#caitvi defender until i fucking die

[m0urn1ngstar]

Just found out some fans don't believe caitvi should've had their happy ending and think the ship is "gross." I can understand some reasons for not fully being on board with the ship, but I'm convinced some fans are just misogynistic + lesbophobic but won't admit it.

Some of these fucking takes...oughh don't pmo rn

[strawberry-shortcakey]

my defense of Caitlyn in wake of season 2

    Defending my wife rn 

    Lets get right into this mind you my spelling and punctuation are like non existent so yk

Starting off with the thing i feel people seem to not really understand is whats happening is shes being tugged in like 5 different directions struggling between her obligations to her family name the kiraman family is matriarchal this rests on her entirely she wants to maintain her mothers legacy yet theres the undeniable rage fueled by her mothers death and her feeling of failing all of piltover the feeling that if she had killed jinx before there wouldnt have been so many lives lost she feels ultimately responsible for everything in her life which makes that rage overpower her i mean most of the council civilians enforcers who she had been around her WHOLE LIFE. she feels all that weight in her heart and on her mind much like vi due to her trauma generalizes the people of piltover and enforcers cait blames zaunites and i feel its unfair to give vi a pass and not caitlyn shes trying to hold onto her morals she fights for avoiding innocents getting hurt until the memorial attack where it turns into more than an attack by jinx now an attack from multiples causing her to lose that part of her morals and the last pull is for vi caitlyn loves vi thats something i have never doubted for even a second i mean seriously she puts so much at stake for vi. People don't seem to see that her bringing vi before the council in season one couldve ended poorly for her it couldve reflected horribly onto her family if the council had decided not to hear her out. And on top of all of that shes trying to hold it together. We see her cry a few times but she doesnt ever really let it out i mean shes putting herself under that pressure part of her character has always been that she hates when things are just handed to her as we see in her scene with grayson when she gets upset at the mere idea of her parents paying off grayson to let her win and we confirm that stayed into adulthood when jayce offers her that job for him and shes offended at the mere idea and i feel part of her feels if she shows that pain shes in things are gonna be handed to her out of sheer pity something that would likely fuel her rage further and further.

Next topic is her being willing to kill isha if it meant killing jinx. Now i understand the shock of this how it feels “out of character for her” but it really isnt yes she has been openly against the idea of people getting hit in the crossfire but in her mind its 1 innocent for multiple innocents including her own mother. she also isnt the first character to directly or indirectly result in a child's death and she didnt even succeed so yk but anyway every single councilor is responsible for countless deaths of undercity children and families heimerdinger honestly the most responsible because yk like 200 years of  ignoring the undercity and can i also just mention vis switch up on her opinion season one jayce kills a kid when fighting at the shimmer lab and vi has the mentality “you did what needed to be done one life for like 100” yet when caitlyn finds herself in that same mindset vis all “whats wrong with you you're evil now” so uh yeah not an attack on vi just trying to expand on it throughout this i will make comparisons on how we excuse vi but attack caitlyn and why i think thats really telling of how people see her as a character only there for caitvi romance plot!! But anyway caitlyn had every fucking right in that moment mind you she also was running on adrenaline something that i feel a lot of people don't understand in that moment its often impulse you do the first thing to come to mind she was just fighting off sevika shes in that do or die mindset its kill jinx or people die people also don't understand how deep caits trauma around jinx runs we don't know what she was put through during the time between her abduction and the like final scene of season 1 also just yk the entire show. jinx is her personal trauma.

Now onto the caitvi argument in the tunnels lets loop back to the state of mind she was in shes pumped on adrenaline rage and fear. She feels a deep sense of betrayal much like jinx does when vi “picks cait over her” its that feeling of “oh so you care more about someone who deeply hurt me and a random kid than me.” that only fuels her rage/pain that is making her less and less of her core values. caitlyn gets on the defensive she makes a generalization Something once again we see vi do to caitlyn earlier with the oil and water speech which no doubt left a hole in caits heart something that will stick with her dare i even say that plays a part in why she no longer sees zaun and pilover as two sides of the same coin the person who helped her learn something so crucial suddenly saying “actually we are different piltover is all the same you're all horrible. We can never get along, you are not an exception” which no doubt shattered that view and helped cement the separation in her mind. The key difference is that vi didnt get physical cait pushed her and hit her with the rifle but like i said she's on the defense. Also ive seen people saying “oh well cait knows how shes traumatized by enforcers” to caitlyn that trauma is equal to the trauma of what jinx has done to her and honestly it is caitlyn has lost almost everything to this for the sake of what started off as her dreams of justice her need to prove herself has been what she feels like is the sole cause of the  downfall of piltover. Which is why i truly believe caitlyn is still herself that the development to her character logical and her actions fully explainable and defendable 

Little added thing it’s after getting compared to jinx that she hits vi I mentioned how that’s literally her main trauma jinx killed her mom and ruined her life I’d hit someone with a rifle over that too.

And thats all ive got for now lmk if i should cover more!! And i will be adding as arc 2 and 3 release!

[strawberry-shortcakey]

Im barely thinking so this might be an all over the place nonsense type rambling

Caitlyn defender rambling(I got sidetracked like 5 times but tumblr is like my little journal so) 😽

If I see one more person mischaracterize Caitlyn i feel I’m gonna die so I’m drawing and I keep trying to listen to character playlists and Caitlyn always has some shit about “little miss perfect” and at first I was just annoyed until I realized they put that shit in anything involving a femme literally every single femme lesbian you can think of pull up a character playlists there’ll be something about “nobody knows im gay because I’m so perfect!” I have always had an issue with that generalization as a femme lesbian myself because it feels like they’re inherently being like “oh you are more normal looking” which first off what??? Second off I still want to kiss girls I’m not femme because I’m trying to hide that I’m a lesbian?? But people have such intense stereotypes about it that it just pisses me off. Anyway back to Caitlyn so there’s that and then people for some reason think she’s a people pleaser and she like yearns for her parents approval but that’s not right at all the last thing she cares about is others thoughts I mean did we watch the same show? She wasn’t supposed to do like anything that she did in the show she knew her parents wouldn’t be okay with it she has always been out of place in her family sure she has some of the views set in place by her parents I mean when she met vi she realized her mother is wrong that the undercity isn’t less human they’re just struggling a lot more due to the councils ignorance and for the whole jinx thing yes she’s Vi’s sister but she also like wanted to kill Caitlyn and if someone tried to kill me I’d be fucking out for revenge too also vi I love vi I wish more people put effort into understanding her character outside of caitvi I love them I think their relationship has a lot of potential but there’s more important matters to attend to because yk jinx is starting a war but yeah I love Caitlyn and I will be her #1 defender till I die!