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tenpintsof-sundrop · 5 months

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

Thank you so much for sending me this!

I am proud of so many of my fics and I'm not even fully sure how to go about this, so... I guess I will just make one rec from each of the fandoms I have written for?

(Warning for some blood in gifs below - but generally there is blood and violence in this fics anyway, so...)

From DC Titans:

No Place Like Home on AO3 - Gar Logan x Fem!Powered!Disabled!Reader x Jason Todd. Friends to Lovers. (Poly Soulmates). Smut, Angst, Hurt and Comfort with a Happy Ending. 90k across 7 chapters. When Jason leaves the Titans broken and battered, he gets set on a dangerous path. It's up to you and Gar, the two people who care about him the most, to bring him home.

Oh, another day on the assembly line, everybody better march in time,

Cause the factory don't care why, you been sayin' coulda, shoulda, woulda.

(There's no place like home. There's no place like home.)

If I could recommend one singular fic and say 'this fic encapsulates my style and summarises everything I am proud of when it comes to writing fanfiction' - this would be it.

I have so much to say about this fic and a lot of it I probably have already said it - but basically, this fic is the reason I started writing. I started writing long before I actually wrote this fic, but everything I have ever sought in terms of creative satisfaction came from this fic. This feels like my orgasmic climax in terms of creating things.

And if this fic is something I could be buried with, I would be proud. If this fic is something that people remember me for, I would be so fucking proud. (Which is not likely, because it's from a very small fandom and I know people are gonna remember me for fics from bigger fandoms that are way more popular, and I wish I could shove this fic in the faces of people who read my other popular fics and make them read it lmao.)

If for some reason I had to quit writing right now - I would be most proud of this singular piece. Especially because so much of this fic, the characters, and the dynamics has been inspired by my real life relationship with my lovers, and the reader character was inspired by my struggle with disability and coping with the loss of control as I became more disabled over time - but having my lovers there for me made that loss of control easier to swallow. It's about how trauma can ruin you and letting someone love you when you are broken is one of the hardest things you can do, but one of the most radical and most rewarding. If you ever liked my writing and my style, even if you don't like Titans - please go and read this.

From The Walking Dead:

(I know this gif is sad but it fits the fic so well.)

Hold Me Tight Or Don't on AO3 - Glenn Rhee x Fem!Reader x Maggie Greene. Established Poly Relationship. Smut and Heavy Angst (No Happy Ending). Set during Season 3, Episode 4. 7k (Oneshot). You are bitten by a Walker while trying to help get Glenn and Maggie to safety, and you are facing your last hours of life. And in those last hours, you only have one wish - to have sex with your partners one last time. Luckily for you, they would do anything for you, and they can’t help but to oblige.

Oh no this isn't how our story ends,

So hold me tight, hold me tight. (Or don't.)

This fic has had some more attention lately, since I have been wanting to write for The Walking Dead again, and I just really want to re-state - I fucking love this fic. This idea came to me so randomly and struck me like lighting and I am so happy that this fic came to fruition. This fic represents so many things that I am excited about writing - poly relationships, relating the themes of sex and death, sad endings (I weirdly prefer writing sad or melancholic endings instead of traditional happy ones).

I am really proud of this fic. If you can handle angst, you should go read it.

From Criminal Minds:

From Your Lips on Tumblr - Jennifer Jareau x GN!Reader. Established Relationship. Smut, Hurt and Comfort. Set during Season 2, Episode 15. 3k (Oneshot). After JJ is attacked by dogs on the Hankel farm, you take the time to check on her and distract her flustered mind with a loving touch.

So, most of my Criminal Minds fics have done really well and don't need to be recommended just because it's a really popular fandom, but JJ fics don't really do well? Idk why she's not a popular character?

But I love this fic. I had so much fun working on this fic, and working in the religious references and imagery from the show - this fic was just so much fun for me. And I think it needs more love.

From The Last of Us:

IFHY (I Fucking Hate You) on AO3 - Abby Anderson x Fem!Reader. Enemies with Benefits. Smut and Angst. Set during the main events of Part II. 8k (Oneshot). You and Abby truly hate each other. So when you find Abby handcuffed inside an elevator, instead of being kind and just letting her out, you make her pay a certain price for the key.

I fucking hate you - but I love you.

I'm bad at keeping my emotions bubbled.

You're good at being perfect, we're good at being troubled.

There are so many fics from TLOU that I loved writing and that I'm really proud of, but this one really caught my eye on the list. I love writing about conflict, and I really love writing reader characters who are so bitchy and just cause conflict. (Maybe it's because I'm so nice irl and I never cause conflict, I get out all my internal chaos in writing characters who shit disturb and cause chaos all the time.)

I loved writing this because it's so non-traditional. It's not sappy, it's not romantic - again, it has a really melancholic ending. The characters are so toxic for each other (which is also something I love writing - because it's horrible for relationships irl, but for fiction it's so interesting to explore and observe).

I think this is one of my best, most interesting fics and I really loved doing it.

From Harry Potter:

King For A Day on Tumblr - Poly!Golden Trio x Fem!Reader. (Fem!Reader x Ron Weasley, Harry Potter, and Hermione Granger). FWB to Poly Lovers. Smut (with slight Angst). Set during Deathly Hallows. 22k (Oneshot). While Horcrux Hunting with your closest friends, the dangerous influence of Slytherin’s Locket causes Ron to snap. And it turns out - he brings on something that everyone in the tent really needed.

You told me think about it - well I did.

Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore.

I'm tired of beggin' for the things that I want.

I'm over sleepin' like a dog on the floor.

Imagine living like a King someday - a single night without a ghost in the walls.

I have spoken about this fic at length, and how this was a spirtual awaken for me - if No Place Like Home was a culmination of everything I am as an artist, then this fic is an echo of those things. Again, I fucking love writing about poly relationships - and I think this fic has one thing that was missing from No Place Like Home. And that is exploring each individual thread of a poly relationship and how someone interacts with each person in the relationship outside of the poly group functioning as a whole. That is definitely a strong suit of this fic.

Also it's amazing filthy nasty smut, which is something I love writing, and something I am really talented at.

From Stranger Things:

I'm Still Standing on AO3 - Nancy Wheeler x Fem Disabled/Chronically Ill Reader. Best Friends to Lovers. Angst, Smut, (slight Fluff). Hurt and Comfort. Happy Ending. Set during Season 4. 37k across 3 chapters. You start having horrible waking nightmares, but you don’t want to worry your best friend Nancy by telling her. She’s already occupied trying to chase down a trans-dimensional killer wizard, and you are convinced that the two problems aren’t possibly related.

There's a cold and lonely light that shines from you,

And you wind up like the wreck you hide, behind that mask you use.

This fic is so interesting.

I wrote this fic shortly after Season 4 came out - and even though I had a few fics for Stranger Things that were pretty popular, everyone just collectively ignored this one? And I know for a fact that it is because Nancy is the love interest. I know that if I had picked Steve or Eddie as the love interest for this fic, then this fic would be just as popular as my other ST fics - but because the subject matter is so deeply personal, I connected with the scenes of Nancy kicking ass at the hospital and worked from there.

(And tbh, if I had to choose a male love interest for this concept, I probably would have chosen Billy, because I relate to him on so many deep personal levels.)

Literally everything in this fic is very personal to me - this is all about my own raw traumas. From the abusive father to the extreme medical trauma to the strained caretaker mother, to the older sister who distances herself from it all - even though this is set in the universe of Stranger Things - this is the story of my life. And idk if I would have wanted it to be a more popular fic, because it is so personal? But I am upset that I worked so hard on it and so many parts of it are so raw, and nobody really saw it. I am upset that I had the bravery to post something so personal and it was just - crickets.

There are so many parts of this fic that I am so insanely proud of. The horror sequences are something that I worked so hard on - not just with the emotion of translating my own trauma, but I wanted to make something honestly scary and I wanted to pay tribute to the tension and emotion and visuals of all my favourite horror media - including Stranger Things and the beautifully tense horror aspects of Season 4. And this is another fic that I feel truly, absolutely represents me as a person to my core. And I feel like it's worth reading if you wanna know more about me and who I am.

(And lastly)

From misc. horror fandoms:

No Brainer on AO3 - Derek Cho (Steven Yeun) x Fem!Reader x Melanie Cross (Samara Weaving). Co-Workers to Lovers. Smut. Based on the film Mayhem from 2017. 7k (Oneshot). When you are the last person alive with an elevator key that Derek and Melanie desperately need, you agree to make a trade. Turns out, when what you're asking for is a threesome - you don't drive too hard of a bargain.

This is one of my favourite fics of all time. This is proof that I do not write for popularity - this fic is written for a fandom on AO3 with a total of five fics FIVE (including mine) and 2 of them are about characters from other media experiencing the plot of this movie as an AU, and mine is the only fic that is x reader. So I didn't just fill a niche - I looked where there was no niche and I dug a hole.

But like - Steven Yeun. Yes, I fell in love with Glenn from TWD, but this is a movie where he is also covered in blood, and rather than being Glenn's meek, reserved self (which I love) - he is outraged and swearing and killing and it makes me foam at the mouth. And I am already in love with Samara Weaving from The Babysitter - so this is literally a killer combination.

My bisexual ass did not even finish the film before I was typing out this fic on my phone.

And I am so happy that I wrote it - because sometimes you just need a self indulgent, blood covered smut.

And you guys can read it too if you want <3

#sundrop answers #fanfiction #mickisnotclever #my lovely moots #jason todd x reader #gar logan x reader #glenn rhee x reader #maggie greene x reader #jennifer jareau x reader #abby anderson x reader #ron weasley x reader #harry potter x reader #hermione granger x reader #nancy wheeler x reader #mayhem 2017

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swarmishstrangers · 7 months

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Your blog, fics and headcanons always cheer me up! Your art is so neat too. Ive been lurking around here for a bit when I feel like I need my crops watered. Question, can I get headcannon of mallek x reader where the reader is an artist? somehow was able to accept commissions while on Alternia? I feel like the vibe of them just silently drawing and him coding in the background is super cute. What do you think?

AUGRHGAA TYYY!!!! I'm glad you like the art, writing, and headcanons! I've also definitely had the thoughts of Mallek being with an s/o who works a lot on computers for digital art stuff, mainly cause it sounds peaceful af.

Okay, so! Artist is a pretty loose term that could apply to a lot of things, but you specify them drawing here, so I'll go over Mallek x reader, both of them being either a traditional artist or a digital artist.

Traditional Artist:

🎨Starting with the traditional artist! Dunno if any of you consider yourselves to be fairly clean but either way if you were to stay over at his hive a lot and for convenience's sake, leave some of your art stuff at his place..it only adds to the chaos that his hive, "damn girl you live like this?" Idk! I just imagine all sorts of physical stuff traditional artist's use. Different types of paint and paintbrushes, charcoal, watercolors, colored pencils, paper, canvases, etc. Your art stuff adds a whole other thing to look at in his hive and honestly? He's here for it. He thinks art is cool. I mean..he can do tattoos, so of course he'd have some appreciation for a s/o who does artsy stuff. He also like those moments where he finds you just covered in your art supplies. Charcoal all over your arms and even smudged on your face for when you couldn't fight a itch and scratched at it, your hands and fingers smudged with paint or oil pastels...he just finds it incredibly charming.

🎨Oh also on the subject of paint uhh. May or may not be something you're comfortable with using considering that paint on Alternia is made from the blood of trolls. Depends whether or not you can get over that and just pretend it isn't to cope lmao. If you can just. Don't ask Amisia and Chahut about how getting the supplies for your paint went!

🎨Mallek would find it incredibly relaxing to listen to while he's fucking around with his husktops and many monitors. Normally he's one to either sit in quiet with nothing to play or maybe he'll have his playlist quietly playing whatever music or other things to listen to while he works on projects or contact people. Not to say it isn't still quiet while you both do your own things, but that's just the thing. It's quiet, not silent. Mallek finds he works the best when he knows that there's life going on around him. The sounds of his hands rapidly typing on his keyboard, the whirring of his husktop, sometimes you can hear him speak to someone that he's calling. You just further add on with your sounds of living, the sound of pencil sketching onto paper or canvas, the louder or softer sounds of you using oil pastels or charcoal, papers being moved, the adjusting of a canvas. It's all very comfortable to you both.

🎨You're each other's background sounds.

Digital Artist:

🖋️Being a digital artist is also so cool to Mallek, why wouldn't it be? It's tech shit! He can also help you try and traverse the different Alternian art programs. It's pretty new to him too since all he usually uses is the Alternian equivalent to Microsoft paint..and it's not super serious, just doodles, sketches, and shitposts stuff to destress. You got yourself a husktop, Amisia was jumping at the chance to help you look for digital art supplies (such as a tablet and stuff), and Mallek helped you get a hold of art programs for you to try out and decide what you like to use as your primary programs.

