#can yall tell i am Not Normal rn

[clowningaroundmars]

my absolute fave thing to read in punkflower fics is lovesick puppy hobie brown

cool-as-a-cucumber hobie overthinking miles' every move, leaving lingering touches on him, longing glances thrown his way

certified BAMF hobie hanging by a doorway or window just a second too long before leaving miles

"skinny-hot" hobie refusing to believe someone as ✨️cool✨️ as miles would be into someone like him

badass punk hobie just yearning and pining and practically draping himself all over miles in desperate attempts but then pulling back all scared when anyone even hints that they should get together

god, i need pining lovesick loser hobie like AIR rn 😭

[snekdood]

i just feel like if you cant debate someone w/o insulting them then you're kinda just using it as an outlet for all of your asshole-ness

[shiaawtheharmless]

What in the actual fuck lmao (pls read everything lmao if u want)

so, im just noticing about this, i never knew someone made a damn callout post about me for about 2 days now and now that im checking there is some really wrong stuff here, some of them are just taking out of context, while others have like...really dumb stuff.

before i continue, i wanna let yall know that those images date way back (maybe not too back) like around 3 or 4 months, around august and not only I AM RESPONSIBLE for those act, i did apologize to these people, which at the end they didnt get the message thru and never knew, mostly cuz i fowarded this message thru the owner of the server, and not trying to do it in-server, heres the evidence of my apology and the date of it.

its really easy for everyone to take everything with different meaning and put it on the internet to fuck someone over, but we are going to talk about that later, rn imma tell yall a story about this;

months ago, i was getting some problems, mostly problems with the school (which im not getting much into) that were frustrating me, because i normally get the habit of always draw and post my content on tumblr everyday or atleast 3 times a week, i never refrain of making content for my small audience and i wouldnt never stop. Around that time i joined a specific server, i was still getting a lil frustrated but i still managed to hold on my emotions at some extent. Putting it simple, i was just not getting sleep and it was easy for me to break, and that what happened, and at the end i got banned, which i totally took the L and went back defeated.

that was months ago, and this guy post this thing like it just happened (probably not, but he never addressed it).

and other stuff happened (the reblog of @clydeswob)

yeah, i did that, and ngl, that kinda stuff often happens on the internet and tbh, i cant take that shit seriously, on that occassion i was laughing a bit, but i realized this guy was genuine so i kinda went ligth on him but still said that he needed to search that stuff.

there was also that guy called "Ethan", just saying, i was actually not cool with that guy because it started insulting @clydeswob, which i didnt at the end.

and this guy said that i was talking bout politics....seriously??? i dont see a gram of politics on there lmao. anyways

back to the other callout, i wanna resolve each damn screenshot that was censored and screenshotted in a way that yall can get a different story.

The first point calls out about me doing suggestive stuff, which yeah its suggestive, i get it, but they never told who i was replying to.

the OP's version of the screenshot is something like this

yall see something? theres a middle text all censored here, no reason other than maybe just covering up the guy's identity, but it kinda uncalled that you had to censor the message. In this image i was replying to that guy, that also said something kinda NSFW (not blaming him) that i replied to. heres the OG image.

yeah, it still suggestive, and you may say like; "oH bUt tHeRe wEre mInOrs!".

kinda, you see, that server has around just 90 minors, and the rest of the damn server are damn adults, and although this doesnt change that (sadly) there was a possible minor in there, on the date that this message was sent, there were no any present damn kids in there. But still at the end, people told told me to tone down, which i aknowledged but these people dont actually address it again.

if you dont belive, heres the profile of the guy i replied, and most of the users on there, had the same role and the same ager or higher

other point was that i was being racist????

ok lmao

first of all, i never intended to be racist, neither say anything stereotypical.

and second and final, ghetto i just a word.

if you think the ghetto word is only associated with black people stereotypes, then well....thats kinda of ironic dont you think?. Not every black people live in a Ghetto, Ghetto is just a word and that doesnt mean that every black people lives in there, so like err....you kinda dropped the ball of dipshit in there.

3rd point and the most outrageous cuz it was a damn misunderstanding.

So, before i say this, i need to say that im not a total sam and max nerd, i only played "Hit the Road" and saw the cartoons, but i never played the Telltale games (totally not cuz im broke lmao).

in this point, the OP say im making a remark of a damn kid, which is Sammun-Mak. I never seen that character (I swear for my mom and everything) in my life, and this what i replied to.

first of all, that damn tall man on the rigth is a damn kid???? when i saw it for the first time, i tougth that guy was a man, fr. and when i searched the guy, i finded out hes way smaller than that and everything was a missunderstanding, but i also never meant to say that to that ugly ass mf, i meant Max, cuz i dont even know that character.

wanna say rq that im not blaming the artist behind this, im just saying that the way he drew it, made me tougth it was a damn real king, like and adult, and since people like to shit on anyone easily, they didnt even tougth to understand the error and easily called me out as a damn....word...that word, which im totally not dude, yall fucking tweaking.

and last, the animatic post

ok, yall dumb.

Its easy to think that the video is based on....errr....rape??? wtf

why that word comes into your mind first when u see that kind of video????? u ok bro? cuz on reddit and other places i dont see people addressing it as you do.

going back a little into the story of this, i posted this on the sam and max club server, which at the end got deleted cuz it was innapropiate, i said like; "ok it was, i tougth people would get it, but ok" and i took the L cuz ik not everyone likes seeing stuff like that.

but then later after that i got striked and then banned, which was all uncalled for, and i never got DM's of the Mods of that server to explain me what the fuck happened. I tried to contact them, but at the end i decided not, cuz i tougth they would never answer (which they still dont).

going back to the present. wtf dude?

the audio of the video is based of a Vine Video around 2016 created by a guy made "Caleb City". It's easy for yall not to know videos that are this old, but seriously, before u start saying shit like this, pls research the audio, and if you have a problem with the audio, why dont you try to talk to CalebCity himself? tf.

Conclusion...well

I cant lie, the messages were real, but whats wrong is that the OP is trying to totally fuck me over messages that are not only months old, but also carry a different story. Its easy to do this kind of things in the Internet whenever they are real, or not, and its way easier, when the OP of the post DIDNT TAG YOU ON THE POST AND BLOCKED YOU SO YOU COULDNT SEE THE POST

I doubt this guy did it as an accident, cuz when i see the ping of my username it goes like @/shiaawtheharmless instead of @shiaawtheharmless, which when posted, notifies the user to the post, and also because he blocked me.

