#but to be fair i think the hangup is that no matter what you're very close and friendly with shannon

[my-current-obsession]

My hyper-specific type when it comes to otome guys:

- Absolutely pathetic - Cannot speak to a girl normally to save his life - Tries to be calm/aloof, but turns tsundere when flustered enough - A good and pure man at heart, yet does some questionable things - ...Little Red Riding Hood???

[lurkingshan]

Love for Love's Sake Episode 5 & 6

Holy shit, y'all. This drama continues to blow my mind and be so smart about its world building and narrative structure. With each episode drop the show has been very smartly toggling back and forth between relationship development within the game and lore drops about what is happening outside the game, and these two episodes are no exception.

So we begin this week with relationship development, which was so fucking sweet. I love how honest Cha Yeowoon is about how he feels and what he wants. This boy has no ability to hide himself whatsoever, he wears his heart on his sleeve and his vulnerability on his face for anyone to see, and he's had a hard life with a lot of pain (who wants to join my murder squad to take out his dad?). It's no wonder he has kept his distance from people until he found someone he believed he could trust with it.

I love, too, that Tae Myungha's hangups have nothing to do with queerness--we probably won't ever know his dating history in the real world, but I think it's safe to say Yeowoon is not the first boy he has been in a relationship with. Instead, as suspected, his hesitation is all rooted in the fact that he's an adult in a game world he can't control, and he has no idea whether he can stay with Yeowoon. He is trying to be responsible, but the pull of those puppy eyes and pouty lips is simply too strong to resist (you're so valid for that, Myungha). I love that part of the game is also forcing Myungha to reckon with his own hurts, with his grandma and now his estranged mother challenging him to face his own trauma.

Which is why seeing these two bruised boys fall in love is oh so sweet. I love that even amongst the impending doom of the game malfunctions, we got to see them strengthen their bond, confirm how they feel, and grow comfortable with physical affection (though I would have liked to see more of that kissing lesson, show!). The kisses (complete with my beloved Gay Feelings sparkle effect), the hand holding, the flirting and public displays, it was all adorable.

And we needed that to hang onto when the game started experiencing server errors and Myungha became unmoored and unable to navigate the game universe effectively. It seems that his "friend" who trapped him in the game is indeed the one sending the anonymous mentions, and he's now messing with the game to change the conditions after Myungha has successfully altered Yeowoon's life. I like that this was rooted in another reveal about them discussing fate--Myungha is determined in his belief that our choices matter and we can always change our destiny, and it's clear his "friend" resents that stance and wants to show him he doesn't have control after all. And he is really not playing fair! Forcing Myungha to choose between his grandmother and Yeowoon is straight up cruel (our murder squad will also be taking this man out, we will be busy, besties).

Poor Myungha. I am so excited, so scared to see the big conclusion tomorrow, I trust that Myungha will find a way out of this situation. All I know is they need to find a way for our boys to get their happy ending or murder squad will be making another stop.

[xairathan]

It's midnight, I'm procrastinating, it's time to put out all the thoughts I've had about Yushura into a place where people who are interested can find them; and if anyone wants to write her but isn't willing to put in the effort then save yourself the trouble and keep my girl's name out of your mouth so you don't show the world your ignorance.

I'm not touching story-specific stuff; we're extrapolating things about Yushura's life and being off of logical deduction, disability consciousness, and the grounding of the great work and thoughts of many crips of color. We begin.

Starting off with something I think I didn't get to do in any of my works and that the setting utterly snubs: if care and disability aren't a focal point of spacian developments, then you know that the disabled spacians have figured out their own remedies and methods of care. The earthians will have as well, but given the resource disparity, I would be surprised if the two were connected. tl;dr - Disabled community almost certainly exists and we saw absolutely none of it in the setting with "unique challenges to the human physique endemic to expansion into space" nice job gwitch

Which leads into the next part: I believe that there's no real-world corollary to whatever Yushura's condition is. That fits in with what Cardo Nabo said in the prologue. From the clues we're given in the light novel, I have taken the stance that it's most likely an issue of the heart; if not the heart, then the lungs. The most likely causes I can envision are likely (a) exposure to low-gravity in the womb, (b) exposure to space radiation in the womb, and/or (c) long-term, multi-generational changes to the human physique due to life in space. There is also likely not one singular cause that is the 'source'; these factors together likely compound potential health issues. Finally, it can be inferred from Miorine's recollection of her and Yushura playing tag that Yushura was fully able-bodied at some point in the past, and her condition onset after they lost contact. This might play into Yushura's severe hangups about luck, especially if both her and her brother are predisposed to her condition, but it presented only in Yushura.

