#camilitas dad

[camilitamaellard]

Yayy!! He is so cute!! I love him so much 💖✨🍭🙌🦋

[camilitamaellard]

Camilita's Origin 🍭

so... let's begin with this jolly good history 83, before anything, the comic will be posted in @infant-infinity you can support me by following ^^ of course,I have to say that I got inspired by @tr85n GS fanfic! Thank you my dear friend for inspiring me every day and for being my friend, and of course to help me with the history (Infant Infinity name belongs to Treen and she gave me permission to use it)✨💖🥺🍭🍼👶

Camilita was formely a regular adult (until her brain magically got transformed into a baby brain) by then she ''admired'' all the park staff (especially Pops) she always watch them work, celebrating parties, as such, through her window, she even has handmade plushies from the park workers, Pops is her fave and she hugged the Pops' one all the time, she was such as childish as Pops, and she always wishes Pops being her dad, sadly, she got a lot of abuse by her father

(fun fact: her father was "Hurl hurl Butt" the main surfer from the RS episode ''catch the wave'' season 5)

One night, she decided to scape from her father's house, she carried her Pops' plushie and sneaks into the park, she couldn't believe she was really in the place she always dreamed to be (even tho she lived in front of the park, her dad hit and hurt her everytime he finds her ''fanaticism'' for them by stare them through the window) proud of herself, she falls sleep into the park's bushes sobbing of happiness, the next day, she wakes up by hearing Benson and Skips' voices, she runs away smiling and sees the playground, she gets even happier and go to the swings, everything was right to the world until she gets shocked by seeing a lot of parents with babies, she gets a panic attack and run crying with her eyes closed, accidentally she falls in the old Crash Pit, but a black portal appears, where it takes her to Death's house, who gives her an opportunity only if she can spend one day babysitting Thomas, she confessed that she doesn't want to live anymore, Death tells her that it's not ''her time'' to die, so he promised to give her a surprise she would love only if she can babysit Thomas for one day, she didn't confess that she hated babies, since he is a demon she took care of him really well. After she saw how happy is to be a baby, she tells Death that she doesn't want to live if she has to live as an adult, Death keeps his promise and takes her to Infant Infinity. Corp, where people can have the age they really want, she sees all the age regressors and smiles, she meets a fox named Rody and asked him while sobbing if he can turn her to a baby, saddly he can't do that, but he can replace her adult brain into a baby one and reduce her at least 2 feet, before she gets a baby brain (which it'll make her never talk again) she begged Rody (while huggin her Pops' plushie) to make sure that she wants to be adopted by Pops, he agreed, so she cries of happiness and gets ready.

Pops was washing his car Carmenita when suddenly a mail-girl seagull named Riley delivers her in a box, Pops tought it was the supplies he bought on internet, so he didn't read the II adoption contract and signed, the seagull congrats him and leaves, he was confused and say: ''Oh my, did she just congrated me?'' he opens the box and finds Camilita there hugging her plushie, with a note from II, which says that if she doesn't get the proper care and love, she will disappear from the universe. This obviously makes him whine, hugging her and saying: ''you are quite a cute little angel, aren't you? I don't want you to disappear from this world I'll make sure you have the love you never had'' starts laughing excited ''I will be a papá like papá!'' (obviously referred to Mr. Maellard) ''which name would I put you little pie?'' he asks himself as he stared at his car ''you are a girl like Carmenita, I think I will name you Camilita, would you like it? She starts cooing with so much joy, '' I think you like it right it my little dumpling?'' he boops her nose happily Everyone sees them kinda confussed, how an adult act like a baby? All their chatterings make her cry, Mordecai and Rigby runs towards them and gets surpriced they both say at the same time: ''woaah an age regressor!'' Everyone start asking what's age regression and the duo explains it to them, everyone accept it immediately and gets excited congrating Pops, who of course tells them what happened and show them the contract of II, they all get worried about her care, Benson makes a meeting (without Pops) and planned like a ''baby shower'' where everyone (especially Mordo and Riggs) gets hyped, everything turned ok until her biolocal dad arrives to the park after all these years, the adventure just begins for our park crew!

[stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland]

camilita looks like her mommy while Sophie looks like her dad and I know that camilita looks exactly like Sinu because Sinu looks like her mom

What a mix 😄

[thechampagnelovers]

4, 21 and 93

Hi nony! thanks for asking xx

4. how did your elementary school teachers describe you? The ones who liked me said i was very imaginative and creative for my age. The ones who didn’t said i was loud and didn’t pay attention, i’ve been caught drawing in class way too many times

21. obsession from childhood? i loved littlest pet shops and stuffed animals (i still do tho)

93. nicknames? people from high school call me by my last name, but the rest call me Cami, Cam or Ca. My dad calls me camilita, my mom calls me hiji, themi calls me camilacita and helen calls me kermit 

ask me shit let’s chat

[5hfanfiction]

Love Will Remember

Chapter Eighteen: Just Hold On

Camila’s POV

(A/N) Trigger Warning: Self Harm. You’d be informed when it starts and when it’s okay to read.

When I saw her with him, I didn’t know what else to do. What are you supposed to do when the person you’re in love with is seen with someone else so close to them? When they don’t even want to be with you? When they don’t even remember you and you’re hopelessly in love with them?

Then she was in pain. All because of me. I shouldn’t have left her. It’s my fault. Sure, it was just a simple headache but it’s still my fault. The accident that caused her so much pain was my fault. If I wasn’t so excited for our one year anniversary, maybe she would’ve been okay. If she hadn’t have met me, maybe she’d be happy.

Everything was my fault and I knew it. And apparently, I couldn’t stop hurting her. So, yes, even though it was a simple headache, it stemmed to the source of the problem which was ultimately because of me.

So I ran.

My father was right. The only thing I was good at was being a coward. I should’ve stayed with her; I should’ve made sure she was okay. But I didn’t and it’s only making me hate myself even more.

Tears were blurring my vision and I could’ve barely saw where I was going but my feet propelled me forward as though they had a mind of its own. Soon, I came across a familiar neighbourhood and stopped at a house I grew to know like the back of my hand within a short span of time.

I didn’t have to knock because when I reached the porch, the door flung open and I was greeted to a very shocked habitant of the home. “Camilita? What are you doing here, sweetie? And why were you crying?” The woman asked. She had her car keys in hand and I assumed she was heading out.

“I..I’m sorry to show up unannounced. You seem like you were going out, I should probably go,” my voice grew raspy with all the crying I did before I came here. I turned to leave but the woman grabbed me back and pulled me into a warm embrace.

God alone knew just how much I needed that. Before I knew it, I felt my tears break the bank that were my eyes. I clutched onto her and sobbed. The woman didn’t say anything, she just kept hugging me. She held onto me as though my life depended on it but little did she know just how much I needed it.

*A/N: Please skip if easily triggered by talks of self harm*

I probably would’ve gone home and did something really stupid. I was doing fine without it but the moment I woke up to find out Lauren wasn’t okay, the urges came back. I broke once and I felt horrible. The constant thought of, ‘what Lauren would’ve said?’ once she knew I did that kept running through my head. I know she would’ve been disappointed in me and I’ve been trying so hard not to go back to that and I knew if I were to be alone, I’d resort to those old habits.

But it’s hard. I feel so much emotionally, that I needed a physical outlet, a physical pain that would make the emotional one go away. That was the only way I could control it. The only way I felt like I had some sort of control. I try so hard not to do it, but the blades feel so good against my skin, it whispers this soft lullaby into my ears and tells me that one horizontal slice would quell the pain, and one turns into two and two turns into…so much blood. It tells me all the words I’ve been yearning to hear. It tells me that 'things will be okay.’

I don’t know if it would be okay. I really don’t. But at least it hurts a little less with the blades lightly kissing my skin.

*A/N: You can continue from here*

I slowly untangled myself from the woman and used the sleeves of my sweatshirt to dry my eyes. The older woman was looking at me intently, waiting for me to say what was wrong, but I couldn’t just blurt out the words “I hate myself” or “I’m the reason she’s hurting.”

“Camilita…” she sighed. She turned towards her front door and opened it. “DON!” she called out and her husband came down a few seconds later. He had a cup of coffee in his hand and a novel in the other.

“Camila? What are you doing here, love?” he asked with a soft smile on his lips. I saw his expression change completely when he took in my appearance. “Are you okay? Did something happen?” But his wife pulled him aside. Their lips were moving but I didn’t hear a thing. She handed him the keys and he nodded and went back inside closing the door as he left.

She held out her hand for me and requested, “Let’s go for a walk, yeah?” I placed my hand in hers and followed her. We ended up linking arms somewhere along the way. She didn’t say anything but I had a feeling she was waiting for me to open up on my own. I trusted her and Abuelito Don so much but I also didn’t want to burden them.