This is a really dickish move of your part @unprofessionalclownery. Its really easy for people like u talk behind others backs while they arent noticing, and it way easier when its on internet, and you probably didnt had the balls to ping me because you know this is wrong, so please, step off bitch (yeah).

Im not apologizing when I already did, and im not apologizing for my behavior in this post because its totally unacceptable that someone talks shit behind me when im not noticing. Also, i have to make some points so yall understand where i come from.

Im Mexican, and im 18yr, and im on college, im omw on the 4th semester. My career is about learning english, and as you suspect, yes im a ESL. Maybe my English is on point, but since im not a English native and neither a Pro English Talker, i can have mistakes over time (something that i didnt address on other servers, but now im doing it because its something that i need you all know).

just that, i dont think yall need to know anything bout me.

If you really think im bad, go for it, idc

If you dont, thanks ig, but idc neither cuz you still belived it at the first time instead of questioning urself.

peace.

[sobeksewerrat]

NOTE: Noticed a bunch of my mutuals reblogging terf and radfem shit so right off the bat if you reblog shit like "misogyny kills and rapes but misandry hurts a little bitch boy's feelings" (yes this is an actual post I saw) FUCK OFF. YOU'RE NOT WELCOME HERE BITCH.

Sup! Name's Adam, but I also go by Elvina, Andrew and Andrea. Or you can just call me Sobek, that works too.

I use he'/him, or هو/هذا or literally just any masculine arabic pronouns. Also I'm AroAce

Side note I am very very forgetful so if you sent me an ask/dm and I haven't responded to it I am so so sorry

VERY AUTISTIC ABOUT THE HELLAVERSE BUT I GENUINELY HATE THE WRITING AND A LOT OF THE DESIGNS. VERY OPEN TO CRITICAL DISCUSSION ABOUT IT JUST PLEASEEEEE BE NICE.

I have many fandoms and interests, but rn I am mainly into these:

Carmen Sandiego 2019

Ace Attorney (mainly the og trilogy)

Roblox Piggy (yes the peppa pig granny game)

Avatar: The Last Airbender and The Legend of Korra

The Music Freaks (though i dont post abt it much anymore)

Roblox Pressure

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss (don't support vivziepop though, and I hate canon so much I need to save these characters from viv's stories especially Adam)

Fairly Oddparents

The Stanley Parable

Mouthwashing

Main kins: Drew (TMF), Milly (TMF), Adam (HH), The Narrator (TSP)

My Faves from each fandom.

I will blast any Drew-anti or Adam hater into the Sun I don't have the fucking energy to deal with yall anymore 👍

ALSO- I'm not in the slightest bit normal about chemistry. If you have any chemistry facts or resources or anything PLEASE SEND THEM WAY I BEG OF YOU I LOVE CHEMISTRY MORE THAN I LOVE MY FAMILY. And if you're my mutual I'd be more than willing to tell you any chem fact as long as I know the answer, nd if I don't I'll look into it and tell you what I found. ANYTHING FOR NEW CHEMISTRY KNOWLEDGE!

Btw I hate Hydrogen. So fucking much. I've memorised the entire periodic table in order and it's still my most hated element. If it wouldn't have disastrous consequences, I would've destroyed every Hydrogen atom, ion or compound ever. Periodic table design critical too FYI

My main rules for interacting are keeping things SFW, and passing my vibe check. Also don't be a creep.

Uh i cant be bothered to look for my old intropost so this is it for now lol

Please don't ask me for donations!

[seth-burroughs]

Showed up in a third wiki article (the ultimate evil wiki), so, of course, I am obligated to check this one thoroughly and rate it from "pretty normal wiki entry" to "defilement slavery sexual harassment ethnic persecution animal abuse cocksucker". Although I still do not think that anything else could even compare to what we all went through in march

Normal so far though I don't think I would call Yomi like, the worst of all the people in KW. Like, I'd argue that Makoto is way more influential & Huesca and of course the UG is way more evil and influential + kinda caused all of this to happen at all but like, sure, whatever. Not like I care or anything

Oh hi Makoto. Fine up to a point however yall are giving him way too much grace + him being based off of the non-evil protagonist's DNA is not relevant + you are giving him way too much grace. I believe we got a bit too lost in the ultimate evil wiki gimmick so now that Yomi is the mainboy of the page everyone else is getting exonerated in the courts. "well actually he did it all because of the guy who was the truly evil other guy aka yaoi hellsmile" no. <- that was my whole rebuttal to this statement it's all I need to say

First half fine. I think. I'm too full of ginger tea to yet form a coherent thought. sowwy unu

I do not think that him considering Project: Homunculus "the biggest stain on his career" was because he felt bad, but because it failed. It sounded pretty obvious to me that that's what he meant when we talked to him about it in ch5, plus, he committed like countless other atrocities afterwards that he also did not give a fuck about in the ethical sense. Look at this man, then look me straight in the eye, and tell me there's an ounce of remorse in his body.

Also sucks to suck about the Yomi murder plot part. If I was Huesca I would simply not let any of my coworkers much less my anonymous gmail kitten know about how I'm planning to escape my enclosure. What can I say, literally no one cared when he died especially his amapalfucker subordinate Akira who got asked to help his boss stop getting rapidly murdered rn and his first reaction was just "hmmmmm let me think :///" I love Akira. Iconic never change

I got actually surprised that they included UG lol? It really feels like everyone just forgets about them.... I'll be back in a sec,

Ok I'm back time to read this. "Whether they are truly villainous or not is made ambiguous" it really is not

Anyway this one was just kinda mid like 5/10 they didn't even accuse me of hitting the pentagon what is even the point

[canonically47]

review pls

EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP YUL HAD HIS ASS HANDED TO HIM AND WE GOT JAJAMES IN THE FINALE. ONC DO NOT FUCK THIS UP FOR ME.

