#but; say; if it was Established b/w them that interacting w/each other is mutually enjoyed / rian enjoys being humored; then...
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unproduciblesmackdown · 3 years ago
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riawin goofin someone picks up their phone and makes a call. the other’s phone rings & they know what’s going on but they pick up anyways & have a 20 sec conversation from like 4 to 8 ft away at most which is about having lunch or whatever
#the perfect premise: having adjacent desks whether they're actually pushed together or spaced out a bit#this would never happen b/c nobody in billions really engages in any Silliness. simply not the way#rian is Humorous On Purpose but not quiiite in this way necessarily? not re: Initiating something like this anyways#she might; but like sure she'll be spontaneous & weird on purpose but mostly for her own sake / amusement#and really we have hardly seen winston be Humorous on purpose. lemme just run through the winston scenes mentally lmao#okay nope he never really like Does A Joke lmao. he gets snarky if he's on the defensive / pressed or pressing but that's abt it#closest i think he comes to saying smthing with the intent that it might be received with humor by someone else is @ taylor twice#''look at him: trying'' in 5x03 & ''Q is for Quantitative babey'' in 4x12 which does get a :) from them & more from others#''remember when winston called taylor 'baby' and it was the most warmly received thing he ever said. i remember'' - nothingunrealistic(tm)#& he too can be Spontaneous & Weird but mostly just being himself in the moment lol. vs rian being able to switch back to [following the#social rules] if she wants....winston's just always being ''weird'' & sometimes engaging in the Spontaneous Elevated / Worked Up behavior#which Humored rian there in 5x05 / 5x06 but he was hardly going ''i'm goofin around to create a fun interaction'' with it lol#but; say; if it was Established b/w them that interacting w/each other is mutually enjoyed / rian enjoys being humored; then...#we don't know how he might try to be fun/ny on purpose....seen that unique [i'm being very determinedly pleasant to interact with] effort in#5x07 there....anything goes. just introduced to rian still and never really introduced in great depth to winston yet so gotta glean things#or completely speculate b/c there's things that are utter unknowns like [what's he do outside work except math meetup] or like#would he engage in involved jokin around w/someone? how? and so forth. ppl are so rarely jokin around around here....#winston billions#riawin#even more rarely trying to make someone else laugh as a way to get along with them lmao. repartee or die
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atinykidult · 4 years ago
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TMW #1—SVT Performance Unit
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[angst] [3122 words] — 500-1000 word scenarios, Trainee!au, specific tags with each part, x reader
[a/n] — To supplement my growth as a writer, and to hopefully post more often, I’m going to start this TMW series. In it, I just want to explore different aus/emotions/styles in very short but hopefully still impactful blurbs. Thank you for reading!
[taglist] — @yunwoo @woozisnoots​ @multifanhere (Thank you for supporting me! It means the world!)
— K W O N   S O O N Y O U N G
[established relationship] [trainee!reader] [tw for trainee contracts being horrible]
Heartache is saying goodbye for a very long time, even though I’ll see you tomorrow.
He lets out a watery okay.
You bite your lip and nod.
“We’ll give you a few minutes, then please return to your training rooms.”
“I understand,” he says.
“Yes.”
The door clicks shut, and you both look at each other.
His eyes are bright with tears; yours are, too.
You let out a tired yet almost humored snort. Watery eyes, tired hearts. It’s ironic. This is how you and Soonyoung got together in the first place.
You were a good thing, and you were incredibly good for each other.
After all, trainee life is hard. And the closer to debut, the further away you get from any non-idol humans.
And to be at a company with two groups nearing that fabled debut?
Your shared manager’s exhausted admission sums it up: “This is my fault. The company’s, really. We should have expected two overworked trainees to find comfort in each other.”
Soonyoung wetly clears his throat. “I—I am so, so sorry. I…”
You shake your head. “Don’t be.”
He meets your eyes, expression fiercely argumentative.
“We both knew what we were doing.”
His shoulders, usually shaking in laughter or holding themselves strong for choreography, are hunched over. For being the cause for that, you hate yourself.
“‘We both knew what we were doing,’” he murmurs. “I… I guess we did.”
More than viciously heartbroken, you just feel bone tired. Even now, you wish you could lean against Soonyoung and feel him lean against you in return. You’d spent many hours that way, silent in your mutual understanding.
Now there’s a table between you.
A contract laying between you.
No comfort, no soft touches—only two pens.
“We should sign.” You don’t raise your hand, despite your words. “Get it over with.”
You can’t feel your face.
