#can you tell im having an anxiety attack 💜

[lesbonoi]

i need to know is anyone else in ten same boat as me where yoore in your 20s living withh your parents still and if one of them gets a job that would require a move you would have to go with them i need to know im not the only guy in a sitch like this. or like were you ever in a situation like this

[stormyoceans]

👋hello

1. Do you think tae and ba-mhee will break up, or will they overcome the trainee crisis and get back tgt?

2. Are you going to watch 10 liners series?

3. Have you watched Inside Out 2?

hello, anon!!!! 💜

OH these are such interesting and fun questions, let me get through them properly one by one!!!!

1. Do you think tae and ba-mhee will break up, or will they overcome the trainee crisis and get back tgt?

im not sure how they’re going to deal with the taebahmeejudy subplot tbh like i know how i personally wish they would go about it, but it’s kinda hard to predict what they’re actually going to do. i think the storyline has a lot of potential and that they could explore a lot of meaningful topics through it, such as compulsive heterosexuality, what society expects from women and the role that it pushes on them vs what women may want and wish for instead if they were allowed to go through different experiences and explore themselves freely, platonic love between men and women, etc. now, do i trust GMMTV to deliver this? [larry_david_not_sure.gif] im honestly more confident about GMMTV liking its branded BL pairs unless one of the actors is playing in an established straight show (see ploy’s yearbook), so i don’t think taebahmee is gonna be endgame. im not too sure about judybahmee either to tell the truth, but as of now i do believe tae and bahmee are gonna break up and remain really good friends

2. Are you going to watch 10 liners series?

I MEAN. i think so, yeah. like im not gonna lie im not particularly looking forward to it, mostly because it’s yet another school BL and if i have to be completely honest i don’t..really care about any of the main pairings outside of forcebook ;;;;;;; i mean i don’t mind junior and mark, i think they did a great job as jinta and min in cherry magic and i loved their small star crossed lovers subplot in midnight museum, i just can’t quite get into them as a pairing for some reason, and while im kinda curious about perth and santa now that the cast change has been announced i was kinda hoping to get aouboom as mains, so ;;;;;;;;;; im also not too sure about the 10 episodes per couple format, im afraid it's gonna feel very disjointed, HOWEVER. if going insane about phumpeem and most likely coming out of 2024 with we are as one of my favorite shows of the year taught me anything, it's that even the most unexpected things can pleasantly surprise you and prove you wrong (and bludgeon you over the head with feelings), so sure, i will give perfect10 liners a chance, why not!!!! (can they please give emi's character a girlfriend tho)

3. Have you watched Inside Out 2?

i haven’t had the chance to go see it yet unfortunately and i have no idea when will i be able to, which kinda makes me a bit sad not gonna lie ;;;;;;;; i love animation and as someone who suffers from anxiety and panic attacks i have the feeling this movie could be very healing for me, not to mention i’ve heard only good things about it, so yeah. hopefully i'll be able to watch it soon!!!!!!!

[halfmoth-halfman]

thought i’d jump back on here after re reading the newest chapter to let it sink in again lol

as someone who has panic attack as a result of ptsd and prolonged trauma, the way you write the panic attacks that canary experiences are incredibly and weirdly comforting. Weirdly in a good way i hope that makes sense !!

the descriptive way you built up canary’s panic attack was almost a play by play of my own experiences i think that’s why i was so shocked with the chapter 😭 and the way that her thoughts went straight to spiralling and worrying was so accurate from my own experiences

the way that ghost came and comforted her was the comforting bit, it’s like. that’s what she needed in that moment. She needed someone to tell her to breathe and to listen to her.

im not very good at compliments and my words but it was really nice to see such an accurate portrayal (at least for me 🩷) of a panic attack because of ptsd and it was so beautifully written!!

cannot wait for the next chapter 🩷

sorry this is so long!!

p.s canary should shoot graves back. like, uno reverse bitch

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thank you for saying so! i usually try to pull from my own experiences with anxiety when it comes to canary’s panic attacks and subsequent breakdowns so i know it might not be super accurate for everyone, but i’m glad people are able to relate to her in those moments. i think for her, a lot of it is a result of shoving it all down for so long and not allowing herself to process her feelings while keeping herself in survival mode, which is understandable given the circumstances. but at the same time, it doesn’t go away just because she ignores it, it builds and builds and builds until, like we saw in the club bathroom, it all boils over and spirals out of her control.

and i think ghost sort of recognized that when he found her so he’s immediately shifts to try to help her. at the same time canary’s never really had someone to do that for her and she’s already hesitant to trust him, but she can recognize on some level that she needs to calm down and she can’t do that on her own this time.

this was perfectly lovely, and not too long at all!! it’s nice to know that other people have similar experiences with panic attacks and anxiety and i’m glad i could provide some level of comfort or relatability there

p.s. she just might when she wakes up, hell hath no fury after all 😉💜

[bunny-smut]

hello there ! 💜💜Tamaki amajiki is my #1 comfort character and ive been basically struggling alot recently with my depression and social anxiety... i was wondering if you could do a fic of tama catching the reader s3lf harming and giving them comfort (im sorry if this makes you uncomfortable)or if not that then mabye when reader is having an anxiety attack?if you dont wanna do this request you dont haven to ofcoure but thank you for reading my request..lots of luv ..take care of yourself okay?