DCAS ep 19 - review

spoilers !!!! (but you knew that.)

tom saying jake sees the best in people was so fucking funny i'm sorry like we both know He Does Not. even the line was like 'despite his anxieties he..' baby ur literally saying 'despite not seeing the best in people he really does see the best in people' you are so fucking stupid

side note tom is actually an idiot, unironically. not haha himbo idiot just an actual fucking idiot. how is he 30. how is he a fan favorite. HOW IS TOMJAKE A FAN FAVORITE SHIP nonono im not talking about this rn im NOT (claws at my enclosure)

ugh i forgot tomjake is like. a thing. and not a very bad made-up fanon ship. and they're giving them a spin-off. for a sec i allowed myself to exist in a world where ONC made good writing decisions. what a world it was

james being jake's biggest hater was amazing. almost unleashed my inner jake hater. there is still time though, trust

kinda sad to see huntess not hang out with anyone but each other. i was waiting on tess interacting with gabellie or something

on the bright side, GRETT HAVING A MOMENT WITH GABELLIE??? HELLOOOOOOOOO?????? CAN YALL HEAR ME???????????????

gabgrellie save me.... save me gabgrellie............

speaking of ellie she looked so off the entire episode. why did her eyes move like that. am i crazy. she looked so ugly

oh my fucking god they fucking burnt yul's face. that's crazy. grett the woman that you are <333 i might actually draw the prick because he looks cool now

i am also sooooooo glad they're not giving him a half-assed redemption arc. they know he sucks ass. at least we have that

krystal saying "that's the good shit" was the most embarrassing thing ever in fact her entire part before dinner was embarrassing. why did she keep. doing that and saying that. girl why are you interrupting the moment you want to get on camera are you an idiot

also she fell victim to the inconsistency bc tell me why she was bitching and moaning the entire season about 'those that really matter' and being all lpvey dovey about her friends but then derek is like 'trevor :)' and she goes 'why arent u professional' girl.

and derek. man. we all know youre lying genuinely fuck you. 'he matters to me' GIRLLL WHEEENNNNNNNNNNN HAVE YOU SHOWN THAT 😭😭😭

FIORE AND ALEC!!! ALEC SCOWLING THEN LOOKING AT FIORE AND INSTANTLY SMILING!!! HIM PROTECTING HER FROM YUL!!! HIM COVERING HER EYES WHEN YUL GOT BURNED!!! TH!!! THE!!!!!!! THE FATHER-DAUGHTER DUO EVERRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭😭😭

now allow me to be even more not normal

JAJAMES CRUMBS 🗣🗣🗣‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥 JAMES IS HELPING JAKE IN THE FINALE EVERYONE SHUT THE FUCK UP HERE IS HOW JAJAKEDEN NATION CAN STILL WIN- [gets shot] [gets shot] [gets shot] [gets s

please god PLEASE LET THEM BECOME FRIENDS because if they do i will actually write DSVC fic about jajakeden getting together. i made a promise to myself to never write DSVC fic but if they become friends. i will be so. fucking. annoying.

JAJAMES PLEASE BECOME FRIENDS PLEASEEEEEEE PLEASE 😭😭😭

sooooo glad fiore not only did not pick riya but also GAVE HER THE DISADVANTAGE. JAKE FANS HERE IS HOW WE CAN STILL WIN

why did they bring emily back just to make her a bitch.

JAJAMES PLEEEEEAAAAAASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭

there are many things wrong with this ep (like derek existing, and also his lines, and also yul existing,,, and the stuff ive pointed out) but its ONC. i'll throw them a bone ig. i'm okay with what we got, it obviously wasn't a masterpiece and it felt fanservice-y in parts (yk that one post or ask or whatever that says season 1 & 2 DSVC was a show a fandom was built off, but season 3 is a show built off the fandom? yea some scenes reminded me of that. coigh cough krystal mildly breaking the fourth wall.) but i'm glad connor only got like 2 seconds of screentime, fiore and alec got along, and the jajames crumbs oh my.. <3

overall, an 8/10 and if my memory isn't failing me this is probably the best rating since ep 13?? but yea it was a good episode i'm fine with it. im surprised they didnt ruin.everything. bc yk its ONC. so yea!!! yay yippee yay!

i am so glad there are only 2 episodes left . istg if i watch the spin offs or new seasons i need yall to shoot me. and remember how i was talking some time ago about rewatching the entire show after DCAS came out fully? yea no. not doing that. when episode 21 comes out i will be cheering because i will finally put DSVC behind me. i fucking hate this show WE ARE ALMOST FREE!!!!!!!!! CHEERING

[graycious-tea]

I am so fucking done with this fandom rn like guys I can’t even express how disappointed and pissed I am right now. I don’t give a shit if you don’t like a storyline, I don’t give a shit if you don’t like a ship canon or not. I do not give a shit if you don’t like the character. You DO NOT attack the fucking actors who are playing a role and doing their goddamn job. You also do not speak for said actors. Yes I’m talking to you bitches who say Oliver clearly hates Lou. Ever use those critical thinking skills of yours and wonder, maybe he wasn’t feeling up for an interview that day?? People have shit days guys, some celebrities don’t enjoy interviews, they do not exist to please you. They have zero obligation to pander to you, absolutely zero. Yall see what you want to see and it’s so fucking obtuse and ignorant of you. Your hate over something so stupid has genuinely hurt people and their enjoyment of oh what was it again? That’s right, A FUCKING SHOW! It’s not that serious guys! Like oh my god! And don’t even get me started on the backwards homophobia and racism in these ship wars like holy fucking shit yall are insane. You are not racist for liking Tommy (a white man) over Eddie (a Latino man) in regards to a romantic relationship with Buck (who is also a white man). You are not homophobic for wanting Buck to be with Tommy and you sure as hell are not fetishizing mlm relationships! That one pisses me off so much, I do not love Tevan cus I want to see two hot guys make out, I love them because of how good Tommy is for Buck and how important their queer story is to tell. I love them because Tommy is gentle with Buck, calls him Evan as a way for Buck to allow himself to accept all aspects of himself not just the shield of “Buck”. I love them because it normalizes middle aged macho men being vulnerable; it normalizes men in their 30’s coming out! It does so many wonderful things! And all you can see is you and what you want. Now there are some buddie fans who are respectful so I’m not trying to like villainize all yall in one box but the BOB’s have me sooo upset and I just want to thank yall that are being respectful, I want to continue to like buddie because they are cute but it has become difficult. I normally don’t post content like this but oh my god this has just become so frustrating

Edit: this has been in my drafts for months, but after seeing all the shit talk after that deleted scene was posted I fully do not give a single fuck anymore I’m posting it

[goldfades]

I'M BACK! | reason for hiatus, life updates, etc

hey... hey... how y'all doin?.... this is how i feel rn after an unexpected 2 and half month hiatus LOL. anyways, hi everyone i'm back! I MISSED Y'ALL!!

i have not been on tumblr for 2 months because of a bunch of reasons, but the main one is because i got so overwhelmed with irl things 😝. and under the cut (if u care lol) i'll tell u more about it! but here is the important shit y'all need to know:

so firstly, i will be mostly regularly now because everything is semi back to normal! everything will be back to normal, so requests are open (for now).

secondly, my 600 follower celly will be closed just because christmas/the holidays are over for the most part. but i will make another celly soon!!

thats really all, but anyway, here is my life updates:

OKAY. first, i am not living with my roommate anymore and as of january, i will be on my own in an apartment!! yaya!

