#buuut any thoughts from my brain will probably go here tbh

[ghastbutlikegay]

this blog was intended as a hermitcraft blog, then evolved to a minecraft youtuber and minecraft blog, and then evolved into a minecraft and youtubers blog

[another-dra-anew]

mekaru cuz she's neglected tbh 🥺?

im so fucking guilty of neglecting her. i neeed her to make friends so i can start spinning her in my mind with characters im already obsessed with so she can be More in my brain as her own character. mekaru pls pls just start being more authentic and love urself-

cw she has so much internalized homophobia. that’s all tho

-My identity hc for them

canon lesbian!! has a lot of comphet tho. like, a lot. like, only character to upload the “fact” they’re het to their report card. 

- Thoughts on their home life/family

ya know. i think she’s lying to herself about how much she likes kids. i don’t think she’s inclined to them but playing babysitter all the time has made her p child adverse. however admitting this means realizing she can’t gain “i am a normal respectable non-offending person who no one has any reason to have any issue with” points by raising 2.5 kids. so. yeah she just chooses to keep lying to herself

- How i feel about their canonical writing/handling

tbh i think i do a bad job portraying her comphet? buuut. to take a step back and think neutrally about things, i think that’s predominantly a result of, again, the role she plays in the story, and the fact we’re not in her head. we can judge how well i write her comphet when we get to pick her brain a bit more in ftes. id rather have a more subtle, more accurate depiction, then one that’s made inaccurate with how in your face “wow my bestie is so pretty if only girls who liked girls were real…” it is. (<- not that portrayals like that are bad/wrong, it’s abt enjoying yourself while not feeding into negative stereotypes! i just don’t really want to depict her comphet in that more lighthearted manner).

- The one thing i’d want to make canon about them

again. this is prolly just gonna be stuff which didn’t happen in canon but could’ve if things were different? w/mekaru i think if she studied psychology more and like. Dedicated herself to it she could easily rise to shsl psychiatrist level. this is canon but i think that she’s specifically interested in medicine when it comes to treatment of the human condition. she likes and grasps it all, but the history of assorted pills is where she Shines

- My number one favorite ship for them

okada my beloved <3. (obligatory: okada aimi is mekarus bestie! she’ssss. sapphic, i don’t have anything more specific/anything otherwise canon for her. she likes mekaru and thinks mekaru likes her back (she’s right), buuut. she hasn’t confessed because she thinks she’ll be rejected (she’s right, again.) she’s trying to gently tug mekaru into having a Revelation but it hasn’t been going v well for her.

- …Now everyone else i ship with them

i used to say that like. tomori was probably her gateway into her moment of Realization. i can still see that being true but i think it was less genuine desire to date and moreso.  mekaru projecting what she feels she needs to be onto tomori then seeing tomori being queer and going. hmmm. anyways tho. i kinda like her w/kurokawa but i think kurokawas just v shippable? poor okada tho i think she’d would be crying and throwing up if she found out mekaru dated a girl from hpa before dating her.

also tho i kinda think she’d be cute w/hatanami. sorry okada :(

- The thing i will NEVER ship

she is in fact still a lesbian, folks! uhh past that tho im rotating her with different girls and i don’t like the idea of her and inori like. at all for some reason

- a dynamic/relationship i wish was explored more (in canon, or in fandom)

i think it’d be neat if she. i don’t know got to have friends. id like to chat abt her interacting with tomori more!!

- thoughts on their design (appearance-wise)

im really happy with her redesign! her personality and demeanor changed from the first one she had here, but her fit didn’t change, and it really just didn’t work. also it’s kinda matchy with linujs actual beta design for rei iirc? so that’s funny

- A music-related thought- a song that reminds me of them, or what their music taste is, etc

lol. little miss perfect from write out loud/etc. uhh past the obvi one i had to list… first love/late spring - mitski comes to mind less in a. struggling with growing up and loving seriously as an adult and moreso. fear that comes with realizing ur in love with ur bestie (u are a teen with severe internalized homophobia). again apologizing for my inability to stick with what the song is actually about at least this one was semi accurate. please know i will go to war when it comes to respecting mitski as an artist and not dismissing her experiences and what she’s saying. 

