#cant wait ot see whats next!

[girlhorse]

Wait im having sad complicatrd thoughrs again and i dont have a therapistm tumblr post.imminent

cancer cw

i grw up with family dying from cancer left and right. my family was older and so a lot of it was age related

but it was just my reality for a long time

thru adulthood really

and i always thought the scariest was brain cancer! fucking brain cancer. no one in my family ever had it and it seemed like it was rare nd id never find out what itd be like to go through seeing a loved one suffer from it. and of course its my fucking mom. my mom who i love to the moon and back. my mom who I've had a lot of disputes with and a lot of trauma around bc of her freaking boyfriend.

my mom who has always been the capable and strong and smart person of the family. she was supposed to stay around to help me buy my first house and help me with a serious relationship and see kids if i ever got any (adopt probably) and go to a wedding and shit. ajd now its all so uncertain if she'll even make it past another year.

another fear i had growing ip beyond just death of my parents (i alwyas knrw my parents were old compared to peers, they didnt have my brother and i until their 40s) was related to cognitive decline like Alzheimer's/dementia/etc. And im now facing it head on with a fucking terminal brain cancer. what the fuck is my fucking life man. Im trying to he so strong. but my smart and strong mom cant even type without making fucking gibberish nonsense and her hand falls in her food and she pisses herself and cant fucking walk anymore and i hate my fucking life

despite everything she still finds the stremght to joke around and laugh and eat and care for everyone that is impacted by this and i hate it so much. i can only sit here and make her comfortable in the moment and hope she can make it a little longer..or if im daring for more, hope theres a fucking miracle cure out in the next few months or something . Lol

lmfao

through all this fucking bullshit i have to fucking put up with my fucking step dad i hate his guts hes.not helping her in the way he could be becauseue feels like he has to control everything ajd hes too afraid to let her try OT and PT andhe thinks shes end stage for some fucking reason amd he keeps reminding me of that and i want him to explode for real!

[reidmym1nd]

my thoughts on tonight's ep

spoilers for s2 ep4

WHAT A FUCKING EPISODE

MORE OF MILLY AGHHH AND MORE CONVOS IN HIGH VALYRIAN

uh oh rhaenys knows....and she died knowing omgg

THE MOONTEA FOR ALICENT HELLOOO also now she's questioning everything LOL

alicent drinking the tea is such a parallel to her giving tea to dyana

WE GOT MORE OF AEMOND SPEAKIMG IN HIGH VALURKAN IM GOING TO FREAK THE FUCK OUT

ewans valyrian is so smooth and omg its like music to my ears(may or may not have rewind it a couple times)

aegon not knowing high valyrian vs aemond knowing how to speak ot omg, i love that scene, juat shows aegon isnt fit to be king and aemond is (CANT WAIT FOE PRINCE REGENT ERAAAA)

HELLOOO DAEMON DRESSED AS AEMOND

alys infact does not have a california/american accent LMAOO

HOW MANY DEAD PEOPLE ARE WE GOING TO SEE IN THIS EP?

yall why does gwaynw look kinda...LMAO

THE VISENYA BRAIDD AHHHH

SUNFYRE IS CUTEEEE i wasnt expecting aegon being nuzzled by him😭😭

THE LEAKS ARE TRUEEE AHHH

my girlie rhaenys, may you rest in power HOW YOU GONNA DIE ON UR BIRTHDAY UGH

top highlights of this ep was aemond's high valyrian, humiliating aegon in front of the council and him trying to kill aegon

THE PRINCE REGENT ERA IS HEREEEE i cant wait for the next ep

aemond in his kingslayer era 🤪☝🏽i literally dont care what yall say but aegon thinking he was gonna get help from his brother and forgetting he humiliated him in a brothel

i cant wait to see what aegon looks like now

[gigglesandfreckles-hp]

Are Lily and Fleamont about ot become my newest obsession?? Im absolutely obsessed with their dynamic in the most recent chapter. Im also absolutely obsessed with the way you've given us two competely different opinions of him in Lily and James but neither of them contradicts the other! Cant wait to see what happens next

ha! welcome aboard the 'james potter does not have a perfect family' train which i conduct recklessly and at full speed ahead.

but thank you for this! i take great care to try and make all of my characters complex in some way, which often includes some unreliable narrating every once in a while...lookin' at you, james. thanks for reading my silly little words and coming over to leave me a kind message x

and for what it's worth...lily and fleamont are also special to me because they're (very loosely) inspired by my own boss and our early days! he's been a great mentor to me for many years and now i'm a principal-in-residence with him supervising my practicum.

[iwontstopme]

dinner! 5pm: 280 left: 222

cheese perogi! i was going to have some riced cauliflower too but i was so full after eating the perogi... and i like to eat things piece by piece so i just never got to it :-

daily total: 798/1000

and stayed inbetween fasting time <3

march 30:

1000, 400 per (2) meal, 200 for snack

fasting between 530pm and 930am

breakfast, 10am: 190 left: 810

oatmeal w/ brown sugar and strawberries

iced green tea cause my coworker made too much :) <3

[ellellen]

‼️TW: bad english‼️Wait.. Wait, wait. Just before we start, yall need to get to know the charachters, and some past before all that chaos.. right? lets start. (there all r 15-16, execept ppl who have siblings) James, evryone think the apocalyptic started bc of him. hm, you will find out. or you wont? anyways he is in a group with 2 other ppl (basically an group of three) and he is an litlear jerk. He always bullies ppl and stuff. Anways next is Noah, He is in a group with James. He is rlly dumb. Not to be mean or smth but he cant even think staigh. He'll be walking norrmally looking staight and he will bump into smth. Anways he is too dumb to even bully, he ends up making fun of himself. And the last one in the group (main 3) Loga (short for logan) He is probably the most normal one. he dosent speak too much tho. He is just there to be there.. yk? anways they (main 3) used to bully allot of ppl (yall will meet them on the way) and they used to know alot of ppl. Ill just mention some. Ethan, he used to be rlly sweet and carring. Thats why he was made fun of in the first place. one day he just dissapired. Is he still the same? I guess well find out. Next is Mike. He is rlly mean and kinda of jerk. Anwyas he used to be made fun of too. But ppl kinda fogot aboth him. Him and Ethan used to hang out like alot. Anways lets meet some of the girls then get onto present. Luna, She is pretty smart and intelligent. She is pretty too. Alice, She can be smart if she wants too. She only cares ab her beauty tho. But i can say. She is stunning tho. Next is Scarlett, she is pretty smart, not only in school but when ot comes tho thinking. She is rlly strong too, and emo. Probably talest one. ???? ohh, well she is ?????? nothing much ab her. Anways "presents"



Noah: Uhh guys? I think there's something like rlly weird outta here. Somone is green. he is falling apart. im so confused..

James: NOAH GODAMMIT. ARE YOU HIGH RN? YOU INTURUPTED OUR FINALE GAME.

Noah: Um no..? Go look, he look goofy ngl.

James: Loga, go look.

