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ohshy · 9 months ago

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Feelin kinda down so fuck it- how about some burnt bread hcs if you got any?

If not, how about disco kid?

~ fan-mans

hope u feel better soon bro ! also HELL YEAH BURNT BREAD !!!!!!!! one of my favorites :3

so where does it all begin? well.... (under the cut bc its Long)

aran didnt actually have to use any of dirty tricks to take joe down, so they didn't start off on that bad of a foot, or a bad foot at all. (fighting is par for the course for this sport, of course.)

that being said though, you still see n hear things ab eachother, and have assumptions as a result. Aran initally sees joe as a snobby, wimpy man, and joe aran as a scary, unpredictable brute.

eventually, however, aran starts looking at joe... a little differently. he pranks him a lot because yknow. its funny. but joe doesnt seem to mind it at all... in fact, he takes his pranks really well, and it makes aran see strong joe is in a way and how much of a sense of humor he has.

joe at the other hand, noticed that aran, outside the ring, was actually fairly tame, outside of his pranks of course. it helped a lot with mellowing his perception of him. combine this joe's many hobbies and aran's try-everything attitude, and youve got the start of a click !

news of their little budding relationship spreads around the minor- and world circuit, and kaiser begins to take notice ab how joe talks ab aran, how hed normally b horrified at the prospect of him being anywhere NEAR him.

so one day, in all his eternal german grace, he says...

''well if you love him so much, why don't you two kiss, hm?''

and joe hadnt gotten that thought out of his head since.

as for disco kid hcs, ive already told most of them so ill talk ab how the minor circuit reacted to joe wanting to confess to aran instead !!

disco, albeit kinda scared of aran, is ecstatic for joe, wishes him luck and wants to know EVERYTHING about how it went afterward

i imagine hippo would be pretty whatever about it. guy isnt too concerned ab peoples love lifes. wishes him luck like disco tho.

meanwhile kaiser? ''Eh, it is your funeral''

I imagine the world circuit wouldn't be as close with eachother seeing as how theyre busier n likely more hounded by journalists, but they do know in broad terms what goes on in the lives of eachother.

so macho catches wind of aran's crush, and he basically shittalks joe to arans face

''I know everyone's standards are too high for you, but joe's just a sad bar, even for you.''

Aran, not even reacting to the dig against him, starts ranting to macho about how joe is admirable as all hell for getting back up after 99 losses, and how that must mean he has a real love and respect for the sport. He even boldly exclaims that joe arguably works harder than macho, the victories who seems to come so easily to him.

macho eventually leaves, deciding aran's not worth his precious time.

aran then turns around, and OMG HE SEES JOE STANDING THERE !!!!!

anyway he heard all about what aran said (thats right, overhearing ooc conversations and miscommunication happening is OUT, overhearing conversations and gaining respect for someone is IN), and confesses right there and then. aran, hearing prolly the most romantic speech thats ever been directed to him in his entire life, is at a loss for words. He can't say anything other than ''of course, joey.''

and thats the start of their relationship :3

as for other misc hcs that dont fit anywhere else...

one time, when cleaning out aran's jacket pockets (joe's a bit of a neat freak), he found... a bunch of lint. But also !! he found a ton of crumpled up notes. They included phrases for the ring, comedic poems... but they also had affirmations for himself, about his family, but also about joe. joe, sans the lint, left the pockets as is. ever since then though, he's felt closer to him than ever.

joe will often try to pick up aran like a princess. considering hes still decently muscled, he can do it succesfully.

joe loves baking, especially bread, but aran will ALWAYS manage to set something on fire. think spencer from icarly.

they infodump to eachother ab their respective countries histories and folk tales, joe esp ab the former n aran ab the latter.

one time, joe and aran set out for a night walk. then, they (or rather aran) thought he heard a banshee screech. what they actually heard prolly was a car tire screeching in the distance. aran, however, was never the less scared SHITLESS and ran tf home, screaming highpitched. He had to be comforted by joe all night after they got home.

aran loves going to theme parks. he loves the rush. joe, however, hates the tall rides like the rollercoasters, n prefers the calmer rides like the teacups. They have a ''goes onto the rollercoaster alone'' x ''holds the persons stuff while theyre gone'' dynamic.

they rly like singing duets together, especially after a couple drinks. wine in joe's case and beer in arans case. theyve sang at macho's parties before as well, and needless to say they make for great entertainment.

aran often sends joe cursed memes n selfies that joe just Does Not understand

''aran, i will Not hold feet with you, zat's disgusting''

''come on joey..... do ye love me or not......''

#aran ryan #glass joe #burnt bread #punch out wii #punch out #hope u enjoy charlie !!!! had a lot of fun working on these #these two make my heart warm :3 #headcanons #monkey brain typing #asks #glass joe x aran ryan #aran ryan x glass joe

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brainrotsucks · 6 months ago

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dont let me touch you kitten~~ meow!!!!!!! omg k so i love voldemort if you didnt know like seriously why is he so fine !!!!!! he’s so sexy i just want to pin him down and kiss him 🥹🥹 sam dont touch me please only voldemort can 🙄🙄🫶ok stop being gay!!! but anyways,, have you seen his features? i love how detailed his face is, tbh they could've added something more sexy but its ok hes still fine 👏👏

Lord Voldemort, oh my goodness, where do I start? He's seriously fascinating! Okay, so picture this: he's this super powerful wizard, right? And his appearance, oh boy, it's just captivating! He's got this, like, totally unique look that's all his own.

First off, his head is, like, super smooth and shiny! Seriously, it's almost like he's got this magical baldness going on. But it's not just any bald head – it's like, perfectly smooth, like polished marble or something. And his skin? Pale as a ghost, but in a totally striking way! It's like he's glowing with this eerie light, you know?

Then there are his eyes. Oh my gosh, his eyes! They're these intense, glowing red orbs that just pierce right through you. And the shape? Yeah, they're all slitted and snake-like, which just adds to his whole mysterious vibe. Seriously, you can't help but get lost in those eyes!

Now, let's talk about his nose. It's… well, it's not exactly your typical nose. It's more like a little snout, kinda like a snake's! But somehow, it totally works for him. It gives him this extra touch of, I don't know, reptilian charm? Yeah, let's go with that!

And his face, oh man, don't even get me started! It's all angular and sharp, with these high cheekbones that just scream power and authority. And his lips? Thin and pale, but strangely alluring. Like, you can't help but be drawn to them, even though you know you probably shouldn't.

But here's the thing – despite his kinda scary appearance, there's something undeniably intriguing about Voldemort. Like, you can't help but be curious about him, you know? Maybe it's his confidence, or his unwavering determination to achieve his goals. Or maybe it's just the way he carries himself, like he's the most important person in the room (which, let's be honest, he usually is).

And then there's his presence. When Voldemort walks into a room, you can feel it. It's like this electric energy that just crackles in the air, sending shivers down your spine. He commands attention without even trying, and you can't help but be drawn to him, even if you're terrified at the same time.

In short, Voldemort is like, the epitome of enigmatic charm. He's powerful, mysterious, and totally captivating, with a look that's all his own. Love him or hate him, you can't deny that he's one of the most fascinating characters in the wizarding world – or any world, for that matter!

sorry for the rant i just love my man so much

Ummmm okay…

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dragonfliescreative · 5 months ago

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Joel (oc) x Reader..

Ch 1. Getting Ready.

Huffing in an attempt to calm my nerves, i stare into the mirror. The outfit Chloe had picked out for the concert felt odd against my skin. i normally just wore what was comfortable, but she insisted that i dress up for this. apparently id feel out of place otherwise. if i was honest i didnt even know what i was walking into. she had been listening to Bloodied Daisies alot long than i had, hell she had been to their concerts too. this was my first time going because she won a raffle for backstage tickets.

