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Another day, another cringe grad school interview
#it's okay i've gotten in at a place that i'm very interested in so i can fail everything else :')#do think it's funny that all the 'second-tier' schools that i've gotten in are like you're a shoe-in we're taking you#but you probably won't go here bc someone better will snap you up ://#and then the top tier schools are like *radio silence* *rejection*#it's okay though the school that i got into has (a) a great catalan program with a professor who could be helpful for my research#and (b) three anthro professors who perfectly triangulate to what i want to do#i might go somewhere else if i got a significantly better package and/or to put me on better footing in terms of training#but like i really should be fine ending up at [redacted]#rip to brown it would have been fun to live in providence but it probably wasn't a good fit besides that#perce rambles
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the one with the notes - JJ Maybank × ex!fem!reader
summary: you get to know someone knew, but it doesn't feel right
warnings: miscommunication, reader getting hurt (accident), angsty
word count: 2k
author's note: apparently I can write as long as it helps me avoid my life, so yeah. part 2 bc I have an important project to finish and my brain won't let me. but at least I can write, right? right? 😭😭😭😭
part 1 | part 3
It starts slow. Simple glances, sharing smiles, a drowned out “hi” in a hallway.
For two people who had been attached by their hips just three months ago, you really don't seem like you are even more than acquaintances at this point. But you know there's more.
It's in the way he looks at you, how he flips you off when he feels you stare, how he makes you laugh from across the classroom.
It's in the way you don't even notice that the new guy has been standing next to you, trying to ask you out for prom; because all you can think of is how good JJ would look in a tux.
“So, do you wanna go to prom with me?” he asks again, and you blink twice, then a third time.
“Sorry?” you don't mean to be rude, but you can't picture yourself at prom, even with the right person it would feel wrong.
“You and me, prom?” Sammy asks, and you shake your head to clear your thoughts.
“Uhm, I mean- Can you give me a day? I don't, uhm- I have to check my schedule, my mom has a dinner sometime that week that I have to attend,” you reply, and he nods, a smile spreading on his face.
“I can color code with you, if you say yes,” he suggests and hands you a small piece of paper. “That's my number, probably easier that way.”
You hold onto the paper, unsure what to do, but when you look up again he has vanished.
You walk to biology, head a complete mess, and out of pure habit of heart your feet carry you to JJ. Sitting down beside him without saying a word, and all he can do is look at you.
“You know, I don't think Steven will like that you're stealing his lab partner,” he whispers, and you finally snap out of it and look up at him.
“What?”
“You don't sit here anymore,” JJ reminds you, but when you nod to get up, he holds you back. “It's okay, stay.”
“I should really get to my seat,” you look at him, and he lets go of your wrist.
“Will you tell me why you are so out of it, or is it a secret?” JJ holds his index to his lips, indicating secrecy, which makes you chuckle. He looks good, his shirt is clean and there are no rings under his eyes. All in all he looks more put together than you felt all month.
“Uhm, I don't know, it's just-” you take a deep breath and look down at the balled up paper in your hand. “Sammy asked me to go to prom with him,” you whisper and JJ huffs.
“Who?”
“Sammy, the new guy,” you mumble and look up at him. You had expected him to be displeased with it, to hate the idea, but instead he was simply surprised.
“He seems nice,” JJ shrugs and turns to look out front. “Does he know that it's still a whole month until that thing?”
If you didn't know better, you'd say there's a little jealousy swinging in his voice. But you do know better, and throw the idea straight into the mental trash can, the same one that is filled to the brim with the idea that you could win him back somehow.
“No, I think he does. Just wanted to give me time to shop for a dress. Color matching and all,” you mutter, and JJ nods, scrunching up his nose as if he was about to start making fun of the guy.
“Color matching,” he repeats and shakes his head, not saying a single thing as you get up and walk over to your actual seat, making space for Steven, who had just walked in and was giving you a confused look.
The whole lesson, your mind is running haywire. Was it really just acquaintances? People who say hi in the hallway, who smile at each other in passing. None of it had any meaning, and you had to convince yourself of that. Because anything else would cause you to spiral, and if it wasn't real (it couldn't be) you'd just end up worse than the first time round.
The next day you tell Sammy that it's okay, and he's rather giddy over it, more so than you.
You spend more time with him over the following month. He helps you pick out the dress, he is all in all a good friend to you. And you know it's not just friendship that he seeks, but you aren't ready for more, not yet. Yet, he's understanding of your situation, of your feelings and for some reason you don't even question why he would be interested in you. Getting to know Sammy is inherently different from how it was with JJ.
Sammy is sweet and nice, and he has your mom wrapped around his finger, but if you are truly honest with yourself, it's not enough.
And you can't stop comparing him to J. To how he would make you laugh with stupid, childish things. To the way he'd look at you, especially before bed when you felt like your worst. JJ is all you had ever wanted, and more. But you had fucked it up because you have issues.
You know deep in your heart that JJ would've never cheated on you, he loved you too much to hurt you in such a way. But your brain and its stupid chemicals didn't let you love him in peace.
He'd just have to talk to a girl that wasn't you or Sarah or Kie and your blood would start boiling. It didn't even make sense to you, which was the worst part. You didn't understand why you were jealous like that, and you hated yourself for it. And no matter how hard he had tried to make it easier for you, it didn't help.
That month is also when the notes start. Small folded colorful pieces of paper with words on them. “You look beautiful, today” or “I love your smile.”
But you don't think much of it. You don't know the handwriting, and the most likely culprit is Sammy after all. He's the one who showers you with compliments every single day, so it doesn't seem far off that he'd slip a few notes into your locker.
You arrive at the school that night in your light blue dress, ready to have at least a bit of fun before the year ends.
You spend most of the time dancing, with Sammy, not even noticing the pair of eyes that linger in the dark, always watching you.
When you go to the bathroom, you run into Kie, and she almost falls over, but you catch her.
“Thanks, y/n,” she smiles, but it's not the genuine smile you know of her.
“No problem,” you mumble and keep walking when she speaks up.
“You know, it's pretty fucked up that you keep stringing him along like that.”
“What?” you turn to look at her.
“He left you all those notes, and you are too caught up with the new guy to even look at him anymore. That's fucked up, and you know it,” she scoffs, and you feel like you got hit by a car. It takes some time for it to settle, but by that point she is already gone, back towards the gym.
“Kie! Kie wait!” you scream while running after her. It doesn't matter to you that you might cause a scene, not when it's this important.
“What?” she turns and snaps. “I think you've done enough.”
“It's your handwriting,” you pant and she laughs.
“Of course it's my handwriting. And the fact that you didn't even think of that- What's it like in that head of yours? Cozy? Cuddled up and ignoring the pain you cause the people around you?”
“That's not fair,” you shake your head. A few people had turned to see what was going on, but most were still unaware of it all. Of the mess you had created unknowingly.
“It's not fair to fuck someone over the way you did. That's what's not fair, y/n! Fuck, I don't even know why he still loves you,” she sneers and your heart drops some more. It hadn't occurred to you that he had been honest that day. It hadn't occurred to you that he hadn't just said it to calm you down.
“But that's not- I will fix it,” your eyes jump around the room, not fixing on anything in particular, especially not the painful expression on Sammy's face. “I can fix it.”
“You can't fix shit, y/n/n. Couldn't even fix yourself,” Kie scoffs.
“I'm gonna fix it, I have to.”
“Why should he ever care?” she snaps, and you stare at her in fury.
“Because I love him, Kie. I love him. I love JJ,” you yell at her, but the sound of a glass shattering on the floor makes Kiara turn.
The glass filled with punch, that Sammy had held, has slipped out of his hand, but his eyes are fixed on you. It takes a second for him to turn and walk away, and you don't know what to do. You never meant to hurt him, that had never been the plan.
You run after him, yelling his name, but he's faster than you, mainly because you are in heels. And there it is again, the overwhelming feeling of guilt, and the pain that comes hand in hand with it. It's the same as the night you had broken up with JJ, the same you had felt waking up to an empty bed after-
“Y/N?” You can hear someone calling out for you, but it sounds far away, too far to be real. “Wake up, baby, come on,” JJ's voice buries itself in your mind, but you know it can't be true. He doesn't even go to prom, he wouldn't be here, you're hallucinating.
“Y/n/n, wake up. Please, my love,” JJ begs, and you open your eyes. His blue eyes are filled with tears, but he starts to smile, brushing over your cheek.
“Hi,” your voice is raspy and doesn't sound at all like you.
“Hi,” he grins, tears wetting his cheeks.
“What happened?” you hush, and then you feel a stinging pain on your forehead, but when you reach for it, he stops you.
“It's okay, we're taking you to the ER. You fell down the stairs in front of the gym,” he explains.
“I can't remember,” you whisper, the pounding in your head is making it hard to concentrate.
“I know, I'll tell you when you're better. Please just, stay still, all right,” he whispers and you nod a single time.
“JJ?” you ask quietly, but the noise of the engine is drowning out every other sound, and you can only see him move his lips, no words coming to your ears.
“I love you,” you mutter before losing consciousness the second time that night.
When you wake up at the hospital, you are alone. You can see your mother outside your room talking to a doctor, but the person you needed most isn't there.
Your heart clenches, it hurts worse than your head.
“How do you feel?” your mom asks after sitting back down by your side.
“Like I was run over and trampled on by a herd of angry rhinos,” you mutter.
“They say you have a concussion, on top of that laceration,” she says and points at your head.
“Where's JJ?” you ask and her soothing smile drops.
“I told him to go home.”
“Why?”
“Because he's the reason you are in this mess, honey,” she tries to hold your hand, but you pull away.
“That's not true. He saved me,” you whisper and turn away from her, facing the window and wishing you had never made the mistake of breaking up with him.