i am still in jersey because of school obviously but i was SO close to transferring while i was gone. the school i go to is just a workload that i wasn't used to + first semester always sucks ass 😭. finals really got on my head these past couples months but i got the results yesterday and i did SO good on all of them, thank lord 🫡

the last couple months, i've really been like... uninterested with hockey and everything just because of school but because of the holidays and being back home, I AM BACK TO MY PUCK BUNNY WAYS 🤭🫣!! and i am happy to say that i have attended another canucks game this past week and we won 7-4 hehehe, yall can say that i am the good luck charm they needed after their loss to the stars 🫠

ANYWAY, thank you for reading all this and i am so excited to be writing again!!!! yayaya

[hotpotatoshealthjourney]

I’ve woken up feeling worse every single day this week. No idea what is causing all this, and my neurologist is out of town so I can’t even ask until next week. Woken up with new symptoms several days, which is always concerning, especially today when I had the same new symptoms I had yesterday, which means 2 days in a row. That’s usually the standard where they say get it checked out.

I don’t even know if they’d let me have more steroids rn though since they just did that recently, so I’m at least going to wait until my doc is back in town to ask her. I have pt tomorrow and I have no idea if I’m even going to be able to do much of it. I haven’t even been able to shower all week. It’s been very frustrating. It hasn’t been any hotter than the rest of the summer so I don’t think it’s a heat thing. Genuinely no clue.

Not a fan, that much I can tell you. I am so so tired. Been sleeping soooo much but still soooo tired. Gonna probably go take a nap soon. I’ve mostly been sitting here staring off into space doing nothing since I woke up like an hour ago. Can’t focus, can’t even eat cuz it takes too much energy.

On the plus side, my insurance out of pocket max is net, so I’m basically getting free healthcare and meds till the end of the year which is great. Need to schedule a bunch of chiro and massage and acupuncture appointments. Also gonna get prescriptions for all the dme (durable medical equipment) that I need and get it all now while it’s free. Normally insurance would only cover 30% but right now they’ll cover all of it. Time to get the things I need but can’t normally afford! And it lasts until the end of the actual year. This is a huge relief for us cuz medical bills have been insane this year.

Keep sending happy thoughts and asks please. It really does help. Love yall.

[averagetransdude12]

(For legal reasons I'm not a therapist) Uhhh I am bored so now I sha'll rant to yall about Flamingo lore. So I'll be going by this playlist: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLMAZgP8rjwSLYgRu2v0gjUWlZ_ucFPC1E

So the first video is called "A normal roblox video" it kinda just shows insanity and losing yourself, and at the end it seems like Albert (which is of course the main character) "dies" but not really dying its just implied.

The second video is called "Albert's new merch made something terrible happen" it shows rituals in which Albert sacrifices a styrofoam head to a god like deity and when his ritual goes well he goes insane, and it cuts to Albert throwing wife (the mannequin) off the roof. Which could be you sacrificing yourself to help others, but they don't care enough to care so it could lead to insanity

The third video is called "Flamingos wife" where it looks like the whole incident was either a dream or it happened earlier. It has nothing of value in most of it until near the end when Albert and wife wake up in a sewer and if you turn up you're brightness you can see a shadowy figure behind them in the sewer. Maybe the shadow could be a guilty conscience? Like how some people deal with guilt they didn't even need to feel guilt about or it could be just a normal guilty conscience.

The fourth video is called "USE STARCODE FLAMINGO" which is just him making an ad for his starcode, but it's ofc deeper then that cause it's Albert. So it has a kid character (which is just Albert but on his knees), and a mom, the kid is just a brat asks his mom for robux, and his mom buys him a robux gift card, and the kid uses it without using the starcode and is sent to hell where a shadow creature threatens him and tells him that he'll kill his mom and take him (well it's implied).

The fifth video is called "I am playing roblox in this video" the video starts with Albert playing a roblox game, (and if you watch the video you would know the context, and rn I'll just mention the lore of the video) it seems in the video as if it's eluding to murder. In said video Albert sees a ghost orb which is a sign of a dead person or someone's ghost (it could just be some fuzz, but Albert said the crew didn't see it and that he didn't mean to watch it go by) and there is a shadow man behind him if you turn up the brightness. (Pretend I put that the lights go out for 2 minutes in said video lol) the lights go back on and Albert gets up from where he was siting and goes over to some scaffolding (he filmed it in his "new" office building) he climbs up the scaffolding ladder and when he gets up onto the top of the scaffolding he spits over the edge spitting out beans (beans can imply drugs/gore if you look into where they mostly come from) he looks shocked, and climbs down the ladder and walks over to his desk where the computer is leaking beans everywhere. He mumbles something about how he thought he hid it and stuff.

Sixth video is called "The end of flamingo" let's just skip over the boring shit and go straight to how it implies to not being able to leave people (could imply attachment issues) and thinking you are trapped to be around with them, and how it's like everything is burning around you but you are still conscious. Oh and the weird demon thing that talks to Albert and says he should let her go. And when he doesn't let her go, the demon makes Albert trapped inside of a mannequin on a burnt bed.

Seventh and hopefully last video is titled "I messed up" (man if he posts another damn merch ad video I will point a gun to my head) It seems like it's based in the 80's with the 80's music and the whole laundromat thing and the newspapers. So Albert is driving a car to the laundromat to wash clothes (the fans love this video lol). Skip to the laundromat where he encounters masked shadow man (idk thats his name now) the masked shadow man asks for meat, and shows Albert a newspaper with an ad for a meat store. It skips to Albert driving back to the laundromat with some meat for the masked man, he arrives to the laundromat and looks for the masked man, and the masked man declines the meat Albert brought him and points to a girl outside. And Albert goes outside and goes up behind her and goes to grab her shoulder when she turns into meat, Albert goes back into the laundromat and looks for the masked man. This could imply many things like helping someone but they don't really care much when you actually help them, or being a people pleaser and such, trying to help people as best as you can. Or some shit idk I'm not a therapist.

Matpat should look into this, I shouldn't have to just post this shit at 4 am cause I was bored and no one else will talk about it. If anyone can do it please try and get matpat to look into this. I ruined my damn sleep schedule just to make this post.

[losergendered]

Guess who watched Re-Animator for the first time last night? Me!! :D

Dude, mikey, I can't believe I was procrastinating on this tasty stuff! I remembered you loving the movie, including some other stuff, but I got around to watch the trilogy series on Tubi and FUCKN HELL (/pos)!! *slams hands down* First off, one of my favorite fictional blorbos is voiced by Jeffery Combs, and he also voiced Scarecrow from "Batman: The Animated Series" (ik jonathan was voiced by a different guy, but I'm mostly talking about his third final design in the show where he looked like a goddamned corpse) my second favorite blorbo whom I'm not fixated on rn, but you get the idea.

