#calmess

[pininiu]

Evil versions of xyx and sungho do be trapped in my head for a while

Cuz I can’t unthink of my bbg being lesbian’d ever since I saw it

so I coped by doodling to get it out of my system

[yuukicyan]

Winter light.

The air is cold, like your fingertips, but you feel warmth radiating. The calmness. The thick vapoury breath.

[kenapiece-main]

The reason i strictly do my best to treat my dad like the normal ass human person deserving of respect and decency he is, despite him continuously being passive aggressive, very hard to talk to and not self reflective in the slightest, is quite simple.

He knows he's an asshole, claims it, and lives it. So everyone who treats him like shit back bc of his behaviour reinforces that, it's the role he knows, it's what he expects.

Listening to him instead of instantly retaliating and being rational and calm in his presence in spite of his provocations though, doesn't. He may be irritated by it and throw him off, he may appreciate it, I honestly can't always tell.

But at least I know. Well. Hope... that he can feel this kinda stubborn support as something positive, that he can see what I'm trying to say:

"Hey, I know you have issues, I know you're a big asshole. Big deal. You're still just some guy. Still my dad. Still human. Now get treated like it idiot (affectionate)"

I know how hard it can be to not condemn if you're directly involved. But declaring someone as an evil thing puts someone just as much on a godly pedestal as idolizing someone, and especially for ppl with NPD it reinforces their conviction that they are, indeed, special, or uniquely bad, and THAT is what makes shit worse for everyone around them, and most of all, for themselves.

If someone fucks up, you hold them accountable and encourage growth through compassion, not throw them into hell or smt. Doesn't matter if it's your best friend, the nicest neighbour you ever had, or your narcissistic partner. There's no special treatment for anyone.

a lot of people’s advocacy for ASPD and NPD is conditional and it shows.

people advocate for ASPD and NPD havers, rightly saying that these conditions don’t make anyone inherently manipulative, aggressive, mean, etc. and it’s good to educate people on that because it’s true, not everyone with these conditions are those things.

but you can’t just advocate for the people who don’t fit those stereotypes.

what about those of us who do?

your advocacy for us can’t be under the conditions that we aren’t the stereotypical embodiments of our disorders.

it’s good to educate people on the fact that not everyone is like this, because that is true. but you also must simultaneously be supportive of those who are these things and advocate for the fact that those of us who do fit stereotypes are also deserving of love and support.

[hanjsquokka]

a hidden world.

han jisung × fem!reader — established relationship, fluff

summary — spending the weekend in the quiet intimacy of a log cabin in the forest with your boyfriend was a dream come true. an unexpected storm reveals something that wasn't part of your fantasy, something you never expected, even in your wildest dreams.

warnings — tooth rotting fluff, kissing

word count — 1.3K

author's note — hello hello everyone! i haven't had time to write a fluffy fic in a while. this can be read as a part two to this fic, but can also be read by itself! and here is hanji singing rewrite the stars which inspired these two fics <3

Jisung strummed his guitar, not in any particular tune as he tried to find the right note to start playing. His hair fell into his eyes, still damp from the shower he took earlier after the two of you fell into the lake while canoeing. You bit back a chuckle thinking back to the moment that happened a few hours ago. Your boyfriend was so confident about his fishing skills, only for both of you to end up taking a dip in the water fully clothed.

He must've heard you, because he looked up at you, a smile tugging at his lips but he tried to look annoyed. “Why are you laughing?”

“‘M not!” You couldn't hold back anymore and started laughing softly, your hands coming up to cover your mouth as Jisung playfully scowled at you. After a moment, you cleared your throat. “I'm serious. Very serious. You haven't met another person as serious as me.”

That made him crack a smile, shaking his head. “You're so dorky.” He looked back down at his guitar, adjusting the keys before he started to play. Rewrite the Stars. You would be lying if you said you didn't tear up, mostly because of his wonderful singing. It was so… beautiful. The way his body slightly swayed as he really got into the music, the small glances he gave you with a smile and as he continued for you.

Just for you.

Your heart was swelling as he continued to play, more and more until it was ready to burst at the seams from all the love that you held for for him. The ambience of the place you were in—in front of the cabin, sitting on foldable chairs around a small fire that warmed you from the cool evening air, fairy lights in the shapes of stars hung over you and the calmess that surrounded everything.