The walk was calming, cars buzzed by on the road and people were about their way, few persons acknowledged us whilst the others were busy in their own little world. And so was I. I felt my phone buzz every now and then; assuming it was Dinah or one of the other girls, I chose to ignore it.

We arrived at the park…the park where I met Lauren again for the second time and ran away from her. Abuelita Meryl stopped at a bench and gestured for me to sit. We were overlooking a pond where little children were nearby feeding the ducks.

“I’m sorry,” I mumbled quietly.

“For what?” my abuelita asked without even looking at me.

I sighed, I combed my fingers through my hair. “For being such a burden. For worrying you over something trivial.” That’s when she turned to look at me, she took my hand into hers.

“Camilita, your feelings are valid. Even if you don’t think that, they are. And you’re never going to be a burden. Not to me or to Don. I love you. We love you so much,” I felt the tears coming back again. The only family I ever had was my dad who didn’t seem to care, and then I had the girls which extended into the Jaureguis and now the Streeps. They weren’t my biological grandparents but they treated me as such. I never felt so blessed in my life. But I always somehow felt as though I’m burdening these people. My dad always made me feel like that. “Care to tell me what’s wrong?”

I sighed, pulling my hand away from her; I brought my knees to my chest and wrapped my good arm around them. I looked out at the pond and saw what I assumed to be a couple, sitting on a bench opposite us laughing and feeding the ducks. “Moments never stay, whether or not you ask them, they do not care, no moment cares, and the ones you wish could stretch out like a hammock for you to lie in, well, those moments leave the quickest and take everything good with them, little burglars, those moments, those hours, those days you loved the most.”

“Catherine Lacey. Nobody is ever missing,” Meryl stated. “A fitting statement. But that’s the thing about moments, no matter how hard we try, it never stays but they’re locked away in our hearts. Not in our heads but our hearts. See the mind can forget but the heart won’t.” She paused and I thought about what she said. Was it true that despite Lauren not knowing who I am, did she still have love for me?

I didn’t want to continue crying because that’s all I seem to be doing. “I just wish she remembered me. I just wish things weren’t as messed up as they are now. I just wished she loved me,” I said through a shaky breath.

“Camilita…” she sighed but I cut her off before she could even start what she had to say.

“Where are the memories that held us together? Where are the dreams that were yet to happen? I can’t be happy without her,” I wiped at my eyes. “I don’t know how to be happy. If I’m happy, does that mean I’ve said goodbye to her?” they were rhetorical questions of course.

“Don’t give up when there are dark times. The more storms you face in life, the more things that get thrown at you, the stronger you’ll become. Just hold on. Greater things are coming,” she said and I turned to look at her. “Do you still love her?”

“Yes.” I said in a heartbeat. I always would. I gave her all of me and in return, she did the same. We promised each other a forever and I still wanted it, I just didn’t know if she would still be able to give it to me. “But I’m afraid,” I whispered. “I gave her all of me, my heart, everything and she doesn’t even remember me. It hurts so much. And I don’t want to hurt her. I already did enough of that.”

“You don’t give up on the people who you love, Camila. No matter what. You love them for a reason. Just hold on a little longer. Things are going to be okay.” The way she said it made me have a bit of hope, though in the back of my mind kept telling me that things won’t get better. “It’s okay to be vulnerable. It’s not Lauren’s responsibility to break down your walls to get to you. It is your responsibility to let her in. I know she did it before and I can see that you’re slowly building your walls back up, but mija, it is okay. You should know that being vulnerable is not a weakness. It means that you are strong and secure enough within yourself to walk outside without your armour on.”

She was right. I was able to let Lauren in because she was persistent though she never forced me to open up to her, she ensured me that it was okay to do so, if I ever wanted to. She was there for me when I needed her the most, but what did I do when she needed me? I ran like the coward that I truly am.

My phone started buzzing again breaking up our little heart to heart. “Are you going to answer that?” Meryl asked and I shrugged.

“It’s probably not important,” I said knowing no one ever really calls me besides Dinah nowadays. So I ignored it. Meryl and I sat in silence for a few more minutes until my phone started buzzing again.

“You should probably really answer that,” Meryl said with a smile. “Whoever it is, clearly wants to talk to you.”

I sighed pulled out my phone and answered it without looking at the name.

“Hello?”

“Camz! Thank god, I’ve been calling and texting you for a while now. Are you okay?” It was my favourite voice. I felt my heart tinge in sadness, just at how concerned she seemed and I felt guilty for worrying her.

