#but when i tell you i IMMEDIATELY opened ig to check his account lol

[diamantdog]

me: i don't really ship 457 that much.

someone on bsky: hahaha, lee byung-hun is so funny to post s2 photos on his instagram and put that one in the first slide. he knows what the fandom wants.

me: WHERE!??????

[castle-dominion]

c2x24 the last episode

THIS IS THE SENSUAL VIDEO THAT WAS PLAYING IN THE WASHROOM AT THE FANCY RESTAURANT I’M GETTING A JOB

My mom. “You got in I’m so proud of you! ... What did you get in TO though?”

That’s how I got into college lol but it was harder Illegal fireworks? Don’t you work with the police? Don’t they have a poster saying there’s a reward for bringing in illegal fireworks? Oh yeah this is the usa... I guess it really is convenient to have a 21y/o on each floor...

Esposito why do you look like a normal cop today? Ryan, you too!

Ryan did u get a haircut?

How much information are you allowed to ask from Agent Gray?

How is there an address in the middle of a river?

Captions were wrong, “wallet” should have been in quotes

Unless he doesn’t have a car bestie.

Funny how Gina hasn’t called him since he got to work. It would be funny if they were on a case & he had to be quiet but then Gina called him.

Ryan was so cute when he showed them the 5k euros & then “AND” he says all bright-eyed, then he brings out a gun lol *gives the gun to esposito immediately* This spy stuff is honestly p cool, & they must have had a good bomb tech making the pens.

Oh there, they do contact the spy places. 

He flirts with her all the time, she probably assumed this was “another” joke... another try to get into her pants... I’d assumed that he genuinely was inviting her from the start

Poor gal, still looking for a new place to live.

I mean, you already know this is my liveblog of my rewatch... So obviously there are going to be spoilers...

The thing is, Hans Brauer seems like the kind of guy to be hosting the game, not playing it, judging by his character.  & then he shoves castle into the wall very realistically. Caldwell also seemed very genuine when running away from the assassin. He has no idea the gun is real! He’s a great roleplayer tbh But is it really how the game works that he’s going to get a phone call telling him to leave? Is it like “You lost the game & this is basically taking you back to your last checkpoint” or smth? Castle is enamoured. I’m assuming you called Jordan Shaw? (& Agent Gray?)

What was that camera whip? With the sound? “Yo Beckett” *fwoosh*

I like how she can clear the rooms while she gets Castle (a non-cop) to open up the drawers

KR: Hey, that gun-- RC: *blasts right past Ryan* KR: ... *paper he was holding just waves vigorously in the airstream*

I love the way his demeanor just Turned Around real quick there. Confidence in roleplay is not the same as IRL. Super useful actually.

Interesting, the book cover says “murder” in mirror image...

Alexis really is a teenaged girl. I love her. Poor castle. He really is like my mom.

MR: “James Patterson called, he’s going to be a bit late for the poker game.” RC: “He’s probably going to use the time to write another book” XD imagine being able to write an entire book in the 30 minutes you’re going to be late. Then again, Castle hasn’t written much so that’s where it’s coming from

HOLY CRAP THAT IS NOT WORK APPROPRIATE OMG Y’ALL R GOING TO THE BRIG

I feel bad for her, she’s a female cop & when she gets a book written inspired by her she’s written for sex appeal. For someone who boasted the praise of the depth of his female characters, Rick kinda sucks.

It’s really neat to have the offshore account. I think it really would make things more fun

“mais oui” is NOT THAT HARD TO TRANSLATE. Come On. Captions are super important. I hate it when they do this. 

True. My father had not the first clue about selling cars, but his first business was based on relationships so Dad got the job anyways. Of course, then covid happened & eventually he got fired but still.

Hey... demming Hey... castle

SAD, going beach-housing & just lying to castle? I mean you’re right he probably WOULD take it better than “yeah I’m beach housing just with another man, the one I’m actually with” Altho ig she didn’t have it set in stone. She said she would check into it. He said take a break like it was a relationship,, the showwriters did that on purpose. She really is his work wife Poor Ryan & Esposito, they just walk in on this heavy conversation & Beckett looks like she got her heart broken

Xenophobia...?

On nice, Lanie said the death was 23.00-1.00 but we know he was alive at 23.30 & midnight now. Cool

wow acab. That must be a good impression on the ukrainians for the usa /s.

Castle was SO afraid that there would be ukrainian kids with fake IDs who are used to drinking at alexis’ summer program

hhhh Esposito layin down the FEELS. (castle’s tho, not his own.) Going away party <3 (I love his little faces) How many episodes have there been? about 50? 25 last season 25 this one? Yep that’s 50 books’ worth.

Patterson is so right. “Personally I’d spend more time writing & less time hanging out with your cop friend.”

I love beckett’s jelly beans but it’s also so sad

DX she thought he was going to confess his feelings. & not in the “let me in your pants” kind of way but the “I genuinely enjoy your company & want to take you out on a date” kind of way. Then he talks about murder & you can see her face fall

Oh my goodness.  RC & me: So-- so, let me get this straight. Your alibi for your friend’s murder... id you were do--,, doing his wife.??? Lmao “Are you serious? My house is too nice.” & I mean they weren’t having sex anyways,, but like wow Aww esposito gives beckett a coffee

JE: Except it was warm enough to leave the windows open. KB: Oh no KR: *eyebrows furl but eyes go wide & mouth opens* JE: Oh Yes. The next-door neighbours distinctly remember the sounds of (in floaty voice) “loud passionate love-makinig” coming from the open window.  RC & KB: *disbelieving faces* JE, taking a sip of his coffee: Kept em up till well past midnight.

Oh. I remember the end now. At least she doesn’t need to be a wife anymore. Just a mom. ...And a dad too now I guess. Nevermind, it is NOT any better. (it was a joke in the first place) That’s actually,,, really, really sweet. Hmm, all the hallmarks of a pro hit, but it was just an american gun owner... I’m surprised he didn’t own more. I would have expected beckett to say “You are a registered gun owner, among your many many guns, is a glock 45.”

Roy Montgomery ftw. “Too bad they had to die because people were scared to say how they really felt.” *eyes emoji eyes emoji eyes emoji* beckett

fdskahkljdsfhk RC: I need to run but I will be back in time for that little surprise party the boys are throwing me Not much of a surprise XD but he must have learned a thing or two about how to be a detective in his time here. You know what, he should get a license to carry. (Actually no he shouldn’t but for the sake of the show.) 

She really does like him. This episode bro.

TD: It’s Like A Real Restaurant Grade Cappacino Machine You know, I was in the special needs class in high school & the teachers in that class had a coffee machine right in the room. Of course there was another one in the teacher room but shush. Actually that reminds me, it was a GCL program & we all had to see our TAs before first block. Mine was in my special needs classroom, other students had classrooms, one group had the teacher’s break room. I had a friend who told me that some of the students would steal the teachers’ lunches sometimes. That was nasty bro.

I’m alexis fr. I would love to bring my mom along. Would she really be ok alone for that long? I’m always with her, sometimes we are mother & kid, sometimes we are roommates, sometimes I parent her. ALEXIS WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT.

At least kate & tom are being adults about it.

