#but u put up with my aries ass

[meliciousmel13]

WOULD'VE COULD'VE SHOULD'VE

PT 1 I PT 2

i scare myself sometimes,

⇢ i almost took my life.

warnings: angst with no happy ending, mentions of suicide and ed. if these things make you uncomfortable please do not read!

wc: 1,517 - a little short for my liking but i cut off the parts that i didn't like.

SYNOPSIS: it's been two months since the two of you broke up. it's new years party and madison wanted to talk.

taglist: @guysimgay164, @madisonbeerssecretwife

an: first fic on here, r u proud of me

The new years party was loud, sounds of chatter and laughs and drinks clicking together.

people talking to other people and drinks served in plastic cups. The glass ones were too dangerous because you can’t trust drunk people with glass and expect it to not break within 1 minute of you handing it to them—that was just your fault.

the air was humid and the smell of sweat and beer filled your lungs. your shoes were sticking to the floor due to spilled beer and you couldn’t find your friends.

you were lost. fully lost. somehow you ended up in a hallway with white doors on either side, some were half open and some had weird noises coming from them. that was disgusting. you wanted to get out, find your friends and hopefully not run into her. or anyone you know.

you finally found the stairs down and the first thing you saw was one of your friends—Allison.

“hey al, you know where ari is? she has my purse and i have my phone in it.” you said, slightly pushing your tight dress below your ass—as if that would scare away the men who gawk shamelessly at any silver of skin.

“huh? no,” she shook her head and smiled softly, “but i think i saw her go to the kitchen, you should look there first.” she said, and you let out a small ‘thank you’ in return.

you walked to the kitchen, and you saw ariana luckily. but she was talking to her. why the hell was she talking to her? no no no. you repeat in your head, turning around and trying to not be found the energetically drunk girl, knowing that if you did she would be glad to invite you into the conversation with your ex.

but of course, that was to much to wish for. and god desired to be cruel. “y/n!” ariana yelled through the music and put down her drink, grabbing your purse and shoving it in your chest. you clutch it tightly, occasionally glancing at her and trying to pay attention to whatever nonsense the blonde was spouting. ariana was friends with both of you but after you and Madison broke up she started hanging out with you more.

“i’m so glad your here i literally didn’t know what to do with it because if i left it on the counter then someone might steal it but also if i just held it with me the whole time then i would have this like bad feeling i don’t know the word but-” ariana was interrupted by Madison walking over to you, with a small smile. you rolled your eyes, and cross your arms. the last thing you wanted was seeing her again. she broke up with you. not the other way around.

“hey.” Madison said—squeaked, her voice cracking and her lips going dry, she had that strawberry lip gloss on and you thought of all the times she would lend you her perfume whenever she went on tour because she knew how much you would miss her scent. when she personally striped all the food labels from the house because of your eating disorder. 4 years that she threw away. you didn’t want to miss her. you desperately didn’t but something inside you spurred when you saw her. you missed her. you didn’t wanna admit it to yourself but you did.

“hi.” you said, and completely change your position hoping that it would make her feel excluded and then she’ll get the hint and leave. but she doesn’t. she just stands there while ariana talks about anything and everything. she stood there and waited for 30 minutes until ariana was done, to finally talk to you.

“hey uh, do you wanna talk?” she said. and you wanted to run away. to never see her again—because that’s all you wanted. to never see her again. but she won’t leave you alone. maybe she wanted to explain herself? why she broke up with you for no reason over text while she was across the world.

it ruined you. first you were exited to see a text from her and then you broke down. your hands were shaking and you were hyperventilating. you couldn’t believe it. at first your thought it was a prank. you texted back ‘is this a joke?’ and she didn’t reply. she left you on delivered. you still remember the whole 2 weeks you were rotting in your apartment. the smell of left over pizza hut and junk food was still fresh in your brain.

you didn’t understand. why why why why why. your friends tried to help. really. they did. but you didn’t listen, no, you ignored them and continued dwelling on her until you thought that the world meant nothing if she wasn’t there with you. you tried to slit your wrists but Allison stopped you. she hugged you and made you food and slept in bed with you so you knew that someone was with you. but also so you didn’t attempt again.

she made you go out the house for the first time in 2 weeks and took care of you like no other. she knew how much Madison meant to you. she was your best friend. and she also contemplated flying to whatever city Madison was in just to punch her in the face. because let’s be real. the bitch really needed it.

in the 4th week you already recovered, but she still hunted your mind. every thought and second was dedicated of think of how much of a horrible girlfriend she was. you went to her favorite restaurant and you couldn’t handle it. the memories were too much to bear, your friends understood and drove to another restaurant. but you still remembered how you two would sit and eat in silence until one giggle is let out and then the waiter tells you to be a quiet.

i miss you. i miss you. i miss you. i miss- your thoughts were interrupted by your voice, and your brain shut up for a second. “no.” you answer, and you wanted to rip out your throat for saying no.

“5 minutes. please.” she said, and you gave her a chance. you walked outside without telling her to follow but she does anyway. the backyard was huge and there were only 3 people helping one person throw up in a bush. they left after a while to get the person some water.

“talk.” you crossed your arms, and waited for her to open her mouth. she didn’t. for what seemed like 20 seconds.

“i’m sorry.” she said, and you scoffed. looking away from her face to look at anything. anything else, because you didn’t want to cry in front of her. that would be pathetic and embarrassing—your throat was tightening up and you hoped the cold air would tell your eyes to stop. please. stop. don't cry.

you looked at her weirdly. as if saying ‘that’s it?’ and you swore you said it out loud because your head was screaming at you and you pictured all the moments of where you would shout and yell and push her. you could. if you wanted to. you could. you had the right to do so—she deserved it. but you couldn’t.

“i’m sorry that i broke up with you over text, i’m sorry i hurt you. i thought that when i went on tour that- that you’d get sick of me or forget about me-” she was crying now, and her voice was cracking.

“why would i get sick of you?” you asked.

“because-”

you cut her off. “why the hell would i get sick of you? i would’ve put in the effort. we could’ve face timed everyday, but no, you thought that the hard part was too hard so you just broke up with me? you should’ve actually tried, at least. and then maybe we would still be together!” the dam broke. all the anger pilled up in 2 months of confusion and resentment.

“y/n.” Madison moved her hand to touch your arm, reassuringly, probably what she was thinking, but it just made you even more mad. she touched you and you couldn’t stand it because you missed her.

“no! don’t fucking touch me Madison.” you said, and she flinched backing away from you. you hated that. that she was afraid of you.

you walk away and madison stood there, arms to her side and tears dry. her face was a mess. mascara smudges and eyes red. you hated to leave her there but if you ‘talked’ any longer then you would be the one in that position.

so you leave. the party. your friends. you called a cab and returned to your empty apartment.

the apartment that was once associated with joy and felicity. now it’s just an empty shell of what it once was. without her. without madison. you watched the fireworks alone that night. with your phone ringing and a miserable void in your heart.