Logan: bro why me.

James: bc. now go look.

Noah. Also, i think the school is burning. i saw fire.

Jame: WHAT. BRO. GUYS RUN OUTSIDE

Noah: Guysss. I kinda forgot to tell yall but the teacher told us 3 hour's ago to get outta of school..

James: NOAH. how in the fuck could you forget that.

Noah: sorry, dont blame me that the tacher is lazy to tell yall.

Logan: Guys please. dont start fighting, we can all co- OH LORD YALL RUN.

James: WHAT WAS THAT.

Logan: ZOMBIES YOU DUBASS. ZOMBIIES.

Noah: WHAT. OH LORD. IM GONNA FAINT.. O LORD.

James: stop being dramatic. We need to find other ppl..

Logan: yea. James is right, we would be stronger. but at the same time th-

James: og stfu. Lets just find other ppl

Logan: Okay.. whatever you say.

Noah: guys, maybe we shall order food?

James: Noah you fucking idiot, we cant order food, who do you expect to bring us food? A fucking fly?

Noah: damn chill out i was just asking..

Logan: I mean we can just go to store and get food, we just need to be fast.

Noah: Guys, what will happend to Allen?

James: Who in the- Ah who is Allen

Logan: Its his sister, how do you forget, god yall r stupid.

James: shut up, you are always here to say smth

Loagn: anywas we can just go get her

Noah: yall somone is behind yall

James: dude. RUN.

*after like 20 mins*

Noah: Guys im outta breath. Wait..

James: YALL ITS FAST ASF. RUN.

Noah: Wait i cant.

*while with girls*

Luna: Girls, we really need to find an place to stay at.

Scarlett: We can stay at my place.

Alice: Okay ig if we need to. i just dont want to get my new dress dirty. It costed like alot "sobs"

Luna: yea.. whatever you say.

*at Scarlett's house*

Alice: ig its fine as long as my stuff dosent get dirty.

Scarlett: Og gosh. Alice i swear to god stop complaning.

Alice: Shut up, you stink.

Scarlett: What did you just say to me.

Alice: that you stink.

Scarlett: you will stink once i throe you outta this window to the zombies.

Alice: id like to see you try.

Scarlett: Oh yeah? Well-

Luna: guys just stop it. We have bigger problems to deal with.

Alice: yeah. okay. anyways, where is Lisa?

Luna: damn. i forgot ab her. ill call her to see if she is okay. "Calling Lisa"

Lisa: Gu..s.. H...Wh..d-d..i ya..l call me?

Luna: Hi Lisa, can you come over? btw i cant hear you very well. the connection is rlly poor.

Lisa:.....Come..fiv..e.mi.. "hangs up the phone"

Luna: I think she will come.

Alice: okay great!

Scarlett: We can clearly see who you like and dislike..

Alice: Yea, im happy that you noticed!

Luna: Huh. who could that be.

Scarlett: ill go get it

Alice: Ill come With

Luna: Same

Scarlett: Okay

????: Um. Hii, hope i can stay over for a while

all: oh. my. god.

[weebnotheree]

Oneshot - ✭¤ ᴀʟᴀꜱᴛᴏʀ x ʀᴇᴀᴅᴇʀ ¤☆ Part 3

wow O-O I didn't think you guys actually read the oneshots I posted.

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Part 2

~Smile Brother! You're never fully dressed without one!~

"Hmm hm hmm hmm... [hums while looking around then at Vaggie from the corner of his eye]. Smile, my dear! [tickles the underside of her chin] You know you're never fully dressed without one! [Walks away as he continues humming] So where is your hotel staff?" Alastor asked  Charlie. She put her hands together and motioned to Vaggie " Uh, well-"

Alastair chimed in as his brother chuckled with Vaggie glaring at the two brothers. "[adjusts monocle] Ohohoho, you're going to need more than that. Ah! I know! How about a game" he suggested. "A..game?" "Yes. A game" he said staring dead ahead of him while Alastor's smile became more expansive. "We don't have TIME for games! Charlie's dad will be here any minute with all the time you guys wasted!" Vaggie said with a hint of irritation in her voice, walking up beside her girlfriend. You see...Alastair isn't the one to just let things slide. Vaggie reopened trama that he would rather forget with that stunt she pulled earlier. 

PT3

"Well, I could give you anything. But nothing is for free" "What are you suggesting?"Charlie asked him..which caused him to grin. "Charlie you cant trust him! Or both of them for that matter!" 

"I've got a game I wanna show you. If I tell you my name, you'll have to play, too" Now that Alastair said that..they couldn't recall his name..but they know why he's there. Alastor chimed in"I've been here for years, biding my time Waiting and primed until I could find you"

"Just sign on a line and we can be friends" Alastor said trying to get Charlie to not think they were THat bad even though she knew they were. A contract appeared above his hand as it floated to her. "We'll be here for you until your world ends. Enjoy all your toys, we will supply"

[Alastair]"You only live once and you'll be mine. The day you die, I'll have my payment, Your eternal soul's enslavement"

[Alastor]"Did you divine our dark arrangement?" he questioned Charlie. Vaggie looked at her like she was crazy...angry..a what arrangement face. "You were lovely entertainment"

[Alastair]"The dark desires you've been serving. You can bet that you're deserving[boops their nose]"

[Alastor]"No regret for who you're hurting. Why it's almost like you're flirting?~" 'You shouldn't have messed with my brother' he thought looking at them, specifically Vaggie with a wide smile as his brother grew long antlers and changed into his demonic form but not completely. (pretend that u aka Alastair, blue)

SRRY DIDNT COMPLETELY FINISH!!! BUT ILL TRY POSTING NEXT TIME I GET ON HERE! And youll have ot lick these pics up

[viaalterego]

thank you @gummybugg for the tag! This is my first time doing this so it might sound strange. but this was a fun idea! hope to do more in the future! so without further ado here it the AM I THE A***HOLE for my WIP "Counting the Days Till Im Yours"

Am I the A**Hole for tricking the guy I look up to in to becoming my brother? ( I think not, but this is what reddits for amiright?)

I ,a very mature person, (16M) may have decived or tricked some randome Guy (21M) in to becoming my bruthor. An rn hes in the car w e as we head back to my place. And you might be wondrn, howd the hell did I get here…

So heres the story,

In my defense his fam is filled to the brim with uncaring a**holes and so I thought if no ones gunna care for dis guy, I will. My bruthor (19M) and Dad (very old) both laughed and said that I was too young to adopting people. But this Guy is so cool, he can play a giture and can write music and hes in collage but apperntly hes thinking about dropping out after the spring semester bc he keeps saying that his prof is an evil man that’s out to get him and he keeps tellinhim that he’ll amount to nothin if he “doesn’t get his act together”. (I told him that his prof sounds like a dummy, but for some reason he chooses to believes the b******) This Guy is so freaking amazing tho. Like at one point, There were some  stuid older kids who chased me down the road a couple of times  after school and Guy would always run out of work (a small groceries mart) to chase them off! Hed use his break time to check on me and wed hang out in the park for a bit. I think hes a really good person and that he desseves so much more… when I toldmy family, they both agreed that wi… Guy deserves a better life. But we knew that hed wouldnt want to come with us so, Dad used the same tackcit he used for my broher and i. Just wait… until th time was right.