XD

RC: It was very emotional. Yeah there were a lot of tears. Um... Alexis was fine btw. (KR, JE, RM, LP all laughing) (There are a Lot of open beer bottles btw. So many.) JE: I’ve got to say castle, we’re going to miss you around here. RC: Yeah, I’m going to miss you too KR: You’re still leaving the coffee machine though, right? RC: I can’t have you suffer in my absence! RM: that’s good LP: We could really use one of those down in the morgue.  (Does he still owe her? Spa certificates, cash, & jewelry?) RM: With castle gone, I just hope our clearance rate doesn’t drop. (All laugh again, including Beckett who is walking in) RC: Oh look who’s off duty! KB: Yeah well castle I’m not all work. LP: Don’t get into a drinking contest with her; she can take you. RC: Thank you. KB: Oh I don’t need a drink to take him. (In a fight she means. Not in a sexy way.) LP: Ooh! What’s gotten into you? KB: Castle do you have a second? RC: Of course (KR & JE are watching & probably hoping they’re going to confess, actually lanie is too) KB: Look... I know that I’m not the easiest person to get to know &... I don’t always let on what’s on my mind... But this past year, working with you... I’ve had a really good time. RC: Yeah, me too. KB: So I’m just going to say this &... & then fuckin gina comes in & I’m not going to transcribe the rest bc it is sad But I’ll let you know that as soon as another woman is on the scene everyone who has been watching from the party room stands up & looks shicked, concerned, or angry Castle, at least hug her, man, at least HUG HER Oh yay hug-- no, wait. Handshake. Atamiskaw. Screw you bud. & then he raises his drink to everyone in the party room & doesn’t hug them or shake their hands? Why??? At least it ends with “see you in the fall” from both of them But still, everyone in the glass looks like they’re going to cry

[blazinbeautywrites]

Man Crush Monday

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A/N: I know this is a lil late lol but this is part of my Smut Week writing challenge which you can find here. Hope yall enjoy Producer Zab!

Length: 1,431 words

Genre: Smut

It was a rainy Monday night when Jade was scrolling through her IG feed. Just when she was bored of the app, she got a notification that her favorite producer, Zabdiel posted to his page. Clicking on it, Jade was met with the best site she’d ever seen. There he was, in all his sweaty glory, in his custom home gym. Jade moaned at the site and decided to be a little bold. She clicked on the post share button and posted him to her story with the caption “Mmmmm looking fine. #MCM” Unbeknownst to Jade, a fellow fan who followed her, saw her post and decided to screenshot it and tag him and Jade both. Jade was a singer with moderate fame and a small following on various social media sites so it was a big deal when she posted other celebs. Jade decided to call it a night and soon was off to sleep.

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The next morning she awoke to the incessant buzzing of her phone and a missed facetime from her bestie Malina. She didn’t bother with her notifications but chose to return Malina’s call.

“Malina girl what’s up.” Jade spoke as she sleepily rubbed her eyes.

“Well judging by your calm ass demeanor, I guess you haven’t been on ig or twitter?” Malina said.

“Uhhh no. Did something happen?” Jade asked.

“Girl! You’re blowing up! Apparently some fan accounts of Zabdiel caught your story and posted it on their pages. Well Zabdiel saw it and reposted it.” Malina said. Jade damn near short circuited when Malina said that last bit.

“Malina, imma call you back.” Jade hung up and immediately checked her instagram. She had thousands of notifications. She checked her dms and almost passed out. There on top was a dm from Zabdiel himself.

“Hey sorry if this is weird but I saw the post and I’m flattered. I’m going to this industry party later on tonight and I saw your name was also on the guestlist and was wondering if we could meet in person. 

Jade had to compose herself before she responded or else she’d definitely make a fool of herself.

“Shit I’m just now seeing this. Yeah I’ll be there tonight and I’d love to meet up. See you tonight!

Jade was just about to exit her dms when she saw he replied with a smiley face. She liked his response then sat her phone on her side table and decided to get ready for her day.

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She arrived at the party a little late due to her indecisiveness. After she tore her closet apart, she finally settled on a simple black long sleeved crop top with a red plaid skirt, and some black doc martens.

She walked into the venue and was immediately hit with the smell of weed. She also took note that there was a group of ppl doing lines of coke at a vip table. Jade made her way to the open bar and ordered herself a watermelon whisky sour. Zabdiel spotted her as soon as she walked in thanks to her posting her look on ig beforehand. He made his way over to her and tapped her on the shoulder.

“Jade?” Zabdiel asked.

“Zabdiel! Hey!” Jade said. Giving him a hug. She marveled in his sweet, cinnamon scent.

“You’re better looking in person, well you fine as hell so I don’t know what I was expecting.” Zabdiel spoke.

“And you’re taller in person. Gotta admit, I was expecting a hobbit or something.” Jade joked. Zabdiel was amused, especially since he towered over her.

“Well I’m glad I could disappoint you.” He joked back. Their banter went on for a bit before they found a vip table to sit and talk. They talked about music and Jade was taken aback when Zabdiel admitted that he listened to her music.

“Wait really? Quick, what’s your favorite song?” Jade inquired.

“Oh that’s easy. Don’t Tempt me is by far my favorite song of yours. Your vocals were like fucking butter on that shit. I wanted to remix it when I first heard it.” Zab said.

“Well what stopped you?” Jade asked.

“I wanted you to sing on it.” Zabdiel said. Jade smiled at that and finished off her drink. After talking for a little bit more. Zabdiel and Jade made their rounds then dipped from the party. 

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Jade and Zabdiel were jamming out to some of his unreleased tracks in his home studio. Jade insisted on hearing some more of his music and Zabdiel happily agreed. They were going back and forth posting each other on their ig stories, causing a frenzy amongst their fans.

“I bet our fans are dying right now.” Jade laughed. A new unreleased track played and Jade got hype. She loved songs that made her wanna shake her ass and that’s exactly what she did. What she didn’t know was that Zab was filming and posting a video of her twerking to his ig story.

“Did I tell you how fine you were already?’ Zabdiel said as he moved closer to her. Jade smiled at him and turned to face him. She ran her finger down his chest and smirked.

“You did but I don’t mind you telling me again.” Jade smiled then leaned in, planting a soft kiss on his lips. She pulled back and smiled at him. She got up to move but he grabbed her and hoisted her up. She wrapped her legs around him as he trapped her between his warm body and the wall. Zabdiel kissed her, more passionately this time. He slipped his tongue in her mouth, making her moan as she sucked on it. They made out for a bit before Zabdiel fell back onto a sofa in his studio, Jade in his lap. She was grinding on him, feeling him get hard. Zabdiel moved his hand so that it was positioned near her warm heat. He started rubbing languid circles on her clothed pussy. Her moans were music to his ears. He sped up his movements until he felt her wetness seep through her underwear. Jade was a mess and he loved it.

“I wanna fuck you so bad. You want me to fuck you babygirl?” Zabdiel asked.

“Yes. I want you to fuck me so fucking bad.” Jade moaned. Zabdiel didn’t need to be told twice. He pushed his pant’s down just enough for his dick to pop out. Jade was mesmerized. He was bigger than she was used to but she was gonna take it like a big girl. Jade jerked him off a few times then spit on his dick. She pulled her underwear to the side and sank down on his length. She marveled at the fullness she felt. Zabdiel almost bust right then and there. 

“Fuck you’re so tight. You feel so good wrapped around my dick baby.” Zabdiel sighed. Jade started bouncing on his dick, biting her lip to conceal a loud moan that threatened to escape her mouth.

“God you feel so good inside me…...fuuuuuuuck.” Jade moaned. She got into a squat position and rode Zabdiel’s dick. He was in heaven and felt himself about to cum. He lifted her shirt, revealing her bare breast. He took her left one in his mouth while he played with the right. As he continued sucking on her left nipple, he moved his other hand to her clit and rubbed quick circles. Jade felt herself about to burst. Her movements got sloppier as her orgasm came crashing down upon her. Jade sat fully on his dick, attempting to milk him for all he was worth.

“Yes that’s it baby, ride this dick. Fuck I’m cumming shit…..shiiiiitttt.” Zabdiel moaned. Jade hopped off of him and got down on her knees. She caught every last drop of cum as it shot out of his dick. She stuck her tongue out to show him that she’d swallowed it all, Zabdiel smiled. She was a keeper.