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hi my sweet lil buttercup laurie 💕 i have an odd question for you and i need to dig into ur brain and it is a lil nsfw but when it comes to jegulus, how would you see them if one of them worked as a phone sex operator? like who would be the person to make the call and who would be on the other end? like what are your headcanons on this and do you think they'd meet each other irl etc?
hi india my darling angel <333 sorry i didn't reply yesterday, i spent the morning getting tattooed with my sister AND THEN the afternoon and the evening at work.. but i'm finally here and ready to give u anything u want <3
i could see them both being the phone sex operator and viceversa, it all depends on the situation and how u decide to write/portray them!! however, i have a harder time picturing reg calling a sex line, unless it's like . for a bet . and i don't see him agreeing easily to a bet like that yk??
so to me, it'd be reg being a phone sex operator!! probably doing it either to earn some extra cash after he's been disinherited and doing odd jobs OR desperate for money and not wanting to rely on his brother/friends!! i think he was . very awkward at first and had no idea of how to do it, so he had to research/practise a lot and regrettably . ask barty for help, which would result on barty making fun of him until the end of times while also using it as an excuse for them to start hooking up again. but it's okay bc barty does give him really good advice in between it all
after he becomes more comfortable and gets the hang of it, i feel like reg would reply to calls while he's doing other shit around his flat or in his room yk?? he's sporting the most deadpan expression known to mankind while he fake moans in some stranger's ear and reorganises his books. he's unaffected and doesn't really care, this is just his job and he's only focused on doing it well enough to earn money
james would call at some point!! it can be either as a joke, bc of a bet, or even bc he's been broken up with recently and in a bit of a dry spell and just . trying something new bc he saw a leaflet for it or bc someone recommended it. i think he'd be nervous and be awkward during the first call but in a very charming way, and reg would find it endearing + he'd be quite into james' voice (which is the thing that would call his attention in the first place)
i doubt anything would actually happen during the first call!! they'd just talk and tease and banter, until reg realises their time's up and he hasn't given james the services he advertises for. he apologises profusely, offers another try, but james assures him it's completely fine and pays him anyway
next time james calls, it's with the attention to just . speak to reg again . bc he had a lot of fun and he's already a bit obsessed with his accent and how witty he turned out to be, but when reg realises who it is, he's on a Mission to do his fucking job and keep this man from getting him sidetracked
james is little confused about why reg's attitude changed all of a sudden, but after pushing slightly and getting no results, he supposes that he might as well get off to this yk?? it's the reason why he called in the first place, after all
reg starts doing what he always does, waiting for james to get all hot and bothered, except james realises quickly that what reg is saying is very . robotic and script-like and . generic . so it's not doing much for him. he mentions it, they start bickering, which turns into fighting, until reg snaps and retorts with something along the lines of . as if u could do it better etc etc
as u can imagine, james takes it personally
i won't get into a lot of detail, bc this ask is already ridiculously long, but they do end up having phone sex AND getting off. james kinda takes the reins and manages to coax reg out of his shell + finds out about what turns him on along the way. reg finally gets to let go and enjoy this whole phone sex thing and james gets what he was looking for (and more, bc he never expected it to be so into it or find it so hot)
the rest of their calls would go on a similar fashion, even if james is always the one calling and reg always begins their calls trying to . retain control and do his fucking job
and i like to think they'd meet irl at some point??? they move in similar circles, they have sirius in common etc etc. even in a situation in which reg and sirius are completely estranged, sirius could end up reaching during the story, or they find out they live in the same neighbourhood. or, well, as a bartylily stan, i could also see both friend groups coming together (sort of) bc barty and lily start seeing each other. i also think they'd recognise each other by voice alone and have a breakdown about it. i think reg would notice immediately bc of his kink with james' voice and i think james would take a bit longer and be so chill while reg is losing his mind (only on the inside tho). and then reg would say something, like an specific word or . turn of phrase and it'd click for james!! he'd be ecstatic and trying to get reg alone bc this is like . his dream scenario while reg runs away from him lmao
#and those are my thoughts on the subject!!#i didn't know i had so much to say about this i'm very surprised#and embarrassed for giving u such a long and rambly reply..#idk if this is what u were hoping for.. but i hope u still liked it beloved <333#MWAH#asks#india tag <3
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Why I think Gwynriel's the next book!!! Also, super long post!
So, I've been on the Gwynriel wagon since ACOSF (, even before I even got to the bonus chapter, mind you all), but I've been consciously sticking to ao3 and away from tumblr, because who likes a ship war, right?
But! This one won't leave me alone!
Azriel, my sweet boy, has never been chosen. And that is the root cause to his problematic love life, is it not? He believes that a part of his mother's suffering at his father's hand was because of him, yes? That his mother could not LEAVE because of him. He feels as if he harmed her by simply, being, as it is...
His birth family does not choose him, and although his mother did, it does not feel like a choice to Azriel, because to stay by one's child is a duty, is it not? And while our boy might not understand love, he does understand duty! Rhys and Cassian, for all that they accept him, did not choose him, not at first. Like all children, they were mean without knowing it, and then they've glossed over it and built a strong bond without ever acknowledging that initial damage it must have done to a child who had never been around children other than the step brothers that tried to burn him! It makes sense to me that he probably internalised child Rhys and Cass' initial non understanding of his shadows, and then never addresses them again....
Then, he crushes on Mor. Hopes she chooses him. Except, she doesn't. She would rather choose his brother over him, even when he makes it quite obvious that he does like her that way, and he decides it's easier to love someone who has openly shown him they would rather NOT be with him.
So I think, when it comes to Elain, Az is seduced by the thought of someone CHOOSING HIM!!! Elain has a mate, and still, she attempts to explore something with HIM. With AZRIEL. A novelty to him. Atleast, until the bonus chapter. The BC, where they almost kiss, and then Azriel calls it a mistake, and Elain says I'm sorry. She doesn't ask him why. Doesn't say it's not. She says I'm sorry. So right up to the BC, Elain has not so far CHOSEN Azriel. And I don't think she's capable of doing so either, because to truly choose someone, you must know them completely, and then choose. INFORMED consent, yes?
Who has seen Azriel in his darkest form, and not balked at it? Who saw the Shadowsinger of the Night Court in his battle leathers, shadows in full blaze, slaughtering males in seconds, and accepted his offer of a cloak and safety with no second thought? Who saw that, and thought, I am safe? Which priestess, that chose to hide herself from the male gaze, attend training sessions, continue to do them once Azriel joined, asked HIM for private lessons despite her primary mentor being Cass? Which priestess saw the spymaster and shadowsinger and just plain Azriel and said I see you, and I'm choosing to stay here, right on this training ring, and if you choose to stay, then you better be ready to deal with me!!!
Azriel has never been chosen, and no one knows more than Gwyn how important choice is. So I think they're going to flirt their way to a mating bond without even realising it, and they're going to CHOOSE each other before that all important bond snaps into place for them. For him, atleast.
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PHOEBEEE!!! Need to share the brainrot after this terrible race
2025 and piarles are pining but won't say anything cause they're idiots and here comes lewis, sweeping charles completely off his feet. charlie is confused but he wants to get over pierre and wants it to stop hurting so he goes along with it and tries it out.
pierre tho, he is going THRU it! The one night he decided he would come clean to charles about his feelings after breaking it off with kila, sees charles giggle at lewis and then kiss him
he is heartbroken, he can't tell if he's happy cause on one hand it's charles and LEWIS, who's like his favourite and that idiot thinks lewis could treat charles better than him etc but he's in love and he wants charles all to himself but it's too late but it's never too late
(hint: piarles do end up together)
omg anon....👏👏
i'll be up front here: u probably will not see charles/lewis on here romantically ever BUT i like this idea bc i can see 2025 being the dream for pierre because its CHARLES and LEWIS. but suddenly realizing that the natural intimate dynamic between them shifts when the third person in the group is someone they both admire so much....pierre starts stepping away bc he doesn't want to impact their relationship but charles MISSES PIERRE but won't say anything bc he thinks pierre doesn't want him anymore....mutual stupidity.... maybe lewis DOES try to make a move on charles but charles can't do it because he can't stop thinking about pierre...and of course that's the moment pierre sees them together....
pierre lying to himself about being happy for charles while charles tries to get pierre to get close to him again and at one point theyre at some post-race party and charles comes up and pierre, a little drunk, snaps "where's lewis" petulantly even though he doesn't like...mean it. and charles is big eyed like what do you MEAN and pierre is like don't play dumb with me, charles, who knows you like i do. and storms away
the soulmatism does fix everything though 🫶 and also lewis completely understands because he's seen it firsthand for the last eight years
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hello to all my kinky William enjoyers out thereee! god has a plan for you, and by god i mean me, and by plan i mean a WIP from the tenth hot spring part two :)
i think i will be posting more Six Lives WIPs as time goes on bc uhh chapters are very spread out in between but im always so excited to show off what im working on and i want to feed you every now and then. some things will probably change in the final draft, or perhaps the WIP won't even appear in the end at all, but for now it's what i'll be happy with posting! if you want to read spoilz free, thats fine too :) obv i won't post any shattering plot points or anything like that
this ones some very nsfw/kinky b&w that i was very proud of and also i shamelessly found it hot so i wanted to post it like rn. i do have to give warnings for mentions of CSA, mentions of incest, having sex while intoxicated, and unhealthy BDSM practices. seriously, do not do what they did here william's just very drunk. otherwise, enjoy :]!
“Yeah...nothing...nothing, nothing, nothing, it was never anything to us...not in New Amsterdam, not to the Overlifers.” He glared up at the ceiling and took Bentinck’s hand. “And not to him.” He pulled Bentinck forward suddenly, and Bentinck gasped, his face flushing as he stared into William’s eyes. He felt the legs spreading around his own, William laughing and caressing his friend’s cheek.
“William, you...” Bentinck wanted to step away, tell him to calm down. But he let his Overlifer guide his hands, so that he found himself pulling away William’s jacket, and then his tie. William sighed in relief.
“Feels so good to have it off, Hans,” he whispered, caressing Bentinck’s cheek with one black nail. “Hm? Thank you. Clothes...fucking hate it.”
“Maybe you could try wearing less,” Bentinck said with an awkward cough.
“What do you think I’m tryna do, Hans?” William laughed again. “Get it all off, baby, I can’t stand it. I can’t stand it. It’s always worse when I drink...it’s always better.”
“What?” But Bentinck, once more, did as William said, all while William clumsily undid his belt and threw it to the side. Then he brought Bentinck in for a kiss like never before.
It wasn’t exactly what the Ally had in mind, especially after today. But once he touched the divine lips he gave in, sucking on William’s tongue and stroking his horns until they were both out of breath, though that never said much for William.
“Hans,” William said in between pants, “you are going to fuck me.”
“N-No, I...” Bentinck shook his head. “We tried once. You were so scared.”
“I need that damned fox and I need you,” William growled a little too quickly. “Is this not what you fuckin’ wanted? I want it. I’m not afraid ‘n I never was.”
“William, I’m not going to do this if you don’t really want it,” Bentinck said firmly. “You don’t have to do this for anyone but yourself. It wouldn’t be good for you.”
