#but yeah. my little guyyyy

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sorry for xiaolin posting on main but ummmmm here is my interpretation of like. a Shadow-like character that would be in my version of a xiaolin showdown sequel LOL. but like ignoring every weird ass thing that was happening with Shadow. so uhh here's Shade, he's basically like... the personification of Chase Young's hatred for his past self. Shade is kind, caring, considerate, but also quiet + reserved due to how Chase treats them. it was a total accident how he came to be. they really should not exist but they do! oopsie! btw they resent Omi bc of Chase wanting him as his apprentice and yadda yadda Shade wishes they could be a family whatever. anyways yeha i <3 them he's baby

[kingassblast]

drew a little vault boy for me to just print out and stick on varying surfaces

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AUUUUUUGH! I miss my little guy your honor!! I miss him so damn much!!!

[thatlenguy]

my artistic journey has been all over the fucking place. i have changed so much. i didnt actually do any digital art until like 4 years ago so i tried to recreate my traditional look with the first one.

original template by sap goodman on twitter!

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[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

My gosh this is beautiful and I have to reply because this is EXACTLY why I project onto him so much (a Very Healthy reason I know. When I first read Les Mis, I cried, bc I have felt exactly that pang). Ten million percent agreed with everything you said above!

I love your point about Cosette and Marius bringing up his (long-buried) feelings of envy: the tragic irony is, Jean Valjean--so often defined by his one act of theft--feels, himself, robbed.

Because ultimately, underneath it all, Valjean has a desperate desire for love--total, enduring love. Every time Jean Valjean has allowed himself to be truly known, people have immediately turned on him; all the goodwill he's built up over years of charity and suffering fades immediately. He feels that he will always be abandoned. So he's desperate for someone to stay. What first allows him to love Cosette is her helplessness: he is her savior, so she cannot leave him. And because of how enmeshed his identity is with Cosette, becoming anything less than her everything is a brutal extraction for him. He believes, since it is all he has known, that love is total and all-consuming; therefore, he believes Cosette can only really love one person, just as he only loved her, and that person (by Right™) is Marius now. After all he has gone through, and all he has done, he feels abandoned once again--even though Cosette may still claim she loves him--because he is not her everything, so he is nothing. And that literally kills him.

Valjean's perceived abandonment by Cosette is so devastating to him because in a way, he uses Cosette as a stand-in for God. He has never believed God could love him--in fact, even in the convent, he's described as kneeling before the sister "as though afraid to kneel directly before God." He has never allowed himself to see himself as anything other than the "miserable man" he was at the start of the story. And how could God love that? Instead, he finds Cosette, who is initially desperate and has no other choice but to rely on him (and he believes as soon as she does have a choice, or if she learns who he really is, she will leave him), and uses her as the foundation of his identity. She's also the center of his virtue; with someone to care for, to sacrifice for, maybe he can earn God's love somehow. And if someone so pure could love him, maybe there was something in him that could be loved. So of course when she begins to love someone else, Valjean crumbles--her love felt secure because it was desperate, but now she can choose. And he could never imagine anyone, including God, loving him willingly.

But I love Les Mis because he's wrong!!!! He's wrong about that, and he's wrong about himself, and he's wrong about what love is!! And the story tells him so!!!

From the start of the story to the end, God has always been with him, guiding his path. The narration throughout the story makes it clear--he even recognizes "the hand of Providence" in guiding him to the bishop and the convent, in bringing him finally to the trial to save the innocent man; to stumble upon Cosette in the woods was no coincidence, nor was it chance that Cosette and Marius found him (because they were looking for him!! Because they love him!!!) right before he died. He has always been loved, wholly and forever, even in the midst of his sin and suffering.

It's a love that knows him fully, and endures.

And I love that his story ends with that.

Jean Valjean's Canon Toxic Unhealthiness around Romantic Love

( alternate titles: “Does Jean Valjean is Gay?”, or “Does Jean Valjean is Asexual?” Or: “Why is it so difficult to slap an identity/sexuality label onto Jean Valjean?” Or “LGBTPTSD+”)

I was looking at the responses to this poll about whether people interpret Jean Valjean as gay/asexual/straight or something else….and it got me thinking again about Jean Valjean’s canonical intense, complex, awful, toxic, and overwrought emotions around identity/ romantic love. I want to talk about that for a bit because I think it often gets overlooked in fandom!

I've noticed that Les Mis fandom/analysis often tends to interpret Jean Valjean as being far more content, more "at peace with himself," and more "comfortable in his own skin" than he ever is within the novel. This is also a common change in adaptations. The musical's version of Jean Valjean is great-- but he also seems a lot more self-actualized, more like he's gotten himself completely "figured out" by the end of the story. Other, bad, Les Mis adaptations — the adaptations that generally portray Jean Valjean a worse more violent person — also usually make Jean Valjean more confident in himself, more confident in his own feelings/desires, more certain that he’s entitled to certain things, and more willing to demand or take what he wants.

