#but we gotta get those apps yk yk...

[moonliteyeszine]

Moderator Introductions!

To celebrate the completion of our website, we figured we'd put together a little introductory post so you can get to know who's working behind the scenes.

(For the sake of not flooding your feed, everything is below the cut, and for the sake of advertisement, please apply to the zine before July 28th! We'd love to see whatever you've got!)

First up: Vik!

In the spirit of it being a little awkward to talk about myself in the third person, I'll forgo the formalities for this post.

I'm Vik - short for Viktor - and I go by he/him. I'm in charge of organizing the zine and running the Tumblr & e-mail, so when it comes to questions, I'm your guy. You can find me on here @hitsuzenhusbands and Ao3 @ douwata. If you scrounge around, I'm sure you can find some of my other accounts in other places, but these are where I'm most active....if one fic every 5 months or so counts as active. And, of course, Danny is my favorite! 👁️

Next: Jade!

Jade - she/he/it - has got to be the biggest Cathy fan out there. That being said, it's only fitting that it was the one to help me put together the discord server and theming for the zine. Her dedication to Angels of Death is most prominent in her textposts here on Tumblr @fawningflattery, not to mention her Rachel (and Cathy, soon!) cosplay on tiktok @ jewifacation.

Last but not least: Sol!

Sol's involvement with Angels of Death is admittedly pretty limited compared to the tirade Jade and I have been on since 2021, but he's still done his fair share of gameplay and manga reading! She uses he/she and is only represented by Zack in the picture above because Shin doesn't have any game sprites. In regards to production, he's taken on the difficult task of proof-reading everything I send out. You can find him on here @solzies, or on Instagram @ giroovs.

That's all for now! We hope we'll see you around!

[byfulcrums]

Fuck it, Invincible Tumblr pt 2

🌟 notsovinciblenow Follow

Why's everyone calling me "Mr Invincible", don't do that it makes me feel old

🌙 artemislover Follow

YES MR INVINCIBLE OFC MR INVINCIBLE

🌟 notsovinciblenow Follow

I don't think you understood what I was trying to say

🧬 atomevesss☑️☑️ Follow

I don't get why wars happen like can't we just Not

🦖 redinosaurus Follow

Wars are not necessary, but death is. For this world to continue living, the majority of the population needs to die — the human race is hell-bent on destroying their beautiful planet, and so destroying them is the only way to save it.

They will die creating a better world.

🌟 notsovincible Follow

Woah there Light Yagami 😭

💥 gokaboombitch Follow

Im high as fuck rn and i was wondering if theres like virgin edibles? Like the ones without the drug in it things you can eat without getting high you know

🌟 notsovincible Follow

Bitch you mean food?????

🌟 notsovincible Follow

I was explaining to my brother the importance of human life and why we need to treasure it and he called me a pussy?? He literally just learned how to speak wtf

🦸‍♂️ omnimansmydadbitch Follow

Pussy.

🌟 notsovincible Follow

WHEN DID YOU GET ON SOCIAL MEDIA

🌭 hotdoghotwoof Follow

r we not gonna talk about how invincible has a brother that's apparently his dad's biggest fan

his dad, AKA the mass murderer

🦸‍♂️ omnimansmydadbitch Follow

pussy.

🌟 notsovincible Follow

Okay that's it, I'm telling mom

🧬 atomevesss☑️☑️ Follow

Have you ever made an incredible scientific discovery because you can see things on a molecular level, only for no one in your life (specifically your parents) to care about it

🌙 artemislover Follow

oof atom eve has parental issues?? just like me fr

🌟 notsovincible Follow

"It is what it is" well I hate what it is. Can it be something else

#i don't like my life. anymore

📸 missgrayson Follow

there's a ghost in my house wtf

🌟 notsovincible Follow

Call the Ghostbusters

📸 missgrayson Follow

Do they have an app, or a website, or something?

🌟 notsovincible Follow

No you just gotta call

📸 missgrayson Follow

Guess I'm stuck with this fucking ghost then

🌟 notsovincible Follow

..MOM??

#MOM OLIVER'S ON THIS APP

Delete this post? If you do, you'll never see it again!

Yes / No

🌟 notsovincible Follow

I accidentally just doxxed myself

🚫 globaldefenseofficial Follow

Stop compromising your identity.

We'll delete the post and every screenshot of it from social media — do NOT repeat this.

🌟 notsovincible Follow

Cecil I am SO sorry

💥 explodeyourass Follow

woke up and invincible doxxed himself. haha what a moron

🧬 atomevesss☑️☑️ Follow

You literally did that yourself last week. Moron.

💃 thedancingquinn Follow

I love how ready atom eve is to roast rex splode it's so funny

🌙 artemislover Follow

his name is mentioned and she's already throwing hands 😭

#flshy n lantern vibes fr #am I the only one who knows those two superheroes?? cause they're #hilarious

💥 explodeyourass Follow

What r the big cats called again. The ones w. Spots or SMTH?? YK like this

[Image description: Leopard.]

🧬 atomevesss☑️☑️ Follow

It's a LEOPARD you fucking moron

💃 thedancingquinn Follow

SEE THIS IS WHAT I MEAN

[hayatoseyepatch]

Sam!!! Congrats on the milestone again, this is so exciting! I hope you’ve been enjoying your time on the blr writing and interacting because you are a joy 💚

So matchups, hm? I’m curious about a match from either wbk OR tokyo rev (just one, and you choose!) just whatever comes to your head first 😅

She/they pronouns, an introvert disguised as an extrovert I think. I can be super outgoing, but it drains me, and my idea of a fun time is definitely sitting at home with my favorite coloring app and Law&Order: SVU. I usually have music playing at any given time, and my top artists are Hozier and Sleep Token. I wear a lot of leggings and hoodies and depending on how cool I wanna look I’m either in my Birks or Docs lol. When I’m not being a homebody, I like bookstores, dungeons and dragons, and concerts. Oh, and I don’t want kids, like, at all. So my partner has to be okay with that.

My favorite tropes are friends to lovers and Coffeeshop AUs (also a big fan of Only One Bed cause who isn’t?)

I like guys taller than me (not hard since I’m 5’2” lol) who have a darker aesthetic. Gotta be smart, usually very serious on the outside with a goofy side that not everyone sees. I admire people with hobbies, something they’re really passionate about.

My favorites from wbk are hiragi (obviously), ume, togame, and arima, and my faves from Tokyo rev are akkun, takemichi, mitsuya, and kisaki.

I don’t really have any characters that I loathe from either fandom, though I can’t see myself ever being with someone who’s, like, super crazy peppy and outgoing all the time.

Again, just pick either fandom! I figured I’d give you options cause I have a lot of love for both series 💚 congrats again!

Melonnn!! ｡°(°.◜ᯅ◝°)°｡♡ Thank you so much for your kind words and for participating! You're literally so sweet and I’m so lucky to be moots with such an angel ♡ On to your matchup my love!

I Match you up with Toma Hiragi from Wind Breaker!

⤜♡→ Come on now I cant be expected not to appreciate the actual best couple in the entire world. Satoru Nii and me are besties we literally just got off the phone and he was like “Yeah ofc RagiMel is canon.” I just think you guys are such a good match for eachother. Your personalities just suit each other so well. I am a firm supporter of things are boring if you are the exact same personality wise and I feel like your differences and similarities attract you to one another.

⤜♡→ Hiragi would much rather sit at home with you, his head perched on your lap as you explain the plot to one of your shows to him. Is he a little worried you’d be able to dispose of his boy too well with the amount of Law and Order episodes you both have binged? Sure. But its always nice to keep them on their toes, yk?

⤜♡→ Hiragi was the first to confess, but he took his sweet time doing it, poor man was so nervous. He was more than ready to take out Umemiya for not so subtly pointing out his (very obvious) crush on you. I feel like he isn’t the best at hiding his feelings. Being openly stern and even aggressive with the others but always kind and gentle when it came to you. His favoritism was just so blatantly obvious.

⤜♡→ This may be a hot take but I feel like Hiragi is more than okay with not having kids. I know a lot of people look at him and are like “ahh, yeah he’s totally a guy who wants a family.” But hear me out here. Hiragi has had his fair share of being an older brother almost fatherly figure to those like Sako, Kaji, and Sakura. He’s done his fair share and he is more than happy to just spend the rest of his life loving you and maybe even getting a pet or two. Your love is more than enough for him. You and Bofurin are his family, and that’s all he could ever ask for.

He pulls over into a clearing putting the car in park, getting out to properly set up the bed of the truck with pillows and blankets, humming to himself. He approaches our door after a moment opening it and offering you his hand, helping you out of the vehicle and walking you to the back. Grinning he allows his large hands to cup your waist, leaning down to slot his lips against yours. It didn’t matter how long you had both been together, every time kissing Hiragi felt like the first time. The all-encompassing love he slipped into every kiss still had you weak in the knees. Pulling away from you, he looks into your eyes, his own soft and lidded with adoration. Pressing his forehead against your own, his breaths fanning your face as he speaks. “I love you darling, more than you could ever possibly know.” With one more love-stricken smile he lifts you, helping you into the bed of the truck. Climbing in after you he settles you both against the blankets, lying down next to you.