“And why don't we rewrite the stars? Changing the world to be ours…” Jisung played the final notes and stopped strumming, meeting your eyes with his big, doe ones. “How'd I do?”

“Perfect,” you said, getting up from the chair you were sitting in. Jisung placed his guitar next to him as you went over and sat in his lap. You let out a small, content sigh as you settled onto him, feeling his arms wrap around your body and holding you close to his chest. “As always.”

“You praise me too much,” he said with a laugh, kissing the side of your head, which made your stomach flutter. “Gonna give me an even bigger ego.” Jisung brushed the hair out of your face, twirling the strands around his finger as he nuzzled his nose against your cheek, making you giggle. “Mm, keep laughing like that, baby, and I'll wife you up this instant.” Even though you knew he was just teasing you, you couldn't help the blush that creeper up your neck or the way your heart skipped a beat. “Hey, why don't I teach you how to play?”

“Huh?”

“You wanted to learn, right? We have the time now.” He adjusted you in his lap so that your back was pressed up against his chest, your sock covered feet resting on top of his. Jisung picked up his guitar again and placed it in your lap, his chin resting on your shoulder as he guided your hands to the correct places on the instrument. He told you a few beginner points, like the notes of the strings and the keys, how to adjust the tone and play a note. You struggled, much to his amusement, grumbling along while trying to follow his words and him doing nothing to help by kissing the side of your neck when you were just about to get it right.

“My fingers hurt,” you mumbled, looking at your reddened fingertips.

“Oh, we can't have that now, can we?” He pulled your hands to his face and kissed each of your fingers. “There, you'll feel better in no time.” Both of you giggled, getting back into a comfortable position once he put the guitar down. The two of you sat there for what felt like hours, trapped in your own little hidden world, away from the prying eyes of other people. You could feel the vibrations of Jisung's humming, some jazz song that he'd been listening to frequently, against his chest, right next to your ears.

You were almost lulled into a peaceful nap.

Almost.

A crack of thunder boomed across the sky, making both of you jump. You blinked as a drop of water fell on your nose and another on your cheek. You were quick to get on your feet, putting on your slippers and gathered your stuff and his guitar and speed-walked into the cabin. Once those were inside, you came back out only to find your boyfriend still sitting on his chair in utter denial of the thunderstorm.

“It's raining? But rain wasn't on the forecast—” You stopped Jisung mid whine and pulled him to his feet and hurried into the cabin before you could get too soaked.

Inside, it was much warmer, making a pleasant tingle run through you. You tugged at the ends of the hoodie you were wearing, Jisung's obvious, he rarely let you wear your own clothes at times like this, and pulled off your muddy socks. Jisung was still sulky, making a big deal of pulling on the elastic of his sock and throwing it aside and then doing the same to the other foot.

He was still sulky when the two of you were tucked into bed later that night, huddled close to keep warm and safe as the rain pattered on the window.

For you, this was the epitome of comfort.

For Jisung, it was the biggest possible catastrophe that could happen in his life and other than whining and complaining about it, he wasn't letting you in on the root of his pettiness.

“‘s not fair! I picked this weekend because the weather forecast said sunny, sunshine and rainbows. Not gloomy, dreadful, sad rain,” he rumbled, pushing his face further into the crook of your neck, as if that was possible. You carded your fingers through his hair in an effort to calm him down, but it didn't work. “Stupid forecast. I knew I shoulda never trusted you.” He let out a huff and you almost laughed, picturing the frown he must've had on his face with his eyebrows scrunched up and his lips turned in a pout.

“It's just rain, Ji. It'll be fine tomorrow—”

“But I don't want the rain today!” You laughed at his tone. “Stop laughing at me!” His words made your body shake even more. “I hate you.”

“I love you too,” you managed to say through your giggles.

He was quiet for a few moments, letting your laughs die down before he spoke. “I had everything planned out. I was going to sing you a few songs and we would have s’mores and then you'd go feel geek mode over the constellations thinking I don't know anything, but jokes on you, I actually learnt a few of them. And then when you go on rambling about the story of Orion's belt, I pull out the ring and—” He stopped himself. You felt his face heating up as did your own.