🖋️They're pretty much the same as Earth art programs in terms of it's functions. Though of course their interfaces can be different from program to program. Not everything works as it does on Earth? Certain shortcuts or tool locations are moved around or changed but it's pretty easy to figure out if you're experienced in digital art. And if you're stuck or can't figure something out your cool tech savvy matesprit can help you out. Mallek has his moments where he takes a break from what he's working on briefly to watch you draw...he always has to stifle a laugh when he sees you're absolutely struggling over there to do line art, having to undo do your stroke like 50 times before you get it. Like the previous one? He thinks it's cute and charming.

🖋️While you don't add a lot of new things to look at it in his hive, as you're working with more tech, it's still just as nice to listen to in the background he thinks. He can hear your fingers type out messages to friends or clients you're working with, the sound of your pen stroking against the tablet face, your mouse clicking here and then. There may not be as many sounds, but he finds it just as comforting, he likes to listen to the life around him after all.

Commissions:

As for the commission portion, thought it would be fun to get into this separately after talking about the respective art types! Being commissioned as an alien on the planet is certainly. Interesting. Which can be taken positively or otherwise.

Being an alien is your selling point to a lot of trolls online. It's where you got a huge chunk of your followers! Sure, they're very split on genuinely believing you are a real alien and those who think this is some kind of roleplay account or something but follow out of interest. Your commissions gather more interest from those who want a drawing from an alien! Real or not. Lots of odd are fun interactions.

For a traditional artist you could go the route of just, scanning your picture and posting it onto your socials and tag the trolls (or post it to the troll client privately). If you offer a shipement of the physical original drawing Mallek can help you out with getting a drone to drop it off for you so you don't have to go on a wild goose chase to find the troll client in this great wide troll world.

#mallek adalov #mallek adalov x reader #hiveswap #hiveswap friendsim #swarms-asks

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randaccidents · 6 months

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I dunno if it was mentioned before (if it was then uhhhhh just link the post where it was) but how does Soul copes with Heart situations? Because yes, Mind copes by just keeping himself busy, and trying to find a solution. But I can't recall what Soul do. Does they just helps him? Or something more? :^

evil little grin finally. a Penitence ask. about the worst possible thing >:)))

tbh I was gonna explain this in the Penitence character ref lmao

TW for self harm and suicide attempt (the traditional media depiction way this time) + probably inaccurate depiction pls I am trying dont come after me qwq

(IT KEEPS GETTING LONG I have too many thoughts and some might come out wrong)

So I think I mentioned here that both Perseverance and Penitence take Heart's condition poorly and develop incredibly poor and self destructive coping mechanisms in response. But I never talked about Penitence.

Soul is devastated. There is a trauma to finding what is basically the dead body of your brother and Knowing that its been almost a week since the first mention of Heart being unconscious (even if neither of them knew it at the time). He is their vessel and he is his brother's keeper, and he has failed horrendously at both jobs.

{He has the best understanding of how the three of them operate, but even Soul doesn't know whats wrong. Heart isn't dead. Yet. He doesn't know what to do.}

Outside of crying, he holds it together pretty well the first 10 days honestly, compared to Mind. Soul is a little more focused early on in keeping shit together. He takes on a sort of main caretaker/nurse role, monitoring and observing Heart while also eventually forcing Mind to sleep.

The thing is that sitting silently next to an unconscious body gives him time to think (something Mind has been avoiding ironically). His first coping mechanism is to scrape his memory of loops on loops on loops on loops to find something, anything similar, anything that might help him fix this problem that he has created. Because he created this problem didn't he? He condemned Heart to Apathy.

There is nothing. This is a first in the loops. Both extending the punishment and Heart's condition. The realisation breaks Soul. He has never messed up this badly before, and he is the worst version of himself. The guilt and grief is overwhelming.

On day 10 Mind wakes from a dream and walks in on Soul attempting to hang himself.

The rest of the day is a mess, and they make an Oath together afterwards. Neither of them is allowed to give up unless they both have. [A promise to persevere] {A promise to repent}

For the rest of the AU, Penitence picks up the significantly more destructive coping mechanism of cutting himself on the tines of his trident. {Hebrews 9:22: In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness.} {Penitence seeks forgiveness more than anything.}

Its his own form of punishment, seeing as Heart can't punish him the way he thinks he deserves. The pain is unwelcome entirely, and does nothing for his thoughts and guilt. Truthfully, the act makes him worse, but punishment is not meant to be nice, and it is penitence and it is repentance. {Repentance, like what he demanded of Heart before leaving him in Apathy. Did repentance help Heart? He is repentant anyway.}

It is a quiet thing, just like how Perseverance's overworking is a quiet thing.

He stops wearing short sleeves and short pants around the house. He wears Heart's hoodie instead. If Perseverance doesnt see he can't be burdened by what he does. [Perseverance knows, knows, knows despite that. The trident drips red. He bandages Penitence daily. He says nothing anyways. He knows this is the price to keep the noose packed away.]

Despite the poor coping mechanism, Penitence does help a lot. He makes sure Heart is comfortable and not freezing his already cold arms off. He cooks and makes sure Perseverance eats and sleeps. He helps monitor and observe and record changes in Heart's condition (even if the record remains "no change" for days).

{When Heart wakes and relapses and wakes and relapses, Penitence takes most of the anger and betrayal and screaming crying accusing that Heart spits at him. He tries his best to shield Perseverance from justified anger by taking it all on himself.}

He scratches at his cuts often. He doesn't allow the cuts to heal. He runs the tines of his trident over any that do. The pain and shakiness of his limbs is a reminder of his crime. He knows this is unsustainable and unhealthy. He can't stop himself, just like how Perseverance can't stop himself either.

Self-blame is one of the worst fates you can inflict on yourself.

#reply #Heartless AU #rand.writ #rand.hc #Heartless story #cccc au #yeahhhhh Penitence takes it POORLY #his self harm is more visceral #I SWEAR THEY ALL GET OUT OF THIS #just yknow #not without a lot of harm #something something self blame is the worst thing you can do to yourself #IT SHOULD NOT HAVE TAKEN 2 HOURS TO WRITE THIS #BUT I HAVE THOUGHTS #I FORGOT THE TWS #suicide #suicide attempt #self harm

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mushtoons · 2 years

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YOU HAVE NO FUVKJN CLUE WHAT KIND OF SHIT LEONARDO HAMATO DOES TO ME. GODDAMN. theres a reason im obsessed w this boy and those reasons are Many. hes just like every other leo if they got a moment to be a person and it drive me fuckin nuts. bonkers, even. hes still analytical he still cares with all his heart hed still do anything to keep them safe and hell still do it alone he still cares about tradition and the status quo and he refuses to show that he cares both because he doesnt want to break that status quo as hes not the eldest anymore and because he doesnt want to stop being able to be carefree and happy. but hes still made up of a leader (he still wears red beneath his blue, a mask that doesnt hide a thing-and the leader wears red, doesnt he, doesnt he?) and god, hed still do anything to keep them safe. hes still the head, and the legacy, and. karai. you are not alone. and yet, both her and leo, they readily threw themselves into a prison that they thought theyd never escape from. no one is alone. except for them. because they have to, this is their duty, this is their comeuppance, they have to be a hero, they have to be the savior. and leos closeness with karai and. and when they leave karai and then when they leave raph, both times, he has to be dragged away. and he locks himself in a prison dimension. and hes calling casey 'case' by the end of the movie, and his supposed last words to him are to say hes proud. and hes so bright and kind and annoying. and. theres just. god theres so much i could say about leo. i use jokes to cope, with my last breath i told you so, hero moves are totally your style, youve been portal chopped. and he only cries in the prison dimension. the moment that portal opens he stops. and he doesnt say a thing between youve been portal chopped and. and, 'took you guys long enough'. like he knew theyd save him. and mikeys portals were a miracle. and he left a katana there. and its a belief of mine that, afterwards, hes more subdued and careful and out of the way. its not about me. and maybe he pushes that too far. and maybe, hes always worked hard to keep his hurt from them, so they dont have to bother with it. mikey needs more help, donnie is more sickly, raph is trying so hard. that last thought was off the hook idk abt that one yet dont take it too seriously. but anyways i think a lot abt him and caseys relationship too. the gentle carefulness that could bloom there alongside bright burning youth and love and hope. and casey was their final stand, and he did it. and he told him, i dont wanna lose you again. and like..just. leos everything. the masks he hides behind and the person underneath and how its clear he cares and..leo is the soul. mikey is the heart and donnie is the mind and raph is the body and leo is the soul. tuning the background noise and guiding them, quiet or loud, whatever he needs to be. and just..the way he always quietly led them and his smarts and how he got to be someone and how he still tries to throw that away and how clear it is he doesnt care for himself the way he does others and how that reflects in future leo concepts and how much I know he would care for this younger versions of himself and. and how bright he is, how annoying yet loveable and so, so interesting he is. this was so scrambled but idc i love him so much. if you want more of my coherent leo thoughts point a thing out this was summary and i DO have SO many thoughts on the prison dimension as a whole (four poems actually), casey and leos relationship (a whole post and then a much larger section in a doc), the peepaw and leo (again A WHOLE DOC for peepaw concepts), and general analysis on the boy (yet again a whole doc). also sorry if this was a bit much lmao he means a lot 2 me

DHDHDJD HOLY SHIT THIS IS A LOT /POS

LMAOOO WE CAN TELL WHO YA FAVORITE IS /LH BUT THIS IS SO DJJDJFDJDJD SO DETAILED AND JUST ❤️❤️

#we wish we could offer more words but we're fuzzy atm #but reading this made us get second hand excitement cuz u can really tell you put a lot of thought and feeling into this #and know rise leo well enough to write all this and dhdjdjdj #this is just very wholesome #and we'd love to hear more! any time!!#wood wide web

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haloburns · 1 year

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a collection of tag games

hi hello i have returned from the dead (danny phantom puns abound, i know) i've felt like SHITE for months now, so i'm going to mass answer some tag games i've been tagged in by @jadenoryuu and @deathcomes4u (i know penner has tagged me in some but theyre not showing up in my notes??? i'll find them in my emails later and reblog)

these will all be under the readmore with the original post linked!!

Wip themes tag!

Core themes are in blue, minor themes are in orange (mostly because yellow hurts my eyes).

i uhhhhhhhhhh have so many wips, i'm not sure which one jade was talking about, but i'll use my invisobang!

enjoy the teaser! i'll be posting my invisobang next week!

*+*+*

Author self-rec!!

This one is from death! i have 88 DP fics in two years, so uhhhhhhhh this one is a hard one. All titles are links directly to my ao3! (there's gonna be more than five, i'm sorry alkjsflksjdf)

First off:

Any thing from Phic Phight

2022 or 2023! Literally all of those are my favorites, I can't pick and I'm not adding them to my 5 because that feels unfair (to me).

of course i love you (it is my fault that you have not known it all the while)

this one was a dream-related idea i had, and it turned into danny and maddie working through the early stages of post-phantom-reveal relationship. it's one of my absolute favorites, and the title is from le petit prince, which is one of my all time favorite stories.

Summary:

Danny is still adjusting to his parents knowing his identity after the Disasteroid. It's...going. It's only been a few days, after all. But when Sam and Tucker go away on an academic convention trip, Danny's left completely alone for the first time since the accident and things do not go well. Danny does not cope well, and like usual, doesn't ask for help. Maddie finds him losing a fight he shouldn't be, but when she tries to help, she accidentally makes things worse and finds out just how bad things are for her son. She doesn't know a lot about all of this halfa business, but she does know that she loves her son. That has to count for something.

this is the moment (damn all the odds)

ohhhhhh i love this one. it's probably one of my first mateo-centric fics, and i wrote it while i had covid (lying on the floor, trying not to die, i wrote 4k and it was actually comprehensible) because i needed ghost light softness in my life. it's some early stuff as i wanted to flesh out their relationship a bit more. title is kudos to death, ironically lmao

Summary:

Mateo is hurt and a little stranded, and there's only one person he can call. Danny drops everything to help him, and that... that does something.