Secondly, I had NO idea that Re-Animator was based on a book created by H.P. Lovecraft (one of my fave authors + BIG ass fan of fourth dimensional eldritch octopi from space lmao) cuz I love his work. But lastly but not least, THE FUCKING GORE AND BODY HORROR AND BRUTALITY AND GROTESQUE SCENES 💜 If you know me, I am A LITERAL FREAK for brutal gore and I also adore the medical science in Herbert's area. I love how the first movie is a normal level of brutal, but the SECOND MOVIE amps it up to fucked up creations of Dr. West's work and showing meat and organs galore.

Speaking of Dr. Herbert West - I already love him. Plus I love Jeffery Combs as his actor (i also know he is also famous for playing Star Trek characters, buuuuuuut 😬 I am a VERY VERY VERY VERY picky person for any sci-fi movies/series, and I only love him for the horror [I don't love Star Trek and Star Wars; sorry]). Also, you can clearly tell Herbert and Dan are very much fags in love - like, cmon, are you telling me yall live together for eight months in the same house with your weird lil' scientist bf who goes into a basement stealing body parts and reanimating them for God-knows-what experiments AND YOU SURE YOU TWO AINT KISSIN??? /silly /joke

Anyway, short summary: I love Re-Animator, Herbert West is a transsexual fag-coded short king imo, aaaaaand I might spam ya w/ "Re-Animator" related stuff /autism

YAY OMG IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT!!! its for real one of my fave horror movies, the gore is SO COOL and theyre SUCH CODEPENDENT FAGGOTS UGH. anyway you're so soso right about transsexual herbert + i would be HYPED for any reanimator spam!!!

[spookymaesblog]

ACOTAR Review

Alright yall, i am 3/5 of the series done and what the fuck. I picked this series for the fucking and its FUCKING me emotionally.

(THIS WILL HAVE SPOILERS)

Basically the first book (a court of thorns and roses) starts out with feyre in the woods hunting. it is snowin like a mf in this forest and she's going on about how she has to catch something something tonight while she is out or her and her family are gonna die within a week. She's apparently in this clearing or some shit and a doe comes into her view and she is like 'oh shit, nice' and starts getting her bow and arrow ready, thinking to herself how she only has three arrows (i understand she is poor but & i dont hunt but wtf girl?? 3?? ok) and two are normal and one is made of ashwood. (some special ass tree that kills fairies idk) as she is getting her arrow ready, she looks up and sees a wolf is also stalking the deer, yikes. she is like 'oh fuck, wtf' and looks around and realizes it just one wolf and is like 'eh i can kill it' (go off queen) but then she sees the size of it and stops like 'HUH' bc the motherfucker has glowing eyes and is HUGE. she goes onto this long ass inter monolog about how the fae/old gods used to rule the world and keep humans aas salves and would treat them like shit and torture them and all this other shit. basically she is like FUCK FAIRIES loud and proud and shoots the fuckin wolf. the wolf doesnt do shit and lets her kill it, she SKINS the damn thing (oh yeah it killed the deer lmao) and puts the deer in its skin???? HELLO?? and carries it home. when she gets home, you meet her two sisters (Nesta and Elain) and her dad (kinda a loser). they are in this small shake excuse of a cottage that is literally barely keeping them alive, around a fire trying to stay warm. nesta (who is a BITCH) is like "what and where the fuck did you get that?" and they kinda go back forth over stupid shit on money and who needs a new cloak or boots (you learn nesta and elain just spend money even though they broke as shit bc their dad made a bad sale and lost all their money) and feyre wants to punch them and asks nesta to cut more wood for the fire and nesta is like "fuck you no" and feyre is like "bitch you are gonna marry a man who farms but you cant cut wood? okay" and nesta storms off to the shared room and shared bed. ( i think they all share the room).

the next day, feyre and her sisters head to the market that is happening instead the town to sell the pelts. at the front of the market they are stopped by a group of weirdo they called 'children of the blessed' and apparently these ppl are 'fairy loving whores' who pray to the fae and old gods and willing sacrifice themselves over to them. one of the girls corners the sisters and tries to talk some shit to them and elain goes useless and just hides behind nesta as she yells at the girl and goes back and forth with her for awhile and shows her the iron bracelet on her wrist (apparently wards off fairies) as this is all happens feyre uses it as an excuse to kinda slip off as it comes to an end and runs off to try and find some to sell the pelts to. she finds a big bitch standing by a fountain and is like 'work' and goes up to her and the lady is like '??? wtf you want?' and feyre is like ''you want some pelts?'' and the lady who turns out to be a fuckin mercenary is like ''who killed them??" and feyre goes "me" and the merc is like '?? this bitch fr rn?' and just stares at her for a lil and basically ends up buying them and guves her away too much money for them talking some shit about how someone did it for her once and now she wants to repay. they SOMEHOW get on the topic of fairies and the merc tells feyre how she has fought and killed one and everything that she knows and how she shouldn't fuck with them and stay away from the wall and all this shit and how she always died and shows her nasty ass leg she has. you know this bitch aint gonna listen.

later that day after they have ate dinner, they are just hanging out and it is snowing some big ass beast comes bustin throuh their dingy ass cottage screamin n howlin "WHO KILLED HIM" over and over and them whole family is like ???!!??!?!?! and finally feyre is like ''who??'' and the beast is like "ANDRAS!! THE WOLF!! and she is like 'damn.................' and the family is all like "no one killed anyone!! we promise!! just leave!!!" and the beast is sniffing around and smells his dead friend in the house and starts losing it and is screaming and feyre's stupid ass goes "what to say..... if someone did kill him......'' and the beast says "LIFE FOR A LIFE" or "you come and live in Prythian for the rest of your life on my land" and feyre is like "just kill me!!!!' and basically her dad convinces her to leave and go and live in with the beast in the fairy realm and she leaves.

she wakes up about two days later after waking up from being knocked out with magic from annoying the fuck outta the beast and is in a room where there is a fairy getting her clothes and she is like ??? and the fairy is like "im alis, im the maid, get dressed" and feyre gets pissy and refuses to wear a dress and puts on random ass clothes and goes downstairs to the dining room in this big ass manor and is meet to see this hot ass big man sitting at the table (his a blonde tho, a shame) with a gold mask on and she is like?? basically he is the beast, his name is Tamlin, another comes in, he is way hotter and a red head with a fox mask and his name is Lucien (who she should of picked) and they talk and she learns shit.