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“You should produce my debut album.” Jade said as she laid on Zabdiel’s sofa watching him work.

“Damn. Dick was so good you're giving me jobs now?” He laughed.

“Don’t get cocky. I’ve always wanted to work with you but my management wouldn’t let me reach out to you. Thank god you slid in my dms though.” Jade said, giving him a smile.

“I’m glad too. If you really want me to, I'll produce your shit, on one condition though. You go out on a date with me.” Zabdiel said. 

“Hmmmm………..okay.” Jade said.

“So it’s a date?” Zab asked.

“It’s a date.” Jade smiled.

[miyaniacs]

hello! i just wanted to say that i'm really proud of you for making it so far and it's honestly really inspiring to me. i've struggled with my appearence so much and i saw your requests are open, could you possibly do kuroo, kenma, and bokuto with a s/o who's insecure about being thin hc? thank you sm im advance and i hope things ease up soon 💖

Thank you baby 🥺❤️

And ok so first of all - I think people forget that in today’s society everyone feels insecure about their body even thin people- especially now I feel like thin women feel insecure about not having this ig curvy body - women are pressured so badly for having to have the perfect body - but the perfect body for women is on that is most likely not achievable without getting surgery. Also I feel like every week there is another unrealistic trend that media creates for us to have. And also men are pressured for having to be muscular if not they are not really considered manly.

Ok to the request :

Warnings : me ranting about fashion in bokutos lol

Masterlist

HC s/o who’s insecure about being thin

Kuroo

Soo when he realized how insecure you are for being thin he was confused

Like isn’t this what everyone wants to be rn?

So he asked you about it

When you’re female : you explain that you feel extremely uncomfortable for not having those curves and that you probably also don’t feel like a “women” since - “real women have curves” all those pictures you see on social media make you feel insecure for not having those ‘thick thighs’ and amazing boobs

When you’re male : you explain that you feel insecure that you’re not strong enough, that you look like a stick ( I do know more than one males that are really insecure about not having much muscle )

For both ways : you explain that you feel bad for not having anything for him to grab on while cuddling or having sex, that all your clothes don’t seem to properly fit and when you’re wearing shorts or a bikini people would think your anorexic ( actually what a girl I known struggles with - she’s just thin but people assume she has an eating disorder)

He will listen not saying anything until you’re finished

He will hold your hands and tell you that he never thought any of those things. He loves your body - you make him feel more buff haha

He also asked if there’s a reason why you don’t gain weight - like some medical condition

Also he would ask you if you want to work out with him. Since you’re thin you will easily see results soon - and you will feel more comfortable when you’re able to see those abs or the definition on your legs - and even doing sports will make you feel better because you do something

He will also help you set up a meal plan - so you will get the right amount of proteins, fats, carbs etc.

He will also make sure to show you how much he loves your body using words as : god your so beautiful / hot / jaw dropping etc.

Buys you cute lingerie too

AND right after you first talked about this he asks you to give him your phone - he goes straight on social media and unfollows all those accounts and follows ones that have a body type similar to yours.

Kenma

He loves the fact that you’re thin

He’s not the tallest and buffets gut himself so he likes the fact that he still feels able to protect you ( not that you need this but just for his ego )

You two were playing video games when the comment : god I wish I’d had this body - left your mouth while looking at one of those characters

He immediately stoppes the game and looks at you

“That’s what bothers you?” You blinks still not believing what he just heard you say

You nod and tell him sincerely that you think that you are too thin

“I love your body - and i don’t mind the fact that you’re thin? You know how much I love yo run my fingers over your rib cage ( you know this dum,dumm dummm - you say in your head when you run your fingers over some bumbs? If so that’s what he always does )

He will switch your gaming plans to cuddle time and makes sure to tell you all those little things he loves about your body - He lets you tell what you hate about it and then tells you his opinion about it

He loves the fact that HE can easily gives you piggyback rides or spins you around when you run to him and jump in his arms

The next day he will ask kuroo for some advice tho and gets some more games where the characters aren’t that unrealistically built

Bokuto

After some time even our baby owl realizes that you wear clothes that hide your BEAUTIFUL BODY??

“Babe, isn’t this shirt a bit too big?”

He finally asks and you tell him that you don’t like how you look in tight clothing

He doesn’t get why so you have to explain it to him

Female : you don’t like that you’re not curvy and that you have rather small breast - so you try to hide it in clothes that you drown in

Male : you don’t like how you your bones stick out, that your legs look like sticks and have no shape in it

So this beautiful baby - right after pulling you in his arms and kissing you - walks to your closet and gets trough you clothes

“ babe. OBVIOUSLY you don’t like your body when you don’t have anything that makes your beautiful features POP !! Get dressed we’ll go shopping now.”

Sooo at the mall he chooses all of the outfits for you and makes you put them on ( yes I belive that he has a nice and modern sense in fashion)

female :

Highwaisted dress pants, bralett and a blazer - CHECK

Oversized T-shirt dress and some combat boots / chunky sneakers to make your LEGS LOOK like they are 2m long - CHECK

Wide leg pants and some oversized T-shirt tugged in to give you some shape - CHECK

Those cute slip dresses - HELL YES

baby t-shirts & tennis skirks with HIS windbreaker- YES

Those cute square neck shirts with puffy sleeves YES !!!

He loves you in his hoodies too

With some tights OR with some wide jeans too

If you’re also on the shorter side - PLATFORM shoes. Yes there aren’t too chunky for you ( for example the puma ones with the Rihanna collab - they are like tennis shoes and actually soo comfy)

Those cute cardigans as a shirt - YES

Hny you need to live out the advantages of not needing to wear a bra !!

Obviously accessories to the MAX

Male

Oversize and layering is the KEY

Also those sweatshirts with a more stiff fabrics

Those wide light blue jeans and a simple slightly oversized t-shirt tugged in with a nice belt - YES

Wide trousers and a tighter shirt AND a loose Oversized shirt

Soo After coming home with a whole new wardrobe you look like a model.

And HE SHOWS YOU OFF SO BADLY & HYPES YOU THE FUCK UP

Calls akaashi over to make you model all your new clothes

You don’t have a choice but your ego goes up a little

Also like kuroo will but you cute lingerie

Bonus for female: will ask you non stop if you want to pierce your nippels because it looks so hot on smaller breast ( on all sizes but in my opinion esp on smaller ones )

[excelsi-or]

03/12/19 - okay, so what are we? (woozi)

to a boy i love right now

w.c. 2.1k (look at that, a decently long fic LOL)

Black Lives Rec: Check out greengirlleah on IG. She’s a black environmentalist and wrote an article for Vogue about why environmentalists should support the Black Lives Matter movement. As someone who has been championing climate change activism since I was in the 6th grade and learned about it, I didn’t even know that there was any disparity between different communities like this. Black communities and poorer communities are typically exposed to lower air quality than their white and richer counterparts.

November 15, 2019

December 3, 2019

Jihoon trails after her to her bedroom. Seungkwan ran to his room when the two of them returned bickering. She rounds on Jihoon now and through grit teeth says, “I really don’t want to see you right now, Ji. Let’s just talk about this later, okay?”

“I—”

In her bedroom doorway, she holds a hand up to stop him, the other hand on the door. “Seriously, Ji, the last thing I want to do is yell at you. You don’t understand what I’m saying and I can’t listen to your arguments right now. So,” her breath is shaky, “please leave.”

Jihoon stares at her. He doesn’t force himself into her room. She bows her head in thanks and then shuts the door. Just as Jihoon is about to leave, he hears a muffled scream, as if she’s screaming into a pillow.