Did he just—

“Now look what you made me do! I spoiled the surprise!” He let out something between a cry and a whine. “Damn you and your ability to make me say stuff ‘m not supposed to say.”

“You'll get another chance tomorrow,” you said quietly. Hopefully he couldn't see your flushed face or the heat of your skin or the way your palms became sweaty and your heart was going crazy in your ribcage. “I heard nothing.”

He lifted his head up to look at you in the eyes. “Nothing?”

“Nothing.”

He nodded before assuming his previous position.

“Why Orion's belt though?”

“Baby!” He stretched out the last syllable, kicking your legs with his. You smiled and pulled him closer.

Your happy place.

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[luckykiwiii101]

Wiwiiiii honeyy, ima heree

https://www.tumblr.com/luckykiwiii101/743853446308003840/wiwiiiiiii-woahh-finally-its-my?source=share

So let's begin with my list of what

I manifested in the void

∆ Lucky girl syndrome 💋

∆ Healing my ankle bone

∆ Getting periods after a whole year

∆ Losing 70 pounds

∆ Drastic physical appearance changes :)

∆ A sense of calmess. More love and friends. Excellent and happy experience with people

∆ Money, MONEYY 💲

∆ My dream college : when I realised my passion, I was set on only one school. My mom thought that I was crazy for only having eyes on one particular school but something deep, deep down told me that, that was the only school meant for me, and nowww I have it!

∆ I used have spots on my brain and a seizure disorder, I needed to be on medication 2× a day, so I manifested a clean MRI

∆ Every single type of clothes in my wardrobe

∆ A treasure full of romantic books ( I luv reading, do you ? Hehe )

And a lotsssss of things for my parents <33

I really had a wonderful time here on Tumblr but now I would have to say BYEE to y'all 😭 and wiwii and @auraworkshop alsooo, I'm leaving now , but you both better not forget me 😠 ...I truly, really love you Angels 💓 !! <3

Goodbye ✨

Success Story + Manifestations ��✨✨

Success Story

This is so beautiful. Enjoy your dream life. Words cannot explain how much you deserve it!!!

I’ll miss you and of course i will never forget you!! And I love you more 💗💗💗

[definesanity]

Down Time

"...?"

Sonetto looked down to what was in front of her. Ms. Tooth Fairy had been assigned to help her and the Timekeeper record 1990s Florida. It was familiar to all three, especially after the events of Green Lake, but, now...?

Tooth Fairy had taken them into a "McDonald's" establishment, saying that an empty stomach will not help either of them. Sonetto had to agree, but only that Vertin was very thin. Sonetto didn't know why the older lady said "either".

"It's a burger, Sonetto." Vertin helped. She herself had been given a crossword puzzle.

"I... know what a burger is, Timekeeper."

"...Then, why are you hesitating?"

Sonetto looked away. It wasn't that she was a fussy eater, no. That was Vertin. It was just that it was... rather big.

The burger, she means.

She took it into her hands, quietly.

She looked at the burger, and then to Vertin.

The Timekeeper's gaze was something that was very focused, during missions. Not once did it change, and she was the epitome of calmess, even during the middle of the heat of the battle.

Yet, now, it was softened. That frown had turned into a small smile, eyes shining from the light overhanging them. Vertin was looking at her. Not the Timekeeper, but the girl who had the title.

And, with a nod, Sonetto bit into the burger.

...It was... really, really nice.

(And, though she never realised it at that moment in time, this was the first, and best, burger she had ever had.)

[letojessica]

"He hasn't married you," Hawat said. [Jessica] forced herself to calmess, thinking: A good riposte, that.

"If I desired a puppet, the Duke might marry me," she said. "He might even think he did it of his own free will."

[irl-morros-account]

How's the mortal plain of existence treating you today, Morro?

- @irl-l-l-o-y-d , the imposter

Alright. For now at least. I don't trust this calmess to last, it's suspicious

Thanks for clarifying. I really wouldn't have gotten who you were if you didn't remind me you were the impostor. Thanks.