"Are you about ready??" Her voice boomed through the door. Pulling briefly at the tight netting over my arms i respond "Yeah i guess so." And with that im met with my best friend. she had her blonde hair up in a spiky looking bun, and a matching punky looking outfit to mine. She covered her mouth with her hands. "Oh my god! Y/n you look so handsome!" she snickered, her fingers shortly finding my face afterwards to fix the makeup i had most likely smudged it while putting in my top. "Perfect." She grinned.

I followed her out of the apartment i rented and out to her little black car, that she had of course stickerbombed. Once we sat i tuned back in to what she was saying to me. "-and i hear he's quite the party-er. though if im honest im mainly there for Grayson. god he's smokin' hot." she started the car and we were off. the venue was about a 30ish minute drive from my place since my complex was closer to the edge of the city. "plus, theyre small enough still that they'll most likely drink with us. is that okay?" she asked, turning to me as she hit her breaks for the red light. "I don't wanna be like, wasted." I mumble. the idea of drinking around strangers never was a good one. "You can though, i'll drive us home." I continued, giving her a small smile. And there was that giddy grin of hers, it always made me feel better. "Perfect! im so excited! i know you dont party much but i promise you'll love it." she cooed, before going on to explain that the tickets she gor were basically pay to get in party tickets, and were limited to about 10 ish people excluding the band obviously.

The next 20 minutes of the drive was us jamming out to the album they were touring. I had to admit, I loved this dudes voice. Chloe went over the band members names and what they played. Joel, the vocalist and guitarist, though apparently he could play several instruments too. Grayson, the drummer, her favorite. And lastly their bassist, Arlo, who also could play a few instruments. The more we sang, the more excited i got. i had never even been to a real concert before, let alone one like this.

Holding the CD case in my hand, i actually started to look at the members. inside the case was a picture of them together, with their signatures beside each of their heads. She had gotten this at their last concert. Joel, a kinda small dude, covered in tattoos and freckles with a dark fuzzzy mohawk and green eyes. Holy shit he had braces too. Grayson, a super tall scary looking man, with long black and blue hair, way more piercings than Joel, and gnarly cutting scares all over his body, even his cheekbones. I see why Chloes makeup was blue now. And Arlo, taller than Joel but shorter than Grayson, a lanky androgynous person, with long hair pulled up in a messy ponytail, glasses, and just as many piercings and tattooes as Joel.

The more i stared at the vocalist i started to giggle "How tall is he?"

"Uhh, five eight i think?"

"that voice comes out of that little man?"

"mhm!"

"thats funny as hell."

She giggled with me "isnt it? he's honestly scrunkly as hell. when i met him he smelled like cigarettes and like a woody smelling cologne"

"Chloe that's oddly specific. Why is that what you noticed?"

"It's hard not to when he's just below me in height. his forehead met my nose."

I rolled my eyes and tuned back into the song, into the venue parking we went.

Notes: Grayson belongs to my friend!! @grioxim

Ch 2

Pretty Handsome Awkward Ch List

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halinski · 1 year ago

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Tagged by @all-or-nothing-baby 🥰🥰

15 QUESTIONS, 15 (or whatever) TAGS

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYBODY?

My mother's hs best friend basically! She lives in Bosnia so i don't know her much but I have met her

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?

Uhh i can't remember but probably like last week or so. I dissociate too much to remember when or why lmao

3. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?

nope

4. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?

Not much tbh. Im afraid of being misunderstood too much bc people generally do

5. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY/HAVE YOU PLAYED?

Softball mostly!

6. WHAT’S THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT SOMEONE?

My gut feeling about them, and if they might understand mental health stuff or not

7. EYE COLOUR?

Hazel-green

8. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?

Scary movies for sure. Irrational happy endings make me angry

9. ANY SPECIAL TALENTS?

10. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?

Central europe, meh

11. WHAT ARE YOUR HOBBIES?

Nature, reading, writing, sports, chilling with animals, learning stuff

12. DO YOU HAVE PETS?

2 cats! And a few past darlings in spirit

13. HOW TALL ARE YOU?

173cm

14. FAVOURITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL?

I used to always try to come up with some answer to this to please people but i didnt have one past 3rd grade bc i absolutely detested school, the educational systems and academia so fuck no, no favorite subjects. Fuck schools.

(The one good school i went to grade pre till 3rd i enjoyed also had really good pedagogists. In 3rd grade i think i loved math the most bc my teacher designed individual plans for us and my classmate and i raced to finish higher level work, in 2nd i think it was the class where we read and wrote and were creative like think tank and reading dino topia and writing our own magical treehouse, in 1st grade it was science and experementing and the frogs and butterfly class.

On my own time i watched so many animal rescue shows and nation geography and we had so many of their magazines and natyre magazines my mother got that were sorted out from the library. And i read a lot of history books about ancient and pre-historic times and different cultures and that was great. I was also obsessed with animals and read cyclodpedias and had them quickly memorized. But by the time i was 9 i was too depressed and i dont know shit anymore my brain too forgetful

and that's why i'm so mad about the school systems bc i truly loved, loved learning. But even the good school would give me failing grades for my social behavior. And without ranting even further, lets just say math used to be like breathing for me and now i can barely put 48+32 together without a calculater anymore bc my brain is so dead

So much more complicated issues yeah but school still makes me so fucking mad)

15. DREAM JOB?

somehow i got lucky and i kinda ended up in the field of my dream job: vet tech/nurse

i wish i could save any animal i come across though. Regardless of money, laws, etc. I wish i could save nature. Fix what humanity has done to the earth and to so many animals. Relieve suffering. Give love to every stray. Make sure every living being has a home. Get rid of ownership over land and living beings of any and all kind

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If you see this, tag you're it and pls @ me!

#about me #15 questions

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deafeninggardenerpanda · 1 year ago

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Here are 3 different suggestions

Metalor

Metasusie

Metadedede.

I know sort of obvious choices, but I'm curious to see what opinions you have on these ships.

did metadede so its time for metalor and metasusie! putting both of these under the cut because youre getting my double opinion whammy. obligatory "its not every shipper obviously im just generalizing based on personal experience" dont let my opinions stop you from shipping something unless its like problematic obvs lol

theres nothing wrong with metalor but it unfortunately does fall into my "red flag ship" category

ill reiterate my definition of that again for people who didnt catch it in my last rant: what i call red flag ships are ships that are totally fine on paper, but for some reason the shippers and fandom culture surrounding it are just rancid and it throws me off liking the ship all together. and then i get kinda sussed out by people who ship it

honestly i have never gotten the appeal of this one or understood the dynamic at all. and thats fine of course. i did try reading a couple fics about it even, and in them its usually like. meta doing some shit that makes absolutely no sense under the guise of "he has a good reason for it" that just Coincidently happens to land him and magolor into some relationship-implying situation. and also the "good reason" meta knight had for doing whatever was not a good reason and was in fact a huge stretch of a reason for sake of moving the relationship along quicker. which you know i dont shame at all, i get that sometimes you just want to get to the juicy shit and people are absolutely allowed to do that, but that really just sums up my feelings on the ship entirely lol. stretches and stretches of reasonings for them to get together that dont entirely, or sometimes even remotely, make sense but okay they end up together in the end somehow 🤷

the fact that the ship is the two most popular and thirsted over men in the series together is the reason why this one lands into red-flag territory im so sorry. it attracts some um. interesting people who end up being somewhat pretentious about their own interpretations on the characters and some people get a little scary or intense about it. also of course occasionally their relationship being boiled down to whoever ships them nonstop thirsting for both of them but thats like just fandom culture for you, i really cant judge. people do that with metadede too to be fair. also a lot of metalor shippers ive seen are just downright mean for some reason. anyone else notice that or have i just been running into bad people

as people might be able to tell by how fairly neutral about it i seem, this one is yeah one of the less red flag-y of what i consider red flag ships. its totally fine. i personally really dont like the ship but its only like 60-70% of the shippers who i squint at compared to the Abysmal rates of other red flag ships. speaking of, by the way...............