[kihyuni3]

BTS Reaction to their S/O Ignoring them for no Reason

I really enjoyed doing this request. Thank you for requesting, please keep them coming. I am starting my first semester of college next week, so I’m trying to write and schedule as many requests as I can before I have to start doing course work as well. However, I do intend on being very active with this blog still so don’t worry about me disappearing again.

~Izzy

Scenario: The boys would have just gotten done early with practice and instead of going out to eat with the other members, your boyfriend would have come to surprise visit you at your apartment. However, when he got there he would find you sitting on the couch looking at your phone screen, earbuds in, not even giving him a second glance.

Jin/SeokJin -

Jin isn’t the kind of guy to overreact about anything, if anything he might think that he had done or said something wrong to make you want to ignore him. He would literally be racking his brain going through everything he had said and done recently to see if he was at fault. Eventually he would just end up coming up to you and asking what was wrong. He would just stand in front of you and pour his heart out about how he was sorry for whatever he did, so when you started laughing he would be so very confused. After explaining that you were just really into your movie he would let out all the tension in his body and plop down on the couch next to you.

“Geez you couldn’t have told me that earlier, I was so worried.” He would say as he leaned into you taking one of your earbuds so that you could watch together.

Suga/Yoongi -

Yoongi is the type of guy to ignore you right back tbh. His mentality would be something along the lines of like “If she doesn’t want to see me than I don’t want to see her.” He would probably stand there for a second to see if you would greet him or say something, but if you didn’t neither would he. Yoongi would probably be a little frustrated and go into another room or something and wait until you approached him first. When your movie had finished, you would find him in the kitchen leaned against the counter on his phone. If you tried to initiate any skinship or say anything he would just brush it off and go back to his phone. It would take a full explanation and apology to get this boy to be sweet to you again.

“No you didn’t want to see me earlier, so I don’t want to see you now.” However after a few sweet words and cheek kisses you’d have your soft boy back again.

J-Hope/Hoseok -

J-hope would be a little upset at first when he thought that you didn’t want to see him as much as he wanted to see you, but the longer he assessed the situation the less upset he would get as he realized you were just playing a game on your phone and would probably give him your attention as soon as you had finished your round. However, that didn’t mean he was gonna let you get away with making him feel bad even if it was just for a few moments. Hoseok would quickly run up to you before you could even process what was happening and swipe the phone right from your hands. As you got up to grab your phone back from him with protests about him making you lose your game, it would just fuel him more leading him to start a full pursuit through your apartment. When the two of you got tired J-hope would turn around in front of the couch and let you catch him causing the two of you to collapse together onto the couch.

“I was gonna say how maybe you learned your lesson to not ignore your boyfriend again,” he would say chuckling as you laid on top of him “but that was a lot of fun so maybe you should ignore me more often.”

Rap Monster/Namjoon -

I feel like Namjoon would be the most level headed about the situation, he would take into account everything that was going on from your position on the couch to the recent conversation the two of you had had about a movie you had really wanted to see and he would put the pieces together. He would be a little upset, but not because you were ignoring him but more because he was supposed to see that movie with you while it was theaters but ended up not being able to due to his schedule. He would completely understand you watching it without him, but it made him think about all the time he didn’t get to spend with you.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t take you to that, but how about we take the time now to be together.” He would say as he sat down next to you, kissing your forehead.

Park Jimin -

I think Jimin might be the one that would get the most legitimately upset by you ignoring him. So many things would go through this poor boys head. At first he would be like Jin where he would think he did something wrong, but when he couldn’t think of anything he would get a little frustrated because you were ignoring him for no reason. I think at that point, the longer you ignored him the more upset he would get, until finally he decided to confront you. You better have an amazing apology prepared to appease your seething boyfriend.

“Honestly, what is the point of even having a boyfriend if you’re just going to ignore him for something as pointless as your phone.” He would say to you as he stormed out of the room.

V/Taehyung -

Okay let’s talk about this dramatic boy. I honestly don’t think he’d be that upset by it especially like if he knew you were just relaxing and not ignoring him to purposely hurt him or anything, but he would definitely pretend like this was the worst thing to ever happen to him. Taehyung would  just pout around and sigh loudly, throwing himself over you and the furniture until you decided to look over at him. When you looked at him he would turn it up a notch, this would just keep escalating until you decide to put your phone down and ask him to stop. This would go on until he was absolutely sure that he was the main focus of your attention.