But one major aspect of book Jean Valjean's personality is that he does not have a healthy relationship with anything about himself. He has a tortured broken relationship with his own identity. He repeatedly thinks about “Jean Valjean” as a person outside of himself, a person who he finds frightening, repulsive, savage, and horrible— like a wild animal he needs to sedate, or beat into submission. He is obsessed with self-denial and self-repression. He is fixated on the idea that he is subhuman, that he is not allowed to want things or to pursue having any kinds of relationships with other people-- and that the most heroic thing he can do is "grab himself by the collar” and violently force himself to stay away from the things he wants. He is desperate to be loved and fixated on being unworthy of love and on denying himself love. He is absolutely not at peace with his identity: to paraphrase Jean Valjean in one of the later chapters, he believes he can only gain inner peace by “eviscerating his own entrails.”

He is never truly content with who he is, what he wants, or what kind of love he wants— and he never learns to be. The novel ends with him cutting himself off from his only family, breaking ties with the only person who loves him, and essentially slowly killing himself out of self-loathing.

There are other characters in Les Mis who seem very content with who they are and what they want. Enjolras is self-assured in his identity, and doesn’t appear to feel like there is any kind of love that is missing from his life. Whether you interpret him as gay or ace or trans or w/e, book!Enjolras is written as someone who is extremely self-assured and has a loving support system that is enough to keep him happy. But I don’t think that’s true for Jean Valjean at all XD.

And that’s why it's hard to apply labels like “aromantic” or “ace” or gay/straight/etc to Jean Valjean, when talking about his canon characterization. Those labels imply the person has a basic level of comfort with acknowledging their own desires/lack of desire/identity. And Jean Valjean never achieves that level of comfort. What “label” do you give to someone whose relationship with their identity is “I do not belong in a family, I have no right to want things, I have no right to be happy, I am outside of life, and I will never be at peace until I eviscerate my own entrails?” Is there a “self-disembowelment" pride flag? XD I've seen a lot of interpretations that go "Jean Valjean never expresses any interest in romance, he's perfectly content just to have his relationship with his daughter" but I honestly don't think that's true. Jean Valjean tries to content himself with having only Cosette. But part of why everything explodes so catastrophically in the end of the novel is because he needs more than just a paternal relationship. He doesn’t try to have a “normal” father-daughter relationship with Cosette, he tries to force his relationship with Cosette to be literally everything and everyone to him, for her to be his entire world: and it doesn’t work.

There’s a passage in the novel that talks about how all the love Valjean is capable of ends up being suppressed/sublimated into his relationship with Cosette. The love of a brother, of a friend, of a father, of a husband, the love of everything he is capable of, gets repressed so that he can throw every part of himself into being a father. There are Bad les mis adaptations that incorrectly misinterpret that passage to mean that Jean Valjean is incestuous/grooming Cosette. But in context, that’s not what the passage means at all.

The passage specifies very explicitly that Jean Valjean “did not love Cosette otherwise than as a father,” that “no marriage was possible between them,” that his feelings for her are absolutely paternal. But the passage does show how Jean Valjean is doing a very different unhealthy thing: he’s relying on Cosette to fill every single emotional void in his life.

He’s relying on parenthood to fill the grief/emptiness left behind by all the other kinds of love that he has wanted, but never been given.

To quote a bit of that passage:

Jean Valjean did not love Cosette otherwise than as a father (…) Let the reader recall the situation of heart which we have already indicated. No marriage was possible between them; not even that of souls; and yet, it is certain that their destinies were wedded. With the exception of Cosette, that is to say, with the exception of a childhood, Jean Valjean had never, in the whole of his long life, known anything of that which may be loved. The passions and loves which succeed each other had not produced in him those successive green growths, tender green or dark green, which can be seen in foliage which passes through the winter and in men who pass fifty. In short, and we have insisted on it more than once, all this interior fusion, all this whole, of which the sum total was a lofty virtue, ended in rendering Jean Valjean a father to Cosette. A strange father, forged from the grandfather, the son, the brother, and the husband, that existed in Jean Valjean; a father in whom there was included even a mother; a father who loved Cosette and adored her, and who held that child as his light, his home, his family, his country, his paradise.

Jean Valjean reminds me of a Failmode I’ve seen in a lot of different real-life parents? There are parents who cope with their own hard lives by telling themselves that parenthood is their sole reason for being alive, and who obsess over their child’s success as their only source of purpose, meaning, love, happiness, community, and validation. But it’s a bad idea to rely on one child to provide the emotional support that should be shared by friends, parents, siblings, every possible loved one, etc etc—- One child can’t actually heal you from your trauma, be a replacement for your broken relationships, pull you out of your grief, save you from your adult loneliness, etc etc etc etc.

