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thesoundofanicefall · 4 years ago

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Soo i saw this theory in some fb page, it doesn't belongs to me and i want to know what you think about it.

(JUST A THEORY)

I've seen that many in the fandom are saying that thanks to what we saw in chapter 104, Yuu's biggest wish is for Mika to become human again...but is that really what he wants with all his heart?

Mmm...I don't think so. I'm not saying he doesn't want him to become human again, but that's something we all already knew, he never kept it a secret, since they met again Yuu made it very clear that one of his most latent motivations was to give Mika back his humanity.

He said it several times even out loud, in front of his squad, he said it to Mika, we all knew it.

So why does Ashera question him so much about what his true desire is, what he longs for the most. If his deepest desire was that, Ashera would already know it and wouldn't be so intent on knowing Yuu's true feelings.

This deep, hidden desire is something he does not want anyone to know, something he has kept to himself, something he is not willing to share with others and therefore something he has not told anyone.

We see at the end how he lets Mika into that place where he keeps hidden that which he wants so much to protect and what do we see? Nothing.

There is absolutely nothing except for a giant eye that observes almost obsessively the human Mikaela (probably a representation of how he has always perceived him, even though he is a vampire, demon, Yuu has never seen him as a "monster").

There is nothing else, even the only existing light seems to surround Mikaela.

For this reason I think Yuuichirou's deepest wish goes beyond seeing the blond being human again, this wish could very well be Mika himself, just like that.

Just Mika...

Hey dear!

Oh my....!

Such a nice theory perfect one!

Yeah I also personally do think exactly the same that there is something more, farrrr more weird about whole this scenario.

I really start to doubt if Yuu wasn't really hiding something big big biiiggg all this times

What if there's seriously another kind of personality or beast living inside of him that he was trying his best to hid it? And not gonna lie but I even started to think that what if he is that true villain that was even playing with Shikama doji too?! If he really has power of a God like Sun God Aten then why not actually.

This really makes me scare too tbh

This is such a wonderful, deep and nice analysis/theory please send my hello to its writer and tell them I really did enjoy reading their thoughts a lot!

And ofc thanks a lot to you too for sharing it ^^💖💖

Update

As a dear friend mentioned something about what an angel looks like with a big eye and all so I decided to share its picture I saw on Twitter awhile ago

So yeah that's have an Archangels with 6 wings and eyes on its wings looks like in bible then could it be that there's a beast living inside of Yuu really?!

#owari no seraph #seraph of the end #hyakuya yuuichiro #yuuichiro hyakuya #hyakuya yuichiro #yuichiro hyakuya #hyakuya mikaela #mikaela hyakuya #mikayuu #yuumika

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hongism · 3 years ago

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Hyello, okay so. I don't have the emotional energy to take in and discuss everything in that chapter so imma just gush over the info cause I am a ✨whore✨ for world building.

So obviously MOC SPOILER

hi bestie HELLO guess WHO!!! finally ANSWering!!! altho im gonna answer separately and space everything out all Neatly bc im all over the place so strap IN we’re going on an moc RIDE!

THERE'S A WHOLE SIREN COMMUNITY?! AND YN AND IT MUST BE WOOYOUNG WERE FRIENDS? SIRENS HAVE A FULLY FLEDGE COMMUNITY WITH PRIESTS AND SCHOOLS AND MULTUOLE CITIES TO SOME EXTEND??? MAYBE EVEN AN ENTIRE PLANET WITH SIRENS MAYBE THEIR ORIGIN PLANET? HOW MANY TYPES OF SIRENS ARE THERE AND IN THE COMMUNITY HOW DTRICT ARE THE DIFFERENT ROLES?!?! ALSO DOES THE SIREN COMMUNITY ALLOW FOR DIFFERENT TYPES OF SIRENS TO BE TOGETHER? OBVIOUSLY THEY SHOULD BUT ARE THE CHILDREN THEN HYBRID TYPES, LIKE WHEN WE GET BLUED DARK SKIND BABIES OR CAN A SKREN ONLY BE ONE TYPE. WHAT POWERS DO SIRENS HAVE AND DOES THE POWERS REFLECT THEIR PERSONALITY AND DO THE DIFFERENT TYOES LEAN TOWARDS CERTAIN JOBS. LIKE WE JUST LESRNED THE OCEAN GOTTA BE PRIESTS BUT MOON ISNT STRICT WHAT ABOUT FIRE. AND IS YN INSTIC TO PULL OUT A HEART CAUDE HER PERSONALITT, TRSUMA OR IS IT RELATED TO THE MOON. ALSO CAUSE ITS A RED MOON WHICH IS COMMONLY A BLOOD MOON, IS YN THEN A SPECIAL MOON SIREN AND THATS WHY HER POWERS ARE STEONGER OR HER INSTICTS TO USE THEM ARE STORNGER BUT THEN THE MILITARY FUCKED HER UP. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

