#bwahhhhh. compounding factors: i still have very few details about important things. see which of those i can solve on monday. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

joelletwo · 6 months ago

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now it is incredibly late to be saying this but god the month-long hiring process has sucked kjsdf turns out thats the perfect amount of time for the excitement-anxiety to wear off and then the hopeful responsible problem-solving forward-thinking optimism to wear off and then the "fuck it" dissociation to wear off and whatever other defensive layers i had up between me and "huh maybe itd be easier if i died than to get a new job to do badly at" to wear off lol whoops. please. please. please. its literally gonna be fine once i actually get started and get in the swing of it. i JUST have to survive a few more miserable days <- NOT IN DANGER. just fucking miserable

#ILL WANT TO BE ALIVE IN LIKE A MONTH KSJHFG i promise i promise i promise.#bwahhhhh. compounding factors: i still have very few details about important things. see which of those i can solve on monday.#and. i will have one coworker lol. and ill be with her fulltime while im Getting Oriented. just me and her in a small office for #eight hour shifts. thats so much time i can make someone hate me right out the gate. thats also a temporary problem kjsfg #please. god. the actual work of this job is fucking easy street im looking forward to that so much. please dont let me fail at the #starting hurdle just due to the autism and the depression.#and please dont let me fuck up in front of nice older country southern ladies.

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