“I just said I wanted it!” William yelled, snapping his jaws near Bentinck’s face as if he had inherited his father’s sharp teeth. Bentinck jumped back, and William chuckled as he sat up.
“Look, Hans, I got over sucking my daddy’s cock by sucking yours,” he said, grinning wickedly. “What makes you think this won’t work, too?”
“I- I really don’t think you should phrase it like that.” Bentinck let out a nervous laugh as William pulled his pants down.
“Why not? Don’t like it when I call someone else daddy?” William climbed on top of him, and Bentinck couldn’t stop staring. “Want to be the only one, is that right?”
“Please don’t call me that,” Bentinck said. He sighed, relenting at last when William began to unbutton his shirt. “So you think riding me would make it better for your first time? You’d be more in control.”
“He made me ride him, too. When I was sixteen.”
“Oh.” Bentinck looked away. He really didn’t know what to say to that. William was never this forward.
“I’ll be fine,” William said. “I’ll be okay. Don’t worry. I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine, you’ll be fine, okay?” He shut his eyes, and Bentinck wondered if he was really talking to himself instead. He was tempted to tell him to stop this, he was just drunk and he had no idea what he wanted, but then William was on him and he was so beautiful and he didn’t seem afraid anymore when Bentinck was in him.
It was everything Bentinck thought it might have been. He could tell it hurt William at first, but he seemed to like it even then. He took hold of Bentinck’s wrists and bowed his head, his breaths short and matching his movements. Bentinck gripped his waist to help him out, letting out his own huffs through his clenched teeth. There was never, ever going to be anything that would feel better than this.
“Hans,” William gasped, “hit me.”
“W-Where?”
“Anywhere. Leave a mark.”
“Should we- should we not talk about this first?”
“Fucking hit me, Ally.”
So Bentinck slapped his thigh hard, and William tossed his head back with a vicious roar in his moans. “Oh, Ferocity! Harder, harder, Hans!”
“Again?” Bentinck had to admit, he was pleased with the result of that.
“On my face...please.”
Bentinck slapped his face, tugged William around by his horns and tail, shoved his head back by a grip on his hair, all things William asked for and met with a howl Bentinck would have found hilarious if it really wasn’t so hot. When William lay back on the bed and ordered him to continue that way, he didn’t hesitate— he pinned his master’s arms beside his head and fucked him as an Overlifer was meant to be serviced. William arched his back, crying out and hissing like an animal.
“You’re so fucking hot, William, I hope you know that,” Bentinck leaned in to say.
“And you’re...you’re so big, oh, shit...” William was wheezing dangerously, but neither of them were done yet, and Bentinck only stopped if William told him to. “Blindfold me.”
Bentinck looked around, briefly stopping to reach out for his own tie he’d been wearing what felt like hours ago and tying it tightly around William’s head. That was when William turned around and ordered Bentinck to continue that way, and Bentinck gladly did so, holding William’s tail up just to look at himself inside of the Overlifer.
“Hold my arms back, don’t let me fucking move, pussy—!” William shouted, and Bentinck pinned his arms back, shoving into him as much as he could. William jolted forward with a snarl, his legs shaking. “Fuck, yes! Cum in me, Hans, I want your children!”
Bentinck burst out laughing, just as he came inside William, and then everything was meaningless from there. The only thing that mattered was William gasping, his tightness around Bentinck and his whines under his breath.
“Thank you, sir...thank you...thank you...”
Bentinck paused to catch his breath, then leaned forward to pull down the tie from William’s eyes. “You don’t have to say that to me,” he said with a smile. “I was doing it all for- for you. And I loved it.”
But William didn’t answer. His eyes were screwed shut, his breaths short, and Bentinck rubbed at his back. “William? Do you need your inhaler?”
William opened his eyes and nodded. “It’s...just you.”
“Yes.”
“Oh, thank the- thank the dwaallichten.” He took Bentinck’s hand and didn’t let go for the rest of the night.
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alt swap au ramblings bc they are rotating in my brain <33333
i just kinda wanted to ramble abt the characters' like personalities and stuff so ye :D
cain murray: pre vol 1 he was very outgoing and enthusiastic! loved meeting people and going out to parties or malls or whatever he felt like doing that day! however post vol 1, his newly diagnosed c-ptsd and general trauma from the incident caused him to shy away from people. he became overly paranoid of everyone around him, including his own siblings. and after the paranoia came the depression, which only worsened his mental state overall. he probably should not have been chosen to be the main face of bps lemme tell you that much.
mabel murray: the most level headed member of bps and is actually the one who came up with the idea for it! she had always been interested in the paranormal, and they also wanted to get to the bottom of the whole alternate situation due to them almost killing his brother. he handles all the online stuff for the group under the alias "stanley" due to its face being on multiple "alternate sighting report" signs all over the counties.
seth murray: struggles with a lot of things, such as emotions, feeling empathy, feeling. anything really. he was diagnosed with both aspd and autism from a young age, and a lot of people think he's basically unapproachable because of said conditions. he likes to be by himself for most of the time, but he does like hanging out with cain and mabel sometimes! he'll crack a few jokes with them here and there, and while he doesn't show it on his face he really does enjoy their company! he also may think davis is a little annoying and way too self centered, but he keeps him busy so he doesn't mind.
thatcher "davis" marshall: very self centered and way too cocky for his own good, but he's generally fun to be around! he's usually one to take really unnecessary risks, but they're usually all in good fun! he's the biggest troublemaker of bps as well, always finding a way to damage properly -- on accident or on purpose no one ever knows) -- or just messes around with the other members to poke fun. however, he is very self conscious about his appearance, and having a demon roommate with your name who constantly looks like your younger self doesn't help. he comes off as someone who would tackle a situation head-on except for the fact he runs from true danger at the first chance he gets.
lilith miller: very snotty and bratty and WILL BITE YOU if provoked. she had a troubled childhood where her parents were constantly fighting about her, which led her to get into multiple fights with classmates from school as a way to mitigate the pain. she most often fought with seth because they absolutely HATED each other and wanted every chance they got to snap at each other. the only place that wanted to hire her was dave because of said past, and she kinda hates him. but she puts up with him because she knows she won't be able to get any other job. she is very suspicious of her employer due to him having the only television in the state, in which tvs were banned for years at this point.
gabriel o'brien: lieutenant of the mcpd except he's less depressed and more concerned for the county. he ended up being the last member of the force due to the whole alternates thing, and he really tries to not let it get to him. he and maria weren't too close, but he did take her death as the first sign that things were definitely going to shit. he also doesn't trust dave very much, but he goes to him whenever he needs help with particular tech stuff regardless.
maria weaver: very softspoken and tried helping others whenever possible. definitely a favorite in the department before her death, and she is remembered dearly, even by those who left the police force. she had always wanted to get to know gabriel better, but she never found the courage to try and talk to him even if she was getting support from other friends in the department. and she unfortunately never got to make that step towards what could have been a really great friendship.
terry "toony" o'brien: gabriel's older twin brother who runs the local church in mandela. terry got the nickname "toony" from being SUPER obsessed with cartoons when he was a kid. he is very softspoken and genuinely cares about the county. while his brother tries to tackle trouble head on, terry is much more passive and tries resolving conflicts with victims of alternates and M.A.D. this did cause a bunch of arguments to spawn between the brothers, which led to terry wanting to cut ties with gabriel and led to his ultimate demise.
dave: literally canon gabriel but with a lil more whimsy. he still runs mandelatech, as it acts as a way to meet and kill victims faster. he keeps in touch with a certain terry o'brien due to selecting him as his "mandela prophet". he doesn't care at all for human life and just fucks around because he's basically god and will do anything to abuse his power, even against his own kind.
adam: one of the most active and most dangerous alts right under dave. he orchestrates a lot of child kidnappings around mandela and sometimes has eve and jonah help. while he is the most active of the alts, he doesn't really talk to them other than for maybe 3 or 4 of them (which would just be jonah, eve, dave, and seth). he's EXTREMELY manipulative and will do anything to get his way, even if things have to go off script for that to happen. the most prominent example of this would be adam having to tell seth the truth on his home computer instead of the basement.
eve: an accomplice to adam who helps adam kidnap and kill children for. whatever the canon reason would be. she mostly likes to occupy mirrors and creep in the shadows. in terms of kidnapping children, she'd be like a "motherly" figure, calming the children down when they get upset and making it seem like going with her would take them to a happier place with a happier family. of course it's all lies, and she loves to make them, especially when taunting a certain lilith miller.
jonah: an accomplice to adam and eve who also assists with their child kidnapping schemes by distracting children with a luring them in with a cartoon or some other sort of child friendly show. he is generally afraid of adam due to how often he bursts out in anger in front of jonah, but he takes it and pushes his own feelings down. he reluctantly follows dave's orders and hopes for the best really.
ruth: doesn't like to interact with other alternates often, and she isn't the biggest fan of causing deaths and stuff. she'd rather spread M.A.D. and be done for the day. she is only slightly tolerable of dave due to her working for him, but she seems to like "thatcher"? they've hung out a few times, and it was always awkward, but they'd sometimes like some quiet time and they'd enjoy each other's company anyway. she's probably met davis before, in which she'd think he's iffy. she think he'd only get in the way of whatever dave's plan is and almost killed him one time to try and ease that anxiety.
"thatcher": he is best described as just a lil guy bc that's really what he is! he is very curious about people overall and tries his best to not fulfill his alternate duties. his best excuse to do this without too many questions from other alts is stalking/rooming with davis and taking his appearance. he actually was first meant to haunt gabriel after vol 333 events, but thatcher found more interest in davis as he was following gabriel home. he is generally pretty shy and is willing to give a helping hand in whatever someone needs at the moment.
#long post#mandela catalogue#the mandela catalogue#evidence reel#alt swap au#as a quick note yes terry is new#i was thinking of who would fit in with a dave-like role but not really dave#so i picked toonbriel!!!!!#OH ALSO i am planning on drawing all of them again so stay tuned for that :)c
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tell me everything abt hicktown RIGHT NOW!!!!!
WOah calm down there friend no need to pull out the capital letters and the five (5) exclamation marks! (tysm for asking abt them they're in my head 24/7 and I'm kissing u right on ur beautiful noggin)
okay, this is really hard to explain itd be easier to show but I have ZERO (0) pages done so ur gonna have to stick with me okay pleas and thank u.