“Buuut babbbby, are you saying your phone is better than me. You better come over here and make up for hurting my feelings.”

Jungkook -

So let’s be real, Jungkook is also a very avid gamer so as soon as he realized that you were just really into a game on your phone he wouldn’t even care that you had ignored him for a little bit. He would literally just take this opportunity to turn gaming into a cute date. Anytime this boy got to do something he loved with the person he loved, it became a moment he would would cherish forever, he wouldn’t even remember that this night had started with you ignoring him. He would literally pick you up off the couch and make you change into comfy clothes so that the two of you could stay up until the wee hours of the morning cuddled together playing video games. He will cherish little moments like this so much.

“Babe, why would you play games alone when we could play them together.” He would say while picking you up off the couch and throwing you over his shoulder.

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for my birthday I got both the sapphire and emerald huda obsession palettes and I know many of you were interested in those so I owe you an actual review. here is my quick review: in general I’d say the green is worth it and the blue is not, but if the mattes in either are the main draw for you I’d say skip it and get dupe singles from like coloured raine or cp if you can find them, more expensive per ounce but a better buy I think. the blue is especially not worth it if you’re looking for...blue. I’m not @ ing that yellow-green shade (which I think is genius), I’m just noting that the world is a coward and teal isn’t blue. but of course, I knew this going in, and I would never expect huda of all people to not be a powder blue coward, right. 

I will also say that I was flat-out shocked that the green palette, in my hands, is full of fairly unusual greens. I had really talked myself out of wanting it because I have so so many greens, but not much of it is dupeable in my collections. ymmv but I think it’s worthwhile for a lover of greens and olives.

ok. temptalia finally posted a review of the sapphire one, and everything was as I expected (I thought it was gonna be a B-) except for that glitter one. well, it doesn’t surprise me: christine is firm about silicony foiled/chunky shadows that are so popular/that huda does so many of, especially if brands claim that they can be multi-use and they end up usable in only one way. she didn’t particularly like them in desert dusk, which is the palette that even other huda-negi commenters tend to like.

I didn’t expect this to happen, but that silver glitter is the shadow I’ve worn most out of either palette, and is totally unlike anything else I have: it is both muddy and extremely glittery and glistening. I tend to look for glitters that have a lot of color variation, scattered sparkle, potential translucency but with unexpected (or flat-out ugly) colors. it layers weird because it has a pewtery base, but that just makes it more interesting on its own. I put it on my lid with my finger on top of a glitter glue. fallout isn’t any worse than a glitter would be in that situation. I like it! not for everybody. christine reviews based on claims and with an industry standard in mind. it got an F based on its claims, but I can’t find any other glitter like it out there (maybe in loose pigment mixes, but certainly not pressed) so I feel okay about it.

I feel like it’s dumb to keep the palette for one glitter, buuut I’m also thinking the navy is going to be big for me in winter (a B+ isn’t that bad for a navy matte tbh, only viseart has done better in her dupe library). I’m also invested in the yellow-green even though, like every yellow-green before it, it isn’t precisely yellow-green enough and it isn’t great. (the long search continues.) the shimmery teals and pool blues are all duped like ten times in my collection, even though I’d say these ones are are some of the most luminous I have, shimmery teals and pool blues are my least favorite color and there is one in every palette and I’m really pretty irritated about it. the world deserves no more shimmery teals or pool blues ever. the matte teal isn’t great but I’ve had a really hard time finding something like that, so it is unique in my collection and hopefully will scratch that itch when I want it (it’s only something I’ve been looking for because it had a trend moment this past summer and consuming beauty hurus has rotted my brain, and anyway on the rare occasion that I don’t have a color I have to pursue it.) the cobalts are... underwhelming, which is pretty sad given how much cobalt has done this year. I’m still gonna get a single in that shade, probably coloured raine. if you’re drawn to those, there are a million others out there.

so I guess the palette might actually be worth it if you’re a real lover of shimmery teals, but if you’re a real lover of shimmery teals I might suggest instead... the entire universe of other colors out there!

