#by accident. its gone now

[greendalmatian]

日本語にまんがだ　とてもむずかし書く。なにかわるいだすみません。

＋　英語に何話したかった　⬇ (eng. version)

[softietrait]

this is for my black mutuals/followers.

HAIR HELP, PLEASE <3

i'm gonna open up a bit here.... i'm mixed (my dad is black, mother is white) and i did not grow up around my father or his family, only my mom and hers.(not bio mom though) -- my mom (who raised me, that's my mama!) did her best to make sure to learn how to do my hair through black family friends when i was younger who she'd pay to not only do my hair but teach her and show her how to care for my hair.

despite that, growing up, where i lived did not have all the resources i need to be able to really do my hair in a way that's beneficial for my hair type and thus my knowledge of how to do my OWN hair is kind of... minimal. i'm a bit ashamed to say that. i really want to do more protective styles on my natural hair because i don't want to cut it and want to grow it out. but i still want and need styles that would suit its type and things i can use/do to it and whatnot (if this makes sense. i apologize, i am so bad at explaining myself!)

even now, there's only about 2-3 places that are black-owned that i can go to in my town.... and they only popped up in the past couple of years?? so yes. i do now have the ability to go into town to a supply store at the least to help <3!

i'll put a picture of my hair in its natural state for reference. this took a lot for me to post and it's very personal, but i really need the help and i'm already in my 30s without knowing how to for real PROPERLY care for my hair beyond basics. that's already embarrassing :(

this is what my hair looks like down and in just tiny ponytails. nothing else! ^^ i don't currently have any pictures of when it's wet , i think, though. ALSO i'd really like help on how to style my edges effectively ;n; i've been trying for ages and here they look good in my opinion! but i want better ways to do them <33 thank you guys SOOOO MUCH!!

[xxplastic-cubexx]

sorry if you've already mentioned but what (re?)ignited your love of comics/x-men/cherik? curious because there are so many different adaptations of them

i think im gonna speak for a few (or a lot of) people when i say that TL;DR the wolverine x deadpool movie that came out this summer is what pulled me back into comics and i COULD leave it there but i will go into excruciating and unnecessary detail instead because i love an origin story and i love oversharing.

under the cut tho because im nice sometimes (there's also wxdp doodles in here. if you want to see that)

ironically (and probably commonly), growing up i was more of an avengers kid. Kinda. Loosely <- binge watched the cartoons and movies and read copious amounts of comics and fics and i am hoarding fanart in my old dresser as we speak ok 'loosely' is a modest lie.

embarrassingly i remember getting into discus cause of captain america LMAO so yeah needless to say i was a Humble Fan- me joining my school's comic class/club didnt help either (shoutout to my teach from that she was the realest one out there for. A Multitude of reasons). she definitely is was inspires me to even draw still and make comics and i often think bout the tips i learned from her class tbh she was great

back to the movies t and comics tho, i got into em because my brother would offer to take me and that's how we'd hang out (i rarely saw movies in theaters and i even more rarely went anywhere as a teenager. still kinda like that today tbh ooops) and yk. it just snowballed after that.

my brother and i have always liked comics- he just more than me for a while (though he still very much loves comics and As We Know From My Posts we still talk about them whenever i see him To An Exhausting Degree)

durin then i was really into stony and i have a few surviving doodles i made but those are between me and god. and anyone who asks tbh LOL

'snap can you make this related to x-men again this is long' ok so fast forward to This Summer again I Still Don't Really See Movies but my brother offered to take me and this was the first time i'd actually seen an x-men movie in full

as a kid i only remember seeing the 'perfection' scene between erik and raven in first class while i was channel surfing. pretty sure i changed the channel after seeing mystique naked cause i was scared my parents would get mad at me if they caught me watching it LOL

BUT MOVING ON As A Kid i think it's also natural you'll sometimes watch 92 if it's on And I Did though evidently it didn't stick too hard (i do remember really liking beast and gambit though.... still do really): my knowledge of x-men was. INCREDIBLY sparse. like diabolically so so i didnt have too much expectations (aside from the fact i vaguely liked deadpool beforehand).

tbh i dont know why my bro never took me to see any of the x-men movies. it's not like he doesn't Also like x-men (90% sure nightcrawler's his favorite but my brother will be caught dead saying he has absolute favorites like that)- he owns a bitch load of deadpool comics/omnibus sets too (of which ive read over the years and reread this year) but Shrug moving on