This is The Moment that he starts to view Danny in a different, more interested light.

there's no way out (i gotta hold you somehow)

this is a companion to "it's just another day without you (and i can't sleep)" but more zoomed in. another mateo centric fic that gives us a look into his pov during their week apart, and also gives us a peek at his family dynamic pre-this is the road to ruin. it wasn't SUPPOSED to be 5k, but i was having too much fun to stop. i love mateo with all my heart and i will continue to subject everyone to him until the itch has ceased

Summary:

Mateo is hurt and a little stranded, and there's only one person he can call. Danny drops everything to help him, and that... that does something. This is The Moment that he starts to view Danny in a different, more interested light.

when the nightmare fades

this is one of the earliest fics i came up with for this series. it changed A LOT. this is where danny and mateo's first kiss was supposed to happen, but the boys got out of control and that happened a fic or two ahead of time, so that changed the tone a bit. instead of it being so charged, it just became SOFT. it will forever hold a special place in my heart

Summary:

The terrible hunted feeling hasn't left Danny in weeks. Midterms are approaching, and the stress has finally caught up to him. A terrifying nightmare wakes him from his unrestful sleep, startling Mateo awake too. When Mateo asks if he's alright, Danny actually opens up instead of hiding away like normal.

quit telling everyone i'm (permanently) dead!

started as an ectober prompt that grew......wildly out of control. danny and teo go home to amity park for thanksgiving and shenangians ensue. it has lots of soft and cute relationship stuff that actually set me up for ANOTHER favorite of mine that ALSO grew wildly out of control

Summary:

Thanksgiving break is quickly approaching, and Danny really wants to make good on his promise to Mateo. So he invites him home for the holiday. It'll be the perfect opportunity to make up for the weekend he spent stuck in the Fenton house while Danny kinda-sorta almost died again. But, like everything else in his life, Amity Parkers don't plan on making that attainable for him, his friends and family included.

this is the road to ruin (and we started at the end)

honorable mention HAS to go to last year's invisobang. this is the end of the original pieces i had planned for the series, and it wasn't necessarily supposed to be the end, but up until posting it, that was all that i had originally plotted. a year's worth of work led me to that, and i could NOT be prouder of it. i've reread it quite a bit because i'm just. in love. maybe that's a little conceited, but i put SO MUCH effort into it, so i like to enjoy it from time to time.

Summary:

What goes up, must come down. Danny is forced to come down hard when Clockwork arrives with news he never wanted to hear. Now Mateo and their friends are in danger, and Danny has to be the one to figure out how to protect them all on his own. Mateo wants to help, but Danny's being too stubborn and ghostly to even think about accepting it. Tension between them grows as the new threat stalks closer, and Danny is forced to make a decision he's never wanted to make: kill or be killed.

my resistance was once much stronger (i can't go on like this much longer)

the follow up to "this is the road to ruin" in what was only supposed to be 10k max and ended up being just over 50k instead. it changed A LOT over the course of writing it, because i did a lot of character study in it. i will always love danny and mateo growing closer, even when they fight and don't communicate clearly

actually, the entire "road to ruin" arc up until "heaven's grief brings hell's reign" is my favorite. all of it. i'm just SO fucking proud of it.

Summary:

Danny's home for winter break, and that's all he wants: a break. But after a breakdown in front of his mom, and with the help of a certain meddling older sister, Danny reveals to his family what exactly has been happening while he was away at Berkeley. He hopes for some space from Mateo, because it'll make leaving easier in the long run, but one poorly timed phone call snowballs into Maddie inviting Mateo to stay with them for Christmas and Truce. Danny can't say no without revealing exactly why he doesn't want his boyfriend coming to spend the holidays with him, so he accepts. Now he has to balance his complicated jumble of feelings with Mateo being so close and so hard to ignore. So much for a break.

come back and let me hold you (darlin' i just got started lovin' you)

OKAY HEAR ME OUT i KNOW this is a country song title but a) i'm southern as FUCK and two) this song is SO FUCKING SWEET

i wanted to write something for ghost light recently but i needed it to be short, so i told myself i had to write less than 1k AND LO AND BEHOLD I DID. this is literally just post-heaven's grief sweetness. technically a song fic because i used the lyrics to craft the fic and maybe thats cringe, but i'm freeeeee so its whatever

Summary:

Danny and Mateo are settling into their new normal in their second semester after Christmas Break, and Mateo is reluctant to leave their little pocket of bliss just to attend classes. Danny convinces him to stay for just a little while longer.

this life is overwhelming (and i'm ready for the next one) & underneath your skin (the ghost within)

these go together, and they're just so different from what i normally write, but they're REALLY fucking good in my humble opinion. pitch pearl has a grip on me, too, and i've been writing some absolute BANGERS with them

Summaries:

Danny just wants everything to stop hurting. His parents are too obsessed with getting their ghost portal up and running to notice that he's struggling to adjust to high school. They definitely don't notice when things take a dark turn and a few new scars crop up. When they fail to get the portal up and running, it's like their children don't exist at all. Everything that had been building in Danny over the last two years finally snaps. Stepping into the portal with blood dripping down his hand had been an accident. The cutting part had been easy, but as the faint whine of a machine powering up reached his ears, he realized regretting all of it was so fucked.

AND

Danny's still alive, and he's not happy about it. After his halfway successful suicide attempt, Danny is living with the consequences of an activated Portal: ghosts targeting him, a new secret identity, and juggling high school. Things are not going well, until he discovers a new aspect of his ghostly self: his ghostly self.

Anything from Perky Beans Cafe

Emeralds and I are co-writing a coffee shop enemies to lovers au, and it's INCREDIBLE

Summary:

Phantom just wanted a hot chocolate... But Danny Fenton (aka Amity Park's very own Blue Hunter) has other ideas. Things do NOT go to plan, but neither party can say they're…unhappy…about the results.

the haunted museum job

a crossover fic that i'm STUPID proud of. i wrote it in like two hours and it's got some of the best character-voice writing i've EVER done. i would love to write mroe for it but alas the muse is in hiding

Summary:

The Leverage team has been tasked with retrieving an ancient Egyptian artefact from a small, Midwest museum. Easy job, won't take more than a Sunday afternoon to complete, and then they'll have more than enough cash and the favor of the Egyptian government on their side. But Amity Park is not your average Midwestern town, and they accidentally crash another team's heist and find themselves out of their depth very quickly.

HONORABLE MENTION

the magic that binds us series

DEATH STARTED THIS SHIT, AND IT IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE THINGS TO WRITE holy SHIT i cannot wait to get back to working on it!! magic goth danny is BABEY

Summary:

Danny got into sleight of hand and showman's magic to spite his parents -- he never expected it to be real. It had started as a joke. His parents kept insisting ghosts were real and were convinced they were building a Portal to the other side just to prove it. Danny, being a little shit, had made a comment about the magic they must be working against to create said Portal. Then his mom had reprimanded him for believing in something as childish as magic. Danny was nothing if not a petty little bitch, so he decided that if his parents wanted to play that game, then they would play that game. He had no idea just what kind of game he was getting himself into.

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Little guy maker!!

enjoy this little mateo i made. he is ready for fall.

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Fic Stats Game!

Rules: Give us the links to your fic with the most hits, second most kudos, third most comments, fourth most bookmarks, fifth most words, and fic with the least words.

I'm just doing my DP fics because I am NOT dragging myself like that alskjfdlksjdflksdjf

Most Hits

going...! to be in so much trouble... this is my first ever DP fic and the fic that launched me into my au......... surprised my dpxdc fic hasn't overwhelmed it, actually, but it's close!

Second Most Kudos

okay, well, it's the same fic as above, apparently, so i'm just gonna link the top kudos because it's the one that has the SECOND most hits, so like... it evens out, right??

stealing cars is a love language, too

Third Most Comments

oh wow, that's wild. i would NOT have thought it was this one!!

and they were history project partners

actually, yknow what. i'm not surprised alkdjlksdjf it's UFS adjacent, so that actually makes sense. plus it's a phic phight fic so like... yeah, that tracks lmao

Fourth Most Bookmarks

this life is overwhelming (and i'm ready for the next one)

also not a huge surprise there. it's an angsty gen dp fic, what did i expect?? lmao

Fifth Most Words

it's just another day without you (and i can't sleep)

i think this was my first BIG dp fic and it was just. pure. angst. also mateo au, so like.... that tracks

Fic with the Least Words

when you sneeze so hard you accidentally half-die in front of your boyfriend for the first time

this was crack that i wrote on my ten minute break during a particularly nasty allergy season bc i was GRUMPY. it's actually surprisingly popular, considering it's technically danny/oc fic.

OKAY THAT'S IT IM DONE SORRY FOR THE LONG POST AND LOTS AND LOTS OF LINKS LOVE YOU BYE

#danny phantom #ecto fics #my fics #my au #my writing #tag games #long post #readmore

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robotsrawesome64 · 6 months

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Heyyyy saw you would like some COD matchups

I'm American, but my mother's side is Slavic. I'm white, 5'6, shoulder length brown hair. I wear glasses and have a coquette aesthetic. I'm not skinny but I'm not plus sized so idk what to call myself lol.

I'm quiet and come off and kinda weird when you don't know me (I have under developed social skills due to C-PTSD). I stay to myself, make jokes that don't even seem connected to the current interactions, have a hard time maintaining eye contact. I love space and art, I have ADHD, Bipolar, and C-PTSD. I'm extremely loyal, can see right through people's bullshit, and am extremely understanding of people's unconventional habits. When you get to know me, I'm more chaotic. Not in an "I'm so random🤪😎" way but "I have an idea, I've thought it 70% of the way through, and we will see how it goes together"

If I were in the COD universe I'd probably be a sniper. I know that's a basic answer but my reasons are due to my hypervigilence, good eye tracking, great at shooting (shoutout to Thanksgiving traditions), and preferance for overall quiet and strict environments.

My top 5 characters are Simon Riley, Nikto, Gaz, Konig (Canon, not fanon), and Krueger.

Feel free to ignore, ik that writing can be really draining!! <3

I matched you with....

KU-KU-KUH KRUUUEGER 📣📢♨️❗❓💢💯🆘

^graphic design is my passion

TYSM for the first ask :,,DD So I got carried away, gonna see if ur into it but if not give me a shout to remove any of the warning stuff/private it etc !! (this is on me lmao) dont wanna scare you off w warnings, its overall fluff but i gotta tag em correctly

W: bbgifying fictional war criminals, violence/murder(described Krueger kills hostiles, implication you have), intimidation(Krueger likes killing/is ego aggressive to hostiles/brief aggro jealousy to others), ally very wounded (brief, blood mention, theyll be ok offscreen dw), unexpected gunshot on the range(all g, it was an ally), stalker-y (lately announced presence, lies that the public german nickname 4u he uses isnt affectionate, pre-dating jealousy), vague bad mental health mention, getting triggered mention, unspecified negativeish Krueger coping mechanism, vigilance(nothing happens but ur partners wanted/tense mission), you guys shooting, long mandated proximity, brief 'is bad man?', worry, long read more, light cliffhanger + HC that you were assigned callsign 'Cere'!

(This is a delulu long 2 off, next inbox ask i get to im gonna chill & try bulletpoints instead :p)(req are closed rite now TYSM for them<3 !)

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"You're assigned with Krueger? Oh, buddy." Your fellow KorTac operator eyes you with sympathy.

It was the equivalent of a teacher seating the 'troubled' kid next to the 'good, quiet' kid.

Flash back to pre-assignment: as soon as you met him you didn't need to look into any files to know he was a two-faced bitch. He was pretty socially inconspicuous if not for your watchful eye. Low-effort charisma, flattery, egotisical swagger. Heedless apathy if someone that wasn't helping him needed help. All the calm confidence in the world and he's always at least hiding some part of his face. So suspicious for a dude whose job is murder.

Krueger was 'friendly', but he wasn't the type to get invested in getting to know 'the team'. Meaning, once a blue moon when you both decide to stay in a social space together, the max of your interaction is him staring from across the room and snorting at you. A joke of yours had fell on someone's deaf ears and a solid 4 seconds later he chuckled at it. Or at you. Unclear. You'd felt his blatant gaze burning you through the hood as soon as you'd started talking. Anyway, now you both looked "weird".

Maybe it was a sniper thing? You couldn't afford to get rusty as you settled on the faction base's range; one eye closed to focus down the scope. That familar 'pchow' sound: hit. Cock, reload, hit, repeat. Hit. Hit-hit, wait what? What was supposed to be your target dents in front of you as you hear the same sound, but from along the range. Jesus christ. Someone else was practicing too. You still yourself and resume through their tampering/co-shooting. Once you've had your fill Krueger conveniently had too, revealing himself as your competitor to purr a praise at you as you passed by. "Very nice."

Anyway, that mission you two were sent on. Heavy snow, low hills and wind-swept shrubland before forest. Hostile base right in the middle in which you've been ordered to clear by any means. There was no way they'd be able to send in a team yet without getting spotted, which is where you guys came in. A sniper either side. Hit your shots; everything will be okay. Miss? There's only so many places it could've come from.

There was something beautiful in that moment in the calm before the storm. Only the crunch of snow as you settled into position, impossibly small as you painted the final dot in the break of snow back to white. Above you, an even wider sprawling landscape of almost clear blue sky with a few sparse strings of cloud. You could see the faint impression of the moon. And…another planet? Something smaller, stationary, glinting. It was possible to catch planets during the daytime, sure, but you might know that this wasn't their usual positions. You think you've just witnessed something very special.