[hoodreader]

tw sexual abuse & diddy

diddy getting outed & raided with the tuesday eclipse on his north node… with his tattoo of ezili dantor on his back. the loa of tuesdays and the protector of women & children. & he’s an avid sexual abuser of women & children.

the back is associated with leo/libra. leo is children, libra/venus is justice. and the back/unseen part of things is ruled by saturn, which is the planet of karmic distribution. tattoos are martian, the planet of protection.

it’s divine timing. bc what the hell was that man thinking. i applaud whatever diviner encouraged his ass to get EZILI DANTOR of ALL loa permanently etched into his skin, because his abuses of children & women will follow him forever.

he’s currently in his seventh house year, the seventh house year is a year dealing with others, fairness, & balance. imo, it’s a karmic house since the seventh is a reflection of the self. what u put out is reflected back to u. he’s also about to enter his eighth house year, the house of inactivity, psychological illness, debts (including karmic).

his mars is also in capricorn at the 29°, which is a universally critical degree. it can show domineering, thoughtlessness, lack of control, impulsiveness, etc.

there’s no confirmation on his ascendant, but i’ve seen people suggest cancer ascendant (with a virgo moon & scorpio sun). that would mean that:

but i could totally see a 10h lord in the 7h, because it shows status is tied to relationships / justice / fairness

i also see charts floating around suggesting that he’s a capricorn ascendant, which i also think makes sense because of:

a first house mars

a 10H in libra shows that the public image is tied to fairness, grace, harmony, & relationships especially to women

my partner was like “maybe a sag rising,” mind u… my partner not an astrologer but they are super intuitive with that 3h scorpio moon so i considered it & lowkey…

pisces eclipse illuminating the 4th would mean that all of the illusions revolving around his private life are dug up. the 4h is the subterranean, it’s the least visible house imo

2h mars in capricorn @ the anaretic degree can show a thirst for power, but the 2h is the gate of hades. it leads to demise (the 8h)

8h lord would be in the 10h, which would show this hidden misdeeds becoming publicized preceding the eclipse in his 4h, since the natal 4h lord would be the eclipsing pisces moon. hope that made sense lol

i often see pisces rising speculation. which, i also could understand because:

this recent full moon lunar eclipse conj his north node illuminated & essentially “exposed” his heart/spirit/soul. it also exposed the qualities of the greedy, obsessive, manipulative north node

& this isn’t to say all nodal people are this way. but when u don’t know how to moderate the greedy & obsessive nature of the north node, its malefic qualities will overtake the self

pisces ascendants tend to not really be ‘seen’, especially with the lord in the unseen 8H. but again the eclipse illuminated this & just how corrupted his moral compass is

the other end of the eclipse would be in his 7H, the house of justice, which would have his moon conj the transit sun

lastly i can see aries rising because the eclipse in the twelfth exposes the consequences and results of self-undoing. it’s also the house of prisons.

anyway. just my theories. i stand in solidarity with all abuse victims of the world, & it feels good to see them get justice because a win for one is a win for all. Asè

here are some aid resources for marginalized abuse victims, please consider donating or reblogging!

Black Trans Femme SA/Abuse Victim. this gfm hasn’t moved in 5 months!

Black Childhood SA Victim. this gfm has been up since april & hasn’t gotten a single donation!

Aid for Haiti.

Aid for First Nations/American Indigenous People (Salt Lake).

Aid for Gaza. every day, isntrealis abuse Gazans (in a lot of ways, not just sexually). please consider helping them thru providing healthcare & aid

Aid for Sudan. refugees often experience higher rates of trafficking, rape, & violence. please consider donating!

Aid for DR Congolese Women/Children. consider giving aid to women/childre who are being forced into slavery & the exploitative sex trade.

Aid for Sex Workers. thru whorephobia, misogyny, & other forms of marginalization, the violence towards sex workers is enabled due to the “less dead” theory.

Support for SA/Rape/Trafficking Victims.

Consider donating to abortion funds such as AidAccess, INeedAnA, etc so that people (including rape victims) have autonomy over their reproduction.

avoid red cross. u can always scroll thru gfm & just search up keywords then just go through and donate $5+ to each one until u can’t no more. that way, u directly provide aid.

also, help the people within ur physical community. if u know any black, native, palestinian, trans, disabled etc women, be the community they are so often denied.

power 2 da people :)

[paradoxicalrising]

More Astrology Observations :D

(reminder i’m not a professional and i do not do birth chart readings)

- Mars in Leo: congratulations! u win first place for “the most horny mars placement” i’ve met too many mars in leo people that literally just wanna smash, they didn’t care about the emotional undercurrents of being intimate, they just wanted that physical reassurance.

- cancer moon men literally want to be in a relationship with their mom. very oedipus coded. not in any obvious or actual way but like they look for people who have traits of their own mother. even if they don’t look up to her or necessarily like her, they will get romantically involved only if the person reminds them of their mom.

- jupiter and sun positively aspecting each other in synastry is the type of synergy where anything the jupiter person does, the sun person will laugh. they think the sun shines out of the jupiter persons ass fr. very much a laughable, jovial, light hearted placement to have with someone.

- aries moon: every aries moon i’ve met has been shy at first. like they have that notable firecracker, passionate aries energy but it’s definitely hidden at first. when they meet new people especially they are like completely quiet kinda just observing the other persons energy. i’ve also noticed aries moons have a specific hobby or thing they like focusing their energy on which is kinda like an emotional release.

- fire moon: people with their moon in the fire element need a physical release for their emotions in general. it could be doing research, crafting, working out, or playing music. whatever it is, it helps the fire moon person put that emotional energy into a physical form so they feel like it has a rightful place and it’s kinda like validation for experiencing that emotion.

- air moon: now air moons have been the ones to be the most extroverted in my opinion. maybe not full extrovert but it’s like it comes over them when they’re in a social setting with someone who is more shy than them so they have this obligation to help the other person socialize and talk. it’s very sweet. also special note, gemini moon will never not talk to a stranger so no matter what other placements are influencing them, they will always be extrovert or ambivert because that hunger to know more will not allow them to shut up.

- moon in the first house: please start studying the moon cycle, its phases and what they mean because you are quite literally already being influenced by the moon bc everyone is like 70% water bUT! in your case specifically, big events in your life are likely to align with the cycles of the moon since it’s in an angular house ruling over your physical body and presence.

- pisces moon: and their substance abuse struggles. i get it fr but like maybe slow downnnnnnn and try to take breaks every now and again. especially when it’s liquid, namely alcohol. i’ve met too many pisces moons that are like “it opens me up” or “it takes away the shyness” like yes but also maybe you just need to work on grounding yourself in reality more, let yourself feel your emotions, grow some self awareness. and maybe spend some time in a body of water like the ocean, a lake, even a pool or bath. you don’t need external substances to tell you who you are or to postpone the pain of feeling your emotions. i’ve found a lot of pisces moon people that grew up in families that conditioned them to push away their feelings, being strong for others, and basically playing a part instead of being themselves. you are allowed to be yourself and to express who you are !!!!!! don’t let your family keep you down

-venus in virgo: knowing exactly what you want and denying people bc they don’t fit the idea in your head. i can talk all day about the pisces/ virgo axis being in venus. virgo is a little unrealistic like a pisces bc they want their partner to be the perfect match whereas pisces needs to be more realistic bc their partner needs a job, a car, and maybe should move out of their parents house. sometimes i think virgo venus people are lucky if they finally work through their perfectionism, their relationships are truly admirable bc they are devoted partners and they find some of the most doting and service oriented lovers. but it’s especially difficult if ur gen z bc u likely have venus square pluto showing that the person goes through drastic transformation either through heartbreak or through a healthy relationship contradicting the way they were shown affection and love by others in childhood.

- venus square pluto: try to work through those control issues and attachment issues in order to find the love you desire. and be open to change, love will change you one way or the other.

[twistedastrology]

you cannot run a subreddit like a fucking dictatorship.

