#but yeah sex under the influence of a libido enhancing drug remains a huge no no for me

[longinglook]

you know a show is Good when it leaves me so emotionally drained i have no strenght to go back and make gifs of it. this episode was soooo well done and well acted but i will need some time before i can watch it again. just... apo as porsche is so good i am in so much pain for him. I know this isn't a light and fun show by any means (although it still manages to have its moments of comedy and it does them well) but oof there's so many layers and if you don't stop at the first there's so much darkness and it takes a toll. it's on me for not being used to watching shows like this so i end up drained of all energy and i have so many things i want to gif but it's so hard for me to watch and not imagine the characters' inner thoughts and feelings and thinking about how porsche must be feeling was so distressing. i used the word haunting in my tags a couple of posts ago and yeah, there's just so much going on under the surface and i feel like different people will read this in different ways but to me it was just very hard to watch (in a good way! meaning everyone did an excellent job!)