ah the fandoms problem child. its metasusie

i Do think its possible to ship this one in a healthy manner. actually even in a not healthy matter as long as youre explicit about it being not healthy and its just one of those ships you find interesting due to the drama. ive read metasusie fics where it was explicitly about how fucked up the relationship can be and theyre very very fascinating from a story and character perspective if you want to explore a tragically evil but still nuanced susie. i would say highly recommend, but i dont actually because a lot of them just lean into weird unnecessary torture porn. its somewhat of a fine line between tasteful and untasteful

ANYWAYS brief tangent aside, i think its possible to ship this one in a healthy manner because you know me i would be a hypocrite to bash an enemies to lovers ship, but it obviously relies on susie needing to recognize her faults and make up to meta knight in some way, plus improve as a person in general. its somewhat of a grey area depending on various factors, both game and real life perspective-wise, how redeemable one considers the whole mechanization and dehumanization though so i dont blame people who absolutely dont trust the ship

speaking of lets get into the way this one is Definitely the reddest of the red flag ships ever. metasusie shippers what are you doing oh my god

the. the. the the when you the when you woobify susie. i do not use that word lightly in regards to susie in particular because of how often its misused by people who hate her just to mean "im mad that people are making cute friendly content of a character i dont like". no im using it in the actual proper way as in why in the world do i go around and see some metasusie shippers saying "people who hate metasusie are so stupid, susie literally never hurt meta knight in canon!!!" i shit you NOT that is a legit take ive seen a Lot of people have nearly word for fucking word and its like. what are you ON did we even play the same game?? did you even play the game at all??? are you as white and dense as a sack of flour and thats why it went over your head?????

people will try to make the excuse that they have headcanon or interpretation differences that lighten the whole endeavor, which yeah that fair. you can imagine mecha knight was just some suit they put over him rather than anything invasive like a lot of people think. thats absolutely fair. you can imagine that meta knight still retains parts of his super star personality where he was kinda okay with the mechanization in some twisted personal ambition way because hes a power hungry guy who will take any means necessary to be stronger. thats also pretty fair. ah you think this is sounding favorable to the metasusie shippers huh. WRONG. WRONG. YOU CAN THINK ALL OF THIS BUT NONE OF THIS EXCUSES THAT THE WHOLE MECHANIZATION WAS STILL WRONG NO MATTER HOW YOU TWIST IT. tfw mecha knights theme is called "inner struggle" definitely implying that he did Not like being mechanized and was trying to fight against it. tfw the elephant in the room being mechanization is of course a metaphor for colonization which is not a good thing to do to someone regardless whether or not they seem cool with it. tfw THE DEHUMANIZATION. TFW METASUSIE SHIPPERS GO HEEHOO HEEHOO CUTE SHIP AND POLE VAULT OVER THE DEHUMANIZATION. HI.

regardless whether or not you have interpretation or headcanon differences, you Cannot ignore the fact that the game does not exist in a vacuum and its themes are undoubtedly tied to real life parallels. in ignoring those parallels or sidestepping them when theyre so blatant and in your face Yes you kinda are being a huge asshole. susie calling mecha knight an It and being like heres our newest product :) while also having the dissonance of being like hes such a cool strong handsome knight is supposed to directly refer to how colonizers will fetishize the people they colonize while fucking over them and their home because they only like them as a surface level Idea rather than actually respecting their culture and them as fellow human beings right im not just being insane making all this up??? huh???? ive gotten away from my original point i feel but tldr IF YOU PRETEND LIKE SUSIE NEVER HURT OR DID ANYTHING TO META KNIGHT I WILL THROW YOU INTO A GRAIN SILO. NO!!!

anyways if you have susie getting a redemption arc yes youre so cool. if you have them getting together okay thats cool. if you draw susie/mecha knight art and act like its cute im throwing you into the grain silo too. if you dont have susie properly redeeming herself and ship her with meta knight even though shes still weird about him and still colonizing people then i dont trust you and thats the category most metasusie shippers fall in

i also want to bring up the people ship it out of spite, because theres been a big spite-shipping metasusie resurgence in the past year thanks to weird stalking drama sparked by a very certain someone people might remember. yall need to realize that going harder on something that understandably makes people uncomfortable and trying to push back by pretending the ship is (by default) more harmless than it is and pretending that everyone who dislikes it is automatically being unreasonable just because Some people are yikes to metasusie shippers is Not the play to take. it just makes you look like an inconsiderate asshole. two people being assholes to each other does not cancel out it just makes an even bigger fire. get some critical thinking skills yeah

its not the fault of anyone who wants to make cute metasusie content that susie is very explicitly a colonizer and a lot of people have strong feelings about that, bbbbbbbbut i hope it came across in this whole tangent that if you try lessening the blow of her actions against meta knight people have full right to hate your guts imo

EDIT: extremely last minute edit but i just straight up forgot that people who arent lgbtq+ exist in this fandom and thus didnt mention it: can we bring up the amount of homophobes who love this ship purely because its strong cool masculine man x cute pink feminine girl. does anyone remember that one guy who was big on metasusie and had "christian" in his bio and also had "will not do lgbt+" in his commission sheet or is that just me. its so fucking funny. it makes me cry laugh whenever i think about it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

#asks #anonymous #dgp askgame #ask to tag

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mr-magoriums-im-sorry-emporium · 2 years ago

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yeah reading that webebed comic is making me think about like. growing up On Line and knowing there was something wrong with me, KNOWING i had a personality disorder and just not knowing Which One, but knowing it was most likely one of the two that people dont give much sympathy to

but then also being surrounded by people who do the same things i did and DIDN'T have those disorders

is such... a wild fucking experience. i joke like "haha more people should think theyre a sociopath growing up, it humbles you and makes you painfully aware of how people see the shit youre doing" but like, even if the people i knew thought that of themselves, they wouldnt care! theyd brush it off or think theyre one of the good ones (tm) with no self reflection!! and thats because I did it!!

like. as a teenager, i genuinley thought "its not that i dont FEEL remorse, its just that i havent done anything that was bad enough to feel remorse over!" and concluded that i didn't have aspd

like. i was simultaneously self aware and not self aware, except since i was more self aware than most, it was easy for me to believe that nothing escaped my field of view

and even to this day, it's like... why?? i was in a whole fucking group of remorseless assholes who were overly violent about people we didnt like! we were ALL quick to turn on each other, and we were just a small group of a huger group! we couldnt ALL have aspd?? and WE DONT!!! WE DIDNT!!!

some of them were just being teenagers, some of them have other shit wrong with them that they either got help for or... didn't.

its just. aaaaa!! and yes depending on who it was directed on, my anger issues and impulsivity were both used to help the group and ostracize me! my friends LIKED when i could turn on people on a dime and drive them out of the group if they did something percieved as Bad. some of them genuinley WERE horrifically manipulative people and it was good that they got out of there SOMEhow. but they got out because the server admin was too pussy to do her job and Administrate The Server so it was My job. but if the admin herself or her friends hurt me (for instance, by saying that i was selfish for wanting to kill myself,) then suddenly i was scary and irrational and couldnt be trusted. fun!