shes super annoying for a couple of chapters (rightrfully so i understand but stfu) and then finally gets okay, she hangs out with tamlin and lucien more and you can tell she is starting to like tamlin. she is wanting to learn more but tamlin is kinda weird and doesnt wanna tell her shit so she goes to lucien. he tells her to trap this ugly ass fairy called a Suriel. she does it and basically fucking DIES but is told "stay with the high lord" and shes like HUH and finds out tamlin is a high lord. she is almost killed bny these ugly ass things called a  Naga and tamlin comes and saves her. she learns that the blight is a sickness that is in the lands and thats why they wear the masks.

some time goes by and its spring and there is a festival going on and she is like "okay fun!' and tamlin is like "you cant go" and she is like "? fuck you" and she fucking sneaks out and goers anyway. well her dumb ass goes into this cave area n gets caught by some random ass fairies and then someone saves her and goes "oh there you are, ive been looking for you'' and she looks at him and is like "oh god damn" and thinks "this is the finest mf ive ever seen" and then lucien finds her and is like "YOU ARE A FUCKING IDIOTTTTTTTT STUPID BITCH" and brings her inside and tells her what the holiday actually is and how tamlin is giving back his power to the land for spring and then has to FUCK(??) and she needs to be away. she is like ?? and just goes to her room and then SNEAKS OUT AGAINNNNN later and runs into tamlin in the manor and he fucking presses her into a mall and they start making out and bumping and grinding and then bites her?? and then they go to bed.

more time goes and then it is summer or some shit i think and they are more into each other and they are having lunch or some shit and tamlin n lucien are like ??? HIDE bc they sense someone coming and lucien shoves feyres ass against a wall and covers her and puts a glamour on her to protect her and the hot ass mf from the festival night (rhysand) comes in like a jack ass and gives them shit. basically he realizes there is a glamour and is like FUCK YALL and makes it go away and sees feyre and is like "oh i know you" and goes into her mind and looks at tamlin like "why is she thinking about fuckin you??" and tamlin starts begging him not to tell this bitch named amarantha and rhysand makes him and lucien bow down to him and he leaves.

tamlin freaks out and is like "YOU HAVE TO LEAVE" and they FINALLY fuck andsays I LOVE YOU and then he makes feyre leave and go back to the mortal lands (he family thinks she has been helping a wealthy sick aunt, tamlin has been taking care of her family and made them rich again) and lucien was pissed she left. she gets back and nesta is like "wtf i remember everything you better spill bitch" and basically helps her after two weeks to get her back to the spring court after finding out nesta tried to save her.

feyre makes it back and the manor is fucked up from ppl destroying it and stealing everyone away and she finds alis there and alis basically tells her the truth. tamlin was LYING ABOUT EVERYTHINGGGGG. amarantha was a family friend of tamlins dad (dead) and was pissed tamlin wouldnt fuck her so she cursed him that he had to find a human girl with so much hate in her heart for fairies to kill one of his men and to get her to agree to come back and live on his land and fall in love with him in a certain amount of time and the curse thats on EVERYONE IN PRYTHIAN is lifted and thats why they wear they mask and she stoles bits of all the high lords powers.

feyre goes to where they are all at to save tamlin and agrees to do some hunger games ass trails with amarantha once a month on a full moon for 3 months or solve a riddle. jokes on feyre she is fucking ILITERATE. she gets the shit beat out of her and tamlin just watches. we learn that rhysand is amaranthas whore/right hand man and is taking a weird liking to feyre. he is randomly visiting/helping her. her first challenge is to fucking fight this big ass worm and she uses some damn bones and wins. lucien screamed out to help her, rhysand bet on her winning, she fucking broke her arm to the bone sticking out and is dying in her dirty ass vomit cell. rhysand comes and visit and is like 'i can save you but you have to make a deal and come hang out with me two weeks out of them month' and she is like 'fuck you ill die' and he goes to leave and she gets him to agree to one week and they make the deal and he seals it with a tattoo on her arm and heals her.

rhysand keeps basically helping her through out all the trials and the two nexts months she is under the mountain. you are kinda like ?? do we like him?? do we hate him?? its hard to tell. he is making her dress like a whore and getting her drunk every night but not doing anything with her but watching her and bringing her to her cell and helping with chores and shit. her second challenge is a fucking READING one and shes like "well...' and rhysand helps her through the bond of the deal tattoo and she wins.

the third challenge is to kill three fairies with an ashwood dagger, she kills the first two and when she goes for the third, its tamlin. she starts sobbing and freaking out as everyone is laughing ang hootin and hollering but then she remembers alis saying "you know everything already" and how she has over heard multiple times that ppl have said tamlin has a heart of stone so she goes on a limb and stabs the fucker. she is right and wins and the curse is broke and amarantha is pissed tf off and is like "WELL I DIDNT SAY WHEN HAHAHA" and everyone is pissed off and starts a riot and then feyre figures out the riddle and says the answers and amaratha is even more mad and starts beating the shit out of feyre and KILLS her.

tamlin starts sobbing and just holds her not doing SHIT and RHYSAND stabs amarathna and then tamlin starts doing shit and kills amarthana and then goes back to feyre and is like "please!!!!" and all of the high lords come up and give a lil shit light of something on her and we see that feyre is seeing something through another persons eyes and realize it is rhysands and because of the tattoo and then she falls asleep and this bitch WAKES UP!!!! and she is a HIGH FAE!!! the girl won and she was a fairy.

9/10 very good book, love the turns and twist def recommend, is a slow burn tho

[changbinslovelylegs]

Get ready for a long answer cause I plan to answer all of these!!

1 - bts, ateez, and stray kids have always been my top 3

2 - Oooh fun I love Eric Nam, crush, zion t, thama, colde, Jay Park just to name a few

3 - Well I have 3 fav groups and I have 3 bias's from those groups (now just realising this is the 3rd question) so for bts its Yoongi, Jimin, and Taehyung. For ateez its Seonghwa, Hongjoong, and Wooyoung. For stray kids its Hyunjin, Minho, and Chan.

4 - My ult of ults, main man, husband etc is the one and only Min Yoongi!