Much Like Most Of The Internet i fell down the rabbit hole that way. i have some doodles i made a couple days after seeing WxDP that i now have an excuse to throw at all of you Look And Perceive

and so. As I Do. i got curious and told myself i'd binge watch all the x-men movies the week before i went back to school And Then I Did ft. My Brother Sometimes and then i said i'd binge watch all of '92 and And I Did That ft. My Brother Sometimes But Less So and now we're here. currently watching Evolution...

once i got to school i realized i lived near a comic shop and started getting into the comics that way (the first ones i got since going down this rabbit hole was Magneto Was Right!, The Resurrection of Magneto, and The Trial of Magneto. if you were curious !!!!! clearly i didnt care too much about context i just needed to see My Guy jelvejlkvj i have no regrets and Evidently ive read more since)

i'm pretty sure what dragged me into cherik specifically was the fact i saw a clip of The Famous ending to 92 where erik's aghast at the notion jean even has to question his love for charles. i think that was what officially had me refocus my lens on them: not a single poolverine thought after that LOL (all the cherik posting i saw on twitter definitely helped too but that was the nail in the coffin for any other interests i had: i was locked into cherik and x-men in general now)

that clip specifically, i was surprised at the fact they- frequently even- have the x-men franchise say erik loves charles and vice versa so bluntly. even if it's not meant to be romantic, i fear im just a fan of how casually the word's thrown around with them two and i got tender bout it all. Then Yk. i just live for the drama. the hilarity even. the sincerity .... they make me sick if i think of them too long so im gonna end it here

before i go tho ironically enough, the first x-men issue i owned was This one (story a this is that while stuck in some wacko dimension charles accidentally gets himself trapped in logan's mind while utilizing his astral projection. if you were curious). pretty sure i got it for free with another comic set i got years ago since our old comic shop loved to do that, but it's poetic aint it. maybe ill doodle something referencing it..

i should probably look into finishing this arc someday im Dummy curious to even know how it started and how it ends.....

[tamagotchikgs]

gamers i fear my arm is infected this might b the last of tamagotchikgs

[todayisafridaynight]

NO YOU’RE SO RIGHT ABOUT THE MAJIMA STUFF THOUGH. GOD. God forbid you speak poorly about the fandom silly guy etc etc. I rt’d one post about someone being annoyed abt majima getting an insane amount of merch (especially compared to other characters- even other PLAYABLE characters) and suddenly my TL is filled with ppl taking it as a personal attack….. like?? Settle down???

My one fear is that instead of Mine content we’re just gonna get Majima Saga 2 for yk3 and rgg will call it a day. WHAT ELSE IS THERE TO SAY ABOUT THE GUY !!! GENUINELY!!!

at this rate we’re going to have a complete record of Majima’s life from birth until modern day bc you knowww they’re never gonna let the cash cow die or retire. + god I lowkey need the 3jimas to break up Now so saejima and daigo can stand on their own again (w/out being overshadowed by Majima)…. Saejima especially… I miss the days when he felt like a character………

(I may have a lot to say on the topic) (he’s a fun character but at this rate I’m getting so sick of the fandom around him)

gen is kinda funny how when there's the Monthly Critique Of Majima post on twitter the rggtwt part of the tl is flooded with majima fans being upset. its like clockwork really LOL

as for saejima, i do miss him being solo... like he's funny with majima at times, but as wack as Y4 was i still really liked his coliseum scene, and his prison adventures in Y5 were a real treat too..

[moodr1ng]

heres the real truth i never wanna admit to anyone ok: the real reason im so afraid all the time is i know i will never ever manage to hold down a normal job. i know im too disabled for it. and i dont want to. and i want to stay like this forever. i dont want more. i want to remain in this apartment and get my disability checks and do a little art and a little writing and have time to hang out with friends. i want that for the rest of my life. if that was ok then i would be ok. but i can never admit that because if i say that then i will be taken off disability and labelled a faker. because everyone thinks i can get better or its not that bad. even my doctor. but it is that bad. im never getting out of this, im never going to be functional like other people are. every time im good enough to have a job, i will have another depressive episodes for months or a year and everything will fall apart. its hardwired in me. if i could just be on disability for the rest of my life then id be fine. i would just live my life like i do now and i dont need more than what i have now. but im not allowed to want that. im supposed to want to "get better" and "be healed", even though its not possible, and im supposed to want to get off disability and have a "normal life". but i know i cant have that. so i just want to be on disability for the rest of my life and be allowed to glean what little happiness i can still get from the sort of life ive been handed. but im not allowed to want that. if i was honest and said this to my doctor he would never renew my disability benefits bc hed think i was faking it. so im always scared and always ashamed. so there it is.