and this suuuucks but wrt the webbe comic i see myself a lot in gage in that his Go To Excuse (im traumatized!!!) was MY go to excuse back in the day. plus i struggle w like. just because i dont MEAN to be manipulative, doesnt mean that i cant BE manipulative, plus its not the other partys fault for feeling manipulated

gage is lowkey also kinda unempathetic to milo cuz he finds milo annoying at times and uhhh thats a hashtag struggle of hashtag mine

and like. id never date an actual fucking murderer (but then again i can just SAY anything. in another life i could see myself justifying it if i was in a worse spot) but the reaction towards gage vs milo by the commentors of the comic is telling imo

in that gage (as far as we know) has been thru shitty situations and we dunno how he grew up yet (or maybe we do idk im not done) and he has maladaptive, manipulative, and hurtful coping mechanisms just like milo does but in the comments milo is seen as a wrong but still sympathetic guy while gage.. isnt

and thags kind of how it felt, yk. growing up the way i did. like i wasnt the best person but neither were the other guys but they got sympathy because they *appeared* good and pitiable and soft, they were treated like flawed yet human individuals going thru it, and i was lowkey dehumanized even before i ever really thought i had Dehumanized Implicitly Personality Disorder

ALSO the "sorry for saying s*ciopath i didnt mean to offend people w aspd" part in the comic Gets Me because there are people who do say that BUT thats the begining and end of anything they say abt aspd and its kiiind of hurting it ngl

cuz like. i agree honestly! i think people should maybe not say sociopath as freely as they do anymore. for one its not used diagnostically anymore and for two; in the layperson, the word paints a picture of a very stereotypical moviefied version of someone with aspd. so not only is it not used medically, its used in a way that dehumanizes people with actual aspd- in fact a lot of people dont even know that its CALLED aspd!

and of course, Not Saying Sociopath Anymore isnt gonna solve ableism (i learned the term aspd from an Ableist Video after all) but like. it would be nice? maybe?? to have the basic decency to not be referred to by a word thats used to either treat me like a dogshit criminal implicitly OR sell a warped version of the thing i struggle with to hollywood audiences and or true crime affecionados

but because of people who ONLY say that stuff and nothing else, the notion isnt really taken seriously by anyone and is brushed off as Stupid Internet Stuff + a smattering of "if you REALLY had REAL aspd you wouldnt CARE wether or not someone called you a sociopath!!!"

which of course is ironically another example of ableism not being solved by Changing Terms but uhh yeah since the fauxtivist puriteen blogs r where a lot of people first heard of the concept its IMMIDIATLEY written off as stupid internet stuff and i just think its very very funny that milo webcomicboy said that just like. as a microcosm of him? say/do shit that sounds progressive but does stuff that actually is either a) irrelevant or b) hurts people more than it helps them

also just bc i relate to gage doesnt mean i like him theyre all pieces of shit. i like him as a character not as a person. everyone here sucks assssssssssssssss but im just. observing plus a lil like. not exactly recognition of self thru the other but "oh god that COULDVE been me if i didnt get very very very lucky" self awareness did not fix me and it did not save me but it saved me just a leeeeeeeeettle bit and thats enough babeyyy

if this makes no sense im SORRY ive been soo traumatixed also im LITERALLY neurodivergent and a minor???? ugh!!!

(nah fr fr it is late as all fuckkkkk idk if this is coherent. if its not just shhhhh let it fade into obscurity thanks i appreciste it)

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takasgf · 2 years ago

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I have anniversary questions for the lovely Froggy and Taka ♥️🌻

1. What would you say was the most important moment in your relationship? How did that moment make you feel?

2. What is your favourite memory of one another before you were in a relationship?

I hope you have had the most incredible anniversary ♥️💫🌟 all the best in 2023!!! ♥️♥️

What would you say was the most important moment in your relationship? How did that moment make you feel?

F: I try my best to make the most of any moment we spend together. I want all of my memories with him to be happy ones... It was this time, when we just started to hang out. We didnt knew each other for long, but we could have been considered best friends. Let's just say that I was doubting whether this friendship of ours was that special or not. And I was ready to give up, leave Hope's Peak and stop bothering this guy, that I thought befriended me just to be polite. But... he didnt let me give up...

K: ...I couldn't lose my friend. I wanted to prove to her that our companionship is as real as it gets. I wanted her to stay and keep persevering alongside me. Frogeru tends to give up on things quite often, as I've heard. I refused our friendship to be one of those. I was concerned about her education as well, but my main goal was to convince her to stay here, because she has a purpose, she has a friend, and the opportunity to make others! I wouldn't have tried so hard if I hadn't felt that she wanted to stay too.

F: Hehe, yeah... I did want to stay. I was just so afraid. People here are really scary! Some more than others...But at least I knew then I got Taka by my side. And I finally believed it. I dont even want to imagine my life if I had left Hope's Peak. Or... him.

What is your favourite memory of one another before you were in a relationship?

F: Our first hug was phenomenal! Haha, I really thought it would go on forever! We met at my house and we were so glad to see each other we immediately jumped in the other's arms. It took us a few seconds to realize we were actually hugging. I don't know about Taka, but that was the first time in years I was that close to another person. (I had been living alone for a while until then) So I kinda just stayed there, in his arms... We had to go on with our "totally platonic study date" but it was like neither of us wanted to let go of the hug.

K: This might be an unexpected answer, but it would be the time we went to that park together. The swings were kid-sized and we were barely able to fit into them, but Frogeru insisted we try. I was in search of new learning experiences and I accepted, despite all the risks. Those few minutes brought me back to a childhood I never got to live with a friend like her. I'm just grateful there was nobody around to see two teenagers playing in a children's park... It was childish. But, I enjoyed our time there. E-even if I fell on my face at one point.

F: I told you to hold tight onto the swing! No worries, I gave him a kissy on the forehead and the pain went away, hehe!

K: This is exactly why everyone assumed we were already dating...

Thank you so much for the questions!! They were so fun to answer 🫂💗💗 I'm still trying to make Frogeru sound less formal, but I wanted her words to be genuine. Sending you all the hugs, and please take care❤❤❤

#ishigeru

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criminal-sen · 2 months ago

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I finally saw Nope (Jordan Peele's new-ish horror movie) and uhhh it's been stuck in my head ever since, so I'm gonna talk about it. It's not *quite* on my All Time Favorite Horror List (a thing that barely even exists in my head, let alone in printed form) but it's up there for sure. And do you want to know what really did it for me? It was the fucking RESTRAINT they used - not only in showing the Threat, but in picking apart its exact workings. I would say they slipped up a little bit here in the finale, as the protagonists do actually figure out a lot, but im giving it a pass. Because this movie is a horror, for sure, but it's also a story about black people overcoming that horror and standing victorious at the end, and the meta sense of catharsis that comes from that. I actually.. don't remember exactly how Us ended - a lot of that film kinda flew over my head bc im bad at media analysis stuff uhhh what is it, film theory? Yah i didnt.. take that. And my brain is like 'fun movie scary monster weeeee' for the most part. But i did manage to gather that between Get Out and Nope, Jordan Peele is sick of black characters dying, so hes 'fixing' the endings to be happy. And i think thats really fucking cool and also really fucking important. So yeah tldr it's okay they did the thing I usually don't like, and they still used more restraint than other movies, who don't even have a reason for it other than.. idk. Pissing me off

Oh right the other restraint they used, which I've seen talked about before, is in showing too much onscreen. Yknow like.. the horror movies that are scary as shit until the monster is revealed to be some cgi.. stupid fucking whatever... and a switch flips in your brain taking you from scared to annoyed. Yah they managed to not show parts they knew wouldn't work, then REALLY show parts they knew they could get right. Like the ending???? That was so fucking cool looking, like I cannot with that design, I fuck with it heavily and kinda want to draw it but. It also looks hard to draw lol