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im pissed as hell rn so im gonna bitch abt this real quick bc im a gemini and bitching is my specialty- and i cant do a workout yet so 😵‍💫

recently I've been very active in the r/astrology subreddit, primarily answering people's questions bc it's my favorite thing to do

I answered one person's question about the difference between the ascendant, chiron and north node, i was incredibly happy to answer bc i love helping people, especially with "easier" questions like that- (i use quotes to be respectful bc i am of the belief that no question is a stupid question)

i will give the mods one thing, they DID have a rule about self promotion even if the thing you're promoting is free- that one was my bad (i offered to look at someone's chart) and i will (and did) own up to it.

the one i will NOT own up to is the one that was not written in the fucking rules goddamn anywhere.

for reference, this was my comment that they took out back and shot:

just from this shit alone i was fucking pissed off because no goddamn way you're gonna sit here and tell me "degree theory has absolutely no basis" DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH OF ASTROLOGY AS A WHOLE IS JUST THEORIES AND INTERPRETATION.

there's a reason astrology and astronomy are separate. one is based off of actual, provable mathematical equations, and the other is INTERPRETATION.

i replied, and then they did too:

"we caJT pUt eVery PoSsIblE tHiNg iN tHe RulEs" YOU HAVE 6 FUCKINH RULES. YOU CAN ADD ONE ESPECIALLY IF YOU'RE SO PISSY ABOUT IT. what are you allergic to the number SEVEN???? is it because it's a LIBRA DEGREE? $! #?? #? #

and the fucking "and I'd encourage you to study them" id encourage you to study my fucking ass while i fart in your face motherfucker u wanna find out how korn got their fucking band name? $! #? #? #? #?

you dont believe in degree theory??? Fun fact: your north node of destiny is in 26° MY ASS and your mercury is in 3° BULLSHIT- and your ass and my foot are in a 0° orbit conjunction 🥳🥳🥳

motherfucker degree theory is a T H E O R Y. you can't just remove someone's fucking comment yapping about it because you think it has no "basis in real astrology"- way to promote critical thinking, asshole!!!!!! you would burn the library of alexandria if you didn't agree with one fucking book in it.

this is why i was kind of afraid to go on reddit because people are so high and mighty with their astrology there that they are just about allergic to any other interpretations- and the r/astrology subreddit, at least some of the mods, seem to be exactly like that

like im sorry but my mercury in an aries degree of gemini makes perfect fucking sense to me- and the only other thing i have in aries is my venus which ISNT EVEN IN ORBIT TO MAKE A SEXTILE!!!! and these people definitely dont believe in cranking the orbits so i cant even say that 😒

not to mention dodecatemoria and decans are Technically degree theory- not in the sense of 1 degree = aries, but in the sense of "section of degrees = sign", especially dodecatemoria which is literally 0 - 29° of any sign

here's a chart in case anyone's interested:

dodecatemoria is also literally BABYLONIAN. that shit is OLD. granted egyptian decans and such are older, but that's still DECANS. AND DE GR E E S.

im not coming for everyone on the subreddit as a whole, just whoever appointed this dumbass fucking rule- why have an astrology subreddit when you can't even talk about certain astrology topics. fucking shit yourself loser i hope you burn.

to the people that dont know me that well btw i am not actually actively wishing harm on anyone- i just get very dramatic when im pissy 😒 anyway ill probably do a post on how i use degree theory soon in spite of this so keep an eye out!!! 🥳🥳

[tetsuswaifu]

Can you do HQ boys hcs w an astrology girlie ( like she can do brief analytic about others personality based on their d.o.b ( yerr ofc not always 100% correct)) thank u so muchhh 🥰

Haikyū!! Astrology HCs

⋆ ♱˙𓆩☠︎︎𓆪˙♱ ⋆ feat: (Bokotu Kōtarō, Kozume Kenma, Kuroo Tetsurō, Suna Rintarō, Oikawa Tōru, Iwaizumi Hajime, Akaashi Keiji) x f!reader

word count: 1030(including names and signs)

a/n: i used a website to get their big 3 signs, i dont know what time and where they were born so i put them all born at noon and in tokyo to try and get the most standard chart for all of them. also got more information from other websites to get an overall understanding. i hope this was to your liking and the format you wanted, i was struggling to figure out what would be best 🫶🏼 also hopefully got these readings somewhat right , lmk if i missed writing about someone you wanted specifically, thank you again for the request, youre welcome love, have a wonderful day/night ! 🫶🏼

likes, reblogs, and replies are always appreciated, thank you for taking the time to read my work :)

sorry not proofread completely

・❥・Bokotu Kōtarō・❥・

-☀️Virgo🌙Aries ↑Sagittarius-

this man is so enthusiastic and supportive of you being into astrology. he loves how passionate you are about it and eagerly listens any time you have an analysis on someone, especially if it's him. he might not understand it but he's your number one supporter.

this man is so eager to know everything about his birth chart, like he's calling his parents to get the details right.

you tell him his virgo sun explains his hardworking and detail-oriented nature. his aries moon adds to his energetic and impuslive personality, and his sagittarius rising shows his adventurous spirit.

he often asks you to explain his horoscope to him, like he's convinced astrology is the reason for his mood swings. "babe, is my moon in a bad spot today? i feel off"

i feel like he would definitely try and learn it to impress you, but would get things mixed up and signs crossed, creating hilarious misunderstandings, "oops"¯\_(ツ)_/¯

・❥・Kozume Kenma・❥・

-☀️Libra🌙Cancer↑Capricorn-

kenma is an open-minded person, but initially he is skeptical to it. he doesn't believe it much but he does enjoy seeing you excited about it. he's also an observant person so if you gave him an analysis of someone, he would def look for signs and mentally take note. sometimes you're right and he will be taken aback by how on point your description was.

you would explain his libra sun makes him a balanced person and diplomatic, while his cancer moon gives him a sensitive side which can lead to moodiness from him. his capricorn rising makes him appear serious and stoic to people who he doesn't normally interact with.

kenma will give in sometimes and ask for a horoscope, especially if he's stressed about a game or project he's working on, "this game is kicking my ass, can you tell me if luck is in my favor today?"

if kuroo is ever being extra around him, he will always say something along the lines of "he's being such a scorpio today" to you and you can't help but laugh. even if he is being sarcastic he's right most of the time.

・❥・Kuroo Tetsurō・❥・

-☀️Scorpio🌙Taurus↑Aquarius-

he is so playfully curious, definitely teases you about it. he absolutely would be respectful about it though. whenever you have an horoscope, he listens intently. mentally combs through his astronomy knowledge to see some cross over, but he would also enjoy debating you about the validity of it. having that banter with you, being flirty and playful during those talks

he is interested in his birth chart to see if any of it is actually true, so he wants all the details. his scorpio sun gives him a magnetic and ambitious personality. taurus moon is strong in him, making him emotionally steady and practical. you explain his aquarius rising makes him unique and progressive, often very friendly and confident.

off the books he's checking to see your compatibility online. he learns a thing or two from his research. he's very perceptive and uses your astrology insights to plan surprises for you. he knows when you might need excitement or extra comfort.

"does my scorpio sun make me intense enough to handle your love for astrology?" always smirkin'.

・❥・Suna Rintarō・❥・

-☀️Aquarius🌙Aries↑Taurus-

he doesn't care much about astrology, but likes hearing you talk about it. well he loves hearing your voice, he's always interested. he will be sarcastic towards you about it and joke around from time to time.

he'll send you astrology memes and tiktoks that he stumbles upon, often making you laugh.

his aquarius sun makes him independent and a great listener. aries moon gives him a self-sufficient and fiery personality, sometimes having a reactive behavior to him, but also caring deeply for the people in his life. on the flip side, his taurus moon gives him calmness to combat his fieriness. 9/10 he's a steady type of guy

on the down low he probably looks up teammates birth charts to get a better understanding. "no wonder the twins are the way they are."

