewhere rlly high up in the building so it's kinda far away y'know])

And Two: bringing it back to the skin thing, while it doesn't make the pain go away it makes it a little more bearable 🕳️🤸

And Three: she's there to help and he knows it AAARRGRFHHEJKJRNNNENSJJW

The way they look at each other (when the other isn't looking back):

J:

She looks at him as if he's the sunrise or the stars. (Sees him as something so breathtaking, compared to natural beauty in the world ie sunset and stars.) Eyes bright and in wonder. Wide to take everything in as if she's scared to lose him when she closes her eyes again.

H:

Looks at her as if she's the ocean or afternoon sun in a house. (Sees her as something comforting, compared to mundane intimacy.) Eyes soft and relaxed. Often half lidded as he skims over her face to commit it to memory. (SIMILARITIES TO HOW CATS SQUINT THEIR EYES TO SHOW AFFECTION = WIDE EYES: ALERT, CLOSED EYES: TRUST.)

- hb isn't exactly like, protective cause he knows she can handle herself (esp when she goes around carrying that expanding metal staff of hers to smack anything and anyOne) but if he rlly wanted to, a good bonk over the head with his guitar never hurts anyone (except the idiot getting bonked)

- JIA ON THE OTHER HAND HAHSHAS she doesn't get jealous and isn't confrontational but she will side eye someone real hard if they start talking smack abt him HAHA and when they turn around she'll like pull this face and start shit talking them either in chn or to him

Starts looking like this BASLKWNSHAHAHAH

- doberman x orange cat (she's such an orange cat I'm sorry she's so dumb /affectionate)

- she has this obsession w his tummy for some bizarre reason cause she just thinks it's so cute❓‼️❓ like she would poke and prod at it and squish it and agagshshsb SHE JUST THINKS ITS SOSO CUTE CAUSE ITS SO SOFT AND SO WARM AND SHE JUST WANNA PET IT

- hb doesn't really get nervous or flustered a lot and so 98% of the time it's jia going asfdjkhj but he does get rlly nervy when she gets close to his chest cause his heart goes rlly fast around her 📈📈 and he thinks it's embarrassing and doesn't want her to hear ANNSSSKKFJJJEJKSJJDBBFKLLBE

- he does this thing where he like leaves guitar picks in strategic yet not strategic places around her apartment like he'd either put it in plain sight or hide it and he does it bc One. To tick her off when she finds it or smth and Two. He comes over alot anyways so he might as well cause you KNOW he's bringing his guitar everywhere so it'd probably be them sitting on her couch and he'll just pull a pick out from under her lamp??? And then start playing and she's just like ????? Where???

- he likes her hands a lot like he likes to hold it in his palm and just turn it over in his hands ☹️ cause her hands are obviously smaller and it's so cute to him but he just really like the way hands look ‼️‼️ cause he thinks hands are important in both literal and metaphorical sense so he appreciates them lots ALSO likes to kiss her hands a lot DIES AND EXPLODES like finger tips, palms, the back of her hands anywhere is free real estate 🔥 bites them too cause he's annoying like that /loving

- jia does this thing where she sometimes furrow her eyebrows tm and hb likes to

Like

Press his thumb against that middle space between the eyebrows ❓ to rub it flat ❓ (maybe kith it HAAUGEGGRGGR) and keeps reminding her to stop cause she's gon get a headache with all that muscle tension

- hb likes to do this DUMBASS thing where he'd just walk in to the bathroom even if she's using it

But the thing is he's not even like paying attention to her half the time he just

Doesn't care and likes to tick her off

And so he just barges in and jia would look up from her phone with a expression like this

- hb is currently rivalling and competing with the cat belonging to jia's neighbour for the first place spot of her affections LMAO he's rlly beefing w that cat cause jia babies it to the end of the earth

- smth I find cute is jia wears her watch like hb and idk why it makes me ehehgkrjdghfg cause in the movie he wears the interface on the inside of his wrist and so does jia bc LEARNING LITTLE HABITS FROM UR PARTNER IS SOOOO ‼️‼️

CORNY IDIOTS I HATE THEM (they consume my every waking thought)

[cryiling]

what do we think about kpop idol au revalink where revali is from a big 3 company (i feel like he gives sm or yg but idk) and link is from a smaller company, but they get into a dating scandal because of dispatch's stupid dating dump at the end of the year or whatever

revali is appalled to have dating rumors with this little runt from a nugu group (he's lying, link is totally his type), meanwhile link is losing his shit bc it's his idol it's THE revali 🫣

im gonna use this ask as an excuse to talk about idols!link and revali bc I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS

first of all revali is def giving agust d vibes, that fuck capitalism and the government sorta songs, and he definitely writes his own music (he thinks that artists who don't write their own music aren't real artists). no wait like genuinely. have u guys seen the lyrics for all the songs on d-day?? and like the mv for amygdala?? totally breaking kpop industry norms and I can totally see revali doing that, like yes babes talk abt your mental health and traumatic experiences, pop off king !

I bet revali prefers doing hip hop style dances, like you're never gonna catch him doing those rlly simple trendy dances. nah he out here doing flips and bboying and stuff 😭 hmm like think back down or halazia level dances (bye not me finding a way to bring halazia into any conversation SJDHSJF)

also he definitely only sings live, no lip syncing for him. one day he gets sick and loses his voice but he still has a performance that day, and his manager is like PLS just lipsync to the track, literally no one will get mad I promise, and he's like bitch no and just has his fans sing the whole song (he goes viral for this, his fans bragging abt how revali would never stoop to the level of lip syncing while his antis are calling him lazy for having his fans do all the singing, then revali's fans clap back at those ppl and pull up the receipts of all the times their faves lip synced)

ok we need stage name and fandom for revali. hm tbh I feel like he would just keep his name as his stage name, like he probably thinks the idea of stage names is cringy 💀 help I need fandom name ideas. like, vale or something BYE. his company probably came up with a whole list of possible fandom names and he said no to all of them, atp his manager just picked one for him 😭

u mentioned revali is from a big 3 company, hmm yeah I'm getting sm vibes from him. how long do u think he trained for? probably a couple years, like 6? so he's very insistent that all his accomplishments are from his hard work

OK let's talk abt link! idk many small companies but ummm let's say like, gf or something (they have kingdom, slay!). do u guys know that one idol from loona I think? and she was a trainee for only one day? yeah that's link 😭 he auditioned for the company and they're like you're great! debut asap pls

link is just here to have a good time honestly, like he's going live at 3am to do drunk karaoke like jungkook fr 😭 he really has a passion for singing and performing, and at the end of the day he's just doing this for funsies, he doesn't let the stress get to his head too much, which, king behavior honestly

ik u said he's from a nugu group but honestly I'm seriously loving the soloist vibe from him, like if he was in a group he'd probably end up as the wonyoung of the group bc he just has that main character energy 😭

I can see link doing more upbeat/poppy songs, but he does the occasional ballad + contemporary dance combo that his fans go FERAL for. or,, omg. imagine him doing criminal by taeyang... 😊

his stage name.. L!NK bc he's quirky and not like other girls 😧 I bet his song titles are either in all caps or all lowercase too, he insists "it's for the aesthetic 🥺"

hm what sort of situation are they in where dispatch makes a dating scandal for them? OUHH MAYBE theyre both mcs for a music show (ignore that it's usually one guy and one girl) and they do one of those performances together and ppl are like 🤨⁉️ like imagine them doing the iconic dolphin dance together ✋ fans go CRAYZEEE the fancams hit like 20m views because their chemistry together really shines, even with such a simple song

their companies see how good they are for each other's publicities, so they really push for more of their schedules to be together.. which ofc comes at the cost of the dating scandal. they're hanging out together at some cafe idk, their managers told them to go hang out in the hopes that they would get some more publicity. what they WEREN'T expecting is for dispatch to declare that they're dating??? (that's a lie, link's manager (zelda) definitely knew smth like that would happen and she's the biggest revalink supporter 🤞)

when revali hears about this, he has a freaking meltdown to his manager teba, like 😭 lying facedown on the couch screaming into a pillow, "they think we're DATING?$:$;&2!;@/@ they really think a senior idol would go out with a rookie!!???!: SHUT UP TEBA HE IS NOT MY TYPE-"

meanwhile link has the BIGGEST celebrity crush on revali, like you know how jungkook is with namjoon? yeah 😭 so when the dating scandal comes out, link is just so flattered that people would think that he's worthy to be with revali- he's going around to anyone who will listen and is like "people think I'm with revali 😦🥰🥰" zelda is like girl calm down you're not actually together

[rollercoasterwords]

I LOVE ZOMBIES TOO

I have this zombie hyperfixation that comes back every few years and at least one tri-yearly zombie apocalypse dream.

I have this podcast where I talk about spooky stuff I find interesting and the zombie episode was at least twice as long as all the other ones.

Ok so what I find rlly interesting is ancient Hatian zombies, which were real. It wasn't like an actual zombie but basically somebody was tricked into thinking they were dead with drugs and herbs and medicine or smth, then actually buried, then dug up again to be used for slavery. And theyre actually called zombies too. And it's just. wow.

LOOK https://www.theatlantic.com/entertainment/archive/2015/10/how-america-erased-the-tragic-history-of-the-zombie/412264/

lol love the enthusiasm!! i am definitely the same way about zombies as previously stated they are probably my favorite monster <3 and this response got very long so i am putting it under a cut lol

personally i have not studied actual ritual practices enough to really talk about how much truth there is to the notion of "real-life zombies," what that practice might have looked like, or how widespread it was. i've read a bit of ethnography + anthropological writing about zombi rituals, but my understanding is that the extent to which there may have been "real" zombies has been largely exagerrated and exoticized in a way that is...not great. so while it's definitely super interesting to research what sort of historical practices + rituals were/are attached to cultural understandings of zombiism, i'd just caution against any portrayal that inaccurately exagerrates the history or seems to be mysticizing "real-life zombies."

if u (or anyone) are interested in some reading that adds a bit more nuance to cultural conceptions + origins of the zombie, some recs!

haitian zombie, myth, and modern identity by kette thomas

new narratives of haiti; or, how to empathize with a zombie by kaima l. glover

zombi narratives: transatlantic circulations by gudrun rath

figures of terror: the "zombie" and the haitian revolution by raphael hoermann

not all of these scholars are in complete agreement with each other, but all of them are doing really interesting things re: questioning the way the zombi has historically been tied to Haiti + Africa in scholarship + pop culture, and how oftentimes those ties have been examined or portrayed largely through a neocolonial + racialized lens

anyway--thank u for sharing that article (here's a link minus the paywall for anyone interested)! another great jumping-off point for anyone interested in zombie history. i definitely appreciate the point he's getting at--the idea that zombie media has become so immersed in consumer culture that it no longer contains any meaningful critique of such a culture, and instead functions largely as a mechanism for escapist fantasies. this echoes some other interesting research i came across in undergrad about the idea that the "dystopian" genre has really become the new "utopian" genre, though i can't remember where specifically i first encountered the idea (i think it was somewhere in my zombie research, but i'd have to go hunt for the specific article/book/etc).

personally, though, i think it's a bit of a reach to imply that the zombie used to contain a significant critique of "societal ills." specifically, where he writes:

For a brief period, the living dead served as a handy Rorschach test for America’s social ills. At various times, they represented capitalism, the Vietnam War, nuclear fear, even the tension surrounding the civil-rights movement. Today zombies are almost always linked with the end of the world via the “zombie apocalypse,” a global pandemic that turns most of the human population into beasts ravenous for the flesh of their own kind. But there’s no longer any clear metaphor. While America may still suffer major social ills—economic inequality, policy brutality, systemic racism, mass murder—zombies have been absorbed as entertainment that’s completely independent from these dilemmas.

what i think he's perhaps overlooking here is that--yes, zombies have historically represented different "social ills," that doesn't necessarily mean that representation has been somehow more radical or liberatory than the zombie media of his time (2010s--article was written in 2015). even in the earlier 20th century when "zombie" media stuck more closely to the original lore of the zombi, the zombie was still typically represented in a way meant to reinforce existing systems of power rather than call them into question, and this has been a theme of much zombie media throughout the 20th and early 21st centuries. i also think to suggest that there was no longer any clear metaphor by the time 2015 rolled around is a bit facetious; i can think of two zombie movies from 2015 specifically where zombies are being used as a clear cultural critique in different ways, and multiple other zombie movies from the 2010s where this was also the case. so while i appreciate what he's trying to do here re: making a point about dystopia-as-utopia and how western reimaginings of the zombie have fundamentally altered it, i think he's detracting from his own argument a bit when he suggests that using zombies as a tool for valorizing western individualism rather than exploring oppressive power dynamics that result in dehumanization is reflective of some sort of deterioration in modern media, and not part of the way zombies have pretty much always been used in western media since their co-option

[cosmogenous]

spoilers for Dream Scenario (2023)

I just saw Dream Scenario with a friend and her bf and it was actually a rlly poignant film. It has Nic Cage playing an evolutionary biologist who's feeling kind of stagnant in his career & under appreciated in his field.

All of a sudden he starts appearing in people's dreams, just standing there while nightmare scenarios take place which he feels quite insecure abt, causing him to become a bit of a showboat about the whole "popping up in peoples dreams" phenomenon & enjoying the attention of his online notoriety even if it feels un-earned.

As the plot progresses, his actions in the dreams start to mirror his emotional state (e.g. he has an idea stolen and people's dreams about him become horrifically violent).

He gets so swept up in the media phenomenon & dealing with the public's perception whilst trying to illicit sympathy that he further alienates the people he's caused harm to & neglects to be considerate to his family's need for security & emotional support.

It ends with him reconnecting with his wife after he's no longer in the public eye & has stopped appearing in so many people's dreams. I think it's meant be a representation of how Nic Cage's publicity has affected his life.. right down to having strangers break into his home.

In my opinion it's a good commentary on how anyone in a highly demanding career can affect their loved ones by emotionally regulating in unhealthy ways

It also touches on how trying to seem invulnerable and be inauthentic around people still rubs off on them subconciously, affects how they treat you, in turn affecting how you view yourself & leading to an alienating cycle of miscommunication.

I was expecting it to just be a silly shallow comedy horror but it turned out to be a rlly introspective & heartfelt movie all round (a bit of cynicism abt capitalism and psuedoscience thrown in the mix for good measure).

Nic Cage did a great job of portraying the character, perhaps bc it's story that he rlly resonates with personally.

If you're not too sensitive to slight scares it's a v enjoyable watch and would be highly relatable to anybody in academia or the arts or anything similarly stressful, who's self esteem fluctuates with how they feel abt their performance at work.

Even if you think I've spoiled too much of the plot you should still watch it if you like surreal a24 stuff. honestly nearly cried at the ending

[cutyrteeth]

i’m just a girl… standing in front of a boy…asking him to take her to the epcot food & wine festival.

[1kook]

A COLLECTION  [ updated: 8 . 23 . 21 ]

— STATUS ONGOING — NO REPOSTS — ASKS under #ncouple ! — Copyright © 2021, 1kook on tumblr

—NETFLIX & CHILL.

summary If you planned things right, you could rain down your raging displeasure on Jeon Jungkook right after the meal but before this proposed ‘Netflix and chilling,’ maybe dramatically throw your glass of wine at him, before storming out of his place and reporting him to the authorities (Namjoon) for his douchebag personality.  warnings smut in the forms of grinding, oral (f), cum eating, vanilla unprotected sex, dirty talk misc use of the oldest trick in the book (“your hands are sooo big”), shy oblivious AND gentleman jk? pick a struggle, brief ment of app developer kook, evil and conniving oc  word count 10.2k  posted june 12, 2020

—HULU & WOOHOO.

summary But there’s more important matters to attend to than Jungkook’s Jersey Shore boner. warnings slight feelings of insecurity, smut in the forms of fingering, cunnilingus, cum eating, squirting, hand jobs, unprotected sex, riding, slight praise kink  misc if you’re not a Jersey shore fan honestly GET OUT, mentions of capitalism😡, more kind/understanding kook, basically a “what are we?” fic but silly, irresponsible emailing habits, its so dumb just read word count 6.3k posted july 4, 2020

—IMAX & CLIMAX.

summary The occasional dark horse candidate among Barbie movie binges— Jungkook gets weirdly horny and fucks you to the tune of a classic Barbie movie soundtrack. warnings smut in the form of blowjobs, tit play, praise kink, standing sex, unprotected sex, reverse cowgirl (? kinda), daddy kink that morphs into ily kink misc  jk is an avid history channel viewer, jk hates Barbie movies ik we took an L today girls 😔, jk goes thru like 4 personality changes (commanding > soft > mean > in love), honestly idk what to tag it’s a mess, he’s still cheesy and romantic but also 👀 just read word count 9.8k posted august 5, 2020

—KISSANIME & FOREPLAY.

summary You get a glimpse of the KissAnime screen for a good two seconds before about seven ads pop up. Another tab to a raunchy hentai website opens, and Jungkook groans. warnings mentions of hentai, smut in the forms of cunnilingus, masturbation (f), oral (f), use of a sex toy, fingering, nipple play, face sitting/fucking/riding idk (f), praise kink, hints of dumbification, cum eating, jk is like passive aggressive in this one, 4 (f) orgasms, this is the kicker: sub kook at the end😳, like 2 sec of dom yn lol, & u get 0.002 sec of adams apple kink misc more dumb story lines, made up sex stores bc my creativity knows no bounds, Jungkook plays nice but is actually mean for the majority of it, once again doyeon plays a pivotal role in the furthering of women empowerment, internal love monologues about jk best boy<3 word count 8.2k posted september 1, 2020

—DISNEY+ & BUST.

summary There’s a pounding on your door a little past noon, so hard and rough, that you almost think it’s the police finally coming to catch you for all your years of illegally pirating Phineas and Ferb. It’s not. It’s just a really drunk boyfriend wailing for your forgiveness at the door.   warnings arguments, feelings of insecurity, bit of asshole jk, smut in the forms of humiliation, dumbification, choking, fingering, spit kink, self punishment (? idk lol), unprotected but [ passionate ] sex, jk losing his cool, the return of mean jk, desperate jk, he is actually an emotional mess in this one wtf misc angst, anniversaries, the L word😳, app developer kook, rip ‘pretty girl’ </3, we all become phineas and ferb stans word count 13k posted september 9, 2020

—ESPN & BDSM.

summary You would like to personally thank every loud-mouthed, ESPN commentator out there for saving you from Jungkook’s dangerous seduction skills.   warnings smut in the forms of brief femdom, handcuffs, nipple clamps, blindfolding, flogging/use of a riding crop, soft dom kook, cunnilingus, spitting, unprotected but passionate, degradation, as always it starts horny n then turns into I love u kink misc kook has a swollen ankle so idk how he did all this, jk abuses the fuck outta pet names part 7, revenge gone wrong tbh, this was honestly a beginner’s intro to vanilla bdsm word count 12.7k posted september 14, 2020

—YOUTUBE & USE LUBE.

summary You can’t believe this is Jungkook’s preferred sick day treatment; YouTube, cuddles, and an ugly amount of lube. warnings smut in the forms of nipple play, handjobs, spit kink, face riding, unprotected, flavored warming lube, riding, praise kink, soft femdom, missionary bc his eyes are pretty, tit sucking, tit fucking, more jk has an impreg kink, oh and this is all subby kook misc domesticity baby!! fluff, soft scenes /.\, jk is sick:((, doyeon is A Doctor, yn sees an opportunity and she grabs it, surprise ending <3 word count 8.7k   posted september 30, 2020

—VIKI & HICKEYS.

summary Just like in those Viki dramas Jungkook likes, the world around you is enveloped in shades of pink and red, kisses and hearts, so many goddamn roses it makes you sneeze. It’s absolutely perfect— nothing could possibly go wrong when there’s so much love in the air.   warnings a little hurt + a lot of comfort, mentions of cheating!villain!jin, insecure!kook, emotional breakdowns, mentions of jk’s lonely past, jk cries :( smut in the forms of making out, eating out, fingering, clit play, hickeys, jk likes cum, double orgasm, squirting, tiny praise kink, blindfolding, rough + unprotected sex, doggy style, choking!!!, breeding/impreg kink, JEALOUS KOOK, mini hand kink, a lil bit of spanking, degradation, he gets progressively meaner lol oc cries, jk is a good boy n I want him to be happy   misc there’s a lot of fuckin plot omfg -_-, it’s Valentine’s Eve!, doyeon makes Some Points, mentions of park seojoon juicy ass, they go on a d8 😳, oc like rlly wants to marry him, oc commits double phone homicide word count 16.3k posted january 14, 2021

—PEACOCK & SWEET TALK.

summary “I wanna watch Solange in Bring It On,” Jungkook smiles, and you have to wonder who exactly this blond man is and what he did with your teen-movie-hating boyfriend.   warnings smut in the forms of kissing, cunnilingus (eating out + fingering), light praise, a lil body worship, jk fat cawk, brief nipple play, playful jk, unprotected sex, riding and missionary, the jk hand kink, I love you kink, jk wants nudes, jk’s cheerleader fantasies mentioned, spit kink, light choking, jk has like a scent kink (?), mention of collars and pet play misc app developer jk becomes even MORE app developer-y, oc is anti-google, there's plot, a 2 year anniversary, Solange knowles appreciation, BLOND JK!!!, gets sappy for a sec, seahorse marriage mention, doyeon x joon side pairing, jk is disgustingly dreamy and oc is threatened by that fact word count 10.7k posted march 23, 2021

— CRUNCHYROLL & RAIL.

summary Never mind the fact you really like Sailor Moon, or that you really want to pay attention to every little detail; the moment becomes Jungkook and his big smile and his red cheeks and the tiny box he produces from within his pocket. warnings smut in the forms of making out, jk nipple play, some 69 action, cunnilingus, blowjobs, brief choking, jk trying his best to listen to oc but he doesn’t rlly :/, fingering, missionary bc his eyes are pretty, unprotected fuckin raw, its romantic but when is it not… misc fluffy and domestic <3, weekend getaway <3, the Big Question, shy jk, sailor moon supremacy, jk makes this big elaborate speech about the sun and moon, mentions of 240p YouTube quality word count 8.7k posted may 21, 2021

—FUNIMATION & PROCREATION.

summary Never mind your upcoming wedding, this was perhaps the greatest moment of your life— the day Jungkook sought out an anime on his own. warnings kissing, smut in the forms of cunnilingus, cum eating, mentions of anal, doggy style, unprotected sex with the intention of pregnancy, spitting, hand holding<3 misc the wedding night, Doyeon strikes again, jjk watches  jjk, oh no not twins word count 9.1k posted july 31, 2021