Okay well there was one specific scene especially, but it's a big plot spoil so I'm not gonna say it. But my favorite scene in the whole movie is one that's apparently quite divisive- some ppl hate it and say it looks like a fuckin car wash lmfao (and I'm being as spoiler-free as possible but that should give away the scene to ppl who've seen it) - but it's demonstrating that perfect balance of showing JUST enough to let your imagination fill in the rest. And I thought they did a damn good job with what was shown- between the fuckin hair raising screams and cries of the ppl in there, to the chaotic camerawork, like you're in there too and you're only getting glimpses, to the revelation itself, the massive OH SHIT of a plot reveal that's hitting so much harder than a detached 'we've figured it out' scene bc it's putting you IN it* and showing you the sheer, uncaring violence of it, and now you're finally understanding why the thing with the chimp (also???? Fucking horrifying???? But ngl it was also weirdly satisfying to see it fictionally portrayed??? bc yes, a chimp will fuck you up, just leave them be and shit like this won't happen ffs) exists in a movie about horse ranchers trying to film a UFO

*😏if you've watched it, do u.. do u see what I did there😏😏😏 also I might need to make another post with spoilers bc im a bit obsessed with it rn, I'm pretty sure they even snuck in an Akira reference (especially cuz they did the very obvious motorcycle slide later)

#nope #jordan peele

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3dayweeknd · 5 months ago

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heres another stupid vent. very specific kinda graphic at some point(s) pretty much for my eyes only. tw: themes of s/a or sexual trauma, themes of body image/insecurity, depression, s/h, hospitalization, mental health, immplication of violence ?? idk

why does my brain choose the most random times to remind me of literally the worst memories i have. like not even related to each other or related to what im doing. im gonna write it here cuz i dont feel like telling anyone here's all the worst memories my brain posses a) the worst fight i can remember my parents having i was in elementary school probably not older than like 7 and they were fighting in the car and my dad said something that really made me scared and i've never told anyone what he said because its really scary and i think that was one of the first times i remember being terrified of him. i fear being with a man because any man could say what he said to my mother that day any man could do what he said and its terrifying because we were in a moving car too so if i was ever in that situation i wouldnt have an escape. i've been scared watching my parents fight plenty but the fight in the car is something i am too afraid to tell anyone about. b) my ex sticking their finger inside me without my consent. i closed my eyes and was in so much pain and they took my writhing in pain as a sign of pleasure. so when they were done they said see you liked it. so you must not be asexual. because i thought i was asexual at that time and my ex thought it was appropriate that they be the person to try to convince me otherwise. c) same ex. begged me to suck them off. i said i was scared. and i said i was scared i would choke. i did not get any reassurance and i did not get any "okay we can do something else". i got a shush because what if their mom hears me talking about head and then more pleading. followed by head pushing. in which i tried to resist because I was terrified and i was disgusted and i tried to force myself back up but could not and they kept going. i wish i did choke. i wish i choked and threw up and scraped them and cried and let someone hear. d) being pressured into allowing head and then being told i "really stank". ok bitch i didnt want you in my pants in the first place i was 15. e) im literally still talking about the same partner. was asked when the last time i shaved or waxed my peach fuzz was. my peach fuzz is my #1 insecurity like ever since i was in kindergarten. i said i havent in a while. i was severely depressed and was not taking care of myself. they said yeah its obvious and i was overdue for a shave or wax. f) being talked to about buying condoms because ex said "i assume we're going to have sex eventually". still, i was 15. i thought i was asexual. i was severely depressed. i did not want to have sex. but i was not asked. g) ex pleaded me to masturbate over facetime. when i was 15. living at an inpatient hospital. because of how depressed i was. i was so fucking tired i was so tired of faking it. i pretended and i was bad at pretending at that point i just wanted it to stop. and they said why do you look like that. oh maybe because im tired of pretending for you. maybe because i was where i was because i couldnt find comfort in you and found comfort in cutting myself maybe because you were the worst partner ever i dont care if we were just kids. many other 16 year olds have been better partners. these memories are mostly about my 1st ex and i know its been years but i still hurt. i'm better than i was but i still hurt and im still angry and i still feel 15 and scared sometimes. anyway. not sure why my brain decided to remember all of these at the same time stupid fucking brain

#vent #tw sui ideation #tw sh #tw sa implied #tw hospitalization #tw mental illness #tw depression #tw body insecurity

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blogblogbloggittyblog · 9 months ago

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may 11-14, 2022

im gonna try to write about my feelings again because maybe thatll make me feel less like shit all the fucking time. i dont even understand why im so upset about this. like. i think its cuz i romanticized the shit out of him and let myself believe that he liked me and i kinda allowed myself to be vulnerable around him and that he was there when me and noah broke up so he like kinda helped me a lot that night and idk he is rly nice and maybe i was literally in love with him or still am. and maybe the problem is that i realized how shitty that i am that he couldn’t even wanna be friends with me. maybe im such a selfish manipulative bitch that even he couldnt handle it. and i thought that he liked me and maybe that made me feel good about myself. but also i felt like shit because i fucking cheated on noah basically. and he told me i deserved better and i thought he would be the better one but he had a girlfriend and that already made me feel like shit and that time we kissed it was the most pathetic thing ive ever done because it was bad. it was bad and he thinks im pathetic and idk how to stop it i think the root issue is that i think that he thinks im a pathetic stupid idiot bitch liar. and maybe i am. god i hate him but i have no right to because all ive heard is good things about him. god. what the fuck. i need to move on from this but i quite literally dont know how to do that without getting some sort of closure but also THATS SO FUCKING STUPID BECAUSE U DIDNT DO ANYTHING AND HE DOESNT OWE U ANYTHING god.

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think the main issue is that im not a good person and i hate people who are better than me and i guess that makes me even worse. like i hate cameron because she’s quite literally perfect. and it makes me fucking hate myself. shes so pretty and confident and smart and articulate and talented and she has all that i want rly. i saw her and thomas adams today and it literally made me wanna die. im never gonna have that. no matter how much i delude myself into thinking that im this nice hot smart person. no one has ever wanted me for more than a year. if that. i hate myself. i genuinely can’t think of one thing i like about myself. because im not good at school. im not good at art, i havent made a single decent thing in like half a year, i dont do anything outside of school, im ugly, and not skinny, and a liar and im not a good daughter. i hate myself. i think i like being in relationships because then the person can fall in love with some weird fake version of me and i can believe that maybe im half-decent. harry is just another example of how i cant maintain relationships that i care abt. i dont even think i have any genuine friends. im pretty sure they all dislike me severely. god. i. suck.