・❥・Oikawa Tōru・❥・

-☀️Cancer🌙Sagittarius↑Libra-

this man is genuinely so interested in astrology and anything you tell him. he does his own research so he can have an educated conversation with you about it. he believes it helps him understand himself more and appreciates your daily horoscopes.

he loves discussing the compatibility between your signs and jokes about how they are destined to be together.

his cancer sun makes him a caring and sensitive person, always in touch with your feelings. his sagittarius moon is strong in him, making him focus on what can be done and not what can't. libra rising gives him all the charm and charisma. "you think my signs make me perfectly balanced for you?"

・❥・Iwaizumi Hajime・❥・

-☀️Gemini🌙Gemini↑Virgo-

he's a pragmatic guy but open-minded to it. haji is skeptical about astrology but he appreciates how much it means to you. again, another respectful guy, willing to listen but doesn't believe it himself. he does ask questions though to better understand you as a person.

his gemini sun and moon make him adaptable and curious. it aids him in being communicative as well. the virgo rising in him gives him humility and practicality, making him very structured.

sometimes you will give him astrology advice if he’s stressed, giving him it as an option in case if his other stress-relievers aren’t working

“does my double gemini signs make me twice as unpredictable?”

・❥・Akaashi Keiji・❥・

-☀️Sagittarius🌙Taurus ↑Pisces-

a very thoughtful listener, for sure. he enjoys what you have to say about astrology, finding it interesting himself and enjoys learning from you.

he appreciates your thoughtful way of analyzing personalities, often nodding in agreement with you.

his sagittarius sun makes him inquisitive and independent, he's got a philosophical side to him. taurus moon in him makes him emotionally stable, no wonder bokuto and him work so well. pisces rising makes him intuitive and friendly, accepting people for who they are.

akaashi is the type to get you books and star maps, or anything astrology related that looks legit. he finds your insights helpful for personal growth, which in turn, brings you guys closer.

"either our stars are aligned or your influence is just strong on me" with a wink, of course.

[haveyouseenthishorrormovie]

Not a poll request (so don't worry if you don't want to answer on the blog) but - could we get each of the mods' top 10 horror movies? (: I'd be so interested in hearing them!

Long post!

Mod Z:

*long sigh* *opens letterboxd*

K-12 (2019)

NOTE: Yk what imma just leave this here

2. Beau is Afraid (2023)

NOTE: a masterpiece i probably won’t rewatch for a long time but since i’m an ari aster truther it deserved this spot

3. Rocky Horror Picture Show (1975)

NOTE: Yes

4. The Crow (1994)

NOTE: Awesome ass movie. Awesome ass soundtrack. An absolute classic. I have the graphic novel it was based on and it’s one of the best things I have in my library

5. Carrie (1976)

NOTE: Stephen King’s the best at writing real characters <3

6. The Craft (1996)

NOTE: As a wicca myself, accurately depicted teen witches are my jam and this film did the best job at it

7. Bodies Bodies Bodies (2022)

NOTE: The only reason this isn’t in the top 5 is because i haven’t seen it in a while. If u had asked me in early 2023 i would’ve put this in second place for sure

8. Cam (2017)

NOTE: So underrated. Go watch this on Netflix now while u don’t know anything about it

9. Frankenweenie/Nightmare before Christmas/Edward Scissorhands

NOTE: CHILDHOOD (lumping them together cuz i couldn’t decide which tim burton film to add)

10. Smile (2022)

NOTE: okay wait this scared me shitless at the theatre and i just convinced myself this movie was bad to stop myself freaking out but this is a genuinely good and scary movie i’ve made up my mind

These are subject to change and Invisible Man (2020) definitely deserves an honorable mention but I haven’t seen it in a while to check if it still holds up

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Mod L:

The Thing (1982)

Absolute masterpiece. Perfect marriage of cast, visuals, music, and script. They (audiences in 1982) hated Jesus (John Carpenter) because he told them the truth.

2. Ravenous (1999)

I love social horror more than life itself, and this is a pitch-perfect example. I recommend Atun-Shei Films' Overanalyzing Ravenous, if you haven't seen it yet.

3. Ju-on: The Grudge (2002)

See above re: social horror. I never stop thinking about how this series was inspired by rising incidents of domestic violence in Japan - how the contagion of violence in the home spreads to anyone who comes in contact with it.

4. Demon (2015)

This would pair amazingly well with my next pick, which is:

5. La Llorona (2019)

To quote a friend of mine after we watched Demon, "there is no society without memory."

6. Black Christmas (1976)

Truly ahead of its time as a slasher, as well as in its politics. Ladies, never date a Peter, and DON'T trust the Toronto Police.

7. The Devils (1971)

Nobody was doing it like Ken Russell, and nobody ever will again.

8. The Changeling (1980)

This movie understands the greatest horror of all: Joseph Kennedy Sr.

9. Us (2019)

My favourite Peele to date, no I will not be budged on this point.

10. Peeping Tom (1960)

An extremely prescient film about the male gaze and the medium of film.

(Mod Sus releases their own once they get the braincells rubbing for more than 5 movies)

[teddybeartoji]

RUBS MY LITTLE HANDS TOGETHER ….. you are never safe from me >:3333

☕️ with misu !!!! ☀️ with ming !!!!!! 🌤️ with mirin !!!!!!! 🧇 with michuu !!!!!! aaaaand 📖 with miji …. :3c pretty please. (i put much thought into all of these btw) (also v v v optional but. if you have any thoughts about you and … a certain softie redhead . pyro user. 👁️👁️ i would love to hear ….. maybe 📖 ???)(ONLY IF U WANT TO THOUGH …..) (i love you. in my mindpalace i am serving you breakfast in bed and the sun is shining through the blinds and i am content to simply watch you from the doorway)

ARIARIARIARIARIARARIARIARIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

☕️: do y’all make coffee or tea? what do they put in their coffee/tea?

OKOK SO TECHNICALLY WE DID ALREADY TALK ABT THIS BUT BUT BUT he gets either a cup of black coffee or earl gray aaand i have a cappuccino of some kind:333333333 and i say 'some kind' because now that i think about it.... currently i have this machine that takes those coffee pods right? but he wouldn't.. really like that now would he.................... so we probably have some kind of a fancy machine that he's very proud of lmao

i'm not very picky about my coffees or my teas but since he IS very serious about them i let him pamper me with whatever he thinks is best for me (he knows . what's best for me) and most of the time he's the one making the drinks anyway you know how he is in the kitchen............................

he definitely uses way less sugar than i do and he does find me trying to test his drinks every once in a while very amusing . i don't know why i keep doing it when i already know i won't like it....................... i never said i was smart alright............................ it is sickening how he knows exactly how much sugar/honey i want though bc sometimes even i myself don't know and i put too much or too little.....................

☀️: if they wake you up, how do they do it? with a kiss? or pushing you off the bed?