Soonyoung’s lips are pressed so tightly together you wonder if they’ll bruise. Distantly, your insides curl when you recall the color they turn when they do.
“Right,” he agrees, not reaching for a pen either.
He tearfully stares at you, memorizing the way you stare back at him.
The thing that had attracted you to each other so powerfully?
Your sheer determination, mirrored in the other.
And also...
Your shared dream to debut.
A tear falls down his cheeks, and you can’t help yourself when you reach over and wipe them away with the pads of your thumbs.
Instead of whispered words of, we’ll get there, together, you can only offer him this:
“Keep working on that fluidity.” Your voice shakes a little. “You’ve been getting so much better.”
Your way of saying: I’ll miss you. I’ll watch your growth and be proud of you.
“You, too—with your locks.” He sounds like someone’s strangling him. “Even Jihoon was saying how much you’ve improved.”
His way of saying: I love you. I’ll watch you, too.
You both reach for your pens.
“See you after five thousand,” he says, hand hovering over the paper.
There’s a meteor in your throat, moving down and down. You shake your head wordlessly.
With your inability to reply, he signs his name.
You sign yours.
With the sound of your pen dropped to the table, the meteor meets your heart and pushes it down and down and down....
Trainees Kwon Soonyoung and Y/L/N Y/N shall not interact again until either of two conditions.
Condition A) The latter of the two reaches their group’s third anniversary.
Condition B) The event of both eventual groups acquiring 500k sales on a single album.
— W E N   J U N H U I
[angst with lighthearted aspects] [could be “canon” setting] [childhood friends]
Heartache is saying goodbye and leaving things unsaid.
You and Junhui—childhood friends to best friends to something a little too tender to be platonic—well.
There’s the whole story, really.
No verb needs to be added.
As you stare at your phone, you huff out a chuckle.
You blame PMS when your eyes well up a little, scrolling through the many selcas Junhui has sent you. It warms your heart whenever he sends you them. Even though, or rather because, he has little phone time, it means the world that he sends you a quick selca every so often.
It also makes your pathetic heart scream a little.
Not from a stabbing pain, not a scream saying I’m on a 9/10 on the pain scale, SOS!
A scream more like I feel a little helpless to my pain, and it aches dammit, and I should have just told him I loved him.
As one of your alarms goes off, you scream into your elbow.
Back to the books.
.
Heartache masks itself under warm memories and whispers of comfort.
Junhui, for all his loudness and talking much too fast, knows his heart. He understands what he feels, most of the time, and he knows what he wants.
He wants to debut with the other trainees in the Seventeen Project.
Right now, he wants to eat a delicious supper. Then he wants to sleep until he wakes up naturally.
Then, he wants a three day vacation so he can go home and reminisce childhood schoolyard games with a certain best friend. And maybe say those particular words...
Well, that’s not a want.
It’s a wish.
And while his stomach flutters at the thought of it, the reality of the ache in his muscles pulls his attention away from the pleasant fantasy of those wishes.
For now, it’s time to focus on wants and learning new choreography.
But maybe, in ten years, maybe….
Maybe then, it’ll be time to think about wishes.
.
The day Junhui left your hometown, you saw him off. Although you couldn’t see him to the plane itself, you shared breakfast with him and spent every minute together until his family left in their car.
At one point, he and you were sitting on his bed, staring at an unnaturally clean room.
“You know… I bet you’d pass the audition if you tried,” he joked, not for the first time.
“Haha. And I would enjoy trainee life just as much as you enjoy schoolwork.”
Both of you smiled with your eyes.
“But you’d enjoy it because you’d see me every day!”
“And you could enjoy my schoolwork just as much seeing me everyday!”
A pause, then a much too honest: “That would make the school work worth it.”
If you were brave, you would have asked him something like: Are you trying to say something? Please tell me you’re trying to say something.
You weren’t brave.
“Then why are you leaving me all alone?! Huh?! To suffer all by myself?! Do you know how many credits I’m taking?”
“And you’re leaving me to a bunch of foreigners!! So what about that?!”
“I’m not the one leaving!”
Insert spluttering.
And laughter.
So much obnoxious laughter.
It was a good last day together.
It was a warm goodbye.
But, want to know something that sometimes makes your heart scream a little?
Wondering if you could have made that last day even better if you had been brave.
— X U   M I N G H A O
[one-sided pining] [TW for slight age difference/feelings for an authority figure][favorite of this set]
Heartache is falling for someone untouchable.
First of all, don’t point any fingers at him.