[golden-bubblebee]

Attempt 2 at doing at least -some- studying today: in action, wish me luck, calmess and courage

[herzzgeist]

4) Too Close For Comfort

Pairing: Law x fem!reader | Word count: 1.3k | Warnings: none

Dividers by cafekitsune

"Thank you for the ride, old lady!" - "My pleasure, go take shelter for a few hours, in the late afternoon you should be fine to go back to the harbour friends!", you thank the carriage driver while trying to climb down the vehicle.

Law stands at the end of the ladder, holding out his hands at you, ready for the impact that might come in. Knowing how clumsy you sometimes can be.

"Watch your step." - "I'm trying, your dress is restricting my leg movement. I-", it was too obvious. With your back turned to him you slip and fall right into your Captain.

The man grunts in annoyance, his arms hooked under yours. More relieved than embarrassed you look up at him: "Thanks." His large frame hovers over you, his face too close to yours. A sweat drop forms on his temple as he lets go of you.

The carriage drives off into the distance, as you wave the old lady goodbye. The storm creeps in stronger by the second. Few feet away from you lies the inn "the Snooping Snow Fox".

You tug on your Captain's sleeve: "Guess we'll have to wait till the snow subsides. Tea?" He's right behind you, giving off a long sigh. "Well, can't be helped. If the weather keeps us at bay like this.", the words dragged in an exasperated groan.

Opening the door you're welcomed with a warm fireplace and wiff of cardamom and cinnamon in the air. The smell of candles and wood mixing with herbs and spices reaches your nose. "I think we can enjoy ourselves here for the time being.", your smile practically shining, while you hang up Law's coat to dry.

The doctor enters right after you, taking in the inn's ambience. He brushes away the remaining snow from his shoulders and follows the small ball of happiness called (Y/n).

"Will you look at this! The cedar wood candle holders and oh good lord is that a redwood frame?", your excitement gives Law a warm feeling of calmess. He takes a seat at the table in the corner right next to the window.

"I'll fetch us something to eat and drink. What would you like?" - "Anything except bread.", he smirks, soaking in the positive vibes you spread so effortlessly. You nod understandingly with a raised brow, glinting at him boldly.

You cast a spell on him, his storm grey irises never wavering from you. There you were. Again. That smile.

Coming back with a tablet full of Antra town goodness, you place it on the table infront of Law: "I brought you some mochi and an apple cinnamon tea, they said it's something you'll have to try!"

Taking a seat next to him you reach for your own food and drink, digging in. The light of the fire dances around you two, warming up your freezing bodies.

Closely observing you, his thoughts spin around your tattoo on your neck. Unsure if he should ask you about it, he begins to fidget around the cup handle.

To your notice, you give the nervous man a soft smile: "Is something on your mind, Captain?" Uncertain how to give you an answer, Law lowers his voice as if it was the biggest secret you ever kept and leans in closer to you.

"Your tattoo...how are you feeling about it, (Y/n)-ya?", he stiffens out his words, unable to show any emotion at this point. It surprises you where this conversation is going. Gliding your palm along your inked neck: "I've been...thinking. I'm considering tattooing something new over it. To get a fresh start. A fresh breeze in my mind."

Your wholesomeness affects the surgeon of death more than he likes to admit. In thought you continue: "Maybe a vine of poison ivy ranking itself up my neck! That would look so epic!" A chuckle leaves you as you take a sip of the freshly brewed tea.

You don't notice right away when suddenly your tattoo is being touched by his rough but gentle fingertips: "That, or a vine of moonflowers." The daze makes itself vacant on your face, heat creeping into your skin.

For you, this moment could last forever. Enjoying the company of such a man of power, showing you a mellow side of his. Himself being absent minded aswell, he resumes: "I bet they would suit you, but no matter what you choose, it will look good on you."

The time you've spent together at the Snooping Snow Fox went by faster than you wished it would.

The snow storm has eased and so you continue to fullfill your duty. Back outside again you enjoy the cold breeze once more. Snuggling yourself into Law's coat again, you carefully listen to the crunch of snow beneath your feet.

Your Captain holds a look out for your shops you supposedly need to visit, before travelling back to the submarine. He sees a group of people gathering around a few vending stands and grander looking buildings in the distance.