now this is the thing im biting my tongue on SO HARD bc it’s my favorite aspect of the world building and the universe and everything involved in it bUTIHDFKJG THERS SO MUCH I WANNA SAYYYYYYYYYY in short that one dream sequence holds more hints and information than ANYTHING from previous chapters, i think that it’s probably the MOST IMPORTANT dream to date. while we’ve seen some crazy ones in the past, this one is both the biggest hint and the biggest window into y/n’s past by FARRRR. even tho that whole scene was dialogue i think there’s so much to pick up on from it and so much to see and learn from it and it’s one of my faves bc there’s so much to unpack from it !!

Like yes the story and the development is freaking ✨yes✨ I love it. Genuinely think moc should be released as books. But I just cannot deal with the emotions rn.

But also now all I'm going to be thinking about how many sirens are actually out there. And if yn knew her parents and wasn't just an orphan the military found in the streets... How the fuck did she end up in the military grasps. What happened to her parents what happened to the community, is it still out there? Guess I gotta go back and reread the galaxies and the backstories, obviously I must have missed or have forgotten something. Ugh how the puzzle pieces are puzzling (or something). Moc is a drug and I'm not going sober anytime soon

(obviously you don't have to respond to my questions, this is more just an insight into the spiralling of theories going on in my mind)

releasing moc as books? a dream and a half, i can say that much slkjdlgkjlkf but back to the sirens... how many are out there? we heard early on that hongjoong was looking for ‘the last five’ but then seonghwa debunked that and said that was a mistranslation over time that was passed down and such, but beyond that, we don’t really know much about sirens as a whole? there are some hints in the galaxies and planet descriptions but if that dream sequence is a puzzle, i would say we have a handful of pieces that can be put into place based on what we’ve learned so far!!!!

Okay I lied, I am ready to unpack a little of the ✨emotions✨

When hongjoong explained that hwa tried to stop San only for San to detain him and in a sense make him watch the scene unfold. And then realising hwa had to go through that again, only being even more helpless. I don't doubt hwa loves San, but to see the events happening again, with someone he clearly loves as much as he does yn even if he also loves joong, and to see the desperation and determination must have been just. Horrible. Just absolutely soul breaking horrible. I can imagine him vowing to himself after San that he would never let something like that happen again. That of any of the crew got out of control like that, that he would fight harder to stop them. That he would would do absolutely everything in his power to stop it. And then being helpless as he watched yn do it. Just pure heart wrenching pain. And it must have been beyond terrifying to see someone you love ready and determined to kill themselves partly from rage and partly from desperation. With the backstory, that scene becomes almost as cruel as the warehouse scene with San. The only redeeming quality is no one needing life saving surgery in a time crunch, otherwise they would be the same level of ✨never again✨

honestly i think the two crew members i torture the most are san and hwa bc i just keep putting them thru all this shit and hurting them so much but really this was the defining point of why seonghwa was so afraid. before we kinda just knew he was afraid of yn and hongjoong was mad about it. in this revelation we get to see the source of the trauma and how it was amplified by it being someone he loves as dearly as he loves yn. and for sure when first reading that scene of yn and jisung in the brig, it’s meant to evoke a sense of anger and rage like yn is so angry to a point where she would do this sort of thing, but my hope with that scene was also to show that desperation. that when looking back at it after having already seen the rage and the aftermath, that reading it again shows how desperate and hopeless she was in that moment. which is exactly the same emotion that was evoked back in that warehouse scene with san, except it was relayed differently because the warehouse was a more immediate sense of desperation. this brig scene was meant to emulate that but in a slow burn kinda way where the veil of realization is pulled off after the fact and not in the moment!!!

