#but we shall see. also hope MY boss can drive me to that mall. if not i am in TROUBLE

[irisbaggins]

My insomnia has been wild these last few days, ever since I got sick. Cannot fall asleep when I want to, instead staring blankly ahead until exhaustion finally pulls me under. Fucking bullshit. I have work and a work related party to go to, I don't have time for this shit! Let me sleep!

[janevx]

maybe| yuta nakamoto X

fall

 Since this day things have changed. Yuta was more busy than usual, and Soyeon started feeling different. She didn’t want this sex, but at the same time she enjoy this. She feel really mad at herself, because she felt that she is falling for his charms. She was with him for a long time now, so she was feeling more comfortable around him and Soyeon stopped thinking about him as mafia member, but as a husband.

 They came from Japan a few days ago, and since then they didn’t even talk. Soyeon didn’t know what’s going on, but she said to herself that she not gonna bother herself with this, because why? Maybe she feels feeling, she couldn’t but she can’t focus on him the most. 

 Also about two days he was at mission under Seoul. Soyeon was really afraid of him, because no one contact her or something and now it was really bothering her. No calls, no text - nothing. She worried about Yuta and no one could deny it. It was pretty clear. She hasn’t any telephone numbers to any other member, so she couldn’t make a call. She needed to wait.  1 hour passed, 3 hours pass, 5 hour pass and one day pass, but no news. She didn’t know what to do, so when she was about to make call to Taeil’s wife, she had call.

- Soyeon?

- Jungwoo?

- We have not much time, you have to come to hospital next to mall, understand? Yuta was shoot, he isn’t in good state, so please. You are his wife, Taeyong said that he needs you right now.

 Her eyes was tearing up. She didn’t understand what had happend, and after few seconds she understood.

- I’m gonna be there in 10.

 Within waste a single second, she was running to the hospital her husband is. She was scared and she couldn’t control her tears. He was bad for her sometimes, but he really cares about her and she see this. Soyeoen didn’t want to lose him. She get used to him. What’s gonna happend if he passed out? Will they kill her? Will she have to marry another man? No, at this moment only man she cares about is - Yuta Nakamoto.

 She arrived and meet recepcionist.

- Excuse me, can I help you?

- I’m looking for Yuta Nakamoto. He was shoot.

- Who are you? Are you family member?

- Yes, I am. I’m his wife.

- Please, some ID card?

 Are you kidding her? She was mad at this woman. She gave this woman card and was waiting.

- So?

- He is on fourth floor, room number 23. Please for any informations, ask doctor.

 Soyeon nodded and in few seconds she was in this room. She was stopped by nurse.

- No one can walk in. Mrs, you need to wait for doctor.

- What? - She shouted - Where the fuck is this ass doctor? I’m his wife, he can die and you tell me to wait?!

- Mrs, please wait and calm down we..-

- Fuck no! If doctor don’t come in few second I’m gonna make you regret what you said. Do you know who is he? You know what we can do?

- I’m s-sor-ry. Doctor gonna arrived in few seconds.

 Taeyong and Jungwoo heard everything and it was first time, when they saw you mad like this. You even curse. It was really stressed you out as hell. Taeyong came closer to comfort you, but you only cried more.

- Doctor gonna help him, try to calm down.

- How can I calm the fuck down? He can die! I don’t want him die, understand? What I’m going to do without him by my side? 

- Wait, Soyeon? - Jungwoo looked her into eyes - Do you love Yuta?

- Yes, and what about it? I hate myself for this, but I can’t help it!

 At this moment doctor arrived.

- Mrs. Nakamoto? I’m Lee Dongmin, doctor of your husband. 

- What’s with him?

- He is going to be in coma. We don’t know for how long. His state is really bad. We raerly saved him. He need to rest. You can walk in maybe about two hours?

- Thank you.

 Coma. It was coma, he don’t wake up soon. She started crying more with seconds. Taeyong hadn’t really strenght to comfort her. He has own bussines now. He needs to kill this jerk who almost killed one of his best men, but Jungwoo stoped him. “Don’t do it now. When Yuta gonna wake, he would want to kill him by himself.” Taeyong left hospital to end bussines, but to hospital come Mark, Johnny, Jaehyun and Haechan. They all were sitting on the hall and they wait. Nothing more than could do.