"Wolf-" - "Yes, Snow leopard?", before he continues his train of thought, he looks at you a little strained: "Did you just call me Snow leopard?" You snort at his reaction, but keep a calm demeanor.

Pointing at his hat you explain: "Your hat. It reminds me of the pattern of a snow leopard's fur. Since you always call me by my pirate name, I just couldn't resist calling you something that resembles to you the most as well."

You could've sworn you saw his serious expression vanish for only a split second and a tint of red rushing over him, when the tip of his hat quickly hides it all away. What a shame.

Law smirks and takes a few steps closer to you. Now towering over you once more, he jests: "And a wolf is resembling to you?" - "I dare believe so. I mean, a spotted seal would suit you too. It's all cute and fuzzy. Which ever you'd like to prefer."

The Captain scrunches his nose, snickers at you mockingly and leans down to you: "I think I prefer option one, thank you."

Both of you just come to realise how close you actually are to eachother. Clearing his throat the doctor straightens himself and motions you to ready yourself.

"Hurry up, we have to make a stop for medical supplies as well!" - "Wh-what, again?" You heard your Captain.

Catching up to him he rumbles at you: "Oh and by the way Wolf, mention the Snow leopard thing once to one of your crew mates, and it's off with your head."

In amusement you agree and make a zipper motion over your lips, to signalise your discrecy.

Swearing inwardly, Law's jaw tenses up as he thinks to himself: "This woman, what is she up to? I can only hope this won't mess up my plans."

After you finished gathering all the supplies you needed, you head back to the submarine, the sun already sinking into the horizon.

As you see the Polar Tang in the distance floating in the deep blue water, you pick up the pace: "What a day. Can't wait for the amazing dinner tonight, Penguin prepared for us!" - "Weren't you supposed to help?"

In denial you purse your lips and look any other way except to Law's: "I got the supplies, so I should be fine." That childish side nearly reaches the man's funny bone: "Oh really?"

The last sun rays kissed your face, encircling your whole frame. You sigh out in reminiscence. Wishing this day could last forever. "Hey Captain, race you to the sub?"

A challenging grin widening your lips. The doctor huffs suprised: "You're challenging your Captain? This will be too easy, but mind the grocery bags they're quite heav- hey!" - "Then come on, Snow leopard. The Wolf is already outrunning you!"

Unfairly you already sprinted off, calling back to him. Appalled you hear him scream in the distance: "What did I tell you about that leopard thing!"

[motherofstargazers]

Sunny Day Brain Dump

Why is it that just a little bit of sunshine does so much for me? I swear it doesn't make that big of a difference, but every year Mama Earth is like "Bitch, hold my water & watch this!"

Where I'm at, its almost 70F; & sunny for the 3rd day in a row. I'm outside on the closed in front porch; my German Shepherd people-watching & 3yr. old tiny-human being the whirlwind that he is; listening to music;; and

And there is such a sense of peace in my heart. Being able to have this time to just myself, in my own space, in the sun, with some of my favorite soul; does something to me.

i'm not a very profound writer, but i could sit out here and just create a whole story from just the pure joy and calmess i have within me, which unfortunately is not my normal state; even though that is what i strive for every day. i am a very anxious person, with a soul to be adventerous. its a hell of a combination.

i would spend more time actually fully immersed in sunlight, but im naturally redheaded and pale as a ghost (lol), so i have to moderate within reason. But just the fresh breeze blowing through my hair & the trees simotaniously, birds chirping, and the smell of grass & the hint of oncoming rain; its all so intoxicating.

all this writing to simply express that...

... i wish more days were like today

(GIF basically unrelated;; except that Alastor (& Rosie) make me happy as well)

[poppy871]

for years, I never really took it seriously when someone in healthcare asked, "do you experience stress?" (or something along those lines). I thought it was a little attention seeking or stating the obvious, something that should go without saying. Like why would I get to complain about that when it's something we all deal with? It usually wasn't the primary reason I was there so yeah sure, I'll select the "regularly experiences stress option" too. But now that I'm starting to have more space? and know what calmess feels like? Man, I wish I'd taken that stress more seriously. I wish I could have understood it really was important enough to mention and did impact me in so many unseen areas of my life. I just thought everyone experienced that level of constant "wrongness" too.