And tured out we didn’t have to wait long… it was February and Dad got a notification that Guy had run of from his apartment only minutes after hed made it home ( dad instaled some cameras near his house so we could check uo on him) hed run to the park in panic. Now, ive seen im upset before, but this wasa brand new and at that moment, we all realized that the time was right. So I went ot Guy just to see if was okay, while my brother and Dad prepared for to take im home. And it happened!!

Im in the car sirtting right next to im rn with him. Hes asleep rn ( probly from whatever my brother gave him) so he doent know abou any of this . an ******* amazing urpise if you ask me! But we had to tie him up a bit bc Dad said that he “might panic and lose his **** once it wore of”. But im not too worried. He knows that I care about him, and now my brother and Dad want him to be apart of our family to! So not only does he get an new family I get a new brother out of this too. But…

Tbh he looked really scared when we went to meet him and when we stopped at a motel for he night (he did wake up) and still freaked the ***** out. Dad was able to put him back to sleep tho before  he was able to hurt himself. I couldn’t help but feel bad… like what if I got the wrung Idea and he hates me for it?? What if he doent see me as a brother as well?? What if he hates??

Oh wer  almost home! Cant have my “brother” wake up to a lil insecure baby now can we.

So I will leave this up to you internet people or Redditers, as ive heard it called.

Am I the A**Hole here??

PS… Oh and I will update!

[wingwongwangagain2]

Day 5

Last day! I really wanted to keep my badge but I was unable to :[

Its okay I took a picture of it.

Prison Cowboy.

VSS - vital sign stable

As we were chart reviewing today, we talked about stroke risks, considerations of possible stroke, will require imaging, acute stroke - CT scan, sub acute - MRI

Preview of what kind of pts we saw today. lady was hit by a car when she was on her ATV at highway speeds that was trying to throw away her spoiled meat. She lives on a ranch of 5000 acres.

We had some renal pts today.

obtunded - non-arousouble

syncope - pass out/ fainting - precaution to watch out for vitals esp bp.

HD - hemodialysis

Renal pts- watch out of diaylsis schedule, electrolytes, fluids, vitals

want to consider seeing with OT because if pt goes into afib- RVR they can be able to generate a eval for both pt and ot instead of unable to do it for either or and wait until pt is stable again.

first pt we saw was a renal pt, we co treated this pt was kristy w. She was pretty new, but she was kinda fine. but we sat the pt on the commode but she was just going for a while and courtney was like uh i cant wait for you to finish so she left.

second person we saw was the bald dude with the weird head shape that broke both his legs in a car accident. non weight bearing t transfer dude. but we cotreated with emily k and we slide boarded him into a wc. we did wc training with him and he was all mentioning that someone rigged his car, but that was probably his tbi coming through.

next i parted ways with courtney and i started shadowing jesse. it was interesteing. i was seeing an old lady that had a fall that broke her mandile in two places and dislocated her tmj that had a wire as well as a close reduction of her tmj. it was fine jesse did a quick tinetntti on her and she was on a all liquid diet because her jaw was wired shut.

jesse mentioned that his outcome measures are usually documented by exclusion in acute care.

a tip is to tie the socks on the end of the bed rails

next we had a tbi mexican dude. he had a massive TBI, he was high on cocaine and ETOH had a liver laceration colon repair and a bunch of other stuff. jorge. his right side was paralyzed. he was rancho 5? 4-5. he was unable to fully communicate but communicated a little bit, minimally responsive. he had a trach and a tube feed. peg tube.

jesse said to unplug it turn the knob towards the pt before unplugging or else it will leak. he was able to move around and had no tone or spasticity. jesse tried getting him up but he ended pooping him self and kept pooping. he jus got him back in to bed.

next we say eric. jesse was just overseeing jess and phil the ot treat his man. he had an anoxic brain injury, hypoxemia from his dm2 attach and had acute resportaory failture. he is 50 years old and also has cdiff. the whole time they got him up max assits to the chair and he was just turning his head and gasing side to side. he didnt let peoplke get close into his bubble and swatted them away. they were trying a lot of different things to illicit purposeful movement or response from him to get his attention to do something. it was a goal of habiuating with intetional movement. he was non verbal. i think they spend about an hour just in there trying to figure out what to do and plan of care and how to progress him meaingfully. they talked about how each doc keeps messing with his medication and his head turns are new. and previously he was doing well but he has declined. his mom tracked his medication and his good and bad days and they found and associatation with a certain drug. he was combative prevuiosuly.

he had invounltary head turns and movements

next i was back with courtney, we saw the lady that was hit by a car on her 5000 acre ranch on her atv. her l side was all messed up and had a clavicualur fx that made her nwb on her left side and nwb on her l lle. we just sat her on eob and thats it. she also had spine fxs

finally we saw the last lady chris, chocolate pudding lady. she was the similar condition with fistulas on her abdomen due to complicatins with gi stuff, like the fat boy with gsw. she has a wound manger in her intestntine. she previously had an ex lap that intesntine surgery. she pooped and then we walked her and went into the kitchen for her to grab stuff. then walked to the window and rested and her husband came iwht wendies frosties. we co treated with emily k. ot. we just then walked her back and sat her down.

different types of feeding tubes,

NG- nasogastic

NJ- naso jejunal

J tube - jejunal tube

peg tube - percutanenous endoscopic gastrostemony (procedures)

G tube - goes into stomatch

lopex valve

bumper and peg tube

entero-entera lfistula

gastrointestinal fistual

ostomy bag

medicare is the best for 65 and older, approves everything like rehab. private as secondary.

privates for 65 and younger sucks because arounf 50-65 they deny ipr alot

bed rails all 4 is restraint 3 is ok.

[pesterloglog]

Feferi Peixes, Kanaya Maryam

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[aisha-ot]

Hi there everyone,

I’m back and ready to update you guys on this new journey.

If you thought the last trip had some turbulence I don’t think you are ready for this one …

So this semester is all about psych. Get used to the word because you’re going to be seeing it quite a lot over the next few weeks.

This semester we’re working in John Conradie old age home. Which is a HUGE difference from working on physical aspects in a high turnover hospital like King Edward. The switch from physical to psych may be tough to follow but don’t worry we’re all on this journey together and I know we’ll wrap our heads around it eventually. Oh and not only are we in an old age home, we’ve also started something new where we visit a community in Durban every Monday and trust me when I say there is so much to talk about so fasten your seatbelts as we’re about to takeoff.

In this weeks blog we’re going to be looking back at our journey over the past few years and reflecting on how I’ve grown as a person and how I see myself growing in this new block. First and foremost I want to talk to you guys about the community we’re visiting and how it has already shifted my perspective on this degree and on my life personally.

