#cant believe i have such a hold over someone who i haven't spent more that 90 seconds thinking about

[voltronisanobsession]

Heyyy can you please do Keith Kogane x a reader who is a space princess?? I love your work btw!!

Keith Falls for a Space Princess Headcanons

Thank you so much, I’m so happy you enjoy my writing!!! I hope you don’t mind that I did headcanons💔 I found this so cute bro I CANT 😭

Also I got another request similar to this one so I’ll debate if I’ll write a different scenario or not!!

Keith’s first impression of you wasn’t anything too extraordinary

Lowkey believed that you would just be another person they rescued from the Galra💀

But once finding out that you were a space princess like Allura, coming from a long line of ancient alchemists and sorcerers, it really peaks his interests

Depending on if you meet before he finds out he’s part Galra or after, that’ll start off the relationship

If we’re talking before, it would be a relatively chill introduction

Being a space princess often gathers you a lot of recognition but Keith captures your attention because of his lack of interest

While you’re used to many treating you with high respect, Keith just treats you normally, with the same tough attitude he has with everyone!

He basically treats you like a normal person, something you haven't felt in a loonnngg time💔

But if it's after he finds out he's part Galra and reveals it, then things would be REALLY tense, on your end at least...

The Galra have made you and countless others suffer for centuries, so knowing one of the paladins of Voltron, who are working to rid of the Galra Empire, is galran himself 😶

Yeah you're especially tense around Keith, untrusting toward him which bothers him for some reason

BUT MOVING ON

Of course, your own curiosity toward the boy ultimately leads you to spending more time with him

At first, he might find your lingering presence somewhat annoying since he isn't used to someone giving him all this extra attention

Always asking him questions during his training, sticking with him when out on missions

At one point, Keith gets used to your presence, a sense of normalcy falling between the two of you quickly as the weeks pass quickly

He opens himself up to you slowly, giving pieces of himself and his life to you while you do the same :D

He'll give you slivers of what his life was like on Earth while you share your own stories of life on your planet

He learns more about your culture, your duties as a princess, and even the history of your ancestors (something which you take pride in)

Because of the amount of time spent together, you guys grow close with every new mission and planet Voltron visits

And with this, this means that Keith begins to grow kinda protective of you?

LIKE LISTEN

He starts caring for you as time passes and he doesn't know exactly when things have been changing between the two of you??

He doesn't know when he began staring at you more often, he doesn't know when he began anticipating your arrival every morning, and he ESPECIALLY doesn't know when his heart began fluttering at the mere sight of you

Maybe it was the elegance that seemed to permanently stick to you after years of being in a royal court

Or maybe it was your constant nagging whenever he was around, sneaking past the walls he built around his heart

Or perhaps it was the caring hand you placed on his shoulder whenever his emotions got the best of him

He would totally go to Coran about possibly courting you because why not LMAO

Coran knows how princesses are supposed to be courted (hopefully), Keith just wants to impress you the best he can and fully believes only Coran holds the secret

So you’re just witnessing him falling over his own feet trying to approach you with uptight mannerisms while Coran watches his every move from afar

“For you my, uh, lady?” *holds out flower*

Cue Coran whispering loudly, “Good, good!”

Despite how endearing it is to see Keith try and keep up with the traditional courting, you have to reassure him that you don’t mind that he isn’t apart some royal family (he’s lowkey insecure that you might prefer someone with a similar background as you)💔💔

You like him for him, not caring for his status at all

With that, you both have a good flowing relationship, his intense personality softening with your own pleasant personality

He learns to control his emotions because of you while you learn to show more of your own because of him!!

You also show him the sort of sorcery you’re able to do, having learned from a young age to harness the power that resided into, which he finds SUPER cool and kinda confusing

He’s trying his best to understand😔

He still sometimes feels like he isn’t enough for you though so please PLEASE make sure to tell him other wise😭🙏🙏🙏

He holds you in a high regard because of your status as a princess, he makes sure to tell anyone he comes across that so they treat with respect😭😭

You’re lowkey embarrassed when he begins bragging about your heritage like bro stop😭

Yeah despite this, he still manages to not associate you with only being a space princess, but an honorary member of Voltron

He’s super soft for you I can’t😭😭

[ghoulish-endeavors]

The cardinals secret

Whispers flooded the halls; as you walked by you could hear a group of sisters. "The new cardinal is so weird", "Yeah i heard he keeps rats too, gross!", "Haha have you saw him? He looks like a rat!" They suddenly waved you over, "Sister y/n, have you saw the new cardinal!?" said sister Eva, giggling a bit; "Nope i haven't saw him, he's been here only a day, what about him?" you said, raising an eyebrow. "He's so weird!! And he looks like a rat, plus i've heard he keeps rats as pets." She said, gagging, to which you shook your head at.

"So have you talked to him?" you said, looking to the side; trying to find a way out of this uncomfortable situation. "No ew! I don't wanna be close to him!" Eva said, while sister lily also piped up; "he also cant even speak a sentence without stuttering!" she said giggling.

"Well, i haven't even saw the man yet, plus who are you to judge him without even talking to him? Why don't you two find something to do, rather than standing in the hallways being useless like you usually are." You said, voice laced with harshness; "You guys are my friends, but satan, you two are terribly mean sometimes." You shook your head and began walking back down the hallway to where you were going; you had to go meet primo in his office to bring him a paper his brother had given you.

As you were watching your feet while you walked you slammed into someone, shaking you out of your thoughts. You looked up to see a cardinal which you had never seen before; before you could say anything he apologized profusely.

"Im s-so sorry sorella, M-mi dispiace!" He said, scrambling to pick up the documents which had scattered to the ground when the collision happened. You quickly got down and helped him.

"No worries cardinal....?" You said smiling, collecting papers and holding them to your chest. He looked at you, eyes wide, then remembered to answer you.

"O-Oh! Cardinal copia, and you?" He stammered out, standing back to his feet. You smiled softly at him, and stood, handing him the documents you had collected. "Sister y/n, you're the new cardinal yes?" You said, reaching for his hand and kissing his cardinal ring.