Married to that sight was the chill of wind over your many layers, and Krueger muttering eerily calm communications in your ear via radio. It's not like sniper fire could be silent, but you had a window of opportunity with the suppressor temporarily hiding your position. You'd shoot together.

He slowly counted down like he enjoyed it. Regardless of his distracting yapping you both hit, and he shamelessly hissed praise as he eagerly loaded his next.

Cut to your report back, your half-smile fades at a joke that didn't land with your befuddled superior. Krueger snickers. This was a long-range mission. Somehow, you were standing to attention in front of them, half your sniper hood burnt up (??) and Krueger standing a little more lax next to you splattered in blood. Now- you had clutched the mission. Thanks to your half-plan in response to Krueger getting ahead of himself, in which upon your very stressed communication you both went all-in on.

You remember a moment in the scuffle in which you were pinned by the last hostile after rescuing a screaming damsel Krueger (you didn't know he hit that pitch). You half expected the knife stuck through your attackers neck to pierce you too, before Krueger threaded the needle and double-neutralized your attacker with a snap of the neck. Panting, he leant out a hand for you to take, with a tilt of his head. "Thank you, bruder." You'd worked surprisingly natural together come the highest pressure. He didn't want to die, and you wouldn't let him. But God, he gave you a headache.

To your dismay/morbid interest you were assigned as a duo together again. And again. And again. Through trial and error you got more and more used to how each-other worked on the field, to the point his more bloodlust-y spontaneous ventures seemed quite tempting. With the guidance of your planning, of course. You swear you could hear him smirk on the other side of the radio when you finally seemed just as enthusiastic as him. Others joining you on your assignments would have to scramble to keep up with the pace of your symbiosis.

When he wasn't screaming and shouting for his life from the consequences of his own actions/in combat/violently taunting his enemies with concerning egotistical aggression, it was quite peaceful. Something about being able to focus together, but apart. Beautiful landscapes to the sound of his soothing dry tone.

And so, sue you if you hung out a little more.

"Come; you're needed." He'd half-joke with a pat on your back if he saw you alone, inviting you to sit with him and Nikto. The life-or-death nature of your field didn't really breed cliques, it's just when you could pick, two other 'offputting' neurodivergents were much less exhausting (once you'd mostly figured they weren't planning to kill you). Sometimes Krueger would be trying to say something and both you and Nikto would lose focus and have a lighter episode at the same time, which could be funnily validating despite the circumstances.

Nikto's threateningly gruff, jovial energy was kind of infectious. It might just come up in conversation: your mother's heritage. Ooh, Russian? Was it Russian? Do you know a second language? Krueger participated in the conversation, but…fuck, why were you looking at Nikto like that? No, no, you should just learn German with him instead. You'll have enough time for it together when you travel for your next mission.

It was very few and far between where Krueger had given anyone a nickname. Acquaintance German speakers would give him weird looks when he called you 'asterisks/little star'- "Sternchen," with a lingering tone. He'd non-chalantly play it off when you asked, oh you know, explaining it meant star, like the callsign you got assigned. You might explain, oh no, 'Cere' is a dwarf planet.

"Oh, really?" He seemed very interested as your eyes lit up into conversation about something you seemed to like.

Upon your explanation, he thinks your callsign suited you very well. Cere: an exceptional astronomical body usually hidden to the human eye. The largest object in an asteroid belt in-between Mars and Jupiter; muddy and icy; sporting brines, carbonates and stunningly shiny cryovolcanoes. Incredibly underrated for a beautiful busy planet that screams potential life.

He still called you sternchen, ft. "Mein sternchen," that one time. He was aiming for a cutesy secret term of endearment, but 'asterisks' technically worked too. You were his 'yes, and'. Shit, was he really thinking like that? I mean, he wasn't totally shy to it. It's just most of his previous attractions were short-term and pretty baseless for a reason. Especially with co-workers that actually had an allegiance to who they were working for.

Which made it all the more natural for him to unblinkingly step over and in the pool of blood of the person you were both tasked to protect when he saw you go down. He shouted scolding concern as he rushed to help you out even though you weren't even half as hurt.

Or when you felt shit, to say the least. You were stationed together in Berlin for an unpredictably long wait for a high-priority target. A safehouse in the middle of plain sight with you guys on deck. Blend in as civillians, barely working, just…waiting to be called on. It felt like leave, except you were living with Krueger.

It was definitely a little stressful for him to be back in Germany. He didn't intially realize his unconscious unconventional coping mechanisms set you off too, until he did, and he was at your side if you ever needed something. Helping you wasn't a big deal as far as he was concerned; he didn't have the capacity for afflictive empathy to get particularly tired of it. He'd stare at you with a limited calculative look as he tried to think of what might make his (..work)partner a little better.

Oh, staring? It was a natural habit of his to unabashedly look right in the eyes of people he considered safe/close. Just outside he tried to keep his anonymity, but here he offered to also hide his face or something indoors whilst he checked himself for that habit. Wouldn't be anything new.

Neither was finding the right words to avoid misconception/upset; casually, calmly squashing any worries.

Or when he kept bouncing his leg after being in too long when he sat, and you met eyes whilst fidgeting yourself. Yeah, no-one needed to say it to know it was time to go out.

Just two solid, fit foreigners with inconsistent tan lines. Yeah, no pressure. Played it off as his American other-half visiting for the summer holiday, or something. Not that he at all minded. An older couple observing you when he used his nickname for you (it..just meant star, right?); when he put his hand on your back to guide you somewhere less dodgy; or when you both stood close like you liked him to inconspicuously mutter information. In one of those moments you thought he might be a bit too much of a natural at this.

But you couldn't exactly leave each-other; he spared the details but let you know the faces to look for. And when his description trailed off, he tried drawing instead. Uh, yeah, no offence, but you couldn't tell what that was. You tried instead for him, kind of like a police sketch artist. Regardless of whether you drew often or not, he'd walk a little closer in interest, hand on the back of your seat to look over your shoulder with an impressed noise. "You made them too handsome, sternchen. That-oh yeah, much better." He'd joke.

Art was a pretty good way to fill the time. Alongside Krueger teaching you a little German to apply it later- maybe at a till. If you wanted to buy paints or something, go crazy. Company money, right? Fashion was fun, too. Unsure if you'd ever get the opportunity again to have packed nice-nice clothes for a job. Unlike him; he was underdressed compared to you. Sometimes literally.

Whenever the sunlight beamed in through your little window at the right time of day, he'd lay in it like a cat, sleeveless/ shirtless if you were comfortable. Men. Which was of note since he couldn't exactly flash them outside, but aside from the few scars (a couple of which you remember how he got them.) he had some cool (..?) tattoos. Shame he couldn't get one from you. Not that he'd back out if you busted out the ol' stick and poke. But hey, plenty of empty space left for illustratory practice to bide the time?

Time seemed to go quicker. Krueger singing under his breath around the small flat-thing as he tried to occupy himself; laying next to you on the floor when you felt bad; routine window sunbathing; eagerly crafting an elaborate game with you via worryingly stacked things from around the place just to take aggressive turns with each-other making it break everywhere and fall. It was the human equivalent of two ping pong balls in a box. His stories being your podcast as you did art; him sitting still-ish for you and being amused by the cute bow he'd been awarded to his bicep (not that he could compare to your style); loosely giving his hands back to you behind his head so you could fidget with or hold them, whatever you want.

If you liked him back? He confidently didn't think it was just an act of care anymore from the way your gaze lingered on him- which he reciprocated. He'd speak back calmly and try to hide the twitch of a smile with a satisfied tilt back of his head.

He'd hold you like he would've done anyway if you needed him, with the added flair of lulling his head to rest against next to yours as he calmly talked your ear off before bed. Maybe as he lightly traced your cheek where his hand laid, if he felt braver.

Your shared enemies always seemed to go down harder, more violently. Other operators caught snarky comments.

You weren't quite sure how it'd all come to an official head, or not. But as far as you were concerned, with your head on his shoulder, it wasn't too bad to be assigned with Sebastian Krueger.

#cod matchup #cod #call of duty #cod x reader #sebastian krueger #cod krueger #krueger x reader #ive done priv keegs/anon 2k now krueger/anon 2k #holy crapoli #jamies next then gemini lady >:D #im nervouuuseeeee #keep readings broken omfg its fucking w my POST #64sshit

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plvtosun · 1 year

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Your OC is planning their wedding. Their phone is ringing off the hook and emails keep flooding their inbox. So many people are giving their opinion about what they should and shouldn't do. -How does your OC handle all of this attention? How much information do they absorb from those around them? -What are some of their coping mechanisms when things get too stressful? Would they work in this situation? -Can they rely on their partner for help and guidance? Do they provide the clarity your OC seeks?

finally finally finally getting to this bc i’m taking a break from drawing and this might help me flesh some stuff out for blanquita’s story down the line YAAA

- overwhelmed hasta la madre. nuh uh. awful. her friends have to help calm her down and tell her to chill, and at one point she straight up asks them to change her email password so she can’t check it. she has to wait until it all dies down to go through the messages one by one and sort out what she does and doesn’t agree with. any input from her parents and more “traditional” relatives is a no-go

- weighted blanket +/cuddles, alone time in a dark room, painting. blanca doesn’t really paint unless she’s really, really stressed because it’s such a freeform medium compared to drawing digitally or analog, but the randomness and chaos of picking up some brushes and a couple random paint colors and just going fucking crazy on a big ol canvas balances her brain out.

- ok toki god damn wartooth would be an absolute groomzilla and would totally tell everyone messaging her to shut the hell up and butt out. BUT on the flip side he’d be very loud about his opinions and probably wouldn’t budge on some things and they’d butt heads. but nothing a heated argument in english, spanish, norwegian, and some make-up fuckin’ won’t settle LMAO

#blanca tennebris #blanca tag🤍⛓️

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sleepybeanmal · 2 years

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AS PROMISED- Part 2: Rating TWST Boys 1-10 based on how my Mom’s much less toxic but equally chaotic side of The Family™️ would approve of them

I hope y’all are getting a kick out of these because this has been a really fun means of coping with familial trauma while ✨Absolutely Dunking™️✨ on my Dad and his side of the The Family™️. Enjoy! Maybe I’ll do the Obey Me Boys after TWST lmao

Heartslabyul

Riddle: 7/10- The Mother™️ would question how young he looks but really love how respectful and responsible he is. She would immediately start asking about his academic pursuits and trying to talk about books and philosophy and stuff. Absolutely would admire how structured and disciplined he keeps his life but would absolutely worry about how regimented and stiff it can seem at times. As far as The Maternal Family™️ goes, they’d be really confused by Riddle; respects and admires the work ethic and diligence, awed by his intelligence, but baffled and worried by his stiff formality. Idk if The Cousins™️ would really be able to let their hair down with him, but The Elder Auntie™️ and her husband would really like him as well as The Nan™️. The Mother™️ would feed this boy literally the best food and send him home with leftovers. Overall would fit in but I wouldn’t bring him to The Farm™️ where The Younger Auntie™️ and her family live. This boi would punt the rooster.

Trey: 100000000000000000000/10- He’s responsible? He cooks? He bakes? He’s a top-notch student?? WHERE’S THE RING, SLEEPY??? The Mother™️ would be practically begging this boi to move in within an hour of knowing him. She’d immediately start trading recipes and comparing notes about anything and everything food related(After the visit she would constantly be asking about him and his family and oooooh when can she meet them too??? SLEEPY PLZ I WANT ANSWERS I NEED TO PREP FOR THE WEDDINGBHRARHAUTSS). As far as The Maternal Family™️ goes, it’d be no different, they’d love him immediately. The Elder Auntie™️ would delight in asking him about his family and how he wound up being such a wonderful young man, The Younger Auntie™️ would absolutely ask him if he’d like to take home some fresh goat cheese and goat milk and eggs with him and then invite him to The Farm™️ for lunch tomorrow. The Cousins™️ would happily deal him into their card games, and The Nan™️ would probably try and drag him to church the next day and bless him into next week. Tbh he’d probably never escape, he’d have to just call his family and have them move in next door. That escalated REAL FUCKIN FAST.

Cater: 8/10- Sweet, sweet boi. After The Mother™️ and The Maternal Family™️ gets past how much he uses his phone and talks about social media, he’d fit right in. Since The Mother’s™️ food is literally the most beautiful and delicious food in all of existence, he’d have plenty to post and she would happily keep providing it. She would be so flattered and tickled pink by how eager this boi is to share her food; extra helpings for Mr. Diamond, absolutely. The Maternal Family™️ would ask him loads of questions about his family and love it even more if Cater takes them through his phone and shows them any pictures or videos of them and any of their fond memories and traditions they have. The Younger Auntie™️ would be wary of this boi’s phone but would happily invite him to The Farm™️ if he wanted to get some super cute and mega aesthetic pictures of the chickens, rooster, and goats. Especially the goats. The Elder Auntie™️ would respect Cater’s eye for aesthetics and ask him how he keeps up with trends so effortlessly. The Cousins™️ would get along so smoothly with Cater that they’d also probably also ask about his sisters and ask if they’d be interested in joining us for a Family Dinner™️ next time and a game(SEVERAL games) of cards.

