#but toki oh boy toki did. toki changed the game

[basu-shokikita]

the duel is just visual representation of what happens when two soulmates find each other

[rorywritesjunk]

Remember us just like this forever

You made a mistake and Buggy has to clean it up.

Rating: PG

Warning: Bodily fluids, caring for a baby, Buggy is horrified.

Word count: 1620

A/N: My first request since opening them! This was so cute. Buggy taking care of kids and being out of his element is my favorite thing.

Title comes from "Flu Game" by Fall Out Boy

It was all Buggy’s fault this time even though outwardly he wouldn't admit it, internally he knew it was. The water from that spring was said to have magical properties, there was even a damn sign saying do not drink, but he collected some of it anyway. Magical water could come in handy, right?

Why didn't he label the damn bottle? Why didn't he hide it? Why did he leave it out where you would find it and take a drink because you were thirsty?

Sitting before him on the wooden deck of the Big Top was you, surrounded by your clothes as you stared up at him. He stared down his nose at you, wondering what the hell what the hell what the hell -

You smiled a big, gummy grin at him as you lifted your pudgy arms up to be held. Oh, oh, no. Buggy the Clown did not entertain babies. Kids? Sure, easy enough, but toothless little babies? No, no, nu uh. Even if it was you, he couldn't do it. He'd have to get Mohji or someone else to deal with you.

~

Mohji gave up after your three hour long cryfest. He passed you back to Buggy and took off, insisting Richie was sick and needed to be taken care of. At least Mohji dressed you. You had a makeshift diaper on and a rag with armholes and a neckhole cut out of it. It was not something Buggy would ever put a child in. It was not flashy or functional and simply wouldn't do.

You settled down once you were in his arms, letting out little whimpers and the occasional sniffle. Buggy didn't know what to do. Now that you weren't crying maybe he could pass you off to someone else?

He tried multiple times. Any time he tried to hand you over, the waterworks would start and you'd let out this unholy howl as if a demon had possessed you.

It wouldn't work, so he sent someone to find you some baby clothes because he was wondering what the smell was and… what was that warm feeling on his arm?

He moved you to his other arm and hoped you would be grateful he was a Chop Chop man because his arm popped off his body and rushed to the sink to wash off whatever it was you left on him. Were babies this gross? He didn't remember this happening with Oden and Toki’s little snivelling babies, but then again he distanced himself from those little creatures.

You looked up at him innocently as you started to suck your thumb. Buggy thought he was a malicious glint in your eye but maybe it was a trick of the light?

~

“Oh hell no! What did you eat?!” Buggy’s muffled shriek could be heard throughout the ship. “How can something so small make such a big mess?!”

The crew gathered around the door. He had made the loud announcement that he would change you now that he had some clothes and proper diapers for you. Had he ever done it before? No, hell no, but he could figure it out, right? It shouldn't be that hard.

“Are you- are you peeing while I'm changing you?! What is wrong with you!”

The crew immediately scattered, worried the captain would open the door and see them. As they fled, they could hear him let out a horrified scream.

“How did you get it in my hair?!”

~

This was the worst battle Buggy ever had.

He held the spoon against the tightly shut lips, trying to get you to at least have one spoonful of gross, mushy carrots, but your lips were sealed. You would not open them. You stared defiantly up at the captain as you pressed yourself back against his chest as he held you. He had no baby furniture so he decided to be your high chair (with plenty of towels in his lap just in case because he really didn't want to have to bathe again)

“Come on, don't be such a little shit.” He grumbled as he tried again. “You gotta eat something.”

You glared at him and shook your head. He would not be defeated. He remembered seeing some last so this with a kid once before and he hoped it worked.

He raised the spoon up, making it fly around your face, your eyes widening as you focused on it.

“Here comes the News Coo, ready to deliver the… news!”

The spoon buzzed around a bit more, your mouth opening in amazement, and Buggy shoved the spoon into your mouth, letting out a triumphant “Ha!” before you spat it back out.

“Are you kidding me?!”

~

He washed up again while you laid on his bed, babbling and trying to put your fists in your mouth as your eyes surveyed the area. He didn't want to be dealing with this even if you were a pretty cute baby when you weren't some unholy demon sent from the Underworld when you were unhappy. He heard enough demon screams coming from you in one day to last him a lifetime.

Buggy rubbed his face sleepily, wondering when or if you'd change back. He wasn't cut out for raising kids but at the same time, he was glad you were somewhere safe even if he was having to do everything.

The little cry you let out had him spinning around to look at you, wondering what was wrong. He had just pulled clean clothes on and was a little hesitant to hold you, but… you sounded unhappy, more sad than before, so he carefully picked you up, letting your head rest against his shoulder as you gripped his shirt and let out a few sniffles.

“What the hell, you don't make this much noise as an adult.’ He grumbled as he began to pace around his room slowly, bouncing you gently to try and soothe you. You continued to cry, rubbing your face against his once clean shirt, your cries too loud for you to hear his heavy, defeated sigh as his shoulders slumped. How many shirts will he go through with you?

“You gotta cut it out.” He ordered as he pulled you away and held you at arm's length. “Got it? Captain’s orders! You always listen to me!”

You paused for approximately one second before your eyes filled with tears and you let out the most heartbreaking wail.

“Listen, if anyone is gonna cry then it should be me for having to do this!” Buggy complained as he brought you back to him, putting a hand on the back of your head as he held you, once again pacing around his room to calm you. “I… I don't want to do this but I don't want you ending up as Richie’s snack by mistake!”

You snuffled and looked up at him, tears still streaming down your pudgy little cheeks. He wiped some away with his thumb.as he headed over to his bed. “I don't have a bed for you. You gotta share.” He laid you down in the middle before situating himself to one side, his hand resting on your stomach to keep you in place. “No moving around, got it?”

You just stared at him in response.

~

When he was up the next morning, you were gone.

Terrified, he sat up on his bed, head darting around as he looked for you. Did Richie eat you? Did something snatch you in the middle of the night?

Not that… it was a bad thing. You were a baby. He had you for one day and he saw more disgusting things come out of your tiny body during that time than he had his entire life so if you were gone, fine, so be it.

But what if you changed back in front of your kidnappers? They may hurt you or kill you. That certainly wouldn't do.

Buggy threw his clothes on and headed for the kitchen, ready to get the crew to come to your rescue, but to his relief and surprise you were sitting at the table, wearing his clothes (which admittedly looked good on you even if they looked snug). You were helping yourself to some scrambled eggs and toast, looking a little more tired than usual, but Buggy was relieved to see you.

“Mornin’ Captain.” You said with a mouthful of toast. “You're don't have any other weird things lying around that I might drink, do you?”

“How much do you remember?” Buggy asked cautiously as he went to start the coffee. He did hide the bottle after you helped yourself to it. He put it somewhere safe.

“Nothing really. I just… woke up naked in your bed.” You told him as you took another bite of toast. He looked horrified by what you said so you quickly added, “Mohji told me what happened. Thanks for lookin’ out for me.”

“Well, I just didn't want you to fall overboard or get eaten by Richie, that's all!” He said as he brought over some coffee for the both of you and took a seat. “Maybe you'll learn not to drink out of bottles that aren't yours.”

“Lesson learned.” You grinned. “Sorry if I made any messes. My parents told me I was a pretty gross baby, so hopefully it wasn't too bad for you.”

He tried not to think about everything that happened yesterday. He wasn't sure he'd be able to look you in the eyes ever again.

“Thanks for taking care of me.”

“Well, don't get used to it.” He grumbled as he leaned back with his own mug. “Now eat your breakfast. I got work for you to do.”

[pikaflute]

hi, sudafed cleared my sinuses long enough to think so here’s a giant post about most of my charles headcanons

Playlist

OH btw here’s my 4 hour and 23 minute playlist for Charles. Enjoy. Yes I know I’m insane: https://open.spotify.com/user/pikaflute24/playlist/4DBxaaxbqsmJt9Fvl8AgwZ?si=OcXlYCdFRzOhuKa4p_HdUQ

General Headcanons

He was born November 24 1965. He’s currently 56, but I usually write him in his late 40s in most fanfic and content I make. So there’s this middle aged man....

He has hazel eyes. Sometimes they look green, sometimes brown. Sometimes they’ll be white but that’s when he’s using his magic so mind your business

Gear brand over his heart >:)c

:) i think he has piercings and tattoos, a skull (dead man teehee) on his upper arm, a tattoo of a date (the date pickles and him first met TEEHEE) on his left arm also has a tattoo on his arm of the day he “died” on his right. had his ears pierced when he was a teen.

Has a sweet tooth so hard. Smuggles in treats into the drawers of his desk just to snack on during the day and has a mini fridge just filled with ice cream and also sorts of other goodies. He loves brownies and cookies the most

Likes to work out and keep himself in shape. it takes his mind off of stressful things like work and the boys, and just take his morning practice sparring and doing various exercises in the mordhaus gym. 

he’s uh also very flexible so he does yoga a lot when he exercises. don’t. look too deep into that

cannot cook to save his life. he almost burned mordhaus down trying to make himself a sandwich

he can play guitar! he used to play it more often when he was younger but he rarely has the time to play it nowadays. when he does get to play it, it’s usually in private (and mainly songs by dethklok), or it’s to show off to a certain lead guitarist that yes he is playing that solo wrong

he’s ambidextrous but prefers using his right hand. he’ll use his left hand to spar in order to go easy on his opponents because hes a smug cunt

he’s 5′7 but intimidation factor adds a couple inches doesn’t it

has a scorpion named princess as a pet. he lets her sit on his desk sometimes and it scares the shit out of dethklok which makes charles laugh on the inside

hes also a cat person. one time toki brought a cat home and it settled on charles’ lap and he almost cried

loves to be a smug asshole and relishes in it. will not take shit from anyone, especially from some asshole who is trying to pull one over on him

he has no idea how social media works at all. will print memes out to show to dethklok, he’s very fond of cat memes specifically (i can has cheeseburger type beat)

he has no idea what any internet memes means he isn’t going to start learning. he is going to misuse internet phrases. are you boys, ah, finding the imposter? [cue five groans from dethklok]

knows a lot of languages. not a comprehensive list but: french, swedish, norwegian, spanish, italian, japanese, chinese, german, russian and korean

is very competitive. scarily competitive. once he starts losing in smash or mario kart all hell will break lose

very bad at showing emotions or affection, when he gets compliments he gets all red and quiet and mumbles a thank you. 

weird about being touched as well and will usually avoid it unless it’s with someone he trusts

speaking of, his love language is acts of service :)c

hates being called charlie or chuck, unless the right person calls him it ;)

he’s autistic. was nonverbal for most of his life and only talked to certain people, or anyone at all. he stims with his hands and uses his pens to fidget.

has a collection of novelty socks. he likes the ones that have polka dots or stripes

sleeps with a garfield plushie he had since he was younger. it helps him with the nightmares

when any of the boys need help sleeping (usually toki or pickles), he’ll sleep with them in his bed. after dying he had trouble sleeping some nights, so dethklok returned the favor and all piled up in his bed and helped him sleep. he didnt have nightmares after that night

hes nearsighted, and prefers to wear glasses over contacts

lactose intolerant, hes still eating mac n cheese and paying the price

metalhead but pretends to not be just to mess with his boys

crippling addiction to match 3 games. also loves to play minecraft.