When I see the common interpretation that Jean Valjean is perfectly content just to be the father of Cosette, I think of this line:

Thus when he saw that the end had absolutely come, that she was escaping from him, that she was slipping from his hands, that she was gliding from him, like a cloud, like water, when he had before his eyes this crushing proof: “another is the goal of her heart, another is the wish of her life; there is a dearest one, I am no longer anything but her father, I no longer exist”; when he could no longer doubt, when he said to himself: “She is going away from me!” the grief which he felt surpassed the bounds of possibility. To have done all that he had done for the purpose of ending like this! And the very idea of being nothing!

On one hand, the terrible Les mis adaptations that portray Valjean as Incest Creep are incorrect and wrong. On the other hand, though, Jean Valjean IS unhealthy about Cosette— just in a different and actually sympathetic way.

He has made fatherhood his only purpose, to replace every other purpose he could have in life. So he can’t be “just Cosette’s father.” He can’t imagine her becoming an adult and leaving the nest, like children do. What does he have if he’s not taking care of her? What is his purpose in life if she doesn’t need him to be her parent? He's not just being her father, he's relying on her to be his entire reason to exist. He hasn't been allowing himself to have things outside of her.

And speaking of things outside of Cosette: segue time. This post was supposed to be about Jean Valjean and romance, so let's switch gears and talk about his canon 'romantic experiences' more:

We’re told that in his youth he “never had a sweetheart” because he “never had time to be in love.” There is no indication that Jean Valjean never wanted to be in love. The opposite is implied. Hugo frames it as a tragedy that Jean Valjean’s does not experience young love; it’s the horror of poverty taking yet another thing from him.

Within prison, Valjean is “gloomy” and “chaste;” when he traumadumps to Montparnasse about it, he talks about women looking on galley slaves with horror and disgust. Romance, at least “normal” heterosexual romance, is no longer something that is permitted for him. Jean Valjean knows very little about romance/love/sex and it repeatedly messes up his life. He spends 19 years in the all-male environment of prison, then about a decade in the almost-all-female environment of the convent. He has very little experience with how men and women are supposed to interact. The oppression Fantine faces as a sex worker, and Cosette's relationship with Marius, are both two big 'blind spots' that he struggles with.

At one point romantic love is described as “The only misery Jean Valjean had not yet experienced, and the only one that is sweet.”

In his massive confession to Marius, he agonizes over how he is not allowed to be part of a family, and is incapable of being part of a home. He compares himself to someone sick and diseased, that poisons good and normal people with his presence, and cannot be allowed to make himself part of their families.

So Jean Valjean doesn’t frame Romance as “a thing he doesn’t want:” it’s a thing “he is not allowed to want,” it is one of the many things he is banned from wanting. It's impossible to tell what kind of things he would want, if he were allowed to want them.

One of the most interesting things to me, however, is his general attitude towards Marius/Cosette.

Obviously his first reaction to Marius snooping around is fear and resentment— he doesn’t know to interact with romance, having never experienced it, and immediately begins catastrophizing. He views Marius as a privileged booby ruining his life for something as frivolous as a love affair: it reads to me as partially envy, envy of the fact that Marius lives the kind of safe comfortable life that allows him to experience young love.

Jean Valjean added: “What does he want? A love affair! A love affair! And I? What! I have been first, the most wretched of men, and then the most unhappy, and I have traversed sixty years of life on my knees, I have suffered everything that man can suffer, I have grown old without having been young, I have lived without a family, without relatives, without friends, without life, without children, I have left my blood on every stone, on every bramble, on every mile-post, along every wall, I have been gentle, though others have been hard to me, and kind, although others have been malicious, I have become an honest man once more, in spite of everything, I have repented of the evil that I have done and have forgiven the evil that has been done to me, and at the moment when I receive my recompense, at the moment when it is all over, at the moment when I am just touching the goal, at the moment when I have what I desire, it is well, it is good, I have paid, I have earned it, all this is to take flight, all this will vanish, and I shall lose Cosette, and I shall lose my life, my joy, my soul, because it has pleased a great booby to come and lounge at the Luxembourg.”

But, even though Jean Valjean views romance as something he isn’t allowed or have or to want, views it as a threat and catastrophizes over how it will ruin his life……he seems to also put heterosexual romance on a pedestal.

The way Jean Valjean idealizes marriage is one of his weirdest character notes for me.

He views marriage as Cosette’s “happy ending.” It’s her “happily ever after” point where she won’t need him anymore, where she won’t need anyone outside of her husband. A Man And a Woman Are Meant to Get Married, It's Fate, and It Means They Will Live Happily Together Forever. Marius is “the goal of her heart, the wish of her life; her dearest one.” Nothing outside of that matters anymore.

He treats her marriage as if romantic love is inherently always more important than any kind of platonic relationships, and always takes priority over them. He later dismisses the unconventional family structure he has with Cosette, saying that despite his love for her he was only a "passerby" and was not actually her real father, because they were not biologically related.