Ace: 7/10- This boi only gets points docked because he sometimes forgets his manners and can be a little immature, but otherwise would also fit right into The Maternal Family™️ with some squeezing. He’s not as much of an intellectual as them but as such a happy and carefree and loyal individual, ultimately they’d all probably come to accept him with open arms and fond faces. The Nan™️ would probably bore Ace to tears but would only mean well in getting to know him. The Cousins™️ would probably have a blast with Ace in playing cards or getting up to some outdoor shenanigans. Idk what to tell you, he’d fit in pretty well.

Deuce: 10/10- He’s a Mama’s Boy, and The Mother™️ would immediately pick up on that and absolutely smother him with affection. If he offered to help set the table or clean the dishes or cook to be respectful, she’d be sent almost all the way to heaven. Extra helpings FOR SURE. His past wouldn’t bother The Maternal Family™️ because they’d see and have so much respect for how much effort he puts into being an upstanding young man. I’m sure both of The Aunties™️ would love to hear about his Mom and how they spend their time together, and The Uncles™️ would ask after what he wants to do with his ever-brightening future. The Cousins™️ would be fast friends with him for sure and immediately would consider him part of the family. The Nan™️ would very much approve as well and pat his cheek a lot. This boi would also absolutely be sent home with leftovers and an invite back with his Mother. The Maternal Family™️ would also absolutely start asking how serious the relationship is and not so subtly hint at making it down-the-aisle-official.

Savanaclaw

Leona: 9/10- This man canonically respects women because he’s from a Matriarchal Society, and thusly The Mother™️ would be fascinated by him and start asking so many questions with genuine and enthusiastic interest about the Sunset Savannah and its culture. If she had a heads up about him being a Lion Beastman, she’d be sure to prep the best meat available to her for his visit to make dinner as delectable as possible for a carnivore while still being a balanced meal. Leona would probably keep it as respectful as he would chill, and thusly would still be well appreciated by The Maternal Family™️. They’re used to me being little more than a zombie sometimes due to my own health issues so they wouldn’t take much issue if Leona seemed tired at the Family Dinner™️ table. As long as he doesn’t deliberately and clearly blow them off(I don’t believe he would at all because if he cared enough about his S/O to go meet his family, he’d put his best foot forward, especially if the family is mostly led by women like The Maternal Family™️). The fact that Leona is a Prince wouldn’t phase anybody outside of just sparking extra curiosity and questions. Tbh Leona probably wouldn’t want to go to The Farm™️ but that wouldn’t stop The Younger Auntie™️ from both extending an invitation as well as an offer to send as many fresh farm products and produce as possible back to the Sunset Savannah as a gift for him and his family. Now after hearing about Cheka, The Younger Auntie™️ would immediately offer to give him the most adorably homemade petting zoo experience of his life and let the lil lion chill with the goats and the chickens. The rooster is an asshole though. Keep Cheka away from the rooster. Anyways Leona would be well-loved by The Maternal Family™️ and sent home with leftovers, love, and an open invitation back anytime. The Cousins™️ especially, they’d love how incredible this man is at chess and his chill vibes. Idk what to tell y’all, they’d love him to bits even despite his laziness at times.

Ruggie: 9/10- The Maternal Family™️ RESPECTS. THAT. HUSTLE. But also would absolutely make sure that Ruggie would get sent home with piles upon piles upon piles of leftovers and fresh farm produce to feed his family and whoever else he would want to share it with. They would ask so many questions about his Grandmother and his community and laud him for how responsible and caring he is about them. The Mother™️ would find Ruggie to be absolutely adorable and like both his dinner and dessert plate high. The Younger Auntie™️ would absolutely invite this boi to The Farm™️. He would not be asked to help with any of the cooking or cleaning or household or farm stuff, he’d honestly be treated like a Prince in his own right, but if he ever did decide to just help out without being asked, The Maternal Family™️ would absolutely be in love. The Cousins™️ might be wary of him playing cards in case he tries to pull a fast one on them, but otherwise would get along swimmingly.

Jack: 10/10- Strong, respectful, responsible, diligent, determined, need I go on? The sheer volume of aggressively positive traits this boi has is so high that The Maternal Family™️ would be over the moon with him. It would take maybe less than ten minutes of talking with him for him to make a good enough first impression on them for them to welcome him into the family. Now, the tail-wagging might throw them for a loop but they’d get used to it and be unbothered by it in no time at all. The Mother™️ would be delighted not just with Jack’s intelligence, but also with how athletic he is. Does he go jogging? Perfect! Come join us(The Mother™️ and The Sibling™️) in the morning! Play sports? Tell us about it! What’s Magift? Sounds fun! The Cousins™️ would practically be BEGGING Jack to come play some sports outside after The Family Dinner™️. The Nan™️ would probably ask if she can pet him tbh but wouldn’t be bothered if he said no. She’d just move right on and start asking about his family and where he wants to invest his future. It’s the athleticism, the respect, and the all around intellect for them😤😤😤 They’d absolutely start asking about making it Down-The-Aisle official after meeting him(and of course, sending him home with mountains of leftovers and fresh produce).

Octavinelle

Azul: 8/10- The Maternal Family™️ would be intrigued at first, maybe a little wary because of how formal he is, but ultimately would come around by the end of a Family Dinner™️. The second the Mostro Lounge comes up, The Mother™️ would be fascinated and ask him all about how he came to essentially run an entire restaurant(Fish Mob notwithstanding) before even graduating. She’d probably ask what they serve there, who makes the food, what’s the vibe, etc. If pics come out, she would die from how cool it looks, and would absolutely want to come pay a visit. Tbh she’d probably also want to meet Floyd and Jade buuuuuut I’m not sure if that’d really go the way she’d think it would. Anyways! She’d definitely show off the most unhinged Baby Sleepy™️ pictures she can find if she catches wind of Azul having a difficult time in the past with his looks and sense of self(I was a weird bean too, it’d just be her way of trying to hype him up). Anyways! The Maternal Family™️ would also be similarly fascinated by Azul’s business ventures and how resourceful he is. The Nan™️ would be highly confused by the idea of an underwater lounge but, by the end of an inevitable unintentional business promotion from Azul(maybe the prospect of a free meal?), she’d be bursting at the seams to go visit with The Mother™️ for Parents Week at NRC. I think that, while Azul is incredibly charming and can lay it on when he needs to, he’s still just a little too formal to be invited to The Farm™️ immediately by The Younger Auntie™️, but would be eventually. The Cousins™️ will also be put off a little at first by him being a literal business boi, but will get past that easily after getting to know him. Just gotta give it some time and everybody will be a member of the Azul fan club.

Jade: 7/10- This boi is smooth, charming, and almost unnervingly perfect on the surface. He exudes ominous energy unintentionally, and definitely would put The Maternal Family™️ off at first. The Mother™️ would absolutely give him a warm reception though, despite the initial vibes, and start delving into the questions about him. When she learns about Mostro Lounge, her interest would be piqued, and like with Azul, she’d ask all sorts of questions about the menu and how it’s run and what Jade’s role is in the whole operation. The Maternal Family™️ would take some time to warm up to Jade completely, but what would tip The Cousins™️ and The Younger Auntie’s™️ family over the edge and into his fan club is learning about the Mountain Lovers’ Club. They literally live on the base of a mountain! If Jade wants to go explore the local mountain range(bonus hint: it’s featured in a very famous folk country song), then they’ll happily invite him to The Farm™️(he’d terrify the rooster into submission) and set him up for a nice hike with The Cousins™️ and The Younger Auntie™️. The Elder Auntie™️ would probably still be a little sus if Jade but would probably come around after The Nan™️ decides he’s a good lil lad. He really is a good boi when it’d come to his S/O so I fully believe that meeting their family would lead him to be the most genuine he’d probably get with other people, if not a little more schmoozy than normal to sweeten that first impression. The Mother™️ would probably send him home with leftovers for both him and Floyd so that his brother will feel welcome to join at the next Family Dinner™️(oh boy).

Floyd: 5/10- Oh boy. This boi is definitely out there for them. The Mother™️ would be very taken aback by Floyd’s behavior, but would do her best to be kind and accommodating. She’d certainly ask about his family, his interests, etc., but probably struggle to find some direction in the conversations with him. The Maternal Family™️ would probably have a similar issue in trying to get to know Floyd but would still treat him with kindness and respect despite their bewilderment and mild confusion. The Cousins™️ would probably get along with him the best, especially when they find out about him playing on the basketball team at NRC. The Elder Auntie™️, despite his laid-backness, would probably appreciate Floyd’s eye for style and appreciation of fashion. It’d definitely be a mixed bag of opinions by the end of the Family Dinner™️ but ultimately, regardless of what The Maternal Family™️ would think of him themselves, they’d approve of him as long as he treated his S/O well and made them happy.

Scarabia

Kalim: Literal Sunshine/10- Because this boi is literally sunshine incarnate and will spoil anyone and everyone he befriends in the general vicinity, The Mother™️ will absolutely just wrap this lil boi in affection and care and stuff his tummy full of the best food on that side of the Mississippi. Kalim would get hugs just as warm and tight as he’d give them, a belly full of food with plenty of leftovers for him, his family, and even Jamil! If Jamil were to accompany Kalim for his first meeting with The Maternal Family™️, he’d be treated with just as much kindness and camaraderie as Kalim, and absolutely sent home with his own bounty of leftovers for his family as well. The Aunties™️ would absolutely eat Kalim up though, and he would absolutely be immediately invited to The Farm™️ for a tour and the same homemade petting zoo that The Younger Auntie™️ would offer Cheka in Leona’s scenario. This boi would love the goats, literally would annihilate the world with how cute it’d be to watch him tour the farm and pet the goats. Anyways, the Family Dinner™️ introducing Kalim to the entire family would be such a smashing success that The Maternal Family™️ would already start planning a party to host the Al-Asims and start planning the wedding. Sleepy what’s your dress size? No, you’re not gonna make it yourself, hush.

Jamil: 9001/10- Honestly just as good of a fit as Kalim. While he’s reserved and plays his cards close to the chest, I fully believe that Jamil would do his best to be more open when meeting his S/O’s family for the first time, and thusly would make a very good impression on The Maternal Family™️. The Mother™️ would dote on this man after learning how respectful and responsible he is on top of being one of the hardest working people at NRC. She would give him literally the best meal in her power to muster, and ask all about his hobbies and interests, and absolutely avoid asking about anything Kalim-related after learning that it’s basically what he has to do for his job because of his family’s history with the Al-Asims. He plays basketball? Awesome! He should go shoot some hoops with The Cousins™️ and The Sibling™️ after dinner! He breakdances? W O W!! Show us some videos please! The Maternal Family™️ would literally be so impressed by how multitalented and responsible Jamil is, and even moreso if they learn how cunning and strategic he is when he inevitably gets roped into playing cards, chess, mancala, or even Stratego! There would also be an open invitation to The Farm™️, and if Jamil isn’t interested in seeing the animals, that’s ok! The Younger Auntie™️ would be happy to have another Family Dinner™️ at her house this time where she cooks instead of The Mother™️! Regardless, Jamil would be sent home(reluctantly, The Maternal Family™️ absolutely wants to have him move in) with leftovers and fresh produce to last him at least several more days if not a full week. When is he coming back, Sleepy? Have you talked about….you know?! *Wiggles ring finger expectantly* He’s such a nice boy….

Pomefiore

Vil: 9/10- Vil would like The Maternal Family™️, and they would like Vil. The Mother™️ would be mindful of his strict diet upon request if he joined them for a Family Dinner™️ and would absolutely offer to pack up and send him home with only the most wholesome leftovers for later in the week. The Mother™️ is such a master of the culinary arts that I’m confident that she’d absolutely be able to find a dessert to fit well enough into Vil’s strict diet to eat on a non-cheat day, but would happily forego that course of the meal upon request. She’s a big health nut too so absolutely would respect and accommodate Vil as much as possible. If he’d be open to spilling some of his secrets, she’d probably like to trade recipes with him too for health foods and wholesome snacks! The Younger Auntie™️ would absolutely do so as well, and would make sure that, if Vil doesn’t take home any of The Mother’s™️ leftovers, he at least has a bag full of fresh and wholesome produce to bring back home with him! The invite to The Farm™️ is probably not one Vil would take her up on but she wouldn’t be that offended. As far as The Elder Auntie™️ goes, she’d be so dazzled by his work and his celebrity status and probably ask how he manages to stay so put together and well balanced considering all of the pressure he’s under to be so perfect all of the time. The Nan™️ would probably just be vibin’ on the side and appreciating how Vil clearly puts a lot of care and consideration into his looks and public image as well as his health. She’d probably try to convince him to take some of her special sweet bread home and just slip it into his bag when he’s not looking if he politely declines. Anyways everybody would really like Vil, even The Cousins™️, and the only thing that’d be at all worrying for them is just that dating celebrities can be really difficult when said celebrity has thousands of fans that might lash out on social media out of jealousy. That’s not Vil’s fault though, so The Maternal Family™️ would be a-okay with this absolute S-Tier catch.