I’ll gladly write your request. I deal with social anxiety too and I know it’s a difficult thing to deal with on a daily basis. Take care of yourself too love. ❤️

Thorns

✟ genre: angst

✟ warnings: s3lf harm, blood

✟ pairing: T.Amajiki x fem!reader

You were angry, you were sad, and you were tired. Tired of feeling like everyone was staring at you, tired of feeling judged even though now one was paying attention, and most of all you were tired of being you.

You could feel a sickening feeling pool in your gut as you cried on your bathroom floor. It was normal for you to feel this way, it was normal for you to reach into your drawer and pull out a razor blade.

You knew the dangers of cutting but it somehow kept you sane. It hurt but at the same time it didn’t. You felt weak in the knees but you still moved the sharp steel across your forearm.

You could feel your heart beat erratically as you made the first cut. First came the pain then the peace. 2 turned to 4 cuts on your arm, the blood trickling down your arm and onto your floor.

You slowly stood up, blood pooling around your toes. It wasn’t a lot but it was enough to leave a small puddle. Grimacing at the sight, you were about to clean the blade before you heard the door open.

Somehow you knew, you knew who it was and you began to cry again. Turning around you looked at him, your boyfriend Tamaki Amajiki. He had a look on his face, a look that was more painful than any gunshot wound.

Without saying a word, he slowly wrapped his hand around yours and took the blade from you. Putting it in the trash can, he pulled you close and hugged you.

“I’m so sorry…” you choked out an apology.

“Don’t say your sorry… p-please don’t…. I should be sorry.. I-I never noticed how tired you looked until today… when you brushed Mirio and Nejire off when they asked i-if you were ok…” his grip tightened, his face now buried in your neck.

Slowly, you brought your arms up and hugged him, sliding down with him into the floor. You felt so calm, the warmth was serene and sincere. He meant every word he had said, you believed him. It wasn’t his fault for not noticing and it wasn’t yours for feeling the way you did.

“Y/n… I’m here… please don’t hurt yourself anymore… w-we’re here to protect you…” he whispered, the sound of his voice lulling like a sweet sonnet.

You could feel the emotion in your gut grow larger than before, and finally you let it out. Crying on the bathroom floor in the arms on your boyfriend as he held and kissed your forehead. For once you didn’t feel as powerless as you always had, the feeling of comfort pooled in you instead of grief and pain.

For once you felt comforted without the need of a silver blade.

I know I have no right to tell anyone who hurts themself this but please, seek professional help. I know it’s hard to talk to people due to fear of being ridiculed but the best thing you can do for yourself is talking to someone and finding the root of all your pain. That’s the best advice I can give to you.

Thank you for requesting, please take care of yourself.

[vinnival]

I was wondering if you can do a Madness Combat match up <3

Im 5'9 and im Bisexual, I have short hair, I also forgot to mention im a female, but my hair is buzzed on the sides and a undercut, I have chocolate brown hair and ye. I am a bit chunky, i have a tummy but i try to hide it. I have glasses as well and im a bit tan. Im outgoing and a bit shy, im nervious or out going when I meet new people. I love sharing about my drawings and ocs. Im passionate about my art and how I draw. I love singing but only by myself I get self conscious about my voice and such. I enjoy hanging with friends and making dumb puns. I get sad though ablittle too fast and my anxiety kicks in. I have short attention spam and I get scared about it and people getting annoyed of me for it.

Op I can tell you're such a cutie just by reading this 💜💜😩 enjoy!

You got a match! You're matched with....

Agent Torture!

<3

Art by @//6chocolatepie9 !!

You were so scared of him at first

Tbh anyone would be

But you realized that everyone else was scared too and felt bad for the poor guy

What if he really needed a friend? What if he couldn't have anyone to talk to bc he's so scary :(

To avoid being sad, you did tiny little things and left them around for him to cheer him up.

"Tiny little things" being drawings! You drew many things, and decided to leave some works for him- and ofc you drew the man himself.

(As you would see later in his quarters, he cherishes every piece of art you have and proudly has them very roughly hung up on his walls)

He caught you one day, setting out a new piece for him

You just saw- but mostly FELT- his large shadow just hover over you !

You freaked out, hearing his grumbles behind you, and slowly turned around

He was just staring at you.

You could feel his eyes scanning your body, and then he seemed to look past your small frame to see another picture- and he recognized your art style :))

He reached out a hand and pat your head lightly, while you were internally screaming (which emotion? You decide!)

After that, you two would just walk around AAHW when Torture wasn't busy

He brought you to his room one day, and he showed you his wall with pride, and hoo boy if there was a thermometer in your mouth it would've said you were MELTING

He pointed to some people he didn't recognize- your OCs! You happily told him about them

He loves picking you up and he LOVES how soft you are

You love to torture (hohohoho) him with your puns

"I'm perfectly sized for you to hold! How HANDY, huh?"