overly self sacrificial. puts ones he love needs before his own, results in himself being very isolated and distant from those he cares about because he’s afraid of hurting them

his favorite colors are black and purple

coffee kinda guy. black coffee or bust

has a lot of cute novelty mugs to put his coffee in. he ones from places where dethklok tours, dethklok official ones (the only two that aren’t adorned with spikes), some cat themed ones, a couple that have ties and math references, and one from his boys that says “most brutal manager”. he drinks out of that last one the most

he has a couple of grey hairs and wrinkles, but he keeps them because they remind him that he’s human. also pickles said old men were hot but you didnt hear that from me

likes to play chess but he can never find a good opponent. all the klokateers are too scared if they win and dethklok is too distracted to ever play with him or they end up losing to quickly if charles plays against them

really wants kids. he babies his sister’s sons and daughters a TON (uncle charles always brings the best gifts :) ) and also treats toki like his own son in a way. toki doesnt mind, he really appreciates the love

speaking of, toki does call charles dad once and it makes charles cry for like. a week and a half

his favorite dethklok song is the gears :)

he likes to collect knives as a side hobby, his favorite of his collection is a sleek black one with skulls on the handle

he has a motorcycle and likes to drive it around sometimes to just be alone with himself. it’s all black with a red gear on it

lightweight but only if he drinks the amount dethklok drinks. can hold his alcohol fairly well if he drinks like a sensible human, prefers brandy and wine

he can smoke cigars to be sexy for me and me ONLY

likes to read in his spare time. he likes mystery novels and science fiction

he has soft spot for cheesy sitcoms, they’re his guilty pleasure

his favorite youtuber is lockpickinglawyer. yours should be too

usually sleeps in only his boxers but will wear a shirt if its’s cold. he tends to sleep on his side (also wants to be the little spoon when cuddled but he will never admit that)

takes vacations sometimes away from the boys despite his worry that something will go wrong (it will!). many of his vacations are usually going to visit his family and going to the shore with them, or travelling to somewhere new for a change (cue charles being a yakuza substory on his one vacation per year)

he can sew pretty well. learned from his mom and used to sew the whole his sister use to put through her soccer uniform.

can also do makeup, and usually does it for one of the boys of there’s no one else around to help

bites his lip when he’s nervous. which is a lot

likes chococat and gudetama. he’s a man of tastes

laughs really loud if you catch him off guard. he snorts sometimes too. he’s embarrassed by it, but i think its’ cute

loves law and order obviously 

he likes men

has a lot of pent up rage. very good at compressing it. sometimes

as high priest, he stays up very late trying to decipher the ancient prophecies that dethklok needed to fulfill. he doesnt sleep very much when he starts out because he misses home, so the band makes him come back (or else)

also as high priest he becomes more intune with magic granted to him after he died and he mainly uses his magic to protect his boys when they go back to being a band. also to fuck with them

the band he managed before dethklok was a band named savior who said they were a metal band with a unique sound, but that unique sound was actually just being a christian metal band that were bad at playing music. they also treated charles like shit and blamed him for them doing so poorly with sales and shows. had an unfortunate “accident” with a tour bus after charles had enough of their attitude towards him.  he denies he had anything to do with it (he did.)

Family/Childhood

He’s the baby of the family. Spoiled rotten to the max. He doesn’t admit it though but whenever he comes home you know he abuses the “:)c im the favorite” card

He has 4 older sisters: Caroline who is a high school civics teacher, Cynthia who is a librarian, Callie who is a coach for a soccer team, and Charlotte who is a lawyer/manager who manages Ladyklok, which gets awkward (and funny) when Abigail starts dating the lead singer Natalie

charles is actually one of the tallest in his family. his dad is 6’1 and his older sister Callie is 5’11. cynthia is 5’6, caroline is 5’6, and his mom and charlotte are 5’5.

his mom is a doctor and his dad is an accountant. his mom’s name is giovanna and his dad’s name is elijah

caroline is the oldest sister, followed by cynthia, callie, charlotte then charles.

Charlotte and Charles are sworn enemies since they were born on the same day a year apart and basically have the same job. They do love each other though

His father calls him Charles. Caroline and Cynthia call him Charlie. Callie calls him Chuck. Charlotte calls him Charles (derogatory). His mom calls him a whole slew of nicknames that she made up when he was young (she calls him cheese ball and he turns red)

caroline has a wife (lauren who is a chef) and two kids (evan and shelby)

cynthia is dating a coworker (viola)

callie has a husband (john who is a stay at home dad) and they have three kids (brenda, melissa, and jeff)

charlotte is dating ladyklok (and abigail). this is a weird flex on charles i think.

He had a race car bed when he was like 5

He also was also one of those kids at family game night. He almost killed Cynthia over a game of monopoly

Always got to lick the spoon first after his mom baked brownies

He grew up in North Jersey (derogatory) (also yes im projecting state shot)

He’s also Italian (derogatory)

He got bullied in middle school for a little bit but once his older sisters found out, oh boy did all hell break loose

Was in band in high school. He played flute (DONT TALK TO ME I LIKE PROJECTING), he was of course a soloist and incredibly smug about it

Took gymnastics as a kid. Can do a backflip on command. Also very flexible.

First manager gig was helping his sisters sell girl scout cookies. They raked in a lot of profits when baby bro was behind the scenes. His cut was eating thin mints for free

Loved Star Trek when he was a kid

Was incredibly gifted, and taught himself to read at a young age. didn’t talk that much though

was always sick when he was little. he would always get sinus infections and colds if someone even sneezed weird

was in mock trial in high school. one guy on his team was a jerk to him so charles made it a point to be this poor kid’s nemesis

was on the student council, treasurer of course.

was also in nhs, and he was treasurer there too

was that kid who insisted on doing the group project by himself because he didn’t want to wait on anyone to finish their part

was super rowdy as a kid, always got into trouble but his mom was a little lenient of punishment (hes a mommas boy)

when he was like super young he bit people cause he was just a little monster (charles' sisters: mom charles is biting again. charles, biting one of them: im not :/ sheesh)

wanted to be a lawyer since he was 7

put his own siblings and parents on trial and would win every trial and would always get the last cookie or a higher allowance

he shared his room with his sister Charlotte and they would set up a pillow fort on one of the beds and stay up late reading together 

loved going to the beach as a kid, his mom still has his collection of shells from the beach

on the boardwalk, he would dominate at claw machines anad carnival games. he won a bunch of plushies from himself (and his sisters obviously)

his dad and him have a super close bond. they watched star trek together and also like to watch how the stock market would do. his dad was also sometimes the judge in charles’ mock trials at home

they were very supportive when he came out as gay, he was also the first of his sibilings to come out of the closet

College

Got his masters in business management at rutgers and a JD (law degree) from seton hall law.

Started college when he was 18 (1983) and ended college when he was 26 (1991)

Wasn’t a party guy. Never got invited to many, but he never went unless a certain redhead was in town

Sustained himself off of ramen, coffee, and SSRIs to get his masters (hey man i feel ya)

Did weed like three times. Three of those times were because of, you guessed it, a certain redhead

Speaking of, his first time having sex was in his dorm with Pickles. Pickles also kicked him off of the bed (those beds are fucking tiny) while they slept, and almost burned Charles’ dorm down trying to make toast the next morning

Absolute did not do essays until the night before. Bad habit that made it’s way into Dethklok managing when he’s forced to write a legal brief before 12 am.

Loved calculus 2 for some reason. Nerd

Had a mullet. Pickles thought it was hot (still is) while Charles would rather die than remember anything about that horrid hairdo

Also went through his goth/emo phase while in Law School. He stuck out amongst the sea of sweater vests and polo shirts

Was in a band with his fellow college bandmates. The band was called Habeas Corpses and he was the lead singer who also played guitar. Their sound was kind of similar to TWRP’s first two EPs (The Device and 2nite). they had a grunge aesthetic, and yes charles dyed his mullet black (with a purple streak), for the band.

his bandmates were all fellow law students. dillan was on drums, margaret was their bass guitar, and nick was their keyboardist. all three of them also got tutored by charles while in law school. they are still best friends and write to each other sometimes

Was on the debate team, but uh kicked off due to be very competitive (he threatened to punch the opposing debater)

Was also in the chess club, also kicked off for being too competitive (lunged at a kid for cheating)

After being kicked from the two previous clubs, he joined fencing, his very competitive nature made him the best in the state

nick (the guy in charles’ band) was charles’ roommate the whole time they were in college. they may or may not have had a brief relationship before they realized they would be better as friends

nick also has a nes and charles loved to played zelda and wrote an entire guide for himself because he’s was that into the game (nerd)

occasionally would be found sleeping in the library on campus

wanted to be an RA but the resident association at his schools thought he was a little much. charles took this as a compliment

worked out a lot between studying and classes. a lot of jocks underestimated him because of his size but charles was just :) [casually lifts something heavy]

a lot of fellow classmates thought he was super cool cause of the leather he wore, and how cool and quiet he was, too bad they didnt know he was a huge nerd

tried skateboarding. once.

had a cadillac that barely started and drove like a piece of shit but that was charles’ baby

pickles tried to have sex with charles in said car btw, charles almost killed him for even daring to suggest to tarnish his beautiful baby

has damaged his back permanently because of all the books he used to carry around in his crappy back pack

did some modelling for one of his friends in college. he was very attractive and got some other modelling job through it. he tries to hide that from the boys in the future because he thinks it’s embarrassing

Relationship with Dethklok

Pickles - he’s known the drummer the longest out of any other member, and if you couldn’t tell by now, he had a brief relationship with the drummer back in the 80s (and maybe also still has a crush on him :)). charles respects and admires pickles’ talent as a musician and sometimes they play together when they have time alone. he tries to be there when pickles has a relapse in either emotions with his family or something else, but still tries to maintain a distance because he thinks that pickles doesn’t feel the same as he did in the 80s. (he does btw). nothing could break the bond these two share. not even death

Nathan - understands nathan’s quiet nature (nonverbal kings!) and strive for perfection in everything dethklok creates because he is the same way. their similarities allow them to connect on a level that allows nathan to open up about his feelings that he likes to lock away. nathan also gets charles to open his feelings up and actually care for himself for once in his damn life. charles also helps nathan with the depression he develops after charles dies and how to deal with it despite it being not brutal. nathan wants to give back and he does by becoming one of charles’ closest friends (and maybe even lovers hehehe)

Toki - charles has taken it upon himself to be toki’s father figure after seeing the way toki’s family has left him for essentially dead. ever since toki joined the band, charles has made it a point to be there for him whenever he needed it. even if it meant spending late nights reading to toki or sleeping over in toki’s room to help him sleep, he’ll do it. he blames himself for toki’s disappearance but toki assures him that he did the best he could. toki calls him dad a lot after doomstar. it makes charles cry.

Skwisgaar - unstoppable asshole meets immovable object. skwisgaar sees himself above everyone else like he does with the other dethklok members but with charles, skwisgaar knows that charles isn’t intimidated by him nor will he bow to the guitar god in anyway. this develops a game of cat and mouse between the two, with skwisgaar trying to no subtly push charles’ buttons and to see what makes him ticks, while charles resist him at every turn with a smug ‘:) is that all you got’ and it delights him to finally see the guitarist squirm under pressure.

Murderface - at first the two are very. distant to say the least. murderface used to see charles as unemotional robot and charles was fine with that and accepted the distance. overtime however, and especially after charles died, murderface warmed up to charles confiding in him things he hasn’t told the band, mainly things about his insecurities because charles is ‘fucking smart with crap like this’. and charles helps him and is happy to see him work out his problems and not bottle them anymore like the rest of his bandmates. charles also enjoys murderface’s company as a friend as well. and….he’s gonna help murderface the most with the whole traitor stuff too.