They let the conversation hang in the air for two weeks. Jihoon checks his phone constantly. The ‘Do Not Disturb’ function remains off, so every time his phone rings when he’s trying to sleep and it isn’t her, he answers angrily to stop calling so late. While he feels agitated, as if he’s really done something wrong, he can’t work out why she’s angry. 

She’s right, he doesn’t understand at all.

So after two weeks of radio silence, he heads home with the intent to talk to Mingyu.

“Hyung,” Mingyu calls from the couch.

Jihoon waves a hand at him as he passes, dropping his bag off in his room. When he joins Mingyu in the living room, his roommate gives him an odd look. “What…?”

“What?” Jihoon asks.

“Just you normally… shower, eat, make a giant mess before you come and sit with me.”

Jihoon rolls his eyes. He stretches his legs out to the coffee table. When they’d first moved in together, three years ago, they’d agreed to have the table just far enough so it was comfortable for Jihoon’s legs. Therefore, Mingyu’s are bent and he’s slouching into the couch, likely not good for his spine.

“What’s going on, hyung?” He reaches for the remote to mute the TV.

“Unmute it.” Jihoon adjusts himself on the couch. “Weird to talk about this stuff in silence.”

Slowly, Mingyu presses the volume button. “What’s… up?”

Jihoon lays the issue on the table. He explains how his last lunch date had gone. They’d been talking about her family, how she was intending to go for that weekend. She’d asked him if he would be able to spend the weekend with her.

“I said I couldn’t and she suddenly got really mad.”

Mingyu bobs his head slowly. “Noona’s been fine, honestly. She doesn’t talk about you and shuts down any attempts at talking about you, but she’s good.”

Jihoon exhales sharply. He isn’t sure if he’s happy or not about that information.

“So what did she say exactly? Did she say why she wanted you to come? Did you say why you couldn’t go?” Mingyu lifts a curious eyebrow. “Why don’t you want to go?”

“She asked me if I would go to meet her family. She brought it up…” Jihoon shakes his head; unable to remember when the conversation had happened. “She brought it up a few weeks ago or something. I said maybe I would be interested in going.”

“Okay, so why don’t you want to go?”

“I—”

“Before you say you can’t because of work,” Mingyu interrupts, “let’s remember that there are no impending comebacks and that you are a producer, not the idol.”

Jihoon sighs. Toying with his fingers, he mumbles, “I’m scared they won’t like me.”

“Great, did you tell her that?”

Jihoon tips his head. “Well, no, because she got upset.”

Mingyu leans his head back against the couch. “Hyung, I need exact words here.”

So Jihoon takes Mingyu through a step-by-step account of what he can remember from the conversation. She’d said something about visiting her family for the weekend; an invite was extended to him. She said that her family was interested in meeting him. He insisted he was busy—“bullshit,” Mingyu mutters—and she immediately got upset.

“Okay…” Mingyu takes a deep breath, “how many times has she asked you?”

“This is the first time.”

“Then how many times has she brought it up? ‘Cause if it’s more than three times now and you’re still saying no, well… I can see why she’s mad.”

Jihoon stares at Mingyu, waiting for an explanation.

“It sounds like 1) you haven’t told her why you don’t want to go and 2) it sounds like she’s offended that you don’t want to meet her family.”

“So how long is too long to not talk to her about it? Do I wait for her to reach out to me?”

“If you think she was that mad about it, yes.”

Jihoon pouts in Mingyu’s direction. He hates being cute, but it works with Mingyu. He has no shame in this house.

Sighing, Mingyu relents. “She is that mad at you.”

She waits a few more days before asking Jihoon if he has time to go for coffee. She has plans to go for dinner with Taehyung and Jihoon swears it’s a tactic for her to have an excuse to escape. 

When he arrives at the café near his place and sees her with a cake ready for them to share, he wishes he’d thought of having his own escape tactic ready. She’s dolled up, in tight jeans and his yellow silk shirt, buttoned just enough to cover her bra. She looks amazing and he swears it’s another tactic.

“Hey,” she says when he sits. Neither moves for a kiss in greeting, but her smile is soft and everything’s okay.

“Hi.”

She nudges the extra fork to him. His favourite coffee is set on the table already and he knows her water bottle is likely in her purse on the floor. “So you know we need to talk.”

“I don’t know why though.”

She chuckles. “Really?” She uses the edge of her fork to cut a small piece of cake. “Gyu didn’t say anything to you?”

An embarrassed smile grows on his face. “It’s about your parents.”

She nods her head slowly. “And I want you to understand why it’s a big deal to me that you don’t want to meet them.” She tips her head in question. “Is that okay?”

Jihoon nods.

“When I was growing up, my parents and I weren’t really close. My mom worked all the time in the hospital and my dad was more of an authority figure rather than someone I could tell my problems to.” She chews thoughtfully before continuing. “I love them so much and as I’ve gotten older, left the house, things are so much better. So when they started asking why I wasn’t coming home more often, I told them school was getting busy. Easy when you’re the good child and they always take your word for things.”

Swallowing hard, she leans forward on her elbows. “I was making excuses not to see them, because I wanted to spend all my time with you. I was learning about you, opening up to you,” she sighs, a smile on her face, “and it was just all I wanted to do.”

Jihoon’s heart is pounding loud in his ears, because it feels like she’s going to hit him with a punch line that they need to break up.

Reassuringly, she reaches for his hand, squeezing his fingers. “Stop thinking those thoughts, Lee Jihoon.” He’s stunned. “Reading your expression is easier than you think.”

Jihoon smiles a little and nods his head to continue.

“Getting you to open up to me was its own challenge and well worth it, but I was scared that if I left too often any progress I’d made with you would just… poof.” She pops her fingers in that magician’s way when something disappears. 

Jihoon wonders how true that is. Maybe when they had first started dating, but imagining it now is difficult.

“And then my parents started speculating about a boy before Christmas last year and I could deny it for a while, but my siblings wouldn’t let up about it. I used to go home at least twice a month and then all of a sudden it was a struggle to get me home for Christmas.” 

She answers his unasked question. “I didn’t tell them about you, because I knew you hadn’t told your parents about me. And I didn’t want to be excited about something that you weren’t excited about.”

Jihoon bites his tongue. There’s so much he wants to say, to defend himself. But she’s right. 

“I thought you were having a change of heart about us when you suggested we go to Busan a few months back, but then you never mentioned it again.”

Her voice trails off and she has nothing more to say. In the time she’s been talking, their clasped hands have become intertwined, his thumb rubbing gently back and forth across her skin. She doesn’t glance at her watch at all, doesn’t force him to speak. She waits him out like she always does.

“What are you asking from me, jagi?”

“What are we, Ji?” she asks immediately. “What are we to you?”

“I—”

“Because I have my siblings telling me that if you’re refusing to meet them in person that it’s because you don’t care. I know it’s not that, but are we a serious thing, Ji? Do you see a future with me?”

Jihoon hadn’t expected a heavy question like this when they’d sat down for cake. He expected an explanation and an apology that he’s been working for two weeks. But she doesn’t want an apology, she wants into his brain.

“I…” Jihoon watches her carefully. He writes songs about this woman, muses about a possible future with her. He doesn’t peg himself as the type to get married, but he also doesn’t see himself breaking up with her. He’s comfortable with how it is. “Are you… bored?” He knows his girlfriend is the type to get bored with people.

“Never with you, Ji. I just want to know where you stand. We’ve never talked about it.”

Comforted by this answer, he says, “I like where we are and who you are to me.”

She seems to understand what he means. He appreciates this about her, because while he’s great at expressing it in song, actual communication of his emotions is still difficult. “So why don’t you want to meet my family?” 