Hicktown takes place in a small town in the 80s and focuses (I'm gonna switch POVs a couple thousand times so sorry in advance) on Jacob, who has just moved into said small town to live with his stepbrother Joe and him being the amazing family man he continues his fathers legacy by leaving a child by their lonesome to go party with his friends and now Jacob's on his own so he just explores this big ass house, did I mention Joe's family is rich? Remember that.
Switch POVs we're with Joe at this random party hanging out with his girlfriend (Angie) and his BFF (Eddie) on a patio (very important detail/s). Angie fucks off to who knows where and so The Boys are alone and Eddie breaks the silence with:
"Hey, I love you man but your girlfriend is kind of a freak."
Very tactful but not tactful enough so Joe displaying a very Rare W is like "Hey man that's totally not cool what you said about someone I really care about please take that back and apologise to Angie or we won't be friends anymore." (HE DOESN'T ACTUALLY SAY THIS IT INVOLVES A LOT LESS CRITICAL THINKING) so they have a big fight Joe probably calls Eddie faggot (did I mention that Eddie's gay and has internalised homophobia running through his veins and Joe knows this and also uses this against him. Wow [I PROMISE IT GETS BETTER]) so Eddie leaves and Angie comes back.
Angie can see that he's upset so she Invites Joe to go out into the woods with her to take a breather and he Accepts.
So they go out into the woods together and they talk about anything that they can think of until Angie stops Joe. They're deep into the woods now and the only thing allowing them to see is the moonlight. It's a quiet night sans the music but even then it's been drowned out from the distance. Even the quiet chittering of wildlife is gone.
A twig snapping is what breaks Joe out of his trance.
It all happens so quickly. There's a bat cracking his skull open and white hot pain is eating him alive.
Okay, I'm gonna stop here or I'm gonna spill the entire story LOL. Sorry abt how messy and jumbled this is I'm sillay. but I gotta explain their character archetypes bc it's very important!!!
Joe's character is a spin-off of the pretty boy character he's that but awful. He's built off of being pretty, rich, privileged and WHITE (sounds silly but it fr adds to his character + I get to laugh at him)
He stops being an asshole i prommy <3333
EDDIE, my sweet boy, is the #gaybestfriend (+poc) trope
eddie loves and supports joe but also has a hard time standing up for himself and articulating how he feels to ppl and kinda just goes along with what joe does. the only reason he allows this is bc they're childhood friends (and he has a big phat crush on joe) he would not take shit from anyone else but keeping up with it is definitely wearing him down :(
things get better for all o them tho I love them too much to hurt them permanently
if you read all of this holy fuck u have my heart
#hicktown#ask#writing#jackory speaks#long post#theres more characters but this post is long enough so ill shut up#long-lost-mcguffin#asks#keegy weegy ocs
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Bonjour. Since requests are open can i request twisted wonderland with a mikasa-like reader⁉️⁉️ neway i love your writing style ‼️😍💪 but like can we be moots tho 🤯💯
Twisted wonderland with a Mikasa!MC
warning(s):
notes: •MIKASA IS SO🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹💓💓💓💓💓💓
•thanks bro😈💪 and i would love to be moots!
•sorry this took a while KSKKS
•also, i might not update fot a while bc i got sick lmao #sickcore
You're emotionally withdrawn and is noticeably dangerous, intimidating both enemies and comrades. A stoic and level headed individual, you're rarely seen to lose your cool or be at loss of what to do, no matter how bleak the situation seems to be.
No matter how stoic you are, you deeply care for your friends, seeing them as the last remnants of a family you cannot afford to lose.
Heartslabyul:
riddle almost collapsed to the ground and sob when he saw you
like omg?! look at you bro, look at you
now look at those three animals you call as friends
like u may be intimidating but at least you're 1000000000 times better than your friends
you and riddle are like that one spiderman meme lol
bc mothers, get it? (if I'm wrong then uh... this is awkward)
trey is glad that your friend group had at least one responsible person (and another that's trying to be responsible) in the group
he doesn't really mind u came off as intimidating and that u look stoic
i mean there's the diasomnia students so you're fine!!
cater well, at first he was like😮🤔🤔
and then he did a 180 and now he's all sunshine and rainbow with you
like HEY HOW'S YOUR DAY PREFECT💥🌈🌀
ace will def cause problems on purpose sometimes
cant help it man, hes a little shit
and you're his best friend that's gonna be stuck with him forever
whenever you told him it's bad and he did it anyway, you just follow him to make sure he's not hurt in any way
ace, ofc, notices this and is now using it to his fullest advantage����‼️
deuce, however, tried his best to be just like you and not cause problems
but it failed bc of a certain someone
he feels kind of bad about it so he whacks ace abt it after
u don't have to thank him it's ok😁‼️
probably beats overblot riddle up to snap him out of it
everyone:😱😱😱😱
Savanaclaw:
well all of them are pretty much strong too and could come off as intimidating
so when they saw u, they were like, omg they were supposed to be in our pack😍‼️
okok /j im sorry pls dont attack me
leona and ruggie don't really mind ur intimidating aura
and neither do they mind how stoic u are
maybe ruggie will tease u about it here and there
but other than that, they don't mind‼️
you and jack lowkey kins each other?
bc you both care abt ur friends and tried ur best so they won't hurt themselves in some problems they got into and if they won't listen to you guys, you'll follow them to make sure they didn't get too hurt or things didn't get too bad
it's a silent agreement between the two of you LMAO
like one look at the squad, and then a look at each other and then y'all nod at each other
he really admires how strong u are too! like you're magicless but you're really strong
and the fact that you're from the army? WOAH😮
he invited you to train with him every morning
its now the both of your routines
all of them saw u take down a whoke group of savanaclaw students by yourself and go 😮⁉️
i would say smth abt u beating up overblot leona too but we wouldn't want you to turn into sand now, would we
Octavinelle:
everyone probably remembered how u quite literally beat the shit out of trio with that strength of yours
when they asked for it ofc (oh god i sound like one of the boyz)
like that one time when y'all are trying to steal that one picture
or that one time during his overblot
probably flipped floyd like vil did
oh jade is very amused
and is very interested
you better start running
or maybe stay if u like jade or smth idk
while azul is amused, he kind of have some war flashbacks with how u beat the shit out of him one time
sometimes when he looks at you, he was taken back to when he got his ass whooped and jolted a little
aHahA! you asked him what made him jolt? nothing he just.. forgot smth!
see you later! maybe never tho😁‼️
oh floyd is having the time of his life with you
like ofc he is kind of pissed that you flipped him like he's some paper or something BUT
he is EXTREMELY amused and will poke at you every single day:D!
i do hope you're ready bc he appear out of nowhere just so he can spend time with you^^!!
no worries tho, he don't bite
or does he?
Scarabia:
oh well kalim don't really mind how intimidating u are!
ok maybe he minds a little at first
but now, it doesn't even effect him anymore!
hell, he can even detect ur aura from afar now
he's an empath btw
i made so many empath jokes i can't even
like, "i sense the prefect here somewhere"
even if u wore smth really different (mostly bc of ur friends)
like a full clown fit? oh he knows its you
hm? is that u cosplaying as xiao or smth?
WOWIE🤩YOU'RE REALLY GOOD AT THIS
jamil is happy
literal heart eyes when he saw u
he's so happy he might shed a tear or two every night
bc omg!! finally!! someone he can trust around kalim!!
like they'll surely make sure kalim won't die or smth from one of his shenanigans
or someone to make sure kalim won't get assassinated or smth??
he almost throws a party of his own
Pomefiore:
rook would be all over u once he walked past u in the hallways
like oh! it's u prefect!!!!!!!!!!!
he ran up to u with a big smile on his face
like he gives u endless praises each time
and won't leave that spot
someone will have to drag him away
vil, doesn't really mind about u
like sure, u care abt ur friends and thats admirable
you're also really strong and he thinks it's good that u know some self defense
but he does wish you'll smile more😁
even if u have nothing to smile abt in ur life
/hj
epel admired u bro
i mean he may be a little intimidated at first
but he slowly warms up to u and got used to it
and now he's cheering ur ass everything u kicked some ass!!
like yeah prefect! go prefect! show them who's boss!!
Ignihyde:
idia doesn't really care about you
but whenever he saw u, he does feels some chills ran down his spine
can't help it man, your aura is really intimidating
he might even winced a bit when he saw u beat those ppl up who dared to hurt u and ur friend
safe to say, he won't ever try to pick a fight with u!:D
well maybe
anyways
ortho, doesn't really care!
he thinks you're amazing
and thankfully, idia got some data abt u that tried to convince him you're not scary at all
well i mean sure, you're no longer scary but
you're still scary
you get what i mean?
like you're not scary anymore but at the same time you're scary
and HELPPP LFMAOAOAOA
idia will surely get some beatings in chapter 6
Diasomnia:
well i mean you're in the army so u probably got along well with sebek and silver since they're knights in training (if im not mistaken)
they would sometimes train with you
sebek would even ask u to spar with him sometimes!
silver doesn't really mind ur aura, neither does sebek
they both think you're really strong and admired u for that
plus, the one they served literally have the same aura
lilia, hehe, is a little shit too:D!
he tried everything, and i mean EVERYTHING to make u show a reaction
hanging upside down, giving u his food, spooking u by suddenly appearing behind u, etc
but u won't budge and he has taken as interest on u bc if that
goodluck! u might wanna run to the infirmary everyday!!
dw silver tried to stop him
it was successful sometimes
well sometimes anyway
malleus, doesn't really care
i mean students avoided him bc of his aura too
plus, he's more than happy to have a friend he can relate too!
he really wants to spar with u but held back
overall, they all like u! well sebek won't admit it but u get the point!
#twst#twst wonderland#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland x reader#riddle rosehearts#trey clover#cater diamond#deuce spade#ace trappola#leona kingscholar#ruggie bucchi#jack howl#azul ashengrotto#jade leech#floyd leech#kalim al asim#jamil viper#idia shroud#ortho shroud#malleus draconia#lilia vanrouge#sebek zigvolt#silver
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BTS SOULMATES WORST HABIT/ QUALITY
Disclaimer: This is for entertainment purposes and only my interpretation of the cards. Do not take it as fact~
Anon, I love this very much!! Thank you for requesting it!
Seokjin
I got: 7 of wands rev., Take a fucking trip ( Go see some shit. Do some new things. Talk to people cooler than you.), Stop obsessing ( You are not the centre of the fucking universe)
So. This person tends to get overwhelmed easily and can be a bit of a workaholic at times.
This is someone who gets so so so focused their failures and faults and stuff that they kinda become blinded by that
I pulled a clarity and got 9 of swords.