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im literally in love w him or smth because he’s so nice and i want him to fucking like me too i wish he did how do i get him to like me but also i want noah back because it was so much easier and i could just love him and he loved me and it wasn’t turbulent and weird. and dustin is nice but that’s abt it. i like him but that’s all there is to it and i feel bad for like asking him on a date cuz fuck. but harry is different because he doesn’t even like me lnao and i want him to like me so bad i want him to be in love with me and go out w me and be my fucking bf and it’s so stupid and pathetic but i like him sm

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impermanence of life it’s funny how i really thought we were gonna be together for a long time and how i thought i’d love him for so long not just him but seb too like i thkught she was it like that was the end and it’s so scary how blinding and deceiving and deluding it is to be in love or at least think that u are. even when i tried to be so so so overly pessimistic and realistic with noah i still rly thkught we’d be together for at least a couple years i mean im glad we didn’t cuz like then it’d be even fucking harder to get over it but yeah and i loved him i loved him so much and he made me light up and he loved me too and he also wanted to be with me and that somehow makes it even worse the fact that it’s a mutual temporary affliction jt sucks

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and like it’s so fuckinf scary how in love i was even with noah like so blindly in love or maybe it was good and i just don’t remember i wonder if there’s another universe where we’re still together . i don’t wanna be in it because i know we could both find someone who fits with us better but god it sucks when someone loves you so much and makes you feel so good but then they slip away even if they don’t want to

#2022

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sl33pyperson · 2 years ago

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threats on the table: solas (ofc, hes the name of the game), venatori (gotten stronger in power after inquisition apparently? ive frantically been reading wiki pages), red lyrium templars (meredith wants to Wipe Out tevinter.)

this rant got kinda long and im just spitballing so

super scared we’re gonna get the venatori/tevinter vs templars plot treated really similar to the general mage n templar war, “wow inquisitor you chose One Option and now its over congrats! dont think about the consequences or ripple effect of any of these actions it doesnt matter! you just have a different skin on your soldiers!“

solas taking the red templars and using them to cause general chaos? yeah? hes used the venatori for his own means before?? i might just be misremembering what solas actually wants, but tldr its tearing down the veil to bring back old days where spirits n magic was everywhere? red templars seem P Bad for that plan then

WAIT THE BOOKS ARE ACTUALLY IMPORTANT IM JUST. GONNA COPY PASTE ALOT OF THINGS FROM THE WIKI

“The Carta assassin says that Solas wants the lyrium idol, retrieved from Meredith's statue thanks to a potion” “The Orlesian bard claims that he saw Solas retrieve the idol from an auction house“ “Their stories indicate that Solas has already started the ritual he intends to use to restore the elven empire, that it involves and has already started to affect the Fade, and that it requires the lyrium idol.“ theres another book where a venatori danarius has stolen the idol from something but the wiki says thats probably Before The Dread Wolf Take You

solas is literally using red lyrium to break down the veil!!!!! having meredith and her soliders everywhere would be so useful as conductors for whatever the fuck he wants to do???

screaming crying but its also the taint!!!! if theres another fucking archdemon im going to die!!!! but the wardens literally wanted to prematurely bring along the rest of the “blights“ by killing the sleeping archdemons so aoudhssdafiuhdf

bring along the world you destroyed previously by destroying the current world!!! fucking THANKS solas!!!!!

i got so fucking. distracted by solas i forgot the main bit of why i started this.

Who You Choose As Divine Is Really Important For How Many Templars There Are

also considering that REALLY good post going around about “why tf did divine justinia even make the inquistion in the first place“ “so she could destroy the mages and have the seekers as better templars but everywhere“

LELIANA: destroys circles as a whole, templars would still be around as a form of “security“ and shitty cop sbc i really doubt the chantries everywhere would give them up. theres still demons and possessions and ppl dont let go of the old ways. CONSIDER!!!! you can literally kill leliana in dao. she could be a spirit. shes also in the absolution mission scenes (still think she would do that even as divine but whatever) i really fucking doubt they would choose leliana as biowares canon, bc they hate mages, u can kill her, circles in nevarra are still mentioned in absolution.

CASS: reinvents a new form of circle and templar order. templars still around. she is STILL working for the inquisition tho, so like, i really doubt shes the canon one purely bc of absolution. if they didnt show cass giving those orders i would be less hard about this.

VIVIENNE: hardens up both circles and templars in the old way. oh my god. so many templars everywhere i bet, i forgot specifics its been a really long time but like. it seems like most likely at this point. vivienne is around no matter what, she doesnt care for the inquisition, shes the most “Eh, doesnt matter that much to other character choices“ one around

tldr oh my god if the red templars are actually able to go and infect other templars, and if vivienne is divine, they’re gonna have a huge fucking army and that makes them scary!!! i also hope who is divine changes the number or the tactics of the red templar army in game. but its bioware so prob not alas

#speaking time #absolution spoilers #kinda maybe whenever i mention the templars i feel i have to tag it

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robitherat · 2 years ago

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Finally actually talked to my mom abt how I think I'm autistic and it went better than I expected so yay 4 me

#robi rambles #autism #i told her i dont want a gormal diagnosis but i do still use the word for myself and she was like #'i guess i jist want to know what youre gaining from it #not that its bad to be autistic or call ypurself that but just why its important to.'#and im like. well i mean maybe im not gaining anything really but like im not losing anything either so #and she just kinda went 'qlright fair enough'#and i told her abput my autism quotient result and how i talked to my doctor abt it and stuff and she reacted pretty well 2 all of it #so thats uhm. rlly cool #it got brought up bc we had a meeting about my IEP and decided that i didnt need one #which like #whatever it doesnt really matter anyways. im almost halfway through my senior year of hs and i probs wont have much in terms #of math classes in college. and math is going shockingly well rn and since i only need the one semester theres literally no point #mom and i are both frustrated w the fact that the school psych took so fucking long to get into contact tho bc a big reason that its #pointless now is bc she just. never. tlaked to us. until most of the way thru september #abd then i didnt do any testing for it until october. so. uh. yeah its kind of on her tbh #anyway none of it matters i had a mostly.positive interaction w my mom about a scary topic so its a Win

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romanarose · 2 years ago

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Sunshine, Starlight, Sweetheart, Brightside Chapter 13

Steven Grant X OC (Sam)

Masterlist here

Chapter 12 : Chapter 14

Summary: Sam has a bad day, and after everything that happened over the weekend, Steven wants to take care of her.

This is a part of my ongoing fic, but this chapter can be read as a one shot if you use context clues. That last convo might not make sense but most of the fic is just Steven being cute as hell. Only thing you really need to know is Sam has SH wounds on her ankles that Steven recently found out about.

WARNINGS: SH scars referenced, nakedness, P in V sex, fingering, oral (M receiving), hair pulling, uuuuhhhhhh I think that's it.

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Steven had asked Sam to come over that Monday after work. He wanted to pick her up, but Sam said that Jess and her were walking together as she was going this way. All the better to get everything ready for her. He wanted to treat her today, and had spent his time after work getting everything ready. She had promised to be more open about her feelings, and had called him between classes. “You know how I said I’d talk to you when I was sad?”

“Yes?”

“Is it wrong if I feel sad literally two days latter?”

“No, no not at all love. Are you alright?”

“No.”

Sam said she didn’t know why she was sad. That was the problem with depression, wasn't it? She just wanted to hear his voice. Steven vowed to himself to treat her special tonight.

When Sam got to Steven’s, she looked beat. Still, she smiled as she walked in “Hello, Sunshine.” She looked sad.

Steven quickly walked over, carrying her triple berry tea over to her “Do you want to talk about anything?”

Sam sighed a small sigh “Not really. I wish I had an actual reason to be sad. It would make things easier. My feet hurt and I’m tired. Austen fell and hit his nose today and started bleeding and that kinda freaked me out, it was just a flood of emotions and it kinda threw me off all day… I don’t know if that’s what did it, or not…”

“Oh love, is he okay?” Austen was Sam’s absolute favorite kid at the playschool. She talked about him frequently and sometimes even babysat him. She had bonded with the family and cared deeply for him.

“He’s okay, he climbed on a chair and before I could get him, it tipped him over and he hit his nose. It was just blood everywhere. I felt so bad, I should’ve been watching him…”

“No, that’s not your fault, you know how fast 3 year olds are.”

“I know, I know. He just… he didnt breathe for a second, I think he was choking on spit or maybe it was a shock reaction… I hit his back a few times, not hard or anything, he started breathing again. It was really scary…”

“That sounds terrifying, but you did good, you got him breathing again.”