As of 2022, around 18.2 million people in South Africa live in extreme poverty (You can find a table of the statistics below).

We always drive around and see these communities around Durban and South Africa in general and I know we always feel a pang in our hearts as we drive past thinking about the living situation of those living in the shacks. But let me tell you, nothing, absolutely nothing will prepare you for actually going into these communities and seeing how our own South African people are living. My heart shattered going into the crèche and seeing little kids with such bright smiles and hearty laughs in such poor conditions. Although community block has been such a common conversation amongst us ot students since first year, it was always just a conversation in my head I never actually processed what we were going into. It was as if the second we walked into the community my eyes began to see a whole new perspective on life and I cannot be more grateful that the degree I chose is pushing me to see these things and not keep me closed up in a little box. I cant lie, I am absolutely terrified for what’s next and more so for next years community block like this flight is about to crash. But I know that everything I’ve learnt over the past few years and everything I’m about to learn is what steadies us along this journey and I cannot wait to use my abilities to uplift these communities.

Moving onto the last two days at John Conradie. My word is it a change. I have been in hospitals like King Dinizulu or King Edward since we began fieldwork in second year and although it was difficult and a lot of work I thoroughly enjoyed it. But moving to an old age home has turned my OT world upside down. I’m working with new patients that are elderly and I’ve never worked with them before so their behaviors and their difficulties and problems is something that’s going to take some getting used to. It’s not that theres anything wrong with the facility at all, in fact, TAFTA is doing such incredible things for elderly people in South Africa and just being at John Conradie for 2 days has made me learn so much about them. Their staff are amazing and so kind, they look after the elderly and are so patient with each and every one of them. Below is a link that will lead you to TAFTA’s website which tells you all about their projects and about all the good they’re doing for our elderly South African’s and I suggest you give it a read because it’s honestly so heart warming knowing that there’s organizations like this that care for our people.

Seeing as first year was online, I had no idea what Occupational Therapy actually was. I was terrified that I wouldn’t know what I was doing or that I was doing everything wrong but looking at where I am now makes me so much more confident in my skills. Personal growth often comes from facing challenges and learning from experiences. It's about embracing change, adapting to new situations, and gaining a deeper understanding of yourself and looking back I can confidently say I’ve improved. I’ve learnt about my strengths and weaknesses and found areas that I need to improve in. At this point I can say I’m stronger when it comes to more physical OT aspects compared to psych. At the moment I feel lost starting this new psych block because my brain isn’t wired to think as quickly for a solution to the different problems I’m seeing. But don’t worry guys, this is day 1 of many to come. By the next blog or actually maybe a few later we’ll be seeing a whole new Aisha. My confidence has definitely skyrocketed since psych block last year. I know how to confront my clients and how to adapt to a change in situations but I know from now that I need to work on my interaction with elderly people because their behavior is different to what I’m used to. It’s nothing to worry about, just a little turbulence on our journey but as we already know, no flight on this journey is smooth but we get there eventually. I’ll see you guys on the next leg of this journey with your skills bags packed and ready to take on the next flight. 🫶🏼

[orphankin]

my friend hosted a bad fanfic drinking night so I wrote this specifically for that. please don't think this is genuine or that this is how I write. I will explode. anyway it's about Solas and the Herald of Andraste

Author bio:

Hi! :3 im the future best writier in America! I don say the world because of rr martin teehee. Heres a little something bive been workin on :) its about solas in high school! au. I don’t really know that much about him as a character but hes got like that dad teacher vibe goin on so I wanted to know what hed be like if he was son student instead! Here is is , my masterpiece

Soals: this isn’t my first day in high school, just so you now. Im actually in my third year, so ive prety much got this down pat. Every high school has its clicks. Weve got the mages and the red crystals that walk around. They’re scaryi on the football team. Weve got French club and the guildmaskers . hell theres even at emple just aross the way. But most importantly we have the herald of andy. Theyre sooooooo dreammy ~~~ every time thy walk pasty me int he hallway, I nearly FAITN . everyones had a hrush on them since forever but today is the day I make my move ,’;)

Salas: hey hot stuff hows it goin?

Hearld of andy: woah isn’t that a bit forward?

Solas: oh sorry itsj ust that youre on fire so I wanted mto make sure youre ok

Herald of andy: omg am i? -screams_ holy shit thanks for telling me im glad I put that out

Solas: yeah im glad youre safe! But maybe I should come over to ours later to make sure youre eally oka?

Herald of andy: um well imsupposed to have football practice after school

Soals: yeah but like youre prefect so I mean. Do you really need to practice?

Herald of any: oh I guess youre right@ ill meet you atmy place then/

Saolas: hell yah babey cant wait! *kissy fasce*

~~~

Back at their palce

Solas: omg your castle si sooo nice thanks for having me over

Herals of andy: yeah no problem

Soals: so let me check on that wound, hot stuff

Herald of andy: oh yeah! -removes jacket-

Soals: so youre just a litle singed on the jacken here but I need ot see yhour skin so make sure

Herald of andy: oh~ okay -blushes- -takes off shirt-

Solas: wow youre so warm. Maybef rom the burn

Sherald of andy: and youre like greally cold _gassps- at finger touches fromc old

Solas: if only I had someone who caould wrap something around me to be less cold -shivers-

Herald of andy: I mean my cloths are right there..

Solas: hee hee oh ya ok thanks! -peace sign fingers-I don’t know actually if this isenough im relaly cold -shivers but pretend this time-

Herald of andy: oh I mean I guess I can get closer . for the inspection too right?

Solas: omg yasss pelase do -puppy dog eyes-

Herald of andy: -puts check on bald tattood head_ actually this is really nice maybe? Do you tihnk?

Solas: yes omg I feel like im everything you need, do you tink? – casts spell-

Herald of andy: woah ! what speell dod you jsut cast?

Solas: oh uh iltll help you on the test omorrow! Tee hee

Herald of andy: oh I guess that s liek really cind of you actually omg thank you I was worred taht I wasn’t conna do well tomororow

Solas: well ic an help you sudy too your hormwork if you dlike?

Herald of andy: oh sure! Its in m room tho, I don’t know if that’s like weird or anything

Solas: -blushes- blushes ahah no its okay! Im already in your cloths so like whatver you know?

Herald of andy:hee hee -picks up solas and takes in to room- alryugiht! Heres it is. Do you oike?

Solas: omg its so spaceous, and what  a big bed you have!

Herald of andy: omg are you like a wolf or something? Aha grandma jokes

Solas: -bluishes- I mean I am wearing your clothes

Herald of andy: well we should fix that then shouldn’t we

-both start takin goff each others cloths and panting real hard-

Hearld of andy: are you sure you didn’t cast like a horny hot dog spell on me?

Solas: if I did, do you mind now?

Hardl of andy: oh I guess not, I just really need you inside me rn

o.O fade to black yuckkos!!!!!

~~~

Next day at wcool:

Solas; hey! Herald of andy! Omg last nigthw as so fun

Herald of andy: -is with friend group- um who are you?