Rook: Literally Cannot Even/10- For reference, The Maternal Family™️ has very strong French and German heritage and thusly will be floored that this man is fluent in one of those languages. And that’s only the FIRST thing about him that would impress their socks off. Because of this man’s solar-level-flair(yes, I know a flare is different from flair, it’s a PUN😤) for the dramatic, I have no doubts in my mind that he would greet The Mother™️ with a full bow and a flourish followed by a kiss on the back of her hand after kneeling before her. This man doesn’t just drink that respecc wamen juice, he feckin CHUGS it. Man’s gonna worship the woman who birthed his S/O and then of course the woman who birthed the woman who birthed his S/O; this will earn him ALL THE SON-IN-LAW-TO-BE POINTS. He will be fed a veritable king’s feast and then treated to an old and one of our most special family recipes for dessert(I can’t tell you what it is though😉). The Maternal Family™️ would absolutely hang onto every word that leaves this man’s mouth when he’s telling a story or a joke because of how much of a natural entertainer he is(and incredibly easy on the eyes). It wouldn’t take long at all for everyone to be head over heels for Mr. Hunt; The Younger Auntie™️ would absolutely invite Rook to The Farm™️ on the condition that he doesn’t hunt the goat or the chickens(mcfrick the rooster lol), to which I’m sure he would happily accept. By the end of the Family Dinner™️ everyone would be so showered in compliments and praise that Rook would barely escape without being convinced to spend the night in the guest room and stay for a nice brunch in the morning. His S/O would have to literally drag him out to get him home at a decent hour.

Epel: 7/10- This boi is probably the most like everyone in The Maternal Family™️ and would fit in the most seamlessly. The Mother™️ would have to resist the urge to calm him cute and adorable and probably would fill the hole that that’d leave by asking Epel about his family, where he comes from, and his family’s business! Apples?? No way! Our family makes fresh applebutter in the Fall! You’ll join us next time, right? Bring your Granny! The Nan™️ would abso-feckin-lutely love Epel and how spunky he is; by the end of the visit, she’d be determined to find a new friend in Meemaw Felmier. Epel seems like he’d really enjoy The Farm™️, so the Younger Auntie would offer the invite as the visit is winding down and while loading him up with goat cheese and goat milk and veggies to bring back to Chez Felmier for his family. The Cousins™️ would definitely pal around with Epel and warm up to him the fastest out of everybody since he can probably relate the most to them. Altogether Epel would fit in pretty well, but because he’s still a lad, The Maternal Family™️ would still be a bit wary until he grows a little more.

Ignihyde

Idia: 5/10- Okay, so here’s the thing; The Maternal Family™️ is warm and very inviting and will do their very best to make people that come and spend time with them feel as welcome and at home as possible. However- it’s up to the guests to meet them in the middle, and with Idia struggling so fiercely with social anxiety and also not being the most socially adept regardless, I think both The Mother™️ and The Maternal Family™️ might be a little awkward in figuring out how to best settle into this relationship. They’d certainly do their best and get to a comfortable place with him eventually, knowing that he makes his S/O as happy and cozy as he can, but the interim would be a bit crunchy. Idia probably wouldn’t have much access to junk food and easy snacks while visiting The Mother™️ but she would absolutely feed him like one of her own. The Aunties™️ both might be wary, but due ti his affinity with all things otaku, The Cousins™️ and The Sibling™️ would get along with Idia easily after breaking the ice. All in all the initial visit would be a bit awkward, but I’m certain with time they’d come to treat him like any other family member.

Ortho: Literal Child/10. Nothing about this would be in a boyfriend way, he’d probably accompany Idia on the “meet the family” visit. The Maternal Family™️ would love him though, they’d think he’s positively adorable. His chipper attitude coupled with his incredibly earnest and sincere curiosity about things. Ortho would be included in literally everything. He is a good boy and The Maternal Family™️ would commit whole crimes for him. Frick.

Diasomnia

Malleus: Happily Ever After/10- Okay, so because he’s THE Heir to the throne, he’d probably have to bring along his retainers for security buuuuut I can guarantee that even Sebek would be more than satisfied with how honored and welcomed his Waka-sama would be into the Den of the Mother™️. Regardless of his Royal Status, he’d still get literally the biggest hug from the smallest woman and sat down for the best meal she can muster(which I guarantee is Michelin level good). Because Malleus is such a gentle and curious soul and was trained to be the very picture of impeccable manners and diplomacy, I’m sure he’d probably be very interested in not only the meal The Mother™️ would prepare, but also all the little knickknacks around her house, and she would be SO happy to be able to tell him about anything and everything she has knowledge on. The Maternal Family™️ would absolutely equal and mirror Malleus’s curiosity about the human world with their own regarding the Valley of Thorns. They might be a little nervous at first to ask questions, but Lilia would abso-fucking-lutely break that ice for both parties in no time. The Nan™️ would be so infatuated with Malleus by the end of their first conversation precisely because of his gentility and curiosity; she’d find his lack of knowledge of human society as the most adorable novelty. The Elder Auntie™️ would be very impressed by his title but also certainly would get a kick out of his special interest in Gargoyles and probably direct him to The Elder Uncle™️, who was an architect before he retired, and The Sibling™️, who went to college to study world history and also has a fascination with architecture. Now, this would make for great conversation up and until The Farm™️ gets brought up. This would probably be as much a novelty for Malleus as it would be an exciting field trip in Lilia’s eyes, who will probably insist that they all go visit the following day. Needless to say that The Younger Auntie™️ will absolutely be sending Malleus home with loads of her fresh farm products to share with his family and for Lilia to use in his “cooking”. All in all, the Family Dinner™️ would be a cozy, warm, and exciting experience for everyone in attendance and especially for Malleus. The highlight of the meal would undoubtedly be the dessert options he’d have available to him, reason being that The Mother™️ owns one of those ball thingys that makes homemade ice cream when it’s tossed around for a while. Between the prospect of homemade ice cream and the game of throwing and rolling around The Ball™️ with The Cousins™️, Malleus(so long as he doesn’t throw it so hard that he breaks it or any of the family) would be having so much fun despite Sebek screeching about “making Lord Malleus do manual labor”. Of course once the ice cream is ready, The Mother™️ would make sure that our favorite fae Prince gets as many toppings on top as he pleases, and finds his thinly veiled giddiness to be the most precious thing in the whole world. Rather than sending him home with leftovers, she’d make sure that Malleus understood that he’s a.) welcome back literally anytime with a heads up, and b.) got an invitation by extension for his family and especially his Grandmother, who The Maternal Family™️ will absolutely bend over backwards for to impress. They’d literally be begging ol’ Sleepy for details about the relationship afterwards, constantly asking after Malleus, sending well wishes and regards to his family(The Younger Auntie™️ would probably work out some means of getting fresh goat milk and goat cheese and chèvre to the castle for Grandma Draconia monthly), and dropping incredibly not-so-subtle hints about wanting a wedding soon. They’d be so proud and so happy that he’d be able to provide total stability and security for his S/O in pretty much every way imaginable. It’s no wonder he’d probably be their perfect pick out of everybody here.

Lilia: 10/10- It would not be hard at all for the Diasomnia Dad to charm the socks off of The Maternal Family™️. Between exchanging his very eccentric recipes with The Mother™️, to listening with fascination to The Younger Auntie™️ telling him all about The Farm™️, to just turning The Nan™️ into a giggly, giddy mess with how incredibly charming this boi is when he really starts laying it on, to probably absolutely handing The Cousins’™️ asses to them on the finest silver platters in most video games, The Maternal Family™️ would be absolutely in love with Lilia as much as he would be in love with his S/O. The Mother™️ probably wouldn’t let him into the kitchen for obvious reasons after hearing about his recipes, but she’d absolutely spoil him rotten with her incredible meals. She’d probably attempt to get him in for another family visit every week after that first Family Dinner™️ because he’s such a bright and entertaining presence in any room he’s in. So, Sleepy…..I know he’s busy with his….kids…?….but when are we gonna get to see that lovely Mr. Vanrouge again? How’s that ring finger lookin’?

Sebek: 6.5/10- Sebek’s stiff formality would absolutely throw everyone in The Maternal Family™️ off at first, as well as his initial ostensible disgust with humans, but if he loves his S/O enough to go and meet their family, I think he’d truly do his best to be respectful. Sure, The Maternal Family™️ would do their best to hold conversations and get to know him, but he’d still probably find a way back to talking about his Wakasama and his homeland among other things, but he’d still probably still exhibit enough manners to make a decent impression. The Mother’s Food™️ is absolutely incredible so I fully believe it can charm anyone, Sebek included, and I’m sure that he’d probably be able to muster up his compliments after getting past his initial shock. I’m not sure how The Aunties™️ and The Nan™️ would feel after just one visit(especially since Sebek probably would not show much interest in The Farm™️ or any human hobbies), but if both he and they got to know each other better, they’d come to accept him with some time. He’s GOTTA chill out though.

Silver: 9/10: Mans is a literal Disney Princess, just mega sleepy; he’d absolutely do his best to stay awake to meet his S/O’s family though! Lucky for him, The Maternal Family™️ is used to my own chronic fatigue issues so they’d absolutely make room for him mid-visit if he really needed to take a nap. Otherwise, they would love to get to know him! This chivalrous yet laid-back personality would fit right in with the more chill members of The Maternal Family™️, The Mother™️ included. Everybody would love to ask and hear about Silver’s experience growing up as a human in a fae society, and then subsequently start asking him what human experiences he hasn’t tried yet and if he’d like to go on a family outing to go do them. The Cousins™️ especially would want to get to know Silver so that if he has missed out on some aspects of the human experience thus far, they can become his adventure buddies. Regardless, everyone, including The Nan™️, would have no problem accepting Silver into the family right away. The Mother™️ would send him home with plenty of leftovers(much to Lilia’s chagrin and Diasomnia’s delight) and an invitation to bring his family with him next time! They’ll have important things to discuss.👀

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occasionally I think that I’m too cold to relate to people bc I have a soft exterior but a hard interior and I tend to think that that pushes me toward sociopathic tendencies. but I still think overall the traditional black upbringing I had more or less prepared me for the world. and I’m grateful for that even if I think deep down I’m a terrible person lmao. being hit is something that definitely made me worse though like people really shouldn’t hit kids. but I always know that every day I have to be the one to get up and motivate myself bc no one else will do that. and I have to decide to give my life meaning and understand that I have to live with my choices.

and I realise that I do have trouble with sensitive people a lot and I think it’s bc I grew up around emotionally stupid adults so I can’t cope with real sensitivity from others. and it comes off as a lack of resilience from them even though it’s not. at least not always. challenges are important and can be healthy bc we all need obstacles but sometimes I guess I get upset when people don’t step up bc it reads as a lack of self-responsibility. I am not what I am bc I’m “naturally” these things. No. I’ve worked to become someone that’s dependable and relatable and friendly and I find all of those things to be hard but invaluable. so it looks like…weakness when others can’t do this or act like it’s in born ability and not skills that you acquire through life. and it’s mean for me to see it as weakness and I try and work on that bc I want to see people in a softer light. I think from childhood though it’s always going to be a habit of harsh judgment bc I am naturally harsh and my environment reaffirmed that by suffocating the emotions out of me. BUT I don’t have to react in a way that shows that I think people are weak bc I want to still be a kind person bc I know what it’s like to grow up without consistent kindness. it’s a lot to be an adult and to seek out responsibility and to try and be a decent person and I wish more people weren’t afraid of those things. bc this is solipsistic but I always think if I can do it, others can too. I don’t find it very easy to be personable or even compassionate. I suffer from empathy problems and emotional control. but I value the idea of showing up in the world as a person who does not intend to harm others and wants to at least try to help people. and I want to maintain self-responsibility and determination bc I do want to grow up.

I admit whatever toughness I went through does make me a repressed freak but it’s never something that will ultimately stop me from doing what I want bc I have too much energy and ambition to just do nothing and I like that about me. it’s one of the few things that I was probably born with that I can appreciate. nearly everything else I have to practice to get right.