There's a moment where Jean Valjean is described as someone whose ideal is to be angel on the inside and a bourgeois on the outside. Jean Valjean's worship of bourgeois social norms, norms he can never truly be a part of, is one of his character flaws. He has a similar "guard dog" energy as Eponine does when she defends Rue Plumet from her parents.....Eponine and Jean Valjean both become the guard dogs of a kind of romantic relationship they believe they are banned from having. Jean Valjean believes that getting Happily Straight Married in a Middle-Class Home with a Picket Fence(tm) is the ideal path for life....but believes himself broken/incapable of ever following that path. And so he instead throws his entire life into securing that future for Marius and Cosette.

In what manner was Jean Valjean to behave in relation to the happiness of Cosette and Marius? It was he who had willed that happiness, it was he who had brought it about; he had, himself, buried it in his entrails, and at that moment, when he reflected on it, he was able to enjoy the sort of satisfaction which an armorer would experience on recognizing his factory mark on a knife, on withdrawing it, all smoking, from his own breast. Cosette had Marius, Marius possessed Cosette. They had everything, even riches. And this was his doing.

TL: DR:

Jean Valjean's gender/sexuality label is “idk but he’s super fucked up about it.”

[liliadrawingstuff]

Please take this Post with satire. I am just ascendingly screaming over the Faba Bio Leak. I waited for this moment to happen and actually gave it up but damn. I WASNT READY FOR THIS AHAHAHA

SMALL DISCLAIMER: I want to clarify. I see those leaked things not as canon. Just as his base idea that they changed through development. But. I am just going to act like as If this would be canon in this post.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN BLACK OR BLONDE HAIR. BLACK HAIR FABA WAS AN OPTION?

ey he is 165 cm... That's. THATS LITERALLY THE EXACT HEIGHT I THOUGHT OF HIM AS LMAOOOOOOO. WHATTTTTTT look at my pinned post for proof 🫵🏻 SMALL LITTLE GUYYYY AAAGHHH.

53 years old pretty much fits. I headcanoned him as mid 40's to begin 50's so hell yeah!! Old man!!

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But. One question is.

WHO IS YOUR WIFE AND CHILD. 🫵🏻 WHO IS YOUR WIFE AND CHILD. WHY ARE YOU MARRIED. (I would love to meet them. Maybe.) WHOOOOOOO!!!!! THOOOOO!! WHO WOULD MARRY YOU???? (ahum...yea) I have to headcanon that his concept wife is either just as toxic as him or a poor woman he treats badly. Well I prefer the first hc in that case.

SPEAKING OF TREATING WOMEN BADLY!! THIS DANG ASS MISOGYNIST. PAHAHA. I love how they clarify "opposite Sex" but not same sex? Is this guy a misogynistic closeted gay?? He can have fights with the 1 or 2 misandrist Lesbians on Xitter and get obliterated.

I love that they went with arrested and fired for his ending. He can join Team Plasma in the Anime Jail. (So that's how he met Colress!! okno) but I think it's very cute that in the end they all gave him a second chance in most medias. (Besides the Manga...I guess ahum ahum)

Germanic descent? Still vibe with him as French/Kalosian more but him shouting angrily in German would be SOMETHING. I can see that now so much.... Maybe he is French German after all who knows. Kinda fits. (also my pride of being German just highered itself by 0.0001 %). German region when where we meet Fabas Wife and traumatized Child with awful parents.

The fact he is described super kind to Lusamine is actually very fun. Just sliming himself up the career ladder. I have urges to slap him real bad because all of this //affec

"But thanks to the Aether Foundation he gets great powerful pokemon" IF THAT WOULD BE CANON THEY ONLY GAVE HIM A HYPNO WHAT DO YOU MEAN. And lend him more pokemon afterwards so he can battle you as champion? Would be funny. But yeah. I stand with the HC that all of his mons all have a special reason to be in his team and why he is with them.

But the "his hobby is sexual harassment" cought me so off guard. I can't help but laugh about it. It sounds so bad. The bad wording probably kills me. FABA PLEASE. FOR THINKING USE YOUR BRAIN!! NOT SMTH ELSE. YOU DICKHEAD.

Also it was planned that he gets a watch.... Guy had to show off his rich kid watch surely to impress others.

God damn I want to hit him so hard //affec

I wanna draw a bit related to the leaks as a joke and then come back to answer messages and look what horrors yall think of this ajehdbka

Xenley is preparing her fists because she will be allowed to beat him up.

Lilac is gonna get the first aid and tells him everything will be fine and that this is just a nightmare.

[obsidiancreates]

Just Another Day In The Dimwood

"How the hell did we end up back here?!" Booker whispers furiously to Grumley.

"I dunno," Grumley whispers back, almost whimpering. "We just ran and here we are!"

"Whatever Bitsy's going for in that hutch better be worth this." Booker takes a deep breath. "Okay, just this one last time. One last distraction in this godforsaken clearing and then we're never coming back here again!"