Having the vocal instructor be a beautiful, attractive, and young person? Who compliments trainees in their native tongue? And sits with them at lunch?
It’s like the higher ups are trying to weed out the trainees via dating clause.
Second of all, and corollary of the first point: Minghao’s not the only one.
“Our teacher’s the best!” Junhui crows in his ear, Mandarin a little too breathless.
Minghao lets out a little grunt in response.
“I didn’t know our teacher could dance, too!”
“Seonsaengnim is very talented,” one of the Korean trainees says to Minghao, ignorant to Jun’s words.
Minghao wills his cheeks to not show anything.
“Really!” someone else says.
He groans at his thumping heart.
Third of all, it’s not like the feelings will last.
Shortly after the dancing display, Seonsaengnim sits with Minghao, Junhui, and a few other trainees at lunch. Here, Minghao learns something very important about their young instructor.
“Yeah, I was a trainee just like you three!” you say, hoping this conversation doesn’t take a poor turn. “Honestly, I think it was only a little over a year ago.”
“If you don’t mind me asking, how did you end up a teacher here?” Jihoon doesn’t mention any of the trainees’ popular assumptions in his question.
Seonsaengnim must not have been as good as everyone else.
Maybe all the other trainees were more beautiful.
Honestly, I bet that’s it.
Minghao doesn’t quite know it for sure, but he knows that Jihoon, like himself, worries that he won’t debut because of his visuals. Korean entertainment… just isn’t fair.
“Korean entertainment goes through its phases.” It’s like you read his thoughts. Minghao can tell you’re sifting through your thoughts very carefully, choosing your words not unlike the way he often does. Trying to find the words. The right way to articulate best intentions. “For me, I was good enough that even though I couldn’t debut, the company thought I was worth keeping around. That was honestly very…” He's fascinated by the way your tongue peaks out to wet your lips. “Very complimentary. Of them, to me. I’m thankful.”
“Do you think you could debut in the future?” someone asks, stupidly.
“No.” Minghao is surprised to see your lips begin to smile so sincerely. “But I’m looking forward to helping you all debut.”
There’s no bitterness in your tone.
Something in him stirs fiercely. He wishes he could have that surety.
When you smile warmly at him, tilting your head as you study his expression, the buzz that courses through him is surely the way Soonyoung would feel if he ever met Taemin. Surely.
It’s admiration, that’s all it is.
Fourth of all, it was inevitable, really.
“Minghao, can we talk for a minute?”
He nearly jumps at the Mandarin.
There’s rage sitting in his stomach right now—at the company, at the guest instructor, at the mistakes he made today, at his own pathetic face.
Minghao just wants to disappear for a while.
But he can’t say no. Doesn’t want to, to this one staff member.
“Of course.”
You sit next to him, back to the studio’s mirror.
“I know today was hard, but you’ve been doing better the last four practices in a row. That’s incredible. Remember… Every time you’re not going to improve visibly. That would be impossible.”
“Thanks.”
“And that instructor is a piss poor excuse for a—oh, sorry. I shouldn’t be teaching you those kinds of words—”
“Seonsaengnim, I won’t be telling anyone on you.” He can feel the corners of his lips twitching up, despite himself.
“Just… Know you’re already working hard enough. You don’t need to be… ‘working double because you don’t have the visuals.’” You run an aggressive hand through your hair and let out a righteously indignant noise. “Just… You’re so talented, and I honestly think you look perfectly attractive. So… Just… Ugh. Know that you’re unofficially my favorite. And I hope today doesn’t stick with you. Damn, that was a horrible instructor...”
Minghao can’t help but flush at the praise, and how intimate it feels for you to be here. Sitting with him. Rambling to him so that he’ll feel better.
This talk will stick with him.
But only for the best reasons.
You take his hand; squeeze it once reassuringly.
“You’re going really far. Remember that.”
He meets your eyes, heartbeat galloping.
It was inevitable.
Fifth of all, it’s not like he’ll ever say anything.
“Today’s my last day with you! I’m so proud of you all for making it this far.”
It’s not like he’ll ever have the chance.
“Thank you for everything, Seongsaengnim!”
“Yes, thank you!”
“You were our best teacher!”
Minghao freezes.
It feels like someone took all the warmth he had felt from that talk, and drained it from him. And decided that, you know what? For the hell of it, let’s just dump some ice cubes in there. Like rubbing salt in a wound, but emotionally.
The practice passes as quickly as clouds on a windy day.
Then, suddenly, you’re hugging everyone goodbye.
Then, suddenly, you’re fondly ushering the last of the trainees through the door.