MY SLEEPY CAT HUSBANDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!! oh he's definitely just straight up staring at me while i sleep huh... well GAZING at me very fondly is a better way to put it i think. laughs to himself when i scrunch my nose in my sleep when he ghosts his fingers over the apples of my cheeks and then swoons a little when i try to curl further into him mmmmmmmmmm

when it's finally time to wake me up he goes in for the head kiss while whispering in his raspy raspy voice (as if this won't make me want to sleep even more?????????) i am quite hard to wake up though,, like i will stay half-asleep for at least another thirty minutes i can't just WAKE UP and start doing things and unfortunately for me he finds this very cute too hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he'll tease me about being a sleepyhead while making absolutely zero effort to get me out of the bed lmao

🌤: are either of you morning people? if not, what’s your pick me up?

I THINK WE'RE BOTH MORNING PEOPLE . ok i am some fake half assed morning person i think.... ANYWAY he definitely always wakes up first bc he wants to go on a run and do his stretches this is what he's used to but he does spend a good few minutes just O . O staring at me before getting out lmao most likely he'll come and try to coax me out of bed when he's finally done with his excercises and his shower and it's a very sweet thing bc he doesn't know how to do itashgdghsaghdgahsh i make him work for it a bit and that's my pick me up:333333333

and by that yes i mean that i will pretend to be asleep so he'll have to try different ways, he'll just whisper at first but then after some time he decides to go for the sleeping beauty kiss and it's soooashgdhgsadghashg do his ears go red every single time? yes. does he continue to do it even though by now he knows i'm messing with him? yes. #true love

🧇: do they cook breakfast? or do you? what breakfast?

ARI CHUU IS SO GRUMPY IN THE MORNINGS IT'S SO FUCKING CUTEEEEE😭😭😭😭😭 he's literally just glued to my back and i think this is like the only . selfship where i'm the one cooking the breakfasthgsadhgsadghghsa I LOVE IT THOUGH DON'T GET ME WRONG it's very endearing to see him like this i love feeding him toast over the shoulder hehehehee

OH AND the breakfast varies a lot sometimes it's smth like french toast sometimes it's an omlette i try to think abt our schedules before making anything so i can be sure that he won't get hungry when he's running errands or anything yk?

📖: do you have a routine? what is it?

WITH TOJI . WE DO EVERYTHING TOGETHER IN THE MORNINGS. we just kind of developed this routine without ever putting any thought into it but we usually get up at the same time, then we go to the bathroom at the same time, we brush our teeth, he takes a shower while i give shrimpy his morning pets and pats aaand then we're off to the kitchen. we're kind of stuck together in the morning part of the day i really don't know how it happened but i do really love it!!!!!!!!!!!!

he will make the food while i make us both coffee and then i usually either sit on the windowsill or behind him at the table aaand then we eat together!!!!!!!!!!!! it's very very sweet and we try to take the mornings as slow as possible this is how we like it:333333333

NOWWWWWWWWWWWW with mr diluc.. hgsadhsagdhsagdas okok so you know that this is still very very new and i was just thinking abt how i need to come to you bc you know him a bit better than i do so you can help me figure US out buuuuuuuuuuut i do think we'd have a bit of a routine going on...... not quite like with toji though bc i feel like diluc would start his day a bit earlier and he'd rather take a shower and then . come and wake me up and theen he'd go to the kitchen to make us something already hmmmmm i feel like he would try to let me sleep in more.......... which is fine I GUESSS bc then i get to do that good old back hug thing while he's cooking:33333333 i will be nuzzling into his back i might even crawl under his shirt nyehehhee

morning selfship asks<3333333

[yippeeometer]

OH MY GOD OK SO THE FOUR CORNEES

I love these idiots

Utah is small, sure, but look at the damn muscles on that short stack of books, but he could pick up Alaska if he really tried

Coco is a BIG GUY, he’s not the tallest but he is the oldest of the group and occasionally takes up the role of “you fuck with them I will crush your skull but keep your brain intact so you can feel the pain.” But New Mexico usually be doing that.

New Mexico makes some bomb ass food and Coco loves it but he ain’t NEVER gonna admit that NM’s chili is better and his

New Mexico and Ari are their own band istg, those two love love music so much, they be playing in the garage their entire day off from any work and it drives Utah MAD because he’s trying to listen to his lo-fi and write but the boys downstairs are going at it on the drums

Arizona also loves painting, he n Coco have painted most if not all of the walls in the house

Also also, baby fever Utah? That man wants to have children so badddd but as a state he’s too busy to have one himself

Illithya is there tho, that wonderful lesbian is there for him

first off utah is a FATHER there’s no way that man doesn’t have the strength to crush a car w one hand. u think you have 6 children and don’t have muscle on u THINK again

i’m sorry my liege i can’t agree w this coco has the capacity to crush a skull propaganda. this is the type of guy to stand awkwardly as ari goes completely feral on a dude quietly singing the beach boys. he’s making comments like ‘oh i bet he’s learnt his lesson’ despite havingbplayed no rule but hindrance in a fight. he sucks i love him

neme’s food is seasoned with rage i believe that. you can’t come in the kitchen whilst he cooks bc he needs time to think about all the ways he’s been wronged whilst he slices his onions. they go through cutting boards at an alarming rate bc neme thinks ab how he was introduced as ‘mew nexico’ once and now everyone’s copy pasting cat ears onto his professional business photos.

ari is carnage and that’s the truth. his band skills are fully based on adhd and i believe that. he and new have to have hourly breaks from practice however bc they’re too dramatic for showbiz. they put on talent shows for the other two which ends frequently with a screaming match bc they want constructive criticism- which utah can’t give bc he’s too nice, and coco can’t give bc he already forgot what the song was like.

utah would want a baby however he forgets that would be a crime under some convention. hello my sweet child. oh you’re wondering why you’re birth name is green-chile-is-better-in-rado. you see, it was that or a divorce.

[omghallucinations]

okay I saw that ask about pisces and virgo hyunjin thingy and suddenly realised I have a kiiiiiind of similar situation with heeseung?? but it is the reverse tho. I have pisces sun aries moon and he has libra sun (potentially) virgo moon. so my sun opposite his moon and vice versa. what do you make of this one compared to the other ask. + if its important i also have pisces stellium

omg u just made me realize that the biggest most embarrassing crush I ever had in my life has been on a taurus sun with a sagittarius moon--my sun opposite his moon, my moon opposite his sun. lmaooOOO talk about opposites attract. I'm not as knowledgeable about synastry (how charts work together) since I've mostly focused on studying personal birth charts, but sometimes when you have an empty part of your chart, someone whose placements "fill up" that part can feel like they complete you, kind of thing. plus an opposition in general is intrigued by each other. there is conflict but the planets are going to be in compatible elements and modalities--libra sun opposite aries moon are cardinal air and fire, pisces sun opposite virgo moon are mutable water and earth.

so on the one hand there's attraction, but in terms of actual understanding of each other day-to-day... not the greatest hahahaha. it does depend on the compatibility of the moons in particular and the charts in general. for ur moons this is VERY GENERAL but without other mitigating factors (houses, aspects, etc) an aries moon feels emotionally safe when its taking action, experiencing new things, being creative, shining, having fun, getting attention, all that kind of stuff. a virgo moon feels emotionally safe when its like... thinking of my gf (an aries with a virgo moon) safety is in arranging things while being alone. making really intense spreadsheets of songs she's used in playlists or perfumes she's tried hahahaha. painstakingly cutting out papers to the size of pictures and arranging them to make a photo wall, then putting up the actual photos. criticizing things and sorting things. an aries moon, not so much. an aries moon might be exasperated at times by how analytical and kind of pessimistic a virgo moon can be, how many times they have to go over like the same question or problem instead of doing something like an aries moon will normally want to.

a pisces sun might also find a libra sun like... attractive but ultimately unsatisfying I guess? like a libra sun does not want actual intense emotional connection, not really. they want to keep it cute and keep it chill and keep a certain emotional distance on some level--if a libra needs to judge things and keep the peace, they have to stay removed a little bit, but a pisces needs deep real emotional connection. and for a libra, pisces energy might be threatening in a way--nice at first, but when the pisces wants to connect deeply the libra might find that overwhelming and the pisces's deep emotions feel like they threaten libra's emotional equilibrium.

but also, it really is a clear attraction because the opposition is always fascinated by the other side of the polarity, u know? so your sun and his moon, his sun and your moon are really interested in each other. squares and oppositions are gonna all be mutable, cardinal, fixed--they do understand each other on some level, and alongside that the difference can be really really attractive. so if people are able to understand each other and compromise, it can be a really interesting balance. however my taurus sun sag moon crush... not really not a good long term combo with my ott gemini sun scorpio moon ass 🤪

[danielleyongbokxlbeauty]

Do you ever feel like you get brushed off to many times and no one understands you like this?