[kiki-strike]

PTSD is so stupid saw a jar of biscoff cookie butter at the store and went ha that’s the brand they had in res. (Completely unaffected). Then went home and had a panic attack about it (????)

[ibrithir-was-here]

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[petrichoraline]

yall gotta start tagging me in meta and stuff cause I'm always late -I honestly feel better this way than having to rush to watch an episode live like I used to do with nlmg, msp and others but by the time I catch up, I have missed out on some great posts from both mutuals and strangers alike :( and going through the tag of these popular series is not as easy as for more niche shows

[seawing-vibes]

HEY I JUST WENT TO ANSWER AN ASK AND TUMBLR DELETED IT :( IF YOU SENT AN ASK YESTERDAY COULD YOU POSSIBLY SEND IT AGAIN ??? APOLOGIES <///3

[adastra-j69]

I don't have the energy to write this now, but i've been crying over @/goopterror's jockey dirk au and that led to me thinking about farmer/ranch owner dirkjakes. i was suddenly just overtaken with the need to write this like 30 mins ago so this is very bare bones but i wanna get the general idea down for later. consider: dirk somehow comes into possession of an old farm house from some distant relative. he's like the next in line bc no one before him wants it bc its old and rundown and needs a lot of work, but he decides to take that chance bc he just dropped out of school for reasons i will come up with later and he wants a fresh start. he didn't even know this relative existed, but free land, so why not.

So he's exploring the land to get an idea of like where his property ends and accidentally stumbles into his neighbors side. It's completely abandoned, so it's not a big deal. He ends up finding an even older and more rundown barn. he was going to turn around thinking that was that, but he hears a noise that sounds a lot like a horse. he decides to investigate bc that makes no sense considering how run down the barn in, but what do you know? it's a horse. a very malnourished one, but it's a horse. it takes dirk weeks before he's able to get the horse to come any closer to him. he bribes him with hay, apples, carrots, sugarcubes, anything he can to gain his trust. finally after weeks, he gets closer and he's able to coax the baby to come out and takes him home. by that point, he's made some good progress, enough where there is a safe place for his new friend to live. it's dirk and his horse for a while.

Throughout this, he's making friends and getting closer to a farmer nearby around his same age. Its Jake of course. He lives nearby with his goddaughter, who is in his care. It's Jade (i'll think of why later too). He brings over fresh produce for Dirk while he's fixing up the farm house and barn and helps out when he's not busy with his own farm. he grows produce for a local grocery story and has a good thing going on due to his family having been doing this for a while now.

The thing I've been crying about it Dirk eventually getting things fixed up and expanding and getting more horses. He ends up holding classes for kids and adults, but I want to focus on the kids classes rn. Kids come in to learn how to approach and interact with horses respectfully and small general maintenance that comes with owning a horse, or working with horses. at the end they get pony rides and they hold a bon fire where they get little certificates.

I just want Dirk to grow, make friends, do things he enjoys, find love and just settle for a bit and be okay. Get to the point in domesticity where it's "boring, but in the most exquisite of ways." (x) and just him, jake, jade, and other loved ones gathered around a bon fire just making smores for kiddos and having a really good time. lots of smiles and laughs and dirk being so glad life led him down this path :')

dirk also has like 2 goats, maybe a couple cows too, ducks, chickens, barn cats!!! and like one or two doggos to help with some of the other animals on the farm. its a full fucking house by the time he's done and opens up classes, but it's great and it's full-filling and he's happy!!!!!

i am shutting up now thank you for coming to my very last minute ted talk. goodnight. but also talk to me abt dirk and the alpha kids.

[nick-eyre]

Tell us about the colleen hoover book that you rated as 1 star

Okay so the book was v/erity and I read it because a cute girl told me it was really good and I wanted to talk to her again but it was a mistake!

Its basically just hetero smut pretending to be a mystery thriller (no shame in liking that but I personally prefer less blowjobs more murder) + the ‘twists’ are so stupid and there so much lost opportunity! Idk how to even talk about it just 0/5

I never saw that girl again but its probably for the best because I don’t like your book taste is not a great conversation starter

[seilon]

hoo boy it’s just now rly hitting me that I may not be able to play sports/do physical activities that significantly stress my left wrist like. basically ever again. possibly. hm

[darksouls2yuri]

see rachel just needs to get over her tylenol allergy so i can have proper migraine relief in the house

[superwhosecock]

does anybody have the post that goes like.

*grits teeth* i'm hopeful i'm fucking hopeful

[staretes]

oh yeah i was supposed to sleep