#but worse cuz its livestreams

[itsbebebrainrotting]

WHAT. THE FUCK. HAVE THEY DONE. TO THE TWITCH MOBILE APP.

[ajjconcertat2am]

imagine 10 years from now we are all watching some baby that Mr Beast bought slowly live its life in a 24 hr broadcasted youtube original television show and actors pause to deliver a feastables chocolate bar ad and basically im describing the trueman show buts its worse because mr beast will have guest star youtubers on random days and there would be like 10000s of youtube videos being like " trying to break into beast HQ and save Beast Jr GONE WRONG!!!(gone sexual???) Roblocks Roleplay " and there wouldnt exactly be a lot of discourse about how bad it is cuz mr beast somehow gets it to be done legally but also most people know how fucked it is but not much can be done but protest

but THERE IS a lot of discorse about streamer reacts around the livestream because they are contributing to the commodification of an unknowing life but then people would argue its actually good because it gives the channel less veiws aka less dollars or sm shit and the stream chat would be akin to the seinfield ai chat where everyone spams SELF AWARE and NEW RESTAURANT or React frog images also you just know theres people who will be so so toxic about every thing this poor mr beast child has done with his glass walls glass roof idk do you see where im going with this / how fun it is to imagine false youtube internet futures

[zerobaseonefics]

I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU FOR THE ADVICES AND FOR YOUR HELP YOU ARE SOSOSOSOSO NICE☹️🫶 IF YOU ACCEPT EMOJI ANONS TO KNOW WHO IS WHO OR SOMETHING THEN I WOULD LOVE TO BE „🤍” IM THE FRIEND FROM GERMANY BTW OH AND YOU AND ME TOMORROW BOTH ANXIOUS BECAUSE BOYS PLANET ELIMINATIONS AND WE BOTH CSNT WATCH BUT YOU LITERALLY HAVE WORSE THAN ME BECAUSE OF YOUR EXAMS AND LIKE I HAVE THERAPY TOMORROW FOR SBOUT THE SAME TIME IT STARTS BUT SINCE MY THERAPY STARTS A BIT LATER THAN THE BEGINNING OF THE LIVESTREAMING AND IT DOESNT EVEN TAKE A WHOLE HOUR SO I HOPE I WILL BE SBLE TO WATCH LIKE THE REST AND BE SBLE TO VOTE FOR MY HUSBAND (sorry im so delulu over him i cant handle it) JUNHYEON 😔😔 AND LIKE IF HE WONT DEBUT I WILL DO A LOVE DIVE FROM MY WINDOW (i live on the33rd floor 😍) and i have so much to tell my therapist but i keep forgetting everything and i cant talk to him in genz way because hes a bit bit bit older and i have to stay serious and he doesnt understand me at all because of my non german accent👲 i mispronounce a lot of words yes but like come on im not that bad roght??? likr everyone literally can understand me talking in german😐😐 BUT YES AGAIN I WISH YOU FOR TOMORROW:

THE GOOD OF THE MOST GOOD GOODEST LUCKS EVER!!!🫶🫶🫶

~🤍 (if its okay i would love to be your this kind of anon because i feel like you help me a lot and im thsnkful to you// btw you can call me „pure” because (imo) thats what represents the 🤍)

hEYYYYYYYY PURE 🩶

bro don't worry i'm glad if i can help you in any way!! i do accept emojis anon! it's better than calling each other german and french friend 😭

WAIT I JUST REALIZED YOURE THE ANON I TALK WITH ABOUT THERAPY :0 I WAS WONDERING HOW THEY WERE DOING DJDJJE

i just hope your appointment is gonna be alright omg don't worry about my exam i'm a bad bitch i will pass it with no problems (i will cry and pray god) ✋🏼

your therapist be pissing me off fr 💀 i absolutly understand what you're saying cuz im kinda experiencing the same,,,, i was born and raised in france but since my dad is vietnamese and my mom is algerian the first languages i learnt are arabic and viet. sometimes, i pronounce french words the wrong way and people would act like they didn't understand at all LIKE GIRL STFU IT WAS VERY MUCH UNDERSTANDABLE 💀💀💀 plus german prononciation is so hard can't he leave you >:(

me and you if junhyeon is not in the top 9 :

i'll probably do the same as you and go to the live once my exam is done... can't wait for tomorrow omg i will be waiting for your opinion on the finale line up

good luck for tomorrow's appointment, have a nice day pure <3

[rosegoldenatlas]

bedtime.

bad day

good things:

got some gifts for christmas

listened to the ithica saga from epic the musical

watched a fun show

bad things:

started writing a suicide note and saying my goodbyes, planning on killing myself over the weekend. friend managed to talk me out of it and get me to delete the note but i still kinda want to. i probably wont and you dont have to worry about me but i wish i was dead

ate way too much candy and hate myself

was a useless fuck all day

im annoying as shit

i genuinely wish my family was dead. i wish i never saw them again. i hate them so much

but yeah

hope you had a nice christmas/hanukkah/whatever you celebrate

sleep well

stay awesome

Hope the gifts were good

Holy shit me too did you see the livestream yet?