“If they don’t like me,” he puts cake in his mouth to muffle the rest of the sentence, “what happens to us?”

“You meet them again.” The way she says it makes it sound so easy. “Family is hard, Ji. No one said it wasn’t, but my family isn’t crazy. They think your job is interesting; they like the stories I’ve told about you. They just want to meet you.”

Jihoon nods slowly, processing this. He didn’t realize that if the meeting went poorly that there was an option to try again. She preaches that first impressions matter, that if she doesn’t like the first impression, she won’t typically like the person afterwards.

“I get my judgmental nature from them.” She squeezes his hand again. “But your character is good, Ji. They can’t tell me otherwise.”

He looks away from her gaze just to process his thoughts. She stands then and comes around the table to kiss the top of his head. He looks up at her. “I’m going to be even later for my dinner with Tae oppa, but I’ll see you at mine?” Fear must flash in his eyes, because she adds, “Just to chill. We don’t have to talk about my family anymore tonight.”

“Okay.” Jihoon finishes the last of the cake. His coffee is in a to go cup, as if she knew that he wouldn’t have time to touch it. One handed, he secures the lid and lets her lead the way out of the café. Out on the street, she stares at him for a while, as if waiting for him to say goodbye.

He steps down from the doorway so that they’re more level and she pulls him out of the way of the entering foot traffic. Jihoon searches her eyes for some sign of regret or a lie. “We’re good, aren’t we?”

She laughs and closes the distance between them, pressing her lips against his. He melts into her touch, especially when her hands wrap around his neck to toy with the hair at the base of his neck. With his free hand, Jihoon pulls her closer, nearly dipping her.

With another laugh, she tosses her head back and he straightens them both. Jihoon can’t help but smile fondly at her. “Are we not allowed to have disagreements and check ins?” she asks.

Jihoon shrugs. “I don’t know how relationships work.”

“I don’t either,” she admits. “I just know how I want it to be.” Pecking his nose, he scrunches it. “And you’re surpassing any expectations I had at the beginning, Ji.”

“Am I?”

Smirking, she nods as she ruffles his hair. “In more ways than one, my love.”

Jihoon gives her a quick peck. “I’ll see you later, jagi. Tell hyung I say hi.”

“Love you,” she whispers into his ear as she hugs him goodbye.

“Love you too.”

Next: December 21, 2019

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Instagram and VMAs 2018 - Camren

I am using my unknown tumblr account when I saw a page that says “Update: Lauren deleted pictures with Camila on IG” When I saw that, there’s a familiar pinch that I felt on my heart. Yes, I am fine but whenever I hear or saw something related to the girl who caused so much tears on me, it just breaks me everytime. I was about to distract myself by listening to a song when my mom suddenly knocked on my door.

“Karla, Ariana’s here go talk to her”. My mom said eagerly and I just nodded.

I saw Ari sitting on the couch with her phone, she’s making cute faces. I know she’s updating her fans on Snapchat. I walked to her and she still didn’t notice me until I grabbed her phone.

“Hey! Fck off!” She said with annoyance.

“You came here to my house just so you can do snapchat?” I asked her with my left eyebrow quirked.

“No, well yeah snapchat is always with me but I heard something with Lauren and I know that you need me.” She told me confidently.

“Wow, do I owe you now?” I asked her with a laugh.

“Bigtime Cabello” Ari said while claiming her phone.

  While we’re at my room, Dinah and Normani joined us so we decided to order an extra-large pizza knowing that me and Dinah are pizza lovers.

“Mila, you know that she didn’t mean to do it right?” The thick blonde girl asked me.

“I don’t know what to believe Cheechee” I shook my head as I told her that.

“Come on Mila, we all know that she loves you and there might be a reason why she did that” The dark skinned gorgeous girl comforting me.

“Idk what else to say about Lauren because she’s pretty complicated” Ari added.

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It has been two days since Lauren deleted our photos on IG. Dinah told me that she will contact Lauren to know why she did that but I told her that there’s no need for that. Dinah is so determined so she still insisted. I’m all alone here in my room blasting the speakers with “God is a Woman”. I refused to take that song because I feel like it’s a perfect match with Ariana’s voice and it is a bop. I’m currently being drowned in my thoughts when I noticed my phone is ringing and saw Dinah’s caller ID. I immediately turned the volume down to take her call.

“Hey Walz! Chill” she said playfully.

“What? I haven’t said anything yet” I asked while I shook my head though she can’t see me.

“Lauren wants to talk to you and she will be there later, bye!” I didn’t get the chance to say anything at all and Dinah ended the call.

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My parents are having dinner plans with Roger and Sofi is with our grandparents. I am all alone tonight and I don’t have any idea if what Dinah said was true. I’m currently at the kitchen making myself a sandwich for dinner when I heard the doorbell rings. I immediately went to see who it is assuming it was the shipment that my parents are expecting but my eyes went wide when I saw the familiar waves and the piercing green eyes.

“Hi” She said smiling at me.

“Uh hey” I hesitantly said.

“Can I come in?” She broke the silence and I realized that we were staring at each other for the past 5 minutes so I motioned for her to come in.

“About the pictures Ca— “I cut her off.

“I get it Lauren; I know you wanted to get rid of me but I didn’t expect that you’ll delete most of our pictures” I let out my frustration.

“Look Camz, you don’t und- “I cut her off again.

“I do understand Lauren, I always do th- “This time, she cut me off

“Will you please shut the fuck up and let me speak?” She asked me with a sigh and I nodded.

“I don’t have any plans on deleting it, these hardcore shippers are leaving comments on our photos everyday. I can’t handle it Camz that’s why I decided to delete most of it because I hate myself not realizing what I’ve lost. I don’t take anything against our shippers but it’s me. It’s me who is always stubborn and denial. I’m sorry for all the pain that I’ve caused to you Camz, I really am. That’s why I’m here and I am glad Dinah talked to me about it and she told me to go after you.” She said with full of sincerity.

“Really? Are you serious?” I asked in confusion because this is overwhelming.

“Yes Camz, I’m serious. I made up my mind since I deleted those because I want us to start anew. Well, not all of it because there’s one photo of us that I left there and, I want to let you know that I still love you, I always will.” The green eyed orbs directed in my eyes with sincerity.

“What about you and Ty?” I asked concerning our career.

“We broke up a month ago. Also, that Matthew was cheating on you!” She furiously said.

“It’s PR Lo, I don’t care if he cheated because he doesn’t matter anyways and, I love you too.” I said meeting her eyes with mine.

“But your reputation Camz? The girl he was dating was so full of it. She’s acting innocent like she’s the only victim. Hell you don’t even have any idea that he was dating someone before this PR started” It is now evident in her eyes that she’s worried.

“I don’t care about what people thinks of me. All I care is my music, my family, my friends, my fans, those who believed in me and specially you.” I assured her. I saw Lauren eyes glisten when I said those words and I meant all of it.

“So, should I post a new camren pic?” Lauren asked with excitement.

“Calm down Jauregui, don’t spill the tea yet. I have to go to VMAs next week and as much as I want the world to know, let’s keep it low this time and I’ll be the one to tell other people.” I said with a bright smile.

Lauren hugged me and she decided to go to a restaurant. I am a little disappointed that she didn’t stay the night because she will have a meeting with her manager to discuss about her album. I am extremely excited for her because she received 2 awards as a solo artist and knowing the fact that she has not released a single yet makes it even more exciting.

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This week has been pretty tough because of the nonstop tour but I’m not complaining at all, I love what I do but it’s inevitable not to feel exhausted. Lauren and I are getting better. I don’t know what we are but we both love each other. I wish I can call her my girlfriend because what happened last week was so sudden. Now, I’m getting ready for VMAs and I thank the producers so much because I am not performing so I am one of the audience. I heard my phone rings and I saw the pic of a gorgeous girl so I immediately answered it.