—BOOMERANG AND BANG. 

coming soon

—COOKIES & CREAM.

summary Jungkook will watch a thousand cheesy Christmas movies if it meant making you happy. (And maybe having his dick sucked.) warnings smut in the form of blowjobs, face fucking, cum facials, fingering, overstim, double orgasm, r*mantic sex, riding, unprotected, cream pies, jk does this weird thing where he licks her face yeah idk, jk loves seeing his gf cry, jk has an obsession with jizz   misc jk pov !!, eggnog slander, jk hates xmas movies, oc dresses like a sexy mrs claus, Elf !!, jk is in loooove word count 7.1k posted december 23, 2020

— TUTUS & TIARAS.

summary your first pregnancy through the lens of your husband warnings smut in the forms of penetrative sex, sex while pregnant, unprotected sex, tit play, cunnilingus, mutual masturbation, sticking the tip in and jacking off/cockwarming?, creampies, nose kink (? like she grinds against his nose), infatuation with scent, frottage/grinding, lactation kink, titluvr jk [bass boosted] misc married ncouple <3, domesticity, jk pov, mood swings, pregnancy, GIRLDAD!JK, DILF!JK, pregnant!reader, jk’s kids are virgos its true  word count 10k posted august 23, 2021

— one.

summary Maybe Jungkook wasn’t always as cool and composed as you initially believed. But that’s okay, because you love him all the same.  word count 1.3k posted September 10, 2020

—two.

summary Even after all these years, all these doubts, and all this solitude that was really no one’s fault but his own, he still finds himself hoping that maybe you’ll be the one. word count 1k posted september 11, 2020

—three.

summary But Jungkook loves the sun. word count 1.5k posted september 12th, 2020

—four.

summary For the last ten minutes or so his mind has been bothered by one thing and one thing only— the hair that hung in his face. word count 800 words posted september 22, 2020

—five.

summary Startled and inexperienced, he can’t do anything but rub his hands over your back. “It’s fine, it’s fine,” he murmurs, even though it’s not. word count 1.3k posted september 22, 2020

—six.

SUMMARY Jungkook enjoyed pushing you down, indulging you in all your little fantasies, but he too had some he wanted to live out. WC 1.8k POSTED september 25, 2020

—seven.

summary And lastly, Jungkook will bring it full circle by indulging you two in some good old fashion spooky sex where he nuts inside you because the only thing scarier than a scary movie is a pregnancy scare. It’s a perfect plan. word count 2k posted october 30, 2020

—eight.

summary You always do this— always ask for more. You take and you take until there’s nothing left for Jungkook to give. But Jungkook is the same.   word count 1.9k posted december 28, 2020

—nine.

summary “I think that, like— me and you? We’re like, totally destined,” you ramble, “you should, like, take my number! And maybe we can, like— Netflix and chill one of these days?” word count 2.2k posted january 8 2021

—ten.

summary See, there’s no one in this world who ignores his house rules more than you. Even worse, there’s no one on this planet who can make Jungkook ignore his own rules like you do. word count 1.4k posted february 14, 2021

—eleven.

summary You’re too bright, too… there. His shell is too small. word count 1.2k posted may 3, 2021

—twelve.

summary Anyway, if it was up to Jungkook, Kim Doyeon would not be a member of the Engagement Ring Committee. word count 1.4k posted may 8th, 2021

—thirteen.

summary Because for as much shit as you let him get away with, Jungkook is certain you’ll draw the line today.   word count 1k posted june 13, 2021

—fourteen.

summary Jungkook needs you to know that you can always count on him. word count 1.3k posted july 6, 2021

—fifteen.

summary It’s Jungkook’s teenage fantasy— being pushed down by a cheerleader. word count 3.1k posted august 9, 2021

— sixteen.

summary Your skin is warm and smells like sunshine. Jungkook can’t really explain it. (And also like the sunscreen you had doused him in earlier, but that isn’t as romantic.) word count 1.9K posted august 11, 2021

—seventeen.

summary She looks his way and suddenly Jungkook is nineteen again, in his dorm, listening to the first person he ever thought he loved telling him he’s too much to handle. word count 1.6k posted august 18, 2021

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[thesluttiestcodpiece]

Vibrator necklace, r u shitting me? Capitalism rlly popped off 2day wit dis one!

[danteinthedevildom]

Ngl I’ve been thinkin over the brother’s fears stuff from the most recent (?) lessons (bc I’m a dirty cheat and saw spoilers so ofc I went and looked up as much shit as I could) and like,

Ok shovin thots under the cut bc it got long oop. Also bc spoilers but y’know.

1 - Lucifer thinkin the “light” (which is ofc God lbr) was his fear despite not fearin it at all is p. weird. Like there was no hesitation, no fear. He just looked at it and went “ew it’s you never thot I’d see you again” and killed it. So clearly that’s NOT his actual fear. Def. Simeon’s I think, like he says a lil later.

So either Lucifer knew it was Simeon’s and “claimed” it to save Simeon’s feelins or smthn or he legit figured it was his fear bc the only thing he could think to be scared of is the guy who threw him out. 

Which like. Is such a fuckin non-answer re: his actual fear (tho he did say once goin back to the Celestial Realm was his “greatest fear” or smthn so maybe that’s still true so they didn’t figure that bringin it up again’d be that fun), but is interestin bc it says a lot abt how he sees God. 

Like. He got beat and kicked out and had his sister (almost) killed, but he’s still got 0 goddamn fear of his dad. Literal creator of everything God with a capital G don’t scare him. I figure bc he already did the worst thing he could’a done, and he survived that, so what else’s there to fear?

Tho it bein Simeon’s fear is... hm. Def. makes it sound like Simeon’s fearin seein God again. Either bc that’s just smthn any angel’d fear - maybe they only see God one-on-one if they’ve done smthn wrong so that’d be like seein your headteacher pop up outta nowhere, knowin he only comes outta the teacher’s room when you done fucked up - or bc he’s hidin smthn that makes seein God a really Bad Thing. Guilt or worries over some kinda sin? 

I mean duh. He’s in love with MC. That ain’t a hidden thing anymore. He’s kissed MC plenty times and I think even said the L-word once or twice. That’s def. grounds to get murderised (as we know, RIP Lilith). 

Also hella interestin in a metaphorical sense tho. Like, God’s a light. Simeon’s scared of somethin comin to light. Da-dum-tss, but what a hella cool way of showin that it’s a (technical) secret that’s got him all wound up.

2 - Mammon and Levi both fearin demon-form Lucifer is... understandable, but also kinda sad. Like, legit sad, not “wow ur so sad lol”. 

Levi’s way of sayin it makes sense tho. Lucifer only goes full demon form when he’s hella pissed, or outta control. He’s so damn powerful he don’t need to go into that form often, bc he can handle p. much anythin without it - plus he’s just got a p. good control on himself, so no accidental demon-form slips.

Unless ofc he’s so fuckin angry that it just leaps out. We’ve seen it. He gets murderous, and boom - form’s out. Or, situation’s so damn dire it’s got him on edge, and boom - form’s out. Him bein in demon form’s never good.

But him bein in demon form and after them is even worse.

Makes me wonder tho. If it’d just been angry Lucifer, why’d Levi specify it as his demon form’s anger? He gets angry at them hella often, and Mams esp. is strung up p. much daily, so clearly they’re not scared of him bein angry at them. 

It’s him bein angry at them while enraged. So either they’ve both pissed him off before bad enough that he’s gone full demon form, and whatever happened then was so fuckin terrifyin they’ve never recovered from it, 

Or they know that demon form Lucifer is scary shit, and even tho he’s not gone for them like that before, it’s smthn they’re terrified of in principle. Like, you’ve seen your dad mad on the phone before, and he’s never yelled at you like that, but you know he’s capable of it and that’s terrifyin as shit bc what if you do smthn that pisses him off enough to yell at you like that?

A lil part of me leans towards the latter bc tho they were scared it wasn’t smthn Levi said as tho it’d happened. More like smthn he’s hypothetically scared of. Plus idk what times Lucifer’d be so pissed he goes full rage at them? His demon form’s only really come out when the family’s in danger. Even shit like Lotan bein summoned don’t usually end in a demon form Lucifer (I’m p. sure anyway).

3 - Ok so like who was surprised by this. Asmo’s beauty is p. integral to who he is. He’s nothin if he’s not beautiful, and that’s what I think scares him. Not the bein ugly, but that bein ugly means he’s not Asmo.

Means he can’t get the attention he needs, can’t be loved by ppl, won’t get all the adoration and affection - he won’t be popular. And Asmo hella needs to be reassured that he’s pretty and loved. It’s who he is and what his identity is based on. 

Plus we’ve seen I’m p. sure a couple scenes where he’s been a lil worried/nervous abt if MC likes him for him. Beyond the beauty. He legit don’t think there’s anythin worth lovin if he’s not pretty, so ofc him bein ugly’s gonna be his biggest fear. Bc who’s gonna love him then. 

4 - Also smthn no-one’s gonna be surprised by. It’s his whole sense of identity. That’s not gonna go away for him overnight, y’know? The fact that it was angel Lucifer, tho - not just, like, normal Lucifer - was a p. cool touch.

That’s his roots. Not Lucifer the demon - Lucifer the angel. That’s what he’s based on. Smthn he never was but was always part of. 

He’s legit just the Lil Hal-Dirk connundrum which jfc that’s showin my fandoms huh. Is smthn that comes from smthn else its own unique person, or is it just a copy that’s always gonna get drawn back to what it was? How can it be original when everythin it is came from smthn else? 

That’s a hell of an identity crisis. Even bein Wrath and bein p. physically different and even likin different shit’s not enough to stop that feelin of ig imposter syndrome? Or of just bein a fragment of smthn else. Esp. when you know everyone else’s their own damn being. No one can understand where he’s comin from bc his “birth” was totally unique. He’s not just, like, Lucifer’s son or whatever - he’s legit a part of Lucifer’s emotions that just got plopped out one day. 

(Except ofc he’s not bc Lucifer knew he was different and felt him like a different presence for a while before the Fall but Satan’s got his memories and that’s kinda like bein someone anyway, ain’t it?)

So yeah, not surprisin, but also? I rlly hope he gets confident in who he is one day. Legit the idea that he’s still sittin there goin “who am I?” just hurts. 

5 - This bitch got trauma. Lbr it was either gonna be Belphie or it was gonna be Lilith and we all knew that was comin. Beel’s still not over the death of Lilith and his “role” in it (bc survivor’s guilt is a bitch and he’s still thinkin “not being able to save two ppl in two different places at the same time” is a sin), so losin anyone else is gonna hurt him.

But bein the reason he lost them? Oh that’s gonna hurt him even more. Esp. with the blame he’s still puttin on himself. It’s one thing to be like the passive cause that someone died but bein the active cause? Even by accident? Poor Beel. 

I don’t think anythin could’a been worse for him. That ain’t just a fear, that’s outright smthn he’s still strugglin with PTSD over. Like hell no shit he almost/did break down over it, that’s just shovin a trigger right in his face. 