I know these women do.

Trapped between a house walls and just needing a person to rush to your side to break out of comfort zone for adventure and you would feel happy no matter where u go? Escapism is an aries hardest trait to overcome. Fighting or running is another when anxieties take over. Triggers are common in my life that trigger angry and yelling. I am so sorry tumblr space for all my cursing. I know it's bad. Face palms.

But i haven't heard my favorite girl group album in a while so time to do it for nostalgia personal purposes. :) Reminding your love, important, cherished and kind and compassionate.

Wai hasn't my ass heard this since today? My heart did this natural speed up that I couldn't explain. Reminder around these parts of California. No one let's u merge because we all like to be quick to places so blinkers are needed. Lol alot out here are asshole drivers or crazy no joke. And I am a front and back seat driver unless u distract me from car fear.

My deep night soft thoughts are why does the world have to put a damn price on dancing and make dancers and groups work so hard to debut? It's unrealistic and unfair. Dont u see how their dreams get crushed when u don't sign them? Make it fair. Dancing is a joy for happiness and manifestations thats the only reason why I do it. I prayers more dongsangs get in this year please see them for their talents with improving their family lifestyles and themselves be more understanding to their basic needs instead of fucking exploiting them. That's why many of them don't like working for the bigger name companies in seoul because u do not take care of their emotional, mental or physical healthcare. Sex trafficking is a real crime here in the states so if u do it to your musicians while here thats a damn federal crime. Logging off and taking house hiatus to prove a fucking riot point.

[habibisagi]

I was so hard trying not to think about rin or mention him in the tags, I specifically didn't want to think about isagi cucking bf!rin. Tysm sora 👍🏼 (I'm perfectly fine and immune to this concept)

VENECIAAAA beloved u r so sweet to me! ! ! ! ;v; <333 SDFKHSD PLEASE i just be hijacking every person's post with my tags hoping i don't get blocked fr.... u putting me in a cage... i fear i have earned it >.>

also yeah... cuck isagi... u must think about it all the time if i think about it an insane amount lol because he's BEEN sooo real to me. i thought about him being a cuck after i watched blue lock just cuz his ego thing is so crazy bc all he wants to do is fuck up a guy's psych about his skills and then proceed to do better than him in front of him in the most mentally damaging way that can rewire them to do better for themselves... IT'S WHAT'S SOOO SEXY ABOUT HIM and it just made sm sense to me like oh THIS GUY WOULD DEF CUCK... and it's so funny bc i came on this app after a whole ass year and i saw that ARI INDULGED ME W THEIR CUCK ISAGI N BF RIN like bro knew what's been on my mind fr even when i wasn't there😭😭😭 again it just makes so much sense! ! ! ! and i'm glad it's universally (this little bllk circle on tumblr) understood lmao... cuck isagi ftw... hes so sexy its ridiculous

isagi may be so sweetie pie but he is also super weird like Something Is Wrong With Him and he would enjoy cucking bllk men a little too much maybe if given the opportunity... making their partners cum in front of them would do crazy things to his ego lmaooo. with rin especially it would be sooo personal good heavens

[silenthillmutual]

☕️ How do you feel about horror films in the 2010's? What were some of the best and worst to come out of that decade in your opinion?

oh hmmmmm let's look at what i've seen that came out in the 2010s

great, really loved - tucker & dale vs evil (horror comedy that will always be famous. to me.); get out (i like us and nope as well but get out to me is like the tightest writing of the three. and then nope and then us.); it ch1 (i have a fond memory of seeing this on my birthday so i have a bias for it :]); annihilation (i love sci-fi horror films so fucking much. ik there's big differences between the book and the film but i cannot wait to read the book anyway!); mandy (i have got to get high and watch this. epic film)

good, decent film - black swan (i do not get what the discourse is around this movie. no it's not the most mind-blowing film experience but idk ppl act like there's nothing worth redeeming in it.); the cabin in the woods (this is a p good movie, do not get me wrong, but it would've been better without the joss whedon stink on it); paranorman (will probably get bumped up a notch once i've rewatched it tbh); what we do in the shadows (mockumentaries i love u); crimson peak (can i just take a sec to say media literacy is ass on this site bc of that one post about crimson peak.); green room (wanna rewatch this one bc its premise is right up my alley); the boy (benefits from Better Than I Was Expecting); happy death day (groundhog day plots are really hit or miss for me but i did like this one. i support women's wrongs.); a quiet place (i need to see the sequels bc i hear day one is good but this was def a unique premise and i liked how the end product turned out); color out of space (goes on a touch too long imo but i'd love to watch it again); us (i still enjoy us just not as much as get out or nope. there's some clunkiness in us.)

a little mediocre but i'll put it on - my soul to take (no real notes on this one other than not being big happy w its ending); grave encounters (probs a little higher up on the meter bc i do enjoy saying 'im lance preston and this is grave encounters' at random); american mary (also on the higher up side bc i'd like it to have been. idk. gorier? also the ending felt kinda anticlimactic.); the babadook (film got spoiled for me long before i sat down to watch it. my partner despises it. i just wanna know why no one has pointed out that the kid is obviously autistic and him being presented as a burden is kinda fucked up); hereditary (i think this is a decent melodrama, and ari aster is not untalented, but oh my gooooood people piss me off about this movie lmao and the mom sounds exactly like my mother.); mom and dad (the parts w the parents i think are much stronger than the parts w the kids but interesting concept for a short story.); it ch2 (i think it doesn't quite match up to pt 1 but it's not bad. i might rewatch it and see how i feel.), ready or not (i'd love to rewatch this one and have my mind changed on it)

i don't remember this one love and light - the woman in black (i'll give this a rewatch later); the purge (i only have the vaguest memories of what happens in this one bc i watched it at 2 am w some classmates while studying abroad); it follows (i see both a lot of love and a lot of hate for this movie so i kinda wanna rewatch before i settle on an opinion)

boring - fright night (i watched this in high school bc i really liked david tennant but i tried rewatching it as an adult and i couldn't get hooked); the conjuring (i'm so sorry to everyone who loves these films but i could NOT get into this.); the witch (sorry.)

i dont recommend tbh - saw 3d (not one on my rewatch list in the series but it's also not the worst film in the set on account of it not being jigsaw or spiral); in fear (i watched this while studying abroad in scotland and i got very let down at just how little was going on in this film.); tusk (parts of this movie i was struggling not to laugh at. didn't feel bad for the main character in the least. not nearly as disturbing as everyone kept making it out ot be imo.); the love witch (i thought 'oh this has to be a critique of rad feminism it's too campy to be taken seriously' but alas i was wrong); midsommar (i am keeping my mouth shut on my real opinion of this movie.)

abysmal. sorry. - dark shadows (i will admit there are burton films that i still find joy in but this is definitely not one of them. really weird movie from what i remember); silent hill: revelation 3d (idk how they fucked up worse than christoph gans but they did!); jigsaw (how the fuck do you make a saw movie that's BORING. booo logan we hate ur pussy!)

woah sorry i just looked a t a list sorry this is like a massive wall of text.