Abigail - mlm and wlw hostility. but seriously they’re good buds. he sympathizes with having to deal the moronic actions of dethklok on a daily basis and also thinks she’s really intelligent and overall fun to hang out with. they take lunch breaks frequently together and like to make fun of people at dethklok dinners together as a fun activity together. abigail will bully his ass once she finds out she’s dating charles’ sister and WILL bring up those baby pictures to get a higher raise thank you very much

Knubbler - can you say coworker besties! like abigail, he gets along because they both have to deal with dethklok being, well dethklok, but with knubbler, charles can relax a little more. the two cause problems on purpose just because they can. the two are also close friends and knubbler tries to get charles to relax for once in his life, and despite charles protests and objections, he sometimes caves and hands out with his friend (maybe boyfriend OOOOO who knows)

Sex Headcanons (IM SORRY)

um maybe he can have a giant dick (10 inches for me), it do be swinging though

daddy kink (everyone stay on this side, ill take care of him….come to daddy ;)c)

likes to do roleplay. he has a lot of costumes prepared for when his partner wants to do a scene with him

likes to bite and be bitten during sex. after a very long night, he’ll be covered in bite marks, it’s kinda hot

no gag reflex ;) he likes to deepthroat but good luck trying to get him to go down on you without him teasing

remember how i said he was flexible like eight times? yeah he uh, uses that a lot to his advantage. likes being fucked in weird positions because of it

the suit stays on during sex

he likes topping because he likes to be in control of everything he does all the time, but really wants to be told what to do sometimes and will let those he trusts do that for him

he has a dick piercing i know it

he's a very busy man, so he relies on his huge collection of toys he keeps in his bedroom and office

really good with his hands. as soon as those hands are on you, its game over

he loves to do it on his desk, makes him feel powerful. when he gets blown under his desk, it really takes all of his willpower to not cum immediately

really sensitive in weird places, specifically his ears

he likes to cuddle after sex, hes the little spoon :)

likes to be tied up, sometimes he’ll get tied up under his suit

mating press and riding are his favorite positions, giving and receiving

size queen, likes large toys and well ;)

has a private room that he sometimes goes to relieve stress, it has a fucking machine that he likes to use often when his job gets too stressful

he’s sucking people off at the klokateer glory hole, he’s uh, very good at what he does

likes to be spanked and like to spank

uses collars and leashes

maybe the klokateers can fuck him, if they’re good ;)

freeballing

likes cum on his face but doesn't seem to realize that means he’ll get cum on his glasses and will need to clean them

he can wear a chastity belt :) for me

likes being came in but will still complain about being gross after

pretty much up for anything, he’s not picky, he just wants to be in control and get off

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They had rented this house every year for as long as the oldest of the horde of nieces and nephews could remember, so they knew exactly how to get to the game room at the back of the house. Soon, they were deeply engrossed in a game of Uno.

“I say we up the stakes!”

“Oh yeah?” She teased the eldest boy, Ren, “And just how do you suppose we do that?”

“Losers have to do whatever the winner says!”

The other four children groaned so Usagi compromised. “How about we just tell a secret?”

“Yeah!” They all cheered.

Usagi had little to fear, the four of them weren’t the best of players. Still young, they didn’t quite get how to ration their cards to work to their advantage. She tried not to beat them too badly, but it was hard not to!

“Uno.” She said softly but strong. 

They all groaned again, this time in defeat. She pointed to cue them, starting at the youngest and going upwards in age. Little Sora twisted her fingers in fear above her belly. “I peeked at my presents this year.”

Usagi mocked shock and disappointment at the small girl but really that was an impressive feat. “You shouldn’t do that, Sora!”

Nagomi went next. “I put on Mommy’s lipstick when she’s not around.”

Usagi only clucked her tongue at that one, moving on to Youta and his fidgeting. “I hate my Math tutor. She’s just mean!”

“I think you do like her, Youta!” Ren teased and they all giggled at the red-faced boy.

“Your turn, Asahi,” Usagi recalled.

Twisting a little finger in her hair, Asahi blushed heavily. “I don’t have a secret.”

“Come on! Everyone has a secret!!” Ren pushed.

She shook her head and Usagi gave her a break. “Ren, why don’t you go then?”

“Fine! I’m not scared!! I’m in love with….” He stopped as if he lost his courage in a breath but then suddenly found it again. “With Auntie Usagi!”

Mocking surprise, she gave the little boy a show. But Usagi had known for a while now that the kid had a crush on her. It was clear. And his mother Rei kept telling her that he had one. It would be more embarrassing for him if she knew before he confessed. So instead she gave him a big hug.

“Thank you, Ren. I love you too.”

“Are you and Ren going to get married?” Asahi asked with a sad look on her face.

Usagi had a good feeling Asahi’s secret was that she liked Ren but she would wait and let the girl tell him herself. “Well, Ren is too young.”

“Do you love someone else?” 

Busy giving Ren some comfort for refusing him, Usagi popped her attention to Youta and his question. “I do.”

“So you have a boyfriend?” Sora asked.

Nagomi reprimanded her, “Hey, she won remember!! She doesn’t have to tell a secret!” 

“It’s fine, I’ll go in Asahi’s place. I do have...a someone...”

“Go wash your hands, dinner is ready.”

They all flinched, the cool tone of his voice and startling appearance had them all fearing Mamoru as he stood in the doorway, looking pissed. She offered the kids a warm smile, helping a few to their feet from the circle they made on the floor. They still coward a little when passing by the eerie demon at the door. While it made Usagi feel annoyed. 

“This is a Christmas party. Don’t take out your issues on us.”

“My issues? You're the one talking about boyfriends with young and impressionable children.”

She made sure he saw her eyes roll as she passed him. “Yeah, my degree in education didn’t prepare me at all for talking to kids about such things.”

“You shouldn’t be talking to them at all about it since it’s not true.”

Spinning on her heel, she glared at him and he glared back. “What do you know? Huh? How dare you say it’s not true!”

“If it’s true then why didn’t you say anything about it last week?!”

Glancing around, she found them alone. Everyone else was already at the table or making their plates in the kitchen, where the two of them should be. “Like we tell one another everything at those stupid lunches!”

“I told you about Saori!”

How much of her cringe at the mention of his girlfriend he caught, she didn’t know. But she thought it best to move on quickly from it before it became an issue. “You told us you were bringing her to this only so Makoto would make enough food. It’s not like you told us to share anything.”

“Are you going to tell the family tonight?!”

He had his arms folded across his chest but she could still see him shaking a little. “Why does it matter?? And why do you care?! Shingo and Toki are my brothers, not you!!”

Even with the reminder, she was sure he would never see her as anything more than that little girl who’s pigtails he used to tie to the chair. No matter what she did, how she grew and changed, she would never be free of him unless she broke free herself.

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[uta-no-fakku-sama]

30 UtaPri Questions

I finally got around to doing this after being tagged so here we go :3

this is supposed to go on my main but i already saved the draft before i could do anything so oh well ;w;

Your Best Boy? Natsuki, but Cecil and Camus are not too far behind.

Your Least Favorite Boy? I don’t really have any; they’re all really nice.

A Character You Never Thought You Would Love as Much as You Do Now? Y-Yamato. . . There’s just something about him that makes me happy ÚwÙ

A Character You Can Relate to in Any Way? Otoya, I guess. I’m not exactly sure on how I should put it, though.

A Character That You Think Deserved More Love? Eiichi, definitely. I know he’s messed up a lot and I don’t agree with what he did, but it’s (not really but it’s there) simple to see he means well. I know what it’s like to do something I thought as good but ended up hurting someone else through it, which in turn hurt me. He had good intentions, but went with them the wrong way. I do understand why people feel so upset and angry towards him; in a way, he has been shown in a bad light. Then again, HEAVENS in general during their very first appearance in Season 2 were depicted to be like the main villains of the series. Then again, that’s probably just me overanalyzing again. Sorry for the rambling ;w:

A Character You Would Want as Your Partner/Lover? Haruka. Just Haruka. Let me smooch.

A Character You Would Want as Your Mentor/Senpai? Reiji! I mean, he’s Reiji. And maybe Cesshi. Or Masato. Maybe Camus if I’m allowed to make fun of him.

Your Favorite Ship? NatsuCam. Such a rare pair. Like, a really fucking rare pair. Most of the content for it is mine. Haha ;w;

A Character You Want to Cosplay/Have Already Cosplayed? I’d like to try Cesshi, but I don’t know if my skin’s dark enough for that so I don’t wanna risk any chances. An alternative may be Natsuki, but then I’d be a short kinda chubby-looking Natsuki. Kira’d be nice too though! But I’m probably a little too expressive for him;;; Nagi’d be a nice fit as well, I dunno :3

Favorite Side Character? I’m not really sure if Satsuki counts as a side character since he really only shows up during Natsuki-centered episodes. If not him, then Tomochika! She. Just she.

Your Favorite Solo Song? I found myself enjoying Cesshi’s solo songs a lot. Destiny Song really brings me in. Brand New Melody has a lil something to it that makes me really happy though. I don’t know what it is, but it gives me a nice feeling inside. I also really like SUKIxSUKI Hanamaru and Hatsukoi o Mata Hajimeyou!! Those are both really nice songs that make me feel really fluffy happy inside >w<! And Melting of Snow. And Hurrayx2 Dreamers. And there’s a lot of solo songs I like. Oops.

Your Favorite Duet Song? North Wind and SunShine. I just really like that song. Like, that was the duet song my mind really stuck onto when I first started playing SL. I got attached.

Your Favorite Trio Song? Kaleidoscope. When I watched the movie in theaters, that was the one I kinda got really hooked on;;;

Your Favorite Group Song? There’s Mirai Chizu and Maj LOVE 2000% and QUARTET NIGHT and Poison KISS and HEAVENS GATE and GIRAx2 SEVEN an—

Your Least Favorite Group Song? FORCE LIVE I guess?? I mean, the chorus is okay and stuff, but the other things in the song are just not really my taste. Like the beginning. The beginning just feels so eeeeehhh to me;;;

Your Favorite Singer? I think they’re all good how do choose favorite help—

Your Favorite Group/Trio/Duo? Favorite group is hard to choose; they all are good. Favorite trio is easily either the Kawaii Group or the White Chocolate Horse/Tea Party Group (Natsuki, Ren, and Camus). Favorite duo is also very easily the Royal Group.

Your Favorite Member of STARISH? Natsuki Shinomiya. Tsuki-chan. Ye. I love he. Cesshi’s also very close behind. He sweet. Beb. I also love he.

Your Favorite Member of QUARTET NIGHT? Camus. Used to be Reiji. Sorry, maracaboo. It all started when I got his My Only Prince UR (the first MOP card I got) which in turn made me go “I guess I’ll change Natsuki for him on my screen and then I tapped him and he go “high butler voice time hewwo mistwess uwu ^-^” and I went “holy shi—

Your Favorite Member of HEAVENS? Yamato!! I love him. I love his appearance. I love his clothing choices. I love his voice. I love his personality. I. Uh. Munscklez. Ha;;;;;;;;

Your Favorite Seiyuu/Voice Actor? Why do I have to choose one? I mean, unrelated but through their seiyuus and stuff I was able to find out Mamoru is in the Japanese dub of The Lorax and that put me through a fucking loop. Thanks, Mamo :3

Favorite Drama CD? Lycoris no Mori. Shit. That was. Made me remember that Vocaloid song The Wolf Who Fell in Love with Little Red Riding Hood. Also Black Hood Cesshi. Evil boi. Just doing evil spirit boi things. Kinda caused people to murder along the way but it’s okay because in the end he’s probably still dancing over their dead bodies in the woods. Also wolf Randolph Toki red-nosed bitch. Randolph sounds really close to Rudolph, don’tcha agree? And Blood Otoya. Or Brad Otoya. Or whatever. Who in their right mind thought Blood was a good name for a boi? Like, I know he has red hair and red eyes and a red hood and red blood an— Victor. Huntsman Ren. Ren with ponytail. H. That is all. H.

Your Favorite Shining Live Card? *slams hands on table* TEA. PARTY. UR. BOIS. Natsuki please come home soon ;-;

Your Favorite Song Beatmap? Any of the ones with slide notes. Like, a lot of them. Also just any really difficult song I somehow manage to FC on the first couple tries. Like I remember there was one song for an event I was playing in only to get more LP where there was like a fuck ton of notes. I forgot if if was 800 or 900, but there were a lot. And I managed to FC it first try. Haha whoops ;w;

Your Least Favorite Song Beatmap? Nothing really comes to mind except for the lower difficulty ones. When you play a lot of Pro songs, the lower ones just kinda get boring.