Solas: we uh -whispers- did the nasty last night?

Herald of andy: uh I don’t remember anything about yesterday. Im gonna go now

Solas: shit! I think I made that spell too strong, they don’t remember antyhing abotu yesterday. But our special night! I guess ill just hve to di t again

_finds herald of andy in the lucnh room-

Solas: so uh youre one fire

Herald of andy: no I don’t think I am

Solas: -casts a spell- no like you are

Hearld of handy: um why is my jacket so cold

Solas: -shiti wrong seplle!- uh I mean I could wamr that oup for you if youd let me wear it later tonight -wink-

Hearld of andy: sorry I have tennis practice

Solas: aren’t you the best tho?

Hearld of andy: not in tennis! Only if football

Solas: well ahwat if we played frotball instead?

Herald of andy: um that sounds gross I coulld never play frottball with you

Solas: we’ll see baout that – winks-

-later at tennis court-

Solas: wow! Look at hour strong they are! I wish I woas that ball – blushes- oh their strong arms could do som uch to me! -cheers herald of andy on- whoo hoo go yeah!hit that thang!

-after rpacetice-

Herald of andy: wow it was actually so nice taht you came to practice omg thank you, no one else cheers for me even tho iave got a lof of friends

Solas: ill always be there for you bb

Herald of andy: hey do you cthink you can warm of me jacket for me?

Solas: oh totally! -grans hold tightly-

Hearld of andy: oh haha I meant back at my ;ace ;p

Solas: -blushes- ok~~

-at hearsld of andy house again-

Heralds of adny: -picks up solas- ive got you now bitch.

Salas: is chocking- whats the fuck?

Hewarld of andy: I asked me frinds what happened yesterfday and they said that I skipped football practice for some tiny little eplf dweeb. What did yo u do to me! Why cant I remember?

Solas: we sahred a really spaceal ngith together ok? You really enjoyed yoruself and said youy wanted more!

Herald of andy: then why don’t I remember it! Why would you make me forget it! No you’ve got too fair! -atatacks-

Soals: woah… the full puwer of the herald! – cums-

Herarld of andy: oh my maker fucki! Tahts groosss!!

Solas: are you sure you don want to play frotball? Now?