His face burned bright red, "Si si, eh beautiful n-name." He mentally slapped himself, really beautiful name? No wonder everyone thought he was a weirdo, but you were beautiful, the prettiest girl he had ever seen. He shook himself out of his thoughts, mentally scolding himself. You giggled at the shy man and studied him, his side burns, pristine mustache, and that nose. You licked your lips at the sight of him, and to be honest, you wanted him bad.

Far behind you down the hall, sisters Eva and lily watched in horror at your interaction with the man. "Is she being nice to him." Sister lily said, scrunching her nose in disgust. "Yes I believe she is, that stupid rat man is probably in pure bliss at someone like her talking to him." Sister Eva snickered.

"Well cardinal I have a paper I must deliver to Primo, ill see you around im sure!" You said, pressing one more kiss to his ring and heading off. The cardinal watched you leave for a minute before scurrying back off to his office.

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It had been a couple of days since you had saw the cardinal, but rumor had it the man almost spent all of his time

working. You had been curious one day while walking the halls at night, you came to the halls that held the upper clergy's working spaces and wondered whether you should go and check on the man.

You decided you would, but before you did; you went to the kitchen to grab him something to eat. You quickly grabbed a couple of snack cakes and a water for him, and headed off back down the hall. You came to his office and sure enough the light was on underneath the door. You knocked on the door, hearing scrambling and then a rushed "Enter!".

"Cardinal! I brought you some snack cakes and water, have you ate?" You asked walking in the room, to which the cardinal had a puzzled look on his face.

"Eh, no i have not, but eh, what are you doing here?" He said, wringing his hands together; no one at the abbey had been nice to him so far, to be completely honest you're the only sibling to have willingly exchanged words with him.

"Why do you mean why am I here? I wanted to see you, i told you i would see you around. Plus I know you work almost all the time." You said walking over to his desk, handing him the stuff you had brought him.

"Sooo, cardinal, i had a question.." you said going around to sit on his desk. He cleared his throat, "Ehem, eh yes what is it?" He took off his biretta and set it on his desk.

"Can i help you, relax a little?" You jumped down off the desk and ran your fingers down his arm. His breath hitched a bit, "How did you intend to do that?"

You strattled his lap, "Is this okay?" you said, looking down at him. "Eh, u-um, w-well, y-yes." He said looking at you with wide eyes, face rivaling his red cassocks color. "Good I wanted to give you a scalp message." You said smirking, knowing exactly what you were about to do.

You leaned up, grabbing his head and pulling him towards you, your breasts right in his face while you ran your fingers through his hair, messaging his scalp. The cardinal was so worried, he felt like a total creep not knowing where to put his eyes, and panicking as he felt his cock began to stir in his pants.

You smirked as you felt his cock stir against you, "Oh cardinal your hair is so soft, are you okay?" He nodded his head, nose accidentally bumping your breasts, "Im so sorry sorella!" He said, feeling like a total pervert. He panicked as he felt his cock get rock hard at the contact, to which you gasped at. "Oh cardinal something huge is pressing against me." You said smirking, he gasped as he felt you roll your hips against him.

"Oh cardinal," you said letting go of his hair, allowing him to sit back up to look you in the eyes. His face was beet red and he looked like he was trying to advert your piercing gaze. "Cardinal can I ask you another question," You said, cupping his face with your hands. He could feel precum leak out of his cock, feeling like a total weirdo because of it, little did he know that was your entire intentions. "S-si, anything sorella." "Can i kiss you?"

He gasped, nodding his head, slightly panicking because he had only kissed one other person in his 50 years of life. You slowly leaned in, moving your lips against his; he sighed as you pressed your tongue in-between his lips, the kiss was messy and unpracticed, but was too good. Finally you both separated, panting and looking at each other in the eyes.

"Can i ask you another question?" You said, panting, to which the cardinal nodded his head at, "Are you a virgin?"

The cardinals face went bright red, obviously embarrassed at the question. He slowly nodded his head, avoiding all eye contact with you. You bit your lip and smirked, "Wanna change that?" you said, rolling your hips down onto him. He gasped, not knowing what to do.

"S-si, very much so.." He said, looking up at you, nervousness present in his eyes. You smirked and grinded your hips down onto him, making him let out a moan. "Cardinal, can i make you feel good?" You said, slipping out of his lap to which he naturally parted his legs to make room for you.

"S-sorella, I-I dont know for sure what I am supposed to do, please forgive me.." He said, looking down at you, worry and lust in his eyes as he rubbed his hands on his thighs. "Shhhh, you dont have to do anything, just feel and watch." You said smirking at him, beginning to undo the bottom buttons of his cassock. Getting the hint, he began to undo the top buttons and finally the vestment was off, revealing sinfully tight pants that hugged him in all the right places.

"Cardinal, if you ever wanna stop just tell me and it will stop immediately, i don't wanna make you uncomfortable." You said, running your hands up his thighs and squeezing his hand. He nodded, "Please continue sorella," he breathed out, nervousness present in his voice. You smirked at him, and began to undo his pants, slowly pulling the zipper down.

To your surprise, the innocent cardinal didn't have briefs on, and you gasped. You pulled down his pants fully to reveal his cock. He was big, huge even, its always the quiet awkward ones you thought to yourself. "Cardinal, oh my satan you are huge! You havent used this thing ever!?" You said smirking at him, collecting the precum at his tip and tasting him. His blush became more apparent as he gasped and shook his head.

"Sorella, just a fair w-warning, i will not last. Mi dispiace." He said looking down at you nervously. "Shhh, its okay, just feel and dont worry." You said, giving his hand a reassuring squeeze. You spat on your hand and began to stroke him leisurely, causing him to buck his hips. You then removed your hand, causing the cardinal to whine from the loss of your touch. You then began to run your tongue up and down his shaft, watching the cardinal squirm and whine above you, his freckled face burning bright red. "Y/n per favore," He whined pathetically, bucking his cock against your lips.

You smirked and gave his thighs a reassuring squeeze. Finally- finally, you took his tip into your mouth, tonguing at his slit which coaxed a long groan out of him. You began to take him inch by inch, not being able to fit all of him in your mouth, you began to stroke what you couldn't. He was a moaning mess of Italian and praises above you, hands clawing his thighs to try to keep his composure. Unfortunately for the cardinal your mouth felt way too good and he was approaching his end embarrassingly quick. "S-sorella, I-i am going to cum, c-cazzo!" He said as you popped off of him, causing him to let out a whine. You began stroking him with your mouth open, waiting and wanting to be covered in his cum. You smiled and batted your eyelashes at him as he came, and satan his load was big. You thought it would never stop as he came in your open mouth, on your face, on your habit and in your hair. You stroked him through his orgasm, and finally let go; you looked up at the man who was panting and who's eyes were wide with embarrassment.