Black Dejavu or White Gravity? White Gravity definitely. I can’t believe Masato said “lol bye” and joined the Kawaii and Royal Groups. Also, Natsuki’s high notes. They told him to do it twice and he said “okay :D”. I know it has a more uniform(?) singing distribution and order, but that just personally fits me and my ears better :3

UtaPri Merch That You Own/Watch? I have a Prince Cat of Citron!! And a Natsuki face towel that came along with him. I wanna get either Lime or Aqua next, but I can’t choose who. Lime because second best boi, Aqua because third best boi and shipping reasons. Also, you ever follow accounts that have Prince Cats of different sizes and have them act out as if they’re like a lil family? I want that life. Like, there’s one I follow on Twitter with Rosso and Cielo and Iris and Arancia and Verde and a lil Aqua as their child and I adore them. They use emojis to represent who’s talking and the lil Aqua’s emoji is a lollipop it’s just so cute ;-;. . .

How did You Get into UtaPri? Shining Live. I saw that Klab had another idol rhythm game on the app store and went “Why not? I haven’t had one with guydols yet?” and look where we are now;;;

A Set Theme in Shining Live That You Want to See in the Future? I’ve been having a bunch of gacha set and event ideas on a note on my phone. Like street dancer, fairytales, zodiac, zookeeper, cyber, and seven deadly sins/four horsemen as gacha ideas (some I already made art concepts for;;;). And for events, I got carhop, first date kinda thing, and ice/figure skating. In short, I want a lot :3

Why Do You Love Your Best Boy? At first, it was because he adores cute things and I adore cute things and he’s cute so I adore him. After learning more about him, I do see more similarities between the two of us. The feeling of being betrayed and growing defensive because of it, his defense being Satsuki and mine is trying to use words to help me. The need to grow stronger to not be seen as a burden, to try and not rely and depend on others to fight our battles for us. There’s probably more I can dwell upon, but that’s all I can think about for now.

Tagging: I don’t know I’m sorry ;-;. . . Anyone who wants to do this can have the go ahead.

[niamh-sims]

Replies

biduline2011 replied to your photoset “The Cattle Herders Farm Part 1- Exterior”

Nice cows!

I love the Highland Cows so much and they were just perfect for this ‘hood!

squeezleprime replied to your photo “Karl Family- Cattle Herders Followers of Eostre[[MOR] Female Adult:...”

when Eitri ages to child, it'll be easier for the family to take care of the cows :)

The cows don’t require that much care, but it will certainly be great to have Eitri age up.  Having a lot with just an adult and a toddler was a nightmare, and even though I have a mod to leave toddlers home alone, I couldn’t bring myself to do it.  Plus, when Eitri ages up, he can collect the cow dung, fill the water trough, collect branches and seasonal goodies from the trees and harvest the hay.  Will make my life so much easier!

withlovefromayre replied to your photo “Karl Family- Goat Herders Followers of Eostre[[MOR] Female Adult:...”

Sounds a little like the new novel tidelands

I haven’t heard of that one.  I will have to look it up!

squeezleprime replied to your photo “Karl Family- Goat Herders Followers of Eostre[[MOR] Female Adult:...”

only one boy in the house - any special plans for him?

I am not sure at the moment.  I had planned for this ‘hood to be more egalitarian in terms of inheritance, with the eldest child inheriting, rather than the oldest male.  That would then make Astrid the heir.  I might have him start out on his own, maybe with pigs.  I am imagining Arna might go into honey.  She seems the type!

withlovefromayre replied to your photo “Thrall Family- Weavers Followers of The Trickster[[MOR] Female...”

Oh no those traits sound difficult

I love how the traits system has completely changed this game.  There is a level of depth that was only previously achieved through story telling or imagination.

2spooky4blue replied to your photoset “Playing around with something for when I finish the MCC (which,...”

There is a Game of Thrones mod for the game Crusader Kings 2 which includes a detailed heightmap of the continent. iirc it's a bmp file. Could be useful if you feel lazy.

Thank you so much for the link, that map is awesome.  I will definitely have a go at using it to make the terrain.  Thanks!

withlovefromayre replied to your photoset “The Fowler’s Hut”

that view down to the ocean is gorgeous. Everything looks just perfect

Thanks!  I absolutely love the back drop to this ‘hood.  It’s so moody and I can’t wait to see how it looks in Winter!

shamelesssheepdreamland replied to your photoset “~ Kaayven ~ Viking[[MOR] Seasons: Spring - Autumn - Winter - Winter...”

I love how detailed you are

Thank you.  My style has changed and developed significantly over the years, and I’m really happy with my builds and how they turn out.  Ideally, some lots would be more detailed, but there is only so much I can do with the funds constraints within the challenge!

solori replied to your photoset “~ Kaayven ~”

beautiful!

Thank you!

mortia replied to your photoset “The castle might only be on a 5x3 lot, but the grounds are bloody...”

Also, have I told you before that I love this castle? I love this castle!

I think you have, but it’s still nice to hear!  Thank you xxx

mortia replied to your photoset “The castle might only be on a 5x3 lot, but the grounds are bloody...”

ONLY?! My heart stopped just thinking of playing a lot that size!! hahaha

I know, the lot is huge!!  I think Alewold might have to hire one of the Peasants to help clean it.  I am looking forward to playing it when the Royal Family moves in.  BTW, since I know you’re playing again.  Have you already made your Royal Family for Dullabach, or do you have an idea in your head for them?  I love what you did with your Montague and Capulet nobles!

mortia replied to your photo “Toki likes urinating in the throne room and the banquet hall. Alewold...”

i need to catch up properly but every time i've seen pictures of your game i've been so happy at how lovely they are. your lots look so lived-in and warm. glad you're having fun!

Thanks, Mortia.  It’s so nice to see some new pics from your game as well!

[sailor-cresselia]

Zi-O 48-1: In which I surrender and watch the raw.

So, it’s been a few days, and I know that the subbers have their own lives and whatnot, but… I can’t safely go on tumblr until I see this, because I follow a lot of Rider blogs, and have the Zi-O tag tracked, and i’ve got friends talking about this…

So I’m caving and watching 48 without subs. It’s been a long while since I’ve had to do this!

Enjoy eleven and a half pages of me being a nerd over a children’s tv show, that I can’t even properly understand.

(EDIT: SHIT SORRY I THOUGHT I”D PUT THE READ MORE IN THERE)

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Actually, first, I watched 47 again, to refresh myself, and noticed something. Not only did Tsukasa do the hand pose from the Zi-O promotional material when he transformed, but so did Daiki as Another Zi-O II.

The main difference is that Daiki used his pointer and middle finger – because he’s the second form.

It’s the little touches.

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We pick up exactly where we left off last time – with Tsukuyomi, Sougo, Daiki, and Decade finding htemselves surrounded by mooks and monsters from heisei riders past. Mirror monsters, makamou, masquerade dopants, yummys, dustards, ghouls, inves… so Ryuki, Hibiki, Double, OOO, Fourze, Wizard, and Gaim are gone. The meteors, and skywall say that Kabuto and Build are, too. Adding in the roidmudes we saw with Chase, that makes ten out of eighteen watches broken. I say eighteen because we’ve obviously still got Zi-O, and Decade is literally right there, having reclaimed his watch.

We get Tsukasa repeating – or, rahter, we re-see Tsukasa saying that he’s going to destroy the world… Not right at this moment, though. They should get going.

It looks like Daiki takes off in a different direction from the other three.

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Amid the scenes of people running, there’s a ganma mook… and Revol, along with people colappsing, static crackling across their bodies. That’s the Ghost and Ex-Aid watches done for, then.

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Geiz and Woz run along a rooftop, but immediately become a book image – we’re going pretty much right into the recap. Now, of course, I don’t speak Japanese, but I can get the gist of what he’s saying. Basically, there’s copious fighting, the time-space continuum is falling apart, and the world is ending because of Swartz.

There are two pages left.

Woz is looking off into the middle distance as he says this.

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… I don’t think I really expected that they’d update the OP again, this late in the game, but…

That doesn’t change that it kind of hurts to see Heure and Ora still be there.

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At 9-to-5, Tsukasa is being interrogated- I mean, is getting everyone onto the same page.

Ehh… let’s see… Basically, he’s saying that more and more of the other Riders are being… I don’t know, more completely erased? Like, the watches held their stories in stasis, like bookmarks, and now that they’re breaking, parts of those stories are escaping out.

Tsukuyomi mentions the wall and the tower – namely, Fuuto Tower, as opposed to Yggdrasil, which kind of bothers me. See, even if this weren’t all one Rider world, Fuuto Tower would have no reason to not exist. It’s just part of the city. Yggdrasil, on the other hand, was built explicitly to deal with the encroaching Helheim Forest and you know what it’s not that big a deal, because the multipleworlds thing bugs me even more than that.

…Although, since they’re apparently sticking with the outdated “every rider is his own world” method, which has basically never been true, with the exception of Decades ARs, I suppose it could make sense to have both towers appear. Fuuto and Zawame are different cities, and most Rider seasons are set in Tokyo. That would account for the Skywall, as well – it’s from a different world. That’s the best way to show ‘things aren’t where they should be’ - to have landmarks from parallel worlds and different cities all appearing in the same place.

Tsukasa explains that Swartz has been using Sougo for his plans since he (Sougo) was a young boy. He pulled him to that ruined future, and gave him the time powers there. Then he set him on the road to gathering the powers of all the Kamen Riders – thus consolidating them into one complete form. Namely, Grand Zi-O.

…Okay, the multiverse thing still doesn’t pan out, here. If they were all in different worlds, then Sougo couldn’t have met them! They specifically said once, during Shinobi, that the Time Mazines can’t go to different timelines – which would presumably include different realities along with it. So, the people that Sougo met couldn’t have been riders anyway, regardless of his interference.

…Wait. Unless Swartz is actually pulling the assorted AR worlds together – by removing the ‘original’ or ‘main’ versions of the Riders, he removes the potential for there to be alternate versions of them. So the Shinji who worked at Atashi Journal, the Wataru who was a small child, high schooler Takumi, and so on… none of them can exist, because the Shinji from Ore Journal, the Wataru who was an adult, dry-cleaner Takumi, and so on were never riders.

I mean, I don’t know if that’s where they’re actually going with this, but it’s a good theory, right?

I can still try to make sense of this, right?!

ANYWAY.

Sougo’s despairing over the fact that all of his fights have been playing right into Swartz’s hand, and I think that Woz is trying to reassure him? I’m not sure – I can’t make out any of what he’s saying there.

Geiz asks what they can do now.

“I already told you. I’m going to destroy the world.” Tsukasa sets down the mug he’s been holding this entire time. “This world is already lost. However… there might still be a way to save it.” He looks pointedly at Sougo.

Sougo pauses, and says that he understands, bringing up the ‘choice’ that Swartz told him about.

“Tsukuyomi’s path, Sougo’s path, or the path to Oma Zi-O.”

…Ah, man, I can’t tell what they’re saying now. I’m not sure what Sougo’s implying that he’s planning, but Tsukasa seems at least somewhat satisfied. The fate of the world counts on this.

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There’s a breif shot of the watch stand. It’s empty.

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Sougo stands in front of the wall of clocks, looking at them. It’s eerily similar to a shot in the opening… hang on.

Okay, no, he’s in a different outfit. In the opening, when Sougo reaches towards the wall of clocks and spins it backwards, he’s in a mint green shirt and tan pants. Here, he’s in dark green with white-and-black pants. But also? He’s just a little bit taller.

In the opening, he’s dwarfed by the wall, with the counters and everything else seeming to be so much larger than they really are. He’s not the one who’s really in control. The situation is so much bigger than he is.

But now? He fits perfectly. He’s coming into his own, both as a rider and as a person. He’s not holding the image of an idea that is so much more than he is anymore.