Ooo what's the show??

I want to hug you. I wish I was there to give you a big giant hug and throw weighted stuffed animals at you and get you a nice heavy blanket to keep you cozy. I'm glad you had a friend with you to help you out yeah?

Yeah, eating a lot of candy does that to me too. Sometimes it resets my whole 'I don't gaf abt how I look I'm gorgeous' attitude I force upon myself every day (to spite my mom who thinks 120 at 5'4 is fat like bitch I'll show you fat after I stop wanting to rip my stretch marks off just you wait) into more of a 'ewwww why do I look like that I don't think I'll be showering actually I'll just use a soapy cloth and then only wear sweaters and oversized shit but also tight height waisted pants that are so tight it makes it feel like someone is pulling my skin apart lol' kind of vibe

Omg I am jealous. I want to just be lazy but nooooo I have to socialize

Hey wait nuh uh. Not to me your not!!!

Soon. Soon you moved out and can yell at them and then they can't so shit about it without charges!!! And you can watch as their household gets more and more dysfunctional without you bc of all of the heavy lifting you've been doing

If you couldn't tell. My day was shit too. Sorry I'm a day late again. I've been coping with everything being out of control in my life by controlling what I can which is online interaction (I've stopped with the whole controlling my pain thing bc it made it worse I think I dunno (I think it's cuz physical pain has always been out of my control but more manageable and emotional pain has always been the thing furthest from my control and if j can control that by self isolating and making it worse its kinda liberating??? (I love psychoanalyzing myself like this cuz its doing the thing!!! With the emotional control!!!)))

Avid Christmas celebrated bc even though I don't believe in God (and even if I did I don't think they can be all powerful and all good and I don't like their actions described in the bible) I like what that Jesus guy stood for bc he hated the law and had a cool hippie cult, gave to the poor, hated rich people, and trashed a temple market that one time (also he was a feminist). Also x-mas gifts

[maipareshaan]

Reaction channels for trainwreck youtubers are so weird and i don't mean those that drop long videos now and then, people livestream and livewatch and viewers give them superchat momey to have their text read like it so weird, i am obsessed but i would never pay to be in a group to talk and also the community part of it like they are so into it, i guess it is a tad like fandom obvs i mean the fans are pretty whiny haters (yes yes ironic i mean well sure but also perfectly captures d*sticule) but obvs its not the same, its like actor hate groups but not even that.

Like i have never had a convo with anyway about them, like maybe i have dropped a comment on youtube also i am not a hater i don't see the point of hating real people obvs i get the fascination and investment and the turning bitter but like its not your business just cuz a person airs things on the internet and if they say problematic stuff its very easy to ignore than continuously hatefully engage.

Anyways batshit, there is a video on amberlynn's haters but not of foodie beauty's.

Hmm she def probs has worse bcz she is worse, i was watching alex is shook bcz he has chill vibes, like i don't like hateful ppl, i have been seeing ffg and she is a hoot, she is hilarious but she name calls, ya anyways damn lol she wae reminiscing the crack olympics villa era cuz Chantal is leaving Canada and apparently she was live snatching Nader when the police showed up and he muted the live but he did not press it properly or something and they heard everything lol like nowhere else i can see why being in a community would be so fun when this shit was going down but damn that is so much commitment these people livestreamed everyday for hours.

[shoezuki]

I aint dug into the hbomb stuff much yet cuz Ya n like. I have seen bits n clips which still. Yknow. but regardless

I shall fuckin forever maintain that Streaming Apologies live fuckin sucks. Its on the spot. Often unscripted and spontaneous. They cant proof read what they have already said. Sometimes tones and the connotations of words dont come across in the way you want. Its SO easy to clip just Specific Things that are damning out of context. Theyre anxious and its frankly ALWAYS so scrambled n shitty.