#my deeply conservative aunt and I always agree on self-responsibility and consequences of actions lol but she’s a lot less empathetic #i think on that though and how I carry certain ideas about people and what I want to do as I’m older #I’m allowed to think whatever but it matters how I show up and behave #I worry that my socially conservative upbringing bleeds into things without my knowing #and I tend to go into thought spirals and self-assessments

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This Anon is never revealing their identity MWAHAHAHA!

I was thinking, in what scenario would Justice be able to waltz with an employee? Ship's too small, need to be alert at all times outside of it, as even an eyeless dog can appear fairly early. But wait... The Company moon!

Justice is certain to make for an amazing day off, after helping sell the scrap! Oh hey, is that a discounted boom box? It may not be the music of its taste, but it can dance however it likes, taking an employee for a literal spin. The others may laugh in amusement, but when the first employee decides to rest—Justice still energetic as ever—another agrees to take their place.

Lmao, Justice thinking it accidentally broke your sona's bones, seeing their limbs bend backwards for a moment. It does realise he doesn't have any, still confused, but relieved.

Be Justice's preferred time to clean the ship's interior from all that foreign moon dust that accumulated, as the employees can wait outside safely as it's busy. It's rather cramped in that ship, so it needs all the space. Occasionally taking a break to non-verbally scold an employee for toying with an extension ladder. Especially if they risked hurting whoever Justice perceives as its favourite.

I have a headcanon that Justice always has a complete deck of traditional playing cards on it. Or, as one employee put it, those "old people UNO cards".

(I'm done with this tangent, but now I must digress into another scenario, because I love Justice that much.)

If an employee is ever seen by an enemy nutcracker, Justice has a strange way with dealing with the situation. Standing in front of the employee, Justice makes some unknown gestures towards the other, who appears to understand.

Justice insists the employee stands still, as both nutcrackers turn their backs to each other and slowly take steps forward. With their weapons at the ready, they are about to have a duel. Obviously, Justice wins because of the magic power of friendship and the experience it gained from going outside to touch grass.

(I can't shut up. I can't shut up. I can't shut up.)

One thing I find interesting about it is it having a previous master/masters. Even if the bulk of Justice's mannerisms remain the same, I imagine it would be influenced by the experiences with OG master.

Imagine the original had a food allergy, so an employee has to explain that they don't have that same allergy, so may they please have that back?

Maybe the original had a tight schedule, needing an ample amount of sleep each night, or had children they needed help putting to bed. Justice would then insist the employees be in bed at a certain time. If it wasn't for the demanding work, needing the best rest they can get, it probably would've come across as overbearing.

And maybe the original had a condition, needing a consistent medication schedule, explaining why Justice is taking one of the containers of tic-tacs and handing one out to everyone each morning and night.

THE ask is already long enough so for the sake of not making a colour of the sky post I'm gonna put everything under a spoiler::: LONG LORE POST IG

FIRST OFF, I CAN'T BELIVE SOMEONE LIKED MY OC THIS MUCH IM IN SHAMBLES ANON,,,,,,, THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED TO ME AND IM LIKE ???¿¿¿¿ WHAT DO I DO, WHAT, THIS IS TOO MUCH LOVE /pos /pos /pos

I'm going to break things into ideas because I HAVE TOO MANY:

In the drawing I made of Justice and the employee "dancing" (kinda one sided because if a Nutcracker just grabbed me and started twirling me around like that I would be scared shitless at first), I thought about like a first encounter in the mansion;; I was sadly too lazy to draw a bg for the scene but, I really like your ideas about Justice tagging along with some crew!!! It's honestly something I want to explore in more detail, but I wouldn't know how to put it in words, so I'm just noting down all your ideas on a notepad for later use JHADSHSDAHJ

^^ ALSO how would Justice cope with the fact that Socket is a slime like,,, it'll just have to learn to love hygros like it or not (I didn't think of Socket being in the same crew but honestly ?? It might happen now I just need more characters to fit the three other free spaces :3) I can just imagine how wholesome and whimsical the whole time in Gordion before the next mission would be,, Justice trying to up everyone's mood making edible meals out of the company rations, cleaning/tidying up the place and looking over at its crewmates from the distance as they busy themselves planning the next trip,,, just with a glint in its eye

Also yess!!! Even if years have passed, Justice would never forget its upbringing. I imagine there are rituals that have still stuck with it, for example tea time at an exact hour every day, or certain measures it has to follow while doing its chores...

I WONDER HOW IT FITS INTO THE SHIP like do you think the crew made it an special corner,,, having to rearrange their furniture just to fit their new friend.... WOULD THE COMPANY DO SOMETHING?? I guess they don't care as long as they meet the quota now that I think about it...

Oughhghghg and the way you described the duel,, I really don't want to know what would happen if Justice fails plesase DOn't speak to me /j

I think I covered everything but also consider your headcanons granted because Justice would definetely have a deck of cards in its hat.............. I MAY BE FORGETTING SOMETHING BUT YOU CAN COME BACK AND SCOLD ME IF I DID

#ask #my guys #UMMMM ANON #grabs your hands and spins you around #You're the only thing keeping me sane but you also make me rabid #Now I want to write a story with justice because yes #it may never happen or it may just be hidden from the public evil stare #me when my followers dont know my ao3 account

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dizzyiscrocodile · 2 years

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Cueently in love wiyh this lego man. look ag the art. HAH TOUVE BEEN TRICKED INTO READING MY HEADCANNONS lmao i havent even finished this show?

-Pan -He / Him / ey / em -Polyamorous -He’a dating MK and Mei and they all live together, Mei is bi and MK is gay. Mei and MK might be queer platonic partners? unsure. news to come. point is theyre both dating this lil walmart zuko

He’s seriously coping with family issues, and still struggles to have a healthy relationship with his father.

He was trained as a wepond and soldier to help bring back his demon bull father. he never wanted to fight, he was kinda desperate to prove his inventiveness and sciency/mathy talent could also help dad, but rlly that didnt work out.

He’s kind of ashamed of his demonic heritage, struggling with an identity crisis about if hes a “ good ” or ” bad ” guy and what his demon side has to do with this

He works out, like, a lot, to get out his pent up anger. alot of it is stuff he burried down from his childhood, being molded into a person he didn’t want to be, or just the pressure of livimg up to his legacy. hes really trying to work on it; he has a nice therapist now. He likes boxing when working out

oh, and MK has a therapist too thank the lawrd man has stress issues

Anxiety / autism becuase hes autistic and i said so . the whole cast is autostic they all are YIPEEEEE

he likes electro (idk he gives me mysterysculls fan vibes) , folkpunk and of course traditional cultural music.

He calls MK ”noodles” affectionately now. MK has a lot of nicknames for redson. ex: Chilipepper, Firecracker, ect

he gets really freaked out when in a VR headset lmao

he wears glasses becuase of lught sensory issues and not becus he has vision issues.

Lmao thats it. actually— if you have any,,,, spicynoodle or dragonfruit fanfic recs? 👀 -Angst encouraged. May even draw u if you give me a few solid ones

#monkie kid #lego monkie kid #lego monkie kid fanfic #lmk fanart #Lmk #Redson #lmk red son #red son #monkie kid red son #lmk headcanon #Lmk redson #monkie kid redson

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lumeha · 2 years

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1, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 15, 16, 17, 23.

I had to wait until I was back home to answer this, but Anon....... please enjoy all these FE3H answers ! :D

1 - Favourite house ?

The Church

The Blue Lions ! Both from first house bias and them being, all around, the house I find the most coherent story-wise (helped by have 5 of them directly tied before they came to the academy), and general some of my faves

I'm biased but honestly, having my favourite house leader, the og ship I shipped and consider to be one of my favourite despite some Opinions TM on how it's done most of the time ('s fraldarddyd. I'm still low key a sucker for them.), Gilbert being part of their storyline (look I Love Him), and... well, yes. Them being the first house I picked. Thanks to Dimitri's eyepatch. Well. They win my heart.

4 - Favourite Golden Deer

Lorenz. Which. Still can't believe I went through the "I hate him" phase before hitting his support with Leonie and realise that, actually, he's a fantastic character. I love this guy. He's so good. Him and his roses. His glow up. His poetry. His medkit. Love that dude

5 - Favourite Black Eagle

Linhardt. Sleepy head............. I love this sleepy scholar. While I didn't S-Support him in my first playthrough (coughIdidGilbertfirstcough), he has a lot of fun supports, a design I really like, and some pretty fun monastery dialogue.

6 - Favourite Blue Lion

I'll have to give it to Felix, that little bastard man has got me good. Dimitri is just very, very hot on his heels, but Felix is the one that surprised me. I genuinely didn't expect to love him as much as I do when I first played. While I love assholes with bad social skills, I didn't quite expect it from Felix at first ? I expected a more ? traditional swordsman from FE ? ... But no. I think he'd fit in with the asshole snipers, which are often some of my faves.

7 - Favourite Ashen Wolf

Constance ! Gods, I love her. She's so fun. She also has a very neat design, I quite love the purple under hair colour ? it's so good ? and while I don't think she fits the arcana of her crest... I truly do appreciate that she is the Hierophant character. It's excellent. Not really a good pick to represent it, but fun nonetheless

8 - Favourite house leader

Already answered, but it's Dimitri

9 - Favourite faculty member

... well.. it is her... Dragon Archbishop....... Rhea. My beloved. I could write paragraphs on why I love her, despite hating her at first. She's a fantastic character.

(After her it's Gilbert, and after Gilbert it's Catherine, just to give an idea. I have a Faerghus bias even when I don't especially try to have one lmao T-T)

15 - Favourite support conversation

HHHH. That's a hard one. But I'll have to elect the whole Gilbert - Dimitri support line. It is an excellent exploration of both characters issues, it reveals a lot about both of their (pretty abysmal) mental state and health, and while it doesn't conclude neatly, and I didn't expect it to, it still explores everything it needs to from start to finish. Excellent work.

But shout out to Catherine and Ashe support line, because it's *also* a fantastic one

16 - What class would you be if you went to Garreg Mach ?

Fun fact, I once ran a twitter poll with this question. People surprisingly answered Holy Knight (... the answers were like. Holy Knight, Dark Bishop, Bishop, and I forgot the last class)

But I personally think I'd be a Bishop. Comfy clothes. And, lmao, more seriously, the faith oriented class, and healing / support oriented class fits me well.

17 - Character you relate to ?

Felix regarding some of his communication / anger / lashing out issues, his relationship with his father ; and a bit Gilbert, regarding his godawful coping mechanisms and the guilt spirals. Like, those were written in a way I just... kinda looked at the screen like "oh, okay, I know that" ahah t-t

I always felt like I should relate to Linhardt, but... hm. I think, in his way, he's too harsh / blunt, so while a lot of his actions are, well, a mood, I don't really end up relating to him. I always found that a little surprising, but, hey.

23 - Favourite class ?

Toss up between sniper (excellent design AND excellent class use, but mostly it's because of the design, I'm weak, it's such a good design !!) and gremory (again, excellent design, and I just enjoy the way the class plays as a sorta sage like class)

I also have a soft spot for holy knight lmao no matter how bad it is, I just think it's a neat class :((

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gamerwoo · 4 years

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[Tales from the Pack] Hansol: Fire and Ice (Part Four)

Characters: Hansol x female reader

Genre/warnings: werewolf au, fantasy, angst, a little bit of fluff, lots of mentions of death

Word count: 2,962

Summary: You’ve always been one to let your emotions get the best of you – your power reflects that – and you’ve never been good at expressing them. That’s why you always thought you’d be awful with a mate, but you never thought things would be this awful.

a/n: things in bold are in english. also as y’all already know, kyung is half black so i included that bit in this part since the series is from her pov. i try to mostly avoid being that specific in reader inserts but oh well lmao

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After waking up but before the funeral, the first thing that was brought to your attention were the injuries. Jooyeon’s neck was bruised and sore – Seungcheol couldn’t help but growl whenever he really stared at it, which was often because he couldn’t stop thinking about how someone tried to strangle his mate – most of the mates and wolves had cuts and scrapes, those in town had silver bullet wounds that had to heal, and there was Hansol with silver burned into his shoulders and arms. However, Hansol never once complained about the pain when he was with you. He’d grunt and whimper softly when he moved or did things or his clothes brushed against it, but he mostly kept his discomfort to himself.

The first thing you tried was Joshua’s healing, which he was already overexerting -- and soon, he was unable to use it at all. He was trying to quickly heal everybody’s silver injuries, but Hansol’s was the biggest one, and it was deeper than the others. There were faint grey veins in his back when he took off his shirt, and you could only imagine what it must’ve felt like. But you chose to try to ignore the strong instinct to stay beside your mate. Instead, you tried to help your pack and their mates with coping.

“Where’s Rin?” you asked Jinyoung as you entered the kitchen.