Sougo smiles as he looks at the assortment of clocks, saying that it’s time to head out. The acoustic guitar version of Over Quartzer starts to play.

Tsukasa – the only other person present – tells him to wait. There’s… he says something about either how there’s a lot of people involved, or there’s a lot of people counting on this, or that are at risk. Maybe he should be the one to carry out this plan-

Sougo cuts him off. It has to be him. He tells Tsukasa to listen. He’s been ready for this since he put on the belt. Or… maybe… he’s always been destined for this moment.

Tsukasa looks… I don’t know what that is. Surprised? A dull form of surprise or shock, that he wasn’t sure if this young man would actually be willing to pull this off?

Sougo does seem to have one small regret though, in that he doesn’t get to tell his uncle. He picks up a note off the counter.

…Junichiro has terrible handwriting. Holy shit. Like, that’s damn near illegible – I’m lucky that it’s just enough that I can tell he signed it, via using the Rider Wiki having his name. Given the preview from the last episode, I’m assuming he went out to the store? Maybe?

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In a plaza, Tsukuyomi is attempting to help people escape the assorted mooks, shooting with her Faiz Phone X and instructing them to run. Woz, meanwhile, is sitting and watching, like an absolute tool. She’s pissed at him, and basically yells that he can help out any time now, thanks!

“Okay, okay, fine…” He gives the single most put upon sigh as he transforms into Ginga Finaly.

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Geiz is in a construction area, beating mooks off of people with a literal pipe, until Swartz shows up, apparently taunting him.

Cue Revive Fury versus Another Decade.

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Junichiro is screaming as he’s being approached by two Waste Yummys and the Bison Yummy.

Oh, judging by the box with the shops logo, he wasn’t out shopping, he was making a delivery.

“LOOK OUT!”

Zi-O blocks the Yummy, shoving them away from his uncle – notably without saying anything else to Junichiro.

Why is that notable?

Because Junichiro’s next line is “…Eh? Sougo-kun?”

Me, crossing my fingers as Zi-O prepares a finisher: please have known all along please have known all along or at least have caught on at some point please

Zi-O, having finished the monsters off with a Time Break – don’t think I didn’t see those little circles flying off of them as they exploded, Toei, I saw those cell medals there – storms up to his uncle. “Uncle, are you an idiot? Why did you go out at a time like this!?”

“Sougo- that was- just now-”

Zi-O drops his transformation… and Tokiwa Sougo bows low to his uncle, apologizing.

“Uncle… I’m sorry. I wanted to tell you… the truth is, I’m a Kamen Rider.” As he straightens back up, the piano version of Toki no Ouja starts to play. Junichiro is speechless as Sougo continues. “It’s a power that I’ve been using to fight, in order to protect everyone.”

Junichiro doesn’t seem to know what to say, just asking if this is how he’s being a king.

Sougo… supposes that’s true. But he has to go, so that he can save everyone. He just wanted to tell his uncle first.

Junichiros response? “I can’t do much, I just fix clocks. But you… You’ve got such a responisibility. Go. Have a safe trip.”

I don’t think Sougo expected him to react this well, he probably expected that his uncle would try to stop him, or protest in some way, at least. But really, clearly Sougo hasn’t been paying attention. Junichiro barely batted an eye at the Imajin asking him to fix the Denliner. This isn’t much of a stretch at all.

“I’m headed out.”

Junichiro kind of looks like he’s about to cry as Sougo runs off – tears of worry and of pride.

Sougo runs down the partly ruined street, as his Time Mazine zooms down in the ship mode.

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Sougo is in the cockpit of the Time Mazine, which is barely lit by dark blue light.

“One last trip through time…”

He looks at the display, set for 2068.

“Time-space system, activate!”

Time Mazine!

The machine zooms through the time tunnel, off into the future.

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Geiz, in a very ruined stairwell, fights a whole slew of mooks as Another Decade watches. He gets knocked down a few flights, and can’t get back up due to all the mooks who are basically on top of him.

Right up until Decade shows up to knock them away.

I can’t tell what they’re saying, but Geiz sounds really surprised that Decade’s still here.

They start fighting their way back upstairs together.

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Woz and Tsukuyomi are fighting against another set of mooks, in the same plaza they were in earlier.

Eventually, Woz calls down a bunch of mini planets to destroy the mooks and a Violence Dopant, because of course Ginga can do that. This might as well happen.

A bat-type Roidmude appears, advancing on Tsukuyomi – before Mashin Chaser flys in from nowhere, tackling it down, and quickly dispatching it with the Spider Viral Core’s Tune attack.

He then immediately falls to his knees, clutching at his head, before dropping his transformation. His hand shakes as he wonders why he just saved a human.

Woz, being far too flippant for my robo-lad’s current existential crisis, hops down from the steps. “It’s quite simple, Chase. According to this book, in the original timeline, you, too, were a Kamen Rider.”

“I’m… a Kamen Rider?” Chase looks at his shaking hands, and we get another flashback. (Toei no don’t break my heart like this…)

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Chase, in a warehouse, water pouring from a broken pipe. He holds up a shift bike, determined.

Kamen Rider Chaser stands under the pouring water after his first transformation.

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Chase roars in denial, slamming his Break Gunner to activate it.

Break up!

Mashin Chaser yells. He’s a GRIM REAPER, damn you!

(Toei, NO! Don’t break my heart like this!)

He brutally starts attacking Woz.

––––

2068, in front of the statue commemorating the first transformation of Tokiwa Sougo.

…Oh, now that’s interesting. The other times we’ve seen this particular statue, the riders weren’t posting at all – they were just standing, looking somewhat down. Right now, though?

Each and every one of them is doing their post-transformation pose.

Interesting.

So’s Sougo’s comment, which I think is ‘The most important person in the world…’

Sougo’s arrived at a point where there’s a smaller fight between the resistance and Oma Zi-O. It’s not that final stand we saw in the first episode, with the copious time mazines – the battlefield isn’t nearly large enough to be that one. But Geiz and Tsukuyomi are both there, both shooting at Oma Zi-O; her with the Faiz Phone X, and him with a machine gun.

People are being injured/killed left and right. Sougo goes to Tsukuyomi, who’s just been knocked down, asking if she’s alright.

He slips a blank ridewatch into her pocket.

I’m not sure what Geiz is yelling at them, but I’m pretty sure it’s something about ‘if you’re not going to fight, then get out of here!’

Tsukuyomi seems to feel the same, telling him to hurry up and run.

His expression stoic, Sougo tells them that they should hurry and get out. He’ll take care of this.

He pulls out his Ziku Driver, and the Zi-O Ridewatch as Tsukuyomi, Geiz, and the handful of resistance members look on.

“HENSHIN!”

As Kamen Rider Zi-O strides forward to face off against his future self, Geiz and Tsukuyomi are stunned. They know that armor and transformation, even though they’ve not yet met him properly in person.

––––

Oma Zi-O and Kamen Rider Zi-O stand across from each other, in that same valley where they’ve fought twice before. Or, where Sougo’s fought him before, and Oma may or may not have been on the current side yet. Time travel, yanno.

Oma says… er, basically that his younger self has no hope of defeating him.

Sougo… he says that that may be true. That this may really be his future.

Even so… he still has to try.

He pulls out his gun – his gun, not his sword – and fires, charging at Oma.

I’ve said before that Sougo almost never uses the gun form, and it’s true. All of his upgrades exclusively gave him a sword. The gun is only ever used for strategic purposes – Sougo doesn’t usually fight at a distance, he’s much more of a close range combatant. This only serves to make the fact that he pulls it out as the gun form all the more unusual.

Each shot is blocked by little mini forcefields that Oma raises for each individual blast, before Sougo is finally close enough to switch into the sword. Each strike is blocked, before Oma shoves him backward with waves of orange and black energy.

Sougo – still in base form Zi-O – lands, and as he pushes himself up…

“Let’s go.”

He pulls out the Trinity watch.

––––

2019

Geiz Revive Fury and Decade versus mooks and Another Decade.

They’ve made it back out into the open, and quickly dispatch the assorted mooks, leaving the two riders and the single villain.

Swartz… ugh, I can’t make it out, but I think he’s saying something about how they can’t stop him, the world’s already finsihed.

Both Geiz and Tsukasa say that’s not true. There’s something about Tsukuyomi in there – either they’re saying that it’s not Swartz’s world to take, it’s hers… or that they’re choosing her. They’re not choosing this world, they’re choosing Tsukuyomi’s.

Or they’re saying nothing of the sort, because I just can’t pick out enough words that I recognize to be sure at all.

Regardless, Swartz screams in rage, and starts wailing on the both of them, before knocking them both down. Aiming for Geiz, he charges his copy of Tsukasa’s rider kick – card images and all. They’re eerily accurate, too. They’ve got the exact Decade logo on them, but they’re black and dark purple, instead of the lighter magenta that Tsukasa would have.

It doesn’t matter, anyway. As Another Decade passes through the last card-

A yellow beam of light shoots from the sky, and warps Geiz away.

––––

Tune! Chaser Cobra!

It doesn’t matter, anyway. As Mashin Chaser’s whip attack reaches Woz’s location-

A green beam of light shoots from the sky, and warps Woz away.

Growling, he turns to Tsukuyomi.

––––

Trinity time!

Sougo, in the Trinity Cockpit, smiles a little as Geiz and Woz appear. “Oh, good, it worked.”

I don’t think they were sure it would.

Woz, appearing as an overlay on his shoulder, says that they’ve made it to 2068.

Geiz, doing likewise, says something about Oma Zi-O.

Sougo, no overlay in sight, says that in any case, it’s time to fight.

Trinity charges at Oma Zi-O, wielding Zi-O II’s sword.

––––

2019

Kamen Rider Decade dusts off his hands as he stands up. Time for Decade Versus Decade.

Swartz almost laughs at that. You think he’s only got Decade’s powers?

He freezes Tsukasa in time. His own power is even stronger. As he advances on the frozen Tsukasa, he’s frozen, himself.

Kamen Rider Diend strolls up, one hand outstretched. “Oh, you mean the power you gave little ol’ me?”

Decade’s fight music starts to play as Daiki straight up whacks Another Decade with his gun, breaking both magenta men out of their paused states.

As they stand next to each other, Tsukasa has to be rolling his eyes under that helmet. “Took you long enough.”

“Let’s go, Tsukasa.”

Kamen Riders Decade and Diend – Kadoya Tsukasa and Kaitou Daiki – attack Another Decade in unison.

––––

2068

KING GIRI GIRI SLASH!

Trinity slams his slash attack down on Oma, but said overlord just pushes the energy to the side. They rush him, bringing the sword itself down on him, and when he blocks it with his crossed arms, a ring of dustclouds explode around the combatants.

Trinity forces the sword down, before abruptly yanking if off of where he’d been pressing it against Oma, using the loss of that resistance to throw Oma Zi-O off balance, and pointing the tip of the sword at his torso. Under the helmet, Sougo at minimum is grinning.

Trinity Time Break-Burst-Explosion!

A beam of attack power pushes out from the sword, blasting Oma Zi-O back into the cliffside, where he leaves a massive impact crater before falling to the ground.

He asks where his younger self found this sort of power.

Sougo’s answer? It’s not his power. It’s his friends power.

In the cockpit, we see the three standing side by side, their sections of the faceplate behind them, but they aren’t in a circle around the clock, or in divided screens. They’re all on one visual plane.

According to Sougo, and my very limited understanding of what’s being said, because I don’t recognize most of this… there’s more than one path to take. He’s not taking the one that leads to Oma Zi-O. He’s taking the one that he’ll make with his friends.

Oma Zi-O seems to find that interesting, and says that Sougo’s… what, fighting for his friends sake?

And I’m not sure what just happened, but Geiz doesn’t know what Oma’s talking about either, and Woz tells Sougo to be careful…

Right before the Trinity transformation ends, leaving only Sougo standing in front of Oma Zi-O.

Just Sougo, without any armor.