You saw visible apprehension at that horrible pun you made, but you knew he tolerated it

You constantly switch from topic to topic when talking and he gets confused sometimes but he's got the spirit <3

I headcanon that he can feel emotion, so when you're anxious or nervous?

He'll be all over you to protect you from whatever's going on

An attack from Hank? You bet he's carrying you to a safe room until he's done

Even though that scares the shit out of you, him constantly risking himself for you

You sometimes forget you won his trust by making drawings and giving it to him, maybe he appreciates gifts?

You made him a little doll of himself one day and you swear you saw some tears come from under his dark shades

He almost crushed you in a hug, you made a sound when he began squeezing too hard though and he let up on the pressure

Later that night, you were doing a little sleepover with him when you woke up to him growling

He seemed to be having a bad dream :((

Hesitantly, you gently laid your hand over his massive one and began humming a soft tune, soon adding lyrics here and there.

To your surprise, he actually calmed down after that

You worry for him and his sleep schedule a lot more after that night

When you came back from a quick walk outside one day, you find a piece of paper that slid under your door to your room

It was a (kind of poorly drawn but still ADORABLE) heart, and down in the corner, a "T" resides

You hurry over to Torture's room and find him in there, holding a flower. He was waiting for you awwe

He offered you the flower and you took it with a bright smile, "you like me don't you?"

He picked you up as if you were a fragile vase and gently placed a kiss on your head in response to the question.

Auditor was so confused on how you won over a goddamn killing machine...

I hope you liked it bae!! Writing fluff for big scary ooga booga people make me so happy 💜🥰

[sarah-sandwich]

(very excited for Peaches Ain’t Pretty I was just rereading that last week, but-) Binary Sunset??

@orchidberry you both asked for this one so I'm answering in one post 😊

It's Binary Sunrise Oliver 😒 lmao just messing with you BUT I based the title on the Star Wars theme Binary Sunset so you're sort of right.

This is my coffee shop au and the name of the coffee shop that Peter works at is Binary Sunrise (bc star wars nerd and sunrise->coffee you get it) This is also my take on the strangers stranded together become friends for an hour trope.

Peter is working and he usually works the closing shift so he can go straight from work to other work (Spider-Man). He likes it because he sees pretty much the same people every day. Not many people get coffee at 8 at night (im realizing as i type this that this is probably not true in nyc but what do i know) until one night a country boy comes in and he's cute okay but Peter's got his pride and he's not going to fall all over himself bc of some boy he's only going to see for ten minutes.

Well the storm outside takes a turn and it's dumping rain in sheets and the wind is driving it sideways, traffic is at a stand-still while flash flooding crops up all over the city. News reporters are telling everyone if they're somewhere safe to stay there and wait it out, so everyone currently at the coffee shop is stuck there...including the cute country boy (Harley. It's Harley.)

Peter is stressed. He's pretty sure the cute country boy is flirting with him and he's certain the storm isn't natural so he keeps texting Tony telling him he's stuck at work and he needs to check and make sure there isn't a super villain out there causing the storm. And Tony is like.....they've been warning us about this storm since before that tropical storm hit down the coast. Everyone knew this was coming.

Except Peter bc he doesn't have time to check the weather okay

So he's on his own with the cute country boy who is definitely low-key flirting with him as well as a handful of regulars who are just as stuck.

The power goes out and the kitchen floods and basically it's just a soft little fic about communities coming together and helping each other out while Peter has an anxiety attack about feelings 💗💙💚💜🌈😅

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[twopoppies]

Hey Gina!lol Im so sorry but you are the only one I feel like I can come for advice to and it's fine if you wouldn't reply!I live in a toxic household I am a teen and these days I have started to be toxic to myself my own health it just has started to happen on instinct and I am just stuck there's no way I can ask for help irl I need some tips or hope or if there is any counselling type thing that's free online?Because my grades are going down too and everything is so messed up right now tysm🥺❤

Hi darling. I don’t mind you reaching out at all. And I’m so so sorry your home is such a toxic place for you right now. This year has been incredibly hard for so many people. Here’s some things that might be helpful.

This is a list of mental health resources for POC, specifically.

This is wonderful advice on choosing a mental health provider.

Here’s some more info on that topic.

This is a great list of resources for hotlines, self-help etc.

Free online mental health resources (including people to talk to)

A list of apps to help you record/journal your moods, find healthy coping skills etc.

Seemingly simple, but effective, advice to help with panic attacks, anxiety, self-harm etc.

More apps to help with mood, negative thought patterns, anxiety etc.

Questions to ask yourself when you’re feeling like giving up.

This is my mental health tag. It’s full of great posts and general advice on keeping yourself in a good place, mentally. 

I hope that gives you a place to start. Additionally, is there anyone at school you can speak with��–at the very least to tell them you’re under a lot of stress and that’s why your grades are slipping? 

Please feel free to check back in with me if you want to... I’m sending you lots of love. I’m proud of you and I know you can make it through this. 💜