5 - My first ever bias was Yoongi and he has stuck with me ever since, husband privileges and all ahahah

6 - I got into kpop october 2019

7 - bts blood sweat and tears (if we want to disregard Psy because that was technically the first song but it didn't get me into kpop)

8 - I have way too many answers for this, aka all my bias's

9 - I don't want to answer a negative question sorry

10 - All 8 members of ateez for sure

11 - I'm a cancer so any idol who is a cancer. the only ones that come to mind right now are ateez's San and nct's Taeyong

12 - I don't even remember mine oop-

13 - I think the last photo is one of skz Changbin

14 - Now this is a fun one! I'd take BM of Kard, Changbin of stray kids, and Jay Park I just feel like they would know what to do plus their all buff so I know they won't be weak

15 - I'm a little basic and love black hair but I also love red hair

16 - I'm answering these late at night and can't be fucked coming up with a detailed answer. but I love when an idol wears leather, or button ups that are left half unbuttoned

17 - I doubt I know anything yall don't

18 - I have too many bias's to answer this

19 - I have so many but let me just name a few: fake love, blood sweat tears, hero, beautiful liar, super bowl, fear, god of music, drive, taste, bouncy, halazia, mist, replay, lotto, so many oml

20 - Didn't I just answer this?

21 - This is hard for me to naswer

22 - I love me a dark concept maybe it's dark and sexy or maybe it's dark in a different way like doctor bebe by pentagon

23-29 - I have way too many to answer these!

30-31 - YOU CAN'T MAKE ME CHOOSE BETWEEN MY ULT 3 I REFUSE

32 - Maybe Mist by ateez? or a shinee ballad?

33 - anything too cutesy (I didn't like just right by got7 or chewing gum by nct dream if that helps)

34 - Any group I started stanning I still stan but there are a few groups I don't keep up with as much as I used to like got7 but I still love and stan them

35 - deff zerobaseone Ricky is my obsession atm

36 - I kinda wanna say sf9

37 - Don't tell nobody by oneoreight

38 - Ooh ima hurt some feelings with this one and I have a few: dope by bts, very nice by seventeen, dramarama by monsta x, just right by got7, good lil boy by ateez, sticker by nct but I'm pretty sure others hate that one too

39 - Ok time for the other way around: maniac by stray kids, gruiella by ateez, hard by shinee, good boy gone bad by txt, all I can think of rn

40 - groups that aren't too crazy. yet.

41 - Sharboom by ateez

42 - moa is cute, monbeebee is fun to say, army is of course great

43-44 - no

45 - Yes i have a cute little collection

46 - no

47 - YES!!!! I have been to stray kids twice and I have also seen both Eric Nam and Woosung

48 - I wanna go to an ateez concert like sooooo bad, also bts, monsta x, txt, the rose, exo, shinee, seventeen just to name a few

49 - too hard of a question for how late at night this is

50 - kinda?

51 - oh 100% deja vu the rock remix by txt I was and still am fucking obsessed with it

52 - usually my top 3 but I have listened to alot of shinee, seventeen and txt alot this year too

53 - Idols should be allowed to have a normal life and do things like date like the people who get sad because they think they themselves have a chance with them need to touch some grass (Like I say Yoongi is my husband but I clearly know he's not my actual husband)

54 - I just love kpop so much!!!!!!!!!!!

KPOP ASK GAME

your favorite group(s)?

your favorite solo artist(s)?

who is your bias in your favorite group(s) and why?

who are your ultimate biases?

who was your very first bias?

how long have you been into kpop?

which song/group introduced you to kpop?

an idol you'd love to be friends with?

an idol you don't think you'd get along with?

an idol you think would match your freak?

idols you share the same zodic sign with?

idols you share the same mbti with?

the last photo of an idol you have saved to your camera roll?

name 3 idols you'd want to accompany you during a zombie apocalypse!

your favorite hairstyle on your bias(es)?

your bias(es)' best look(s)?

tell me 3 things about your bias(es) some people might not know about!

name 5 things your bias(es) remind(s) you of?

your all time favorite kpop songs?

your favorite songs from your favorite group(s)?

your favorite kpop albums?

your favorite concepts?

your favorite choreographies?

your favorite debuts?

your favorite music videos?

your favorite collabs?

your favorite vocalists?

your favorite dancers?

your favorite rappers?

if you could only listen to one group for the rest of your life, who would it be?

if you could only listen to one song for the rest of your life, which one would it be?

which song is playing during your funeral?

a kpop concept you don't like?

a group you're no longer a fan of?

a group you've been eyeing for a while but couldn't get into them yet?

name an underrated kpop group!

name an underrated kpop song!

a song everyone seems to like but you?

a song no one seems to like but you?

songs you would show to people who are not into kpop?

last kpop song you listened to?

a fandom name you like?

do you watch survival shows?

if yes, who's a survival show contestant you've been keeping up with ever since?

do you own any kpop albums/other merch?

do you collect photocards?

have you been to any kpop concerts?

a kpop group whose concert you MUST attend in your lifetime?

your favorite kpop songs from this year (2024)?

did you get into any new groups this year (2024)?

which kpop song do you think will be your most played song this year (2024)?

which group(s) did you listen to the most this year (2024)?

tell me your unpopular kpop opinion!

talk to me about anything kpop!

[jadeittic]

HS + Y/I: 2022 (SERIES)

EXTRA (2)

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WARNINGS: cursing, ig au

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Thank you to my partner in crime for being there when no one was. Here’s to us, sweetheart.

We present you, HS + Y/I. May 20th. H

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harrystyles My phone’s always open.

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[cowboy-like-mee]

i wish i could change

summary: depressed! reader and boyfriend! harry

warnings: depression, mentions of wanting to d word

word count: 1.1k

a/n: hello. i am ending my year and a half long hiatus. i am writing this in the midst of a depressive episode, so it is based off real life me rn! it was kinda therapeutic tbh. i feel a lot better after getting this out.  i listened moon song by phoebe bridgers, my tears ricochet by taylor swift, and a different age by current joys on repeat while writing this. have fun!

p.s. i kind hate this :/ i feel like the end is rushed but whatev. i hope you enjoy. i feel like i might want to write more about this couple. i have many ideas also! if you have any requests let me know! or i can post what my ideas are and yall can tell me what you want first!

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Sitting in the filth of your room never made it any better. But you just couldn’t help it. There were empty bags of chips and dirty clothes everywhere. The floors need vacuuming. The bed hasn't been made in weeks- the fitted sheet isn't even on the bed anymore. You've just been lying on the bare mattress with a blanket covering you that doesn't even reach your feet. The smell of old food and dirty laundry stings your nose every time you breathe in a little too deeply. You needed a shower. There were clumps of your hair sitting next to a pair of scissors on your desk from where you had decided it was a good idea to chop a few inches off at 3 am yesterday. 

You're pretty sure you hadn't been to a single class in at least a month. You were failing only two at the moment, luckily. Last semester it was three. Emails and text messages were piling up in your inboxes. There was no point in setting alarms anymore. You knew you weren't going to wake up anyway. 