Just make a fucking twitlonger. Think over whay you want to say, write it down, then read it over and over again until you feel confident that your point comes across. Or make a video just SOMETHING premade ffs

[torisprlng]

if its true the canadians saw it before us, we should've let them spoil. i at least went into game of thrones knowing the ending cus it was spoiled and never watched the last ep, but damn spn really made a worse ending, actually idk. getting killed by your lover or getting killed by a nail?

I would've preferred to have it spoiled & not try to rush home to watch the livestream. I was literally speeding risking a traffic ticket. but u know what...the rusty nail fucking wins as the worst ending for a hero who survived multiple apocalypses i can't even mourn dean's death cuz it was ridiculous & just disrespectful.

[wolferals]

⚡️celebrity crush⚡️

arón piper preference

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*

-so lets imagine you‘re a famous actress on some Netflix stuff

-it all started with an instagram livestream you were doing with your best friend on a boring Saturday night

-you guys were having fun, talking to the people and had like 30.000 people watching you

-you played dumb games, tried to speak different languages and just acted totally crazy

-at some point someone asked you what your favorite show besides your own was

-and you couldnt help but start talking about la casa de papel and elite

-you were basically fangirling on another level

-you told everyone to watch it

-cuz its good, duh

-you then were asked about your favorite character

-and you simply said „ander“ because he‘s been through so much but still stays positive and gaypride and all

-you know what i mean

-suddenly your friend screamed out loud while staring at her own laptop where she was reading the comments you guys got

-„omar ayuso is watching!“ she yelled

-„oh my god really?“ you freaked out and started fangirling even worse

-you were embarrassed but didnt care because you were so nervous

-„omg hiiii! Omar hi! Omg he‘s really watching?“

-„yeah he just sent a laughing emoji“ your friend replied shocked

-„oh my god.“ you got up and left the camera frame

-„he asked if he could join the stream.“ your friend then screamed loudly

-„WHAT THE FUCK! YES!“

-you jumped back onto your bed to look at the laptop screen

-not even 10 seconds later you saw a familiar boy‘s smile on your screen, waving at you

-„omg hi!“ you managed to say

-„hola! How are you?“ Omar asked with a cute little smile on his face

-„we‘re good. Im good. Oh my god hey!“

-you couldn’t speak

-„im glad to hear that.“

-you guys kept talking for like 2 minutes

-you were still sweating and fangirling

-he then asked „oh my friend just got here. Wanna say hi? He‘s a big fan.“

-you expected anyone but him

-Arón Piper‘s face then popped up on your screen

-wtf

-you freaked out even more

-„ANDER!“ your friend yelped

-Arón just stared and you and then clearly looked at Omar just to say something in Spanish

-but you didn’t understand

-but thank god your friend did

-she started giggling and whispered in your ear:“he said, what the fuck thats her. Shes like... gorgeous.“

-you became fucking red

-Omar then laughed and said „your chance to talk to her.“

-Arón and Omar both appeared on the screen

-arón looked fucking hot

-he was wearing a white shirt with a deep cut, revealing his tattoos

-„hola.“ he smiled shyly

-„hey.“ you grinned back at him

-he was definitely more attractive than you had thought

-„he‘s shy.“ Omar laughed and earned a resting bitch face from arón

-„he‘s a little fanboy dont take it personal.“

-you guys started laughing and kept on talking to Omar while Aron just looked at you through the screen and didnt really speak

-„we actually gotta go to our friend‘s birthday party. It was so amazing to talk to you, chicas.“ omar then said after a while

-„slide into my dms mr ayuso.“ your friend said in a serious tone but then laughed

-„will do preciosa, will do.“

-you then hung up and ended the livestream soon after

-after your friend had left you were laying in your bed

-out of boredom you then checked your Instagram

-aron had texted you

-„im sorry for what he said. Its not true😅“

-you started smiling

-„whats not true?“

-shortly after he replied:“I‘m not like a fanboy, im not obsessed with you or your work:)“

-you laughed out loud and answered:“thats too bad, cuz i might be obsessed with yours.“

-he then sent u a voice message saying „if thats the case, i‘d gladly talk about it. At dinner. Whenever you‘re free.“

-you couldnt believe it

-like

-he had

-asked you

-out.

-the handsome guy you secretly had a crush on asked you out

-wtf

-„i mean sure but how are we gonna do that? I dont live in Spain.“ you texted back

-„im sure we can find a way to go out.“

-„ya? Why so confidence suddenly?“

-as an answer he sent you that picture:

-you lowkey liked his cocky personality

-it was fun and different

-you then sent him that:

-thats how you met

-and the dinner was just the beginning.