[evansbby]

So I'd like to take the opportunity to continue of the first time anal ask

Steve convinces reader to let him put it up her ass but she feels like she'll be more comfortable with just the tip and Steve agrees then but then he is balls deep inside her.

Ok I can see her crying about how he promised that he'll not do that and it hurts but Steve is all smug and Gaslights her going like it's just the tip baby , I'm just too big so his tip might be too much for her and then goes like baby ur baby cunt has never had someone as big as him that's the reason she thought he bottomed out😭

Then after her few more whines Steve would deff say weren't u the one who told me not to put it up ur pussy so why all the whining now😵‍💫😵‍💫 then be like is that what u want baby me to fuck u in that pussy and force her to say this.....or elese he'll now *genuinely* put his whole dick inside her...ya do u want that baby...no right... because that's gonna hurt so much more...and deff punctuate his sentence with a hard thurst...(I don't see him being soft on her he gives strict daddyyy vibes)....and when she does he'd fuck her raw in that pussy😵‍💫 and alternate between her ass and cunt.........askajakjakajkkkkkk....

he'd deff finish inside her ass to you know mark her up

And then I can see him eating her (ass)out from the back as a reward for being such a good girl

This guy is evil so I also feel like he'll make a comment about her whining and maybe that's why Ari didn't make her his girlfriend 😭😭 but then he'll compensate by saying Don't worry baby I'm gonna take u on a date ya is that what u want.....I think for that I need to fuck u raw👁️👄👁️

And let our girl have a date bro common even if it's to get on Ari's nerves let her have her 1 date

(I'm so truned in right now , I'm gonna go read wg! Part 1 the smut was out of the world )

Oh my gosh bestie, why is wicked games!Steve morphing into poyt!Steve with the “just the tip” part 😭😭😂😂

And look I’d love to tell you if this is accurate or not, or what Steve would actually do in this situation but Steve is a mystery and we won’t know what he’s properly like until part 3 of wicked games!

But this was so hot and ugh him alternating between her ass and her pussy??? AHHHH POOR BABY READER 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

[twistedastrology]

- Venus & Hedonism -

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i got 5hrs of sleep and i genuinely feel like i got hit by a fucking semi and my eyes are burning and i need my brain to turn on so im BACK

i dipped for a minute bc i found out in human design im a manifestor type so i naturally have energetic ups and downs and that explained my whole life so i wasnt abt to force myself to post- ill maybe do a post abt human design and astrology at some point but im still very much a beginner in the human design sphere of things- ANYWAY

so everyone loves venus, right- everyone views it as the planet of love and beauty and joy and all these fun things- but what if i told u it's secretly just as dark a planet as like.. any other......

and im gonna go out on an even wilder note and right off the bat tell u that i think venus is secretly the malefic planet, not saturn or mars

allow me to explain 👍

venus has several deity equivalents in different pantheons, and the first one u'll think of is aphrodite- im gonna go the egyptian route tho so get aphrodite outta ur head real quick-

in the egyptian pantheon, venus has 2 equivalents, Isis and Hathor

im personally gonna focus on Hathor bc i think she fits venus way better than isis does- (fun fact: when the greeks came into contact with Hathor’s cult, they immediately equated her to aphrodite so we're on the right track 🫡)

hathor was the egyptian cow goddess of all sorts of venus themes: dance, music, sexual love, pleasure, all that fun stuff

and u'll notice i specified "cow" goddess, which i think is funny bc venus rules taurus, the bull.

her name also specifically meant "house of horus" and she kinda had like 2 personalities- one was as a goddess of heavenly charm, and the other, "eye of re", was a goddess of destruction, so she had a duality to her bc egyptians loved that stuff i fear

so if we take this interpretation and slap it on top of venus as a planet, u can already kinda see what im sayin here

all the fun venus themes like dancin, fuckin and havin fun, can also be taken into excess

so let's look at the signs venus rules real quick

taurus is a very sedentary, hedonistic sign in general. and we all know the beef i got with earth signs, so u know how i said excess taurus placements (Excess huh. 🤨 Interesting.) in a chart are very difficult to counteract and can lead to a life of a lack of saturn themes (drive, willpower, motivation, etc)

this interpretation of venus makes that make even more sense.

taurus is essentially the lower octave of venus, it's the base instinct of pleasure, the urge to feel good no matter what- whereas libra is the higher octave of venus, it's more sensible and cognitive of what it feels, Wants to feel, and how it would impact themselves and others.

dude someone on reddit- i hate reddit so much- But someone on reddit asked me some questions when i was testing out this theory right and they asked me "so how do u explain Saturn's exaltation in libra" bc i said that venus is the opposite of saturn (we'll get there in a sec dw)

and i literally told them "it's not 👍" n here ill put the screenshot of what i said for u bc my mercury was working better that day 😵‍💫

saturn in aries and venus in libra is slay as fuck because saturn is exalted, and venus is aware of its desires and destructive tendencies, so saturn can actually balance venus out with relative ease.

venus is the opposite of saturn bc they are literally just. The Opposite. saturn wants to balance the soul vs the ego, right, and wants us to understand that eventually the ego will die when we do- whereas venus just wants to feed into the ego because it feels good.

also ya ill make another post abt libra vs gemini at some point if my manifestor energy keeps up but if it aint then im gonna dip for a minute again 😭😭😭

What the fuck was i saying oh shit dude my mercury is ASS rn-

OK so saturn and venus are opposites, and venus is hedonistic as hell- so what does venus reveal in a chart then??

... ur hedonistic tendencies... 🫡

no but fr Ok so- venus in ur chart, house placement and sign placement, reveals what you have a tendency to indulge in to a detrimental extent- it's literally- U know how everyone points at neptune and goes "🫵 addiction."

that's not rly neptune!!! that's venus!!!!

neptune can explain Why u went to the addiction or the harmful habit, venus explains What the addiction is.

so ill use myself and my mom for example bc we both have venus in aries-

venus in aries u would Think has an addiction of sexual activity or sumn bc of the mars influence but NO!!!! we've TALKED ABT MARS actually wait no i dont think i did a full mars post on here yet- Wait didnt i do the aries one... did i... or was that just a newsletter... Ok ill find whatever im thinkin of after i finish this and ill put a link at the end- ANYWAY

bear with me gang 💔💔💔

so venus in aries is Actually an addiction of planning. u might feel like u have to plan for or research EVERYTHING before u do it, u are allergic to coming unprepared- and this can be extremely detrimental bc interestingly enough, it puts a halt on the mars energy and you get so caught up in research and planning that you either dont do the thing, or you take FOREVER to get around to it

it's fr mental masturbation- kinda awful term but that's what it is 🫡

i am definitely guilty of this but my mom is more guilty i fear- she put off writing a newsletter for 6 months bc she kept feeling like she had to research the topic Thoroughly first 😵‍💫

i yapped much more thoroughly about this in the newsletter i just wrote on it, so if u wanna see what i wrote for ur venus sign here u go and i hope it checks out but if it aint that's my bad 😕

i personally have some venus in cancer tendencies as well, which i wrote as needing to feel unbridled, and that's definitely bc im a cancer rising so maybe check ur rising sign too!