He’s not even wearing his belt.

He also doesn’t look surprised, or concerned. Just angry.

––––

2019

Woz reappears right where he left from, in his civilian attire, and looking confused. Tsukuyomi is nowhere to be seen.

––––

Geiz appears right where he left from, in his civilian attire, and looking both confused and frustrated. Decade and Diend are still fighting Another Decade, and getting kicked around a fair bit, before Swartz scoffs, and says that Tsukuyomi is his to… uh, I think kill is the word here.

He dimension-walls himself out of there, and Geiz curses.

––––

2068

Tokiwa Sougo stands across the field from Oma Zi-O.

“Now what? You’ve sent your friends away, and what for?”

There’s no background music, just the sound of the wind.

Sougo stays calm. “That’s because I’m not here to fight you. But… I’m still going to defeat you.” He starts to walk forward. “Tell me, what is the power of Oma Zi-O?”

Oma Zi-O looks a bit to the side. “It’s the power to destroy space and time.” The orchestral version of Toki no Ouja starts playing. I can’t quite make out the next part of Oma’s answer, unfortunately. Something about Swartz’s granting him time powers, and his own powers over space, and those combining. I think.

Sougo responds that the two of them – himself and Oma – aren’t the same.

Oma… agrees. I think, and says that he looks forward to seeing the world Sougo will make, before sending him back in time.

A muscle twitched in Sougo’s otherwise expressionless face – the ghost of a smirk trying to make it’s way through.

Oma Zi-O looks up, a note of resignation in his voice. “That’s it, then.” He makes a small noise, almost like a laugh… and says something about… I think it’s that ‘this is what he can do to help.’

He raises one hand to the sky, firing motes of golden light out.

––––

As the other members of the resistance continue retreating, Geiz and Tsukuyomi stop. I’m not sure what they’re saying, but it’s something about how that guy was strange, that he must have had some sort of plan.

Motes of golden light pass over them, and a pink light comes from Tsukuyomi’s pocket, seeming to shock her physically to make sure she notices.

The ridewatch Sougo had slipped her glows white, but quickly fades… and it’s still blank.

… the one that kept making its way to Sougo in episode one stayed blank for a long time, too, right up until he showed the resolve to fight.

––––

2019

Tsukuyomi reaches a different plaza, still running from Mashin Chaser. She begs him to stop, she knows he has a human heart!

He just yells that he doesn’t have a heart, he’s a Roidmude- but he freezes up. He can’t move. It’s not the time powers in action – it’s that he’s seized up. Like one part of his programming is stopping him from moving, from lowering his arm and pressing the trigger. There’s a very deliberate shot of his hand holding the break gunner, finger raised.

Swartz – as Another Decade – comes up. “That’s enough. She’s mine… Finally, little sister…” He goes to attack her, but-

Chase stops him, rushing up and grabbing his arm, shoving him back. He may not be human, may not have a human heart, but. But the human heart is the most beautiful thing there is!

He goes on the offensive – against Swartz.

But Chase tends to get sloppy when he fights with his emotions running high. It’s simple enough for Swartz to redirect his straight charge with a pair of dimension walls, placing Chase behind him and charge-kicking the Roidmude in the back, sending him staggering. I can’t tell what Swartz says, but it’s definitely an insult to Chase – as a Kamen Rider.

Chase staggers backward, his transformation breaking. He starts to fall to the ground, but Geiz catches him…

(Toei… no…  don’t… don’t break my heart like this…)

Purple arcs of electricity cross Chase’s body as Geiz holds him.

“You… were right. I really am… a Kamen Rider…”

Geiz’s face is partly hidden in his collar. “You’re more than that – you’re a friend.”

Geiz – who only met Chase today, who probably only knew him as a hero from what Gou may or may not have said during Over Quartzer, and from his actions right now – is telling Chase that they’re friends.

“That’s… nice. That even now… I’ve made another human friend…”

(Toei. No. Don’t. Don’t break my heart like this.)

Chase glows a light purple, and dissolves into motes of purple light, leaving his core floating, before it, too, dissolves.

(I, a Drive fangirl, and particularly a Chase fangirl, am going to have to bury my face in a pillow when I’m done here.)

Geiz can’t talk. He’s too stunned by what just happened – he’s trying not to cry, I think.

Swartz advances on Tsukuyomi. Now that that little distraction’s over with, it’s time for her to die.

She backs up, terrified. Time feels like it slows down. Not, like, the type in this show where it actually does, just the muted, echoing effect of a single moment.

“TSUKUYOMI!” Sougo runs towards the scene. “THE WATCH!”

“Eh?”

“THE ONE I GAVE YOU!”

Confused, she reaches into her pocket, and pulls out a blank ridewatch – that very shortly isn’t blank anymore.

It’s white, with a mask, and the year ‘2068’ written on it.

Woz comes in from the other side, still at a distance. “Go! Tsukuyomi!” He throws her something.

Tsukuyomi catches a Ziku Driver.

Sougo nods, certain. Geiz looks confused as all get out. Woz looks like he’s hoping this will actually work.

She puts on the belt, and raises the watch, turning it.

“Tsukuyomi!”

Techno standby music plays as she places the watch in the driver, and spins it.

“Henshin!”

A gorgeous transformation sequence later…

Clad in a black undersuit, with white armor and gold accents, with a cresent moon-shaped visor, and a gold-trimmed cape and side-skirt…

Kamen Rider Tsukuyomi makes her appearance.

––––

The closing screen is Geiz Revive at the bottom, Trinity at the top…

And Tsukuyomi in the center.

––––

The preview for the final episode… and it’s a battle theme playing, not Over Quartzer.

Grand Zi-O versus Another Decade.

A brief flash of Kamen Rider Tsukuyomi.

A splitscreen shot. Kamen Riders Grand Zi-O, Double CycloneJokerXtreme, Wizard Infinity Form, OOO Tajador, and Gaim Pineapple Arms are on the top.

On the bottom… okay, so, I have no idea who most of these villains are. There’s Gamedeus in the center, and Evolt to the far end, but the others? Not a clue.

Over top of that, and the two groups starting to fight, we hear Sougo practically growling, saying ‘I have the power of all the Riders.’

Flashes of Tsukuyomi and Woz, as themselves, looking concerned. At this point, they add in a subtitle disclaimer saying that Zi-O is fiction. (Thank you, Google translate for my phone, which allows me to hold it up to a screen and get an idea of what’s written.)

A quick shot of Oma Zi-O on his throne, his face obscured – and text implying that we’re going to get to see his face!

Someone – either Oma Zi-O or Swartz, because they sound really similar when Swartz is Another Decade – saying something about… I don’t know, that this is his battle? I think?

But that’s played over the previous two sequences, and a sequence of Sougo, openly weeping, holding a very injured Geiz, who’s going limp.

Then, Sougo standing, furious… and then him activating the belt that Oma Zi-O wears.

In a defeated voice, “I’ll become Oma Zi-O…” and then, in that same growl as earlier, “HENSHIN.”

The final shots are two angles of Oma Zi-O. In armor. And in the present day.

–––– ––––

(deep inhale)

(sharp exhale)

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!

[grubloaf]

Whole band Kidfic, or Skwistok kissing practice >:]

[irishcoffeeslushie]

What You Left Behind: Which Kpop group would have made it big if they hadn’t split up?

Source: https://www.ptt.cc/bbs/KoreaStar/M.1447196152.A.D77.html

Another translation of mine from the Mandarin-speaking community. A Kpop fan asked Taiwanese netizens which Kpop group would have succeeded the most if they hadn’t broken up, and people had a lot to say, but overall, the votes were almost unanimous in their support and regret for ..

DBSK/TVXQ/東方神起

Which is not much of a surprise, lol. Even JYJ admitted that they ‘shone the brightest’ when the 5 of them were together (source). If wishes were horses. 

This is what netizens had to say about DBSK:

‘It’s sad.. and ironic that their very last single together was called Toki Wo Tomete [If Time Could Stand Still].’ (TRANSLATOR’S NOTE: I admit I nearly broke down when I saw this comment. I vividly remember how upset everyone was when this song came out, and the thousands of tributes to this song and the possibility of a reunited DBSK.)

‘They would have gone on for another 10 years at the very least.’

‘The five of them with their acapella voices was the best thing that ever happened.’

‘If nothing had changed they would still be the undisputed kings of Kpop to this date.’

‘DBSK’s breakup is a tragedy no matter how you look at it.’

‘DBSK, hands down. They were the reason I switched from Jpop to Kpop. I still watch some of their earlier performances from time to time. They were epic during their heyday.’

‘DBSK.. how I hope to see them all together, once again.’

‘I would say DBSK, but considering what happened afterwards, I don’t think they’ll ever be able to reunite again, after all the words that have been said, Even if they do it’ll never be the same. I suppose the way they are now is probably for the best.’

‘I miss DBSK .. but all good things must come to an end.’

‘DBSK. They were good at simply EVERYTHING. You name it, they had it.’

‘DBSK.. everything’s in the past now, and I think they’re happy where they are at the moment, but they were once unparalleled. No one could hold a candle to them. They truly were the best.’

Other netizens chimed in with the following bands:

EXO

‘They started off so well. It’s such a pity.’

‘The producers who came up with the EXO concept must be vomiting blood now.’

‘EXO M is non-existent.’

‘Perhaps EXO would have done better without Chinese members.’

‘I miss EXO as they were during 2013 MAMA.’

KARA

‘I used to really like Nicole.’

‘KARA of course. They were doing so well in Japan.’

‘Out of all the girl groups, I would have to say KARA. As for boy groups, DBSK, hands down.’

‘KARA were able to participate in Kōhaku Uta Gassen. They were invincible!’

2pm

‘I wonder what would have happened if Jaebeom (Jay Park) had stayed.’

‘I think Jay is happier off doing his own thing. His style is far too different to 2pm.’

‘I agree that Jay’s style is completely different to 2pm’s, but I do wonder if he had stayed, would he have been able to bring 2pm to greater heights?’

‘They shouldn’t have let Jaebeom leave like that.’

Super Junior

‘I really miss Hangeng and Kibum.’

‘Hangeng..’

‘When Hangeng left SJ I cried with my friends for three hours.’

‘I remember Hangeng visiting Taiwan for the Asia-Pacific Film Festival, two days before he announced his departure. I was so shocked.’

‘I wish Hangeng and JYJ hadn’t left, but they did so because of contract problems. If SMENT hadn’t been so stubborn, perhaps they’d all still be together. I don’t think this was what any of them wanted.’

‘I agree that Hangeng didn’t really want to leave, and it was a shame he had to, but I thought it was also a shame that SJ was not favoured by SMENT even after he left.’

‘I’m just happy to see Heechul and Hangeng together again.’

SNSD

‘Jessica. She had such a presence.’

‘SNSD for sure. They’re the first and last group I’ve loved and followed with such fervour. I’ve liked other groups that came after them, but none of them ever quite measured up to the lofty heights of SNSD. I’ll never be able to get that feeling back.’

MBLAQ

‘I miss them so much.’

‘They were so cute and wonderful with Hello Baby but suffered from bad management and an even worse company.’

‘MBLAQ of course. I flew to Korea to watch their final performance as five, and oh how I wept.’

‘I’m so glad I went to Nangang to see MBLAQ when they were still 5. I miss them.’

‘I’m crying. MBLAQ, of course. They were so funny and quirky, but I don’t think we’ll ever see them reunited again.’

Other bands that netizens expressed regret and nostalgia for included SS501, 4 Minute, U-Kiss, BEAST, After School, 2NE1, Ladies Code, HOT, SES and T-ARA.

TRANSLATOR’S NOTE

Most of these bands were from my own high school days. The feels are real. DBSK goes without saying, of course. Their departure in 2009-2010 caused a very real rupture in the canvas of the Korean entertainment scene, and threw everyone off balance. SHINee was in the wings, and SM certainly did everything they could to make sure that SJ and SHINee (and EXO after them) were able to fill the gaping void that DBSK had left behind, but it was never really the same.