He hums in contentment as you lie your head against his chest. He had taken you here many times before, the calm of the area where you could both just enjoy each others presence while looking up at the night sky, gazing at the array of stars. He craved these moments with you, where it was just the two of you, where nothing else mattered but holding you in his arms. He smiles, arms squeezing you tightly to him, smile adorning his features. One hand carding his fingers through your hair. “We haven’t been able to come here in a while, we have so many good memories here.” He hums, pulling you closer to him, recalling the very first time he brought you here. “This is where I told you I loved you for the first time, remember?”

His heart soars when he hears you laugh, recalling the memory, him taking his medicine to qualm his aching stomach from nerves. The way he felt as if his face would melt with the heat from his red cheeks. His words came out nervously, surging in to capture your lips with his own when you reciprocated his confession. His teeth clashing with your own in the kiss, so much so that he had punctured your lip. “How could I forget?” Your voice pulled him from his thoughts, his smile aimed at you once more. As he felt the weight of the velvet box that weighed down his pocket, he just hoped you could make yet another memory in your special place.

[captain-cookie]

Tag (7) people you'd like to get to know better!

@soggypetals tagged me in this !! (i’m not fully sure how i’m meant to do this but i’m making my best guess)

currently watching: ooh god i’m watching so many things there’s gotta be at least 5 shows i halfway finished but literally today i was rewatching sherlock, and i recently finished the tobey maguire spiderman movies and the last hunger games movie

currently listening: to so much mcr and fall out boy they have a grip on me rn. but also the used , thursday, three songs from cobra starship, death spells, stomaches, hesitant alien, yk. also please someone recommend me some women to listen to i looked at my playlist and it’s all men i stg it’s a huge problem

currently reading: just finished rereading the princess bride cause i barely remmeber the last time i read it. it was p enjoyable however those authors notes really read like the classic boomer “i hate my wife” a lot of the time which was just like. idc.

current obsession: really into playing solitaire rn i have the app and it’s sm fun. gonna look into poker app (gambling free don’t even worry!!) also obsessed w playing music, i js wanna be in a band so bad yk. i’ve written like three songs and they’re kinda shit but we roll!!

okk tagging: @savedthescene @headfirstforha1os @ajmustdie @willwont2005 @foliejpg @dietstjuno @doctorcziken

[elliesbelle]

hiii lesbian whisperer, i hope ure doing fab today. i currently come to u seeking advise!! (don’t feel forced or rushed to reply to any of this btw, i’m kinda just ranting since i don’t have a lesbian whisperer irl. 😭)

but ummmm. basically there is this starbucks barista who worked inside the store i worked at and like. naturally i sort of developed a crush on her except i’m pretty sure she doesn’t know who i am lmao. but we have shared a few tiny interactions here and there (which i doubt she remembers. cuz like, i’m THE MOST introverted bitch u will ever meet) and like for context, i just suck at flirting with girls and holding long conversations with them bc it’s just not in my nature, which is HORRIBLE for me. anywayyy, we both don’t work there anymore, but one of my friends befriended a few of those starbucks baristas and they hang out as a group every monday, and she’s been telling me to join them bc she thinks i’ll get along with them since they like the same music as me and have similar humor. (and honestly i know deep down she is trying to put me on LOLL god bless her), but i said no at first bc i don’t do well in those types of settings (anddd she didn’t mention that my crush would be there! 🤣) but then recently i found out that she also hangs out with my crush on mondays! like, she’s a part of that group! my friend and her are, like, friends! so i was like, OH!

no one knows i have a crush on her. and honestly, i find it embarrassing telling my friends when i have a crush. i’m just not good at that stuff!!!

SO IF I DO JOIN THEM TMR IDK HOW TO ACT!?? like how am i supposed to get to know ONE person in a group setting if everyone already knows each other without making it obvious or creeping her out….? and then how am i supposed to like actually flirt with her and i guess make a good first impression…. ohmygod i am freaking out. 😀

thankfully i know that she’s bi so at least i have a chancee (omg im getting cocky arent i) but yeah i’m just so scared. 😔 being a socially awkward lesbian is not for the weak!!!

thank u for reading this far, any advise and/or advanced condolences are very much appreciated! LOL. and much love to u belle <3 i hope u know we appreciate having u on this app and on this earth SM! your page is like one of my comfort blogs fr. have a great rest of ur day! 💘💘

nawt theee lesbian whisperer 💀 (it’s true)

omg i hope you did join the group!! that sounds so exciting!! you don’t have to tell your friends that you have a crush on her if you don’t want to, but you can’t have anything happen if you don’t make a move!

my advice is when you do hang out with her in a group, definitely socialize with everyone else, but give her a little extra attention, yk? not in an obvious way, but kind of like, gravitate towards her? and to help with the nerves, just act friendly towards her for now! like, approach her like you would someone you’d like to be friends with. that way, you’ll get used to talking to her and get a feel of the vibe y’all have with each other (you can start out being like, “omg i think i know you, you used to work at this starbucks i would go to).

being a socially awkward lesbian def is hard, but unfortunately if you want a gf, you gotta take initiative! you got no choice, love, cause chances are that the other person you like won’t make advances either.

good luck babes! and lmk how it goes, if you’d like!

[solluve]

Domsetic Luxiem Headcanons!! ahshuaduw

not proofread!!! mentions of spiders, squishing spider, ew spider ────────────────────────

vox

CANT DO SHIT TBH like "oh he's a housewife" he's not. Like sure, hell clean and cook BUT HE ONLY DOES IT WHEN YOU TELL HIM TO he messes with u to Like

"oh can u clean the bedroom?"

"wdym.. my demonic aura cleansed everything already."

WE DIDNT MEAN SPIRITUALLY GO CLEAN IT When you force him to, he actually does a good job!! Like clothes are folded, floors are swept and there's a huge ass pile of clothes in ur closet!! MF GTE UR ASS OVER HERE HES HOT BUT HES NOT GETTING AWAY he also likes to meditate but like.. isolated. If you disturb him he's gonna make YOU sleep on the couch half joke he might tho He takes pride into his meditation, you would want peace and quiet too yk?! but if u guys have a pet, he'll let that mf disturb him any dayy why does a dog get special privileges UR THE ONE WHO PAYS 50% OF RENT he prob has those doobermans he probably also bribed the apartment facility to let him in I'm like 100% sure that dog is here illegally but he loves the dog and you do too! partly. he can't dance for the life of him however it's it's embarrassing HE COULD DO TRADITIONAL DANCING !! but don't hit him up with some 21st century shit he'll look like he's got it and then fall mid way. gotta get his old as the the hospital HIS BONES CRACKED.

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shu

ehe hes everything we wanted yall !! I'm joking. This mf DOESNT KNOW SLEEP like you'll be going to get a drink at 3am and then straight up see some demonic looking figure in the hall its just him trying to fix some shit HE BREAKS THINGS JUST SO HE CAN FIX THEM

"how did the...light break?"

"ion know but what I do know is that I can fix it!"

CATCH HIM ON THE SERCUIRTY CAMERAS hes useful tho in thay aspect!! your landlord ain't getting any money from damages. Dishwasher broke? Hes on it !! The TV isn't working as well? hes on it !! this is an ad for shu yamino services go support him He also does wack as shit at 3am Yk how I said he was fixing something at night while u were getting a drink? He was fixing A SPIDER. SPIDER he said "oh !!! I stepped on him so I wanted to help him!" HOW U GON FIX THAT HOW DID HE EVEN KNOW HE STEPPED ON IT You also caught him fixing Christmas tree during December. He laughed and said, "it wasn't bright enough!" a police visited yall 2 hrs later one of ur neighbors called the cops since it was way to bright. He had to make it up with cuddles xoxo, and pay the fine xoxoxo

______ mysta GET GIM AWAY MANS TO FERAL like literally can't do SHIT maid mysta maid mysta!! YOUR MYSTAKEN (do u get the joke) HE JUST RUINS EVERYTHING you just cleaned the floors!! why is FUCKING MUD STAINS ALREADY?!? Like he can't clean, CANTNFUCKING COOK (we all know this.) I DONT even want to elaborate on how bad he cooks. You Handel the cleaning, cooking, and what does he do? he def ain't sitting there pretty (ugly/j) instead, he opts to get the money and shit !! But like It's concerning Like last time I checked he had money to pay rent and all that but....he had to much money left. More than usual. Your guys Financials were good dwdw! BUT HOW HE GONNA HAVE THOUSANDS LEFT HES SELLING DRUGS/ the obvious explanation and that his freinds make him do crazy ass stunts and give him money/j "do a flip off that porch. 10$ mf." LMFAOO he's also just...insane. You'll wake up at 3am again to see him on the phone with elmo LMFAOOO THOSE APPS THAT SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF CHILDREN IT SCARES HIM TO you'll hear the most frightful voice just like "when do you want the money?! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE" you have to hack in a delete that app for the mfer to sleep at night. He'll boast like "I'm not afraid of that shit it's all fake!" wait till u put a elmo plush on his bed ______