"Never?"

"Never, Grumley. Not even for all the gold in the Dimwood."

"Wow. Alright, one more distraction." Grumley looks down at the powder Peggy had given him before she, Hazel, and Bitsy had sprinted off into the woods. "I won't die, right?"

"I sure hope not, but it's Peggy, so I can't really confirm or deny that as a possibility."

"Well... here goes." Grumley shoves the powder in his mouth and takes a swig of the bottle Peggy had also given him. He coughs a little as thick foam begins to spill out from his jowl-covered mouth.

"Holy shit, it worked- I mean HELP! HEEEELP, OH GODS, THERE'S A-A RABID DOG! AHHHHHHHH!" Booker dashes into the main clearing, gathering as much attention as possible away from the party that had moments ago been readied to investigate why Smoke could be seen coming from that horrid hutch the heretic once lived in.

Grumley chases after Booker, growling and snarling as scarily as he can! He chases him all around the clearly, but the two keep a tight pattern around the path out of town towards Bitsy's old house. Mice and rabbits and cats and dogs alike all scream, chaos spreading as cries of "RABIES!" fill the air!

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"Oh, Bitsy! You didn't tell us you had cookies left in your house!" Hazel yanks the jar out of the old slightly-singed cupboard and begins wolfing them down without a second thought.

"To be fair we thought it'd burned down because she left the woodstove lit when we ran away before," Peggy says, looking through Bitsy's bookshelf which contains no books, but lots of jars of herbs.

"We did?" Bitsy herself is digging through the ashes inside said stove.

"You said you left it on, yeah."

"Wow. Well how didn't it burn down? Did you save my Hutch, Creator?"

"I must have." Peggy kicks over a bucket clearly left by the firefighting brigade that obviously came and stopped the fire so it wouldn't burn the entire clearing down. "What're we lookin' for again?"

"Is it that mysterious chest you told us about that first night?" Hazel asks as she finishes the jar of cookies. "Ooooh, scones!"

"No, not that." Bitsy moves on to look under the bed. "I'm lookin' for my best chewin' stick!"

"We're here for a stick?" Peggy pauses, then shrugs. "Just don't tell Booker, he might have an aneurysm."

"What's an Anne-your-eseem?"

"It's like your brain poppin' in your skull."

"Wow... I get that all the time!"

"I think that's just bubbles in your ears, Bitsy. I get it too when I-I climb really high and come back down."

"But I don't climb!"

"You do run real fast though, sort of the same thing. ... Somehow."

"I learn so much with you all."

"Well we're a very knowledgeable and well-learned bunch. What's this jar full of?"

"Poppy seeds. If you work with 'em the right way they make you all sleepy and relaxed and not in pain anymore."

"Oh, is that what this liquid next to them is?"

"Yeah!"

"Hazel just drank half the jar."

"Oh. ... It'll be fine, I think. As long as we don't gotta run real soon."

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Booker and Grumely sprint away from the angry crowd. As soon as just one resident recognized them, the rest followed. Groups of angry, grieving families now chase them with pitchforks, scythes, and anything else sharp available in the clearing.

"GUYYYYS!!! WE GOTTA GET OUTTA HERE!!!" Booker screams as they run towards the hutch.

"IT'S VERY URGENT!!!"

"WE HAVE TO GET MOVING AT A VERY QUICK AND CONSISTENT PACE!!!"

"FOR A REALLY, REALLY LONG TIME!!!"

Peggy looks out the window. "Yeah Booker that's not- HOLY SHIT- Bitsy you gotta wake Hazel up!"

"WHAT?!" Booker ducks as a rock flies by his head. "SHE'S ASLEEP?!"

"Well I'll just give her this white powder that makes me feel real fast!"

"Great idea."

Booker groans and looks to Grumley. "We're so fucked."

[obbystars]

oh yeah also guess who finished playing Ultrakill

THIS GUYYYY

gabriel fights are SOOOO GOODD AND THE EARTHMOVER THE EARTHMOVER DUDE GRAHHHHH

yes my little series has a reference in it because i love war without reason

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☕️jamie drysdale

MY GUYYYY i like him so much... i like his soft little voice and his smile... i LOVE his skating sm like im far from an expert but i can Always pick him out on the ice. i'm so glad he's a flyer now!!!! it's been fun to watch him fold into that group even if it means he's hanging out with cam york.... also it must be said it is SOOOOO INCREDIBLY FUNNY that we have like, kind of a lot of gossip about him going out and being a little slutty but none of it is bad it's all just like "yeah he was very nice and polite" 😭😭😭 public universal grandson.... i would like to cook him a nice casserole and pinch his cheeks and maybe knit him a sweater... make sure he's warm and cozy...

[xxstarl1ghtxx]

earthspark season 2 episode 2 liveblog beneath cut. spoilers!!