Another band I concur with are SS501, who were a game-changing group with their explosive hit ‘Because I’m Stupid.’ For years they were all over the place and were a veritable household name.  Kim Hyun Joong, the face of the group, was everywhere; he starred in one of the most popular Kdramas of all time, Boys Over Flowers, which has since then achieved cult status. The cultural impact they had was massive. 

2NE1 also deserves a mention. They were incredibly successful too and their music was fabulous, but as these things go, everything just fell apart. 

One group which hasn’t split up, but merits a mention because they’ve completely faded out of the Kpop scene, is FT Island. During the late noughties this group, Lee Hongki in particular, was huge as well. Lee Hongki, much like Kim Hyunjoong, was an actor who starred in another cult-status drama, You’re Beautiful. The drama was such a hit that it inspired two remakes in Japan and Taiwan respectively, though neither came close to achieving the cult status of the Korean original.

If I’ve missed any of your favourite groups or idols I’d love to hear back! Please reblog and/or like if you enjoyed reading this.

[davincichode]

Hey! 1,10,20,30 and so on till the end for the questions.

Hey! Thank you! I’m not sure when you sent this, but thank you regardless!

This could be fun (or depressing)

1: Name

Michael!

10: How tall am I

6′2″

20: First thing I notice in new person

Their smile and/or their laugh. Next up is their hairlines.

30: How I feel right now

Full, mostly. I took full advantage of Fat Tuesday

31: Someone I love

@watermelonnoises

32: My current relationship status

dating

33: My relationship with my parents

Really good actually! Our phone conversations are very sarcastic these days but there’s lots of love.

34: Favourite holiday

Christmas, then Halloween

35: Tattoos and piercing I have

None so far

36: Tattoos and piercings I want

Tattoos: Something very minimalist and hipster. I had an idea that whenever I visit an ocean for the first time I’d get its name tattooed on me in like typewriter font. And I’d get them done in the languages of the countries where I visited them for the first time.

Piercings: I kind of wanted a trendy ear piercing but I’m not sure what would look good on me

37: The reason I joined Tumblr

Lord knows, but some friend probably told me to sign up

38: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I mean I hope not?? We’re not on speaking terms but I don’t hate him or anything

39: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?

I had a conversation with my friend Jazz a few months back about how I wasn’t doing so well, and ever since she’s sent me good morning and goodnight texts with sweet/inspirational messages. I adore her for obvious reasons.

40: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

I’ve done far worse to the last person I texted

41: When did I last hold hands?

Probably when I last saw @watermelonnoises

42: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Twenty minutes? This depends on how conscious I am

43: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?

Afraid not

44: Where am I right now?

In my living room next to the window, watching the storms.

45: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?

Looking at you @watermelonnoises (though I’m not sure how she’d carry me)

46: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

Loud if I’m in a mood

47: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

I live at my university and stay with them during breaks

48: Am I excited for anything?

I’m going to California with one of my best friends in a few weeks!

49: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

This is getting embarrassing @watermelonnoises

50: How often do I wear a fake smile?

(:

But in all seriousness, I’ve been working on correcting this lately

51: When was the last time I hugged someone?

@watermelonnoises!!!

52: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

53: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Nah, I’m pretty good about that

54: What is something I disliked about today?

My Portuguese professor kind of went on a rant during our review today and things got personal. I think she misses her country and who can blame her tbh

55: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

Oh God, so many people. Malala Yousafzai, Gillian Anderson, Florence Welch, Bette Midler...

56: What do I think about most?

Sex and food

57: What’s my strangest talent?

I can bullshit papers like nobody’s business. I’ve never actually tried on a written assignment in my life.

58: Do I have any strange phobias?

Fish when I was younger I guess? But not so much anymore

59: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

I love photography, but it’s been a goal of mine to get into more film acting soon!

60: What was the last lie I told?

“Yeah, I studied!” Not original, but I’m honest

61: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

If you call me I don’t have to make my face less ugly

62: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

YES and Yes

63: Do I believe in magic?

Hell yeah

64: Do I believe in luck?

Both kinds

65: What’s the weather like right now?

Stormy and blustery. Lightning in February, and not for the first time this month. Imagine.

66: What was the last book I’ve read?

Wicked! Excellent read

67: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

Not anymore

68: Do I have any nicknames?

Nothing consistent

69: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

I once got a fishhook stuck in my nose

70: Do I spend money or save it?

I’m good at saving, but when I spend money I go all fuckin out

71: Can I touch my nose with a tounge?

Nope! I’m tongue tied

72: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

Dennis, my cactus. He’s blooming beautifully right now.

73: Favourite animal?

I love dolphins

74: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Watching a scary movie! It was called From the Dark

75: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

Trump

76: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Donatella by Lady Gaga

77: How can you win my heart?

Persistence! Good food! A warm heart! Make me laugh! Travel with me! Let me steal your body heat when I’m cold! This was really hard to think about! 

78: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

“Here Lies a Poor Role Model”

79: What is my favorite word?

Saudades

80: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

I don’t really pay attention to who I reblog from unless they’re mutuals, in which case I couldn’t choose

81: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NfRtkCGE40A

82: Do I have any relatives in jail?

No but I have some that probably should be bless their hearts

83: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Mastery of all languages!

84: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

“What do you want to do with your life?” I make up bullshit answers for this one all the time

85: What is my current desktop picture?

I’m changing it soon because the resolution is poor but 

86: Had sex?

87: Bought condoms?

All my condoms have been gifted

88: Gotten pregnant?

Not yet but here’s hoping!

89: Failed a class?

No which is proof that God exists and performs miracles in this day and age

90: Kissed a boy?

Yes

91: Kissed a girl?

Yes

92: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

No and I feel like that’s really over hyped

93: Had job?

I currently work in a library and a theatre

94: Left the house without my wallet?

I carry my cards in my phone case so no

95: Bullied someone on the internet?

I’m not THAT big an asshole

96: Had sex in public?

I’m 90% certain that most of my sexual encounters have been in public

97: Played on a sports team?

I played tee ball when I was like 7

98: Smoked weed?

Nope. Asthma.

99: Did drugs?

Technically no

100: Smoked cigarettes?

Asthma.

101: Drank alcohol?

Not frequently

102: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

I Need Meat

103: Been overweight?

I was a chunk in middle school

104: Been underweight?

I pretty much stopped eating last semester lol that was fun

105: Been to a wedding?

When I was 3. I insisted that I wear my Zorro cape over my tuxedo. My parents love this story and the accompanying photo.

106: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

lol

107: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

LOL

108: Been outside my home country?

I toured Europe in high school

109: Gotten my heart broken?

I suppooooose

110: Been to a professional sports game?

No actually

111: Broken a bone?

Nope

112: Cut myself?

Nope

113: Been to prom?

I went my sophomore year with the same friend I’m going to California with!

114: Been in airplane?

I LOVE flying

115: Fly by helicopter?

A rich family friend owned a few helicopters and took my cousins and I up when I was little

116: What concerts have I been to?

Just a few Christian ones with my dad and some smaller ones in my hometown

117: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

I do right now

118: Learned another language?

I’m always learning a new language. My strongest is Portuguese but I’ve also studied Spanish, French, Swedish, Welsh, Russian, Hebrew, Esperanto, Toki Pona, Italian... I feel like I’m missing a few. If you ever want to send asks in these languages I’ll try my best!

119: Wore make up?

Both on and off stage

120: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

I only sucked dick when I was a minor

121: Had oral sex?

^^^

122: Dyed my hair?

Purple when I was in high school and blue this past summer

123: Voted in a presidential election?

This past one

124: Rode in an ambulance?

Nope

125: Had a surgery?

A few in my mouth

126: Met someone famous?

Not that I know of

127: Stalked someone on a social network?

Oh gosh yes

128: Peed outside?

I grew up on 500 acres of woods, I peed outside more than in

129: Been fishing?

Yes

130: Helped with charity?

I used to volunteer a lot

131: Been rejected by a crush?

I guess but it apparently didn’t affect me much

132: Broken a mirror?

nope

133: What do I want for birthday?

Plane tickets!

134: How many kids do I want and what will be their names?

I can barely take care of myself man

135: Was I named after anyone?

Nope! Although my uncle’s middle name is Michael

136: Do I like my handwriting?

I write in cursive and it’s nice because nobody can copy off my work

137: What was my favourite toy as a child?

My stuffed Elmo!

138: Favourite Tv Show?

The X Files af

139: Where do I want to live when older?

Europe. I’m still deciding on Ireland or Portugal or somewhere else entirely

140: Play any musical instrument?

I played recorder for a few months in fourth grade

141: One of my scars, how did I get it?

My brother bit me in identical places on both my arms

142: Favourite pizza toping?

Pepperoni bitch

143: Am I afraid of the dark?

Only of what’s in it

144: Am I afraid of heights?

Not really, I love high places

145: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad?

Surprisingly not (more proof God is real because I snuck out a LOT)

146: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end

Haven’t we all?

147: What I’m really bad at

Anything musical

148: What my greatest achievments are

Errrrm. I’m already published. I’m alive, which is always nice. 

149: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me

I can’t think of much besides like generic middle school small town bullying

150: What I’d do if I won in a lottery

Pack my bags and fly my ass off to every country in the world

151: What do I like about myself

I’m pretty independent 

152: My closest Tumblr friend

I don’t think I have any friends who I strictly talk to on here

153: Something I fantasise about

No college debt

154: Any thoughts on the paranormal?

Yes. Ghosts are real. Aliens are around. I’m a slut for cryptids. And I’m always ready to talk about this shit.

Thank you for reading!!

[stolen-writer]

Her Melody, Their Final War

Notes: Hello everyone! First of all, beware of spoilers! Stop reading now if you have yet to finish completing the game!

As you can see, I am still hooked with Final Fantasy XV and all that. I can’t help but think about the past of the people taken in to be experimented on for the Empire so, here’s yet another songfic about it. This time, I used “Toki no Ame, Saishuu Sensou” or “A Passing Shower, The Final War” by IA, though I heard the Nico Nico Chorus version, which I totally recommend. I hope you guys like it! Here goes!

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There was a deep silence, there always was… No one had ever wanted to speak. They each knew one another, but never spoke. They had been lost. They were merely things now, never allowed to say or feel. That was how it always had been… Until one day, a small, yet young woman, started whispering in a gentle and melodic voice.

Answer me, please

They all raised their heads. It was a melody, yes, they all knew it. They were connected and for that very reason, they all understood. For some reason, each wanted to listen to it more, a new song, yet one that only they could form.

Oh, they hadn’t met each other before, they hadn’t always been connected. Each and every one used to be different. That was before they had been taken away to Niflheim’s secret empire base. Right now, they knew each other better than anyone else in the world ever could. They were connected, more spiritually than anything. The thoughts, the feelings, the wants and needs, the desire to leave that rotten place forever. They shared and suffered in silence, but now, a woman had made it clear with her voice… Finally, they could all follow.

I’m trying to fight the course of my emotions

Everyone was, so everyone sang. Those persons reunited in the small waiting room. What awaited them was something they had tried harboring and accepting for so long. The day had come and they were to turn into something that would never be human nor daemon… they wouldn’t be monsters nor a normal being, living in death, living to serve and die without knowing. A weapon, they were a group of weapons.

as the world sinks into the night on the streets visited by a sudden shower.

And outside, life continued on. Inside, there was nothing, just the coursing minutes, their last countdown. That was all that awaited them, nothing else would move, not even life or death, just that moment that would mark their own demise, half losing of things, of control… Though, upon arriving there, they never had control… But, right now, they wanted it. Even so, outside, a small shower fell and everyone continued on, the real humans would continue a normal course of life, of course. Even that sudden shower was enough to prove how left behind they were.

“From the moment we’re born,

we’re forever searching for answers that don’t exist.”