If you intend to take any of the above knowledge and employ it in a medicalist manner, stop while you're ahead, educate yourself on the medical vs. social vs. political-relational models of disability, and then come back.

With all of this taken into consideration, the following is my imagination of Yushura's life. If at any point in reading this you feel pity, check your ableism at the door and go write something more your speed, like suIemio.

Yushura prefers low-gravity environments, and likely lives in a low-gravity section of the Lapis Garden station, or else on a ship that travels at a set speed. My best guess is 0.5G (half of standard Earth gravity) but honestly, does it matter when we have no real way to test it? Due to living in low-gravity most of the time, Yushura has very little muscle mass. While she can (and probably should) exercise, perhaps it isn't necessary or perhaps she doesn't want to. I don't know how physical therapy in low-G works.

Due to working in low-G environments, and due to her weak grip, Yushura likely relies on many specialized tools for her work. I'm thinking custom gloves, magnetic strips on her worktable to hold things, things that make it easier for Yushura to work for long periods of time without straining her body. In the light novel, we see that Yushura is capable of cooking jelly/various gelatinous foods, which is likely her main source of food, as eating messy foods in low-G is asking for trouble. However, this does not mean she is incapable of eating solid food, and I imagine a CTO gets invited to a fair share of lunch and dinner outings for work.

Unfortunately, we do not know whether society in the Ad Stella universe, where the GUND format was originally created to assist with impairments, is ableist. However, given what we know of the setting, I presume that most corporate stations operate at 1G and space travel operates between 0-0.2G, meaning that as per real life, not very much thought is put into accessibility and the comfort of the disabled. Also I couldn’t find anywhere good to put this but my headcanon is that her earrings are secretly blood oximeters.

For further questions, story-related questions and discussions, and additional fawning over Yushura, please find me at Xairathan anywhere.

Also her last name is Mirzakhani (Iranian) and her first name is Yushura (Arabic) you can't tell me she's pasty white you colorist fucks I bet you liked Sumeru too

(in case anyone asks my tl;dr for her personality is we don't really get to see it since the narrative suborns literally everyone, even the main characters, to its runaway plot; however, I too would be tired of everyone's shit if everyone kept coddling me and assuming that they know my body better than myself)

[quinloki]

ABC Head Canon - Roronoa Zoro

NSFT Alphabet!

18+ Only!

-:- Table of Consent -:-

A = Aftercare (what they're like after sex)

He's good at getting you cleaned up afterward, and he'll cuddle and snuggle and wrap the two of you into each other afterward. His communication is still a bit lacking, but he'll check in on how you're feeling – mentally and physically – but more because he's worried about having over-done it.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner's)

Straight to the point that he is, his favorite part of you is his favorite place to bury his favorite part. He'll insist he likes all of you, and all your noises, but if you push him for favorites he's not going to beat around the push, his cock in your pussy (or bussy, let's be fair) is his favorite – and if you're not happy with that answer, he'll prove it's your favorite too.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Unless it turns you on, he doesn't really have an opinion. But if you admit that you like being covered in his cum, or having it fill you up and mess you up, he'll oblige with vigor.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

You're his first. No matter the bluster, or how many relationships he had in the past, he never got very far. He was horribly nervous about it the first time and was trying desperately to play it cool and hoping you wouldn't notice. For some reason it bothers him, and it's something you may never learn from him. He shouldn't be embarrassed about it, but he is.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they're doing?)