But ya so venus is weird... But like kinda cool- n like i said i genuinely went way more in depth in the newsletter like this is so ass in comparison but i needed something to make my brain wake the fuck up... like that one korn song... so yknow 😵‍💫

my bad for my absence im a manifestor u gotta be nice to me ☹️💔

and for further reading:

newsletter abt aries and mars

my post abt saturn (explaining why i think it's exalted in aries)

my beef with earth signs

ok thank u im gonna go get food now im so hungry and im STILL tired 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[imliterallyjustablackgirl]

"About the Blogger" meme

Thank u sm for tag @happylikeasadsong

Star Sign(s): Virgo sun, Cancer rising and Aries Moon - * ratata, in the ghettooo*

Favorite Holidays: Christmas and New Years, I just love little lights and the snow in the trees and to be reminded that makeup is just make up by the Canadian wind, while I get bitch slapped like I owes it money, ahhh, canadian's winter. I loveeee Christmas songs, I get so excited when it'ssss timmmee ( Mariah is it you). I dream for the day were I get to put lil socks like in movies with name and everything. Might even stitch them myself uwu. We don't do it, but maybe one day, family on my own.

Last Meal: As like my last meal if I d i e or - I ate a burned sandwich, I did it to myself. Me and myself are not talking right now, the sandwich was the last straw for today. It had two large meatballs in a subway wanna be bread - could have been great- I'm getting emotional all over again.

Current Favorite Musician: Brown noise 10 hrs- no wait - Rap orchestra - that's like the current thing I'm listening to right now. Mostly Metro's concert rap Orchestra. But Tanarelle, forever my love. Sade, for sure.

Last Music Listened To: * sigh - go look at the last edit I watched** 1975- about you, the snippet of Holt singing. Last Movie Watched: Bottoms - Lmao- THEEE GAYYYZZZ

Last TV Show Watched: Craig of the Creek - Rick and Morty, Bob's burgers, I watch Bob's burgers alot.

Last Book/Fic Finished: Now why did you have to do me like dat.

Last Book/Fic Abandoned: W A W Abandoned? I Do Not Abandoned My Kids. They just live inside my head until one day a smell, a sound,or an idea reminds me that they exist, or I write them on a piece of paper and forget about it OR they live inside my notes pads. Let's not speak about myout-of-wedlockk Skyrock- Wattpat and Fanfiction.net, children, they are not mine, you cannot prove it. Where is the paternity test?

Currently Reading: Y'all posts, like it's bedtime stories. Curry's fanfictions - honestly I read most of y'all updated or not fanfiction, I was on A3O Sydcarmy tags when there was barely two pages, so ouf - thank you to y'all my loves :* truly. I would lie if I said now I have too much windows open I'm confusing the timelines and fanfic. - Seasons of Sydney by shewalksoverme I am waiting for them to update. I am not handling it well, sadly *sighs*

Last Thing Researched for Art/Writing/Hyperfixation: Canada's woods, slightly make me sounds like a serial killer but HOW would you write a werewolf Carmy,huh!? I lived there most of my life, thought it would help me get a better writing experience, yet I've been too busy to continue and now I'm alarmeling aware that we have coyotes. Great ;-;

Favorite Online Fandom Memory: I have alot but I watched the last episode of Stranger Things with my friends last year. S8 of TVD, feeling like a last survivor of some sort, trauma lol - The Howl House - the finality, it healed my inner child to see a queer neurodivergent kid being understood by her mom, kick ass and be happy lol.

Favorite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: Amphibia- it's such a cute and layered cartoon. OMG - I ALMOST FORGOT - CENTAURWORLD. It deserves the praise. It deserves to be acknowledged, the bad guy changed my perception of so many things.

Favorite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: I wish (His Dark Materials: The Golden Compass) when I tell you, that this fantasy world has haunted me, because of how good it was for little girl me, argh! I would watch it all over again, I wish it had a bigger fanbase - if you love Christmas-

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For:

Listen - Projects are not the issue, it's the follow-through, I'm gonna try writing mini-stories to keep my mind engaged. I'll manipulate myself into work - Also I keep losing password to things so, yeah- My fic started: Under the moon- I will this week updated it- I want to write more one-shots, more smut for sure- I am interested in exploring differents fronts of any characters. Shit, I might even a Bob's Burgers fanfic. You can't stop me, you're not my mom- that I know of :O I would like @currymanganese to do it @angelica4equity You don't have to, but like... an ant somewhere might die cauz of it so, idk- do u wanna be an ant murdereww? Yeah, that's what i thought

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ryujin tarot reading

ideal type 🤨

do I have her energy permission to do and share this reading? the empress

I do these readings while confirming in people's birth charts, this has been my least favorite celebrity reading I've ever done, she has a tendency towards romanticism and delusion - pisces venus, pisces mercury sagittarius mars, aries sun and taurus jupiter.

personality

4 of wands reversed - she definitely wants somebody to marry but she may like the chase, she may like someone who isn't available, doesn't like her, is out of her league, etc or the opposite. she likes to fix people and be the one to bring them stability, she wants someone who is messy but has potential. she likes someone who is personally fulfilled, individually successful, so they can be a power couple. someone who travels a lot, who is dynamic and doesn't really sit home, someone who doesn't look like romance material - she'll work for it, she'll change them.

7 of swords reversed - may be interested in those who have some sort of addiction, or misunderstood characteristics/ways of living. someone who is often in danger, flighty, secretive, sneaky. someone in the public eye, with an unusual and messy vibe, under scrutiny. judgemental. she may think being a polyglot is attractive. someone that doesn't give up no matter how hard life can be, they always find a way to survive, like a cockroach. an usual way of speaking for sure, because what is that analogy. an activist.

the chariot reversed - lots of traveling, experience, knowledge, but also laziness, controversial, contradicting, very situational. someone with intense emotions that they don't show in an obvious way, like someone that makes emotional, interpretive art but won't talk about their feelings. almost workaholic, but understands the necessity of rest and works for it.

3 of swords - intense pain and internal turmoil, tragic life experience, artistic. family or relationship issues, she likes that. she wants a "real reason" for someone to be a pain in the ass. she wants a relationship that imitates love stories, romeo and juliet FOR SURE. someone who is lonely and will only rely on her, only they can understand each other, only she can read between their lines. regenerative, doesn't give up.

6 of pentacles - the fanservice card, her ideal type is probably a celebrity or a character or a literal creation of her head/someone she saw in a dream. someone she (thinks) could never be with, can only dream of having an interaction with. someone wealthy, and giving, open to all sorts of people and cultures. a philanthropist.

appearance

8 of pentacles - wealthy, slow fashion, handmade clothes, traditional style, short and/or detailed hair (she could find hairstyles particularly attractive and curly/kinky hair interesting). she likes someone who puts a lot of time and attention into their appearance. she may prefer those that wear colorful clothes and lots of makeup. veiny hands, shoe collection.

4 of pentacles reversed - pentacles always make me think of accessories, in this case handbags, rings, nail polish, bracelets. someone with a bigger body, tall and/or broad, big butt, arms and even neck. she may like religious accessories - crystals, rosaries, people that walk around with bibles under their arms, praying beads, crosses. a colorful and dynamic style is coming up again.