She remembered those words, in turn making the others remember the very same words. Who had said that? She tried recalling.

Walking through the vast hallway of nothingness, she had heard those words of a man close by. She tried looking around and finally saw a strange flash of wine violet in between extravagant clothing. He walked in peace, but as if a storm was consuming him inside. His eyes reflected pain as they observed the metallic road. Their eyes met for a split second, the violet-blueness and the truly pained red-violet had interacted for that second, to arrive at nothing. After that, he disappeared and they were divided by walls. She had been taken to the darkness, but where was he going so willingly?

After that question, everything faded, and she had turned into an atrocity. Why had she followed? Why did she listen? Why did all the others do the same? Why were they left with no other choice? Because, from the moment we are all born, we search for answers that don’t exist… and walk towards the path we believe will give us what we look for. But, even so, even if we were to be aware of it, we would keep on looking… Just like he surely continued doing, or so she concluded.

Answer me, please.

They did again. They were aware of the fact that there was no answer… but, why not ask once more? What if the answer changed? Curse that human hope we all carry inside of us. Curse the want to believe that things always change, that they can change if we try our best. Curse it… Curse it because they are starting to believe in it again.

Make it come true

Make what come true?

They all paused for seconds. What were they looking for again? Right… they had started gaining that faint hope with the melodies of the song the girl had started singing. Should they make the world they believed in come true? Did it actually exist? Did they really hope for change? What would they turn into truth? No one reached the answer, yet they continued singing.

How is the world today?

I’m guessing you already know that

without anyone telling you.

The world of the outside fascinated them all, this place was already too common for them to want to know more… it was also scary and dark. Nothing good came out of it, not even themselves. They figured that caring for others was the best way to go. But, even if they wondered about the other world, that world wouldn’t care for them. Even so, they knew how it all went there. Normal. Everything was a pacific, or maybe turbulent, normality.

Asking it, gave them a sense of relief. There was something outside other than this that they could assure themselves about. It was good to think that there was a place with a passing shower, a beautiful landscape and… real people.

But you probably still have trouble believing

in the end of these closing days.

Still, it was scary, terrifying. To think about the moment when they would disappear and be something man-made. It was just as scary as death. They wouldn’t dare kill themselves, but they didn’t want to turn into something as atrocious as they had read. One of them had found the writings, the experiments, so they all knew what was coming.

It was all a dream. Who was it that wished for that? Since one of them did, all of them did. Saddening, it was very saddening for all. They wanted to wake up in the outside, to disappear from a place like that. Everything was expressed in the shy song and the united thoughts that turned into one.

Beyond your mournful thoughts

is an endless banquet of good and evil.

The wants, desires of the higher ones doing all of this… Beyond all of the singing ones, the endless fight between good and evil ensued. They were being turned for a reason, of course. Was it evil or good? Was it both? No matter which answer was there to give, or even if there were none, as they had mentioned before, the banquet was to continue. Those people would keep up with their work… Many had already been sacrificed and they would be sacrificed later as well. It was only a matter of endless time.

“How ugly. There’s nothing to hope for.”

Thus you silenced your own voice.

That was something they had heard once. Thoughts shady as they were, they couldn’t decipher who had said those things… but they assumed it were the words of one of those who trampled with them…

They worked and worked just to complete the tasks given to them. Why would they need to like what they did? In the end, there was nothing they could look forward to, other than the completion of their tasks. Sad scientists…  or whatever they would call themselves. After those words, nothing else was heard. Like robots, they would continue with their job… No matter how much pleading their experiments would do, they would go unheard, ignored.

In this world where time flows by without mercy

and there’s no longer any room for hopes,

no one can determine what is right, and what is wrong,

so you may wish for anything you want.

She recalled that man again. He seemed like a person who had everything figured out, yet, he portrayed the opposite. He felt… abandoned by merciless time, just like them. But, he surely wasn’t being used as they were. Was he the leader? If he was… then he truly was a pitiful one. Even if he wasn’t, in the end, whatever he was wishing for or would wish for… was fine.

No one can determine anything. We’ve falsely thought we could, and have done so many things… and here we are. Even those who had made them suffer… they were just living. Even them, who were about to live in between death… were living and would continue living, no matter how horrible their destiny.

What’s the answer?

There’s none…

That much, they had known. Asking again, in hopes of having a change… they would continue that way. Maybe their minds were already failing. They would repeat things… even in between their song. But, it was fine, this was the last time they’d be able to sing together… that much they knew as well.

There was no answer, but they would still ask, their mind steady, looking for that path that would never come.

“I still don’t understand myself yet…”

There’s nothing but the echo of your sorrow.

Surfacing in some distant part of your loneliness is yesterday’s memory.

The boy who had voiced his feelings shed bitter tears. All of them listened and sang to it. It was fine, having human feelings still… was a good sign. They would let him enjoy that faint moment. Feeling what he felt, they all shed their own tears. This also made the woman recall how she still had dreams; how she wanted to be a mother. The connection sharing her thoughts with the others, their suffering increasing with the realization of the fact that none of their dreams would come to life, it was a hard thing to bear.

Remembering yesterday’s fresher days, they all showed faint smiles. Even if they had suffered before outside… it was always better in their minds. At least, before, they could enjoy the sun setting and the night sky, hoping with a bigger will about a brighter tomorrow. Right now, it was lonely… it was sad and dark. They were drowning in the feeling, and it wouldn’t stop anytime soon… or so it seemed.

The world is going to end today.

That’s what they had made up of the words they had heard earlier today. They were to be converted ‘finally’ today and there was no way of going back to how things were. ‘That’s a good thing’, they had thought at first, but, of course, nothing that happens inside here is happy… or good at all. The world was indeed going to disappear for them, half of their own will would disappear, it would be molded with what those monsters wanted to make up of them.

Try as you might to fight it, when the light falls, you’ll die a beautiful, glorious death.

The light… the king of legend. They had finally understood what this all meant. Now, singing the exact words they had been told… that’s how they knew they were to fight against the King of Light… When he came, they would die. It would be beautiful and glorious because they would die in battle… Of course, it wasn’t as good as it sounded. They didn’t want to fight, much more so if it was against such a presence, which represented a change of better things to come.

Once the King fell… Could it also mean if the King died? So… even if they did prevail in battle and successfully killed the King… they would still die. Such a great play with such small words. They would die, in the end, fighting or ending the fight. They would never be free from this, not anymore.

Unhappy with what you have, yet unable to realize what you want—

it’s always like that for you.

What was it… What did they want if there was nothing else to gain anymore? Sure, they weren’t happy with this… but, if they were to escape, what would they do? The end was always the same, they would die while suffering.

And, just like that, they could all hear the many footsteps. Their time was up. A whispering of the song, they would continue on with it.

Amidst this never-ending sorrow,

the two emotions shall complement each other and form a wish.

Those words… everyone wanted to hear something like that. A wish could still be made; they could at least have that done. So, they would muster up the courage to continue the song, even if those people already stood in front of them, grabbing them roughly towards their sacrificial rites.

 Do you still remember the meaning

of the tears shed that day?

In their heads, that day they had cried recalling their dreams and brighter days was a distant one. Maybe it had only been minutes, but it felt like an eternity to them…

The meaning of those tears was definitely still inside their minds. It was the fact that they could still dream, as broken as they already were.

Being pulled by those people, some of them placed already in position for their final war, one of them sang louder than the whispers they had portrayed as they were taken there.

This world isn’t over yet.

Even if the endless night closes off today,

Hope. Hope was being made once more. A gigantic feeling. His voice gave them a flurry of emotion, eyes starting to finally shine in between everyone.

The woman, last in line, even with teary eyes, could observe this better than anyone.

I’ll keep on singing: “It’s not that bad.”

Look, the dark sky is clearing up.

The ones up front, those who were already been placed, they sang… They had stated they would continue singing.

It was clearing up, they gazed at the ones on the back, including the woman who had started the singing, especially her. She could see inside them; they were about to give them an opportunity of escaping. Her heart started racing, probably because all of the others were racing as well. Waiting for her cue, they all remained silent for seconds.

I’ve cried enough; it’s time to make a fresh start.

That was the sign. Immediately after, the ones placed started moving erratically, they would toss and turn, surprising the scientists who had been preparing things calmly before. The more they tried to stop them, the more erratic the movements were.

The woman gave a big push to the ones moving her, and others by her side followed suit, it was time to escape.

I’ll live my life with my head held high,

embracing my steadfast feelings.

I might go on crying again, but that’s okay,

for after the tears, the smiles will eventually come.

All in unison, the melody reverberated the walls, everything around them. For a moment there, the lights started to flicker, and the system around them failed as well.

She ran and ran, others running by her side. Some of them fell, but with their eyes, they pleaded for the lucky ones not to stop. If even one of them successfully escaped, they would be happy. That was their wish, after all. So, the young woman ran, she had to run for them, the doors wouldn’t stop her. As the system malfunctioned, so did the doors. Breathing heavily, she rushed away, all while singing with them, even if she couldn’t hear them anymore.

Will there ever come a time when I can bring myself to say

that I’m glad I’ve been born into this world,

even if the rain’s gonna beat down on me again tomorrow?

Until that day comes,

Yes, they were surely singing as well. She wanted to believe firmly that they could also be saved… Still, she was being followed. She looked back, not one of her companions was in sight. They had all been captured, but she had to keep on running.

Curse their weakness, the way they had processed and messed with their organs and everything else… things she had forgotten she used to have already. They were rearranged to act so slow, almost inanimate. Curse them all! She cursed every single one who had touched her and all her companions… She cursed all who had taken their freedom away, cruel as it may have been. She cursed Verstael Besithia, she cursed him so much for everything, each and every thing.

Reaching for the next door, she sang the last words and felt a cold chill run through her spine.

I won’t give up.

And she saw him, right in front of her, that man… The one with suffering in plain sight. He stood right there, a shredding smile present. Tears started streaming as she saw this. Of course… he was one of those she hated, those she cursed. How had she fallen for the tricks of a man like that? Why had she thought of asking for his help if she ever found him? It was clear that he would allow for her to run past him, for he didn’t give another step, he remained staring deep into her eyes…  but it filled her with fear. Was that his goal? Why not stop her right on the spot? Why would he still trick her into believing he was on her side? Yes! She could’ve sworn she had seen a monster appear there, right when the lights had faded to dark… before his face turned back to a human one and the lights returned.

Her immobility caused for the others following her to throw themselves at her, making her fall harshly to the cold ground. Blood poured from her, already weakened from her attempted escape.

“Careful now, she is a mother, no? Be gentle with her or she may have a miscarriage... Surely you wouldn’t want to deal with something like that. Wouldn’t want to lose our new wares when they are in the making, right?”

For a second, she had thought he had cared for her… but, in the end, he didn’t even care for the living being inside of her. She herself didn’t recall… Knowing she had a baby, at a moment like that… it was the worst feeling she could imagine. She teared up, but in between that… she would still sing.

I won’t give up…

Ah...

What could’ve happened to the others? After finishing the song, she knew it… They had been lost. Women like her, they were still around. Having the bodies of monsters, they couldn’t run as far. It had been impressive how she had prevailed for so far… with a body like that. In the end, even she couldn’t reach the goal. She cried. They had all lost. Even their last wish… their final war, they had lost it. Uncontrollably, she sobbed, and the weakness of her body took over. She wasn’t sure where she was being carried… but she probably would meet a similar fate as the others.

Her head hung low, and she could stare at her stomach… that’s when an idea popped up… and hope was born once again, but, not directly for her. This time, she would do all in her power, and the power the others had given her in that last war, to save the creature dormant inside of her.

~

Notes: So, there it is! This actually ended up being the prequel to ‘Her Wish, His Lullaby. Please, forgive me for any inconsistencies, if there is any, with the connection to that story. I hope it was a good read. As always, your appreciation is deeply appreciated. I hope you all have a great day! Thank you for reading!