“She’s been hiding ever since the night we came home,” he replied, sipping from a mug of coffee. “I saw her run outside that night, but then she went invisible. I haven’t seen her since.”

You frowned. Other than Jiung, you were closest with Rin and Chanseong. With Chanseong gone and Rin hiding – you could sniff her out, but you didn’t want to blow her cover and upset her – you felt even more alone. Your inner wolf yearned to go back to Hansol and at least watch as Joshua tried to heal him, but you ignored that feeling yet again.

“I guess I’ll…find something else to do,” you shrugged.

Jinyoung sighed, setting his mug on the counter and putting a hand on your shoulder as you turned to go, “_____, you can’t keep doing this.”

“Doing what?”

“You’re just trying to distract yourself from Hansol.”

“No,” you snapped, scowling at the younger wolf, “I’m trying to be a good alpha.”

Jinyoung’s face fell, his grip loosening, “_____, I know you must feel it, too…”

“No, it’ll go away,” you stated surely. “I’m the alpha, so I’m staying here and acting like it. I’m not letting my pack down.”

“You’re not letting anybody down, _____. You’re being too hard on yourself. And you can’t say that you’d be letting down Jiung because we both know – we all know – that he would want you to go easier on yourself, too.”

“Shut up!” you snapped, pulling away from Jinyoung and staring at the floor. You took deep breaths as you felt your temper flaring up, the skin of your knuckles starting to spark. The last thing you wanted was to set the kitchen on fire. “Just…let me do what I need to, okay? This is how I want to do things.”

You heard Rin’s voice, but you didn’t see her, “It’s how she wants to cope.”

She appeared beside Jinyoung at the counter, though she shrunk behind him like she was hiding from somebody.

Jinyoung glanced over at her before looking back at you, “What did she say?”

Rika walked into the kitchen, an empty syringe in one hand, and her hands clad in gloves, “She says it’s how _____ chooses to cope. Personally, I agree. _____ is our alpha now and she should decide what she wants to do. We can’t baby her like Jiung did.”

“You can’t seriously believe that–”

“Jinyoung,” Rika barked, tossing the syringe in the garbage. “not now.”

“How’s Hansol?” Rin wondered quietly.

Rika sighed, wiping sweat from her forehead with the back of her arm, “Nothing’s working. I recommended a doctor in the town near their new house, and he said he’ll think about it.”

“Oh, Minjee?” you asked, ignoring the fact that the two girls were speaking English to each other. “She did well with Baekhan that one time.”

“And she’s affordable for the wolves who had a harder time blending in,” Rika chuckled. “I think she’ll be able to be of the best assistance for them if even Joshua’s powers aren’t healing Hansol.”

While Rika had to repeat what she had said to Rin in English, you went to walk out of the kitchen in search of something else to keep your brain busy since now all you could think of was Hansol’s injuries. However, Jinyoung stopped you once again.

“This isn’t over, _____,” he told you. “Their pack leaves tomorrow, and you’ll have to decide. We’re having a pack meeting tonight to discuss this.”

“Whatever,” you grumbled before shrugging him off and leaving the kitchen.

Seungcheol’s pack stayed for two days. Two days of preparations for a ceremony that would serve as a funeral for the fallen alpha. Two days of Hansol whimpering in pain whenever anybody touched his shoulders or the back of his arms. Two whole days of Joshua doing his best to heal everybody until he physically couldn’t use his power anymore. Two days of Soonyoung sniffing around your house, which you thought was weird, but it at least lessened the tension seeing his weird behavior.

The funeral was exactly what they expected, but they found out it was a funeral for two. You were the only one who knew that Chanseong had left, but you were too out of it to do anything about it at the time. When did manage to break the news to the pack, they seemed upset but not surprised. Nobody was surprised that Chanseong would do something like that since Jiung was dead. Outside of the pack, Chanseong had no other family.

Since there were no bodies to bury, memorials were created in the backyard. On wooden crosses that your pack had made, their names were engraved into them before they were put side-by-side in the dirt. Bang Jiung and Lee Chanseong – an alpha and his mate.

You were at least thankful that Seungcheol’s pack attended and listened attentively to what your pack had to say about your brother. You could feel eyes on you most of the time, though you assumed they were afraid that you would lose your cool like you had before. However, you just stared at the ground, dressed in all black like the rest of your pack, and said nothing.

Seungcheol’s pack also noticed that Rin was still missing -- well, she was there because the wolves could smell her, but she stayed invisible the whole time -- and everyone noticed that Hansol stood farthest away from the group. They figured Hansol wanted to still be here to pay his respects, but stood farther away since he was apparently the cause of all this in your eyes and in his own.

Once it was over, the three alphas ushered their own pack inside so that way Your pack could have some time alone to do whatever you needed to do. Suvi had turned to look at your pack right before entering the house and noticed Rin was suddenly there.

After the funeral, you still didn’t feel different -- you thought you might after waking up, too, but you didn’t. You weren’t sure if you’d even feel different after becoming the new alpha, but you thought maybe it would make you feel at least a little bit stronger or a little more sure of yourself. Instead, you just felt as broken as you did before. Nothing had changed.

You did feel something – an instinct that you already knew what it was – but you shoved that instinct down and tried to live up to the alpha you knew your brother would want you to be. Maybe if you really acted the part, you’d feel it – everyone would. At least, that’s all you could hope for.

Since you’d missed seeing Eunjin, you spent most of your time sitting beside her. Unlike the other mated couples, her and Seungkwan weren’t all over each other. They didn’t bother asking you about any of your problems, and you enjoyed listening to them talk about anything -- from things Eunjin was hearing, to Seungkwan just telling her old stories of the pack.

As they spoke about their different traditions from their home countries, you spoke up about one thing in particular, “That is something I never understood…”

“What?” Seungkwan asked, his hand wrapped around Eunjin’s tiny one.

“When Koreans marry, nobody takes the other’s surname,” you clarified, looking between the couple. “America’s the same way as Eunjin’s home country where if you and Eunjin got married, Eunjin would become Boo Eunjin. Then again, I guess getting married isn’t something werewolves do either, huh?”

“We are,” Yeji suddenly interjected, listening to the conversation.

“What?” Jihoon asked, being taken off guard by the suddenly remark by his mate, and making the others in the room chuckle.

You even cracked a small smile.

“We’re getting married,” she repeated, “…right?”

Quickly, Jihoon nodded, “If that’s what you want to do, then of course.”

“Good answer,” Wonwoo nodded, nudging his brother with his elbow.

“You’re such a sucker for her,” Soonyoung said teasingly, rolling his eyes.

Danbi looked to you, her soft smile growing wider when she looked at you like she was just trying to make you happy. Danbi was a cute girl.

“What about you, _____?” she asked. “Did you want to get married?”

You just shrugged, “I don’t know. I would fantasize about it a lot when I was a child but after living the life of a werewolf for so long and learning more of their customs, I don’t think I’d mind either way.”

“Where exactly are you from, _____?” Soomin inquired, leaning forward like she was genuinely interested.

“I’m from America, and I would visit once a year, but I don’t remember my birth parents,” you admitted with a shrug, your hands folding together in your lap. “My adoptive ones managed to save a picture of them, so I know what they looked like at least -- not that I care. But my mother was white and my father was black. Me and Ji– Um…I’m not as dark as my dad, but I’m darker than my mom, obviously.”

Eunjin looked at you with a hint of a smile on her pink lips as her wide blue eyes took you in, softly saying, “You’re really pretty, _____. I’ve always thought your hair was pretty, and you have a cute nose.”

“Thanks,” you could feel your cheeks heating up as you looked at your lap. You knew Eunjin was too genuine, so you knew she truly believed the comments she made about you. She was too sweet for this awful world.

“_____,” you heard Hanbin call you from the kitchen. You looked up to see him wave you over. “C’mon.”

You sighed, standing up, “I’ll talk to you guys later.”

“Okay!” Danbi chirped.

You walked out of the living room normally before dragging your feet through the kitchen. You knew why you were dreading this pack meeting but you tried to not let those reasons get to you. You were going to have to face the reality of the situation even if you didn’t want to. You could pretend as long as you wanted, but your instincts knew the truth – all of them knew the truth.

Hanbin held the back door open for you to walk out onto the wrap-around porch and down the steps to the backyard. You joined the group that had already formed around the large fire, standing around it to warm their faces and hands.

“Alright,” Jaesang spoke up once you and Hanbin had joined the group, “now that the alpha is here, we can start.”

You just stared down at your boot-clad feet.

“Have you made any decisions, _____?” Jimin wondered softly.

“I already told Jinyoung what I’m doing,” you grumbled.

Across the fire, you could hear Rika whispering translations to Rin.

“You shouldn’t–”

“Jinyoung,” Hanbin spoke up, placing a hand on your back, “let’s let _____ explain herself. What did you decide, _____?”

“I’m staying with my pack,” you stated, finally lifting your head to look at each member. “I’m going to be the alpha, and I’m going to do it well.”

“You do know that’s suicide, right?” Rin asked, her voice hard as her golden eyes glared at you. “You’re just going to kill yourself, and then you won’t be an alpha even if you–”

“Corinne,” Rika whispered harshly.

“At least I’m not playing hide-n-seek with the other pack!” you shouted, already getting worked up at Rin’s insinuation.

Rin’s cheeks flushed, and she averted her eyes to the fire.

“I vaguely got an idea of what Rin said,” Hyojun spoke up, his hands shoved into his pockets as his mate clung to one of his arms, “but I know she’s right. _____, if you deny Hansol, you’ll kill him and yourself. I’m not saying you should listen to us, but I think you should think this over a bit more. At least promise us that, yeah?”

You stared at Hyojun for a moment before instinctively looking up at Hanbin. Then your eyes flickered to the fire after realizing you were the alpha and you were to make your own decisions.

With a sigh, you nodded once, “I’ll think about it.”

“Thank you,” Hanbin nodded, sounding almost relieved and happy. “We’d rather have you out of the pack and safe, than in it and dead.”

Most of the pack brought their mates and themselves back inside, but you stayed outside by the fire. You stared deep into the flames, trying to sort through the maze of thoughts you had. You knew you’d be digging your own grave if you denied your mate since you had the same strong urges, but you hoped that pretending they didn’t exist would just make them go away. But at the same time, the wolf side of you just didn’t want to ignore those feelings.

You let out a groan, dropping your head into your hands. You had thought everyone had gone inside but you felt a strong arm tug you into their side, and you already knew who it was: Hanbin.

You weren’t sure how long you stayed outside to think in the quiet of the night, but Hanbin stood by you the entire time. All you could think as you stared into the fire that only reminded you of your own temper, was that Hanbin would make a better alpha than you ever could.

The pack was leaving around 7am, and your pack met them outside to say goodbye. Most of your pack shook hands with the others, some of the mates hugged the other mates. Soonyoung was still acting weird, but at this point, you figured that was just typical Soonyoung. You stayed toward the back, though, as you were supposed to make your official decision.

The entire time, you felt eyes on you. From your pack and theirs, but you mostly felt Hansol’s boring into you. You just kept your eyes on the ground, waiting for the inevitable.

“It’s been a pleasure meeting you and your pack,” Hanbin said, shaking hands with the three alphas, “and if you ever need anything else, just give us a shout.”

“Eunjin’s got that covered,” Seokmin joked.

Finally, Hanbin turned to you, waving you over. Your feet robotically moved one in front of the other, but the whole thing felt like a blur. You felt like you weren’t even in your own body.

“So, _____,” Hanbin put a warm hand on your shoulder, looking down at you.

But the one to ask the question wasn’t Hanbin.

“_____,” Hansol spoke up suddenly, his voice soft but capturing your attention easily. You looked at him as he walked over, though you could see the pain in his face he was trying to hide from his clothes moving against his injuries. He stopped in front of you, yellow eyes staring deeply into yours. “I know you hate me, and I know what I did is unforgivable. Despite everything that happened, I promise to work as hard as I have to to make you happy again. I don’t care if it takes me until I die, I swear I’ll make you happy someday. I’ll love you with my whole heart, and I’ll always take care of you. So…will you come with me and be my mate?”

Both packs were silent as you and Hansol looked at each other. Most of you – maybe all of you – was screaming to take his hand and let him lead you off to a new life. You knew even your own pack wanted you to go with him just so you’d be alive and be well taken care of because they knew Hansol would be able to keep you under control after what happened in the woods the other night. Nobody else in your pack could ever do what he could do. Nobody could ever keep you out of trouble like Hansol could. Nobody could even touch you when your powers were in use, but Hansol could easily.

But your lips parted to speak, and you barely whispered the word, “No.”

Then you turned away from the pack and made your way through your smaller one, going into the house and not sparing Hansol a second glance.

You were an alpha, just like Jiung, and you were going to be strong like him.

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