[pluralthey]

hey uh. as an artist with depression, how do you sorta. make your brain have the capacity to acutally devote energy to doing art/coming up with ideas/being creative in general. my dumbass brain isnt even able to like. devote energy to typing sentences when its really bad ya know. if this is an odd question then uhhh yea you dont have to respond yeet

depression is not my biggest problem so i’m not sure i’d have good advice.first of all probably address HALT protocol to make sure all of the basics are taken care of and not making it worse.

coffee can be a good pick-me-up but you’ll develop something of a tolerance over time so it can’t be a perfect every day solution. probably divorce from your mind that you need to draw every day to be a good artist too. i hate hearing this from other people though because it feels like they’re not getting that i’m trying to say NOT drawing every day is usually making me feel worse cuz i like Want to draw every day so… grain of salt.coffee doesn’t even last long enough to do a whole illustration in one day so aim low, draw things that are fun and easy for you at first to build up Artist Confidence. also, drawing shit about being depressed might be easier to draw since it’s like you’re already in the mood anyway, very prepared, committed method acting.exercise also helps clear the fog or make me feel the emotional weight just bearing down on me feel a little lighter, but it’s just as hard to get motivated to exercise when depressed. i’m not talking like a jog or hard exercise, just a brisk walk for 10 minutes. this one gets easier once you’ve figured out it helps you feel better, if it does, ime. it also gets my appetite working sometimes which goes away when i’m depressed and it obviously gets worse from not eating enough or not enjoying the food enough.

try being nice to yourself also. i often have serious issues with repressing happy emotions out of fear that i’ll get hurt, so this is a huge one for me. human brains r really programmed to live with freedom or to just not want to live at all…find some good friends who know your immediate happiness and sense of security is more important than what they find Cringe and stay in contact w/them so you have some reinforcement when you finally do something you wanted to and go like “HOLY FUCKBALLS I HAVEN’T DRAWN IN 8 MONTHS AND I JUST MADE SOMETHING AND I THINK I MIGHT BE GOD NOW??” add some intentionally goofy voice to it or like a ton of exclamation points and 1′s to make it sound more satirical if it’s too embarrassing. don’t undercut it with “but this is bad” or “but i gave up here” internally in the moment, it’s okay to think critically about ur art but there are appropriate times and places and “when art is really hard to do AT ALL” is not one of those times.this one has been really important to me cuz it helps art feel like something that helps me feel better, it can be something i crave like less productive things such as video games if i let the actual mental reward happen.

all this shit has been just basic depression advice tho. my one thing that i never see anybody mention and one thing that really helps me buckle down on some days when it’s the worst is i will literally just livestream my canvas while a trusted loved one watches me work on it (or not work on it). when it’s really hard i just choose a more private site to stream on.disclaimer that i have SO many meltdowns and i cry and i yell at myself and i angrily scribble all over the canvas, it’s embarrassing and stupid but it’s become a reliable way to do something when i am REALLY desperate as long as i’ve taken care of myself otherwise. this is stuff my brain is usually trying to keep me from doing by just shutting down when staring at the canvas so it has to happen either way or just go months without confronting it, basically. this might be just a thing i experience because of a different disorder though.at all times aim to make sure you don’t have to handle this alone, even if it’s only for a few minutes while somebody helps w/a small thing by offering input, whatever.

that’s really all the advice i have from personal experience. sorry if it doesn’t help, doesn’t mean there’s anything wrong with you personally

[tratserenoyreve]

Why did you think KH3 "paled in comparison to KH2" and what's so great about KH2 in your opinion?

lemme break it down like this:

-while graphic fidelity is definitely much higher in kh3, many cinematic fights are not as well choreographed as those within kh2. it often looks floatier or more rushed.

-kh3’s combat attempts to slim things down to the point that it doesn’t feel like you grow beyond just having different equipment. once you have a weapon, you can do every move it has, and every single one is floaty feeling. i often felt a lack of control when fighting in kh3, and yet that combat was absurdly easy. i only “died” once, against that annoying flying boss, due to misunderstanding it and not actually taking damage myself.

kh2 meanwhile has extensive customization possible, between drive forms, magic setup, and abilities which let you dictate even how many swings you do in a combo. the control is tight, the parries and dodges feel impactful and important to the flow of combat.