"Sorella, I am so sorry, I covered you in my cum." He said, panting as he looked down at you; "That was the plan Copia," you said smirking as you took your finger and collected his cum on it, sucking it clean. Copia looked down at you in awe, "Cazzo, sorella, i-im sorry for cumming so quickly." He said nervously, redoing his pants and helping you to your feet.

"Cardinal youre absolutely fine, but..." You said, wrapping your hands around his neck, coming back down to straddle him as you pressed your lips against his ear; "How about we see how fast you can make me cum?" You giggled as you heard the mans breath hitch. "A-ah, sorella, h-heh, I-i would love to, but you know I have never d-done this type of thing before. P-please forgive me if I make a mistake..." He said, once again adverting your gaze and embarrassingly looking to the side.

You grabbed his face and turned his gaze back to you, slowly you grabbed his hand and brought it down to cup your mound through your panties. "Feel this, feel how wet I am for your my dear cardinal? I dont think you could make a mistake." You said, nibbling on his earlobe; your words caused the man to let out breathy sigh; "Sorella, would it be too bold of me to ask you to come back to my room to continue our activities... This office is not the best place to eh- fuck in." He said, as he let out a nervous laugh. "Cmon cardinal, you lead the way," you said, jumping off his lap.

Quickly the cardinal led you to his room, taking out his key and allowing you to enter first. His room was gorgeous and a lot bigger than your own, you smirked as you heard the cardinal enter behind you and lock the door. He led you to his bedroom, looking at you with wide eyes as he stood in the middle of the room, not sure where to go from here. You approached him, and put his slightly trembling hands on your hips.

"Cardinal," you said as you got on your tippy toes to whisper in his ear, "Undress me." You smirked, as the cardinal gasped, slowly he moved his hands to the back of your habit, slowly undoing the zipper. With wide eyes he watched the garment fall down your body and pool at your feet. His cock twitched in his pants, beginning to harden again, despite his recent orgasm.

"Cardinal, you know staring is rude.." You said giggling as the man stuttered out an apology, you giggled, "I prefer hands on activities," and with that you took the cardinals hands and placed them on your breasts. You looked at the cardinals face turn bright red, as you removed your hands from his, which remained unmoving.

"Can I sorella.." he said nervously, you nodded your head profusely, encouraging him to squeeze and explore your body. You gasped as he squeezed one of your breasts, while his other hand found the curve of your ass. "Mmm, copia your hands feel so good, I think they would feel better if there was nothing between the leather of your gloves and my skin though." Copia blushed once again, and brought his hands to the clasp of your bra; after fumbling with it a bit, the garment was removed and copias jaw went slack. "Tesoro, you are a sight for sore eyes." He said, as he moved his hands around to fondle your breats again.

You quickly pulled him back towards the bed until your knees hit it, and he was on top of you. "Cardinal while I do think you look handsome in your cassock, I believe you're over dressed." You said, as you tugged at his collar. He stood and began undoing his cassock, finally removing it and then starting on his pants. You bit your lip, knowing he had no boxers on underneath it; Finally undone, his cock that was hard once again, sprung out and heavily hung between his legs. He returned to you, hovering over you, heterochromatic eyes staring in yours. He hesitantly initiated another kiss between the two of you, it felt electric as your tongues moved in sync with each other, both of you moaning into it.

You entangled your hands in his hair, and he began to break the kiss and make your way to your neck. Gently sucked and kissed at your neck, at first he acted unsure, but once he heard your whimpers and moans it gave the cardinal more confidence. "Cardinal, touch me please," you whined, as he sucked on a particular sweet spot that made your toes curl. He stopped, looking at you; "What do you want me to do?" He panted, "Eat me out."

His face became a dark shade of red, as he slowly began to get on his knees. You sat up into a sitting position and looked down at your cardinal, who was on his knees for you. He slowly took his shaking hands, and grabbed the sides of your panties, slowly pulling them down, watching with wide eyes. He finally got them off, and he just stared at your glistening cunt, his mouth was open and you saw his cock twitch at the sight.

He looked up at you, as you entangled your fingers into his hair once more, encouraging him to get on with it. He slowly brought his face towards your cunt and licked a long stripe from your slit to your clit. You whimpered and watched him intently as he went to town, the man was a fast learner, and he learned quickly what to do. He sucked and nibbled on your clit, which caused your to buck into his face; after he was satisfied with his work there, he moved down to your slit, gently pushing his tongue in, while his nose expertly bumped against your clit. As he gained more confidence he wrapped his arms around your thighs and brought you towards him. You were a whimpering mess of his name and curses, as you entangled your fingers in his hair, he ate you faster. "Fuck, fuck! Copia, just like that, j-just like that. Im gonna fucking cum!" He looked up at you, watching your face as you released your juices all over his face, and he didn't stop until your began to squirm from over stimulation.

The man pulled away, and shyly looked up at you, "W-was tha-that okay.." He said nervously, to which your mouth hung open at his question. This virgin 50 year old man had just given you the best orgasm of your life, and he was asking if it was "okay". "Copia, You just gave me the best fucking orgasm of my entire life, and you're asking me if it was okay!?" You said, pulling him to his feet and back over on top of you. His face shyly turned red again, "Yes it was okay! It was perfect, fantastic, amazing, do i need other words of affirmation to describe it to you?!" Copias face heated up and he smiled, "I just had to make sure sorella, that i didnt leave you unsatisfied." "Well copia, im not satisfied completely yet," you looked down towards his rock hard cock that was leaking profusely on your leg; "I haven't got to bounce on your cock yet."

He gasped as you flipped the two of you over, so you were now on top of copia. He watched intently as you straddled his stomach. You got up on your knees and positioned yourself over copias cock, as copias hands flew to your hips. You slowly grasped his shaft, and slid it through your slick folds, before slowly pushing down onto him. Copia let out a whine that soon turned into panting and whimpering. You were in the same boat as him, as whined and writhed trying to get used to his size.