Fade to black~~~

 ~~~

Beginin=g of sendior year

Salas: hey herald of andy..

Herald of andy: what do you could passibly want?

Solas: I juwast wanting to tell you that

Herald of andy: I DON’T WANT TO HEAR IT -they said while being loud-

Solas: -says while bing quite- im pregnant..

Herald of andy: what?? That’s not how frotoball works you can t be pregsnat

Solas: well I just am ok??? And……………………………… I miss you

Herald of adny: I don’t think that s my problem actually

Solas: - starts crying-

Andy: herald, what are you doing?

Herald of andy: andy?????? I thought your voice went out and that’s why you sent me to high school cause you couldn’t talk cause you’re voice went out??

Andy: thatw as last year herald but im back now and you better talke care of that kid in solass belly

Herald of andy: again tahtws not how frottdogging works like he cannot be pregnant. He just cannot be anywhere close tot hat state of mind of or body like don’t test me or ill sotp being your hearld

Andy: well I don’t need you anywmore anwyay cause my voice went back in babey so you know what im gonna do? Im gonna be the pasrent you referuse to be. Come to me solas

Solas: yes daddy 0runs into arms crying-

Andy: me and my boy girlfriend soals are gonna take a trip to Canada for our honeymoon and youre NOT INVITED

Herald of andy: well im gonna go marry football nd YOURE NOT INVITED

Andy: well were gonna play frotball and its bonna be so much better than you gould ever

Herald of andy: ew in front of the child? Ew

Solas: its not like theyre here yet!!! Stfu byu the maker fuck

Herald of andy: -is making out with a football-

Andy: -grabs solas and burst thoruight the ceiling flying away to quebic-

Football: -cries, is incomfortbale-

[cheswirls]

i had that surgery between posting abt tokrev and now n took a break from reading and so the first half of tenjiku arc is fuzzy BUT i did finish it today so heres an  update, ~190 chapters in

ive been vague b4 but this one will DEF have spoilers im talking openly abt so if you havent finished tenjiku arc dont read anymoreeee

i think i started last time abt the emma ch so to start off this one w the emma ch bc. damn. i think besides being absolutely heartbreaking this cemented kisaki as not necessary the enemy, but as someone who has done wrong. kisaki has been the main villain this entire time, but i mentioned this last time, its different being told someone has done something vs seeing it. besides him n hanma beating up chifuyu, everything kisaki has done hasnt had any proof to it. even when he says  something akin to ‘damn my plan is foiled’ its less admission when theres nothing to back it.

but emma changes that. now theres a homicide associated w kisaki. now theres a bad thing hes done right in front of the mc, and for all the viewers/readers to see. now hes equivocated w the death of emma. 

i think emmas death matters for two reasons, and one more than the other. the first is the impact it has on mikey. its shown a few times now what death will do to him, like w shinichirou and baji, but w emma it hits different. im gonna contrast her and baji on both points, not to take away from baji’s death, but to add to emmas.

if im not mistaken a majority of baji scenes were only shown after his death. i think it worked and the valhalla arc was  rly well structured, but what this left in turn was a sort of emptiness associated w baji dying. the readers didnt rly know him at all compared to some of the other toman captains, and it rly hadnt been shown yet wwhat his relationship w mikey was like. we see the effect it has in his rage towards kazu, and none of his grieving. even when at bajis grave, its chifuyu that gets a bigger focus than mikey. but w emma, it actively tears mikey up. he struggles to carry her to the hospital, hes visibly shaken when he tells takemichi shes grown cold, and hes absolutely dead inside when hina is crying at emmas corpse and drakon is yelling at him asking why he let it happen. it hits hard, and it shows, and it makes the impact that much harder, that she died in the past and theres no way tofix it. and the realization takemichi has right before, of ‘o yeah ive never seen grown emma come to think abt it’ then bam.

the second and much bigger point is the emotional impact is has on the reader. baji appears and is instantly a source of conflict. he outs himself from toman, he joins the enemy, he denounces chifuyu when questioned abt investigating kisaki. theres no reason to trust him n no reason to think he’ll turn back, and then only thing there is mikey saying he wants baji back.

emma had that amazing chapter not long before, and shes had a few focal points previously, like on her birthday, and on new years, etc. we’ve seen her as an individual first, then as mikey’s sister, and that makes a difference. seeing her even admitting izana was her brother rly hit different bc its emma, the emma that grew up w shin and mikey but had another life before that. that was the connection i kept making, even as izana explained he had more relation w shinichirou, bc it was mentioned by emma first, bc emma remembered him, after all those years. knowing izana was involved w her death made it hit harder. it hits harder in general bc its emma, someone whos been around since the beginning, and been explored more in depth. i felt sad when baji died, but i was destroyed and heartbroken when emma died.

which, going back, makes kisaki in turn absolutely despicable. deplorable. abhorrent. unforgivable. even more so when he shoots kaku, and then izana, thrice, and then izana dies. i still rly didnt. get? izanas motivations, but i started to feel for him thru mikey, when he realized it was izana shin meant when he asked abt a second older brother. kaku getting shot was unexpected and almost worse than emma in the moment, bc kisaki had a gun and even knives were kinda taboo weapons, guns were completely off the table, and he shot five times andinjured three people w every shot. im glad the tenjiku members that stayed behind told police abt kisaki bc the entire time he was running i was like um??? and even B4 that i was like hey no mikey you dont need to stay, yall jus nee to beat kisaki into submission n have him confess bc the gun is right there, the bullets are there, cmon now.

but then kisaki dies/????? the way its set up made me go crazy, thinkin someone did it purposely, but then the driver was a nobody, and then hes still alive after impact???? big surprise honestly. but then his arm n leg are emessed up, n he says he cant get up, n it took me a sec to realize he prolly lost coordination n not jus bc of one leg, like he prolly couldnt sit up at all, then he up n died rightthere. 

b4 thattho, was the confirmation. i completely always thought kisaki wasnt a timeleaper, i thought takemichi made atheory but  it was baseless, i didnt rly like it, and then the scene during the vs tenjiku when he says future stuff n kisakis like what?? are yiu talking abt??? BUT THEN then have their standoff in the same parking lot n kisaki says you are a timeleaper and i was like what? he can also??? but then he coudnt! he admitted, was like no in ever could, which means someone else is pulling strings if there is another timeleaper, andmy moneys on hanma, the only other one whos been around the whole time. maybe ill b surprised but i f its not him then theres not another one, imo.

kisaki dying caught me off guard. his whole ten year plan was absolutely nuts, ic ant believe he thought he could go up to hina n straight propose n she would say yes, like honestly would she even remember him at that point? regardless i knew from the cram school chapters that there was some connection there, but i didnt think hina dying was some jealousy-fueled hate revenge plot. wild. but now the “main” villain is dead so what goes from here? we willn see.

i am rly glad kaku made it out. tallying 3 deaths in the kanto incident was so confusing w emma being one of them but the reveal that kaku was alive was rly something. i hope more comes from him!! the setup between him n takemichi was rly rly nice!!!! i wanna see more

i am kinda sad abt coco, bc thesetup of takemichi protecting him from div5 was great, n inui is a permanant fixture in div1 now, so to see coco decide to split was kinda sad. hope he doesnt go down the wrong path. kinda expected to see more knowing how popular him n inui are?? but nontheless

and smiley and angry were so good!! souta and kawata are amazing and souta was not like what i was expecting at all, n now knowing that he cares a lot n is not rly a fighter but iss till in toman jus. rly speaks a lot abt mikeys judge of character n kawatas older brotherschtich that they would let him be vice of div4. seeing what kawata and mitsuya both did during tenjiku arc was rly nice. 

and then hina telling drakon andmikey!!! surprised they believed, but it rly will mak things move now. for ex the gun scene where hes abt to shoot kisaki, rly ready to end it, but then hina n mikey rush in. i rly like that knowing that they both know this takemici is from the future, bc they panic but their faith in him isnt lost ,y’know? like they see him desperate, n drakon has a great line abt takemichi’s desperation, theyre not seeing their friend abt toshoot someone n freaking, n they wont judge his sense of character off of that,instead theyre seeing the desperation of someone who wants things to change, and know they can talk him out of it, or if not that then at least ,like, its not going to change what they think abt him. iunno jus. nice little detail i loved while reading that.

[eelmachine]

lol crazy girl! new pot and medium 4 u next year ok :-) b patient

[dreezzle]

c!guqqie and c!bear just coming for my heart like that :((( im sad now

/rp

[myparadisechaos]

Meet

Steven Grant x Male!Reader

Part 1/8

Masterlist

Summary:

The end of one thing can be the beginning of another. And newly out of a reashonhsip Y/N Walker meets clumsy gif shop-ist Steven Grant on a Trip to London and Y/N might just start to belive in love again.

Warnings (kinda): Like 2 secs of Marc, the reader recently got out of a bad relationship,

Heartstopper Characters but you don't need to gave watched the series to understand :D

Few references tho

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*Y/N's Pov*

"Do we have to go?"

Tao asks Elle, moving closer to her as if that were possible.

"Yes! Plus I heard there is a Egyption exhibit on"

She turned to look at me, I had one earbud in, I was listening to 'What's it gonna be?' by Shura, but my attention is quickly grabbed by the mention of my current obsession.

" Wait really! Do you think they have anything on Taweret! She's the goddess of-"

"Uhhh"

Tao groans, Elle shuts him up wriu a kiss, leaving him a blushing mess.

"Hey you can't tell us of for PDA and pull shit like that!"

Charlie buts in from behind me.

"Well i think it's only fair now if-"

Nick didn't finish before Charlie pulled him in for a kiss.

"Guys! Stop making me feel so alone! Paris was bad enough! Plus you know about Aaron!"

"That was years ago!"

Darcy takes out her ear bud from the headphones she's sharing with Tara.

"Paris not Aaron, thats pretty bad"

Darcy mumbles after Tara nudged her.

"Still! And Issacs isn't here to vent to!"

I move on from the Aaron comment

"You mean to say your problems while Isaac ignores you and read whatever book his engrossed in!"

Tara adds, laughing at the word 'engrossed'

Before i can think of a response Elle speaks up.

"Guys! Look"

I look to where Elle was poiting and my eyes lit up.

"Look! They have a poster up for the exhibit! Wait.."

I walk faster in front of the group, in my rush to inspect the poster i bump into a stranger.

"Oh sorry"

I turn back to see surprising handsome stranger.

"Dont worry about it"

His accent makes him evern more attractive then i thought. When he looks up to meet my eyes i get a bettet look at his face i see his messy curly brown hair, alough it looks like he had just rolled out of bed it still made him look almost impossibly handsome. His beautiful brown eyes seam to grow even bigger the more i look at him.

"Y/N!!"

I here Tao shout, i look behind me to find the him standing at the doorway already, i thought i was ahead of them, how long have i been standing here?

"Oh sorry nice.. speaking to you"

I walked away, i slightly run up the stairs to meet Tao

"You mean staring, you barely did much talking"

Tao says mockenly as we walk through the doors.

"Shut up a grumble, my mood immediately picked up when i see the exhibit, i see the rest of the group looking at a sarcophagus, something inside me takes controll ad i walk over. Next thing i knew i was explaing eveythinh in so much detail, i wasnt even sure if everyone was listenig but i didnt care. I talked about how theu temoved evey oragn but the heart, as they belived they needed that to be judged in the underworld and that Taweret would guide them through and if you where worthy you would soend eternity in the peace in the Feild of Reed and if not your soul would be claimed buy the duat.

"Wow Y/N, you should really become a tour guide"

Elle says, i realise now she wad probably the obly one thats listening, Tao was clearly bored, but obviously wanyed to be close to Elle, holding her hand and playing with her hair. Tara looks like shes tring to look like shes listening but i can tell shes bored and Darcy is not hiding she would rather be anywhere but here, and Nick and Charlie were nowhere to be found.Alough they are me freinds and have been for so long i cant help but feel sad they wernt listening.

"Hey guys look!"

I turn around to see Nick and Charlie in the Gift, Nick shop, holding up a stuff Taweret.

"Oh my god!!"

I rush ovet and snatch ot from Nick and look at it with a goody smile on my face, the rest of the group follow behind.

"Guys! I have to buy this"

"Y/N its so over priced!"

Elle says, looking slightly concerned but is smirking at something, i try to brush it off untill i see everyone else doing the same.

"..why is overprice so funny?"

I ask, then the thoughts settle in, they where obviously laughing at me, my stuiped obsession with this. I shoudnt have gone on that rant i shoudnt have been to excited about a stuiped plush toy god im so s-

"Exuse me"

I turn round to see a blond women with a thick accent looking annoyed at me, i look at her name tag 'Donna' it reads.

"Are you gonna buy that because i have actual customer's and your in the way"

Bitch

"Actually i am"

I leave the group and walk over to the countet and place the stuffed animal on from before... and holy shit. Its the handsome strangers from before

"Hello again"

He says, not looking at me but at the stuffed Taweret, scanning it and tapping the screen. I look at his name tag

'Steven'

"Hi Steven"

I say, he looks up from the screen and seams caught of guard. Oh my gosh iv messed up.

"Ohmygodimsosorrythatwassoweirdandimsorryiju-"

"Hi Y/N"

Now its my turn to look shoked.

"Your freind called it out before, can i ask you looked to be in a rush?"

"Oh yeah.. well its..just and im not trying to slag of marketing! But um.. there is only 6 gods on the poster for the Enned but-"

"Theres supposed to be 7"

Oh my god.

Gods making up for the disaster that was Aaron by sending me this perfect man. Well, lets i just hope he like boys, and is single, who am i kidding no matter his sexuality he cant not be taken, i mean who woudnt. Hes cute. He lives Egyptian Mythology, at least i think or im over romanticising this but i cant help it.

"Yeah...and i wanted to make sure i counted right before i complaind to my friends but.. i dont think theyd.. never mind"

Alough he is positively the the most beautiful person i bearly even known

"No..its fine um that will be £20"

Wow. Talk about being over priced. But im here now and im and NOT going to back down, even as a broke collage student.

"Wow.. okay um.."

I fumble around in my green day wallet, i must have £20 somewhere maybe it i-

"Wait.. its on me"

I look up

"No.. Steven you dont have to i have here id i just-"

"If you feel bad you could buy me dinner"

Did his accent just change? It sounded American?? Must just be nerves.

"Yes!"

I blut out, maybe to fast, Steven probably looks more confused than me, but then it dawn on me im obly in town for a week, well 3 more days.

"But.. im visiting, i suppose we can ho out tonight and if it goes well we can keep in touch"

"Oh really?"

Steven looks disappointed, guilt eats me up even though its not my fault im dont live here,gosh im considering MOVING just to be with a man who i am yet to even go on a date with yet, but im heartbroken and hes hot.

"Um what hotel are you staying in? Ill pick you up i dont imagine you know your way around much"

I give him the name of my hotel amd my numbet, her writes it down in his hand.

"You do know sharpies are pernimaint right.. i will take ages to come off"

"Yeah.. well this is important"

I

Melted

This guy is little eveything i have ever wanted.

"Here"

He slides the toy across the counter

"Good choice by the way, maybe tonigjt qe can...talk about Egyptian Mythology?"

"I would like that very much Steven"

The smile on my face reaching my eyes, Stevens doing the same

"Oi!"

I turn around to be greated by Donna, or bitchface as i have named her now.

"Stevie stop giving love eyes to the customers and do your job!"

"Its Steven.. with a v"

He correct her, before i have time to pine over what he just said, i here my name being called

"Y/N!"

I turn around to see Charlie calling me over

"I heard i missed some stuff on Taweret, could you repeat it for me and Nick please"

My heart sweals with pride, maybe they do care.

"By Steven, ill text you"

"Laters Gaters"

I walk away, holding the plush to my chest and grinning like iv never before. I walk to meet Charlie and Nick, standing just outside the gift shop.

"Soooo"

Nick begins

"Shut up!"

I nudge him, in turn pushing Charlie as they where holding hands. They both stare at me as if waiting for me to say something.. witch i did.

"...i got a date"

"Did i just here date!"

Tao appears behind me out of nowhere

"Jesus Tao!"

He is followed by Elle, and Darcy, all smiling wildly, apart from Tara who looks concerned.

"Are you sure this is a good idea Y/N.. where leaving in a week and.. you cant take another heartbreak"

"Oh come on.. Aaron wasnt that bad!"

Everyone is silent.

"Sorry i was on a high, Aaron was terrible but i am ready to get my heart broken again!.... That sounded bad but trust me okay.. i can tell he's different"

"Okay..but dont say i didnt warn you"

"Taraaaa let the man live! He NEEDS to get laid!"

"Darcys right"

Charlie adds, i laugh at me friends, grateful but also worried they might be right, about the heartbreak thing, they are 100% right about the needing to be laid part

"Now Y/N, mind enlighing us on Taweret"

Nicks speaks up, earing a groan from both Tara and Tao, there partnes shusing them.

I turn around to see Steven already looking on my direction, i smile and wave at him, he gives a small wave back untill someone goes to the countet with a child wanting some sort of gummi. I smile and begin ranting to Nick and Charlie.

This trip got a whole lot interesting.

[levisgirll]

𝐅𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 (𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫)

text: hello everyone! first off wanna thank each and every one of you that liked and enjoyed my writings <3 this honestly makes me happy and I’m glad to know that! so I decided to write this out for everyone as I had many ideas about this cute idea! you, y/n is levi ackerman’s first lover! it was stated by hajime isayama (author/illustrator of attack on titan) in a interview that levi has never been in a romantic relationship, but that all changes when he met y/n. It was also stated that when it does come to romance and love, isayama said that he expresses levi as awkwardly/clumsily when it comes to his lover. So find out some cute headcanons about him in his first relationship with Y/N!