“Yeah, changing his clothes and cleaning him was hard, I just cried getting the blood cleaned… His nose had been super dry this winter so there was so much blood. I texted his mom, she wasn’t mad or anything. It’s just between that, I feel kinda beat. I know working at a daycare shouldn’t be this exhausting but my god, why do my legs hurt so much” She took a deep sip of the tea “mmmm, love, this is a great flavor. Is this sugar?”

Steven kissed her forehead “Yes, no splenda on my watch. And it sounds like a stressful day. It makes sense that your feet hurt, I’ve seen you at work, it’s physical. Luckily, I have a surprise for you. First, lets eat”

“A surprise?” She beamed at him

“Mhm, but first, let's eat.”

The dinner was delicious. Sam loved Steven’s food, he seasoned more than most of London combined. When she was finished, Steven took her hand and led her to the bathroom where Sam found a bathtub and a candle that smelled like berries. “Steven…”

“One moment, my love”

Steven stepped out and when he returned, he had the kettle from the stove and poured it into the tub “Should be about right now” he tested the tub with his fingers “Oh yeah, that’s perfect.” He took out a bag and poured the contents into the bath, giving the water a stir.

“What’s that?”

“Epsom salt. It’ll help your legs and feet, but it’ll also help with your ankles”

Sam had commented the day before that her scars were irritated. Sam had been picking at the scabs and her right ankle had gotten rather swollen from an infection. Steven didn’t chastise her for picking at them, but made a mental note to help with the wounds.

“Steven… oh honey…” Sam felt her heart melting, she looked at the beautiful man before her, tan skin glowing in the candle light. “Can I borrow some clothes so I can stay tonight?”

“I actually… I got some stuff already for you.”

“What?”

“I have a drawer for you. I bought some clothes and a toothbrush, face wash, pads, you know.”

“What? Since when?”

“I got it after we got back from Bath… I wanted to be prepared for whenever you needed to stay over, or if you wanted to stay and didn’t bring anything…”

“Steven… That's so sweet…”

“Here.” he handed her a glass of wine. “There’s a cup of water too, make sure you drink that” When Steven looked at her again, he saw her eyes tearing up “Is everything okay? Is it too much?”

“Oh Steven…” She hugged him as tightly as she could with a glass of wine “All this for me? You really love me this much? After everything?”

Steven was not holding anything, so he held her as tight as possible “After everything? Whatever could you mean?”

Sam pulled away “After me yelling at you and being a drunken mess all weekend…”

“Oh love, my Sunshine, let’s not talk about that. I am so in love with you, I don’t think I could ever put it into words.”

“Thank you, for everything you do for me.”

“Come on, let's get you outside of those clothes. Marc and Jake have left for the evening, it’s just you and me.”

With old folk music playing in the background, Steven took off Sam's shirt, gently pulling it over her head. Next, he walked behind her and unclasped her bra, sliding the straps over her shoulders and softly tossing it to the side. He stepped in front of her and knelt down, rolling off her leggings, helping her step out of them. Sam tried to take her socks off, saying that they were gross, but Steven insisted, taking them off slowly, being mindful of the burns. Kneeling down at her feet still, he took off her underwear, sliding the garment down her legs. The wasn’t so much sexual as it was sensual. It was intimate, loving, and gentle. Sam looked at him kneeling before her as he looked up to meet her eyes as she stood naked in front of him. He looked angelic, his large brown eyes gazing at her face adoringly. Her naked body drew his eyes momentarily, and she could see the desire in his eyes, but Steven had an evening planned.

He stood up, holding her hand as she stepped in the tub “How is the water, love?”

She looked deeply in his eyes “Perfect” Not just the water, not just the evening, but him. She lowered herself into the water, the warmth encasing her sore body.

Steven knelt at the end while she was sitting at “Let me wash your hair, Sweetheart.”

“Okay” Sam whispered, touched by the intimacy.

Steven shampooed her hair, using a cup to rinse. He then got the conditioner out, pouring it onto his hands before taking to her scalp.

“Since when do you use conditioner, mr. two-in-one?”

Steven smiled “I got some from the store. The shampoo too. You stay over enough, you deserve to have good hair care.”

“You… you got special shampoo and conditioner for me?”

“Mhm” Steven was massaging her scalp as he rubbed the conditioner into her curls. He nodded at the bottle “It’s for thick and curly hair.”

Sam chuckled, reaching to touch his mass of curly dark hair “You should start using it, I think you’ll enjoy it. Nice and soft for me to run my fingers through.”

Steven smiled at her “Maybe I will, all the better for you to pull, my dear” He planted a kiss on her temple. He rinsed her hair, took out a clothe and began washing her body.

“Steven…” Sam was overwhelmed, relishing in the feeling of him taking such care of her body. She knew it wasn’t his intention, but she was turned on. He was so gentle, so slow, so sensual. Tangled up in Blue by Bob Dylan was playing, adding to the aesthetic. He gently washed the warm water on her shoulders, her torso, her chest.

Early one morning the sun was shining

I was laying in bed

Wondering if she'd changed at all

If her hair was still red

As Steven washed her up her leg, she removed the wash cloth from his hand, placing his large hand over her aching sex. Sam gasped at the feeling, she thought she could never get tired of it. Briefly, guilt took over when she felt his scabbed knuckles and hand from the mirror, knowing that happened because of her, but she was soon distracted by warmth in her stomach.

And I was standing on the side of the road

Rain falling on my shoes

Heading out for the East Coast

Lord knows I've paid some dues

Getting through, Tangled up in blue

He began massaging her clit as she held his hand to her, watching as her chest heaved, taking in slow breaths. He admired her soft skin, taking in the smell of the candle that illuminated her.

We drove that car as far as we could

Abandoned it out west

Split up on a dark sad night

Both agreeing it was best

“I’m supposed to be relaxing you” Steven spoke soft, tenderly, but didn’t stop, moreso he sped up his actions

“This will relax me” She kept her hand on top of his, moving it along herself.

But all the while I was alone

The past was close behind

I seen a lot of women

But she never escaped my mind

And I just grew, Tangled up in blue

Steven shifted, keeping his right hand working her, and with his left hand, he inserted two thick fingers into her. Sam swallowed thickly, studying his face as he watching himself finger fuck her.

And later on as the crowd thinned out

I's just about to do the same

She was standing there in back of my chair

Said to me, Don't I know your name?

“Fuck, Steven” She felt his arms “Jesus Christ, why is everything about you so… thick.”

Steven smiled, watching his work, watching her body react as she unraveled.

I muttered somethin' under my breath

She studied the lines on my face

I must admit I felt a little uneasy

When she bent down to tie the laces

Of my shoe, Tangled up in blue

“I love you so much, you know that right? I would do anything for you.”

“I know Steven, fuck, I know” Sam was growing breathless, her head hung back onto the walls of the bathroom.

And every one of them words rang true

And glowed like burnin’ coal

Pourin’ off of every page

Like it was written in my soul from me to you

Tangled up in blue

“Fuck, I’m close” Sam whined.

Steven looked at Sam, face flush, hair wet, responding to every touch “You’re so beautiful, Darling, god, just stunning.” He kissed her deeply, rediscovering her mouth for the millionth time.

She had to sell everything she owned, And froze up inside

And when finally the bottom fell out, I became withdrawn

The only thing I knew how to do

Was to keep on keepin’ on like a bird that flew, Tangled up in blue

Steven touched his forehead to Sam’s as he felt her get close. He moved his right hand to touch her pretty face. He continued vigorously fingering her, using his thumb to circle her clit. He looked into her eyes “Come when you’re ready darling.”

