#candleight

[iiireflexiii]

Market, candlelight (1865) Petrus van Schendel (1806–1870) Dutch-Belgian genre painter

[japaneseaesthetics]

Lady Murasaki on her balcony under a full moon writing by candleight, by Ogata Gekkō, ca. 1900, Japan

[shybunnie20]

I manually colorized this for one of the LFC builds and spent far too long working on it not to post it lol (I'm not proficient with Photoshop but I did my best)

★My Masterlist ★Longing for Candleight Sneak Peak

[doublel27]

When we talk about character development for Carlos, all I want more than anything is for him to unequivocally fuck up. Where something is his fault and he needs to take responsibility for it and fix it. Where the show acknowledges that he did something wrong. Where TK gets to be mad at him without apologizing or calling himself crazy or a bitch for being mad. Where Carlos doesn't get to make snide comments like "I thought maybe we broke up" or "I thought you ate with Coop" when TK tries to fix things. Where Carlos has to be like "shit, I messed up, and I need to be the one to take the first step with TK". I know you probably don't agree with me on this, but every time they've fought or had issues, to the best of my recollection TK is the one to step up to start the conversation and fix the issue. I don't mind Carlos having major flaws or doing messed up things like hiding a whole ass wife (in fact I love hot mess characters), I mind that it's always treated as a) not a real flaw or fuck up, or b) equally or mostly TK's fault. I want to see Carlos show real regret, and not for things that are just his anxiety talking - like not having a fire extinguisher in the bedroom or not being able to forsee a plane malfunction - but real, actual things he did that were wrong. And I just don't think we've seen that, even if I suspect you disagree.

Here's the funny thing, sweet nonny, I don't disagree with you as much as you think I do.

I've been shouting from the rooftops alongside others that TK IS the better communicator of the two. TK always brings stuff up to try and fix it. He's the one with strong boundaries and clear communication because he has learned and practiced doing so. TK is always the one giving speeches. TK is always the one modeling solid communication and relationship skills. He is the one who knows how to pull information out of Carlos that Carlos would rather not voice.

Carlos...is not a talker. Oh, he'll sit and help TK talk through one of TK's problems. He's gotten better about sharing his feelings and concerns as the seasons have gone on, but Carlos is a doer not a talker.

We've seen it pretty consistently. When Carlos fucks up or is mad, he tends to shut everything down or he gets snippy. My man is very attractive and he's very acts of service driven and very clearly cares very deeply, but when he has feelings he doesn't want he shuts it all down.

He's also conflict averse and is prone to telling white lies to avoid conflict. He's been like that since day one. FRIENDS the man sent a "You up?" text that TK thought was a booty call and had a candleight dinner with a fish from the farmers market that he "knows it looks like a lot but it really wasn't that big of a deal" CARLOS YOU KNEW WHAT YOU WERE ABOUT.

This man said with a STRAIGHT FACE "I'm not trying to be your boyfriend, or even your friend if you don't want that." after the infamous red snapper dinner. SIR! You wanted to marry that man from the first moment you met him. Carlos, you damn liar. TK touched you in the middle of a rescue and you then went and mooned over him in a honky tonk until you asked him to dance and y'all got very busy in the bathroom...I JUST WANT TO POINT OUT THAT YOU ARE OCCASIONALLY A LYING LIAR WHO LIES.

I don't know if we're ever going to get a big verbal mea culpa out of Carlos though, Nonny. If that's what you're looking for, it make take awhile.

Carlos's mea culpas (when not things he didn't actually do like fire extinguishers or planes) tend to be actionable items that he does to show he's heard TK or he's sorry or that he's working to be better. It comes in the form of asking TK out or giving TK space in 1x10 when TK says he has no idea what he wants. I know we all wanted Carlos to do a little more fighting there, BUT the last time TK tried to throw out boundaries in 1x02 we had Carlos calling TK crazy. Backing off WAS growth and an offering, that they clearly figured out sometime in the midst of that call.

We see it in season 2, when in 2x08 Carlos absolutely doesn't even attempt to back away from TK after rescuing him, even after his dad shows up, and Carlos heads over there with his chin raised ready to hear something about his relationship with TK as well as his poor choices.