[solipsistful]

do you have any info/posts/thoughts about system members with entirely different neurology rather than experiencing the same disorders through different lenses? imo it makes sense to me that the brain can't entirely differ in neuroses across system members, just presentation— but we know of a diagnosed DID system whose psych confirmed only one alter has bipolar disorder, and in my system we can't quite yet reconcile how our highly differing symptoms fit together. mostly curious tbh

We can’t really give Research-Backed Information, if that’s what you’re asking, because there iiiisn’t really research there, as far as we’re aware, beyond the occasional reference to alters potentially presenting with specific issues as a result of being a “limited part” (e.g., depressed because they’re dissociated from any good feelings; personality disordered because they contain only a few extreme behavior patterns). that’s kind of the extent of any Expertise we’ve seen.

Buuut we do have plenty of thoughts, and you asked when we’re as talkative as we have been, so here we go :V

We’re actually kinda in that situation: Serpent has BPD (therapist-acknowledged!) and various trauma-related stuff, structural dissociation, etc. which y’know is meant to have some basis in something neurological. but it’s all related to exotrauma and so sorta by definition can’t be affecting “our” neurology. his mood episodes are sorta different, too – and seem to be on a cycle unrelated to Thomas’ and mine.

(S- “yes yes we know I’m a mess” look there aren’t many other places to point to in this system, ok)

I mean, I’m very much materialist, so theoretically this should all be neurons, but, hm. I guess the big issue to me is treating disorders as distinct neurologies – that A Bipolar Brain is a certain delineated type, and looks the same as all other Bipolar Brains. That’s just not something we can sign onto, not yet. Probably, with a lot of these subjective aspects of multiplicity – identities, whatever makes system members different people, including different disorders – “it’s neurons” explains it only marginally better than “it’s molecules”. like, yes, but where do we go from there.

Like, what are we gonna count as “the same disorders through different lenses” then? Me+Thomas vs. Serpent have very different mood episodes, where we tend atypical and Serpent tends melancholic and possibly psychotic? (there’s overlap with BPD/dissociative psychosis there; like goood the BPD v. bipolar stuff is its own damn mess, if you want to talk mental health categories). Atypical v. melancholic seem to respond differently to medication, and psychosis bumps one into either bipolar I or schizoaffective territory. So, does that all get captured as “makes sense because bipolar”, or is that Supposedly Impossible?

I guess the point I’m getting at is that we’re suspicious of anything that claims too solidly that all the features of X disorder can be boiled down to neural mechanisms (and are therefore either fully absent or present across a system). And most takes on mental illness don’t! Disorders are just as often talked about as maladaptive thought patterns or as having a cognitive causal “step” in between neuron and symptom: PTSD isn’t “just” an overactive amygdala (it isn’t identified “just” in the amygdala, but I’m simplifying); it’s taking various maladaptive steps to avoid that anxiety (avoidance symptoms), possible behaviorist-model trained responses, etc. Bipolar is treated with the same sorts of CBT that people throw against more environmental depressions.

You can probably get at the same result from all sorts of different underlying neurologies, possibly via similar cognitive mechanisms (otherwise, comorbidity would not make sense – how could both bipolar and OCD, imagined as separate things, be influencing the same brain?). You can probably get at lots of different results from the same underlying neurological structures (in whatever way you want to take two brains and compare them). That’s sorta a nature vs. nurture question, I think – to what extent does external context influence symptoms? But also, to what extent does internal context influence symptoms?

If that makes sense? That is, maybe there’s something where “the same neurological structure”, working through the sociocognitive structure we call “Ace”, results in a depressive mood episode and whatever else you want to say about me; through Serpent and his specific set of memories and tendencies, it’s depersonalization.

… i feel like im making a category mistake there, but this whole thing is just mind-body dualism fuckery, isn’t it.

anyway, im not really that skilled on the neuroscience side of things, so take that aspect of things with a grain of salt ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ still, i’m always struck by the idea that it should “make sense” that Serpent and me are both bipolar, even when i look at his depression and go “wtf are these symptoms, pathological guilt?? immense self-loathing??” that it’s weirder that Serpent considers himself allistic, than the fact that we once had a headmate with such a different set of autistic traits that it was kinda hard to communicate with him at times. And that “different mental illnesses” is more striking, more in need of explanation than “different ages; different genders (aren’t people trying to find the neurological basis of that?); different MBTI profiles; whatever.”