This really is someone who spirals in anxiety when things aren't going well and likely snaps at the people around them.
Its absolutely unintended but when they get overwhelmed they kinda detatch from the world and they can only see as far as their nose.
Likely gets so in their head that they forget things about other people and it can come off as being very self-centered, cold, bitchy ect.
Yoongi
Lol
A lot of cards came out.
We have: 2 of cups, Drop the fucking ego. (Vulnerability is hot as fuck.), Ask a fucking expert. (Don't rely on your friends or the Internet. Listen to a damn professional.), Stop fucking whining. (No one wants to listen to that shit. Complaining makes you weak. You have the strength to change your world-so do it.), You need a good fucking cry. (Get the ugly cry on. Let that shit go. Your soul will thank you.)
They tend to romanticize life to the point that they think that something will come and change their life for them
But that isn't how shit works
They have mad issues with getting vulnerable and admitting that they are struggling or that they aren't happy where they are.
Emotionally constipated lol
Definitely has a hard time letting other people in bc of trust issues
They don't really outwardly emote often so it all builds up.
They think that independence means you can't look for guidance and thats bad
Very much ignoring the work they have to do to get to where they want to be but still pretending like they are getting closer to it
Ugh
They have a lot of shit to work out in the emotions department
They also seem to just have a general lack of grounding.
Hoseok
Oki
I got: 10 of swords rev., the tower, Stop talking. (Shut your mouth and listen.) Winning. (You got a good thing going. Don't ruin that shit.)
This is someone who can't keep their foot out their fucking mouth.
Dear god.
Its all good intentions but they say way more than they need too and it can ruin things for them.
They also can be too open.
They also resist change too much.
They fear self change.
They couldn't give a shit about external change but breaking old habits and old patterns is something they just don't like to do
So as a result they don't ever challenge their views internally.
This can leave them with a shaky foundation (putting off that tower moment) of old views and outdated information.
This can make them pretty damn judgmental at times.
They just need to let the tower moment happen and reasses all of their beliefs to figure out what they truly stand for and who they are, not just what has been forced in them (societal, parental. Even friends)
Also likely gullible
EMBRACE INNER CHANGE
Jesus, you're gonna give me a fuckin migraine
Its frustrating because THEY KNOW WHAT THEY HAVE TO DO BUT THEY JUST DON'T WANT TO
I feel bad for your guides, hobi's soulmate.
JUST DO IT
Namjoon
...
I got: Hanged man rev., 2 of swords, What the hell are you waiting for? Get that shit done. (If you were waiting for a sign-well, here it ucking is.), Don't believe every shitty thought you have. (Thoughts can be lying, sneaky bastards)
This is a procrastinator.
They tend to avoid things when they are faced with things that are unpleasant or even really good.
They are frustratingly doing nothing.
Big big big avoider.
STOP DOING THAT
Doesn't really want to do better.
They are content where they are for the simple reason that they don't want to experience discomfort by actively going after what they truly want in life
THIS DOESNT HELP ANYONE
They are also VERY passive when they are procrastinating
Jimin
Bring it.
We have: The magician, You are loved. (You are here for a reason. Don't fuck it up.), Have you eaten? (Your acting like a big ass baby. You need food in your belly. Either fucking taco.)
Well okay then.
I think this ties into jimins soulmate reading so I won't go too indepth about that part. You can read his soulmate reading here (x)
BUT
The thing that makes this their worst quality/ worst habit is because they have every tool and all of the want to help their situation but just don't?
And specifically another thing is that no matter how much someone tells this person that they love them, that they are important and that they matter, this person DOESN'T BELIEVE IT. The actively try to convince themselves otherwise.
Actively
On purpose
Because they don't know what else is a personality trait.
Again go read jimins soulmate read.
It's not that anyone blames them for this or anything but they actively reject help at times and get pissy about their situation.
You know what you need to do to fix your shit. Do it. Don't use it as your fucking personality.
You are more than that.
Dear god.
Theres a lot to say here.
Whatever situation it is, they are so stubborn and determined to do shit on their own and they have every resource but they are scared to lose a defining trait.
Ugh
I have a lot I want to say about this but I'll leave it here.
Taehyung
Oki oki
10 of wands, 2 of cups, you're giving too many fucks. (Give zero) and figure shit out on your own.
So this is someone how tends to overwork themselves.
They don't really know when to quit? They seem to be very determined but to their own detriment at times.
They also tend to carry the burden in any social relationship. People tend to use them?
They go along with it because they have a lot to offer and a lot to give and don't always have the boundaries to keep people from taking advantage of them.
They honestly just give too many fucks.
They value human connection so much that they will let themselves be a fucking doormat.
They feel very isolated even though they aren't (when I do the second soulmate read I think I'll have some more about this then)
Jungkook
Oki
We have: the tower, 7 of swords, eat your fucking vegetables. (Eat some shit made by mother nature), dont talk to anyone. Don't look at anyone. (You need some fucking time alone. And you know why)
First thing. I heard, "The diet of a child" and then "gamer girl" umm.
I have 2 things.
1. They take bad care of themselves when they go through a rough patch and the trend sneak away from everything (probably lie to get out of whatever obligations or do some sneaky shit) and eat fucking lunchables and kids cuisine microwave dinners with energy drinks exclusively
2. They tend to be ridiculously picky irl. Or just can't cook for shit so they only eat coffee pot Ramen.
Pull yourself together.
Their worst habit is withdrawing from everything when things get rough.
They don't take care of themselves and they drink Monster energy drinks like a scene kid from 2010.
That's gross.
Pls stop
#bts#bts tarot#bts reactions#bts imagines#seokjin#jin#min yoongi#min suga#suga#yoongi#hoseok#bts jhope#namjoon#bts rm#rm#jimin#taehyung#jungkook#bts v#tarot
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Just as Michael's about to answer their question, Jason's phone goes off. "Perfect timing," he mutters before going outside to take the call. "Jason Morgan."
"Mr. Morgan, it appears Mr. Renault is at the office demanding to speak with you. What should I do?" One of his employees informs him.
"Cyrus has my number. If he would like to schedule a meeting, tell him he can call me and we'll have one."
"I've already told him that and he won't agree to it."
Dammit. Peace in this town is fragile enough; the last thing they need is an angry Cyrus. He's been unstable as of late, not agreeing to this could lead to a gunfight. Well, that's actually to be expected. "We'll meet at the office in twenty minutes then. Tell him to call off his men, including Brando. Look around the perimeter and have the rest of the guards check to make sure that there's no one on the premises or within range of hitting someone."
"Yes sir," the employee agrees, hanging up the phone.
"Business stuff?" Willow asks cautiously. After all, this is the first time she's been in this situation.
"Yeah," Michael answers, sensing from the businesslike stance he's taken in their kitchen. "Let's go check on the kids."
They leave the room and instantly Carly asks, "What did he do?"
"Demanded we meet. I don't know why or what this is about, so please tell me you didn't do anything stupid that could cost the truce to be undone."
"I haven't done anything. I've considered it, but I haven't done anything yet," she tells him. "How long til the meeting?"
"I've gotta get going. You have to stay here, this doesn't concern you. Cyrus is looking for a fight and you'll give him one. He's looking for any reason to violate the truce and take me out," Jason informs her. "I mean it. No showing up."
"Is it a solo meeting?"
"Yes."
"You want me to sit here and list out the times he's tried to kill you this past year and a half? Jason, you can't got to a meeting alone. You'll get killed!" Carly exclaims.
"No I won't, Carly. I've got it handled, I told you," he says, glancing at his watch.
"Yes you will! You need to stop agreeing to these one on one meetings because one of these days he's going to get you killed and I won't be able to survive that!"
"I told you, I'm not getting killed!"
"Can you predict the future? No, you can't! I know you might want to go and have this meeting but you can't do it alone!"
"I'm going to the meeting, Carly. You are going to stay here with your kids, grandkids, and Willow," he says, voice unbudging. She's not going to win.
"Promise me you'll come back."
"Carly-"
"Promise me, Jason, or you're not going!"
"I promise."
"Fine, you can go," she surrenders, hugging him. "But be safe."
"As safe as I can be, meeting with him," he agrees.
"Alright, well you better go now or you're not going to be able to say goodbye to the kids."
He bids them all goodbye, hugs Carly again, and leaves for the meeting. His gun is on him, as is his cell phone. Though the usefulness of a cell phone is to be questioned when it's a mob meeting he's having. Not like he can exactly call the police if anything happens, they'd arrest him.
Arriving at the office, he senses that today's going to be a long day.
"Hey Harry, is it clear?"
"Yes sir."
"Alright, thanks," he says before walking into the office. "Cyrus. What's so urgent?"
"Well, Sonny's been gone a year now. I was hoping we could revisit us joining together for a way to continue the peace in this town," Cyrus answers.
"Like I told you the day you found out he was missing, that isn't happening. You're not going to run your product through this town and ruin it. This was Sonny's territory and if he's not dead and comes back, it'll be his again. We both agreed no drugs. It's not happening. Is that all?" Jason asks, bored.
"No, actually. I was wondering how Mrs. Corinthos is holding up. Given that this is the anniversary of losing her husband, I'd presume not well."
"None of your damn business."
"No need to get so defensive, I'm merely posing a question. Trying to make conversation."
"If you don't have anything related to business to discuss, my men will escort you out."
"Oh, but I doubt you will," Cyrus says, laughing evilly. "You'll be too dead to even have the chance to get me out of this room." He takes his gun from his pocket rather dramatically for Jason's taste and aims for him.
Drawing his gun himself, the now mob boss ducks, narrowly missing the bullet before firing his own, missing the other mobster by only a few inches. That was on purpose; a warning shot of sorts. "It never occurred to me," the ponytail clad man continues unaffected, "that you'd be so easy to take out. I mean, really. Your reputation is that you're businesslike and directly to the point, but then you've agreed to several meetings with me alone. I was planning on having some fairly difficult plans to kill you, but you've simply fallen into my lap. I do suppose I feel a bit bad, however, that Mrs. Corinthos will have to deal with you being dead as well."
There's a line you just don't cross in business, and that's been crossed. He remembers his promise to not die and snaps into action. "Fire that gun again and I hit you right between the eyes," Jason warns, setting himself up for his shot.