Again in season two, after the fight at the fire station, while TK tries to apologize for what seems like the second time, Carlos insists they've already discussed it enough and he's busy making TK dinner (which is a massive way that Carlos shows he cares - feeding TK. He does it all the time)

Again, in 3.04, we have Carlos move TK in without saying anything as a sign that TK is fully welcome home regardless of whatever transpired before. In 3.13 Carlos learns from his spiral of not being able to be the one to acts of service TK into being better (because love doesn't cure mental illness) and manages to correct his mistakes and get out of the way of TK accessing life saving treatment from Cooper and stops conflaiting it with the acts of service Carlos performs (like putting pizza in the oven).

He's going to DO things not SAY things. And I think Carlos gets a lot of that from his family. Specifically, Gabriel. AND I think he does several of the things that rub him the wrong way with his father in his relationship with TK. Like, his father's attitude with Carlos and the bomber in Bad Call was not that dissimilar to Carlos with TK in 4.03 (although Gabriel was calmer, if not more disappointed) and even Gabriel's ability to shut that shit down got to TK in 4.04.

Apples don't fall far from the tree.

Anyway, in summation dear nonny, I don't disagree that TK has done a lot of verbal processing, apologizing and communication in this relationship. I just don't expect that Carlos is going to respond the way TK responds, because they're two entirely different people with two entirely different backgrounds that fit together like puzzle piecess.

[la-cocotte-de-paris]

Why is half of this film my life now

There's just something about watching your favourite comfort movie in bed ♡

[lorriloo1109]

IN THE CANDLEIGHT

In the candlelight I feel you Gently touching me Warm fire glowing My heart melts I rest peacefully I forget pain In your caresses Oh sweet love

[callilouv]

It's not you, it's me The timing and the setting aren't what I thought they'd be There's probably someone better for you out there anyway Maybe I just need some space No, I should just come out and say

I wanna get this right, baby I wanna thrill you in the way you deserve I wanna blow your mind, darling I'm just having trouble getting up the nerve

<3

I WANNA GIVE U WHAT U WANT

I WANNA BE THE MAN U CHOOSE

I WANA SWEEP U OFF UR FEET

WITHOTU PUKING ON UR SHOES

MAYBE ILL DO BETTER INT HE CANDLEIGHT

I GOTTA GET THIS RIGHITHJHIT

[mezmer]

Just one more night, one more score…another question in my mind, can’t take no more… kissing the tears from the face as they fall to the ground, in silence …..these lit dreams can’t burn alone 🥺

[oldfarmhouse]

http://instagram.com/mamawatters

[scwescola]

Throwback to cosy evenings at Uni where I'd have hot chocolate (always in my I'd rather be at Hogwarts mug haha) and sit in my bed to read as self-care! The books at the book would always remain at my bedside table! Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix is one of the biggest books I own so it wouldn't fit in my shelves 😂, and Wizard of Oz is a collector's edition of one of my favourite stories growing up! I was re-reading Good Omens at this point, a wonderful book I discovered after the Prime adaptation was released two years ago! I can't wait to have my favourite demon and angel back in season 2!🥰 QOTD: Have you watched/read Good Omens? What TV series, if any, are you watching right now? AOTD: I haven't been binging any show recently but since it's Wednesday, I'll be watching Loki episode 5 later 🤗 *** #booklover #bookstagram #newbookstagrammer #harrypotter #orderofthephoenix #goodomens #neilgaiman #ineffablehusbands #candleight #nighttimereading #hotchocolate #wizardofoz #readingnook #scentedcandles #bookish #bookislife #bookmoments #keepreading #terrypratchett #throwback #readingmoments https://www.instagram.com/p/CRCFAAzMmxr/?utm_medium=tumblr

[aiskhan]

Inktober Day 5 Candlelight for day 5, I'm very pleased with this one. Pen and Ink.

[xxbalamazxx]

You Ask Why?