You really just missed your mom. You missed her encouraging words and her hugs. Her hugs. Any of your problems were made to be nothing with just one of her hugs. You know she would be beyond disappointed to see the state of your life right now. 

Nothing even happened to make you feel this way. It's just a part of that never-ending cycle of depression that seems to hinder everything you try to do. There are no words to describe what happens in your head when you get like this. No therapist or medication could ever stop this feeling. It's like the weight of the world sits on your chest. You can't breathe. You can't think. You can't move. You can't even provide yourself with the basic necessities one needs to survive. 

You try to tell yourself to get out of this funk, but nothing will help. Nothing has ever helped. 

Well...maybe one thing has.

Harry.

Your boyfriend on two years. The man who has helped you out of funk numerous amounts of times throughout the last couple of years. Of course, you don't always feel like this. It comes and goes. It seems nowadays it mostly comes. It never seems to go. But when it has come, Harry has been there for you. He has fed you and showered you and loved you and kissed you and never ever judged you. 

You feel like a burden. 

No matter how many times he tells you he does it because he loves you. He hates seeing you like that. He wishes he could take all of your pain away. You mean everything to him. He loves you. He loves you. He loves you. He loves you.

You don't know why. What kind of man wants a girl who goes four days without showering at times. Or a girl who wakes up at 3 pm because at night her thoughts wander so far she has to hit herself in the head to stop them. A girl who can't just...be normal. 

Either way, you know one thing is for certain. You love Harry. You really do. You probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for him. He has changed your life. There have been more good moments with him than bad. He kisses you just to kiss you. He watches your favorite movie with you weekly (even though you know he despises it.) He goes out to brunch with your parents because he loves talking to the people who created you. He buys you flowers every time he goes to the market just because he loves to see you smile every time he gives them to you. 

He really was made for you. Nevertheless, you felt like you didn't deserve him. 

You wish you could change. You wish you could change for him. You wish it was easier to be alive. You wish you didn't want to die. For him. Not for yourself. You wish you could be the perfect girlfriend. The girlfriend he deserved, not one that rots away in her room.

Harry walks in. You hear the door to your apartment creak open and gently shut. Footsteps lead into the kitchen, probably putting down the food you know he probably bought for you. You sit up and try to put on your most neutral face. You sniff your armpits and wince a little. It's only been since yesterday morning you showered, but a little deodorant wouldn't hurt. Your door opens letting in light, making your eyes squint and your hand instinctively come up to block it. 

"Y/N?" Harry says. You smile for the first time since you saw him last a few days ago. "Hey, baby." He gives you the softest, pure smile you've ever seen in your whole life. He tilts his head at you with a concerned look on his face. 

"Hi." You croak out, using your voice for the first time in a while. He walks up to your bed and pulls the blanket down to lie with you. You scoot over to make room for him. He climbs in and immediately wraps his hands around you. His face buries into your neck and plants soft kisses along your throat. Your hand goes into his hair and softly brushes through his soft curls. 

He hums. "Mmm, I love you." He kisses you again right on your jawline. "I've missed you, baby. How has my girl been?" Your throat tightens. You're regretting not answering his texts. He's probably been worried. 

You smile sadly. "I love you more, angel. I-" You pause to think of an adequate answer to your disappearance the past few days. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I haven't answered your texts. I've just been...not feeling well. I've missed you too. So much." Your eyes are welling with tears, but your room is dark so maybe he won't notice. 

He pulls back a little to look at your face. His heart breaks. His girl has been feeling bad and he hasn't been here for her. "Oh, honey. It's okay. You know I just want to make sure you're okay." He kisses you sweetly. Your heart swells. He really is perfect. "I brought you dinner. I hope you haven't eaten." He smiles at you.

You laugh wetly. " Eating hasn't really been my number one priority today." 

He frowns, "Y/N, you have to eat, love. It's important to take care of your body." He sits up and grabs your hand. "Come one. Let's go eat and watch Silver Linings Playbook." He pulls you up from your nest. He wraps his arms around you and engulfs you in a hug. Your head rests on his chest and you just breathe in. 

You reach up and kiss him. You will never understand how this man can be so selfless. He really has changed your life. You will love him at your highs, and you will love him at your lows.

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Alright bestie miss Y/N here to tell another story 💅

So I work at Waffle House for the moment and today I was working with my mom and a new girl, we were kinda slow which I was happy for. Next thing you know I see lile 5-6 cars pull in and go in the back to contemplate ending myself beCAuse why??? Like 5 minutes later my mom comes in the back and is like "These guys are asking for you." And im like??? Okay?? So I leave the back and SEE THE SCARIEST MEN I HAVE EVER SEEN ON MY LIFE LIKE HELLO?? HOW ARE YOU THAT BUFF AND TALL??? ARE YOU THE IRS BECAUSE I OWE YOU MONEY??? JDBFISIKSJSJS

So I walk up to them sweatin bullets and am like "Can I help ya?" And this dude who looks like Sakusa if born in America looks at me and is like "Your Foxy? My kids talk about you all the time!" Anr smiles at me and I kinda look confused like sir I work at waffle house lmao. But then all the other guys nod along and im just like ?? Am I secretly famous?? And this is how the conversation goes

🦊: Do ya mind me asking who yer kids are? Because I honestly have no idea who yall are.

🌲: *names off all there kids names* They said you were a huge mentor to them!

🦊: 👁️👄👁️(Freshmen from previous stories) They still talkin about me?? I mean im flattered but im not that good or cool of a person tbh.

🌲: We have seen some videos of you and we think your pretty cool! And thats coming from professionals! *all of laugh*

🦊: I mean thanks but- Wait...did you say professionals?? As in???

🌲: Volleyball Players! We love coming here to eat and our kids told us you would be working today and that you would like to meet us!

🦊: WTF DO YA MEAN PROFESSIONAL VB PLAYERS!?!?!?!?? YA CANT JUST HIT ME WITH THAT AND EXPECT ME TO ACT NORMAL???

And basically my mom watched from the sidelines as I interacted with people who could bench press 3x my weight and im big so she was hella confused lol it was very hard to explain it to her after they left too

🚪 🚶‍♀️

Literally just me leaving the chat rn because ARE YOU SERIOUS? How did you literally not faint because I definitely would have actually perished in a Waffle house, which ironically would not have been the most embarrassing thing I've ever done 🤚🏻 but nevertheless!

First off, how freaking cool is that! You are totally an icon and famous in your area! We love that 👏🏻

Second off, istg if my YN moment doesn't come soon I'm suing myself for false advertisement!