But me, I’m still on the road

Headin’ for another joint

We always did feel the same

We just saw it from a different point of view

Tangled up in blue

Steven felt her orgasm on his fingers as Sam maintained eye contact. Her body tensed for a few moments, and then relaxed into the water with a sigh. She sunk deeper into the water, allowing it to come over her breasts. Steven took a dry towel and dabbed her forehead. “So pretty, my pretty girl.” He kissed her hand. “I’ll be back in a bit, try to relax.”

“Sound of Silence '' By Simon and Garfunkle came on, Steven changed the song.

“Hey, I love that song.” Sam complained.

“I know, but I know you.” “Carey” By Joni Mitchelle took over. “You’ll get sad.”

“Fine.” She smiled at him lovingly. He knew her heart, every inch.

A kiss on the forehead “I love you, Just Sam”

“I love you, Steven with a V.”

When Steven came back 15 minutes later, Sam had drank her wine and her water, and was feeling sleepy in the tub “Ready, Sweetheart?”

“Yeah” Sam yawned.

Steven drained the tub and helped Sam stand up, taking a towel and drying her by hand. He wrapped her in the towel and scooped her up, carrying Sam near the bed, standing her up. Steven pulled out a pair of flannel PJ’s from a drawer “This drawer is yours, it has some pijamas, a few t-shirts and pants and socks. Nothing fancy. There’s some pads and tampons under the bathroom sink if you need them.”

Sam maneuvered her arms as Steven slipped the buttoned flannel top on “Steven, this is amazing… No one has ever done anything like this for me…”

Steven helped her slip into the pants “You deserve nothing but love, Sam, I hope you know that…”

Sam sat down at the bed as Steven knelt at her again, putting triple antibiotic cream on the open wounds “I’m beginning to learn that, I think” and it was true. The way Steven treated her made her feel like she was worthy of love. She had felt loved before. Her brothers and sisters were her life blood, she knew Chris loved her. No one would try to deflect their dad's anger onto themselves if they didn’t love her. She knew her kids loved her. She knew her friends loved her. But Steven made her feel like she was worthy of it all.

“We should let these breathe tonight, I have the fuzzy socks you like, but I turned up the heat so hopefully your toes will be okay. But I think air will help them”

“I’m sorry” she looked up at him as he stood above her.

“Whatever are you apologizing for?”

“You have to take care of the wounds I put on myself…”

He took her hands in his, knelt between her knees “Oh sweetheart, I will spend the rest of my life helping you in whatever way possible. Please, never feel like you have to hide a part of yourself from me. If you are happy, if you are sad, if you are scared, I will be there. If you feel like you need to hurt yourself to get through something, you can talk to me. If you do hurt yourself, you don’t need to hide it. I will be there to bandage you up, every time. You bring me so much joy. I want to spend my life with you, making you feel as happy as you make me.”

Sam kissed him gently, then rested her forehead on his “The rest of your life?” tears were brimming at her eyes.

“If you’ll have me”

“Always.”

Sam kissed him intensely, pulling him up to her. “Lay on the bed” She brought a hand to his pants, stroking him, feeling him growing in her hands “Your turn.”

“Tonight is about you…” but he didn’t stop her.

“And I want this” Sam carefully stood up, never breaking the kiss. She moved him to the bed, laying him down and climbing on above him. She rutted on top of him, feeling him get hard beneath her and relished knowing that she did this to him. “Fuck, love”

When he was ready, she moved down his body and lowered his pajama pants just low enough to take out his cock. She licked from the base to the tip, swirling her tongue at the head. Sam heard Steven whine for her, but she continued to play with him, taking his balls in her hand to give them attention. She teased him, kissing and licking along the base, then taking only the tip in her mouth before going back to licking.

Steven inadvertently bucked his hips “Sweetheart, please” he pleaded for her.

“Be patient, my love” She sat up and spit into her right hand, taking his hard cock in her fist, stroking it “You’re doing so good, Sunshine, let me take care of you.”

A shaky breath “O-okay.” he stuttered out, gripping the sheets.

Sam decided to have mercy on him, leaning down and taking him in her mouth. She made her way down his cock, feeling him take her hair in his hand. “Oh god, oh god that’s good, you’re so good to me.” he sucked in his breath as he threw his head back onto the pillow.

Sam sucked in on his dick, swirling her tongue around Steven’s frenulum and felt him grip her hair, hard.

He let go and gently smoothed out the hair “Sorry love” Steven apologized.

Sam sat up a bit “That’s okay, I like it” she smiled at him and he smiled back. She went back down, using one hand and twisting it around the base.

“I’m close, fuck” he warned, gripping so hard on the sheet, it pulled off the corner of the bed.

“Not yet, baby.” She climbed on top of him “I want you inside me” Sam pulled down her pants just past her hips and leaned over to kiss Steven harshly “I want you so badly”

She lined him up with her entrance and slid back, taking him fully. “Fuuuuck you feel good baby, you always fill me up so perfectly, it’s like you were made for me” Sam rocked on him, feeling him twitch inside her. He continued kissing him along his lips, jaw, and neck as he came inside her.

She pulled her pants up and walked about the bed to go to the bathroom. She stopped by his bedside where he lay in ecstasy, pulling his pants up and pulling a blanket over him with a kiss, admiring his lush, kiss bruised lips.

When she came back, she climbed up in the bed and cuddled next to him, feeling warm, clean, and relaxed. “I feel so much better my love… My body feels better, I feel less stressed, I feel happy… Thank you for everything you do for me…”

Steven was smiling at her, his eyes looking at her adoringly “Do you believe in love at first sight?”

Sam giggled.

“I’m serious love,” he touched her cheek with the back of his hand.

Sam gave him a quick kiss “I’m sorry honey, I was just taken aback is all”

“It’s okay, I just… I think it was love at first sight for me… I don’t mean you have to feel the same way, when we met was a distressing time… but when I saw you I just. I was awestruck. You were beautiful and the way you were fighting back… I just saw you and wanted to spend my life protecting you, before I even saw your face.”

Sam nuzzled her head onto Steven's chest “Do you know the Savage Garden song, ‘I knew I loved you’?”

“Yeah.”

“The line goes ‘I knew I loved you before I knew you, I think I dreamed you into life’ and it’ like… You know how you always have this idea of a perfect partner and you think ‘no way this person is real’. I pulled traits from fictional men I was obsessed with as a teen… Do you remember when you met my brother and he commented something like “you ended up with a Grant after all”?”

“Yes, Marc thought it was an ex boyfriend of yours”

Sam laughed “Not quite, I wish. I loved Dr. Grant from Jurassic Park. So Grant and Grant. I’m rambling… but I just think about how I’d pick out traits from men and some were these contradicting things… but with you, I get it all. I really do feel like I loved you before I knew you, just like the song.”

Steven smiled lovingly, brushing hair from her eyes “You are Marc seem to be coming along nicely.”

Laughing, Sam replied “I think so. I want to talk to him about it. I wanted to run it by you… I thought I could make him dinner and tell him…”

A kiss on the forehead “I think that would be good.”

“Don’t tell him, I want to surprise him.”

“I won’t… just…” Steven traced her back with his finger “Just be prepared that… Well you remember the scarf”

“Yeah, yeah I remember scarf-gate”

Steven laughed brightly and laughed into Sam’s shoulder “Scarf-gate, that’s a good one”

“Thanks” Sam giggled “I know he might react badly… But it might go well… I think I love him, Steven.”

Steven knew he should probably feel jealous, but he didn’t. Marc was a part of him, if she loved Marc, she just loved another part of him “I’m so glad. I just want us all to be happy”

“I know you do sweetheart, I know you do.”

Sam fell asleep on Steven’s chest.

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