6 - Bein alone, bein abandoned, not bein able to find anyone in pure darkness. That’s... damn. Either that’s lingerin trauma from bein locked up in the attic, knowin that no one was gonna find him or could hear him (which, fuck, how much did he try’n call for his brothers to come get him only to realise no one was gonna come?), or smthn set up that fear before the attic and the attic just made it hells of worse.

Like that wasn’t just “bein in a room apart from ppl”, it was outright “not knowin where anyone is, or seein/hearin/feelin them”. Total sensory deprivation. 

Oh. His worst fear’s not feelin anythin. That’s. Y’all. 

Idk how to end this now I’m just big hurty thinkin abt the last two jfc. No wonder Belphie’s always wantin to be asleep next to smthn. “He sleeps better with someone there” no sir you just hella fear sleepin bc your sin’s legit exactly what you’re terrified of and havin smthn there’s the best way to fix it. 

[inactivegaz]

rating locations in apex legends

Capital City (s3)  8/10 had a rlly good flow and the two buildings were such a chaotic fun time

Airbase 3/10 i only go here when no one has any ideas on where to go

Skull Town  9/10 i miss her, the loml

Thunderdome  7/10 landing here was fun but fighting here was a shitshow, especially if the game Ended here

Fuel Depot 8/10 the BEST part of the s3 map, but only if u dont include that high ridge by the res beacon. She had one flaw.

Epicenter  -1/10 not to be straightphobic but can you imagine loading into a worlds edge game and going MMMH EPICENTER IS THE BEST

Bridges 3/10 lol

Cascades  1000/10 the BEST spot on the map, no i will not b taking criticism

Containment  10/10 a TRULY underrated drop, only gets shit on bc ppl miss og kings canyon

Sorting Factory  7/10 i drop here more than I would like but it is kinda fun

Train Yard  5/10 there is ALWAYS a team that sets up there as round 2 starts and i want 2 k*ll them every time! was a truly fun drop when W.E came out until ppl realized that’s where the most accessible vault was

Cage  8/10 tbh i used to not like cage but since i figured out how to maneuver around it successfully it has become my FAVORITE place on K.C

Water Treatment  2/10 i hate it here but the fights are usually pretty fun

Relay  6/10 i miss her everyday

Fragment/Capital City (s4) 6/10 FUCK THE FISSURE, ALL MY HOMIES HATE THAT BITCH. no fr tho,,, its fun but that building on eastside is a Mess n a half

Bunker  5/10 i Will Not land here BUT it is a fun rotation, i love clowning on people with a nice lil 6th party

Dome  3/10 it's a fun design but who tf goes here willingly

Skyhook 9/10 Capital City Lite, its less chaotic until its where the game is ending

Artillery 100/10 has consistently been the most fun location of the game

Thermal Station 7/10 underrated, but I hate lava. The only reason more people dont hotdrop here is bc mirage voyage and the tree (for whatever reason)

The Tree 4/10 i dont care for the layout, although they did kinda pop off with the design of the tree itself

Lava City 2/10 it’s a no from me

Repulsor 6/10 Artillery but add more single room buildings and take away the cool garage/tunnel thing

Salvage 4/10 it's a fun place to go but not a worthy replacement for skull OR thunderdome

Capacitor 5/10 it's fun when u land here for about 20 seconds, then it's just endless third parties for probably the rest of the game

Slum Lakes 7/10 UNDERRATED KING! No one goes here bc they think the loot is gonna b ass but they be missin out on a good time

Runoff 5/10 it’s okay

Survey Camp -100/10 the vibes are HORRENDOUS, who tf is landing here

Geyser 15/10 THE BEST SPOT ON W.E

Drill Site 7/10 underrated in most aspects BUT for some reason it's absolutely poppin off in duos

Wetlands 4/10 was not sad that it got replaced

The Pit 6/10 i dont go here enough!

Harvester 4/10 it's fun when u play as caustic and ppl just keep comin at ur squad in the middle circle up top

The Rig 5/10 i dont go here enough!!! It looks fun tho!!!

Swamps 6/10 it’s kinda uneventful until the game ends there, it does get cool points for that cute lil tunnel/cave thing

Hydro Dam 4/10 lowkey boring

Lava Fissure 3/10 overshadowed but its okay bc it sucks

Refinery 8/10 GOOD ‘OL TOILET BOWL!!! i love it here

Market 7/10 i have a love/hate relationship with this place, dont want 2 talk abt it

Overlook 6/10 for all the opportunities there are for me to get FLUNG off the map, it hasnt happened yet and we’ve had it for 8 months. Disappointed.

Gauntlet 75/10 the BEST town takeover we’ve gotten!!!

Labs 6/10 i HATE the portal, but it is fun to pull a lil cleanup crew during the initial bloodbath

Mirage Voyage 10/10 the vibes are IMMACULATE even tho i cant hear anything

Trials 5/10 has yet to grow on me, it is pleasing to check out tho

[renaer-is-allegedly-hot]

session 12 notes

one day . one day i swear i will fix this formatting but today is not that day

Lol late is my brand

Let's go

The halflings can stack up under a trench coat

Adam has disguise self

Aerana and asyna don't need to do anything kinda

Now we're talking abt the road to el dorado

We just killed loser boy

Kenku got info from adam, cel and theo

What are we doing lmao

Adam is jiggling the small room's door and we go inside the room

Inside looks like an office, shelf w pickled body parts + cataloguing what the parts r and what they do

They were running away lmao ok

Yes we're still salty about this

"different interpretations of charm person" - jacob, 2020

Body part stuff

No halfling writing system in waterdeep

Dwarf toes, elven ears

Magic items ? Cel rolls perception 22

Weird jar w dull amber colored liquid, don't know if it's magical but noticed; unlabeled

"the jar of necrotic pee" - jacob, 2020

Smells like aloe

Adam smells his fire-resistant potion and it smells more like burnt ash

Smth else cel found has strange engravings

Just looks like metal bar

Boxy squarish iron bar abt the size of a halfling; it's strong but surprisingly light

Adam picks it up and hits a wall w it

Adam rolls for attack, 4

Nothing rlly happens

Makes a ringing sound

None of us can read giant

Looks rlly strange, written in blocky linear runes

A few things on it that stick out like engravings of ppl

Big bearded humanoids but small and fine so difficult to make out

Adam rolled 17 for investigation through files

Some stuff related to running wig shop; shop was at least somewhat a legitimate business

Notes abt billing for criminal organizations and guilds

Some ref to meeting w xant middlemen who would collect bodies

Names

Noska

Hired gorrick to track us down ??

N ?????

Adam looking for a key in the desk, doesn't find it

Head to the chest, adam tries to open

Not locked

A bunch of teeth

It's a mimic, adam has to roll damage

Adam is hit

Adam takes 10 damage

We're looking at diff things around the room and then hear a screech of pain as adam gets bitten

Slams down on adam's hand and four little eyes pop up and stare as it eats adam's hand

Mimic takes 9 damage as adam explodes

Cel shoots an arrow into the eye

22 to hit, 8 damage

Adam uses cutting words

-1d6

"hey fuck"

Adam could try to pull his hands away

Adam pulls his hands out

Adam bends down to it and takes a ration out of his backpack

"dom I'm gonna bend down to it"

The chest has closed back

Adam is going to throw rations instead, dex check

13; doesn't open so adam drops food on its head

Chest sits there looking at adam and eventually out of the side of the chest a weird stretchy amoeba-like arm comes out of it, takes the food and throws it in its mouth

"who's a good boy ? Who's a good boy !! Who's a good chest !!" adam, 2020

Adam takes out all his five rations and makes a trail leading out of the room

Chomper ? Maybe

It looks uninterested and its eyes have shut

Looks exactly like a chest now and hasn't moved; still has an arrow but just looks like a normal chest

It's a small chest that's pickuppable

Adam wants to walk his chest

Adam casts sleep on the chest

7d8s

27hp

When adam casts sleep the chest doesn't move, adam rolls perception 5

Adam tries to pick it up from behind v carefully from the bottom

It's kinda stuck to the floor and the wall; doesn't appear willing to budge

Asyna is still ape!asyna

Tries picking it up from behind like adam

Rolls a 6; won't move

One of its creepy tendrils sticks out and hits ape!asyna

10 bludgeoning damage; ape!asyna basically got slapped but now stuck to the chest

It's kind of loose now

Ape!asyna rolls a 20 and yanks it off the wall, now just dangling off asyna's arm and it's heavier than asyna thought it was

Feels dense

Adam is gonna try and tie its mouth shut

"he kinda starts flailing around a bit" dom, 2020

"aw he likes his new leash" jacob, 2020

Jacob gets hit again

Ape!asyna is gonna try and pull it off, 17 and gets off

Large clump of fur comes off and it's painful

adam "I'm going to try and use centrifugal force to swing it over my head"

"make a strength check" dom, 2020

Rolls 17

Slams it on desk, doesn't let go, nature check adam has no idea what it is

At some point the chest drops off, we stand back and adam casts shatter

11 damage

Chest kind of melts into the floor almost like it deflated, starts snaking way across room until it finds a hole and slithers up and disappears

"fuck you too chompi" adam 2020

Where it dissolves is 20 gold

"n I c e . That was worth the four spell slots" adam, 2020

Adam disguises self and turns into his dad

Adam is a tiefling

Dad is not a tiefling

Taller, dark black hair but not curly, short on the sides + floof forward

Looks more confident than adam

Same freckles

No one knew adam had freckles

Look p similar overall

Sounds the same as adam when he talks

He's a human

We don't know it's adam's dad

"a real dilf" dom, 2020, about adam's dad

"not like your REAL DAD, JACOB, JESUS" dom, 2020

Now we don't have time to unpack ALL OF THAT

Gonna find a hotel or smth

Except gotta disguise selves first

In the wig shop there is any wig u could possibly desire

Some mounted beards

Can't tell if any of the wigs r magical

I don't haAve magicccc :(

Adam puts a blonde wig on the ape

I thought asyna un-aped

Asyna un-apes and disguises self as asyna

Theo takes a long brunette wig w a braid down the back

Cel wants to pretend to be adam's child

Gets a curly dark hair wig

Hammer pants

Cel theo and adam all have freckles

It's nighttime springtime in waterdeep; it's raining

Trades ward going to find a hotel

Avoid own houses for awhile

Going to nearest inn

Let's go to the yawning portal

It is an inn not just a bar

Typ is in fact in the trades ward

One room as the father and two daughters and one room as lesbian elves

Durnan's downstairs and is friends w mirt

We head over to typ

This ward is busier than others we've seen at this time of night

Walk over to side entrance of typ

It never shuts down; always ppl here

Familiar warmth as we approach

Bard competition

Ppl placing bets, drinking, sitting in booths

The rooms r upstairs

Adam calls himself lysander

"a room for me and my daughters"

They get a room on the third story

Room on the third floor

We rendezvous in adam's room

We hear a scream echo out from the well

Adam has two plans

One includes his pants

The pants plan is we track down the dude w the pants

Second includes him singing, waiting to get mugged by the zants

Get mercenary help ?