Finally you had him in to the hilt, and while you were panting and whining trying to adjust, the poor cardinal was trying not to cum right there on the spot. "Y-y/n, cazzo! Im not going to last, im so sorry." He whimpered, "You have nothing to be sorry about copia, a-ah, just feel." You slowly began to rock your hips against his cock, beginning to bounce up and down. You both were a mess of whines, and each others names; the cardinal began to move his hips along with yours, causing your both to moan. "A-ah, fuck! Sorella, I-I cant, Im going to cum, cazzo!" He panted, "C-Cardinal, c-cum inside of me, fill me with your seed, u-use me, fuck!" Your words made him cum right then and there, his cock twitched inside of you as he filled you with his seed. The tension that had been building in your stomach snapped too, and you came with a scream of his name; both of you riding your orgasms out until over sensitivity took over.

Slowly you rose off of his soft cock, and laid your head on his chest, the both of you content until you couldnt stand the sticky mess of your fluids dripping out of you. "Cardinal.." you said, "Yes sorella?" "Can we take a bath? Im sticky and sweaty, and a bath with you sounds nice." You said kissing his neck, "Si, lets."

Authors Note- This is kinda based off of To catch a cardinal by Copias-girl. ALSO check that series out ITS SO GOOD!

Thanks for reading!!

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[ase-trollplays]

A Stern Talking To

It's been about two nights since the incident at the coffee shop, and you haven't really put much thought into the aftermath of what you did. You probably broke the law assaulting a seadweller since they're supposed to be royalty, and you're the bottom of the barrel on the spectrum. However, that's not a concern right now. You're not going back to that cafe, and you're definitely not going to see him again, so why dwell on it?

You're on your bed with a bag of hivemaid jerky listening to troll Pandora Radio as you log into trollian. It's been a month since you heard from Darius, and you're hoping he's online so you can message him for the millionth time. He probably won't answer, but you still want to try. After all, he hasn't blocked you yet, so there's still hope.

However, tonight he's not online, much to your disappointment. With a sigh, you prepare to log out when something catches your eye. You see Thiomi sign into trollian, and before you even get the chance to blink, a message window opens with her contacting you.

--chronicallyMousey [CM] began trolling sandstormHuntress [SH]-- CM: ...corali primer... )//:<

Uh oh. She used your full name and sent an angry face. Fucking hell, what's she mad at you for now?

SH: What's the problem? CM: ...do you realize youre all over troll tiktok right now assaulting a highblood doctor at the coffee shop???...

... Wait what.

SH: What do you mean I'm all over troll tiktok? CM: ...i mean youre *all over troll tiktok!*... ...s-someone was filming you and posted it online... and now its going viral!... ...i doubt theres a s-single troll anywhere who hasnt at least heard of it... let alone seen it... SH: Sonuva bitch. SH: I didn't know someone was recording that.

That's a bold faced lie. If anything, knowing you were being filmed encouraged you. It reminded you of the kind of attention you get in the ring, which has been dwindling since you've been complete ass in your matches lately. Except that time you were going to win, and you did.

However, that's not something you can tell Thiomi. She'd lose her mind, and she's upset enough with you as is. You wanted to take it even further than that single punch, but it's looking like restraining yourself was the better option.

CM: ... i cant believe you... ...what even led up to that?... ...thats one of the calmest places you can go... ...how on alternia did you wind up s-starting a fight??... SH: It ain't really a fight when the other person's spent after a single punch. CM: ...thats not helping your case... corali... SH: He provoked me. You know I don't cotton to highbloods. I told him not to sit with me, and he decided to anyways. I warned him. chronicallyMousey holds her head in her hands and sighs in frustration and disbelief CM: ...i know you dont like highbloods... but you couldnt have just ignored him??... ...its just a s-seat... ...was he taunting you about your caste or s-something?... ...or actively threatening you?...

Thinking back on it, he never threatened you or even called you a single name. He was really fucking annoyed and mad at you, but technically you showed aggression first.

You're quiet for what's probably way too long because you know Thiomi's not going to like the answer. Not that you have to even give her one. Your silence is answer enough.

CM: ...do you even realize how much trouble youre in?... ...and im not talking about with me... either... ...what if he has quadrants that decide to come after you?... ...what if he has legislacerators convict you?!... ...you could die or have your life ruined because you lost your temper!...

You're tempted to correct her about losing your temper. If you had truly lost it, you would have given him that gut punch or gored him with the retractable blade in your hand. No, what you did was wriggler mode.

However, you're not a complete idiot, so you keep that to yourself.

SH: If he's got angry quads, I say let them come. I'm more than equipped to handle any fight. As for the legis, I'll figure something out. CM: ...you dont know that!... CM: ...they could be a hitman... or a s-sniper... or s-something!... ...s-someone you cant beat by punching and s-stabbing... CM: ...and if legislacerators get involved... youre not going to win the case... ...not when theres viral video evidence against you... CM: ...and thats not even considering darius...

That gives you pause.

SH: What's Darius got to do with this? CM: ...you know hes definitely s-seen that video by now... right?... CM: ...how is he s-supposed to believe youre trying to change and be better when *thats* circulating?... CM: ...the whole reason youre trying to quit is to earn back his trust and faith in you... ...well... this might have just blown it all away...

... Shit. FUCK. You didn't even consider that. You don't have a rebuttal. She's got you dead to rights. The whole reason you agreed to get sober is for Darius's sake. You want him to trust you again. You want him to love you again. You want him to forgive you.

You may have just destroyed any progress you made. Sure, he never answers your calls or replies to your messages, but he hasn't blocked you. That means he's at least listening when you try to contact him. You've been giving him updates on how your sobriety is going and the progress you're making in addition to apologizing and begging him to talk to you.

What if he was starting to come around, and then he sees you...

The message notification beep from your husktop snaps you out of your thoughts.

CM: ...im s-sorry im being s-so hard on you... but you have to do better... ...you have to be better than this... CM: ...i just want to help you do whats best for you... ...believe me... i want darius to let you back into his life as much as you do... and i want to s-see you be healthier... SH: Yeh, yeh, I know. I'm sorry. CM: ...im not the one who needs an apology...

Oh no. You have a bad feeling about what she's going to say next.

CM: ...i need you to make a promise to me that if you ever s-see that doctor again... youll apologize to him...