-kh3’s plot is... poorly done, in many ways. the most universally acknowledged flaw is that of how useless the disney worlds feel. there often is literally no reason for you to go to these places and as you finish each one you wind up feeling like you gained nothing as plot happens in the background on other worlds. yen sid insinuates sora needs to recover his strength but your strength never actually scales in a way that reflects this. i felt the difficulty was not there, and that i never grew more powerful.

many characters have incredibly disappointing involvment in the game too. riku is set to the side, and often rendered laughably useless. he gets a full outfit change and haircut and is still a benched character. meanwhile, kairi, who was given buildup for years of becoming more battle ready, is immediately put on a bench and then fridged *twice*.

conversely, kairi and riku were CONSTANT active influences on the plot in kh2. riku is a tangible character who is there across multiple worlds, and even becomes a teammate who fights beside you at the end. kairi is present from the start and is actively pursuing her friends herself. they are vocal and have a level of depth to their behavior and reasoning we don’t get to see at all in kh3 on any similar level.

-kh3 has better banter, but worse characters. sora interacting with donald and goofy is the cherry on top of a sundae made with sugar free ice cream and oily whipped cream. that trio is absolutely at their best in kh3, which is what highlights how neglected the destiny trio’s relationships are.

in kh2, sora, riku, and kairi were always thinking of eachother. each of them. sora was looking forward to rescuing riku and bringing him home so they could BOTH play together with kairi again. riku was defending sora and doing his best to quietly guide kairi cuz he felt guilt for, in his mind, failing BOTH of them. kairi refused to hold on to just memories of riku, upon remembering sora was determined to save him, and made sure they BOTH got home.

instead, in kh3, we have the most bizarre behavior where nomura somehow wants us to believe their friendship isn’t the same?? even tho this is after multiple events that solidified the trio’s love of one another more and more??

-i’m still traumatized by the scene-by-scene recreations of tangled and frozen, god... dammit. monsters inc. world is golden, it does what kh2 had done, take a story setting and establish a original twist involving kingdom hearts. kh2 was lengthy as hell, but at least we had frequent original involvment in each setting. i absolutely love the hollow bastion/radiant garden sections, and it is something missing entirely from kh3.

we have these worlds that are gorgeous but shallow. each one is a one-and-done deal, where, as i said before, you feel so... uninvolved and unnecessary.

-the endgame content of kh3 is so goddamn disappointing and odd. the fights are so fast and simple, with the floaty combat i both felt out of touch and untouchable. roxas literally ends the fight with saix for you. in under 20 seconds. the mob fights are conceptually cool but wind up being a cluster where you pick each member off with little resistance or fanfare. also, the behavior of the characters does not match up with the experience of play. aqua can kick vanitas to a curb in battle but then cutscene comes in and says she struggled, which i did not feel at all seeing his health melt like butter beneath the heat of my firaga.

kh2’s endgame is an aesthetic and tactile treat. the scenery is so goddamn good, the boss fights are so well spaced, and they can kick your ass too and paired with the writing every angle of it screamed ESCALATION.

there is no actual tangible escalation in kh3. just a flat line and a sudden skip to The End once you hit the Badlands.

i can ramble for ages on this i guess, i didn’t intend to be so lengthy, but really in more ways than one kh2 is just... satisfying in ways kh3 isn’t. the plot, the writing, character development, action choreography, gameplay... you feel so involved in kh2 and it is famous among livestreamers and speedrunners for good reason, its a ride, its fun, its silly and weird but makes you feel invested, its what i wish every kingdom hearts could be.

[arttrampbelle]

Personal post do not reblog

Some rant and thoughts of late. Lgbt issues and feelings. Queer girl problems.

Outer me is tired laying in bed wanting to go back to sleep but can't. Not because of anything but because brain won't turn off.

Inner me is with some wine pissed off at these biphobic and homophobic assholes and just waiting for one to say some shit so i can bash em in the head with said wine bottle.

"I guess today is the day bitches die"

I just really wanna beat some ass right now.

People say "oh you should calm down"

Motherfucker that is the last thing you wanna say to me right as of this moment.

Unless you know what its like to be queer during pride month and absolutely hate how companies treat us during this month let alone how we treat each other. You will never understand.

Being ostracised by people within the lgbt community. People that preach love is love yet care nothing for poc,disabled,bisexual,pansexual,acesexual, demisexual,trans,etc. They only care if your lesbian or gay or a drag queen/king. They care for nothing else.

You either have to be absolutely flaming sparkle dick fabulous no matter what

Or your not enough.