Pants is plan c

Durnan is plan a

Cel is portia

Theo is lavinia

The doors lock

Long rest? Long rest maybe later

Adam and cel go up to one of the goliaths

"hey there big friend"

He looks like a well-read person

Takes out honey and asks him if he knows what it is

O it's honey

"well there r means of finding this out . For a price"

How much per item - FIVE GOLD

Adam hands him 10 gold and the big rod

"this is a jar of ointment that was first created by the wizard kyogton" I have no idea what that wizard's name is but that's what it sounded like

A dose can be swallowed or applied to the skin and in addition to healing and rejuvenating health, any poison or disease it may have is instantaneously cured

Can't tell how many doses in it

It's v expensive, v rare

Now the stick and he looks uber interested in it

"hm , where did you find this"

"my dad's attic ,,, he's a hoarder"

"let's make a deception check with a capital d"

Nat 1

Adam tells this guy the whole thing and the guy nods

"this is a valuable piece . Would you be interested in parting with it"

Cloud giants made them so their servants could help them build their castles

It's an immovable rod

Writing speaks of ancient cloud giants that were war-inclined

Flat button on the end of it

He sticks it out into the air and presses the button; when he takes his hand away, the rod doesn't fall and it stays floating in the air

Adam grabs onto it but he can't move it

Anybody can push the button tho

Adam asks what the goliath is offering

Offers us 5,000 gold

Adam gets his name - woetheir ????

Woetheir frequents typ when he's here

They're going on a quest; were asked by the open lord to complete a task on the isle of chault

Adam's gonna go to bed

Cel's gonna take a bath

We take long rest

Durnan time

Adam gives durnan a quick rundown of what happened

"ayo what's poppin durnan long time no see my guy"

It's morning it's 9ish breakfast time

Doesn't give any indication whether or not he recognizes them

Adam asks for scrambled eggs and bacon

Adam's asking if he knows anything abt the xants

Theo asks durnan if there's somewhere more secluded they can talk

Gestures to one of the booths and theo cel adam go over

They're uh . Telling durnan everything p much

He has look of passive disinterest but slightly less disinterest the more of the story they tell

"how is mirt?"

"he has renaer and floon"

"he's let himself go"

The xants r v powerful; leadership inscrutable even to open lord herself

Prior, durnan didn't care abt open lord

Guesses whoever obtains the stone would b hunted by the city which could b problematic

Half a million gold dragons

Could get help outside the city ? Roots go deep but do not extend outwards

Flee or contact city officials

"I think theo has a crush on him" adam, 2020

Stone is likely being taken or was already taken to guild hq

We could bust into hq but probs bad idea

Durnan says he's sure anyone could break into xants hq

Lmao durnan sounds so weighed down by life

Every now and then he looks over to well

Durnan is basically saying friendship is magic

The xants don't often come to typ and don't draw swords there

They fear it and durnan

"what's the hole?" adam rolls for insight, dirty 20

Odd expression comes across durnan's face

Mixture of disgust and longing

Uh … disgust and longing … for a hole? Ok durnan

We don't have to talk abt that I guess

Cel asks durnan to send a message to mirt to let him know we're safe but probs not gonna see him for awhile

Apparently the xants aren't too particular abt their henchmen

He says ask the barkeep abt it

Passive perception

At some point durnan leaves and right as theo says that we hear a loud thump and someone says "cripes"

Jones ?

Cel looks under the table and there's jones

Cel drags him out

Theo has a new idea "hey guys let's not go through with using adam as bait yet"

Adam looks down at the goblin and threatens to make him deaf

Plan d is to eat jones

We take jones upstairs

Theo explains her new plan

If the stone is already at their hq

We go to them

Jones doesn't mess w the xants

Why is jones rhyming

What r we talking abt lmao oops I was looking at primary results

I'M SCREAMING I DIDN'T KNOW GOODSPACEGUY WAS 81

No one has asked us for info abt the stone ?

Lmao is this like @me abt what's his name

Jb nevercaught ???? Jp nevercaught ?????? Idk who he is

What's our goal

We gotta figure out what we wanna do ig

We just wanna know where the xants r otherwise we duct tape his mouth and tie him up

"consider it stroked and very, very much needed" jones, 2020

To the dock ward in a wrecked whale oh the wrecked whale

"not the erect whale" cel, 2020 ????

There's a knock at the door

There's no peephole

Asyna asks "who is it"

HAHAHHAHAHA

MARGUERITE LMAO

"uh I work at the bar downstairs uh durnan had some - he wanted to speak to the drow"

I'm screwed

He has page hat on

"first durnan said we could stay as long as we'd like"

And he was offered money by this guy to speak to me

There's an elven man w v long and stringy hair, pointed nose and pointy ears

Looks rlly skinny and physically weak

Looking over scrolls

"guess who"

What the fuck

Nareel ??? naREEL????? WHO THE FUCK IS NAREEL???????

I don't kNOW WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING !!!!!!

The stone fascinates him

Offering us partial membership

Occasional encouragement to go on various missions

He has resources

Treasure and gold involved, but not for the weak-willed

Offering 500 gold for completion of a task

They have captured a high-ranking member of the xants and tried to get info of him

More resilient than they thought he would be

They need him back in three days

Is this a roast session ???? Of aerana ???? When she dips to hang out with the other guy ???????

They're trying to figure out who her friend is

Jones wanted to be a painter

Adam is offering to have jones join us to maybe kill him??????

If he wants gold he has to go get it

They'll keep

"I'm gonna fill your goody bag real good so you better keep your mouth shut" adam, 2020 to jones

Oh god I'm such an avoidant lmao

Oh god I don't

"these conversations will become more difficult as things become more difficult but I think for now that went as well as it could have possibly gone"

"you will find him in your basement"

wHICH BASEMENT

We're gonna go home

To the north ward we go

You go to the basement

The ropes look kinda weird

He's not tied with rope

They're metal bands looped around him

Metal bindings

Doesn't look like he's gonna get out of it

Adam and cel don't see anything out of the ordinary but have noticed things moved around a little bit

Dwarf w dark brown skin, white/gray beard, looks roughed up - not injured, just worse for wear

Adam has him make a wisdom saving throw

Adam charms him

Approaches him first

Adam starts massaging his shoulders

Jfdkaslfha then takes the gag off

"are you here to let me out?" the dwarf

"even better I'm here to spend some quality time with you" adam, 2020

Says he has to get back to the master

Master silgar must be fed

His sacred duty is to feed master silgar

Master silgar has a shimmering son what

"Shakes the oceans with a swish of his body"

In the beginning there was xanathar and then he said silgar should be the one they care for until the seas rise and destroy the city

Controls the eye of the xanathar as the eye of the xanathar control him

His name is ot stillgeer

Adam says his name is cain

Blasphemy for adam to propose bringing lord silgar to him

Lord silgar lives in a great temple

He's the high priest of silgar

We're telling him it's our summer home

Adam winks at everyone and we go upstairs

Adam casts second-level sleep on him

44hp puts him to sleep

Adam is gonna disguise-self a beard when the dwarf next wakes up

Stage it so it looks like he had been there for a month

Everyone changes their clothes

Tally marks on the wall

It's like late afternoon at this time

Adam tells him he woke up after 79 days, rolls for deception

Rolls a 24

Looks over and says "79 days"

"am I dead"

"no but the xanathar want you dead"

"I'm free"

23 for deception

Lord silgar is a fish? A fish ? A goldfish

Lord xanathar loves his goldfish more than anything

Ot has to replace the fish

19 mans is telling the truth

Not really any sign we're being watched when cel rolls for perception

We watch ot, take turns resting and surveilling our own house

Night comes

When asyna is on watch in the tower

Sees figures start making way across street to our house

6 humanoids start trying to break into the house

Glass shatters as one goes through a window

The tapestry was lord silgar

The goldfish has no connection to the koi fish asyna spoke to

Two objectives?

Find the stone

Or control the xanathar w a fish

The stone is a map to half a million gold

[prongsmydeer]

Ayesha Liveblogs One Tree Hill S1

No matter how many times I watch the pilot I consistently forget that Nathan and Peyton used to date

“Don’t bother showering tonight” is that really your come-on Peyton I will never understand sports

Lmao @ Nathan and Peyton “OTP: Distracted Driving”

“You’re despicable, you know that,” said Dan, a literal future murderer

I’m always so thrown when ppl in shows start drinking at their workplaces like what kind of bold behaviour Whitey you work at a high school

“What are you wasting your time at now?” Nathan ur a terrible boyfriend

“I say that the people who pray here are wasting their time. God doesn’t watch sports” I know Lucas is pretentious as all hell but this is my favourite line in any sports show ever

Karen is such a good mom ahhhhh like she just wants Lucas to be happy and she knows he’ll put other people’s happiness first 

Dan calling Lucas ‘this kid’ like he’s not his wholeass son what a dick

It’s not lost on me that Keith telling Lucas stories about his father means that it’s Lucas’s grandfather Keith Scott is truly the only dad in this show who matters

“So why’d you just tell me all that” because he loves to monologue

“If I could [change the fact that Lucas exists], I would” Dan answer your door I need to send you a very rude telegram

I am in love with Moira Kelly and also I want Karen to punch Dan

The music of this show is really.... transcendent 

Djhfkjhfkjh since Lucas is implied to have like, five friends.... is that crowd of supporters hugging him just a bunch of people who think Nathan is a dick

I admire Lucas for deciding he was gonna put up with all this bullshit to do something he loves

Omg I forgot that Brooke wasn’t in the pilot she’s such a major character

“Nice hands” “Nice legs” Emo flirting in a jock setting lmaooooo

My inner 2007 angst awakens every time I hear Gavin Degraw. He is THAT bitch

“You ever think I might want to talk” Peyton and Nathan’s relationship is truly nothing but blind horniness they have nothing in common at all in this juncture of their lives

“I didn’t invite you to come in, I just asked if you wanted to” Peyton is so weird but I kind of want to marry her. Is this what Lucas feels like

Lucas’s economic status is really part of Brooke’s romance criteria at the age of 17 they teach the bourgeois early huh

Oh my god I cannot BELIEVE Jake recommended Atlas Shrugged to Lucas jhjhgjhgjh the undertones of this basketball show really are about capitalism

HAHAHAH Nathan’s word being “revenge” calm down Sasuke Uchiha

I haven’t said so yet but Haley is so very endearing she’s great

God. Lucas turning around to reveal to Dan that he’s cast away his name. HE is that bitch

Ghjkghjkgh Keith hissing at the rude Boosters mum. Love of my life

“Maybe he’s gay” “No, I think he’s just nice” who writes this dumbass show

“Do you even care that it’s slipping away” maybe it’s because I went away for university but the idea that someone is this deeply invested in their kid’s high school basketball career is. A lot

Nathan simultaneously trying to bother Lucas and pass English while about to fall in love: I can multitask!!!

Update: He also managed to trash Lucas’s favourite basketball court somehow in all his business. He really can multitask!