- Ace

[survivor-kalymnos]

Ep. 9 - “im running on borrowed time”- Franco

Michele

I would love to see a full list of who everyone voted for. Its VERY fishy and a complete blindside. Makes me feel worse about disadvantage next round

lenny

Right when cranjes becomes my ally, they get kicked off. lol. what is happening in this tribe rn? I want to get to the bottom of it.

michele

ive never felt more alone in this game. people clearly lied to me.

lenny

according to dusty, Franco and Eliza flipped for the split vote. yuck! what to do now? I don't know. I think if I have any chance of getting Eliza or Michele out, I have to make a new alliance. 

lenny

Dusty just said that her franco rain and worm were the ones to flip and that makes me very anxious and I don't know if I can trust rain fully :/ that makes me sad. I really hope I can. 

lenny

so michele and I are talking which is v heartwarming. I apologized for being cold towards her. I hope we can work together. 

Dusty

Well that was messed up LMAO That’s the second time Eliza has flipped on me and taken out my closest ally...anyway I will not be working with her anymore. But I’m gonna make her believe it. And thank you to my amazing acting skills she gave me her half of the super idol..........ma’am. I’m so sorry. She expects me to give it back to her after this round but Idk if I can do that if she isn’t in the game anymore! She also told me that it was her and Franco that flipped with rain and worm. So now I’m trying to work with Lenny and Michele who seem to be on board, and it seems like I’ll also have to working with frank and Sasha. And with this blind round there’s a fear of voting for someone that won immunity buuut at least I have a 10% advantage to help me out :) Wish me luck!

michele

kinda blew up a little so gonna lay low for strategy. i also sometimes take things too personally which is why i only do like 1 org a year so that last tribal got to me a lot. franco messaged me saying he doesnt trust me and even tho his instincts are completely correct idk it just feels weird. i think i just hate general confrontation 

Frank

So I’m shocked Cranjes left but I’m quite happy about it. He was leading a lot of things so to have him go is wonderful. After tribal, Michele approached me about getting out Eliza or Franco, so we stan that. Once one of them is gone though the other needs to be taken out as well since they’re both strong and we don’t need one of the having a story of, oh my partner got out but I still made it through so much. After that get rid of Dusty and then Lenny at some point bc who. I’m fairly quiet but Lenny is practically a ghost. Right now the only person I actually trust though is Sasha, which is not something I thought I would say but here we are.

Franco

Blind rounds are so SCARY. Mainly the part about no one knowing who wins immunity. Like, we got out 2 idols last round by blindsiding Cranjes and flushing Frank's, but theres still more out there. And no one is going to know how tribal is going to play out Michele was kinda pissed at us for leaving her out of the vote. But? Sis left us out of her alliance with og Plati, and didnt give us ANY information last round despite knowing I was a target. Eliza is also.... Kinda not smart. She gave her half of the idol to Dusty because she wanted to reconcile. Which is nice and all! But thats a direct chance for him to get back at us and take a shot at us. Keeping the idol separate was best for everyone. So I just gotta pray Eliza knows Dusty as well as she says she does!! I dont expect to win this challenge. Im gonna chat around, but I think Im going to have to play my idol this round to save my skin. My name has been thrown around 2 rounds in a row, im running on borrowed time. We'll see how today goes!

Frank

So Franco messaged me about if I’m gonna vote him this round and that he doesn’t understand why I’m going after him. So I did the kind thing and explained it and said that I don’t want to work with him because he’s working with everyone and that I don’t see that as being beneficial to my game. So Franco is my target again and michele messaged me last night to get rid of him so we stan. I’m probably gonna get votes but who could be shocked by that.

Franco

surprise!! my name is going around AGAIN!! i'm so. not shocked. Frank has it out for my for some reason?? I confronted him this morning, let him know his """allies""" are throwing him under the bus and offered to exchange information or work together in some capacity but he literally turned it down. first rule of survivor is never shut down lines of communication like that!! he is denying any chance of game relationship we could have and thats such bad gameplay. I bombed the challenge because I'm dumb. And now that I know my name is circulating I'm going to have to play my idol. I just have to hope that whatever happens is good for my game. It's so hard to orchestrate votes during an invisible round, everyone is playing strictly for themselves because there's no reason not to. I really really finally want Frank gone. This is the THIRD ROUND in a row I've said that. but seriously I'm over him. he's gotta GO.