synopsis: how’s it like for levi ackerman to be y/n’s boyfriend? and not only that but it’s also levi’s first partner ever, and including you! But you both don’t know that :,) so, what are the things you both would do as newbies in a relationship? (incoming real cute fluff- and levi trying his best to be your best boyfriend.)

fluff, headcanon, aot world ♡ —

To start off, you guys are both confused. Not sure what to do. Levi Ackerman’s first relationship and his first time having a partner actually makes him feel quite nervous as he wants to make sure he comes out as an ideal boyfriend for Y/N. Would definitely also start to overthink a lot at his start of his new relationship.

That’s cause, he wants to show you he is cool and got things under control and also even stronger towards you, he tries his best.

BUT, he doesn't know that it’s also y/n’s first relationship! and when they joined the Levi squad after Eren was taken in by the survey corps. Levi caught their eyes, and their causal interactions, talks and bond started to grow and slowly developing feelings.

Eren would definitely figure out that you had a crush on Levi and he would say in a shocked tone “Seriously...out of all the men. It’s the scary captain you like!”

After you guys got together, he started at first to show you some of his affections which is ruffling your hair, and he would do that whenever he catches you looking down or not smiling. He wants the best for you, and to smile instead. He wants to see that on your face cause it was one of the many things he loved about you. You lowkey liked that everytime he would ruffle your hair and you could feel his soft and gentle fingers on the top of your head, so lovely it makes your heart race.

He would let you call him Levi at first and he would kinda get upset sometimes when you say captain.

Whenever you go outside the walls, he knows you will be on the other side sometimes and not in his zone and that makes him worry like shit. He cant even focus on his mission and would think “Y/N, please dont die. Please.” Begging that you would be safe. When everyone regroups, he would look for you and and in a split second he recognizes you from afar and that makes his whole tense body relax. “Fuck. What took you long?” he would say that and go up to you, “I went to get some water for my horse, are you alright Levi?” He just stood there, studying your eyes which would make you blush and you guys....end up giving butterfly kisses to each other! and that now become your thing. And guess what, he REALLY likes them, it ironically gives him butterflies in his stomach too.

Once you guys part away, he would touch his eyelashes softly just to feel your touch again and sense that are you still by his side. alive. (please give him more hugs)

Whenever you get a cut, even the smallest ones, he would always say and bring his hand out towards you “Come here”. “Levi, dont worry its a small cut!” You shyly say, “I see the injury, so come here.” and he would proceed to treat you so carefully and his full focus and attention while treating you makes your mind race like crazy. His sharp grey eyes on your knee and his finger tips would be cold when he touches your skin and that would make you shiver but you felt his love. And it made you love him again and again.

He would take any opportunity to treat your smallest injuries just as his ‘excuse’ to be really near you. And when he is done, he would look up and glance at your eyes and you guys just sit there looking at each other so loveling. He wants to try kissing you so bad and you can tell by the look of his eyes on how he focus on your pupils as it dilates, and he gets lost in your beautiful eyes. You both were about to kiss until someone calls out your name and that broke your focus and jolted up so quickly, blushing like crazy. He gets also lowkey embarrassed, and both of you get up. “O-Okay, I have to go....thanks Levi.” and he would nod with a slight blush.

Whenever he sees you carrying stuff as he would pass by, he always offers to carry it for you but still takes it away from you either way. 

He notice he is such a gentleman towards you especially and he is actually a loyal and a great man for you (too great).

He knows he stutters a lot whenever he tries to talk to you, so he doesn't trust himself to talk much to you cause he always fucks up, so he would rather listen.  When you guys meet up and talk about your day, Levi ends up being such a good listener and he loves hearing what you always had to say. “Go on, tell me more.”

Later in the relationship, he starts to feel less nervous after having many talks with you during late nights in his office and he open up to you. About his past, his life in the underground and then you later realized he is quite talkative. Would  definitely bitch about you with others and he does that on purpose cause he wants to see you laugh about it, and when you do he feels so great, you boost his ego. 

Once he was with the other soliders to train them combat style training, and he did such an impressive move that you saw from a distance. You would later go up to him and he noticed you, "Wow you're awesome when you did that move!" you would say with such an amazed expression and that actually makes him happy inside but then said “...and when I don't?" This man is always concerned, and he kinda lowkey wants you to complement him more?? Becomes needy about it.

Mentioning that, you guys slowly started to use pet names for each other. He really takes pride to it and feels so lucky to have someone to call him that and not anyone but you saying it to him meant the world for him. but, once you did not say love just once, and he actually went back to his office and really though about it for the rest of the day. He becomes really quiet in the evening and you can’t figure out what it is. So you asked. “Love what’s wrong?”. And there, he started to talk a lot more now. He realized then he can act like a kid sometimes but you found it so cute.

He also memorized and remembers your knocks and footsteps and just calls you in before even addressing anything. He was secretly waiting for you to come and he got the tea ready, and of course the table clean and even the chair extra clean cause he doesn't want any dirt on you. And of course, you are his lover so he wants the best for you.

You and Levi planned to go out to the city to buy some stuff, but he wanted to surprise you and take you to wall sina instead to this small shop to buy you an accessory that you liked. But that failed since it started to rain, “Great, shitty fucking weather.” 

Always touches your cheek tenderly and ask what is wrong when he sees you down. “Love, tell me.” He would keep looking at you and you would suddenly forget what made you upset and start to get timid . “Come on...stop you are making me shy..”. He just loves looking at you especially your eyes. “Y/N”. Suddenly he got all serious, and he gently grabbed your both of your shoulders. “I really…l-like you…” he tried to say all clumsily while leaning close to your face, but you know he is trying his best to show you his affection and love.

Whenever he gives you his back and you would see his neat and clean undercut, you would leave small kisses on it. That’s when you found out thats his soft and sensitive spot and he blushes like crazy, not expecting it but doesn't say anything. Once he was in his office alone, he would cover his face with his left hand and start to nervously say ‘Fuck...why is Y/N so damn cute, I’m gonna lose it.’

Levi loves to tease you sometimes, when they tell Levi to cut it out, but he would turn around and give you a small smirk and...chuckle a bit? You would think, wait actually nevermind let him continue.

Anything, literally anything you ask Levi to do or bring something, he is already up and willing to get it for you. “Hey love, could I please-”. “Here.” He knew what you wanted, a snack, so he just open his drawer and gave you your favorite pack of biscuits. “Have it all.” It was one of his ways to show affection and would actually feel good once you thanked him. Watch him giving you more next time.

Keeps. every. single thing. you give your man. He even has a separate drawer for you and he cherish the things you give him. You are the only one who does that to him and he loved that you were the one.

Outside, in the training area, when no one was looking he would push some of your hair that was hanging on your side behind your one of your ear. And you both would exchange glances, a look which both needed the other and the love was real.

Surprise, but he loves it when you kiss his Adam’s apple and would close his eyes while hugging you tightly.

You are the only one he trusts to have his keys to his office and once when Levi entered his office, he saw y/n laying on the coach, sleeping so quietly it warmed his heart. “Y/N waited for me this whole time?”. He would sit beside y/n and cover them with his jacket. He secretly then takes your hand and kisses it.

Overall, Levi has finally found the one, which is you, y/n. And this man would risk his life just for you. He would love his partner so deeply and wants to always be by your side and make sure that as long as you both had each other, things will be okay, and once everything is over he already thought that he wants to spend the rest of his life with you. 

well this was longer than I expected!! I really do hope you all enjoy this and somehow you felt some love and fluff from Levi c: please do leave a like or a reblog if you liked it!