Just to make sure you don't misunderstand. Those asks were compliments. You are an absolutely incredible writer. And the fact that you aren’t afraid of hurting your characters *cough cough* SHOOTING SAN?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!!!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? *CLEARS THROAT AGRESSIVELY* just makes the story much better. No one gets plot armour, making it more realistic (?) and really draws in the writer and sorta imitates the fear and desperation the characters feel

PLS don’t worry, i live for every moment and i live for these open and raw and genuine conversations i didn’t take any as an insult i PROMISE!! i think part of the nature of this whole trope of space pirates and criminals is that hter is no guarantee of safety! i don’t wanna have to cut corners to make sure everyone stays unharmed and undamaged throughout the story when the nature of the world i’ve built thus far is a wildly dangerous one!!! i always say that i try to be as realistic as i can, all things considered, and i think that’s the biggest thing that adds to the ‘realism’ in my mind so im so happy to hear that you see it and appreciate it and enjoy it!!!

OHOHOHOHOHOH ALSO

YN GRIPPING SOMEONES HEART??? YOU WRITE THAT SO FUCKING WELL. LIKE ENIGUH DETAILS THAT WE KNOW WHATS GOING ON, BUT ALSO NOT SO MANY DETAILS SO IT GETS DETACHWD FROM THE STORY. LIKE THE LACK OF CLEAR SUPER MANY DETAILS REALLY MADE IT THAT *YOU ARE EXPERIENCING THIS, NOT JUST READING IT* LIKE IT MADE IT WAY MORE EMOTIONAL AND OERSONAL AND THE READER REALLY GOT IMMERSED IN THE MOST HORRIBLE WAY THAT KUST MADE IT ALL RHE MORE BETTER. ALSO JOONG AFRAID????? JOONG REALISING HE GOT A FULLY FLEDGED HEART RIPPER SIREN WHO CANT CONTROL HER BODY TO MOVE THROUGH A HARMLESS DOOR BUT CAN DEFINITELY KILL IN A HEARTBEAT (OR TWO 👀) ALSO THE CONTRAST OF REMOVING RHE BLOOD COLOURED WHITE OLASTIC AND HAVING A CLEAN HAND UNDERNWATH. THE SYMBOL OF IT ALSO BEKNG A TRASH CLEANERS SUIT. LIKE SHE WASN'T SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY USE THE TRASH PROTECTION DUIT FOR ITS INTENDED PURPOSE. ALSO THE OART WHERE SHE SAYS SHES FINE EVEN TJO SHE ISNT. AT FIRST I READ IT AS HER TELLING HERSELF TO LIE BUT THEN I REALISED ITS HER ADMITTING SHE VERY MUCH ISNT. AND SAN NOT KNOWING???? AND KISSING HER HAND AND UGH AND SEONGHWA KNOWING. I BET HE'S LOWKEY GETTING MORE AND MORE AFRAID OF HER. LIKE YN IS READY TO KILL HERSELF AND ANYONE AROUND HER TO KEEP SAN SAFE. AND SHE INSTICTUALLY GOES FOR THE MODT AGRESSIVE METHOD POSSIBLE. IHHHHHHHHHHHHH I FUCKING LOVE YOU AND YOUR WONDERFUL WTITING AND YOUR TWISTED MIND THAT CAN CREATE ALL THESE FUCKING SCENES THAT GOT ME THUNKING AND FEELING ✨EMOTIONS✨

truly one of the HIGHLIGHTS of the chapter simply bc of how shocking and sudden it is!! for me, that was one of the easiest scenes to write in the chapter, oddly enough? it was something that when it came time to write it, i knew how i wanted it to be and was able to just sit down and write it out the way its written in the final draft of the chapter. i really love playing with those aspects of fiction and storytelling. tangible to a point, without spelling it out. i think it’s obvious that i really love delayed realization in writing, but i really like playing with how the brain processes information and for me personally, i don’t pick up on things right away! i can realize them in a snap or it can take me a bit to go ‘oh god that’s what happened’, and i like playing with that in y/n’s character a LOT.