Then, suddenly, you’re brushing his sweaty hair out of his eyes.
“Minghao, you’ve made it to the debut lineup. I’m so proud of you.”
You say more, but his mind is empty except for the panic settling in.
He’ll never get to say anything.
He grabs your wrist.
“Seonsaengnim, you can’t be leaving.”
A surprised frown. “I can’t?”
I need you to stay with me throughout my career.
I need you to keep watching me improve, with that proud look in your eye.
I need—
Minghao can’t find any Korean to answer with, leaving him nearly in tears.
He feels hysterical.
And you hug him.
And the tears fall.
“I’ll miss you too, Minghao.”
I love you.
So I need you to stay.
“I’ll be watching the headlines for your name, and when I see it, I’ll be telling my new trainees, ‘He was my favorite!’” A pure, bright grin against his sweaty hair. “You’ve made it, Hao! You don’t need to be crying over me.”
That’s not the words that will make me feel better.
“I—I—”
Minghao knows the three Korean syllables.
But it’s not like he’ll ever say them.
— L E E   C H A N
[angst] [exes]
Heartache is pouring out my regrets out on stage, knowing you’ll never see it.
Chan doesn’t know why he’s feeling this way, this minute, this song.
But he is.
It’s trainee evaluation day; his focus should be unwavering.
Yet, as he takes his spot with the other three trainees, he feels that familiar wave of regret bowl his heart over.
His memories of you flash through his head as he lowers it, waiting for the music to play.
Those memories are bowling pins in his mind, one toppling into another and that pin into another—
And Chan, being who he is, aims for a strike every single time.
“It’s alright you cancelled today—I know being a trainee leaves you no time.”
“I’m sorry. I love you.”
“Love you, too.”
The first one always falls, and then the next.
“I understand. It’ll be worth it when you make it to the big stage.”
“Only if you’re in the front row.”
“Talk soon.”
“Talk soon.”
The second pin rushes into the third.
“I have to go in a minute. But you were trying to tell me?”
“It’s… no, it’s nothing, babe. Dance good. And… maybe—call me soon?”
“I promise I’ll call right after.”
And the next ones always fall much faster.
“I’m sorry I didn’t call last night. We were all so exhausted, and I just couldn’t deal with y—”
He stops himself in time, but the damage is done.
“You just couldn’t deal with me? Well, you know what, Lee Chan. Maybe right now I can’t deal with you.”
And then they all fall indiscriminately, until the last few are teetering, wobbling...
The music plays, and muscle memory sweeps Chan’s body away into the choreography.
“No, Chan, you don’t need to apologize. I understand exactly how we stand. I really do believe you, don’t worry about that. You like me, but not as much as yourself! And your ‘dreams.’ I understand completely.” Your voice is a both a cry and a hiss by now. “You’re really selfish sometimes, you know that?”
...And the last one falls.
“Chan, your lyrics are really... “
“Are they that bad?”
“No—not bad… Just, well… Heavy. For someone your age.”
“It’s a heavy topic, hyung.”
“True.”
“So, can we use them for the evaluation?”
“No. They’ll be wanting something lighthearted for that. But…”
“But.”
“I’ll hold onto these, if you don’t mind. We can use them on an album someday.”
“You can’t be serious.”
“No, really! They’re good lyrics.”
“No, uh… That wasn’t what I meant! It’s just…”
“Are they too personal? You don’t want them in the world?”
“Sort of.”
“Ah.”
“Yeah.”
“Well, it’s decided then. We won’t use them.”
“Thanks, hyung.”
“What, you’re leaving? Don’t you at least want these back, if they’re so personal?”
“...No, that’s alright. I… I—just, can you keep them for me? I don’t want them again. Ever.”
“Hey, I—”
“Please.”
“You wrote ‘I’m sorry,’ nineteen times. Not to pull the responsible hyung card on you, but I feel like this isn’t something you can… keep away from yourself. For forever.”
“I know. I’m working on it.”
“Okay then.”
“Thanks for everything, hyung.”
“Sure.”
“I’ll just go now.”
“Okay…. Uh… Actually, Chan?”
“What?”
“Just remember that, even if… Even because you’ve messed up before... Just know that doesn’t mean you’re that person for forever. I don’t know if you can make up for whatever happened. But you’re not… ‘stuck on this tear-stained road, for ever. You’re a good kid.”
“Are you going after sappy hyung role, now?”
“You can talk to us if you’re not feeling okay.”
“Thank you, hyung. I’ll get out of your hair now.”
“Chan!”