You have to always be talking bout your own dick or vag or nobody takes you seriously.

It hurts.

Because inside i wanna be more open with my sexuality outside my orientation. But these assholes. Wanna always be up in arms whenever i just wanna talk bout the important issues or just talk bout sweet things that girls or guys or people do that make my heart melt. Like damn.

We never talk about the actual connection of sex. Like the cuddles,holding hands while embracing each others nakedness. Not just in body but in soul.

Like nobody ever talks bout that!

All they care bout is doin the do. Thats it.

I love sex. And I'm a very raunchy person with the right people around. But sometimes i just wanna talk bout sweet things too. Like kissing on the back of the hand is so fucking underrated and people don't understand how much i fucking love that gesture. From any gender. Good God that is fucking amazing. It makes me feel wanted. It honestly does.

And if its not the hypersexualization of the queer community.

Its just being able to freely walk and be with your bae. Without judgment. Or questioning. Like people still judge others. Bruh leave them alone they ain't hurting anyone. -_-

These things i wanna discuss because its important to me because it doesn't just affect me but it affects the people I love dearly.

Sadly i don't expect the lgbt community to ever truly be United.

And i don't expect anyone outside that community to understand or help much. Tho some try.

Im not trying to say there aren't people who are good. Or advocate for us and stand by us.

They do. And i thank them for that.

But as someone who has seen this shit for herself for years. And someone who has had biphobic comments and had to deal with people who just don't get it. Even when you have done both the gentle and hard approaches.

It gets worse every time.

But i still keep moving on. And i will never give up what i believe in.

But i can't deny that there are so many problems in our community that people don't wanna admit.

Bruh i have seen so much racism and hate in this damn community it ain't funny.

Not to mention that a lot of lgbt couples are in long distance relationships,are poc. Some are even in interracial relationships.

I mean a bisexual trans black woman(at far as i know i could be wrong because there was a lot of people saying other things but i dunno if its true or not but imma stick with saying her or they for now out of respect)

They was one of the first people who started a revolution for the lgbt community.

And yet. All these groups they was in. Is being attacked by the lgbt community to this day. Ironic aint it?

Queer women of all kinds. Always had the short end in life.

This is a fact backed up by history.

Anyways I'm done venting for now.

I may make more posts later. But i can't stay silent on the matters that i care bout.

I may have my brain not like me at times. But damn it im not gonna let that stop me for standing up for what i believe in.

I don't care if i lose friends.

I don't care if i don't have people. Because i got me. I always had me.

Even when i didn't want to.

I'm not gonna let this bitter fucked up world change who i am. Even tho at times i break.

I'm still discovering things about myself and i feel like i need to Express them.

And I'm not gonna let anything stop me from being the best human i can be at the moment.

Yesterday i cried. But i think i needed to.

I say these things because they matter to me.

And I'm tired of being slient bout these things.

Or brushing them to the side for the sake of others comfortablity.

If me being an furiously passionate bitchy bisexual woman offends you. Good. Stay offended.

Cuz i ain't changing for nobody.

Im gonna try to get some rest.

I might make a livestream or video bout stuff later.

[vegasporschetruther]

just a rant :>

I just fucking realised that i wont be able to watch a single livestream :( because my school is starting tomorrow and i have to up by 5 in the morning and wont be back home till like 3 and i will already be sleep deprived because i have tests in all my subjects tomorrow :( ughhh why universe. also i dont understand a single thing in school cuz its so complicated. im going to be on tumblr way less too :( im so sad already. i just know going to school is going to make it worse. my school is like literally 45 away. also, i completely forgot to make something for louis tour. so now im guilty too. fun. i really dont mean to sound spoiled or whiney lol.

[shoezuki]

techno is the only person i can watch live cause he breaks the tension if it's getting too much and doesn't go overboard with the amount of lore in streams, everyone else i have to wait and watch vods for cause i need to be able to read other people's posts and know what happens before i watch and then be able to pause and walk away for a bit or skip ahead if it gets too much.

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

Also slightly more on like. Streaming location thing. But te hno got me w youtube streamin cuz on there i can jus Tap a bit to go back when i zone out or dont hear right. Which happens a Lot cuz auditory processing Bad and brain go bbbbbbbbbbbb

Twitch is worse cuz i Try to go back a bit when i miss something in a stream but its a whole Ordeal cuz you have to go to 'past livestreams' and that doesnt save Right up to the livestream like youtube does n Hate That