Luca YAHH HES SO EUSHWUS he's so cute omg but so messy. LIKE HE CAN CLEAN AFTER HIMSELF BUT HE HAS A HYPER MINDSET so it's like one thing after another, he can't slow down to clean. It's not that bad to clean after him, he doesn't make a bad bad mess. BUT HE DEF NEEDS TO LEARN TO TAKE A BREAK Nothing is shecduled either. It's just like, do this, then that, then this, the profit all of our belongings to sushang(ehe love her) But when he comes home from a long day.. omg Let me elaborate HE WAS CUDDLY ALWAYS BUT HES JUST extra extra cuddly he dosent want to do shit. he'll drag you from whoever you are and force you on the couch/bed and yall with just stay there Maybe for ever HE JUST FALLS ALSEEP SO EASILY like it's kinda concerning hyper energetic turing anemic at any possible moment he has he'll drag you along all the time for those moments He doesn't even speak he just mumbles and occasionally huffs out of relief he so cute omg but then THEN WHEN HES HYPER AGAIN HE WILL BODY SLAM YOU ONTO THE BED OR SOFA AGAIN CHILL THIS AINT THE WWE he doesn't know how strong he is omg.

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Ike FIANLLY THE MOST LIKE REASONABLE MAN OUT OF EVERYONE but he's like a neat freak also, Like....did u just leave a fucking go gurt on the table when you went to get ur phone? DIRTY ASS MF !!!! he just wants to make sure the house is clean some people say, "your house reflects you" And I think that's true but!! he we we all know he gon snap THE MFER HE NEEDS TO PUT UP WITH his freinds trying be likebthe power rangers or some shit I find it funny they are just all different colors palettes BUT HES GREAT !! HE COOKS, CLEANS, ACTUALLY HAS CALM HOBBIES did I say calm mbmb let's not forget his karaoke SKILLS HELLO??? THE SCREAMING HE CAN DO THE AMOUNT OF TIMES U GUYS GOT NOISE COMPLAINTS nobody would've guess it was from him. he just smiles, aplogizes and hands over the money he handing over the money so willingly cause that mf KNOWS IT WAS HIS FAULT but he don't give a shit LMFAOO he'll shut the door, wait a little, then start cursing out the neighbors in Swedish he's he's scary. he's literally like those innocent ass looking dogs names princesses that's a devil in secret he's ur devil in secret tho <33

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[veonhagen]

tot boys in an idol group au

… artem wing

the leader among all four of the boys. this wasn’t much of a surprise to some of you, since his maturity and role as the eldest plays a part in this decision. remember when mc says in his side story he’d make a great dad ? now he’s the dad of three in the group.

the lead rapper. artem has a naturally deep voice, so it fits with the rapper position. he also has quite the large vocabulary ( i’m personally not sure knowing a lot of words helps with rapping, perhaps with the rhymes ? ). either way, he would definitely have some lines where he slowly raps with his low tone.

lead vocalist. i don’t know about you guys, but i firmly believe that this fine man can sing. he’s already perfect enough <3. men with deep voices such as artem would make an amazing vocalist, with deep lines that aren’t as high as the usual tones you’d hear in pop music. take a look at wonwoo from seventeen’s vocals.

the visual. i personally think all four boys would fit to take the visual position, but honestly ? artem seems the most visually appealing to me. the others would have their own charms, such as marius’s trademark smirk, luke’s beady and bright eyes, and vyn’s soft smile — but in artem’s case, he doesn’t particularly have this sort of charm that makes him all the more attractive. he doesn’t need a defining point to make him attractive, and that speaks so loudly how he deserves the visual position.

… vyn richter

the main vocalist. now hear me out — i don’t have a particular reason in why i chose vyn to be the main vocalist. it was most probably a gut feeling for me as to why i picked that decision. but i’m definitely not complaining ; his soft sweet melodic voice i would want to hear over and over, it’s probably no surprise if he actually turns out to have some really good skills in terms of singing.

lead dancer. at this point it’s probably me following my gut when it comes to deciding the rest of the positions as well, but i do headcanon that vyn would definitely be swift whenever he picks up his legs and runs wherever, so i am assuming he’d also make a great dancer. heck, maybe he might be the choreographer of the group because of his seemingly limitless knowledge of how well some series of dance moves go well together.

bonus, i honestly think outside of idol entertainment vyn would definitely be the one most likely to become an actor. he pays attention to how people act and feel whenever they are in different situations, so he himself may eventually pick them up and make an amazing actor in his career.

… luke pearce

the face of the group. he’s on the literal icon of the tears of themis app, so why not make him the fotg ? he’s already the face of the app and one of the most popular among the boys. he’s also talked about a lot to the point his face would come up first to many’s minds whenever the group ( or game ) gets brought up in different conversations.

main dancer. correct me if i’m wrong, but luke probably is the most athletically versed out of the four men ( well, maybe aside from artem but we gotta keep the positions fair yk ). he could probably nail down all of the dance steps in first practice routine.

lead vocalist. luke would be vocally capable as well ! i firmly believe he actually gives that bangchan of stray kids kind of vocals mixed with a hyunjin style of dancing, you know ? i apologize for those non kpop stans since i really don’t know how to describe his skills </3.

i also believe in sub rapper luke supremacy. he isn’t much experienced in rapping as marius is, but he’d be the type to have a high pitched, speedy rap in some of his lines. those lines aren’t so common, but it’s equally a blessing.

… marius von hagen

absolutely the main rapper. marius’s natural voice would make really good rap lines in the group’s title tracks. i honestly really think he’d have those really fast lines ? maybe there could be some slow raps here and there but i think he has mastered rolling his tongue on spitting those verses perfectly.

lead dancer. at this point i’m probably thinking all of them are capable of dancing but hear me out ! marius gives those swag vibes if you know what i’m talking about ? he’d have a dance style more similar to taeyong from nct, which is sort of robot-like in a sense ? he also is one of the members who pick up the dance steps at a quicker learning pace, alongside luke.

maknae / youngest. this is sort of a bonus but to think how marius is the tallest yet the youngest among all four of them is really funny. imagine people who don’t stan the group and being in shock, realizing how marius is the youngest, but he towers over everyone. ( the thought of it makes me giggle a bit ngl ). he also pulls the maknae card whenever he wants something from the older members, that cheeky bastard.

Ⓒ veonhagen, do not steal. 08/04/21.

[0riginal-ari]

hey guyssss I randomly wrote this because why not plus we can pretend ep 9 never happened yk 🤭😇 but I really hope you guys enjoy. I plan on continuing this. I finished this in one day but I won't always go this pace. I hope I don't get lazy but yeah. I would love feedback on this, I hope it's good before I actually post it on this app I really wanted to so yeah. hope you love it. 💛 I will start writing more and different stuff but for now I got inspired from one of my fave shows.

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRANGER THINGS VOLUME 2 SPOILERS. READER DISCRETION IS ADVISED. ‼️⚠️💕

tw: blood, serious injuries, and horror elements

Chapter 1: "He didn't run"

“EDDIEEEEEEEEE.” Dustin’s scream sent a chill down Eddie’s spine. The older male was on the cold, slimy, uncomfortable ground of the upside down. Blood sputters out of his mouth as he struggles to breathe. Eddie knew he was dying. ‘At least I didn’t run” He thinks to himself, but his thought was cut short as Dustin was limping toward the man. Dustin’s face was full of sheer shock and terror. “Eddie!” He whimpers as he drops the stick in his hand and bends down. Dustin starts to pull Eddie closer, welcoming him in his arms. “Oh God, Eddie,” Dustin says with a worried tone as he tears up. He was genuinely scared for him. Sure, Dustin was used to this in a way but his friend, who sort of felt like an older brother, a role model, was now bleeding out in his arms. Dustin was determined not to let Eddie die.

Eddie’s ears were ringing while his head was throbbing from the blood loss. He couldn’t stop choking. Jesus, his throat felt like fire was just thrown in it. Despite the pain, Eddie wanted to reassure and calm Dustin that he would be alright. Maybe it was really his time, but he didn’t want Dustin upset.

“Bad huh?” Eddie says weakly. Sharp pains were radiating through Eddie’s body. The bats really did a number on him. It hurt so badly. All he could do was close his eyes and pray that the pain would go away though he couldn’t yet as there was a panicked Henderson next to him.

Dustin’s breaths were shaky from fear but he quickly replied. “No, no, no, no, you’re gonna be fine. We just gotta get you to a hospital okay.” Eddie then sputters again, more blood leaving his body. “Okay,” he replies.