“Hey Babe” the raspy voice said.

“Since when do you call me that?” I asked grinning.

“Well, you’re my girlfriend aren’t you?” She told me and I was caught off guard because I was thinking about that earlier and she answered my thoughts.

“Camz? Sorry, I should not rush things plea- “so I cut her off.

“Lauren babe, you can call me whatever you like. I just didn’t expect that my thoughts are answered immediately” I told her honestly.

“So, you’ve been thinking about me?” and by her tone of voice, it seems like she has a wide grin plastered on her face.

“I can’t get you out of my head Lauren, I guess I am so in love with you all these years” I flirted but meant it wholeheartedly.

“Stop Camz! You’re the one that I should make blushing not the other way around. It’s unfair!” She whined and it makes her cute.

“You will have the time soon babe, I gotta go now and I’ll call you after.” She wished me luck and I headed my way to the event.

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The VMAs ended and tonight was so incredible yet there was unexpected that happened. I thought Tiffany Haddish will say compliments about me but it does not satisfy me at all. Yes, I was nominated 5 times and won 2 awards but what she did was inappropriate and I don’t like it at all so I just shook my head with a fake smile. Later on when Nicki defended the girls, Tiffany was speechless and the crowd was crazy. I don’t have time for any beef at all because me and my girls are still in good terms. I’m here in my room right now checking some photos that I took from the show and HOLY CRAP!! Madonna presented the award to me and I just can’t stop myself for fangirling. I am done posting stuffs on my social media when I heard a knock on my door. I got up from bed and opened and I saw Lauren grinning widely and hugged me.

“Hey babe, I missed you” The hoarseness of her voice is evident.

“I missed you too. It’s late why are you here?” I asked concerning her.

“Can’t I congratulate my girlfriend personally? Can’t I visit my girlfriend late at night? Can’t I love you as much as I want?” with her words, I can feel the heat on my cheeks and now she’s grinning so wide knowing that it is obvious that I’m blushing.

“We’re even now Lauren.” I said while I cover my cheeks with my both hands.

“I know, you got me earlier so it’s my turn. And don’t hide your red cheeks, it’s cute” she said while laughing.

“Stop, I’m worried about us. What if people can’t accept us? What if they judge us? What about our career? What if I messed everything up?” I am so distressed and asked her.

“Ssshh baby, don’t think of those things. You know they already love us right? Put your worries aside. We won’t know if we won’t try. I know I am mostly the reason why you’re anxious because I was so scared before but let me catch you Camz. I’ll always catch you and you always have me. I love you so much” Lauren leaned in and now her soft lips met mine. It was a slow kiss with gentleness and all I can feel is love. I pulled back from the kiss to give our lungs air.

“Thanks Lauren, you know I love you more. I hope everything will work out” She hugged me and Lauren suddenly grabbed my phone and took a picture with me, her arms on my shoulder and she placed a kiss on my cheek. She took 3 minutes with my phone and when I got it, I saw my account on IG, Lauren posted our pic using my account and tagged herself with the caption: “She’s only mine. It’s real – L xoxo”.

  --OMG please forgive me guys. I didn’t proofread so I apologize if there’s any error with my grammar or any typos. I'm so bored rn so bear with me. Let me know your thoughts!!! Lol or not.

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who?: Wanna One’s Ong Seongwoo genre: 🌸 type: bullet point the ‘our two lips’ flower boys LDH | PJH | PWJ | KJH | IYM | JH | LGL 

blog navigator. • flower boy AU • Seongwoo loves to play but not on the job and definitely not with your feelings the double-edged sword flower boy AU is back, with added Christmas spirit. I kind of lost touch with this AU, it has been awhile. :”) but TYSM for requesting anon!! The boys are back ;) - Admin L