I mean, see above. I imagine in more modern AUs he probably does "research" by watching porn or surfing the internet. He might even swallow his pride and ask Sanji for advice (highly HIGHLY unlikely). But, you'll see that gentle side of him while he's learning – and if YOU are experienced he'll happily let you take the reigns – at least until he sorts out the details.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

As long as he has good lighting, he's not picky. Being able to see each twist and shudder of your body as you writhe in pleasure from whatever he's doing to you is all he needs. Your sounds are great, don't get him wrong, but he loves the way you look – heat flushing your skin, sweat glistening against the cool air, the shiver of your lips and the curl of your toes.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

While Zoro can be a goofball, it's a long time before he really loosens up in the bedroom. He's generally serious and focused because he's over focused on that whole "not experienced" hangup. He doesn't want you to walk away ever feeling anything but fully satisfied. It's a matter of pride, so it's not until you've had a few unavoidable ups and downs before he finally loosens up.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

He's green up top and down below, but if you're expecting any kind of manscaping you're going to have to ask for it. He won't even think about it unless you say something – and hey, if it doesn't bother you all the better.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

He's quiet and gentle. He's not sure what to say and he'd rather his actions lead anyway. He doesn't want to accidentally hurt you, and he could easily caress and kiss you for hours if you let him.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

He didn't really do it before you came around, but he does it more since he met you. Especially if it's before you have your first time together. You get into his mind and he can picture what he hopes things will be like and it gets him worked up. Even after you start having sex together he's always worried about wearing you out, so if he gets worked up shortly after sex he'll go handle it on his own.

You catch him one time and after clearing the air about why he was doing it, you end up working out other alternatives. I mean, at least let you watch.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

He might not realize he has kinks, but the more he learns and the more confident he becomes the more of a dom he becomes, and the more control he craves. So he'll start in with bondage, orgasm control/denial, teasing you to tears, and making you play with yourself for him. The more you enjoy something – whether you admit it with your words or not – the more he'll lean into it.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

He's a surprisingly private person in this regard, but if time goes by and options are limited he'll get riskier. At the very least he'll prefer places with doors – bedroom, bathroom, backroom, etc.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

He's kind of an "all you had to do was ask" sort of guy, and he's really good about asking for it once you assure him he's not going to scare you off with his frequency. But if you really want to start him off in high gear just get aggressive with him and initiate things without saying anything. He'll let you have your fun for a moment before he takes control.

N = No (something they wouldn't do, turn offs)

He won't whip you or risk drawing blood. Bruises, hickeys and welts happen and he's not even really a fan of those, but he absolutely will not risk scarring you.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Sake quickly becomes Zoro's second favorite thing to wrap his lips around, especially once he figures out all your weak spots. He might be a bit of a sloppy eater, but he's not lacking in skill. As much as he loves giving, he's not against getting either, but he prefers it when he can watch you.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He can be fast and rough, but he's going to start slow and sensual more often than not. Unless he's too riled up to restrain himself, his pace is going to be right in that sweet spot that seems to be tailored just for you. Not that he won't get his from it, especially when you're clamping down on him in pleasure.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

His preference is to be able to take his time and make you squirm and gasp under him, but he has nothing against tucking the two of you into a mostly private space and banging one out – and if he doesn't think he satisfied you that way he'll make sure of it doubly so once there's enough time.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He'll try new stuff at your urging, or ask you if you're willing to try something, but it's rare. Part of it is not wanting to let on that he doesn't already know what he thinks of something, and part of it is concern that he'll hurt you with something he's not practiced/knowledgeable in. As long as there's plenty of time for him to research or prep you, he'll be fine.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Zoro and Kid have this in common – you're not sure where the edges of his stamina actually are. Some point waaaaaay past what you can handle. He's not really interested in letting you wear him out to that point either – it'll make it harder for him to care for you after, and feeling tired makes him feel vulnerable in an uncomfortable way.