AN: I’m going to leave most of the dialogue out because I mean, we already know what they say, it’s heartbreaking (I'm wanna make the first few chapters the least sad they can be for the sake of everyone), and I wanna get to the good part which is steddie so just imagine their convo <3

“I love you man.” was the last thing Eddie said to Henderson before darkness swallowed him whole. He could hear Dustin wailing a few moments before everything went dark. It was Eddie’s year, his year to be a hero, even if it cost him his life. That’s at least what he thought it did….

Steve, Nancy, and Robin were on the way back from Vecna’s lair. He had run away, they had lost. Many emotions and thoughts were going through Steve’s mind. He was disappointed, Venca was still alive. The group didn’t know what they could do now. Max was in danger, apparently, Vecna got to her, hence the four chimes. Steve hoped and prayed that she was alive. Those two things weren’t his only worries. He was worried for Dustin and Eddie. ‘What if the bats got to them?’ Steve thinks but sighs and brushes it off as he continues walking with the others. It was not long before they got close to where everyone parted. Fear strikes the group as they could hear crying and tiny whimpers. The sounds increased Steve’s fear though he couldn’t make out who it was. The brunette starts to walk faster and finally reaches the spot. Steve’s heart drops, and a wave of nausea immediately hits him. On the ground was a distraught Dustin hovering over Eddie’s seemingly lifeless body. When the other two arrive next to Steve, Robin gasps covering her mouth with her hand while Nancy tears up and grabs onto Robin. Nancy turns them away. Robin starts to tear up as well. “Eddie,” she croaks out sniffling. Nancy nods sadly. “I know, but maybe we can still save him.’ Robin then nods agreeing.

Steve’s vision blurred as he dropped to his knees to reach Eddie. He didn't even realize he was crying, the main focus was Eddie right now. Steve curses under his breath. “Henderson, what happened?’ he asks as he pulls the curly-haired boy in for a hug. Dustin takes a while to answer as he was trying to stop himself from crying. “H-he didn't run, Steve. He’s a hero.’ Those words send a chill down Steve’s spine. Steve now moved away from Dustin and held Eddie in his arms. He starts to cry. “I-i told you not to be a hero. Why’d you do this?” He says in between sobs. Steve couldn’t bear to let the person he started to love to die. Looking for hope Steve checks Eddie’s pulse. Thank God, Eddie was still breathing, his pulse was irregular but still going. This meant Steve meant to hurry or those lifeless-looking eyes would soon actually hold no life. He then picks up Eddie’s limp body turning to the girls. “Guys, it’s not too late. He’s breathing, but we need to hurry.” Steve says with an urgency to his voice. The girls quickly turn, sharing sighs of relief. Dustin stands nodding while Nancy and Robin do too. “I can’t hide him, but I have the supplies,” Nancy says softly.

“That's alright, just bring it over. I can hide him. Parents are never home.’ Steve replies. Nancy nods “Okay then let’s hurry then. I’ll hurry to grab it from the place and hurry to yours.’ she says while Dustin was holding Eddie’s hand. This was far from the actual Eddie he knew. Eddie was full of energy but now he was dull, pale, and cold. It hurt Dustin to see him like this. He was determined to get Eddie help, they all were. The group then all agree and go through the gate. Steve went last, it was hard to go up the rope with Eddie in his hands but he managed. While being jostled, Eddie made a few whimpering noises from the pain. It saddened Steve, but at least was a sign of him waking soon. Steve was glad about that. He looks down at Eddie. “You’re going to be okay.” He whispers before dropping down on the mattress. They were all safe and Steve meant what he said. Eddie was going to be okay, he’ll make sure of it.

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The car ride was silent. Everyone hovered over Eddie nervously. Dustin held his hand the whole way while Eddie rested on Robin’s lap. Steve drove, praying Eddie was still hanging on back there. The tension in the car was so thick that it could be cut. Everyone sat in silence but the silence was a silence everyone understood. Nancy was now grabbing medical supplies, she parted from the others to do so. After she found everything needed, she sped to Steve’s. Once Steve, Dustin, and Robin got inside they all helped place Eddie on the guest bed. Steve’s house was huge but he was humble about it. The bleeding had slowed with the shirts they used until Nancy could arrive. Everyone’s eyes were red and puffy. They were all worried.

15 minutes later Nancy arrives. She knocks on the door. “Guys, it’s me. Please help me get all the supplies out of the trunk,” she yells through the door. Robin and Dustin stand and scramble to the door. Noticing Steve did not follow, they look back at him with confused faces. He was still sitting on the bed, now playing in Eddie’s hair.

“Steve? What are you waiting for?’ Dustin asks, confused.

Steve’s head then perks up. “Oh, sorry. I think I uh- should stay here to make sure he is breathing and all that. Tell Nance that.’ he replies giving them a tiny smile.

Dustin nods and hurries 0ut while Robin stays put. She observes the two as Steve retreats to Eddie’s hair again. ‘Steve definitely likes him. It’s cute’ she thinks to herself and smiles. It was like they were in their own little world when together. Robin felt the chemistry as soon as the boys met. She would definitely be teasing them about it when Eddie got better. She knew something had to be up. Robin was 100% sure she was right. She chuckles a bit before heading to the car. “I’ll ask him later,” she mumbles to herself while walking.

It takes around an hour to get the stuff in and Eddie bandaged. The three now sat in a huddle on the floor of the room, they talked about good times trying to lighten the mood as they kept an eye on Eddie. Steve and Dustin in particular would always turn every hour or so to check up on him. He showed signs of improvement. All of them didn’t know Eddie for that long except Dustin, but they still were really relieved as he was slowly getting better. Eddie’s skin had color now and his breathing was steady. He even moved a bit. They hoped he would wake soon but braced themselves for seeing the pain he was about to go through.

More hours pass and the sun was now starting to rise. They all took turns being on Eddie watch through the night while the others slept. Everyone was now awake and was now discussing what to do today. Robin then blurts out something.

“Uh, speaking of going out I think he’s going to need a good comfort, a good shower, and a good meal. We were down there for how long? Not a good amount of time. So if we want to do/go get some things we have to be fast or just stay here. He’ll need help. Plus what if he wakes up?”

“True,” Dustin replies quietly. “But we can just split up again. One of us goes to do what we need to do and the rest of us stay with Eddie,”

“Well, I don’t have a license so I'm staying,” Robin says.

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“aying….” is what Eddie hears as he wakes up. He feels snug like he has been wrapped tight. Eddie looks around with half-lidded eyes and then looks down. He was bandaged. That explained the tight feeling. Eddie was shocked he even survived. But how? Eddie thinks.

Steve stands. “I'll go but please watch him,” he says.

Robin smiles at Steve’s worry for Eddie. It was sweet.

On the other side of the room, Eddie hears this and smiles a bit. So they saved him. He was grateful. Eddie weakly turns his head to look at them.

“So what food? Anything specific?” Steve asks, looking down at the huddle.

“Pizza would be great,” Eddie said softly.

At the sound of his voice, everyone turns their head. They all smile and Eddie smiles back.

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AN: So that is the end of this chapter, it's pretty short but I'm going to try to make things longer as I go along writing. The title of chapter 2 is "Why didn't you listen man?" if you want a sneak peak. Sorry if it takes very long as I have been busy and then when I am not I do get lazy on my part sometimes and procrastinate so I'm sorry but I really loook forward to continuing!! Bye loves <3

have an Eddie gif :)

[forbiddenship]

i just saw a bunch of rina's take yet another ss of a portwell post from tumblr to talk shit over on twitter. it annoys me so much that this keeps happening and we can't do anything about it bc there aren't enough of us over there. i'm asking you this bc i know you're on twitter and you're like the portwell captain on that app (bless your soul you're doing god's work). how do you handle being on there when this happens all the time?

first of all, that is such a sweet compliment, and it made my day so thank you so much. i’m definitely not a captain or anything lol, it’s funny how it all started. i became a hardcore portwell shipper when 2x05 came out, and at that point there wasn’t much content - very few edits and fics here and there - and even less so on twitter. in fact, it was all just portwell hate over there. and that made me really sad because twitter is one of my favorite apps - i think if used correctly it can be such a positive experience. i made so many friends through twitter last year in some of my other fandoms and i guess i was just used to showing my appreciation for characters/ships on stan twitter. but the fandoms i was part of before were much smaller (and therefore had fewer conflicts overall).

so when i joined the hsmtmts fandom and realized portwell positivity was lacking over there i just began to post about my ship and see if anybody was actually interested. and surprisingly, a lot of people were lol. many of them were just hiding bc of the fear of being mass quoted by rina’s. which, at this point, is something i’ve gotten over bc i know that it’s just one of those things they do to try and prove they’re the top dogs. twitter is the only place where they can dominate by numbers so they’re just taking advantage of that - regardless of who they have to step on to achieve it. i don’t really “handle” it any way per se other than just posting the stuff i like and blocking whatever i don’t. it’s really that simple. and trust me, i totally understand the pride and the feeling of “why should i have to block them? i deserve to be here just as much as them” - i totally get it. and yes, we shouldn’t have to do that. it would be much more ideal if all the shippers could coexist peacefully and stay in their lanes. but that’s not the reality, and at the end of the day, we gotta do what’s best for ourselves and our mental health. even though i knew that their arguments fell apart like sand, it was still exhausting to try and fight them all when there were so few of us (although i do know a lot more portwells now but at the beginning yk). so the best option for me was just to block what i didn’t need to see so i could keep enjoying the app and use it to show my love for my fav ship. and by doing that i found that a lot of other people were in the same boat as me and i got to connect with more portwell shippers, some of whom are now my closest moots. so it all worked out in the end :)

also, quick afterthought - the fact that rina’s are constantly lurking in our tag to find something they can screenshot and start a whole discourse on over on twitter is very telling. they’re obviously scared as hell and for good reason. but it’s such a cowardly thing to me: like ur gonna take content from a different platform and transport it over to twitter just so you can drench it in your toxicity without having any opposing voices? embarrassing.

btw, i’m so sorry if you’ve sent me an ask before and i haven’t answered it! im so bad at this omg. i keep starting drafts and forgetting that i started them so my inbox is always clear but i have a bazillion drafts. but tysm for sending them in and i’ll finish them all soon!