-knew quintus? HAD A SIMILAR BUT NON IDENTICAL LANGUAGE TO CYBERTRONIANS? oh dear. nope nope the land of ten thousand nopes you need to get out of there mo i have a bad feeling

-oh crap wait this might not be 100% awful.

-boot full of cave water. mm.

-wait. hmm. weird things like ancient ruins surrounding a pod with a guy who knew quintus in witwicky--and starscream saying he knew a secret weapon. are these linked?? my bets are on secret quintesson weapon

-THE GUYYYY. my dude for real i love this little weirdo already

-weird fact about me i have bafflingly low 'embarrassing awkward stuff' tolerance in media. yeesh the longer thrash has to do this the harder itll be for me

-mmm more cave water. mo i love your absolute non-acknowledgement of red flags. you see them i'm sure you do you just Do Not Acknowledge Them

-KNEW IT. CALLED IT. weird guy quintesson!! dw Weird Guy i still love ya

-the question remains: what is weird guy's beef with quintus?

-ok yeah that's. a+ villain motivation i'd get pissed too

-ok maybe i just have unsettled beef with the episode prime time but mo i think you are being a little overly generous with the word friend here

-WEIRD GUY'S ARM :O

-fun episode!! excited to learn more about the quintessons in the earthspark lore

[oxygen-stealer]

I've got many many thoughts on resurrected Terzo :)))

More sketches and LOTS of headcanons below the cut

(Click for better quality btw)

So to start my explanation of how he could've even been brought back in the first place is because- yknow that hammer they hit head popes with to make sure they're dead? Yeah well the people embalming him didn't do that because he was decapitated and they figured that was probably a good indication that he was actually dead.

Well later on, The Clergy is starting to get a bit nervous with all of the power Copia seems to be growing into and they're looking for a plan B despite being out of heirs. Commence resurrection.

Upon first being revived, Terzo immediately lashes out, catching Sister Imperator with his claws. He's literally been in hell for five years and it shows in the fear on his face.

His skin is paler, greener. He smells of formaldehyde, his head is hastily stitched on his neck. Being in hell has also embedded slight demonic energy into him, it seems like the world warps around him, like his power leeches into the ground he walks on. He has flashes of his memories of hell but he generally tries not to think about it.

Now I also want you to imagine this:

Imagine you're a guy in a very high position of power that never really feels like he's good enough, then eventually you're forcibly retired and killed for not being good enough by people that should technically be below you and your asshole dad. Then suddenly you're dragged out of your glorious afterlife in hell because those same bozos want you to replace your absolute sweetheart younger brother (he's actually your brother now too???) because they also maybe want to kill him. And to top it all off your favorite ghoul was tossed back into the Pit like he was nothing right after you died.

You'd be pissed off right? Yeah well that's where Terzo is at.

All of his usual charm and whimsy takes a backseat for a low burning rage. He doesn't bother giving any of the siblings of sin the time of day anymore. The Clergy quickly recognizes that this was a terrible idea because this guy hates them even more than he did before and is one more situation away from snapping and taking someone back to hell with him. Maybe Copia, even as the antichrist, wasn't actually that bad.

Regardless, Terzo reluctantly becomes Papa again through some loopholes regarding living papas and what not. His new album takes a significantly darker, angrier tone than any other. Imagine the darker sounds of Cirice through most of the album. I'd argue that kinda darkness was very much present in Meliora but even that had some zest for life within it. Now, like, this music is made by a guy that literally died horribly and went to hell. This album is haunting.

During rituals he tries to kinda act like his old self because he does love his fans but you can kinda tell it's not the same ("heeyyy guyyyys I'm back :))" *barely contained rage*). You can also tell all of the ghouls are quite a bit more on edge than they were with Copia, you can cut the tension with a knife.

(The ghouls are not really concerned about Terzo himself, but rather what it means for Copia and themselves. They're concerned that the clergy's trying really hard to throw them all out. Which they are. Also none of these ghouls have really been around the other Papas, and they know Copia has been unusually friendly with them, so they're a bit weary about acting wildly as they usually would)

Really there are only two people Terzo isn't mad at. First, probably the only benefit of all of this in his mind is getting to see Copia again and getting to witness how much his awkward little brother (they actually were brothers too! He jokes he that he always knew it) has really grown into his skin as Papa. They catch up for hours, Terzo meets Copia's ghouls, they talk about his music, they talk shit about Nihil, reminisce, etc. It's been the one good thing about all of this. Terzo is heartbroken that he was taking Copia out of the spotlight because it seemed like he had grown into it so well.

And the other of course is Omega. Apparently, all of Terzo's ghouls had been thrown back into the pit almost the same day he'd died, but it was believed that Omega himself had killed a sibling of sin beforehand and left their body as an omen, greatly straining the relationship between the ministry and ghouls as a whole. Despite this, Terzo doesn't once stop asking for him. If they're going to bring him back they could've at least had the foresight to give him any kind of motivation to stay. He'll summon him himself if he needs to dammit.