You do offer to let him cut loose one time, but after the 6th session of the day (and some of the sessions had multiple rounds) you can't walk yourself to the bathroom and have to wave the white flag, and he's still full of energy.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

He doesn't have his own toys, and after understanding how much stamina he has you don't volunteer yours. He doesn't have anything against them, but aside from some ropes and handcuffs, you don't have many props.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He's not intentionally cruel with his teasing, but he can get caught up in your wiggles and sounds that he drags it out so long that you're exhausted before your satisfied. You do end up satisfied, and first time it happened he felt so bad that the next time you went at it he didn't tease you at all and just made you cum over and over until you nearly passed out.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He's so quiet during sex it's hard for you to know if he's enjoying himself or not. He promises you he is, and has the full condom to prove it, but you'll hardly catch a grunt or sigh from him at all.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He likes to make flower crowns. He's really good at it, and if you go somewhere with wildflowers he'll have made some for the whole crew.

X = X-ray (let's see what's going on under those clothes)

Thick and a little longer than average. Kind of like Zoro it looks more intimidating than it is, and fills you up just so perfectly.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

He does his best to restrain himself, and lets you set the frequency. He'd take you every day if he could, but he doesn't want to overwhelm you, and he doesn't want you to think he's a horndog. The only time he'll turn it down is if it's going to interfere with another responsibility (for either of you), but you're both good about being responsible-enough-ish adults that it doesn't happen often.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Once he's sure you're good and you're both cleaned up (man's started taking more baths since getting with you, and the crew loves you for it), he falls asleep pretty fast. If you talk to him because you can't fall asleep he'll respond, but if you take too long to fall asleep he'll start petting you and doing what he can to get you to fall asleep so he can too.

[elismor]

A little while ago, @deewithani and I made a pact to write some reader-insert smut. I'm so proud of us for following through--it would have been super easy to chicken out.

Here's a link to hers When the Snow stops Falling (Mayday x F Reader) on tumblr

And here's mine Dating is Overrated (Rex x F reader) on AO3

Because this was an exercise for me, I wanna talk about it a little. Feel free to ignore my ramblings in favor of just reading the porn above. S'all good.

Even though I have been writing fic for many, many years, I am new to smut. My first foray into it was only last month (and can be found here (AO3) if you care (Thire/OFC Jedi)) and I've been noodling on other pieces of it in private. Just to see if I could do it in a way that I found remotely believable. Smut is a lot harder than I thought it would be. I am awed by the folks who turn out quality in quantity.

Doing it as reader-insert was very difficult and I think that was largely because of the fact that the Catholics got me early and there is still an underlying sense of...venial sin deep in my subconscious. Which is to say...I found writing 3rd person smut embarrassing and 2nd person...mortifying.

And that made me wonder if that is why a lot of people have trouble with Reader Insert as a genre--because there is no getting around the fact that the word YOU appears in the middle of some pretty dirty stuff and even if you say you read them with an outside perspective...you still have to do the mental gymnastics to get around the POV.

And I also wonder if the POV make it more jarring when something happens in the fic that is not your personal jam or even something that you find sexually repulsive. Like...I recently read some Cody/Rex that contained some stuff that I was like "NO thank you, skim skim skim"...but I wonder if I would have had a more visceral reaction to it if the same acts were occurring in a Cody/F reader (or Rex/F Reader for that matter).  Go on Codes, put your fingers there for Rex, but try it with me and you're gonna pull back a stump? Maybe.

Is there some sort of consent-based hangup maybe? I can't quite figure out how to phrase it...but I think there might be something inherent to the understanding that (in the Cody/Rex example above, anyway) everyone is consenting to what's going on but if I (as a reader) am put in place of Rex and would not consent to a particular thing, suddenly the act is extremely NOT okay and that kicks me right out of the fic entirely.

In some ways, I thought it was a little easier to describe things in 2nd POV. I'm not sure why, exactly...maybe because I didn't have to do the mental gymnastics of passing the descriptions out of my brain and into the character in question--to describe them in ways ways that the character might. Of course, that sensation is immediately countered by the thought that omg people might think this is ME I am writing about and...back to church for elis.

There also seems to be a pervasive belief that all RI is poorly written. I have been reading a fair amount of RI fic in the past few weeks in an effort to understand it more and I think my ultimate conclusion that it's no better or worse than any other genre in that regard. Some of it is pretty bad. But some is really incredibly well crafted. 