God dammit, you were right.

SH: So, what. You want me to tell him how sorry I am, how he didn't deserve that, and beg him to forgive me? chronicallyMousey sighs. CM: ...you don't have to s-say anything you dont want to... ...you dont even have to mean it... ...just tell him that youre s-sorry... ...thats all i want from you... CM: ...can you promise me youll do that?... SH: Ugh SH: Yeah, sure, I guess. CM: ...i want you to promise me... SH: I promise if I ever see him again, I'll apologize. CM: ...thank you... (//:3 SH: So, are we done here. I got a lot to think about now. CM: ...okay... CM: ...have a good night... --chronicallyMousey [CM] gave up trolling sandstormHuntress [SH]--

You heave a big sigh and fall backwards onto your bed as you close your husktop. Thiomi's right about Darius probably seeing that video by now. Should you message him explaining yourself?

...

...

...

Yeah, but not right now. Right now, you just want to eat jerky and think about what you've done.

[lionfloss]

hey a blog just followed me (patchworktextiles) and is reposting all your stuff and is screenshotting your text posts, just wanted to let you know.

[itsrapsodia]

I'll level with you I really didn't care for mid season 1 Yennefer, she got on my nerves. I did not like her and geralts relationship (it was bad for both of them tbh, geralts coming out looking worse though by far). The thing is though yennefer's scenes with Jaskier this season were so good, they're really cute and FUNNY together. THEY HAVE ACTUAL CHEMISTRY!!! As buds AND as a couple! i normally ship geraskier but show geralt can take a long walk off of a short pier. Yenskier's growing on me

oh man I definitely have Opinions about it. (Future Raps note: this got too long and it's twn critical, so it's going under a Read More fdkjgdf)

I also didnt like Yen on 1st watch, but I did on my 2nd, and I think it has a lot to do with the timeline issue. She had a BIG change of heart from 1 episode to the next, and they tell us it's cause she's spent decades in court and realized it's not what she wanted but we as the audience dont get to SEE or FEEL that change. She later wants a kid, and a casual viewer feels like just an hour ago she was ok with giving that up to gain power, it was a choice she made and it's so weird that she regretted that (in what FEELS like) immediately after and seems to be blaming other people for it.

more understanding of the chartacter helps get her motivations better, but i think she suffered the Too Much Info in Too Little Time curse, and also from the fact that the writers love to say a lot but show very little. Sometimes they won't even say it ON the show!! They'll say it on a tweet or an interview! This makes me extremely angry, if you can't tell!!!

Yen/Geralt suffers from the same, tbh. Even worse, the push for the relationship works to the detriment of Yennefer as a character imo. In s1 we're supposed to see them as this epic tragic love story, but again we are just TOLD that a long time happened in between eps 5 and 6. We are TOLD that they're bad for each other. We see some fucking FLASHBACKS in 2 minutes, with a voice over of them explaining how they felt so bad whenever they woke up and the other was gone. It's bullshit and most people didnt get it! That's why you get 10000 fics believing that this was only the 2nd time they met and it was only a couple months later. Cause that's not how you tell a story.

And THEN we have their reunion in s2, which i still think was terrible writing. It makes sense from Geralt's pov, cause he thought she was dead, but yennefer never thought that. FDJKGNDF yen didnt even THINK about him much unless someone else mentioned him!! And when she did she was mad and hurt! WHAT'S THAT "how is this possible?" LINE, it makes no sense. Their problem wasn't solved. Geralt doesnt even fucking apologize, they dont TALK about it.

So yeah it makes no sense for her character, but it DOES make sense for PLOT PURPOSES. They needed them to be together and happy and show them with Ciri as the Happy Family they could be, so the "betrayal" would hurt more.

It also totally ruins what could've been an interesting progression of Yen's character. You know. A girl who went from pushing her friends into an eel pond cause "sometimes the best thing a flower can do for us is die" to deciding that sacrificing the life of a child for her own benefit wasn't worth it ON HER OWN, and instead gave her the line "i didnt know she was your child"

anyway. ANYWAY DFKJGNDF this got out of control oh god. I haven't had COFFEE yet it's too early for this. sorry for my ramblings. I cant even remember what the ask was about, hold on- AH YEAH. yennskier this season was great, I agree. I liked them already but now I'm fully on board, they deserve the best ❤

KJFDNG ANYWAY IM SORRY ANON, IM SALTY ABOUT SOME THINGS.

[ineffablefool]

(1/4) hey uh ur bio says that u r demiromantic and if it's not too much trouble could i get some help? so i'm starting high school next year and so far, i haven't gotten a crush or anything. romantic attraction? don't know her. but whenever i thought or pictured myself "grown up" i imagined myself with a boyfriend. (i'm a woman) all the evidence is pointing towards me being aromantic, but a little slice of my brain is still, "oh, you're just super demiromantic and violently straight, all of your

(2/4) super close friends have been girls, you just have to become really close friends with a guy and there! instant boyfriend" but i know that won't happen. i won't have some man come and suddenly i'm head over heels. but i've always figured i'd have a boyfriend. i know i'm ace, and i am calling myself ace, but whenever i go to call myself aro, my brain goes "but what if ur actually demi and then all the people you told u were aro will think you were a liar" which i kNOW is stupid but i cant

(3/4) stop thinking it. i dunno why i can't fully accept the fact that i'm aro. is it society claiming that you need a partner to be happy? is it the fact that being in love sounds amazing and like floating on clouds and i want to feel like that? i have no fucking clue. and it's not something against aros, like, i know that if someone told me they were aro i'd have no problem with it. which makes it worse because why is it so hard to let go of the fantasy that i'll have a romantic partner one

(4/4) day? i know, in my heart, that there is a like a 1% chance i wont be aro. but i still cant call myself aro my brain won't let me >:( when did you get your first crush? when is it normal for a demi to first feel romantic attraction? did you think you were aro at first? also i sometimes feel like i shouldn't call myself ace bc im too young to know if i like sex yet? when did u start calling yourself ace? ugh sorry for the super long ask,,, also fun fact it's "how do u write kisses" anon hiii

Hi anon.  I cannot promise you excellent help, but I am still glad you wrote to me again, and I really hope you are about to have a straight 72-hour period of Good Days.  (It might take you that long to read this.  Oops.)