"I sense I've hit a nerve," Cyrus smiles, "mentioning her like that. Tell me, Mr. Morgan, has it ever occurred to you that you're the reason she even knows about this business? With you gone, I suppose she'll be taking it over. Though I don't doubt her, I do doubt her ability to properly run this business. It's doubtful that she'll even make it a few weeks before she's ki-"
Another warning shot goes from Jason's gun, this one only barely above his head. "Last warning, Cyrus. This isn't a game. She's barely involved in this business and you have no right to bring her up when this fight is between us. So drop the gun and get on the ground."
Chuckling as though he doesn't even really believe that he's about to be taken out, Cyrus stupidly continues, "I'll probably send one of my men to kill her, you know. Try to make it painless out of respect for her."
"Talking about me?" Carly asks, walking in with armed guards. She's got the worst timing.
"Yes I was, Mrs. Corinthos. How are you?"
"I'd be better if you were in a casket six feet under," she answers calmly. "Now, put your gun down before I kill you with my bare hands."
Where the fuck did she learn how to do that? He didn't teach her, neither did Sonny. Who did? Not the point, Carly isn't supposed to be here. She's now got the chance to be shot. That would kill him faster than the bullet wound he feels he could get.
"You heard her," Jason says. "Gun down, on the ground."
Turns out that's what needed to be done. The guards with guns pointed at his head doesn't hurt either, he's sure, but Cyrus finally gets on the ground and drops his gun.
"Good. Get Mrs. Corinthos out of here, now," he orders, to her complaints. "Carly, just go."
"I, personally, have nothing against her being here," Cyrus voices.
"You have no say." When Carly leaves, Jason calmly continues, "You mention her name again in front of me and I'll kill you. Talk about your plan to take me out again and you'll be dead. Nothing is changing. This is your last warning. Next time you try to kill me or someone I care about, you'll be dead quicker than you can even move from the scene. Get out."
Angrily, the ponytail clad man leaves, escorted by the guards. Jason then makes sure everyone knows to make sure there's no evidence of what happened, and that there's especially none Carly was ever there before he joins her in her car.
It's a quiet ride, with him firing off orders for his men and her pouting.
"I was right! He wanted you dead! You fell right into his trap!" She exclaimed when they walked into the living room of her house.
"No I didn't! Carly, I had it all under control!"
"Gun pointed at you, Jason! I walked in and there was a gun pointed at you!"
"I had mine pointed at him too! You can't walk into a gunfight!"
"Oh, but you can start one? You can get shot, I can't? Is that how this works?"
"The only reason you'd be shot in general is because of me, Carly! I introduced you to the business, I'm the reason you and Sonny got together, and I'm the reason you're still apart of it. I can deal with getting myself shot, I've survived other bullets before, but I can't deal with you getting shot!"
"I didn't!"
"Yeah, because I kicked you out of there!"
"I brought the guards, I was safe!"
"You walked into a gunfight when I told you it was the stupid thing to do! I told you not to go but you couldn't help yourself, could you, and you went to the meeting."
"You want me to tell you I was wrong and apologize? I'm not gonna do that! You could've been killed! God knows what Sonny's livelihood status is, but yours is alive. Alive, Jason! I'm not risking you dying, alright?"
"I've survived bullets before, I'd survive this one!"
"How do you know that? I need you to stay alive, so I don't care what your feelings are on the subject and I'm not apologizing! If I had to do it again and it was the only option, I'd go unarmed and alone. I would've been shot if it meant saving you from that! Cyrus wants you dead!"
"I wouldn't be able to live with myself if you died because of me! Your kids need their mother! Cyrus wants you dead too and I'll be damned if I let it happen."
"So what, Jason, you'll do the noble thing and die instead of me? That'll kill me. I couldn't breathe when we thought you were dead last time. Imagine how I'd be if I knew I was the one who caused it!"
"You're not dying!" He shouts back, but there's no edge to his tone anymore. He's less pissed. "Not when it's preventable. You're not getting shot either Carly. If I cause your death, I'll hate myself."
"And you think I won't hate myself if I cause yours?"
To be continued after midnight bc I have thing to add to my blog
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Here's a message to make sure you'd wake up with a smile tomorrow. I'll probably still be asleep by the time you'd wake up so that's why I felt like sending you this little, not so little message right now. I already spammed you on snap and send you too many words as well, but idk I still feel like doing this. A couple of months ago I didn't know about your existence. Nowadays you already mean the world to me. You already know the words I'm about to say, bc I've said them several times, but your followers don't. That's another reason this message is written in English while it might just as well have been written in Dutch. We never met even though we might have without knowing at one of the many concerts we went to. Yet I can already say quiet some about you. There's still a lot to discover, but I've been blessed with the chance to get to know you a bit, to learn to understand you a bit, to see how pure your soul is, that you're filled with love, kindness and the right intentions to make others feel better even though you'd like to joke around and be annoying as well. You've got such a big heart and it's entirely made of gold. Idk if it's broken or full of cracks or whatever. All I know is that this heart is so beautiful that mine is saying if anyone tries to hurt her, I'll jump around it to protect that heart. It's a heart I already deeply care for, a heart that shines bright and a heart anyone is lucky to have. Having this girl with this heart in life is a blessing. Whether that's as family, a lover or a friend. We don't know each other for that long, but I already know that you're someone special, someone you just won't find on every corner, someone who's worth anything. If I was L'Oréal I'd be her sponsor, because she's worth it. A beautiful special soul and she's not just a sweetheart, she's also pretty funny and hella cool and not to forget a cutie at times. I'm thankful for her existence and lucky to know her. I hope this little, not so little, message makes her unable to stop smiling. I hope it makes her day start off with a smile after whatever made her go to sleep with something that probably wasn't. So I'm not just telling her, I'm also telling you reading this right now, what an amazing person you're following / have stumbled upon. So if you have any nice words spare for her, don't hesitate and send her an anon, because she deserves those kind words more than anyone.
Even though you said it would never be too much I still hope this ain't too much, since this all is quiet a big thing. It's not like I'd open up like this and send these kinda messages on a daily basis, but right now I felt like I had to, so I did. You're such a beautiful person, both from the outside as from within. So whatever made you mad, know that you're way better than that, know that you're loved, simply for who you are. Never forget that you're such a lovely person and screw those who take that for granted. I'm not a magician nor a superhero (even though I wish and sometimes pretend to be xD), but I'll do whatever I can to keep that heart of yours in the beautiful state it's in. So just keep being you, know you're never alone and start this new day of a new week in a new year off with that bright little smile of yours.
Much love from your friendly neighborhood loser (not Spider-Man and not really from the neighborhood either now I think about it, but well lol), talk to you tomorrow <3
I don’t even know how to answer this. This is just tooo sweet, damn 🥺🥰 I’m sending you all the love there is💜
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text: raquel ⇄ charlie
Raquel: note to self and to you: best steak dinner really is at maestros. Even if it was like really expensive.
Charlie: was that just a note or just a way to tell me we're going there at some point?
Raquel: no, I don't want to go there ever again. It's way too stuck up and it's like every table has people whose life mission is to be an asshole. Really I just thought I'm here and my mom is probably going to pay the bill so why not go for the 100 dollar steak
Raquel: but then she said we should split the bill. So I guess my plan backfired in a way.
Charlie: sounds like that place is filled with people like your mother, for example
Charlie: i'm sorry for the 100 dollars steak, btw
Charlie: i'm just asking this because i have to, but you don't have to answer. do you want to talk about your dinner with your mom?
Raquel: yep all the reptilian people with no souls go there.
Raquel: it's okay. But maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I could get like a to go order of that just so that you could try it.
Raquel: I don't know. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel.
Raquel: it's like no matter what I do, I'm not good enough. It's like she just can't be happy for me. And she always has an opinion on something and I know she is my mom and I have tried so hard being a good daughter and a good person and no matter what it doesn't matter because the bar she sets just keeps on moving. I don't know what to do.
Raquel: and her personal opinions are all completely wrong. I don't know how I came from a person like that or how one person can just be so frustrating. And how can I still want her in my life? It's crazy. But she's my mom.
Charlie: we can go and get steaks for less money and do them at home, babe
Charlie: am i allowed to say she's a shithead?
Charlie: what did she say? what does she want from you now?
Raquel: I would be completely okay with that. The less interaction with that restaurant the better. I was surprised they even let me in.
Raquel: Other than saying she wants to be a part of my life I don't know. She thinks she has a right to have an opinion on everything I do and what my life should look like and I just can't stand it. And I know I'm crazy for wanting her attention and approval but she's all i have other than you.
Raquel: maybe I was better off not having her in my life.
Charlie: yeah, we better not go to a place where the reptilians meet.
Charlie: who cares about that? you're on your way to making it big and you're happy, that's what matters. you shouldn't really care about what she thinks.
Charlie: look, i've been lucky in the parents department and i'm glad neither of them was like yours, but shit, i haven't met her and i don't like her.
Charlie: maybe, but that's up to you. don't people say that family is not necessarily the people who share your blood?
Raquel: promise that if I ever get even a tiny bit diva like that you'll tell me and make sure I never become "that" person.
Raquel: I'm extremely happy. You make me happier than I have been in so long.
Raquel: trust me you aren't winning any points from her either. But that's the one thing I told her I do not care about
Raquel: I guess you're right, that is what they say.
Charlie: i'll tell you and if i have to snap you out of it, i will. i won't let you become your mother
Charlie: you're welcome. you make me really happy too and it's been a while since i was this happy, babe.
Charlie: wait, what do you mean with that? did you tell her about me?
Raquel: Thank you.
Raquel: well good because I plan on making you happy all the time.
Raquel: She asked about Nathan so yeah I told her about you.
Charlie: i like the sound of that. i intend of doing the same
Charlie: so i guess she doesn't like the idea of you being with a poor bartender while you could have Nathan as your fancy boyfriend, right?
Raquel: please don't do that. You're so much more than just a bartender. You're a future business owner and you know i don't care about Nathan. I don't care about money and yeah nathan had a lot of it but that didn't make me happy. My mom is materialistic and vain. Of course she wants me with Nathan, but none of that matters.
Charlie: i know you don't care about the money and shit, but that's what i am right now. i'm broke, i'm a bartender and until i get my chance to get a business that's what i'll be.
Charlie: but i appreciate you telling me i'm more than that and all that shit doesn't matter, i really do
Raquel: I just don't want you thinking that's what I see you as because I don't.
Raquel: did you ever think money did matter to me?
Charlie: i don't think that.
Charlie: nah, money is a nice plus but i never pegged you for that kind of girl. otherwise you'd be with Nathan and not with me, not even like the way we are right now
Raquel: what does that mean? Even the way we are now?