There is a sense of...immediacy in it that is sometimes lacking in 3rdPOV and I like that. Though...it [the immediacy] might also come from the fact that a lot of it seems to be written in present tense. Not sure.

Anyway. I enjoyed it as an exercise and think it's good to try to stretch personal boundaries when it comes to writing. Not sure if I will ever do it again, but I'm not ruling it out. I don't have a a real sense of how successful I was at the task, but it was worth the effort, I think.

I'd love to hear thoughts on this (the topic, not my relative success or lack thereof)(though, if you wanna talk about that...sure) from anyone who cares to share. Maybe especially @deewithani if she is willing.

[bisluthq]

Taylor has been 100x shadier when it comes to her exes as well as their ex partners. She released All of The Girls ffs. Kayla ain’t doing that. Idk why Swifties are acting so precious about what she does because by all accounts Taylor is much pettier. It’s like how Swifties are ready to revolt if Joe cheated on her meanwhile she’s said she’s cheated before and probably emotionally cheated on Joe.

Kayla legit isn't doing anything wrong.

I TOTALLY get it if you don't like her aesthetic or brand. That's just a matter of personal taste and no that would not be racist or misogynistic like that's just you liking what you like. Like I say, my fave influencer is Tally Rye and like if u tell me Tally annoys the shit out of you I'm not gonna go mount a defence because idk all influencers are a little annoying by definition and we just vibe with the ones that resonate. But like going "I don't like her aesthetic/brand" is one thing; going "I don't like her because she dated Taylor's boyfriend before Taylor did" is weird as shit lmfao.

Taylor shouldn't even be saying that because there is no evidence Kayla was like primarily at fault in the breakup/s. I've told y'all like I dislike my partner's ex-wife (who I've not met but might at some point because for the kids here who think otherwise you do bump into people y'all knew even if you're no longer in touch) because she hurt him super badly and was generally a crazy ass cunt and I'm the one now having to clean up some of her messes right because there are a number of hangups he has that are totally, 100% on her. The woman is a crazy ass cunt lol. HOWEVER, she is LITERALLY the only one of my bf's exes I dislike or have an opinion on beyond a few where they're nice and I like them (his first gf ever and him are still friends and she's in a tricky situation marriage wise right now and like we keep inviting her to come stay with us and we talk to her on speaker often and the two of them talk privately between that because like she's super lovely and I'm not going to be weird about him talking to someone he dated when he was 17-19 lol because like that was a long time ago???? And the girl is still nice!????)

My bf's most recent ex before me is someone I am very frostily neutral to but I think I told y'all the story as to why like when we moved in together he went off one morning about how I don't like tidy shit up and so I went to tidy shit up and I found a two page love letter from her from after the breakup like asking to get back together and I'm me right so I read the whole thing and 1) she's a shit writer lol 2) sorry for her that it didn't work like idk I guess as woman to woman I wish she'd managed to make it work since she seemed pretty upset in the letter 3) she left him - I mean they didn't live together or anything but they dated for like over a year - for her ex lol like that one's on her tho to then go writing letters is psychotic 4) I've asked him if like it'd make me feel better if I met with her like if we should yk reach out and invite her to stuff since it didn't end badly and he was like "no you're gonna hate the shit out of her and I don't want you to because I know how you're gonna make fun of her, and you will, but that's going to be making fun of me too and so you're better off in this current zone of neutrality" and I was like "fair enough king, I tried" (we have another ex he's still friends with - letter girl we hardly see around - he also doesn't want me to meet in person because apparently like her sociopolitical views are the kinds of shit I make fun of like a lot - like that ultra woke identity politics shit coupled with super centrist to right leaning fiscal policies and like lmfao yes I would make fun of that because that neoliberal shit makes no sense) but anyway: I don't dislike the clearly overly online woman lol and he can talk to her as much as he wants lmfao and I don't dislike letter girl like I don't want to read more letters from her but other than that she can do her thing.

So my point is if Taylor has no reason to be mad at Kayla why the fuck are fans mad?