[kyovtani]

ASKS

hey babies! i’ve decided to answer the asks about back to life one and two like this because ive received so so so many and you guys blew me away so answering every single one of them is the least i can do to show you guys just how grateful i am. thank you so much for giving both parts SO much love, i love and appreciate you guys and the support you’re constantly sending my way with my whole entire heart <33

BYE THE FIC IS SO GOOD SO FAR. MY ANXIETY THO FROM THE ENDING, LIKE PLS KYO REALIZE THE MCS ANXIETY PLS DONT GO OUT WITH SORA PLEASE PLEASE HE SEEN HOW SHE DIDNT LOOK OKAY WHEN HE CAME IN PLEASE REALIZE HER ANXIETY PLEASE

– THANK YOU SO SO MUCH BABY !! this was the very first ask about back to life and it’s honestly the cutest thing ever! I hc Kyoutani to be rally understanding of things like anxiety and depression, generally mental health so that’s why it was easy for him to understand the reader’s situation and mindset! 

BACK TO LIFE!!!!!!!! MY HEART!!!!!?! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SO GOOD!!!!! i was really excited when you started posting about it!! i can't wait for part 2, i wanna know how they fix this!

AAAH !! thank you so much for the love and support baby!!!! I really hope you enjoyed part 2 just as much, sending you lots of smooches MWAH

OH MY GOD THE KYO FIC IS AMAZING

THANK YOU SO MUCH BABY !!!!! 

OH MY GOD YOUR KYOUTANI FIC HAS ME ACTUALLY FROTHING I LOVE IT SM

IM NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY THAT MY JAW ACTUALLY DROPPED AT THE LAST COUPLE PARAGRAPHS AS WELL I CANT WAIT FOR PART 2

AAAH YOU GUYS !!! this made me so happy !!! thank you so much and I hope part two met your expectations and you enjoyed the ending MWAH!! 

HOLY FUCK THAT KYOUTANI FIC WHEW IT WAS SO SO GOOD IM SO EXCITED FOR PART 2

thank you for the food <33

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LOVE AND SUPPORT BABY !!!

YOUR KYOTANI FIC AHHHHHHH my heart can’t handle this

I AM SO GLAD YOU ENJOYED IT BABY !!!

OW THE END ON BACK TO LIFE HURTED THOUGH GDFGHJDFHJRY

Was overwhelmed by the hurty that I forgot to say how much I ADORE your characterization of Kyoutani. fdjkhgjkgdr

THANK YOU SO MUCH !! honestly- that means the world to me, probably the best compliment you can give me :((

Back to life was so good OMG 😳😳 HELLO??? You're amazing

Thank you so much, my love! it honestly is everything to me when you guys tell me such sweet things I love you so much MWAH!!

the new fic did not help me with my insecurities now i’m just frustrated and insecure. great writing tho.

honestly- same. when I wrote this, I lit indulgent every bit of my mind working into this fic and thats why it means so much to me ?? so youre not alone, my love; but thank you so much <33

The way I panicked at the end of the fic thinking there wasn’t gonna be more to it, holy shi that fox was so good I almost cried thinking they were just gonna end things like that 🥺🥺🥺🥺

I’d NEVER end a fic like that- I hate bad endings and cannot stand cliffhangers but the formatting didn't give me another choice im sorry for the heart attack baby kfhflashsj but am glad you liked it!

@au-roraaa said: ZADE I WAS NEVER A KYO FUCKER BUT I THINK YOUVE CONVERTED ME HOLY FUCKSJFJSJDJSN

THIS IS MY JOB AT THIS POINT I WANT YOU ALL TO TURN INTO KYOU FUCKERS KSSSOH 

UR THE BEST WRITER WTF?? WHEN DO U THINK PART TWO WOULD BE UP... and does kyoutani flirt with sora 😣💔

YOU GUYS- NOOO- pls my heart made a loop :(( I love you so much :(( thank you baby and I think now you know what he does with sora MWAH

@kawakuto said: hi hi zade!🤩 (ajdjs idk if you remember me but i moved main blogs and I was @/gukooky before LOL) THE KYOUTANI FIC ANDJWNS I DIDNT EXPECT THE END WAHHHH🥺🥺 it was so well written omg I loved it!! (wtf kyoutani, you said we were going slow what if I wasn’t ready to call u my boyfriend wtffff😔😔 pain.)

AAAAH OFC I DO REMMEBER !! hope youre doing well baby !!! and thank you SO much for your sweet words, I honestly appreciate them so much :((<33

pls I’m in love with your writing. You write kyoutani so well so now I’ll always be grabbing at any crumbs you send my way 🥵

thank you so so so much baby!!!! these kinda words always hit me right at the heart, I appreciate them so much and I love you sm much

bb i love ur kyoutani fic sm :(( ur rlly so talented <33 i look forward to pt 2 ^3^

thank you so much baby, sending a smooch your way mwah 

zade that kyoutani piece im in so much pain why would u do this to me 💔💔💔💔

believe me when I say It hurt me even more than you </3

I just finished reading part 2 and it waS SO GOODAJSFHJLFG you did amazing!! (n˘v˘•)¬

THANK YOU SO MUCH BABY !!!

Hi! New nonnie coming through :) First time I'm writing something because I'm such a nervous wreck but I just had to

THE FIC WAS SO GOOD THE VIBES ARE CHEFS KISS. IT WAS SO GOOD I LITERALLY DROOLED I CAN NOT GET OVER IT !

Mister kyotani pls rail me thanks 🐱

THANK YOU AAAH YOURE SO CUTE !!! I truly appreciate this with my whole entire heart so thank you so much baby, hope you have a good one mwah

Wait did he do anything with Sora?

nope!! they just went to the party together but in my mind he didn’t even hug her and she didn’t try anything else, too, simply bc she knew how in love he is with reader!!

YOUR MINDDDDD!! THE KYOU FIC WAS SOOOO GOOOD!! Omg i hope you do a part 3 😭😭

i have a Little sequel which is really really soft but I'd love to write some more for it! 

@soranihimawari said: Part 1 & 2 with kyoutani was amazing as always Zade! I really liked the ending. This was such a fun read. I was wondering who’s else would be sharing the apartment with Kyoutani. What made you choose tattoo artist Iwa & Oikawa? Those two made me chuckle with the way they came in like that. Hope you have a great day/evening/late night/etc.

✌🏼&💜

—sora—

aaah thank you so so much, baby!! I truly appreciate your sweet words, youre the cutest! regarding your question: You shares an apartment with Iwa, Oikawa and Yahaba (who also works at the tattoo studio!) and i don't know to be really honest- I just like the thought of these three being really good friends so after contemplating whether or not to go with iwaoi or matsuhana, I ended up going with those two dorks! hope you have a good one baby mwah!!

@sakusapetals said: PLEASEE I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH

AAAH THANK YOU SO SO MUCH BABY !!! I LOVE YOU SM 

How long did it take you to write the entire two parts? Like wow that’s alot👁👄👁 i adore long fics though

oooh- hm ?? tbh i don't really know ?? I can’t remember ?? I think it took me about a month or like three weeks since I did write it all in one go yk? it was the only WIP I worked on during that time and it felt SO relieving to publish it! 