In all honesty he misses him and the rest of his ghouls dearly. You'd think they'd be able to be together in hell but the reality is the different layers of hell aren't actually something most are meant to pass through unless you're a 13th century italian poet. So Terzo really hasn't seen any of them since he was alive and it weighs heavily on him. He knows wanting to summon Omega again is probably selfish and that his time back on earth is likely to be very limited, but he finds it difficult to think of anything else. (Omega would be thrilled, but the ache of being left again would still linger. He should've stopped to think about all of this before falling in love with a mortal but it's too late for that now isn't it?)

Of course, nothing lasts forever and Terzo's revived body gives out after a good handful of months. It's a wonder he didn't take anyone with him on his way out or that the Clergy didn't take him out themselves. That whole situation was a bit of a disaster so the Clergy decides that maybe Copia isn't that bad for now. Until they come up with something better at least.

[xomoosexo]

Tbh as much as it gets blamed on admins, the ccs say admins because that's who they contact for this stuff

But the community have blamed q a little. Plus a few days ago, something lore related happened and Q had to tweet about he's not super involved in lore stuff (since he's a player) because fans jumped to harrass him (some jokingly, some srs). So he does get blamed for some stuff

I do think that he'll slowly get blamed more and more, but it won't be an instantaneous thing

yeah I agree with this. it makes sense for the members for ccs to say admins cause they are the ones running things but ultimately it's q's project. I have seen more and more people bringing him up too so it's definitely gonna happen eventually. it is funny for him to be like guyyyys you can't blame me for a problem that happened on my own server cause I'm not involved ^_^ like broo??

[hearts401]

YOU. YOU GET IT. Fnaf 4 Michael is so funny and goofy I don’t understand the hate leave him alone 💔💔💔/J but in all seriousness tho I find him so interesting like we’ll probs never get a reveal about why but I like just brainstorming in my head why he picks on cc. Like he’s so interesting to think about why is he the way he is

also I just read your shitty brother kind of Christmas fic and it was SO GOOD WAHHHHHH

LIKE YEAH HES AN ASSHOLE THATS WHATS CHARMING ABOUT HIMMMM HES SO SPECIAL TO MEEE

I literally care abt fnaf 4 mike more than any other Michael idk he’s so special to me he’s my little guyyyy

ALSO SHITTY BROTBER CHRISTMAS MENTION IM SO GLAD U LIKED IT ITS SOOOOO SPECIAL TO ME

[cyberdragoninfinity]

Teehee opinions on the arclights? I’ve seen your little posts while you watch Zexal and I wanna know whatcha think abt them lol

Arclights :)

I REALLY REALLY LIKE THEM the whole family...I'm a sucker for yugioh family and sibling dynamics and theirs is just so bonkers and so good and there's love there and it hurts and I'm INVESTED. I'm also soft on them because I had a "trio of rich boy villain brothers with an insane single parent" OC gaggle in a D&D campaign I ran that I was tremendously fond of, and the Arclights remind me of them a little <3

It's hard picking a favorite of the brothers but Trey/III I think is my top fav....there's something that cooks my brain with this Sweet Little Starbucks Pink Drink of a Lad and his...just this absolute loyalty to a fault to his loved ones, trying so hard to be of 'use' to them. My little guyyyy ;___;

I do also fuckign love Quattro/IV and Quinton/V though; of course I love Quattro this 17 year old is a MESS and a MISERABLE FREAK and a SORE LOSER he's the exact type of yugioh guy I adore. And Quinton's chernobyl-level Eldest Daughter Syndrome radiation is like. my god I want to think big about you for a While.

And VetrxiByronTron is. Yeah he makes me a little sick in the head. Thinking about him. :,) There's something just so absolutely unsettling to me about what happened to him!!!!! Also his dub voice is one of my favs, they really just let his VA go in there and be a giggling little freak and it rocks.

also mildly relevant topic aside, I'll prob talk about it most eventually but I rly like nonbinary Try and trans woman Quinton hcs....thinking about them. They are going to come out to each other in the car a year postcanon I think.

BUT YEAH ARCLIGHTS GOOD. VERY DANABAIT AND IT WORKED. Very excited (and nervous) to see what happens to these guys in the last uhhhhmm 25 or so episodes I have left!!

[ilovebeingaturtle]

What are the turtles' personalities in your AU?