“If it makes you feel any better I called some woman a bitch the other day” [giggle] I love Karen and Lucas’s relationship

Haley is such a good friend to Lucas and hoo boy Nathan when do you grow a conscience

“You’re both so broody. You could brood together” that’s it, that’s Peyton and Lucas

These emails and VCR references are really dating this show

Nathan is a straight up sociopath in these early eps my god he humiliates Lucas publicly twice at this party and just pops over to Haley like “Hey cutie :) Idk why Lucas is so mad :) I’m rlly nice :)”

Nathan really taking his girlfriend’s car to hit on another woman how much of a crapbag

As soon as I said this he (drunk?) drove her car into a streetlight my god 

Deb and Karen having a nice lesbian coffee shop AU would be a pleasant turn in this show instead of literally anything that happens in either of their narratives

“Why would you even go there” “Because I loved getting dumped on” That is... accurate

“I’ll call you when you’re not so PMS” said Nathan, when his (ex) girlfriend rightfully lambasted him for crashing her car

I take it back Peyton and Nathan do have one thing in common it’s their disregard for traffic laws

HELL YEAH Keith IS your dad Lucas <3 <3 <3 <3 

Whitey talks a lot of shit for someone who advised Dan to abandon Luke 

I had been wondering why Lucas had the Scott name when Dan is such an ephemeral piece of shit and I guess there’s my answer thanks Karen 

Does Haley ever find out about the shit Nathan pulled at the party I feel like these are relevant details in her budding affection

“Dad send you to spy on me? Poison my drink?” This is the second time in two episodes Deb has been accused of being Dan’s spy I wonder if she still considers that a red flag 17 years into marriage

“One of the boys doesn’t have a father” BUUUUURN Dan

Rhkgjhgjkh the last moment of this scene:

Keith: There is enough room in my heart for each of my brother’s mistreated sons even the rude ones Nathan

Nathan, experiencing a split second of paternal love: :O

Ghkjghkjgh the Scott bonding in hatred of Dan continues with Lucas asking Nathan if he too would like to spite Dan:

Lucas: You will be receiving your “I Hate Dan Scott” Club invitation in the mail shortly Nathan, mom, Uncle Keith and I hold meetings biweekly

Nathan: Biweekly as in every two weeks or twice a week 

Lucas: Both! See you on Tuesday

“Does this mean we’re dating” yes it does the mixed CD is emo code

“Good luck with your game” “yeah, you too, Ma” hehehehe

Someone revoke this college medic’s license hoo boy

Ghjghkgh Lucas keeping his money tucked into his boxers what a doofus

I can’t believe Nathan and Lucas’s second big bonding moment is threatening dudes while in their boxers after beating on each other what a brotherly bond lmao

Okay but highkey if ur a lady and ur friends are gonna leave you alone and vulnerable at night get new friends

“I can live without my shirt” Nathan is thirteen shades of petty lmaooo

Dan is such a bad (abusive) father that Nathan literally would prefer to have none at all my god 

“Can I tell you a secret? I pretended too” just get marrrried 

“Thanks for cutting Lucas some slack” talk about accepting the bare minimum Haley kjhgkjhgkj

Brooke is really unbearable in this episode is it any wonder her, Lucas and Peyton’s relationship is as dysfunctional as it will soon become 

Hoo boy the one (1) time Nathan doesn’t do something douchey and he gets blamed for it 

LMAO @ Lucas approaching the one girl at this school with commitment issues with a bold “I wanna be here [in your heart]” hahaha

“Yeah, they can have their world,” said Lucas to Haley, about the two people they would literally go on to marry

The fact that Peyton doesn’t turn off her webcam and just covers it also really speaks to the era

This Gabe dude is really ready to assault a minor like he’s not just a r*pist he’s also a predator double KO 

It is not lost upon me that it looks like one pill has been popped out before so he is also a serial r*pist big fucking yikes

“What, you got a cellphone too, dawg? Things sure have changed” also quite dated hahahaha

They really went out of the way to redeem Brooke not only did she give Nathan and Haley a very very cute date she also saved her friend from being assaulted

“So you don’t have any brothers, do you” jhgkhgkhg Brooke please 

“Why are you only nice to me when we’re alone” a very legitimate question Haley

Nathan’s dating methodology: There’s nothing in life that can’t be solved with make-outs

Deb is really so nice but every time I look at her I think of her drinking a lot and sleeping with Nathan’s friends lmao

Haha that North Carolina sign explains the mild Southern accents 

Aieeeeeeeeeee you kiss that man and follow your dreams Karen

Even if Nathan is still A Lot this season him and Haley are so cute:

Haley, smiling: We can’t do this here right now

Nathan, giggling: We just did

Lucas says more to Dan by constantly leaving with a look of disgust than any words ever could

“My heart’s racing too. That’s what happens when I’m around you. (And on drugs. I’m very unstable Haley.)”

Lucas and Nathan’s very intentional “pressure from your dad” and “you don’t know anything about my dad” bc Lucas will not acknowledge that Senor Crabag Sr. is anything resembling a father bless 

Drunk tattoos with crush’s bff Lucas has decided to make all mistakes at once and I respect it

Poor Keith he is trying his best but Lucas just chose this week to hit his rebellious phase

YESSSSSSSSSS DEB KICK THAT ASS OUT OF THIS HOUSE

“Do you really think that Nathan would choose you over me” uh???? Are you not aware you are... the worst father in town

Brooke you were fully aware of Peyton and Lucas’s vibing and actively pursued him/interfered so you have no moral high ground to be like “:) I’d never choose a boy over my friendship”

Skillz and Mouth accurate “hoo boy don’t look” when ur friends start PDA

“Mom doesn’t want things to get back to normal, she wants them to be better” hell yeah Nathan gaining emotional intelligence

Lucas quit projecting your childhood issues onto Jake he too is a child let him decide how he wants to live Jenny’s 6 months old not like she’s gonna remember lmao

Damn Nathan LET LOOSE on Dan fuck that dude

JGFHJGFJGFJH I forgot Gavin Degraw had a cameo hahahahah

Did Luke.......... break into Jake’s house. His parents work at night how was he able to get into Jake’s coffee table

“You do not have to feel like a third wheel” The pure dumbass energy.... Peyton is literally CRYING do u really think her issue is “third wheel” you KNOW she and Lucas had a thing Brooke???????

Me watching this team form a brotherly bond over their mutual love of basketball: Mayhaps sports are... good 

Hahahaha Lucas threatening Peyton’s dad with a rake is weirdly endearing

“Hey you.” “Hey you, and you,” is a good summary of this seasons Brooke/Lucas/Peyton dynamic lmao

Why is Dan’s head... shaped that away. It is like a bar of soap

“I don’t mind you playing ‘Daddy’ to one of my offspring, but leave the good one alone, will you?” Dan. Meet me in the Denny’s parking lot at midnight and we’ll have words

“The whole Nice Guy thing is wearing kind of thin” foreshadowing for all the dick moves Lucas is about to pull lmao

“He’s got you skipping school now?” “Lucas talk to me when you get your tattoo removed”

Lucas:

Lucas is such a meddler lmao how many family dynamics is he going to alter

I don’t trust Dan being nice for a minute all he wants is the upper hand with Deb in the inevitable custody battle over Nathan

Props to Nathan and Haley for somehow, some way, being the only normal couple on this show despite their incredibly dubious origins lmao

Scott family dinners are bananas I count four (4) major revelations and they haven’t even revealed that Deb and Dan are separated

Lucas and Peyton are really hitting every fictional couple trope in this ep - road trip, bed sharing, hurt/comfort, truly the YA bases 

“The truth? In this house?” Props to Deb for drama lmao 

Brooke saying ‘I love you’ you’ve been dating for like two episodes but okay kjhgkjhg

I can’t say I understand Nathan’s logic lmao but I guess they have to bring him back to basketball sometime

Wow Lucas zero hesitation on that second kiss lmao u r a mess

This scene is the definition of “that escalated quickly” they go straight to undressing 

HAHAHAH NATHAN BEING SHIRTLESS IN HALEY’S DREAM FOR NO REASON 10/10 TEENAGE ACCURACY

“How do you explain being with me and not her?” “Because with you, I saw a future” that’s Dan code for ‘I’m a gold digger’

You’re literally macking on Peyton in the middle of the hallway while you’re dating the other most popular girl in school Lucas how are you this ridiculous and bold BREAK UP WITH BROOKE U DUMBASS

“So what are we going to do” I’ll tell you what you should do BREAK UP WITH BROOKE

Keith it is still daylight out stop bringing alcohol into this high school you have a drinking problem

“Can’t control love, you know?” THAT’S NOT ADVICE LUCAS BREAK UP WITH BROOKE

I really can’t handle watching Keith and Lucas self-destruct this episode how is Nathan the only Scott in a happy, healthy relationship

“You know that this is... wrong, so that makes it feel... deeper?” Lucas asks, as if he were not entirely in the wrong by carrying on with Peyton (who is not in a relationship) while dating Brooke

“I don’t want to hurt Brooke,” he said, about to start his third secret cheating makeout session of the week

“But then again our spouses aren’t here are they” [Deb opens door] COMEDIC TIMING

Gjjhgkjhg Nathan revealing his messed up intentions with Haley entirely by accident Scotts have no self-control whatsoever it’s their kekkei genkai

Lucas evading responsibility for his romance crimes by literally dying

Hahahah Karen’s confused vibes at Brooke are kind of the highlight of this episode 

How funny would it be if Lucas woke up to Karen scolding him about his tattoo

Hahahaha for such dysfunctional partners Nathan and Peyton are excellent exes 

AHHHHHHHHH LUCAS WAKING UP TO HIS BROTHER... MY HEART

Keith rlly was gonna propose after zero (0) days of dating I’m telling you no self-control is truly the Scott clan kekkei genkai

Ahhhh bless Karen’s compassion 

Dan is literally blackmailing his son into staying in his custody he is in Deb’s words an “abusive son of a bitch”

Fucking finally Lucas ends this sham of a relationship with Brooke

It’s wild that Nathan is the only Scott with a happy and healthy romantic relationship 

Nathan divorcing his parents is a real power move 

I’m glad Haley announced Sheryl Crow’s name because let me tell you I would not have recognized her on sight

“How’s my daughter” Lucas really chooses exclusively to hook up with people who have devastating emotional consequences for his immediate friend group huh

“Funny I didn’t know you were forgiving at all” Lmao Peyton is that really the position you’re going to take after cheating with your best friend’s boyfriend 

All the deodorant product placement lmao ‘this ep sponsored by Secret’ 

All things considered I think Lucas is handling Haley’s constant ditching p well 

Bfhkghghjg Keith buying a new shirt just to go to dinner with Karen stop

OH MY GOD THE EP REALLY WAS SPONSORED BY SECRET IT’S GOT SECRET ON THE CHEER COMPETITION BANNERS AND A LITTLE GIFT BAG RANDOMLY IN ALL THE CHEERLEADER CONFRONTATIONS JKGHKJGH

The comedic timing of “hungover idiots” panning to Karen and Larry kills me

“She used to be this totally original.... Haley” what does this mean????

I don’t think Nathan and Haley are being entirely fair to Lucas bc he was only a dick once she ditched him twice (or thrice?) in one weekend 

This boy toy auction as a concept is so inappropriate on so many levels

“I get Nathan for free” Fhjkfhkfjh Haley pls

God I was so very concerned about whether or not Nathan and Peyton were gonna kiss 

“You’re not a mess, you’re just in love” [Ole Del Paso Girl voice] Why not both?