So, first of all: there is nothing wrong with calling yourself aro now and then later deciding you aren’t.  Or realizing you aren’t.  (Two different framings for the same thing -- both are good.)  Or deciding or realizing that you’re somewhere on the aromantic spectrum which you feel is better described with a more specific term.  Demiromantics are still part of the aro umbrella!  It’s not an exclusive club where You Must Be Pure Aro To Enter!  (Anyone who tells you otherwise is setting themselves up as Decider Of What It Really Means To Be Aro, and where are their credentials for that?  Hmm, hypothetical gatekeeping person?  Can I please see your certification from the Institute Of Defining Other People’s Identities For Them?  Oh.  Oh you don’t have one.  Because it doesn’t exist.)

Me saying that doesn’t magically make your brain accept the label, of course.  I am just trying to gently show your brain the door, and it’s the one that has to walk through it.

Assuming you want it to walk through it.  Maybe you decide you don’t.  That’s fine!  But “yes, I am indeed aro -- I am on the aro spectrum somewhere so I am using the label” is a perfectly fine thing to tell people, and if they are not carrying forged credentials from the Institute Of Defining Other People’s Identities For Them, then they will probably be okay with this.

I am not any kind of expert on being aro, or ace, or anything.  I am only an expert in being me.  But to somewhat exhaustively answer the questions from your last part...

I had my first crush when I was thirteen or fourteen.  When I was about ten, I was friends with two girls who both had a very public crush on the same boy, and I claimed to also have one on him in order to fit in, but I was completely lying.  Sorry, Drew.  I’m sure you were quite the catch, but I was not feelin’ it.

I don’t know if there’s a specific time when it’s “normal” for a demiromantic person to start feeling any particular way.  It just sort of happens if it’s gonna.  Maybe it never does.  People are complicated and different and that’s wonderful.

I didn’t know what being aro (or being ace!) was when I was your age, because they weren’t really identities yet.  “Asexual” was for amoebas, or maybe robots.  “Aromantic” was, like, dude, did you misspell “aromatic”?  (Keep in mind, there was technically an Internet in approx. 1995, but there was no Google, no Wikipedia, no YouTube, no social media, the concept of what is now called a “blog��� didn’t even really exist yet, and often your parents would not let you on the Internet connection if they could even afford it themselves, not least because it was frequently billed by the amount of time you spent using it. It was incredibly hard to know what things existed in the world back then to even begin to learn about them! Now is so much better. I have all the treasures of the world in my pocket via my telephonic device.)  When I started to learn about asexuality, specifically that you could be ace but not be “an emotionless robot” (gosh has unlearning that kind of judgement been a journey), I jumped straight on that label and never looked back (this was roughly when I joined Tumblr, so I would have been about 32).  I thought I was alloromantic for a while after that, but I’ve come to realize that my feelings on romance probably put me somewhere on the aro spectrum.  And that’s where I am now.

I started calling myself ace, again, when I was about 32, but I didn’t have that label available to me when I was younger.  Ya boi was 13-14 years old, sitting in his bedroom writing letters-to-never-be-sent to his crush, which included long sections about how I had already decided I would never have sex so long as I lived, so once we obviously got married because how could we not when I had such Emotions, he would have to find some other way to get that if he wanted it.  I had no interest in it then.  I never developed an interest in it since.  If I had had the knowledge I have now, back when I was in junior high, I am absolutely convinced that I would have taken the ace label then.  Was I too young to know for sure?  I dunno, we don’t say that people are too young at that age to know they’re heterosexual, so why do other sexualities have to pass a higher bar?  (Because compulsory heterosexuality.  That is why.)

Regardless of your age, if the label of ace resonates with you, you can apply it to yourself.  If the label of aro resonates, you can apply it to yourself.  Or a more specific variant of either, or something else entirely.  And the day you realize “oh gosh, this is not, in this moment, actually me”, you can let the label go, because its only purpose for existing is to be useful to you.

Finally -- this is not something I can personally speak to, but I have seen people who identify as completely aro also state that they enjoy things that our (my? I do not know where you are from) culture frequently sees as romantic.  Like, if you want to have a person who you can snuggle up with, hold hands with, say “I love you” to and have them say it back and both of you mean it -- there are aro people who do all that with their partners, and enjoy it, and don’t see it as interfering with their aromantic identity at all.  I believe them, because they are the expert on being themselves, and I have nowhere near the ego required to decide that I know better.  So that’s something to keep in mind -- cloud-floating and an aromantic identity do not have to be completely separate, because there are lots of kinds of love and of affection, and people are complicated, and that is wonderful.

I hope you enjoy this novel, anon.  It is for you.

[leelee10898]

Fast cars & Freedom: Drunk last night (7/?)

Summary: The gang celebrates a very Belated birthday for Ellie. A little alcohol makes some secrets come out. And ellie drops a bomb on one of the guys.

Pairing: Ellie x Logan, Ellie x Colt

Rating: Mature

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Over the next couple weeks Ellie and Luca spent A lot of time with both colt and Logan together and separate. Each forming a Bond with her. She knew both men wanted to have some kind of role in her life, as dad or an uncle. They decided to schedule the Paternity test, all 3 ready to know. Luca had a month left before school started, Ellie was adamant about showing here around parts of California, places that meant something to her growing up there. Logan planned for them to a race, see the track and meet the drivers. Colt planned a barbecue at his house for them, and so that Luca could meet Toby and ximena. And all 4 of them were going to the san diego zoo.

It was a Wednesday night, Ellie and Riya had their reoccurring girls night with Luca, while Darius kept Marcus.  They would have dinner, paint nails and once Luca went to bed talk about everything they couldn't in front of the kids. On this particular night Riya was acting odd, constantly looking out the windows checking her phone. Ellie started to have a panic attack,  the feeling took her back to running from the brotherhood. The doorbell rang, making her damn near jump out of her skin.

She walked over to the door with a shaky hand she turned the knob to see a girl standing there. “Stacie? Oh my god, what are you doing here?” Ellie threw her arms around the girl “I just moved here about two weeks ago and Riya invited me over. Ellie eyed her best friend “What are you up to?” Riya shrugged “Oh nothing. Ok don't get mad.” Ellie threw her hands up in the air “Oh god, what did you do now?”