• so you know that guy who is always over enthusiastic and excited about ANYTHING • that is Seongwoo at his finest • you always hear him before you see him • it’s simply a Seongwoo thing you know? • every time, everywhere • in university lectures • at the campus Starbucks • even on the other side of the football field • Ong’s voice will surround you • everyone is blessed with Seongwoo and the whole student body drools when they see him • along with his 10 friends • everyone calls them Wanna One • for some odd reason • strange • literally, everyone loves them • there are fan accounts on IG and Twitter just for individual members • your college is so extra tbh • side note: this actually happened at my friends’ school • like there were fan accounts of the popular boys • lowkey scary tbh • but anyway, they’re Wanna One • they are just THAT good-looking, well-mannered, smart • if you breathe the same air as them, good for you • honestly, you’ve inhaled too much of Seongwoo’s toxicity • he has been your neighbour since two of you were toddlers • but it isn’t that cute, fluffy, scattered with sugar story that is expected • no • the Ongs and your family aren’t exactly on good terms • it isn’t like World War III is about to lash out any moment but that’s exactly what I’m saying • there’s just some unspoken rivalry that neither of the younger generation understands • ‘you must never associate yourself with them!’ • ‘don’t even think about looking about that Ong boy!’ • your parents shut up whenever you question it and your grandparents brush it off • ‘it’s nothing. just ignore them and don’t give charity.’ • lol trying to trip Mr Ong Senior with your walking stick isn’t ‘nothing’ • but whatever, you and Seongwoo just avoid each other • like you’re meant to • your families would throw a big fuss if the two of you were within a 5-metre radius • ‘why can’t we just sell the house and move?’ You’ve asked that question many times • apparently, this house is passed down to your parents from generations ago and they must ‘continue the family tradition’ • this is weird • side note: I’m sure this happened in real life too • so you continue to avoid Seongwoo • even though many of your lectures are spent a few seats away from each other • sometimes you take that chance to ogle his extremely good features • that jawline • his twinkling eyes • those cool three moles on his face that form a perfect triangle • you wonder if he took his family’s eyeliner to draw it on • there’s no way he can be SO flawless • but he is Ong Seongwoo so there is a way • half of you wants to just say ‘f it’ and talk to him but the other, more rational half is saying that he won’t speak to you because of all that family drama • no one knows what even happened • you go about uni ignoring Ong and trying to suppress your feelings for him • but it’s really hard because of how ‘close’ you are to him • like if you concentrate, you can see that he’s actually drawing flowers on his notepad and not taking down notes • Seongwoo also lets Daniel, his best friend, doodle random sketches on his hands and arms • most of them resemble flora like patterns • it’s also not uncommon to see Seongwoo walking home with a bunch of wildflowers in his grasp • he likes flowers • and he’s intimidating • Seongwoo is that guy who will talk a bunch of crap and expect people to know what he’s referring to • only his friends get the drift • he’s just naturally talented in gag • always cheerful, bubbly, making his friends chortle with laughter • he definitely knows how to put on a show • playfully insults all his friends, won’t hesitate to punch one of them - but gently and for fun • you’ve seen enough of Seongwoo’s quirky personality to fall in love • finally, on the very last day of school, you muster up the courage to talk to him • ‘h-hey Seongwoo, c-could you sign m-my yearbook?’ you stutter out, blushing • internally: please! don’t! ever! tell! my! parents! about! this! • smiling, he turns away from Daniel - who wriggles his eyebrows - and takes your book • ‘sure, of course. I can’t deny my adoring fans, can I?’ • he even adds a heart to your yearbook page • you can’t tell if you should cry or laugh • ‘thank you!’   • ah goodness now you have to make up some crappy excuse as to why your parents can’t see your yearbook • ‘oh! that! I...uh left it at Jaehwan’s place by accident. You know...since we went out to celebrate...’ • Seongwoo was at Jaehwan’s house party too, but you never communicated • I guess it’s a good thing? • a wasted opportunity • other than admiring from your living room window or balcony, that’s the last you see of him and the first yet last interaction you had • you need to be careful, your mother caught you staring at him a few times • ‘staring at that Ong boy again?’ she spits out ‘Ong’ so venomously you nearly shrink back • ‘that Ong son is no good? Don’t mix with him! I’m so glad he will be in a different lecture next year. Good grief!’ • your whole family insists he’s bad influence, turning you into somewhat of his rival • it does irk you a little how much they dislike the Ongs • enough to pit their children against each other • sigh • family drama :( • ahhh, another thing happens • Seongwoo starts to pay more attention to you • ‘hi!’ he chimes when he sees you at the bus stop • ‘you asked me to sign your yearbook...and I saw you at Jaehwan’s party. Y/N? Was it?’ • is he really talking to me? • hold up, there are CCTV cameras around here right? • ‘uh, yeah. see you around!’ • *runs* • another time, you’re going out with your friends and he seems to be on his morning run, Nikes, earpieces and all • ‘GOOD MORNING’ • you blush, shyly waving • Seongwoo greets you every time he sees you around and it really worsens your crush on him • for a good week, you try to avoid him as much as possible • please! don’t! smile! at! me! that! way! • if not my heart will flutter wildly :”) • but our families hate each other • for no reason • and I’m not about to go around pulling some modern day Romeo and Juliet shit • btw, I watched the ballet this year and it was very very VERY enthralling. 12/10 would recommend • suddenly, running from Seongwoo becomes a routinely thing • it works • now, it is the only physical activity you will engage in • to hell with physical education • but do take care of your health guys!!! • you find yourself thinking of other things other than him • until Saturday • you and your best friend are on your way to a cafe for dinner • since it’s Soyeon’s birthday, she chooses to dine at Our Two Lips • please support Cube’s amazing rapper, Jeon Soyeon’s debut single ‘Jelly’ • please please Cube is trash but their artists are never • ‘oh! My relative, Guanlin, works there. I’m here to collect blackmail to send to Seonho.’ • my Cube babies :”) • Lai Guanlin? The opposite of ‘flower boy’?  • oh well • Our Two Lips is early to celebrate Christmas, the place is already decked out with fake snow, Christmas lights and a hella lot of mistletoe • all the flower boys now boast Santa hats • well, some have Poinsettia flower crowns • Guanlin literally goes tomato red when he sees his cousin • he’s all over her Snapchat story • from a mile away in the Yoo house, you can hear Seonho’s evil laughter cackling • ‘I’m done.’ Guanlin says, tossing his mile of menus to someone else and taking a tray of empty plates from their hands • oh look who it is • your jaw falls open, and immediately, you feel redness creep up your neck and guilt root in your stomach • the man you had been desperately trying to evade • Ong Seongwoo • and his perfect constellation moles • to hell with him in his crisp work attire and bright red Poinsettia flower crown • plus, he did his hair up today • the poinsettia’s are the ones holding his up-do in place • in fact, the dark shade of his hair makes the flower crown POP • w o w • but, to your surprise, there isn’t any huge beaming smile, or jokes falling from his lips • just a serious, suave, look • Seongwoo smiles politely and takes the both of you to your seats • throws a huge fuss when he finds out its Soyeon’s birthday • ‘SuNGWOON HYUNG, iT’S SOYEON’S BIRTHDAY’ • if you don’t get the connection, Sungwoon and Jisung spend a lot of time dabbling in dessert and confectionery other than being flower boys • seen in the other flower boy works ^ • wink wonk check them out via the master list • ʕ ·ᴥ·ʔ • this Seongwoo is so different from the one you’re used to seeing • suddenly, you miss his laughter, his smile and his humour • that small glimpse you had of his personality was enough for you to love it   • ‘I’ll be back shortly with your order,’ he says, taking the menus back • cue wink @ you • once he’s out of earshot, Soyeon bursts into a fit of giggles • ‘I knew it! Everyone was betting whether you two liked each other!’ • everyone? • ‘huh? who?’ • ‘oh you know, Daniel, Lin, HyunA, Jisung, Sungwoon, Jihoon, Yeeun, E’Dawn, Hui, Eun-‘ • your hands fly to cover your reddening ears as Soyeon lists pretty much everyone you know • ‘LA LA LA LA LA’ • it doesn’t take you long to realise that you blurted that out a crowded cafe, loud enough for everyone to hear • curious stares bore holes into your back and you can feel the embarrassment choking you • ‘FA-LA-LA-LA, LA-LA-LA-LA TIS THE SEASON TO BE JOLLY’Seongwoo belts out, skipping across the room as if it was normal • out from the speakers blast the Christmas carol • the speakers were connected to Seongwoo’s phone via Bluetooth • you’re lucky he invested in Spotify premium as an early Christmas present • ‘to: Ong Seongwoo. With love, Ong Seongwoo’ • he is that hoe who pulls that kind of shit • but yes self love, self appreciation • pretty much forces everyone to join him in a mini Christmas song karaoke session • Soyeon gets the video she needs • Guanlin wants to kill himself so he dabs at the end of every song • all the diners clap and cheer along like nothing happened • they love Jaehwan’s high notes • it takes you a moment to process that Ong Seongwoo, who you tried to hate and avoid • whose family is in deep shit with yours • just saved your ass • albeit it isn’t like he saved you from drowning • well, drowning in your tears of embarrassment but • it’s nice of him to try and cover your peculiar behaviour • ‘MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!’ Ong shouts, spraying canned fake snow • ‘uh, hyung it’s still November.’ Park Woojin reminds softly • ‘well Halloween is already over and we can’t exactly celebrate Thanksgiving right now so it’s practically Christmas already,’ • happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate! • I don’t but I’m thankful for all of you 💓 • Seongwoo wins that mini-debate so it’s declared Christmas starting from 30 November • remember when he said Merry Christmas in the middle of May? yes, mood • ‘JIHOON, I’M GOING TO NEED SOME SNOWMAN LATTE ART’ • ‘JAEHWAN, BRING OUT MORE POINSETTIAS’ • Soyeon simply snickers once more Christmas songs pour out of the speakers • Seongwoo arrives with your drinks and you can’t bear to look him in the eye • ‘Oh gosh Soyeon,’ he whisper-yells. ‘God doesn’t need snow to make an angel.’ • *points at you* • I’m sorry I’m sucking the bad Christmas jokes too much • I can’t believe I came up with that? It’s awful • your face is redder than the Poinsettias or mistletoe decor • when will he give you a break? • never • I love Never so much • ‘hey, Y/N,’ he pauses to set your dinner down • ‘yeah?’ you already know how it’s going to end • you like it • shush, don’t let him know ;) • ‘in my eyes, you’re more radiant than an angel.’ • A S D F G H J K L • that was bad since I made that one up too • you fight a blush and purse your lips, forcing yourself not to smile • ‘I guess you’ll end up on Santa’s naughty list this year,’ you counter-attack • ‘wait...I didn’t know you were into that kin-‘ • ‘because you stole my heart!’   • cutting off Seongwoo for a good reason • he nods in approval, high-fiving you • ‘nice one.’ • all puns intended • with a smile on her face, Soyeon shakes her head and quietly chuckles • ‘you two are the perfect match. I saw it coming.’ • the only rivalry you’ll allow between you and Seongwoo • who can make worst puns? • it’s entertaining to playfully spite him • puns bring people together • Seongwoo looked absolutely dashing • you suddenly love Poinsettias • and mistletoe • but that’s for another day ;) • he’s sweeter than the Christmas stollen you ordered • he’s stollen your heart for sure • puns intended • there’s like 0 way you can hate him now • your family is going to combust if they knew • AHHHHHHH • maybe you’re secretly wishing for Seongwoo to appear under your tree this year • ‘don’t wish for him under the tree, wish for him under the mistletoe!’ Soyeon hisses, winking. • you love her • spending time with your best friend at OTL is 12/10, I’m ready for emotional talks over Christmas scented Yankee candles yes • then • Seongwoo, Sungwoon, Jisung and pretty much all the other staff make their way to your table • you can see the glint of Guanlin’s phone as he records the moment of Soyeon’s face going absolutely red when they start singing ‘happy birthday’ to her • SO CUTE • she’s a girl crush okay, what is my sexuality anymore • the cake that Sungwoon and Jisung made is a mini log cake • those with little reindeer and sleds pinned on the top too • ‘Soyeon, I have locked you in my memory!’ • you don’t need to look to know it’s Park Jihoon and his catchphrases • ‘ahhh, no. That’s now how you do it,’ Seongwoo protests • Jihoon pouts. ‘Okay, show me hyung.’ • ‘Y/N,’ • N O. N O • ‘You have the key to UNLOG unlock my heart!’ He does an ‘unlocking door’ gesture • you can’t contain your giggles and neither can the rest of your friends. • awwwww Seongwoo is really something else • maybe he’s your gift this Christmas • the sweetest, cheekiest, cutest gift ever • you really wouldn’t have it any other way • ‘Seongwoo,’ you call, just before you’re about to leave. • he perks up, a faint pink rushing to his cheeks. ‘yes?’ • ‘maybe...you can give me your number and we can go out more this holiday.’ • his eyes go wide and his mouth falls open a little, shocked • ‘u-uh..sure!’ • he NEVER stutters • ‘I’ll see you around then!’ he yells as you walk out of the shop • outside, there’s a thin layer of snow coating the ground • snow falls • and you’ve fallen for the Ong boy wearing a Poinsettia flower crown • looks like you’ve got a secret to keep this Christmas • and Santa has one wish off your list