[hunter-125]

Tw- vent / sh

For context I have been clean for just over a month not because I'm trying to stay clean but just being numb rn, but I was cooking today and I spilled boiling liquid all over my arm by accident and it kind of just reminded me why i liked sh in the first place.

The big explosion of pain, followed by the burning sensation and then the release and calmess for just a second, I forgot how that second felt , it got drowned out but now that I remember it again , the loop starts over

[fictionkinfessions]

im tired.

its basically impossible for me to feel safe here. im nowhere near the ocean, nowhere near the house of the hearth. i hated living there, but i knew father would never let anybody lay a hand on her children.

i miss lyney showing off his magic tricks to me, i miss my lifetime front row seat pass he gave to me from his very first show at the opera epiclese.

i miss quiet tea breaks with lynette, i miss how she was so patient with me. i miss her calmess.

i miss papas kind voice and how he reread me my fairytales when i couldnt get a blink of sleep. i miss how i would call up to the sky on rainy days and for the cry of the hydro dragon to answer me.

i miss the water rushing into my ears or past my helmet, i miss the cold ache of my vision.

maybe i miss father a bit too. maybe i miss how she used to applaude me for completing my tasks she gave me. maybe.

i really dont know.

all i can hope is that my siblings and my papa are safe and happy.

i love you guys.

hopefully i live past 4.1.

-freminet (genshin impact)

frog

[1overbaby]

Feeling low & emotions <3

Now, when practicing the law, sometimes feeling sad makes us feel or think that we are losing our desires or that we don’t have it and can’t have it. And i’m going to show you why that’s simply not true with logic and examples!

Say you are in a hotel, on holiday and you’re in bed. You’re missing home. You feel low, lethargic, sad, irritated and sensitive. You understand that it’s just a state and you can move states whenever, but you just can’t for some reason.

You’re feeling homesick. You miss home and it makes you feel sad. You imagine your home, your bed, the things that make your home home.

You know this is your home though, don’t you? You know you have it and you will return to it. You know it exists, you know its yours. When you’re homesick does it suddenly mean you don’t have a home? Do you automatically lose your home when you’re homesick? NO! Why? Because emotions do NOT determine what you have. DECIDING WHAT U HAVE, KNOWING WHAT YOU HAVE AND FEELING THAT YOU HAVE AND ARE IT is what determines what you have. :)

When you feel homesick, what exactly is it? You are missing home. You’re not exactly lacking it. You just miss it. So, whenever you feel sad, low or in separation with what you have, see it as an invitation to dwell in gratitude. Spend more time with it in imagination. Simply know you still have it and live through the emotions. Take care of yourself. You’re MISSING the concept, the feeling and the thing. So spend time knowing you have it and feel the relief and take care of yourself 🩷 you can never ever lose anything in imagination, in your reality. Only ideas and feelings.

You feel low because you’re not with your sp. View this as missing being with them, not lacking them. Missing does not need to be labelled as not having them. Just missing them. Use this to spend time in the knowing and having them. You miss your partner but you know they’re urs and you can spend time with them, see them. You’re missing feeling secure and comforted, give it to yourself knowing u also have them. :-) lack and lowness and sadness does not mean u do not have it. Just missing it right now, just feeling a little separate!

I could expand on this more and write how this can lead you to fulfilment and how to really deal with it, but first deep that you still have everything even when sad. Then, see where your mind and body takes you. How do u cope best to take care of yourself? How do u find fulfilment? How do you feel the knowing? How do u find the relief? How do u spend time with ur desires and express gratitude? Live knowing you always have your desires and you’re loved and you’re god and you’re worthy even when low and sad. Treat it as an invitation to love yourself more and deep dive into your pure love and I AMness and thank your body and self for being there for u and for showing u that its lacking a little bit of love. Also, if u still can’t move to calmess, peace or fulfilment. Don’t worry. Just live. Just let it pass. Do not worry. You’re okay. 🩷

[possiblygewgaw]

City life

There's something i must find,

in the deafening noises of this city,

to live, to love, to live, to love

It awaits me,

wants me to look for it,

I see people running beside me,

they're getting ahead,

and I am fine.

I have found it.

Calmess spreads all over me

I'm at peace with myself.