“Don't get mad at me,” Stacie interrupted “I was talking to Riya about your birthday,  and how you haven't celebrated one in 6 years.”

Riya stepped in “So we want to go out and celebrate your birthday a few months late. This Friday night.” Ellie grinned “You guys really?” she hugged them both “But I can't. I have Luca.” Riya shook her head “Nope. Already taken care of. Your dad is keeping Luca. My parents are in, they are keeping Marcus for Dare and I.”

This would be the first birthday that she got to celebrate since she turned 18. Back when the path of her life took a sharp left. They spent the rest of their night chatting before the two women headed home.

That Friday night Ellie, Stacie, Riya and Marcus walked into the hopping club, they were lead back to a private area where Logan stood a broad smile on his face. “Happy birthday, Troublemaker.” He pulled her into a huge, placing a soft kiss on her cheek.  “Logan, you know its not really my birthday.”

“I know. But, we're making up for lost time. Just go with it.”

“Logan, you already know Darius and riya,” they said their hellos. “This is my friend Stacie from Langston.” stacie reached her hand out, Logan shook it “So you must be the notorious Logan I've heard so much about.” Logan cocked his brow at Ellie. “Hopefully all good things.”  he smirked.

Ellie watched the interaction between the two, a hint of jealousy twinged in her chest.

Her eyes locked with a set of Dark ones standing at the VIP entrance. “Colt?”

“Dont look so surprised, Riya invited us.” She gave him a confused look just as Ximena and Toby came in. “You guys all came?” She grinned, she was excited to hang out with them and then she spotted someone standing off to the side.  “Mona? Is that mona?” Colt shook his head. “Oh my God what are you doing here?” she wrapped her in a hug. “Good to see you too.” she could see a small smile threaten to break through her tough girl demeanor.

They all sat around the huge plush couches, a waitress bringing their drinks over. She found out Mona had gotten out of jail after spending 2 years in there. She headed east, but couldn't find a crew to settle in with. She came back to California and Colt gave her a job. After a few drinks ellie was feeling pretty giggly. She never drank more then a ritual cup of wine or two after a long week,  or a particularly rough day. Colt looked over at her as she downed another shot. “You should probably slow down, you're gonna end up getting sick.” she rolled her eyes. “I'm fine thanks.”

Riya and Darius were off on the dance floor, Toby and colt were talking by the bar.“Is that bothering you?” Mona motioned to where Logan was talking to stacie. “No. Yes. I don't know.” Ellie sighed. “Feels like the old day, huh X.” Mona let out a loud chuckle. “How so?” Ellie furrowed her brow. “Oh sweetie, you're staring at Logan while Colt cant take his eyes off of you.” Ximena placed a comforting hand on her. “Colts not starting. Hes talking to Toby.”

She motioned to the two seemingly deep in conversation.  “He may be talking. but his focus is on you.”

Ellie flicked her eyes up momentarily, sure enough locking with his deep browns. She could feel the heat filling her cheeks. “I need another drink.” she motioned for the waitress.  

After a few drinks she decided to walk up to the bar where Colt had seemingly taken up residency. “So what, you just gonna ignore me all night?” her words came out with much more  attitude than anticipated. Colt arched his brow “I'm not ignoring you.” Ellie slid up next to him, her side pressed against his. She placed her hands on the bar as if she were holding herself up and cocked her head to the sidez a mischievous smirk spread across her face. “What are you up to?” Colt cocked his brow at her.  “Noooothing.” She giggled as she bit her lower lip. “ What do you say we sneak off to the bathroom and, you know.” She gently rubbed his arm. “Ellie..”

“Is something wrong? You don't. You don't want me?” her bottom lip began to quiver.  “God No. No. Its not that. Its,” He ran his hand down his face “Jesus I cant believe im about to say this but.  Ellie you're pretty drunk. And as much as I would love nothing to make you moan my name. I don't want to do that in some nasty ass bar bathroom.” He squeezed her hand. She pulled away, angry. “Whatever Colt. You could have just told me you thought I was gross.” She sneered walking away, disappearing into the crowd.

She found a corner away from everyone,  she watched the people dancing on the floor, lost in thought.

“Enjoying yourself?” the deep voice pulling her from her drunken zone out. “Logan, Hi. Soooo kind of you to come talk to me.” she rolled her eyes. “Ok? Hey how about a dance?” He held his hand out for her. She took it stumbling as she stepped forward, breaking out in a cackle. “you alright?”

“Yuuup. Lets do this.” she followed him to the dance floor, wrapping her arms around him grinding her body against his. “Do you miss this?” She purred in his ear. “I'll always miss you ellie. But you're here now.”

She caught glimpse of Colt standing on the balcony, she could see his white knuckle grip on the railing from across the room. A thrill Rising inside of her.

She was still mad at him for leaving her behind all those years ago.  She understood Logan's reasoning but colt? He could have went with her or he could have taken her with him. They were married, you don't just leave your wife behind. And she was even more pissed he turned her down.  In her drunken state she could really care less for being mature about it.

Colts gaze was setting her on fire, a smirk played on her lips.  She turned around, her back side pressed against Logan's chest, she laid her head against it. Letting the rhythm of the music fuel her movements as Logans hands gripped her sides. “We shouldn't do this El. God you feel so good though.” Logan's voice hoarse in her ear. She continued to grind against him, she locked eyes on Colt who looked as if he was going to rip the railing right off.

She shrugged him off, she was a grown woman who made her own choices. She didnt have to answer to anyone, especially not Colt Kaneko. She turned to face Logan, now completely in the moment. His hands crept up and down her sides, sending a pleasant warmth throughout her.  It had been far to long since she had felt the strong hands of a man. “Kiss me colt.” she breathed out just inches from Logans lips. “Colt?” He pulled back, just as Colt pulled at her wrist. “Thats enough Ellie.”

She looked between the two, her head spinning. Did she really just call Logan Colt?

“We need to talk Ellie, alone.” Logan stared at her “She's not going anywhere with you. I think its time to go Ellie.” Colt snapped. “You dont have a claim on her Kaneko, who the hell do you think you are?” Logan stood his full height against him, colt easily matching him. “See pretty boy thats where you're wrong,” Colts lips twisted in a devilish smirk.  “I think its time my wife went home.” Logans eyes went wide. “You're fucking lying.” He turned to Ellie, desperately searching her eyes “Hes lying right? Tell me hes lying Ellie.” Colts wicked smirk grew wider “Go on Mrs Kaneko. Tell him.”