AAAHHH the kyou fic was a masterpiece bb!!! ❤️❤️

thank you so so so much baby!!<33

U LITERLALT WRIYE KYOU THE BEST ABSOLUTE BEST. he’s so aggressive and demanding but he still is willing to show someone special his vulnerability. I LOVE READING STUFF ABOUT HIM FROM U

AAAAH thank you so much- you guys have no idea how much these kinda comments mean to me- I love you so MUCH MWAH 

I just read the first part of "back to life" an it had me speechless so many times, almost cried at the end, it's honestly so well written. I'm off to read part two. Have a nice day 🐰

sdoalfsla thank you so much baby! I hope you enjoyed both parts equally as much and thank you for all the love mwah!!<3

Hana is a baddie

SHE IS!! she’s literally the baddest bitch to ever exist ft. saeko ofc but nobody acknowledges it </3

@tonhwa said: I’m in love with the way you write kyoutani pls. Even your previous fics on your old account ( if you don’t mind me mentioning it ) are so fucking amazing. GOSH YOU CHARACTERIZE HIM SO WELL AND THE PLOT IS ALWAYS SO JUICY AND INTERESTING I CANT HELP BUT GO BACK AND READ IT. and then you release this fucking wonderful piece and I feel like it’s my birthday even though it’s already passed LOL ty ily have a wonderful day I’m sobbing tears of happiness

YOU GUYS PLEASE- the fact this made me tear up when I first read it- thank you SO much honestly. knowing you guys enjoy my characterization of my favorite character is honestly everything to me so thank you sm I love you baby have a good one!!<3

I’ve been on this app from high school, and now I’m a college grad. I have to say I’ve never sent a message to anyone I’ve followed. But that tattoo artist! Kyou fic, part 1 and 2 are 😩💕 *chefs kiss* you are one of my favorite writers I’ve ever followed since joining this app. You NEVER disappoint!

-💕 a very satisfied reader

thank you so much baby!! aaah this is honestly so so sweet :(( thank you for taking the time out of your day to send me such a sweet thing, I appreciate it and you so much mwah!!

i gotta say babe THANK YOU FOR THE KYOTANI CONTENT!! muAAAAHH💞💞

NOO THANK YOU GUYS FOR GIVING IT SO MUCH LOVE MWAH!!!

i love kyoutani and he obvs deserves his dick sucked 🤧🤧 but i catch him posting up with other girls I DONT CARE THE SITUATION he gonna catch these hands for a real one 👊🏼👆🏼🤜🏼🥊🥊 kidding 😐😐😐 he’d body me

pls the way this had me chuckling like crazy bc same sajlskjpw he can get mad all he want but he better stay his pretty ass where he is- by my side  😌

[sarohara]

You both like friends.

You: heyo

Stranger: hey

You: wanna hear a really cool song?

Stranger: sure

You: hold up

You: name or link?

Stranger: name

You: okay

You: young the giant mind over matter

Stranger: okay hold up

You: take your time

Stranger: Damm he is getting into it

You: Yea right? ahah

Stranger: Yeah lmao

Stranger: lmk im prolly gonna regret this but let me use my best pick up line on you😂

Stranger: lmao

You: Go ahead 😂

Stranger: nah nvm I'm bouta say some dumb shit

You: I don't mind 😂

Stranger: wtf nah that shit is cheesy asf

Stranger: like cheesy cheesy

You: Cmon

You: I mean, it's up to u

Stranger: fuck im really gonna regret this alot

Stranger: okay okay game face on

You: 😂

You: you don't even know me, why would u regret it? ahahah

Stranger: Damm you remind me of the 20 letters of the alphabet

Stranger: bc it me I regret alot of things and now I'm regretting this shit rn

Stranger: fuck why do I gotta be so dumb

You: 20 letters of the alphabet? why?😂

Stranger: oh shit I'm dumb there's 26 letters how can I forget about u,r,a,q,t

You: AHAHAHAHAH

Stranger: See that shit is cheesy

You: I was gonna ask "what about the other 6?"

Stranger: Lmao found the other 6

Stranger: wait there is 27 u can get the d later😂😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Stranger: okay imma prolly go kill myself now

You: that's it? 😂😂😂😂

Stranger: I'm so so sorry u have to hear my dumbass

You: AHAHAHAHAHAH

You: You're freaking hilarious

Stranger: I hate my self now

Stranger: I'm so cheesy wtf

You: AHAHAHA

You: Stooop

Stranger: I'm never listening to tik tok ever again😂😭

You: AHAHAHA TIK TOK REALLY? 😂

You: I'm dying

Stranger: Okay no what I'm boerd and that app is okay

Stranger: and no o don't post i just scroll through

Stranger: i

You: Yea dw, I do the same😂

Stranger: Lmao im still so sorry u had to hear that

Stranger: Yo boi is running on like 2 brain cells rn

You: hey, shut up, it was cool 😂 I mean, you're funny

You: ahahahahahhaha

Stranger: funny who tf is funny everyone keeps on talking about funny but I still don't know who that mf is

Stranger: I wanna meet that dude he is obviously famous

Stranger: or her I don't really know yet

You: Who's obviously famous?

Stranger: that guy named funny

You: and well, it's funny just because it's not funny

You: AHAHHAHAHA OH MY GAWD

Stranger: yk its funny bc im dumb

Stranger: told you those 2 brain cells are kicking in

You: well, at least that made me laugh so..

Stranger: Fuck yeahhhhhhh

Stranger: look mom i did something finally

You: AHAHHAHAHA

Stranger: oh wait she is gone

You: Would she be proud?

You: ooooh

Stranger: She went to the grocery store 2 hours ago

Stranger: so we will find out when she gets back

Stranger: she will prolly still hate me but yk what thays cool

Stranger: thats

You: what mother doesn't hate her kid, right?

You: you're not alone trust me ahahaha

Stranger: Haha facts tho

You: what's ur name btw? lmao

Stranger: yk she told me that I was a mistake and yk what I'm not I won that race me I won

Stranger: all those other kids aren't here are they they are the mistakes

You: Wait, seriously?

You: I was kidding but maybe i was a mistake as well

Stranger: yes I won something and ik thats hard to belive but I did I did not get a trophy when I should have

You: ahahahhahahahahahah You won that race, you did it!

Stranger: wait they did give me trophy

You: I don't think so

Stranger: ur my trophy so I can finally show my trophy off okay that was bad I promise that was the last one

Stranger: Omg I'm going to hell

Stranger: why do I think of this shit

You: I wasn't expecting but 😂😂😂😂

Stranger: that sounded so much better in my head then I typed it out I was like wtf are you doing like are you fr fr bouta send that

You: You're fine 😂😂

Stranger: Okay I give you promise to shoot me if you would like

Stranger: I get i totally get it

Stranger: promision holly fuck my phone won't let me type

Stranger: Your like wtf he is dumb he obviously did not pass the second grade

Stranger: well jokes on you I am in the second grade

You: I'm dying actually, you're stupidly funny😂😂😂😂

You: Are u always like that?

Stranger: sadly yes do I want to be no

Stranger: God was like lets make this kid dumb asf and say cheesy things to ppl

Stranger: and I'm good at it

You: at least you're good at something, isn't awesome?😂😂😂

Stranger: obviously did you not read my pickup line like bro master piece

You: you know, you seem like that kinda person who gets embarrassed easily 😂

Stranger: Like God told me to use that pickup line on everyone so i did the only person that did not seem to care or even talk to me was the light poll outside my house

Stranger: Idk imma get it to talk to me one day

You: the light poll outside your house 😂

Stranger: yeah

Stranger: I've been trying for years can't seem to crack it yet

Stranger: I'm telling u one day its going to talk to me

You: I don't think u should do this but if u need me i'm down😂

Stranger: for what

Stranger: I should not do what

Stranger: oh shit

You: hey hey hey liste

You: listen*

Stranger: Okay im listening

Stranger: all I hear is music omg are u connect to my speaker

Stranger: Connected

You: ok so my family's calling me to lunch...i really gotta go, but can u keep in touch?

You: AHAHHAHAHA

Stranger: yes

You: yes?

Stranger: yes

You: yes!

You: what do u have?

You: idk even ur name

You: i'm sarah by the way

Stranger: Um Noah and snapchat insta Facebook venmo

Stranger: PayPal

Stranger: uber eats

Stranger: Yeah

You: ahahahhahaahahah

Stranger: I can text you on any of those

You: oh uber eats? really? i didn't now that

Stranger: yeah im ceo so I get all the secret stuff

You: ooooh you're ceo damn

You: anyway 😂

You: I do have insta & snap so..

Stranger: yeah did you know u can order food on there

Stranger: Lets do snapchat

You: yeah ofc i know that

You: ahahahhahaha

Stranger: oh you did

You: okay so it's scarval

You: ooops

You: scarvalhando

You: ***

Stranger: Boom added off uber eats

You: can we order food someday?

You: it would be awesome

Stranger: yes

You: okay noah

You: what's ur insta btw? i could follow u there as well

Stranger: I forgot I told u my name i was like omg I told a hacker my cheesy pick up line

Stranger: I'm fucked

You: 😂😂😂😂😂

You: Yeah omg i'm a hacker

You: I wish i were tho

Stranger: Oh shit please don't go through my history unless u want to see alot of cars like alot alot of cars

Stranger: And when u scroll down far enough you will see how to talk to a light poll

You: obsession with cars?😂😂

You: ooooh yeah okay

You: it seems nice, i mean, talking to a light poll, isn't?