“She’s nine months old, just in case you forgot” to be fair I assume Nikki gave birth so she would remember that you can’t hold that one over her 

It must take Lucas some mental disconnect to assume Peyton and Nathan are cheating when he also kissed Haley

Fhjfhkjfhjfh Keith fulfilling my fave trope of ‘we are not even dating but how about we get married bc we’ve been repressed in love for years’

“You know I asked your mom to get an abortion,” said Dan, to his literal son

I really can’t figure where this pregnancy storyline is going bc I know Brooke doesn’t have a baby

Nathan and Haley really need to consider oral or smth there’s a middle ground between making out and having vaginal sex

“It all hurts just the same” Brooke really out here trying to say that cheating is in any way equivalent to faking a pregnancy (even if only for a week)

Peyton and Brooke are way more invested in each other than Lucas 

“I got you a high five” Hahahhaa I love Peyton 

Gary like: Wow Nathan it’s humanizing that your father is an abusive dick

“Maybe this is the one that changed him” Lucas joining Dan as the second and only non-Dan member of the Dan Scott Apologism Club

It’s wholly unreasonable that Haley expects her boyfriend not to look at p*rn lmao

I love all this Lucas and Nathan bonding but I hate that it comes at the cost of Dan being near them at all u stay away from those boys u manipulative fuck

Ah the foreshadowing about Peyton changing in front of her webcam finally pays off

I’m no legal expert but I don’t think that taking your daughter out of state will help you in the custody battle in the long term Jake - nor will dropping out of high school

“What do I get out of it” r u 4 real Keith u dont get payment for loving your family

“I’m leaving because I can’t look at you anymore without my heart breaking” I like you Keith but that sounds like a You Problem

This is a fun way to shoot this episode One Tree Hill has such good directing tbh

Nathan discarding the Scott name from his jersey just like Lucas did in ep 2: 

Haley: Having sex will solve all of my problems Nathan what are you talking about

I remembered that at some point Deb and Keith have sex and I’m glad they fuck things up early bc I could not deal if it was later on

“I’ll miss you too, little brother” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

KJKGHKJHGJHKJHGKJHKJ I CAN’T BELIEVE NATHAN AND HALEY GOT MARRIED JUST TO HAVE SEX THIS IS WHY THEY DON’T LET PEOPLE YOUNGER THAN 18 VOTE

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          whats up ! its ur local feral goblin nora ( 23, she/her, gmt ) bringing u yet another baby i dug out of the trash and vomited onto the dashboard. a fake psychic slash rodeo bull sensation studying at hendrix but born in marfa, texas. luvs wearing gingham print dresses and cowboy boots n always in loads of rings and necklaces w flowers in her hair. very into art and pornography, and particularly the combination of the two. wants to do a PHD on gender studies and female autonomy in porn (yeehaw!). this is a pinterest board. without further ado, here’s frida !

hendrix template.

( cis-female ) haven’t seen FRIDA CALHOUN around in a while. the ELIZA SCANLEN lookalike has been known to be (+) SCHOLASTIC & (+) PLUCKY, but SHE can also be (-) DOGMATIC & (-) SINGLE-MINDED. The 18 year old is a FRESHMAN majoring in GENDER STUDIES & VISUAL ART. I believe they’re living in AUDAX, but I popped by earlier and no one answered the door. ( nora. 22. cowboy time. she/her. ) 

 aesthetics.

a red gingham print dress from your childhood that tugs at the seams and hitches at your thighs. brown cowboy boots still thick with the dirt of a marfa desert. stripper heels decorated with hello kitty stickers. a crystal ball you bought for a dollar from a one-eyed woman at a thrift store. dead flowers clinging to the braids of your hair. a rucksack permanently packed for the move. a streak of red across your lips. roller blades, cut knees, not eating your greens. smiling with a mouthful of blood. the female orgasm cut and pasted from pornhub and superimposed onto renaissance art. sweet wrappers scattered over the vinyl seats of an older man’s car. also this pic here is a big frida mood

connection to eva & did they choose her name during the watershed?

study abroad mentor. when frida moved to the netherlands to study, she was assigned a mentor to help her settle into campus life, since she was not of dutch heritage. eva was her mentor for her first few weeks of study, though they weren’t really friends. occasionally they hung out if they saw each other out at night, but they weren’t like... super close.

ok,.... so first up ! despite going to uni in amsterdam, this gal was born and raised in the ole’ U.S of A. she’s from marfa, texas. it’s a very arty place. she was surrounded by art wankers as a child and it kind of educated her to a lot of shit, but also meant she grew up p fast?? like she learned about sex and death and violence from all these art people who thot they were Freeing her Superego n makin a genius child bt rlly.... they shd hav just let her play with dirt rather than showin her artistic representations of the inside of a dead bird.

 BACKSTORY TIME.. her mother was from the wrong side of the tracks, wanted 2 go to art school and started working as an erotic dancer to pay for college but then jst.... ended up staying there. one of those girls u see in the documentaries who had Big Plans but ultimately never got to pursue them n jst got.... sucked in by the money

 frida was raised in dressing rooms surrounded by sparkly costumes and nipple pasties and leotards and the like. as a kid she’d try to trot about in her moms heels n yearned for the day she’d be able to be on stage. 

if you’ve seen pretty baby its a bit similar to tht..... her mom works in a brothel n has her quite young n the expectation is her daughter will probs end up working at the brothel too when she's old enough. no1 really expected frida to get into a good uni or anythin

frida was p much raised by the town, to be honest. most of her youth was spent scurrying about half naked in cowboy boots and glasses too big for her face. a smol feral child

as a kid used to lie about being able to see dead people bcos she thought it’d make her seem cool and interesting to other kids n it got the attention of the girls her mom worked with. but when her mom realised people were willing to actually believe a 7 year old had seen their dead scorned lover, she saw it as an opportunity to swindle some extra cash and registered her as a child psychic n started putting adds out in local papers for palm readings and tarot predictions. 

when her mom hit 30s she couldn't hack being a sex worker any more, so she set up her own fortune telling business and hired a load of the girls from the club to be fake psychics. it was sort of a fortune telling parlour slash brothel, bt they kept tht very under wraps. palm reading upstairs, handjobs downstairs. the reason why some of the women from the strip club agreed to work there was because it was a business actually run by a woman who got what was going on, n not jst someone trying to make quick cash out of old men wanking

as a child, frida was on a few tv shows in the netherlands  making psychic predictions in front of live tv audiences and attempting to reach out to the spirits of their loved ones. this con continued into her teenage years, she even did youtube videos n had minor success, though she was accused of being a cheap horoscope predicter and packed it in shortly after a twitter backlash. 

if pressed, frida still claims to have a gift, but that it's not as simple as switching a light on and off, it comes when it comes, you can't summon it, and that's how she gets out of being labelled a fraud if anyone who recognises her demands a reading.

ws street smart, but also did super well at school? quite charming as a kid and good at winning adults over because of a life growing up basically conning rich white women out of their money just by telling them stuff they wanted to hear. was moved up a grade in junior high and graduated early. attended a summer school, before choosing to study in amsterdam because of the appeal of the red light district. very interested in the lives of sex workers and the way they express themselves. is only a freshman but, is like, 50% through her degree already jst cos she’s..... super passionate about her subject getting recognised as a legitimate brand of academia

she wanted to study gender performativity in the lives of sex workers and plans to do her thesis on the porn industry. it might be because of her childhood, growing up surrounded by sex workers, but she's obsessed with it, looks at mathematical structures and symbols in porn through a lens of politics and art history. very interested in visual art.

some ?mildly amusing? facts

owns 4 tarot decks and a crystal ball she bought frm an old lady with one eye

favourite drink is cherry coke

part of a burlesque collective at hendrix university who run speakeasy nights. is trying to set up her own small-scale grassroots burlesque group in one of the more mainstream clubs along the strip bcos there’s so much money and female tourists go wild 4 it

sells nudes on twitter. whenever she gets low on cash she contacts one of the seedy old men who used to visit her mom's club to venmo her $500 in return for pictures

that girl who’s always harping on about body positivity on instagram while wearing cute underwear and looking absolutely bomb 

really good at rodeo bull riding. the club in marfa had one so as a youth she got really good at it bcos she was constantly tryin to outdo her friends on who could stay on for the longest. a video of her staying on one for like 4 minutes after downing several jager bombs went viral once.

smol baby. 5′4. wears a lot of cute summer dresses n big boots. gingham is her usual dress style, or like red plaid, n then she’ll either have big white cowboy boots with spokes on the back or the really long doc martens. also owns a lot of abba-esque gogo boots and 90s creepers. flats?? who are they. has her hair in braids a lot, and usually has flowers or feathers threaded through it to add to her whole “mystic” vibe

micro-doses acid for mild depression bcos she didn’t believe in “that CBT bullshit”, thought that therapists, like her, were jst con artists so always a bit spaced out

her flirting technique is absolutely offering to read your palm. she used to do it all the time at school its how she met most of her eighth grade boyfriends. 

volunteers at one of the local galleries but mostly just rants to old white dutch men about how cis white men have dominated art for years :/ is one of those SJW-types but only?? when it comes to art?? 

has a pet rat called popeye

takes photographs of dead animals to use in her art and often posts them side-by-side with stills of women in porn to show the shelf-life of female sex workers in a patriarchal-dominated industry or some bullshit idk

big into spoken word poetry, even if its shit. likes savage depictions of femininity

wrote a thesis on art as an act of masturbation that got published 

big into capitalism and commodity culture. loves it.

wanted plots, fucker

ppl who are also studying @ hendrix but speak english !! bcos frida finished her exams a year early at like 17 n just up and left to amsterdam cos she knew if she got in-state tuition she’d never leave texas, she came to the netherlands with like, 40 dollars and a phrase book. eva was kind of her study-abroad mentor to help her settle into amsterdam campus life

ppl she met at an inter-school maths championship competition or something really fuckin nerdy like that. she probably got entered in a spelling bee or two, she was her high school’s pride and joy until people started calling her a slut in toilet door grafiti 

hook-ups !! frida does not do relationships, she had several girlfriends as a kid but she enjoyed the thrill of the chase more than being with one person. pan, but not about befriending straight men. very much fuck-em-and-chuck-em wham-bam-thankyou-ma’am when it comes to guys. that said, if u think ur character cld get under her skin n try n change that by all means be my guest

other ppl who wld be in burlesque with her. also she goes to strip clubs n peep shows like every day, thats basically research for her, so if ur characters would be into strip clubs they might see her there

she volunteers at a few galleries, tht is also a possible place where they cld kno each other from

i feel like she’d be on student council if they had one of those. shes that kind of bitch, turning up like elle woods with a big feather pen or a light-up heart marker, slamming down some truths before upping and leaving to go for her 11am chai latte break

mayb someone she’s trying to coach into being more body confident through self-expression in burlesque.

som1 who attended the art institute in marfa for a summer n maybe knew her when she was a bit younger ??? idk

drama. angst/ horror. someone accuse her of being a fake psychic and she’ll predict your horrific untimely death

nice bike rides in amsterdam please

yea like this if u a) want to plot or b) think the self is as undefinable social construct and i will slide in ur dms to further discus ruckus  x x

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get to know me uncomfortably well

thanks for tagging me syd!! i’m doing this one to make up for all the other ones i had no motivation to do i’m sorry )): i love you so much @pitoftrash

1. What’s your middle name?

elizabeth

2. How old are you?

simultaneously an enthusiastic mom, your dad and eating like a 7 year old

3. When is your birthday?

may 30th!!

4. What’s your zodiac sign?

gemini!! moon in aquarius and sag rising 

5. What’s your favourite colour?

red and g o l d

6. What’s your lucky number?

i don’t really have one? but 5 has consistently been in my life so let’s go with that

7. Do you have any pets?

the prettiest cat named sadie!!