Ellie looked between the two, her stomach churning, panic set in. “I. I. I think im gonna..” she leaned down puking all over Colts feet.

Logan let out a wild laugh “Well, I'll let you handle that.” Colt rolled his eyes as he walked away.  “Come on El. Let's get you home.” Ellie started to walk losing her balance, colt grabbed ahold of her steadying her. He picked her up bridal style walking towards the exit. “Whats going on?” ximena question, and then looked down noticing the puke all over his legs and shoes. “Can you take ellie to her house? I'll follow you.” Ximena nodded. Colt laid ellie down in the back seat of Ximenas suv. “where are we going?” She moaned, her stomach churing. “were taking you home.” Ellie tried to sit up, panic written all over her face. “NO. My dad will kill me.” colt shook his head and chuckled “You're 25 years old Ellie,  pretty sure he wont.”

They pulled up to her house, colt grabbing her from the car carrying her to the door. He rang the doorbell, nervously awaiting her father to answer. He had never formally met him, and he wasn't sure just how he would act but he  wouldn't worry about that now. His only concern was getting Ellie home safely and into her own bed.

A few minutes later her father answered the door. His eyes widened at the sight “What happened?” he moved aside letting colt in. “She drank to much. I just wanted to.make sure she got home safe.”

“Hiiii Daddy.” Ellie groaned softly.

Her dad pointed him to her room, Colt got her inside laying her on the bed where Ellie started pulling off her dress. “wheres your pajamas.” He asked heading towards her dresser. “Hey! You'll see my underwear.” Ellie giggled.

“I've seen your underwear before, and you're in them right now.” He snorted as he rifled through her drawers. He found a tshirt and pulled it over her head. “Now. get some sleep.” He turned to walk away, Ellie already sound asleep. He walked out into the living room where her father stood. “Well, shes alseep. Sorry for bringing her home in that condition, I tried to tell her to slow down but, you know how she gets when she sets her mind to something.” Ellies dad chuckled  “Yeah. I do.” he looked down at Colts legs, seeing the colorful stain of Ellies vomit.

“She ah. Puked on me.” he gave a nervous chuckle. “I figured that. Why dont we get your shoes cleaned up. I got a pair of sweat you can change into. We can wash your clothes, but its probably best you stay over.” Colt tried to argue but his words fell short. Her dad came back and handed him a pair of sweats and pointed him towards the bathroom. He gave him a blanket and pillow and Colt laid down, his mind going a mile a minute.  

Just 6 years ago her father was investigating his father and the crew, and now he was laying in his house while ellie and Luca slept upstairs.

He woke the next morning to the smell of fresh coffee filling the air. He sat up from the couch looking towards the kitchen. “Morning Colt. Come get some coffee.” Colt stood, wiping the sleep from his eyes, he grabbed a mug and poured a cup, sitting at the table with her dad. “Thanks Mr Martin.”

“You're welcome, but its Frank. Call me Frank.” Colt nodded, the sides of his lips slightly pulling up. “So Colt, Can I ask you. what are your intentions with my daughter and granddaughter if you are her father?” Frank cut right to the chase catching him off guard.  

“Well Frank, I do not have a doubt in my mind that Luca is mine. And as far as Ellie,” He collected his thoughts “As far as Ellie,I still love her. And if she would have me, I would like nothing more then to spend the rest of my life taking care of them both.”  Frank sipped his coffee, nodding his head. “You know, I believe you. But what makes you so sure that Luca is yours?” colt sat his coffee cup down “Call it intuition. I just have a feeling and usually my feelings are right.”

They were interrupted by the sounds off footsteps coming down the stairs. “Morning sunshine.” Frank smirked Ellie groaned as she mindlessly made her way to the coffe pot, pouring a cup of coffee. She sat down at the table her eyes instantly locking with Colts. “what are you doing here so early?”

“I'll give you two a minute.” Frank got up and went up to his room.

“Your dad let me stay over. I wanted to make sure you were ok.” He smirked. Ellies eyes snapped shut remembering the nights events. “Oh god. I puked on you.”

“You did. But your dad tossed my stuff in the wash. It's all good.”

“Colt. You told Logan. Why did you do that?”

“I can't stand how he walks around so smug all the time. Like he's better because he is a semi famous race car driver now.” He scoffed.

“Colt. He isn't better than you.  You aren't better than him. You guys have got to stop this pissing contest, its been 6 years. Thats a long ass piss.” she giggled, causing colt to chuckle. “Yeah, maybe you're right.”

“We do need to talk about it though.  I was under the impression that you got the annulment Colt. Why,” She took a deep breath “Why didnt you?”

“Because When I asked you to marry me, it wasnt because we were under the stress of the what ifs.”

“Colt..”

“Dont. I don't need to hear it.”

“We were just so young. And were practically strangers now, its just. I think its better if we.”

“If we what?” He cocked his brow

“I think it's best if we get a divorce.” the words came out so rushed she barely understood them herself. But the look of absolute hurt on his face told her that he understood every word.

“You never gave us a chance. And now you're back, with my daughter and you want a divorce? Ellie we could be a family. You won't even try?”

“Colt. im sorry. Im not saying that nothing could ever happen with us. But if it does,  I want to start fresh.” She didn't try to correct him about being Ellie's father, he was hell bent on it and it would just add insult to injury.

Colt stood up Grabbing his eyes from the coffee table. “You night now believe it yet Ellie, but I'm going to prove to you that we belong together. Do what you gotta do." he walked to the door, pausing for a minute. "You know they say a drunk persons actions are a sober persons thoughts. And last night, told me alot.kore then you're letting on." He closed the door behind him. She heard his motorcycle start up and take off down the street.

She knew he was sort of right. She never did fully get over either of them. But she couldnt throw herself into a relationship with one of them, not right away. She had Luca to think about afterall.

She pulled out her phone finding Logans number.  She sent him a text, telling him she was sorry. A few minutes later she received a text back saying “I need some time. I will call u when im ready to talk.”

She had only been back a short time, but oh what a tangled web she had weaved.

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