[pmarcy]

So there was this guy I met here in my hometown we both joined the navy but once we graduated I went to Norfolk and he went to San Antonio we followed to just being home friends staying in touch being supportive to each other we each had a relationship in the city we were in, around the same time mid December we ended the relationships we were in. me I just wasn't feeling it, his ended because this white trash cheated on him (you'll understand why I strongly dislike her in a bit). I wasn't as hurt on loosing this guy but when he was over with her (ima just use her initial A) he was so depressed and obviously me as a friend was there for him... so he ended up "falling" for me but I didn't really engage to accepting his "feelings" this around New Years we made it official still never told him I love you or anything till he did I'm not the stupid one to admit something first with out the other feeling the same way. Obviously every relationship is puppy love at first, but I would always notice his statuses and snap stories were always about him being depressed and no one being there for him. Immediately what would run through my head was like wtf am I here for if you don't communicate with me I try and reach out but you block me, he would say it was family issues but I respected his space and decided not to bother till I noticed countless times he would be like that. (Take in mind we are 2 different distant states) so as I go about my day one day I randomly check IG I decide to look on his (he doesn't know I have one and his was unprivate so I could see everything) he recently posted a selfie and I noticed A wrote a comment which said "daddy" and he liked it obviously I was blowing smoke out of my ears mad but not quite yet did I bring it up I decided to look on her account also not private went through her pictures noticed he liked every single one of her pictures the anger was legit growing more and more then I looked at her comments realizing on a picture around the time he told me his "feelings" for me he dropped some heart eyes on multiple pictures.... that's when I hit him up around 2100 saying wtf why is this girl dropping those comments and you're liking them like wtf you know to begin with WHY TF DO YOU STILL HAVE HER ON SOCIAL MEDIA he was quick to deny shit saying he likes everyone's comments (lol I rolled my eyes so hard when he told me that) I was like well if you hate her and talk so much shit about her to me I don't understand why you would like that shit especially that comment knowing you're "in a relationship" he just BS everything he said so that was the first time I noticed he still had contact with A and you know once again I'm not in the same city as him who knows if he still sees her. From that day he acted all short instead of being in my ass like how we used to be a normal relationship. One day his SC story he posted a ring I was like tf obviously with the caption what a waste following his depressed comments once more reassuring me he still had this white trash on his mind. I brought it up then he proceeded to tell me if he wasn't about me he wouldn't waste his time on me, my guard never went down. Once I left Norfolk I went to my hometown El Paso our relationship got even more short he graduated February 24th from HM A school I flew out to see him got a room spent over $100+ on a nice outfit to not look like shit infront of his family. Turns out I wasn't able to go to the graduation cause I wasn't on some stupid list he put his family but not me then we talked over the phone and agreed it was only a 30 min ceremony no big deal he would pick me up after to go to dinner I was perfectly fine with that it ended at 1500 I waited 2 hrs he said he was talking about family shit with his mom but I look on SC he already had dinner with them so till mad ditched me and didn't come knocking on my door till about 2200 after I had cried my ass to sleep after arguing through text about how he couldn't even let me know (his phone "died") he came knocking on my door asked why are you in the dark? Why are you crying? Why don't you wanna talk to me? Like this MF has the balls to ask me that... sits me down as I start tearing up again then tells me he wants to take it "day by day" like OMFG then why did you tell me I love you if you didn't mean it I was always there for your ass now you're pushing me away like wtf and turns out his mom was in the same hotel as me so idk how he could've not picked me up. So he babies me and promises to make it up tomorrow go to the riverwalk with him and his fam. But he didn't wake up till I was taking a shower opens the door and says he's gonna get his clothes at base get ready and be right back. Males take like 30 min tops to get ready and the base was like 5 min away. 2 hrs passed I take like 1 1/2 hrs to get ready I even waited an extra bit till once again I check SC and see he's out with his fam. And ditched me again:) so I tripped but not as much I let him know I was going out he said why? Like tf nigga not gonna be waiting around like yesterday so I was like just lmk when you're back at the hotel he said ok then it was 2000 and realized he wasn't coming I proceeded to bash him on social media he hit me up immediately saying his phone died (lies I kept seeing him post he was out) how I'm quick to assume shit like nah here for 3 days I'm leaving tomorrow and I couldn't get one fucking day with you other than when you slept with me but I guess that's all I was good for to him, so etc long ass discussion I never saw him that night one of my girls stationed there took me out and he was quick to talk shit once he saw I went out like nah you don't have the right to tell me anything after you ditched me twice. So I came back home argued a bit through the phone gave it 3 weeks noticed I was only begging for his attention at that point decided there was no point in going in when I'm doing my all when oh I forgot to put this out I posted a picture he untagged himself and also forgot to put this out he still had various pictures with A on his account another red light after so many I had previously asked to remove them he would just say they were old . Okay getting back to the sequence of events yesterday after a week of cutting his ass off he was back with this white trash bitch A and sent me a snap (this is the most shadiest shit ever) saying if you were wondering I did use you to get over her but now FYI I'm back with her..... like you guys do not know how much my heart shattered yesterday I balled my eyes out scram even broke walls and furniture on how not sad but frustrated mad I was right and ignored every red flag even though I knew but I was willing to hold it down for him since he always mentioned he was alone and had nothing ( I never talked about my life to him to not stress him I lost everyone that meant something to me but I figured he kinda made me feel good lol not really) but I wanted to be that someone who was there for him and he send me that shitty ass snap with him and A together like ... if I invested my time and feelings into you there's certain shit you don't do out of respect. Like WHY COULDN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAD ME ON LIKE THAT? You said you didn't want to waste your time but you wasted mine you used me to make yourself feel better till you got what you wanted. I REGRET EVERY FUCKING TIME I TRIED TO BE THERE FOR YOU.