Stranger: um a little😅

Stranger: idk it has not talked back yet

Stranger: I think its shy

You: oof that hurts 😂

You: okay okay okay

Stranger: I don't know find out on next weeks episode of dose it talk

You: 😂😂😂😂😂

Stranger: featuring little turtule and big fish rick

You: I'm gonna watch this

You: 😂

You: see ya on snap then?

Stranger: its gonna be lit and okay

You: i gotta gotta gotta gotta go

Stranger: by Sarah thank you for letting me use my cheesy pick up line on you

Stranger: bye

You: Anytime!!! 😂

Stranger: and u will hear more from my dumbass

Stranger: oh and ill lyk what my mom thinks

You: I hope 😂

You: okay i'll be waiting

You: Cya

Stranger: Okay byeeee

You: byeee

You: skip

[julemmaes]

Lmao, I want to ask you so many of that fanfic asks thingy: 4, 5, 6, 9, 17, 27, 33, 43, 46, 47, 50

You little satan, these are a L O T

4. Do you write original stories as well?

I do, actually. I plan to publish my own YA fantasy novel one day and I can't wait for the world to fall in love with my characters and hate some of them to the core. Problem is, it's obviously hard as fuck and the courage you need to have, the strength you need to put into such projects is something still unknown to my person and I don't think I'm ready to really start on my original book.

5. What fanfic of yours should everyone have read?

I'm kinda biased for this, don't you think? Mh, probably Joye (the last hours short story). I really worked hard for that tiny tiny story and it didn't get the hype I thought it would:(

6. What is a fandom you will never write for?

Probably Harry Potter. I'm a huge fan, the main story (the books) have so much meaning for so many people it's unbelievable and I don't think I'm even the slightest bit of good to add something to that world yk. It's hard to explain but I just believe it's better off without me trying to rewrite the story in any way.

(I'M FOREVER THANKFUL TO THOSE WHO DO THO CAUSE I WOULDN'T BE HERE IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU GUYS)

9. What are your favorite fanfics?

*laugh hysterically*

The ff I'm obviously more attached to rn is a Noisy Neighbor by @noodlecatposts (I legit wrote an elogy for that fic and Jess deserves an award for how well written it is). Then literally anything by @nomattertheoceans cause she was the first ff author I got to know when I restarted reading ff last year and her Feysand stuff always cheered me up and she also deserves the world for all the effort she puts into her works. And lastly (just cause I don't wanna list them all) is a very nice person on Ao3 that I love with all my heart and soul and who wrote what I think it's the best thing ever on that app. I'm talking about the mighty @pitterpatterpot who had the most astonishing idea with A Lion's Pride. Honestly, if you consider yourself an Aedion stan and you haven't read that fic yet, you're not. It's just art in its purest form.

17. Do you use/follow advice from writing blogs/posts?

Sometimes when I remember them.

27. Do you take requests?

I do, gladly, but I don't receive that many:/

33. Do friends and family know that you write fanfics?

Probably all of my friends do and my family too. My dad is my hype man for everything even tho he has never read anything mine.

43. Guilty pleasure tropes and scenarios?

YOU GIVE ME A CHILDHOOD FRIENDS TO LOVERS FIC AND I'M GONNA DIE IN A MATTER OF SECONDS. Also, babies.

46. Few long essay reviews or many short reviews?

I'm used to short ones, but I've been receiving more and more long comments on the last Nessian thing I posted and I gotta tell, it's kinda heartwarming and nice to feel this much appreciated and loved.

47. What fanfic of yours is truly underrated?

I'd say Joye, again, but also The Noodle Series (the last hours short story) is definitely unappreciated and that's probably why I haven't find the will to finish that.

50. Can we get a teaser for an upcoming chapter?

Pinky Promise - chapter two

"You need to listen to me-" his voice filled with emotion.

"I don't need to do anything, Cassian. I've already heard enough."

Sorry, it's not much, but that's what I got;)

Thank you for the ask it was fun🌸

[spacebuntaehyung]

hi! it's time to mention some mutuals you love!! for 🌸spring 🌞summer 🍁autumn and ❄winter mention one or more mutual you associate with that season - then send this along to another mutual ❤

oh god urm i’ve never been asked this question haha, urm urm urm this is gonna be cheesy but you gotta just let it happen okay but first imma make a new category:

All year round - @letsgo-baby bc she my main man, my bitch in crime, my soulmate, the chimmy to my tata, my father of glucose, if I didn’t have then I wouldn’t live, yk? I’d say nicer, cheesier things but she did try to kill me earlier with premature emo hours so I’m not feeling generous. Plus she’s beating me on that stupid app game.

Spring - @k00klett bc spring is creation and new beginnings, we always always always put our heads together when we have new ideas, she’s the first one I spill all my new au ideas to, and my #1 for getting help with how to develop my work. It’s such a wonderful thing to have somebody there who can unpick whatever messy, ineloquent, shipwreck of an idea that crashes into our chat, and somehow completely understand my vision and where I want to go with it. I don’t think we’ve ever brought up an idea to each other and not, at least in my case, liked how the other developed it. It’s just amazing how our minds click, and how we bounce off each other. I can’t stress enough just how important it is having somebody like Sky around.

Summer - @fiddle-styx bc summer is a rush of warmth, that fills you and makes you feel like you’re floating. It’s a time of funfairs and ice creams and nights out wearing shorts and a strappy top because the warmth of the sun is still wrapped around you, even if the light has faded. It’s a time of adventures and excitement and memories. Cooky brings me the same rush of warmth, whenever I feel coldest.

Autumn - @calicoserendipity bc the autumn has so many golden colours, even though the leaves may be dying, they create a beautiful atmosphere. I like going for walks in the woods in autumn, the beautiful oranges and reds, the crunch underfoot, the crisp but not freezing air, the gentle rays of the fading summer sun. If I had to think of a person as beautiful, inside and out, it would be her.

Winter - @petitchim bc winter is always seen as cold and dark, short days and even shorter tempers with the stress of Christmas and the battle with the common cold. Despite all of this, there are happier things, too. Days off school, playing in the snow, the beauty of the season, the less stressful part of Christmas… I’m reminded of all of this because whilst there is so much bad in the world, you can find good things in everything, and Isa is one of those things. Even with all of the bad she’s faced, she manages to remain one of the good.

[kisakunt]

this is gonna be a dumb fucking question but how do you meet girls so easily. like maybe it’s just where i’m located but i swear nobody here is gay. like i maybe know four other gay girls but they’re all my friends i’m not interested in them like that. i’m literally in my sophomore year of college (i’m at a community college + doing online classes bc of covid restrictions so i can’t exactly meet ppl at school) and still have never done anything with a girl aside from drunk kisses w straight girl who’re looking for some momentary fun agh. idkkkk makes me nervous for when the time i’ll actually date/hookup with a girl comes bc i’ve had no experience

oh my god this answer is so long

no i get you so. i grew up primarily in oregon which yk a lot of pride n shit there. my first like. “girlfriend” i was yk young like it was stupid it wasn’t even a real relationship but yeah and i’d go through those. the same way other middle schoolers had their corny boyfriends i had my corny toxic girlfriends and shit & then (15-16) i lived in utah and it. sucked. it was a tiny community, super homophobic, everyone was related, i had the whole cliche act like a homophobe moment, got outed as gay, etc etc. and i’m lyk there are gay people everywhere LMFAO like ik that sounds corny but in utah then suddenly i had some straight girls tryna experiment w me, and my best friend suddenly up telling me ‘holy shit i’m bi and i think i’m in love with you’ like just. people just don’t talk about it

but dw ab the no experience thjng. there are some girls who don’t fw girls who don’t have experience bc they’re worried they’re ‘faking it’ but that’s some type of invalidating bitch you don’t gotta think twice ab them.

i did have my phase where i used apps (dating apps) to meet other gay girls and sometimes not even to hook up JUST to meet other gay ppl LMFAO and then it’s like networking HAHA. not like the ‘oh i know a girl who would be great for you’ and she’s ugly and lame and has nothing alike w you other than being gay, but a lot of the time (especially in areas where a lot of people aren’t openly out) gay people know other gay people if that makes sense?

i don’t really fuck with people who i don’t fuck with so i don’t do hookups often (but i’m also bipolar so sometimes shit happens idk) so typically w girls i’m friends w them first. if ur talking ab my tags in that one ask that’s a girl i’m actually coworkers w, we just recently started hanging a lot more bc she asked to take me to lunch one time yada yada yada yada idek if it’s gay idek if i want it to be gay but no i definitely do speak to girls i think my last ‘official’ date was like a month ago so? idk

moral is a lot of social media, a lot of just talking to people (which i rarely even do so like that says a lot), a lot of easing into it because not everyone is out immediately. my job helps, too, i’ve been asked out by multiple girls at my job. also for real don’t be nervous & take your time w that shit bc it’s just when you’re comfortable, you want to, and the opportunity presents itself so don’t beat yourself up for shit