“Lauren…” I breathed out and I saw Meryl’s lips curl upwards. She mouthed something about going home and she asked if I’d be okay by myself; I just nodded. Before leaving she gave my shoulder a light squeeze and walked away.

“Where are you? The girls and I have been worried. I told them about you. Are you okay?”

“Yeah I’m fine. I’m sorry for worrying you guys, I didn’t mean to,” I murmured and I heard her breathe a sigh of relief.

“I need to explain what you saw. It wasn’t as it seems. Toni..Dr Mahfud as you know him, he just kissed me good bye. We’re just friends,” she said slowly. “Camz…please believe me,” she pleaded.

“I believe you. I’m sorry for running off and I guess for overreacting. How do you…how do you know him?” I asked. But I was afraid of the answer she was going to give me.

“We dated for a while many years ago. I guess I never told you?”

Wow. Lauren dated a doctor? Well at the time, I’m sure he wasn’t a doctor because he seemed young, however, he must’ve been a few years older than Lauren. Then there’s me, a nobody. She could’ve had anyone she wanted but yet she chose me. Why?

“Oh.” I responded after sometime.

“There’s nothing going on between us anymore though. We’re just friends,” she kept finding the need to reassure me about their relationship and I didn’t know why. She wasn’t mine anymore.

“You don’t have to explain anything to me, Lauren. It’s your life,” I got up and started strolling through the park.

“I know. But I…I have the need to tell you. I don’t want you to misinterpret things,” I remained silent. Mainly because I didn’t know what else to say. “Can you tell me where you are?”

“I’m heading back to the apartment now. Don’t worry.”

“The girls are coming over…I don’t know if you’d like to come too? We’re having a sleepover I guess and I’d like it if you could..” she sounded hopeful and I couldn’t help but feel happy at the thought that she actually wanted me there, even after everything.

“I have to work. I’m sorry.”

“Oh…I um- I understand. Maybe another time?” I heard dejection in her voice and I couldn’t help but feel even worse. I know I could’ve easily asked the Jaureguis to give me some time off but I didn’t think I could’ve been around Lauren right now. As much as I wanted to, after my little episode, I don’t think it was possible.

“Yeah. Maybe another time. How are you feeling by the way?” I asked.

“I’m okay. Just a bit tired but that’s it.” As soon as she said that, I heard her yawn.

“Well, I guess I should go. I have to get ready for work. I’d see you around?” I asked. The other end of the phone was silent until she spoke up again.

“I’m sorry. I nodded like an idiot over here and forgot we were on the phone,” I giggled and I heard her suck in some air. “Yeah. I’d see you around, Camz. Take care.”

“Take care, Laur.” And with that, I hung up.

I stood in front of our shared apartment, hoping and praying that none of the girls were still here because I don’t think I’d be able to take their badgering into hanging out with Lauren. I hesitantly opened the door only to be met with an empty apartment and I sighed in relied. There was a half eaten pizza with a note, written in Dinah’s messy scrawl placed on it:

'Chancho. Thought you’d be hungry. I didn’t eat from the pizza. It was Mani! See you later. Love you.’

I chuckled at the note. I knew it was Dinah because if anyone else in this apartment loved pizza more than me, it was Dinah. I grabbed a slice and shovelled it down my throat because I hadn’t realized how hungry I was until I laid eyes on the pizza. After changing into something more presentable, I grabbed two more slices of pizza and headed out the door.

I kept thinking about what Meryl told me, she said we don’t give up on the ones we love. And she was right. If I truly love Lauren, I shouldn’t give up on her. I remembered what Selena told me one day after my dad thrashed me badly. He told me that I was unlovable and worthless.

Selena had found me crying on our back porch and she hopped over the fence to comfort me. From everything she said, the only thing that stuck with me was, “One day someone will fall in love with you despite all your flaws! Then magic will happen in your life!” And truth be told, I never believed her until the day Lauren Jauregui came into my life like a whirlwind and took me along with her for one of the craziest and best rides of my life. 

Even though I feel horrible and constantly blame myself for the accident and her pain, I should hold on just a little bit longer. Sighing heavily, I picked up my phone and scrolled through my contacts, when it landed on the number I wanted; my finger hovered over the name for a few seconds until I clicked on it.

*** Hey minions! How are you? I hope you enjoyed this chapter. Don’t forget to check me out on Wattpad: Commander_Camren

[camilitamaellard]

First day is getting tough for Camilita, everything is so new and she can’t sleep nor stop hugging her dad 🍭💖