Eliza

Dear diary... Literally can’t believe we pulled that blindside off! I had to do some damage control with dusty and because I know what kind of player he is I gave him my half of the super idol. I told him I’d give it to him for this round to prove that the cranjes vote had nothing to do with him and that he is still someone I want to work with. He seemed shocked but obviously took the security and I think I have at least some of his trust back, I mean this IS the second time I blindsided him and voted out his closest ally. Now I know you’re probably thinking, ellie you’re a dumbass, and that I am but I know how dusty works at this point in the game and it’s gonna take a bold move like that one to get ANY of his trust back. Franco didn’t think it was the best move but I can’t just play according to Franco’s standards. The invisible round is absolutely terrifying, everyone agrees that it’s frank but we all know that he could 100% win this challenge. Obviously everyone with a brain wants to split but some of these people won’t wanna split again after they got out smarted, Franco might be playing his idol because we all know frank wants him out but frank has also said I need to go and I have absolutely no security rn so yeah, I’m fucking scared. Let’s see what happens!

Rain

So... I haven’t been around much today. I abstained from immunity. My depression is kicking in and even tho I’m doing well in the game, I can’t be bothered to get into it, as much as I want to. So I’ll ride Franco and Eliza’s coattails until either I pull out of this funk or I get voted out. The move tonight is to try to get frank. Except he’s kinda good at challenges (although, tbh, hasn’t been that great since returning - maybe the idol was holding him back?) so we think he may get immunity. I think voting Sasha would be better - like come on, I don’t even think he’s trying (is that hypocritical to say?) and he only talks to his allies. The other side (oh is it just dusty, Sasha, and frank now? Fuckin sweet) doesn’t even attempt to socialize with me. Dusty to some extent, but talking to Sasha and frank is like talking to a fucking wall. I’ll be happy if either of them go. But tbh at this point I’m ready to join the jury. I’m going to keep playing and keep trying because that’s what jay and the people I’ve voted out deserve to see, but whenever I go home, I know I played a good game for my first game in over a year. 

lenny

not feeling confident about this challenge or good in general. Rain is most likely working with franco and eliza. I hope I can trust dusty. oof

Worm

So last round seemed to have back fired. I think I have alienated myself even more but I'm not sure if saying people not talking to me is showing that. They weren't talking to me before anyway so I guess nothing really changed then lol They goal this round is to target Frank which is okay with me cause I think people will start going after bigger targets next round like Eliza and Franco. Michele seems really mad at me which i can't fault her for so my goal if I survive this round is to talk to her and get her back on my side. Maybe reuniting the alliance of dusty, her, and I could make a huge impact. This challenge is really difficult so I don't think I had any chance of winning. I kinda hope I do for just in case reasons. If I being told the truth and everyone is targeting Frank then it should happen pretty easily. His idol got flushed last round so it should be simple to get rid of him. But until those votes are read I do believe that I will be the one going home.

Frank

Watch Franco have an idol and I go home. That would be funny, tbh I guess it just would be. But oh boy I am gonna get myself a nice snack if Franco goes...although let's be real I'm gonna have a nice snack no matter what. But I just want to stay and have Franco or Eliza leave since that would benefit my game to an extreme since they KEEP TRYING TO VOTE ME OUT. Or at least saying my name which is enough for me. Like if you say my name, get out!

rain

Tribal is in a few minutes, and I’ve just had an emotional chat with Franco He is truly an incredible ally and I really look forward to being in the reunion w him and finding out who he is irl (although I have a guess) Anyway, I just wanted to give him some positive edit, because I’m sure he’s very N as the villain of the game :P 

Dusty

This is crazy idek if I won immunity or what’s happening I changed my vote like 3 times LMAO i voted for Eliza I don’t know what’s happening i think I’m freaking out for no reason. My only fear is michele being very quiet. 

michele

being quiet worked i guess. wasnt really a game move but i didnt get voted out so yay

Sasha

I really just gave up on trying to have my own strategy/game and just voted how people told me to huh

Eliza

Dear diary... It was a tie between me and frank, this might be the last time I write in confessions but hopefully I was able to make some sort of impact in the game. Wow this sucks

Dusty

jflkdsaiof okay a tie well michele being quiet all day meant that she didnt get the chance to know the vote was for eliza... which just made me think someone decided to not flip against eliza/franco so in the revote i reached out to worm and rain to try and get them to flip which they both denied. ugh im so stupid, they would know regardless that i flipped, but now it seems like i was soooo adamant about her going... oh well. Franco is going to be pissed anyway