Charlie: we're still lowkey because you haven't broken up with him, right? unless... you did and i didn't get the signs, which wouldn't surprise me.
Raquel: babe, I broke up with Nathan a while ago. I told you I'm all yours and I didn't just mean that emotionally. I meant that completely. There's no more hiding this.
Charlie: are you serious? like, you're being serious right now?
Charlie: now i feel dumb for not seeing the signs.
Raquel: I thought you had already picked up on it.
Raquel: I thought that's why you told me what you did.
Raquel: you're really cute when you're clueless. i just want you to know that.
Raquel: wait so yesterday when we were at my house the whole time I was getting ready where did you think I was going?
Charlie: apparently, i didn't
Charlie: i don't think i'm cute when i'm clueless but thank you?
Charlie: until you mentioned it was with your mother, i was pretty sure you were going to have dinner with Nathan
Raquel: that explains a lot.
Raquel: you can stop thinking that now.
Raquel: You don't have to worry about me dating someone else now or about hiding what we have or about thinking I'm choosing someone over you because I chose you.
Charlie: so, now we don't have to hide, any ideas of where to go?
Raquel: is that your way of saying you want to show me off?
Charlie: that, bc i'm proud of you, and because i want to go out with you now we're not hiding anymore
Charlie: unless you want to take things slow, even if we fuck a lot already, which is the opposite of taking things slow
Raquel: I want to take things at whatever pace you want to take them. I am all for going out. I want to be the one to show you off.
Raquel: let's just do the whole slower thing when we're actually in the bedroom and even then we won't do that every time because most of the time I just need you.
Charlie: so i guess we're going out. are you free later? i have a night off so if you're also free we could, i don't know, grab dinner somewhere.
Charlie: babe, it's impossible for us to go slow in the bedroom, or i'm speaking for myself at least
Raquel: I actually have to work tonight :( how about after I come over to your place and we can just sleep. I have Sunday night free.
Raquel: It's not impossible. Maybe I just have to teach you how to go slow.
Charlie: :(
Charlie: that sounds like a good plan. you can spend the night here, i'd love that
Charlie: then we'll go out on Sunday. think about places you want to go, babe
Charlie: you think? because as much as you can teach me, you know i can't keep my hands to myself around you, and it happens to you too.
Raquel: me waking up next to you sounds like a great plan.
Raquel: I already know where I want to go but I won't tell you until then.
Raquel: I think there is a lot I can still teach you. Even if you can't keep your hands to yourself. I can keep my hands to myself but like the cheesy Selena Gomez song I could but why would I want to when I have the hottest, sexiest and most caring boyfriend?
Charlie: good. i'll stay home and finish one of the books with a drink in hand. if i fall asleep, you know where i keep my spare key
Charlie: oh, surprise me then
Charlie: oh really? what you have to teach me that i haven't taught you already?
Charlie: don't keep them to yourself on my account, you know i like it when you don't do it
Raquel: If I havent said it recently I am so proud of you for sticking with your reading. I'll try not to be too late but don't wait up.
Raquel: you'll be surprised on Sunday.
Raquel: There is a lot I have to teach you. Going slow is just one thing but I have to think of other things for my lesson plans.
Charlie: you say it every now and then, but you don't need to say it. thank you, and i'm very invested in this, which was your idea in first place and you encouraged me to go for it, so i have to thank you for that
Charlie: i'll probably be asleep by then, but i'll stay up for a bit anyways
Charlie: oh yeah? what can you teach me besides that? you can't teach me anything kinky because babe, i'm your teacher in that department
Raquel: I'd like to think that you would have come up with the same idea sooner or later. I just planted the seed earlier on.
Raquel: Just try not to stay up too late okay? I don't want you losing sleep over me.
Raquel: I don't know. You're amazing in the sex department like the best I've ever had but that doesn't mean you know it all. There have to be a few things that you haven't tried yet and want to do with me.
Charlie: still, thank you for doing that. you're so supportive and no one has been that since i arrived here
Charlie: yes ma'am
Charlie: you're welcome for the mindblowing sex, babe
Charlie: then make a list. that will be our kinky list and we'll do all of that
Raquel: well it's not like you aren't supportive of my dreams. It takes a lot for someone to not just say that I'm the millionth girl in la that wants to make acting dreams happen but instead of you blowing that off you actually support me.
Raquel: careful. I actually might start liking the ma'am thing even if it's new.
Raquel: as if my orgasm wasn't enough of a you're welcome.
Raquel: all of it and I can't be the only one adding to that list. And second: the only restriction is no other people. There's no way I'm sharing you. Someone might get clingy.
Charlie: you may be the millionth girl in LA who wants to be an actress, but let me tell you something. you're good and you're really determined, so if someone tells you that, they suck balls
Charlie: add it to the kinky list then.
Charlie: i'll be adding things too. i mean, i'm pretty sure there are kinky things we haven't done yet.
Charlie: i wasn't thinking of having any threesome or anything and sharing you with other people, but that's a good rule to add. that would be too much even for me, and that comes from me. no, i'm not sharing you either.
Raquel: you keep talking like that and you might not need to wait until morning for sex
Raquel: maybe I will. I can go full on dominatrix.
Raquel: there have to be but I guess when I have let you do so much it's hard to think of what else I can let you do to me.
Raquel: so there's no weird voyeurism kink? You din't want to like watch some other guy have sex with me or something weird?
Charlie: so we could have sleepy sex in the middle of the night? then i'm going to bed early, just in case
Charlie: that's something i'd like to see, bring it on.
Charlie: there must be something, we just have to think of what we've done and what we haven't.
Charlie: i won't deny that seeing you with another woman wouldn't turn me on, but i would probably get jealous at some point, so i think i pass
Raquel: lol maybe. Rest up Tiger, I'm keeping you up all night.
Raquel: as long as I don't have to wear actual leather or pleather.
Raquel: i want a lot of things actually. But it looks like I'm going to be doing a bit of online shopping.
Raquel: another woman? It can still be a fantasy for you. What am I doing in this fantasy and why does it have to be a woman?
Charlie: my neighbors are going to kill me if we have loud sex in the middle of the night... not that i care
Charlie: you could wear a garbage bag and you'd look hot
Charlie: online shopping? now i'm curious
Charlie: i don't know, it was a hot fantasy i woke up to a few weeks after we met. one in which you're making out with one. then you were naked, and then you were fucking her.
Charlie: still, i have no intentions of sharing you with no one, not even a woman.
Raquel: well it's a good thing I don't care about your neighbors at all. This should remind her that you're mine.
Raquel: well garbage bags aren't really what dominatrixes wear so I have to actually get into character babe.
Raquel: mhmm. I want vibrators and a swing and whatever else just magically ends up in my cart.
Raquel: you were having fantasies about me weeks after we met?
Raquel: you totally had a crush on me.
Raquel: good thing I don't want anyone else. You're mine and I'm not afraid to admit that sometimes I get jealous.
Charlie: she should know that already at this point from all the noise we make when we fuck
Charlie: get whatever you want, babe. you'd look hot with everything you choose to wear.
Charlie: you want a sex swing? where would we keep it, babe? are we getting a room for sex toys or what?
Charlie: hey, i was a horny fuckboy who only thought about sex. now i'm just a horny guy who thinks about sex most of the time.
Charlie: and i wasn't crushing, pls
Charlie: good, because i only want you and i can't wait to show you that while we're going out and in bed
Raquel: it doesn't hurt to keep reminding her.
Raquel: I haven't worked out the logistics of where everything would go but no I'm not getting a room just for toys. That would require actually moving.
Raquel: my reformed fuckboy who luckily gets sex most of the time he wants it.
Raquel: you totally were. You had a crush on me. It's okay to admit it.
Raquel: I already do see that. You have a job where you easily could look somewhere else. You have a hot neighbor who wants you. You didn't have to put up with all my crazy or with me being with Nathan. You waited for me and weren't with anyone else and I know it doesn't sound like a lot but it is because like you said you were different before and I know that's scary to think of how much you've changed and I wasn't saying that so that you could freak out. I was saying that because I know before I was insane and jealous and neurotic even but I know now that you only want me and I don't think you realize how much that means to me and I'm going to do whatever it takes to keep proving to you that you're the only person I want too.
Charlie: nope, it doesn't. in fact i love how we do that
Charlie: who do i have to thank because we're not getting our personal red room? because that would be creepy
Charlie: that happens because i know how to get it and because you want lots of sex too. i'm a lucky bastard.
Charlie: oh please, you were the one who had a crush on me, i was the one who wanted to get in your pants
Charlie: babe, it was worth it. you were worth that and more. i could have easily given up at some point, but i didn't because i knew there was something good at the end of it. and i waited and i don't regret it at all. you don't have to prove anything to me because you already did.
Raquel: the fact that you even know what the term red room is is a little scary. That isn't happening. We aren't like completely nymphomaniacs
Raquel: not my fault. I just think you're extremely good looking. Very lucky.
Raquel: No. I liked you, there is a difference. Crushing is like having fantasies and maybe even picturing us together but at the time I didn't really want that. I didn't want to get near you because I figured there was no way I wasn't just going to be a notch on your belt.
Raquel: we are in so much trouble with this love and romance thing.
Charlie: i don't live under a rock. but yeah, not happening. the toys will stay in the bedroom, like normal people has them
Charlie: oh, so it's mostly my face what gets me sex, huh?
Charlie: you can have a sexual fantasy and not have a crush on a person, babe. if that was true, then i'd have had a crush on every girl i had my eye on for a fuck, and trust me, that wasn't the case
Charlie: well, you knew how to work around that and look at us now.
Charlie: so you were trying to not have a crush on me, huh?
Charlie: yep, we've been so fucked up at this, or at least i'm speaking for myself
Raquel: either that or you've been overhearing lots of conversations from horny 40 year olds obsessed with their own Christian Grey.
Raquel: your eyes if I'm being completely honest.
Raquel: okay, true.
Raquel: I figured I'd get hurt in the end so yeah, I tried not having feelings for you. And even after we slept together I thought that that was it.
Raquel: nope, it looks like both of us weren't good at this to begin with but that's okay because the whole fairytale romance thing is overrated anyway.
Charlie: the day i looked him up on the internet bc a few ladies were talking about it while i was working... he's a piece of shit
Charlie: that's good to know
Charlie: well, it's a good thing you ended up having them
Charlie: yeah, that doesn't really exist, right? a relationship has its up and downs and nothing is perfect
Raquel: you and your research. Entitled rich guy with abusive tendencies along with being a full on rapist. Yeah, he's horrible. And unfortunately I know a few people who are him in training.