The song ends. The dance resolves with a final swoop of the arm. And Chan’s heart hurts a little.
“That was really good,” someone whispers.
“For real, I got chills.”
“Chan-ie, are you crying?” one of his hyungs asks. He touches his face; he is. “Are you okay?”
“I will be,” he feels himself reply.
Hey, Y/N. I’m sorry if this is the last thing you want to see. Hell, you might have me blocked, and honestly, a better me would hope you do. Anyways, I needed to get off my chest how sorry I am. I’m not going to try to explain myself. But I needed to try to let you know that I understand what I did was selfish. And that I shouldn’t have let us continue like that for so long….
Five years later, Chan will perform a solo at a concert.
Thematically, there’s a lot going on. And the lyrics say sorry a lot of times.
The fandom wonders what inspired the lyrics.
Chan doesn’t cry when he performs it.
The ending of the song isn’t happy, but it does resolve. The sad chord makes any listener feel a little bittersweet, though.
And, from the front row, one ticket remains unclaimed.
—T H A N K   Y O U   F O R   R E A D I N G!
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mustloveallura · 6 years ago
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So in the original Voltron shows, Allura's only true canon love interest was Keith while Lance and Lotor never had a real shot. In VLD, both Lotor and Lance have been/are her canon love interests while Keith has about zero ship tease w/her at all. There's something hilarious about this irony (always liked ger better w/Lance so I'm happy. It's just funny because I bet no one ever imagined it all would go this way way back in the 1st episode).
oh, i’m well aware of the romance situation in 80′s voltron, haha. 
note: this isn’t a favorable view of ka//llura in past installments of voltron. proceed at your own risk. 
until s7, i was honestly still afraid that they’d pull ka//llura at the last minute. people’s reassurances to me were based on a lack of interactions between keith and allura after s2, strong compatibility between lance and allura, and extensive development between lance and allura. however, past installments in the franchise didn’t care about any of that and went with ka//llura anyway, so it did nothing to assuage my fears.
80′s voltron: lance had more interactions with her and went on a solo mission to save her, and allura kissed him 4 times including when keith had actually been the one to save the day. (that being said, i think 80′s ka//llura is actually cute, haha. i just wish it had gotten more build-up if that was their intended direction.) 
V3D: lance wanted to fuck the red lion and keith actually had a rly cute crush on allura that allura might get around to thinking about after doing all the important shit like saving keith’s ass alongside lance. i would change absolutely nothing about this. 
DDP: allura stalked keith around and constantly insulted him for not having lance’s personality (w/o saying lance’s name of course), preferring him basically because he was hotter and a better fighter than lance. she literally wanted someone like lance, but he wasn’t good enough for physical reasons, so she just harassed keith and tried to convince him that he ~really wanted her and should just stop resisting. honestly, this is the only version of ka//llura that i hate, and i think i have good reason. if the genders had been reversed, people would be rightfully creeped the fuck out by allura’s behavior. 
VF: lance and allura had a lot of development, but keith said something cute one time, and suddenly, he and allura were dating. according to one of the writers, lance and allura only had development because a) they needed to establish the love triangle in which lance never had a chance; b) lance is the guy you fuck and keith is the guy you marry, am i right, ladies? before reading the interview, i had just been disinterested in VF ka//llura (to each their own, but i would have liked to see more build-up). however, knowing what i know now, i can’t enjoy it at all. 
so, y’know, not exactly a strong precedent for, “lance and allura have lots of development and chemistry–>lance and allura have a canon mutual romance.” 
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back in s1, those familiar with the franchise were pretty confident that ka/llura would happen again (and hey, it had potential to get lots of build-up this time!), and those who were new to the franchise had all sorts of other theories, of which allur/ance was a very unpopular option. their dynamic back then wasn’t appealing to most people. in s2, ka//llura shippers were more convinced that it would be canon (i wouldn’t necessarily call it a ship tease, but i can easily see how shippers would, so i’d say that point is debatable). unfortunately for them, keith and allura haven’t really interacted since then. from s3 onward, lance and allura had extensive interactions, but even i didn’t want to believe it would actually be canon–despite writing metas about that possibility. 
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and now, here we are!
i sympathize with the ka//llura shippers who feel disappointed by canon development, provided they hadn’t been trashing on lance and kl/ance in the process of enjoying their ship (of which many of them were guilty; i had to block so many ka/llura blogs who were rbing my 80′s ka//llura stuff because of the hateful tags). i don’t want to be too confident, but it really looks like all/urance is the endgame romance for the series. 
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