and in that same vein of thought, there are some layers to that scene as well when compared to the door scene. in the door scene we saw hongjoong clearly tell y/n ‘you need to do this to save san’ yet she wasn’t able to do it despite trying and believing hongjoong. then in the heart scene we saw y/n clearly tell herself ‘you need to do this to save san’ and she did it then. so there’s a lot at play in that parallel alone too. and with that internal monologue she has of im fine vs not fine, then san kissing the hand that touched a literal real actual beating heart for me that was a sort of self indulgent scene and i was really worried about it coming across as too cheesy or something like that, but that is something that’s gonna impact y/n as a character and her relationship with san when they have the conversation of ‘oh hey i put my hand through a man’s chest for you’

i think part of why this chapter was so difficult to construct and write as a whole definitely is because of all the undertones and nuances throughout, and in a lot of ways it’s so so much to even think about that it’s almost too much packed into one chapter alone, but even if you don’t pick up on all the nuances throughout, i’m hoping to revisit them and bring them back around in that delayed realization style again bc that’s one of my favorite things to do ofc :3

#21y redeemed fool #mists of celeste #moc: spoilers #caly answers #sorry i wrote you a whole essay in response oh my god?!??#T_T

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angelzflyhigh · 3 years ago

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one of my biggest life lessons so farrrr

Who do you regret losing the most?

i regret losing myself trying to make things work with the wrong people

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sanshine · 3 years ago

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DFJGLKJFGK YES THOSE GARGOYLES BELOVED I TOO RAGE QUIT ON THE GARGOYLE DUO </3 i've never felt more betrayed in my life than when i got halfway thru the first one only for the second to quite literally drop on my skull 😭 only for that same thing to happen so many times i was like im LEAVING 😭😭 im so glad for the subtle guiding they give in elden ring bc YEAH AGAIN WITHOUT GUIDANCE I SKIPPED THE FIRST HALF OF THE GAME AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN STOP ME IN DS1 😭

im shocked that it's new players who have trouble with the timing on margit and other enemies tbh :o after playing the other games i'd say it was a hard learning curve for me bc i was used to the pretty constant and QUICK attack timings from the previous games, at least in ds3 and bloodborne! margit broke me out of that but the timing initially was a curveball for me since i was used to shorter attack lengths </3 but now that i think about it i think my biggest struggle when trying ds2 was that the attack timings were so insanely different from the first game that i just had the worst time of my life lkdjfslkddjf something FS loves to do is throw learning curve bosses at you and i'd say that's kinda was margit felt like! kinda like them teaching you the mechanics in full and showing off the timings for you to observe and learn while not being overly aggressive it felt like a good balance to me <3

im hearing that about radahn too? i did him before the patch myself and again i think i just got super lucky bc he was rather slow and didn't do many big attacks for me so i had lots of opportunity and was a bit overleveled for him 😭 i think a majority of my struggles with bosses so far have simply been me going in underleveled so the attacks are far more punishing :') don't worry the real damn challenge will def come! i hear malenia is FARRRR worse than him and they don't have any plans on patching her so LDKSFJK eek <3

it's funny you mention looking for the dectus medallions bc i literally JUST found my second half when i played earlier tonight i was like omg?! i forgot about u!? the carian study hall omg yes i really love that place!! i think they did so well with all the scenery and landscapes like it's so nutty to me that they put SO much detail into every single place like they all feel so nice and unique except for some enemies lkfjslfkd i've been going on another run through caelid bc i kinda beelined for radahn and did nothing else but! i just beat rykard! altho i beat the two bosses in leyndell before doing that bc i did it out of order slkfjsl so technically i have to go to another lift i think it's called rold?? but then i have another other one so right now i have 3 halves of 3 separate medallions but just got my other half for dectus so i guess im going there first 😭

if im honest im still quite lost about the actual story bc some dude is telling me that golden order good, then another lady is saying they're bad, then another is telling me to burn everything, then some other guy is telling me they're all wrong and im just very like WHO IS RIGHT!! what i've gathered so far is that the two fingers (whoever that is i think it's a god??) wants someone to collect the shards of the elden ring but all the current holders of the shards don't want to give their pieces up to each other and they refuse to fight each other as well? except malenia and radahn fought but apparently both lost and neither lost their shard? once i went through leyndell and got to the final boss in that area they unleashed a whole new flurry of information that made things more confusing to me tho 😭

