#call me a 4*townie 4*eva because these bastards are def playing at my wedding

[wondero28]

Yknow, real talk, in the most uncheesy way ever- 4town has really improved my life & genuinely ended up leading me down paths that have changed who i am as a person. But like- in a really really good way

Through 4town fan content, creating my own stuff, and through interacting with its community i ended up making some really valuable friends and finally began understanding certain things about myself. When i first got into the fandom i was in a horrible place mentally, struggling with loving my body as a trans body, and being completely unaware that i was autistic & masking all to hell.

But this community was so queer, so generally friendly, and so much fun at its height- that i was able to work through SO MUCH.

I now realize im autistic & have been making adjustments to help myself, ive been healing from feeling like someone who’s just freaky & doesn’t belong; i’m still working on loving my body as a trans body- but ive knocked down SO MUCH internalized transphobic bs I didn’t even realize i was carrying from past skewed teachings; i use 4town to cope both in art & writing! They help me improve my human-drawing abilities and have been helping me a lot with improving writing, reading, etc! They’ve also just.. helped me emotionally work through a lot??? Its crazy

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY

4town brought me into my current relationship. And before that point gave me some of the most healing & wonderful friendships i think ive ever had.

I just wanna say it cause i think its so crazy that this boyband who has like… 1 manga & maybe 5-7 minutes of screen time (counting their animated music video), has LITERALLY changed me for the better. I am healthier then i was before. Im happier then i was before. Im coping better, im working better. Im still struggling of course, but im better off then i was prior.

The 4town community doesn’t really exist anymore, most of my writing for it is gone, and i don’t think I’ll really be remembered here, but i whole heartedly believe that i will always remember it & be affected by its early influences.

I think ill always be better now then what i was before this silly little boyband

& i just think thats neat