8. Where are you from?

a small farm town in central utah!! everyone talks like a hick and i kinda have a stupid drawl

9. How tall are you?

5’2″ boys

10. What shoe size are you?

women’s size 5 

11. How many pairs of shoes do you own?

my feet haven’t grown since straight up 5th grade so like 30 pairs?

12. What was your last dream about?

i don’t remember my dreams

13. What talents do you have?

being a dumb bitch, falling for people who are emotionally broken, being bad at math, flirting and i have good fashion sense

14. Are you psychic in any way?

does being empath count as being psychic?

15. Favourite song?

this is a fuckin impossible question but right now i’m rlly into girl in red and girls by her fuckin slaps @pitoftrash it’s our sad indie shit and it’s GAY you’d love it (of all the time: somebody to love or under pressure by queen)

16. Favourite movie?

the breakfast club cause i’m basic

17. Who would be your ideal partner?

someone who loves unconditionally, willing to listen to my shit, goes on adventures with me, kisses lots, tons of cuddles, sings with me in the car, will talk about the things they like and let their eyes light up, funny

18. Do you want children?

i do!! but bringing a child into this world right now feels so selfish and there are so many kids out there who need loving homes so i wanna become their bisexual mom (:

19. Do you want a church wedding?

not really. i want a huge wedding that’s so fucking extra and over the top and god probably doesn’t wanna see that so

20. Are you religious?

i grew up mormon (yes i know it’s basically a cult) but do i believe in god? not really.

21. Have you ever been to the hospital?

i have been inside a hospital but i have never ever been admitted

22. Have you ever gotten in trouble with the law?

it was a dumb idea okay

and i’m a shitty driver

23. Have you met any celebrities?

my cousin was on agt???

24. Baths or showers?

showers mostly but i love a good bath bomb

25. What colour of socks are you wearing?

i'm not wearing socks

26. Have you ever been famous?

bruh that’s my dream

27. What type of music do you like?

all types really!! i’m into classic rock, alternative/punk, sad indie shit, i LOVE country and pop!!

28. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

no but i wannaaa

30. How many pillows do you sleep with?

f i v e but they’re only around me and not actually underneath me

31. What position do you sleep in?

only ever on my back or else my back is fucked the next day

32. How big is your house?

pretty big for like the general house size?? but pretty small by utah’s standards.

33. What do you typically have for breakfast?

i never eat breakfast 

34. Have you ever fired a gun?

nope and i have no desire to

35. Have you ever tried archery?

yeah!! it was fun but i’m shit

36. Favourite clean word?

dang dang diggity dang a dang

37. Favourite swear word?

hella or fuck

38. What’s the longest you’ve gone without sleeping?

4 days

40. Have you ever had a secret admirer?

no lmao someone pls be into me

41. Are you a good liar?

yeah, i’m a gemini what do u expect

42. Are you a good judge of character?

my vision gets pretty fogged up by what people want to show me and what i want to see

43. Can you do any other accents than your own?

specifically, cockney and we did newsies last year for musical theatre so i can do a pretty mean manhattan accent y’all

44. Do you have a strong accent?

if i am talking loudly or passionately my hick/drawl kinda comes out oops

45. What’s your favourite accent?

australian

46. What is your personality type?

enfp

47. What’s your most expensive piece of clothing?

oh god!! my hoco dress was 90 bucks probably that?

48. Can you curl your tongue?

sure can!

49. Are you an innie or an outie?

innie (:

50. Left of right handed?

right-handed

51. Are you scared of spiders?

yeh i’m scared of all bugs including honeybees but that doesn’t mean they don’t deserve rights

52. Favourite food?

i <<3 italian food and also chinese-american food!!

53. Favourite foreign food?

i do like korean food

54. Are you a clean or messy person?

messy but like organized messy

55. Most used phrase?

oh my god! or omg

56. Most used word?

aw

57. How long does it take you to get ready?

like glam? 45 minutes but i hate waking up and can b ready in 15 

58. Do you have much of an ego?

it rlly depends like the stars rlly need to be aligned

59. Do you suck or bite lollipops?

suck ;)

60. Do you talk to yourself?

a l w a y s

61. Do you sing to yourself?

(syd u do smile when u sing omg) and yes!! i sing all the time

62. Are you a good singer?

n o pe

63. Biggest fear?

failure, being taken advantage of, being hated

64. Are you a gossip?

i hate myself for it but yes

65. Best dramatic movie you’ve seen?

idrk??? i donn’t watch a lot of movies??

66. Do you like long or short hair?

i’m a sucker for long hair

67. Can you name all 50 states in America?

and the capitals too

68. Favourite school subject?

history, musical theatre, english, sociology

69. Extrovert or introvert?

probably extrovert

70. Have you ever been scuba diving?

nooooooo but i really really want to!!

71. What makes you nervous?

ghosts

72. Are you scared of the dark?

ghosts live in the dark

73. Do you correct people when they make mistakes?

not most of the time

74. Are you ticklish?

yeah

75. Have you ever started a rumour?

nope never

76. Have you ever been in a position of authority?

i’m on drama presidency at school?

77. Have you ever drank underage?

nuh uh

78. Have you ever done drugs?

nope 

79. Who was your first real crush?

tbh rachel greene i grew up watching friends and she was hot

80. How many piercings do you have?

1 set, but i want more!

81. Can you roll your R’s?

i had no idea this was a special skill but yes!!

82. How fast can you type?

not bad but not great

83. How fast can you run?

not my thing

84. What colour is your hair?

blonde

85. What colour are your eyes?

green

86. What are you allergic to?

i’m lactose intoleranat, and i’m allergic to tomatoes 

87. Do you keep a journal?

only for like rlly important evants or things i need to talk about but can’t tell anyone about @pitoftrash is kinda my diary

88. What do your parents do?

my mom is a respiratory therapist a childrens hospital and my dad is a private loan officer

89. Do you like your age?

hmmm yes?? but i’d rather go back in time or forward bc rn it’s kind an awkward age of being able to do Stuff but nothing worthwhile

90. What makes you angry?

politics, ignorance, prejudice, homophobia, pro-life people, right wing america, donald trump

91. Do you like your own name?

yeah but sometimes i wish it had an easier nickname

92. Have you already thought about baby names? And if so, what are they?

i love the names rowan and christian

93. Do you want a boy or girl for a child?

either, it doesn’t matter their sex, gender or sexuality to me (:

94. What are your strengths?

n/a

95. What are your weaknesses?

bruh i’m clingy and talk too much

96. How did you get your name?

my dad always wanted to name a child sarah elizabeth?????

97. Were your ancestors royalty?

actually i’m directly danish royalty!!

98. Do you have any scars?

stretch marks and like self harm scars

99. Colour of your bedspread?

white and gold

100. Colour of your room?

off white with yellowish undertones

[idolshineitai]

hi ian!!! 💭🌟🎤👤🎶

HI HI HI THANK YOUUU im happy ^_^ also huh ian sounds weird !!! i havent used that name in a long while but i liked being called “ian” short for “lillian” bc >:) weird n unexpected n Boy . ANYWAY YAY OK please don’t read all of this out of obligation >_<

bang dream! girls ask party!

💭 dream cards? WOO OK there r two moca ones which is funny but i’ve actually got them both!! THE OTHER TWO ……. heterochromic demon ako from the same set & RINKAORU!! the colors r so pretty

🌟 favorite card you own? OOH GOSH I GUESS MY DREAMIES ^_^ MAYBE ALSO YELLOW ROSE HAGU <3 yellow roses r my favorite .. & gay yukiran drama (Thats the main card i use in my band !!! I LOVE YUKINAS PURPLE STREAK MWA) & COMFY EVE SHES SO PRETTY i love her outfit & the warmth & then Tomoe my WIFE !! SHES SOCUTE PRECIOUS >:)

🎤 favorite band, character-wise? ROSELIA FOR SURE!!!!!!!! One of the very first conversations i ever read was of rinko telling ako she’d sew angel wings onto ako’s clothes next year & i just…. ahh their friendship. Its literally The sweetest they met over an online game that i wish existed irl (CAPITALIZE ON THIS!!!) & then they met up & THEYVE ACTUALLY ROPED THEIR BANDMATES INTO PLAYING TOO — Sayos rlly into it even on her own time & Lisa & Yukina play when the others play :) — ITS SOOO SWEET I ADORED THAT EVENT TO PIECES i actually got my very first event title then (SO HAPPY) bc i was so adamant abt getting the rinko but i didnt :(

Lisa & yukina the Intricacies. Ako lil sib to everyone!!!!!! LISA BIG SIS TO EVERYONE except maybe the other big sis characters shes bonded w ……LISA CUTTING OFF HER NAILS (THAT MEAN SM TO HER) AT THE FIRST SIGHT OF GETTING TO PLAY MUSIC W YUKINA AGAIN Do you understand do you Get Ittt. AAHH!! RINKO mental illness & etc. I have a hc abt her legs being fucky (which is the medical term /j) which contributes to her fear of crowds (on top of Having Anxiety, her aids r harder to use & there r more ppl to b rude) & her preference to stay inside doing more low-energy things like her vidya games ♡ BUT Ako pushes her to experience more things, lovingly, & understands her ALSO THE WAY AKO TALKS.. HUGGY HUG….she loves to sound cool but sometimes doesnt have the vocab & ….!! <3

Sayo i think has a crush on yukilisa tbh. Also its hard to mention her w/o mentioning her twin which feels like a disservice to her on my part BUT its a big part of her story especially at first !!! Fffwwwwh….they dont get along well & sayo feels cramped & not good enough Bc hina does everything sayo does but EFFORTLESSLY better (also while being not at all a serious person, whereas sayo Is) but hina is doing these things bc she looks up to sayo & they just. Clash a lot for a long while. But theyre better now !!!!! & ahhhhh the hina&sayo storyline where hina asks sayo if she remembers why she (sayo) dislikes carrots & sayo says No & hina reminds her it’s bc sayo always ate hinas carrots for her when they were kids bc hina didn’t like carrots, but then Sayo couldnt finish her OWN carrots & would get in trouble w their parents. For her. dies.. also canonically their hair color (idk how to describe it, ppl call them “tealettes” lol????? it could b a pale teal i Guess) is natural while sayo cracks down on dyed hair (against dress code) it’s really funny

👤 favorite character? I HAVE SO MANY *SWEATS* BUT!! Rinko was the first i got attached to .. . & kaoru has a special place in my heart <3 i can ramble about her for a really long time & i have done so & i feel as if nobody gets her like me — i could definitely be taking her too seriously but it’s canonical that her persona is just that, a persona (IM GONNA YELL ABT THE HAIKU COMIC FOREVERRR FYI JSYK), & sometimes she does want to be Really Known & . ilh ilh ilh ♡

🎶 favorite song from each band? YES YES YES OK This might be harder than i thought o_0

afterglow - on your mark

hello, happy world! - goka! gokai!? phantom thief!

morfonica - flame of hope

pastel*palettes - wonderland girl

poppin’party - (THIS ONE WAS SO HARD THERE ARE SO MANY GOOD ONES!!!!! But) tokimeki experience!

raise a suilen - hell! or hell? (← first song i remember hearing & first one i fell in love with & I LOVE IT SOOO MUCH.. i don’t know the jpdori to endori timeline but i hope it gets to en soon!)

roselia - (…) louder & neo-aspect (…sorry)