[9cdmp]

mm moon opp asc; i dont like saying no bc people always write me off as picky when i do + they stop asking me to do stuff 🥲

cap moon; i literally feel like we're the same person pls. ive tried to open up and depend on others but it's just so embarrassing?? to me? like i physically cringe every time i remember talking about a bad day + idk maybe im seeking validation and just not receiving it?? or maybe i am but it still doesnt fulfill my needs? "it's okay if they hurt me bc i will survive" is such a raw statement; i gotta hold onto that

saturn in gem + mars in twelfth; fr! im always scared how people are gonna react but when they do it's always never as bad as i thought. im still extremely passive though so i def have to work on that too 😩

moon opp jupiter in 0° too! i think ive learned how to handle that pretty well; the highs and the lows, understanding it's necessary and it's done. one thing that really helped me was setting up a priv ig acc (0 followers and everything) to just rant on stories! it just feels safer than a traditional journal or writing in the notes app tbh. since it's on stories + priv no one's gonna see it like they would if you just posted on feed but! it will save in archives and you can look at the dates/time to gather info on when what happens. etc ive learned my lowest usually occurs around 4pm, 9pm, or 3am so i try to find something to do that makes me happy during those times (:

mars-venus + cap moon; im glad you recognize your behavior! i also saw this happening in myself a lot but i dont struggle with it anymore tbh. not bc of an argument but i remember asking my dad (immigrant) why he didnt speak english as well as his siblings and idk he didnt rebut or anything, he just said idk but the shame?? that i felt right after asking that??? that alone makes me think twice about everything i say to the point where i usually end up not saying anything at all 🤕

3 planets in twelfth; i think it's called revenge bedtime procrastination! feeling free to do whatever at night bc it's just you. ngl ive always had a shitty sleep routine (my dad let me stay up watching tv with him since i was a kid) but ive learned how to love it tbh. i cant sleep for more than a few hrs without waking up (even after i pull all nighters) so ive resorted to embrace naps and live off of them? like if im tired, no matter what time of day, id take a nap and id wake up feeling better than if i got a proper 8hrs. this works better for me than the traditional bedtimes too bc i also have trouble falling asleep, so if im feeling sleepy at any point, yk im gonna hop onto that opportunity asap (+ this way i have more time to do stuff both day and night ahah) granted, my parents are super lax bc they know we take care of our own responsibilities so my sister and i can sleep + wake whenever we want 🙇🏻‍♀️ i hope your sleep gets better 🥺

blockages that the placements need to work through 

here are some things i’ve been working on ft. the astrological placements that i believe they’re revelant to, in case anyone else needs this 

sun aspecting venus, harsh aspects to the ascendant - saying no. it’s not so much like… a need to say yes to please other people, but a fear of saying no and facing the repercussions of it. lately i’ve been trying to simply say no to things that make me uncomfortable because turns out i do have a great difficulty setting boundaries lmfao. when my male friends make a sexual comment about me, i just say “stop, don’t talk about me like that” and when people invite me to hangouts that i don’t have the energy to go to i simply say “i won’t go, but thank you for inviting me”. the most difficult part is dealing with the guilt that comes with refusing others, and i’m telling myself that it’s okay to piss people off if it’s to maintain my feeling of safety 

moon in capricorn, moon harshly aspecting saturn - letting myself depend on others. i’m coming to terms with the fact that i’m not as big of a lone wolf as i believe myself to be lmfao. like, it’s okay that i depend on my emotional bonds sometimes! it’s okay to allow myself to love with no restrictions, with no “but i can’t let them see me vulnerable”, with no “what do i get out of this connection?”, no “oh i have to be nonchalant about how much i care for them or else they’re gonna know they have power over me and abandon me” no. i’m letting myself write the dumb sappy texts, to make the effort, to show how much i care, to open up to others. i’m easing with my calculating instincts. i don’t have to drown in my loneliness and i refuse to spend a lifetime avoiding getting close to others in fear of them hurting me. i’m working on seeing my strength, like… it’s ok if they hurt me because i will survive 

saturn in gemini, mars in the 12th house, mars harshly aspecting neptune - taking action when i need to. especially in real life, i have a lot of difficulty with taking action. like, if i’m in an argument with someone, or if someone is actively pissing me off, my first instinct is to end the conversation and escape so that it won’t escalate. theoretically, that’s smart… in practice, it makes me gulp down a lot of situations in favor of keeping the peace, and it makes me live an entirely different life in my mind vs. in reality. like, in my mind, when something happens i’ll fantasize about being assertive and talking back to the person, about standing my ground. but in real life i just… quietly move to a different room. plus it’s difficult for me to feel things in the moment, like something will happen and i won’t register it but days later i will think back on it and be practically fuming in anger. these past few weeks i’ve been working on just, saying what i want to say. even if i’m aware the situation can escalate, at least i won’t have any regrets, and it’s made me realize that people aren’t as easy to anger as i thought them to be, and that i’m stronger than i believed myself to be 

moon harshly aspecting jupiter - allowing myself to break down. my moon opposite jupiter is at a 0º orb, and when i tell you i feel every ounce of it, i really do. like, my emotions are extremely disregulated. on one hour i will be at the highest of the highs, and then the next hour i’ll be crying on the floor telling myself i’m the worst person alive. which just… causes me to feel even more guilty about how i speak to myself, and about how volatile my emotions are, and then i’m just a mess of guilt and self-criticism and “stop acting like a baby”; i feel easily overwhelmed and like i’m doing way too much, overreacting to every possible situation. and then, an hour later, im just like…. emotionally numb. anyways, instead of making it worse by blaming myself for my emotions, i’ve been just. allowing myself to feel. no guilt, no shame, just allowing myself to feel bad because of the innate belief that i’ll get over this, i’ll move forward, it’ll get better 

venus harshly aspecting the ascendant - dealing with a poor self-image. i have a lot of issues with my body image. so, instead of analyzing my body from every single angle and blaming myself for it, i’ll just. not look in the mirror. like, you know when you’re a kid, you’re barely aware that you have a body - it’s there, it functions, it helps you play and eat and grab things, but you don’t really spend time thinking about it’s shape and appearance because it doesn’t matter. that’s the mentality i’m trying to work with right now, that my body is there: it deserves food, exercise, to be washed and dressed in comfortable clothing, and that’s that. i’m releasing myself of the judgment that comes with my poor self-image 

natal saturn retrogade - stop buying things just to watch them sit there. like, i buy things that i don’t even use. or i buy things that i plan to use, but then i end up not using them out of guilt of having bought them, or lack of energy to use them, or fear of using them and messing up. so, what i’m doing is grabbing all the things i don’t use, and if i truly don’t want to use them, i’ll simply discard of them, and if i do want to use them, then i’m making plans to do so. no letting them sit in my room and feeling guilty every time i look at them 

mars dominance, mars aspecting personal planets, mercury aspecting pluto, debilitated moon (in capricorn or scorpio) - stop verbally insulting others in discussions. the point of having a discussion is to explain both perspectives and come to an agreement/compromise, not to try to win. unfortunately, this is something i’ve always had great difficulty understanding lmfao. as soon as i’m in a discussion the point stops being to shed light on the situation but to use the words i know will hurt the person the most so that they’ll feel the pain that i feel. when someone is not understanding me, part of me just wants to make them go through what i went through so that they’ll get it - especially if i have an emotional attachment to the person (for example, them being my family or romantic interest). this is extremely toxic and it’s giving me when your parents say “when i was younger i had it much more worse than you, and i’m going to somehow make this your problem”. so, i’ve been thinking twice about what i say to people. is what i’m about to say to this person relevant to this discussion, or do i just want my words to sting them so i can watch them crumble? i ask myself this question, and i try to show others the empathy that i want them to show me. 

planets in the 12th house, lilith in the 12th house - developing a better sleep schedule. i don’t remember the last time that i went to sleep before 5am, and this has greatly impacted my mental and physical health in general. like, i’ll go to bed extremely late, and then i wake up late and it takes me hours to find the strength to get out of bed because i just feel so shitty. the reason why i avoid sleeping early is because i struggle a lot with nightmares, because of my own paranoid thoughts and fears, and because it’s my “peaceful” time. like, during the day i have to deal with my parents being awake and… well, just existing in general, and i have to deal with my responsibilities and my family, but at night i get to just exist for myself and do whatever. but also, i struggle a lot with intrusive/paranoid thoughts that keep me from falling asleep. this is due to my anxiety and mental health problems, and to be honest i still don’t really know what to do to deal with this. like… the thing that’s helped me the most so far is to turn off my phone/computer since i get headaches easily, petting my cat until i feel calm enough to at least try to sleep, and to avoid taking naps throughout the day since that’ll just leave me with way too much energy at night