but gosh yes the TOWER <3 im so in love with the towers that one and there's another that matches it but i can't remember the name ?? it's so hard to find info on lore and backstory right now im guessing since everything is still so new <//3 but right now im exploring this rather creepy area called sellia town of sorcery and it's very dark and spooky but sooo ATMOSPHERIC!!! i swear they do atmospheres and areas so incredibly well then they have great soundtracks and boss design and cool cutscenes just ahhhhh so much cool stuff to be seen and explored!! thankfully,,,i haven't had to face the godskin duo yet bc i quite literally will want to rip my hair out im CERTAIN!! im actually dreading them so awfully much im putting them off as long as humanly possible lkjfSLKDLKSF one of them was actually fallingstar beast? but then they patched him so he does less damage now so he's so much less difficult im telling you i was level 90 and this dude was oneshotting me CONSTANTLY before the patch 😭 then the other was fia's champions which gave me hell bc i really suck at pvp in FS games and that whole fight hinges on your ability to do pvp fighting but with npcs and yea i hurt a lot there <3 didn't do myself any favors by going there severely underleveled either 😭

the online messages are so fun and lovely i agree it's such a nice thing to have and while a majority are of course people being funny there are many that are so helpful about warnings and guiding you when you're lost it's so nice 😭😭😭

biba my BELOVED SLKGFJFKLFJLKD i have seen, i have perceived, i have GAZED UPON HIS 2019 TRAILER IMMENSELY! didn't even need to see his face to fall in love im already falling over backwards for him without even seeing his face it's fine it's fine everything is fine !!!

uwu im glad we can discuss it hehe i've been talking my friends' ears off about it while they have absolutely NO clue what im talking about just the quietly supporting me while i RAVE SKLJDDFLKSDJFLKSDF im so glad we can bond over it beloved and im especially glad that you're having fun with it too 🥺🥺🥺🥺

HBDSVHBDSHVB FELT THAT LMAO for the gargoyle duo in elden ring there is a cheese strat where you can make them fall off the map bc there's a cliff to your right when you enter the arena hsdbvhsdb ITS SO DIFFICULT TO PULL OFF THO????????? LIKE I REALLY TRIED!!!!! BECAUSE I WANNA GET THAT FIGHT OVER WITH!!!!!!! DSHVBSHDVB but it didnt work their AI pathing is too smart to make them launch themselves over the edge sfhvbshd I ENDED UP FALLING MYSELF MORE THAN ACTUALLY BEING KILLED BY THE GARGOYLE LMAO but also now im level idk 85 so im gonna pay them a visit today and hopefully finish them off today djbvhsdbv I WANNA FIGHT ASTEL ALREADY!!!

also yes it is so easy to not know where to go or what to do in ds1????? like the literally spawns you and is like "go do things and try surviving :)" DSHVBSHDVB i made one of my closest friends play it as well when i first started and he's already really far (partially bc he doesnt get distracted by elden ring oops) and helps me guide through the game bc its so easy to get lost dhvbsdvhb i wanted my playthrough to be 100% blind bc i know nothing about the game and i wanted to keep it that way but i dont think thats even possible with DS games jhsdvbsbhdvb

margit is an evil little b (affectionate) with his slow ass attacks sdhvbdbhsbdv i think anyone who has experience with dodging attacks right when the enemy raises its weapon struggles like you said, its such an evil mechanic but i love it shdvbhsdbv FS DEVS REALLY JUST WANT THEIR FANBASE TO SUFFER WITH EVERY NEW RELEASE AND SOMEHOW EVERYONE OF US ENJOYS IT!!! SHDVBHDVB