- Excuse me, one of you can walk in.

- I can go last. - Soyeon said first - He knows you more and for sure want you all be first. I can wait.

- Are you sure? - Jaehyun asked - We can wait as well.

- Just Jungwoo go. - She looked into his eyes - He is here since beggining.

 They all nodedd and waiting. They had small conversations about everyhting, and even they was kidding and make soyeon laugh. Time passed and it was Soyeon’s turn. She walked in with small smile. When she saw her husband like this, she couldn’t stop her tears again. She took a sit and held his hand.

- Hello Yuta. Propably you can listen to me, but if not it’s even better. I missed you about this few days you were gone. I miss you now. Even if you didn’t talk to me in this past days, I’m missing you. I miss your voice, even when you scream, because you are mad at me. I miss your chuckle.I miss how you call me honey or sweetheart, you know? Damn, I didn’t think It can be so hard without you. I have one favor, don’t leave us. Don’t leave me, please. I love you. I really do. I know I shouldn’t, but.. You always make me feel some kind of way I can’t explain. Please, fight for you.

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2 days later

 It was 8 a.m when she arrived at hospital. She was unhappy. Nothing had changed since this days. He was still in coma. Nurse and docrotr greet her and left her alone with her husband. Yuta looked like angel like he was peacfuly asleep. 

- Hi honey. Is this okay to call you like this? You would teasing me that how I called you. I know it. I hope you don’t feel any pain and you are strong. Taeyong is really touchy these days. He said that he knows that you would be mad if I would was alone without any guard, so he send Jungwoo at the morning and Johnny with Mark at the evening and afternoon to me. I’m safe, I hope you are safe too. I promise that when you wake up, I’m not gonna bother you anymore. I can close myself in room or something. I miss you. - She kissed his forehead - I’m going stay here till I won’t be asleep.

 She was doing there anything and watch her husband. Yuta’s state didn’t even change a little.

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 Week later

 Soyeon was sitting with Doyoung at Yuta’s room. 

- Soyeon, maybe you should come back to home? You are here everyday for some long hours.

- No way. I’m staying here until Yuta wake.

- I know you are worried about him, we too. But you need to rest too. You look like ghost. Have you even eaten? Go eat something.

- I’m not leaving, Doyoung. There’s no way that I’m leave this guy.

- What the fuck should I do? Shall I call Taeyong to take you from this by hi9s strenght?

 Soyeon didn’t know that he doesn’t kidding. Doyoung called his boss, who came with Jungwoo.  Taeyong took in his arms Soyeon, who fight against him, but she was weak to him. He without problem took girl off the hospital. 

- I had to come from my office. You NEED TO rest, because if not we not gonna let you see Yuta, got it? Jungwoo go with her to get some food for all of us, and come to base.

- I got it boss.

- Right now, I’m Taeyong your friend.

- Okay Tae, we gonna be at base with some food.

- Thanks.

 To be honest Taeyong was worried about Yuta too and the same as soyeon really tired. He couldn’t stop thinkin about his best friend in hospital and his wife everyday for more than 10 hours in hospital getting feel like ghost. He can’t focus and anything, because he was worried about both of them. 

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Two weeks later

 Soyeon came to hospital at the evening with Mark. She can’t be sooner, because Taeyong gave her warning about being there for so long time and didn’t care about yourself. Boys took care of her, help her and drive her to hospital no matter what. They also gace her some money and said that she didn’t have to return this money to them. It melts Soyeon’s heart.

 She walked in to halway with Mark by her side and both smiling goes to Yuta’s room. When they were about to enter, nurse stoped them. They could see doctor with some nurses running to the room and everyhting was in chaos.

- Excuse me, what is happening?

- Your husband’s state is geting worse. We need to do surgery. Please, be good thought and don’t overthing. We are going to do all we can to safe him.

 Mark eyes gone wider and Soyeon felt that her heart stopped. Soyeon was slowly faling to the groud. Mark didn’t want to do, but he hold her.

- Soyeon, is everything okay? 

- He can’t die!