EE AHH OKAY THANK YOU FOR ASKING SHIT NOW I GOTTA WORDS GOOD AHSJSJ

Okay so-the complicated answer is my AU actually has two sets of turtles. And the short answer will just be me rambling about the main boys, so I’ll do that AHA

Mikey is the oldest! So he’s a very laidback party dude, his priorities are usually that everyone around him is having a good time. He’s not the type to try get his siblings to act responsibly, more so acting as strong background support while letting them be independent-he’s sort of? Developed into a people pleaser, but very much still a silly fun loving lil guy with a mischievous side. His charisma stat is basically maxed out, and he’s not above using that to his advantage

Raph is a mixture of wise guy and overconfident fighter AHA. He always just wants to do his own thing so it’s basically impossible to get him to listen to orders, he’s competitive and reckless, but while he has the usual Raphael anger it’s more of a slow burning holding a grudge type. He’s extremely passionate about fighting for those who can’t defend themselves so he’s super empathetic because of this, basically he’s very sensitive under the bravo, but also just. Yeah, he’s a comedy loving goofball, this is the 87!Raph blog okay we’re gonna get a boy very inspired by him

Leo is…one of the harder? Ones for me to describe? He’s very focused and practical, and he gets easily frustrated because in this version he isn’t regarded to have much authority at the start. He dedicated basically his entire life to training, so while he’s already a master at his craft he can be very awkward and lost in social situations or any situation beyond this. Eventually though he starts to loosen up and stop repressing the more adrenaline and fun loving side of him-it’s kind of? Like he has a reverse Rise!Leo arc LMAO, he goes from serious leader to total loser dork-I mean, cool guyyyy

Donnie’s the youngest! Without like, getting into the whole backstory, he basically starts out with zero fighting experience by the time the “ shows” plot starts, so he’s very guy in the chair at the start and needs to learn to trust his own abilities and step out of his comfort zone. Beyond that though, he’s a very snarky and deadpan Donnie, who’ll always do everything in his power to help someone once he sets himself to the task. He’s also kind of a dramatic little shIT

I don’t have proper reference art for my boys yet! But I have drawn them a ton, so have these for now AHA, I’ll try make better more recent art later

Oh! Also! Heights ❤️

[justablah56]

UAY A COOKIES RAMBLES TAG!! YAYAYYA!!! ♡♡♡ <3<3<3

also like.... everyone can Feel the emotions that taylor is feeling in the memories including taylor but it is affecting him so much more because these are his memories and he's practically reliving them and i just love the idea of like. at first it's like the happy memories of his life and being a fucking cool badass and taylor is like this is gonna be a piece of cake my life is great and then as they keep going it gets worse and taylor is like ummm that's weird 🤔🤔🤔 and then it goes to the memories of him getting bullied and such and everyone is like. feeling sad for taylor and he doesn't even know how to react or what to say because he's perfectly fine nowadays and this isn't even relevant... and then because everyone is feeling the feelings of the memories then taylor starts to lose his composure a little but he still believes that he's fine right

and then like. the memories get worse and taylor starts getting shakier and more frantic and starts suggesting that they just go and then it gets to his fear of abandonment stuff... like scary's comment about nicky and then EVERYONE can physically feel their stomachs drop and the really intense feeling of fear and sadness and heartbreak

and then fuckinggg fucucufjfjgvguciking taylor is trying to get them to just go because this is pointless and they shouldnt even pay any attention to these memories and then it flashes to the memory of nicky getting sliced and presumably dying even though he didn't and that. that is the one thing that actually broke taylor before like he was sobbing. and everyone can feel the emotions of this memory right and . during that episode everyone was focuser on scary and not on taylor but right now they can feel it all. the fear, the despair, the sadness of being abandoned, the love, and the anger at having not been able to spend more time with nicky because he wasn't there. scary can relate

so anyways taylor having a panic attack inside of his own mindscape 👍 but denying that anything is wrong while everyone is really concerned because he is VERY VISIBLY FREAKING OUT and again. scary can relate because she also likes to repress <3 except like. she knows she's doing it. taylor doesn't. <3 like he doesn't believe that there's anything wrong with him ykwim. <3

HELP I ALMOST DELETED THE ENTIRE ASK BY ACCIDENT. I WOULD HAVE DROPPED DEAD OMFG.

ANYWAYS taylor having a panic attack in his mindscape and getting mad and yelling at everyone cuz they're worrying about him when they shouldn't be and he can handle himself etc. etc. etc.

Taylor when his life actually isn't perfect and happy all the time

okay I spent like 10 minutes trying to find a specific reaction image and I literally couldn't find it this is so sad - anyways sjndns -

BUT AIDKS TAYLOR JUST WANTING THEM TO LEAVE HIS MINDSCAPE BCS WHAT IF THEY REALIZE HES NOT ACTUALLY PERFECT AND THEY *LEAVE* HIM !!!!!! but fuuuuckkkk them going through things they've already done and being forced to see things from *Taylors* pov ,,, ough ,, Taylor still thinking hes perfectly fine and not getting why his friends are giving him *that* look ,, tHEM RE-EXPERIENCING NICK GETTING DISECTED FUCKKK MY GUYYYY SOBBSSSS and !!!! Scary recognizing that he's repressing !! okay but literally just had a vivid thought of scary saying smthin to Taylor like "oh hey yeah I repress a lot too haha guess that's something we have in common" and Taylor just stares blankly at her like "wait I'm what ." bcs i think it would be silly <3