Raquel: a good thing only because it worked out for us in the end. Otherwise I would have had to stand by and watch you with any girl that gave you the eye.
Raquel: even now there might be ups and downs. I don't want it to be perfect. I just want us to keep working together and just not give up on each other like we did before.
Charlie: i regret looking it up. i have to admit i'm a kinky person, but as i said, that guy is a piece of shit.
Charlie: that would be awkward and i guess you didn't like to see me flirting with them. i guess you won't like it now, even if i do it for the tips
Charlie: it won't, i'm pretty sure. it doesn't have to be perfect and no, i won't give up like we did when we broke up. promise me you won't either
Raquel: you're kinky but you aren't abusive and you've never made me do something I haven't wanted to do. You're nothing like him.
Raquel: I understand why you would flirt but you're right. I don't have to like it. I just know that it's something that comes with your job. Just like how I hope you understand that what I want to do and that me becoming an actress can mean that sometimes I might have to kiss or pretend to be in love with someone else.
Raquel: I promise.
Charlie: i promise to not become that
Charlie: i do understand that. i won't exactly like it but i'll have to suck it up. besides, i know all of that will be fake and that i'll be the one getting all of that and more
Charlie: good
Charlie: going back to our kinky list, i came up with an idea i want to add, but i need to ask you something
Raquel: Oh, trust me. Just like how you said you wouldn't let me become my mom there's no way I'm letting you become anyone other than yourself.
Raquel: so you won't get jealous? Now even seeing me at work and maybe having to flirt too?
Raquel: okay. What do you have to ask?
Charlie: then we have a deal. we won't let the other become someone else.
Charlie: i can't promise anything yet, but i'll work on it. all i know is that i'm the one you kiss and fuck after all
Charlie: how do you feel about being filmed? like, when you're touching yourself or when you have sex
Raquel: not in a million years. You're stuck being the same person or at least growing with me and not regressing into a horrible human being.
Raquel: and I con promise that no matter what no matter who might like me you're the one person I want and the one person who I'll come home to every night.
Raquel: I don't know hot to answer that.
Raquel: I trust you and I know that we could but I have to keep my future in mind. Someone gets a hold of a sex tape and my career can be over before it even starts. It doesn't mean i don't want to. Do you really want to? What would you do with it? Just keep it?
Charlie: yes, ma'am
Charlie: i like the sound of that. i won't really know how will i feel when you kiss someone else, but that's your job, but all i know is that i'll be proud of you because you'll do a good job
Charlie: yeah, that would be unfortunate. i asked you because i know things like that could happen.
Charlie: well, i think it's hot and it would be good material for lonely nights, but that's up to you. i would never make you do something you don't want to, especially because your job could be in jeopardy if someone leaks it
Charlie: i would keep a copy to jerk off to it whenever you're off somewhere to film whatever gig you land. i would send you one too, but that's it.
Raquel: well I don't want to say hopefully you'll find out soon but I do have an audition in a week for a " Ex Machina meets Silicon Valley." indie film about love i mn the modern age. I don't even know what half of it means but I just know they want me to read for the lead.
Raquel: I know, and I love that you asked instead of just putting a camera in front of me when it was go time.
Raquel: lonely night? Are you already planning on having a lot of those? And what if there's a project that's for a long period of time? Would you stay here?
Charlie: sounds interesting, you'll do it great! do you have to leave LA or something?
Charlie: i could have already installed a camera, but no, i prefer to ask you first
Charlie: well, depends on what do you want. do you want me to go with you every time you get a movie, even if it's for a short period of time?
Raquel: Well the listing just said that it would film in various places but mostly in LA. They're sending me my reading tonight
Raquel: maybe you could install the camera, or whatever you want to record me on.
Raquel: I want you to do whatever you want to do. I just know that if i have to be gone for a long time that it'll be hard on me. I miss you when I have to go to work. How am I supposed to survive like weeks of filming sometimes? And that's if it's just a movie. What if I get like a tv show? I never want to leave la. I know that but maybe if it's for a short period of time leaving you to yourself would be a good thing. I just don't want to have to go weeks without seeing my boyfriend.
Charlie: nah, that's creepy. i'm not the kind of guy who install cameras to spy on girlfriends. if we do this, i want you to give me your full consent.
Charlie: if anything, i could film myself getting off and send you videos as an alternative, although that isn't the same.
Charlie: well, if it's not for longer than a day or two i could stay here, but if it's for longer i would definitely go with you. i'd miss you too.
Charlie: we have skype and facetime in case i can't go with you, but let's hope we don't have to use them often
Raquel: It's not like you have had many girlfriends but yes this is me saying we can do this but we have to be really careful.
Raquel: that wouldn't be the same thing and maybe that's more for like snapchat or something.
Raquel: really? A day or two is all you can go without me?
Raquel: how about I promise that if my shoots take longer than a week or two that I'll fly back somehow just to spend time with you. You'll never have to go without me for too long. And I'll always talk to you before I take a long job because we're a team and I can't just make decisions for the both of us.
Charlie: you get my point, but yeah. we have to be careful when we do this because the last thing i want to do is to ruin your career. this will be for personal uses, because i'm pretty sure we look hot as fuck while fucking and it's better than porn
Charlie: well, i'm down to send you videos of me masturbating on those nights when you're away, if that's what you want
Charlie: well, more or less. maybe three days or four
Charlie: that sounds fair. i mean, we'd have to talk about it like you said to see if it works for us, but yeah, we can do that
Raquel: okay we can do it even if I don't really understand because when I'm away is when you can actually watch as much porn as you really want.
Raquel: I'd want videos. Even if all they'll do is make me want you even more.
Raquel: Okay I think I can only do four days too.
Raquel: and when you open the bar that takes priority no matter what. No exceptions.
Charlie: not all porn is good, babe. there are crappy videos and i prefer to see my girl naked
Charlie: then you'll get videos of me, naked and getting off while thinking of you, cock in hand. that's the purpose of it. that and making you want to touch yourself
Charlie: of course, babe. maybe i could get out for a couple of days and that's it, but our baby will get the attention.
Charlie: i mean, the bar. because it'll be somewhat ours.
Raquel: but some porn is. Not that I'm pushing you to watch. I actually think it's sweet that you'd rather watch us than anyone else.
Raquel: and I'm supposed to last at least four days just thinking about you and only touching myself?
Raquel: No, the bar will be yours. Your name, your business. I just support you in whatever way I can. It'll be your baby and I'll just watch my baby run it.
Raquel: and I know what you meant. You didn't have to clarify the whole baby thing because there's no way either one of us is thinking of a baby any time.
Charlie: i may watch any, we'll see about it
Charlie: probably. i think you'll survive without my tongue and cock. think about how hot will be the sex once we see each other again. plus, the thought of you getting off because i'm not there is hot
Charlie: i was hoping you would be somewhere in the papers and all the shit i'll have to go through, but i appreciate it too. all the help is welcome
Charlie: yeah, because when you become an actress and i own a bar, it'll be nearly impossible to raise a kid, or at least that's how i see it now
Raquel: porn is your only way you can really think about another woman so if I were you I'd take as much porn action as I can get.
Raquel: I'm not really one for delayed gratification. Cuming by myself isn't the same as when you make me do it.
Raquel: okay I'll be on whatever you need me to be on but I just want you to know that this is yours and your bar and me are the two things in life that are completely yours.
Raquel: even when we're both settled and have our careers it would be hard. I don't know if that's something I'm ready for at any time of my life.
Charlie: i'll look for good porn then and i'll think of you, that way i'll be inspired to add things to our kinky list
Charlie: then i'll give you two orgasms for each orgasm you get by yourself, and for each time you don't reach it i'll make it up for it.
Charlie: you and my bar are mine. fuck, that sounds even beautiful
Charlie: i think neither of us will be ready for it.
Raquel: so even then you aren't going to be thinking of other girls?
Raquel: so whenever I go away and do come back I should just clear my schedule for a week is what you're saying?
Raquel: yep me and your bar. Yours forever.
Raquel: so we're on the same page. No kids for us.
Charlie: i'll try not to, but i'll try to focus on how hot is my girlfriend and how much i want her naked while i watch porn
Charlie: do you watch any and think of me?
Charlie: not for a week, but at least for a whole day so i can fuck you and make up for all the days i didn't
Charlie: i love it. i love you
Charlie: exactly. no kids for us. never.
Raquel: well if you do that's completely okay.
Raquel: nope not at all. When I watch I'm totally thinking about one of the famous chris' duh.
Raquel: if you think you can make up for everything in one day you really must not get how much and how often I think about you.
Raquel: I love you too. So much and I'm so glad we're on the same page. I don't think that's something I would have been able to compromise on and not being able to give you something you wanted would have killed me. I want to give you everything you've ever wanted.
Charlie: should i be offended, babe? tell me about which one of them at least
Charlie: i'll probably need the whole day and at least next morning to do that, but what if you just have one day to see me?
Charlie: me too. i don't want to pressure you to do anything you don't want to, whether it is something kinky or something as big as having a baby. i wouldn't be able to live with that
Raquel: well there's Hemsworth and sometimes Evans but honestly it's rare. I don't think you can get offended because it's not like I have them and chances are they aren't as good in bed to begin with.
Raquel: if I just have one day then idk I might just have to leave sexually frustrated.
Raquel: trust me, you have never pressured me to do something I didn't want to do. You've supported me and been in my corner even when i was with someone else. And if you ever feel like I'm pressuring you with anything I want you to tell me.
Charlie: i happen to think i'm prettier than those guys
Charlie: if i ever let you leave my apartment and you're sexually frustrated that means i didn't do a good job at satisfying you
Charlie: i will let you know, and you haven't pressured me to do anything either, so you're good
Raquel: of course you would.
Raquel: that just means I would never leave your apartment because me being completely satisfied of you is never really going to happen.
Raquel: I have to go flirt with skeezy old men now but enjoy your reading. I love you and I'll see you later tonight.
Charlie: don't you agree with that? i mean, they're hot, but
Charlie: i can at least satisfy you enough to survive until the next time
Charlie: ouch, that sucks, but hopefully that will be over soon.
Charlie: see you later, although i'll be asleep by the time you're here
Raquel: but they're not you. Yes I agree.
Raquel: okay maybe that's true because if not we really would never leave and we'd just have to live off sex and sunshine.
Raquel: rest up. I'm already planning on keeping you up all night so see ya later.
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