You asked me a question and I will respond. You asked me out of pure innocent intent. I did not give it much thought for long, and while I was quick I got it all wrong�� While what I say is true, and is meant to be. It was not the words I truly would choose to describe what you had asked of me. Rather what I wanted to say was buried deep within the heart hidden away, in a very shy state. I am not always fair, I am not always full and true. I am not always an open book, even though I want this for you… Sometimes I have to step back, guarded against all intent. It takes me time to form the words, to drive out the lament. Time for me to think about how I want to say things, to get them right… To understand what I say is from the depths of my heart to you, as it should have been the first time I had said it through… The first moment you whispered… That you spoke in a most shy of tones, was the last time I wanted silence from you… It was the last time I wanted to spend a day, without hearing the beauty of your voice… It was the first time a smile came to my lips. The first time my heart started to turn, that it started to yearn. It was the first time I had experienced a lack of words… For your voice was pure and could not have gone unheard… It was the sound of love unknown… The sound of a goddess spoken from above to below. So when you ask why, I have to begin with this, that It was always true… I always wanted to hear from you… I always wanted you to speak another word… But as to why? I could tell you we are the same… But as to how?… I could tell you we hold the same beliefs… That we hold the same values deep in the core… That you know what I am going to say before have finished… It could be that we have the same personality, or that we want the same things… But that isn't all… For it is not it in full. That is but a shadow as to why... To list such things is to be shallow to the core… It wasn't right just to mask the obvious which we both knew, it runs deep and true… The reason I want to close my eyes and hear you is so that my heart can become as one… So that my soul may fuse to full and undived from two. One half being me and the other you... For we are the same… Two half's fused into a whole, that were born into different souls… Will silly it may seem... It is the truth I hold deep. That has gone unforetold... We have the same quarks and kinks. We have the shyness and yet the strength. We speak to be heard and never to boast... We whisper our ultimate goals… We did not want to be seen by the masses in the light. But rather to hold each other under the pale luminance moonlight. It is here that your voice beckons to me… That I find myself swept away into a state of harmony…. A state only you can bring... Yet these words don’t seem right… With a start, it seems just like the beginning of the fight… It seems almost void of what I mean to say… For there are no true words to ever paint how we are in this place… How we call to one another, how when we are together we are,... complete… There is no right way to say that you bring me peace… That my heart stops from the moment you speak… There is no right way to say my mind stills and for a moment I arise from my knees... There is no right way to say how the sadness fades… Or how the insanity ceases… Or how from the depth of my soul… Your mere whisper takes hold… So ask me as to why? Is to hard to say… For even though we both know the truth, there will never be the right words to explain to you as to why. Why I want to hear your beauty, why I want you always near me.. I have not the right words… I have not the right words that can speak truths that are worthy of you. I can list everything I am amazed by you… Not just of beauty, or intelligence that runs deeps. Or your most amazing personality. It cannot define your incredible sense of humor or the way you see things bright and the shadows recede. It cannot even be the serenity you bring me… Or my love true… For of all words, I can truly say that would be just and worthy of you… Is that without you in my life… would be a worse fate than to be plunged upon a knife… To have my heart torn from my chest... For without you, this would be true. For the pain of such would less than missing you... I say this to you… That there are not enough words to describe why I want to…None were forged to get it right. Not even if I was to equal the stars in the sky, It would be a crime to even try... All I can say for the millions of things I love about you only one do I hate… That is the moment we part, the moment when I longer can have you near my heart… It is then it breaks… It begins to fade as if life has left this place... When I become alone again… When it becomes the absence of you when you fall fast to sleep... When your voice no longer could be heard not even an utter of a word... This breaks my soul... Yet even then, the thought of you returning makes my heart burns true… For the mere thought of you, begins to once more fill me with life. The thought I will see you again, the thought I will hear you, the thought of all there is... The mere memory of your voice begins to fill me with joy and then and only then do I survive. I survive, starving for you once more. So that I can once again feel right... Understand my love, when you ask why? That I ceased and almost die. For my heart begins to race, with the wonders that come by your mere grace… Even the thought of you… Or how to describe everything you mean, everything I want to say, is too much to ever be spoken in one lifetime, no less in a day... Read the full article

[pumpkinpersephone]

cran keeps stealing sunny’s knife to put under her pillow

moon talks to sunny about it

at the interrogation moon offers cran her dagger

[michaelgovehateblog]

hard to believe that some people can look at the way the police treat protestors, or women attending a peaceful candleight vigil, and still believe that the police are here to protect us

[memento-morri-writes]

I associate you with royalty fantasy stories, tender love scenes after really action packed angsty ones, epic fantasy soundtracks when writing, soft candleight scenes, halls that are only illuminated by the moonlight, medieval like cities, magic that sometimes is too powerful for the character that has it (a blessing that is as well a curse), friendship having an important place in the narrative, happy endings and healing, and also horses and animals (last one bc of your career of course)

(although i did more of an "aesthetic i have for you" than stuff from your writing)

(@ink-fireplace-coffee)

WAAAAAHHHHHHHH, CARMEN!!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!

This is everything I could ever want to encompass!! Thank you!!!! <3333333

^ me right now, happy hand flaps included.

[hobermallowed]

how can they expect me to not ship aloy x zo when every time they have a conversation it’s framed by candleight?