radahn seems to be super easy if you just let the summons do all the work for you hdshbvshdb but then thats boring :/// but yeah luck is a huge factor in this game VDBDVHBSHD a lot of the times you're doing well and you KNOW you can defeat a boss with a bit of luck so you just keep trying until luck is on your side and then its time for victory gesture!! djsvbhsdv BUT ALSO YES THE UNDERLEVELED ISSUE IS SO ANNOYING MAN i legit farmed runes for an hour or two yesterday and got myself to level 85 for the pos draconian tree sentinel right before the leydnell capital sdhvbshbdv I REFUSED TO LET HIM LIVE so me and my mimic boi screwed him up uwu dsvbhsdbv BUT MALENIA....... I KNOW....... HER DAYS ARE NUMBERED SHVBHDSBV i saw people say she's the hardest boss of every souls game combined??? and i did watch people figt her so i know what to expect its just... not looking forward to that sdvbhsdvb IT IS POSSIBLE THO!!! just gonna take us ages jhdsvbhbds here have a meme

anyway....... HSBVHSDBV

hdbhsdbvh YEAH I ENDED UP LOOKING UP WHERE THE RIGHT HALF IS BC I REALLY WANTED TO PROGRESS turns out its in a fort in caelid....... no wonder i didnt find it im avoiding caelid as much as i can <3 HSDVHSDB oh rykard!!! i dont know what he looks like or what he does or what he's like but he has a cool soundtrack!!! HBSHVBS and yes there is another lift, i ended up finding one piece of the medallion by accident lmao but yeah GOOD LUCK!!! the dectus lift brings you to a really cool place (which you probably found out by now hvsbshdvb) with some happy dancing ladies it'd be such a lovely place IF IT WERENT SO DEADLY SDVBSDVBSHD <333

BVBSDVBSDBVHDSB MOOD!!!!!! EVERYTHING IS SO CONFUSING!!!! but man now youre giving me motivation to go through leyndell im curious about the story and also curious about the bosses here hsbvhsdb I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT FROM NOW ON I ONLY KNOW I FIGHT GODFREY BEFORE RADAGON BUT OTHER THAN THAT I FORGOT EVERYTHING AND IM SO HAPPY TO FIGURE IT OUT ON MY OWN SDHBVHSDBV also leyndell gotta be my favorite area of the game so far, it's so damn cool and majestic????? the soundtrack is lovely too <3

OH SELLIA TOWN OF SORCERY I KNOW WHICH ONE THAT IS!!!! ive also been avoiding that one bc im scared JHSBVHDSBV but maybe now that im level 85 hmmmm...... i bet theres a bunch of useful items in there so i really shoud but then again caelid 😭😭😭😭 LMAOOOO I FELT THAT GODSKIN DUO DESPAIR DSHVBHSD i fought both of them individually by now but when they're together..... yeah no.. SDVBSHDB and im dreading the same way about the beast clergyman fight, fk that one for real sdvhsdbvhsd fallingstar beast.... that sounds so familiar but i cant remember now???? LEVEL 90 AND STILL GETTING ONE SHOT------ actually im really curious about your build tho sdhvbsvd mind sending a screenshot? dshhvbsdh YOU CAN INCLUDE YOUR CHARACTER TOO IM JUST CURIOUS <3 dsvhdvb im not doing pvp yet and idk if im gonna bc i dont have PSN (i really dont need it lol) so idk if im ever gonna get it dsbvshb but pvps are scary by default so i feel you shdbvhd

LMAOOOO YES HE IS A LOT IN THAT TRAILER DAMN!!!!!!!! JDVHSDVB like ok i already found him really damn hot IN GAME and he's like half empty there HDSBVHBSD but then one day youtube recommended me the trailer from 2019 and i thought it'd be interesting to see how the game ended up turning out BUT ONLY GOT LEFT DROOLING!!! SDHBVHDSBVHSDB im glad they included some eye candy for the female audience too because usually you only see hot women in games (which... i really dont mind...) and men are usually either scarred or badass in some other non-hot way (like radahn jsdhbvhsdb) BUT RADAGON.................. he can have me or something 🙄🙄 (speaking of which poor rennala no wonder she got so heartbroken when he left her JHBDSVHBSDH)

IM REALLY GLAD TOO <333333333 to exchange wall of texts about elden ring with you sdhvbhsdbvhbsd its really nice 🥺🥺

#looking forward to seeing you in my inbox again ily <3333333333333333 #hope youre enjoying your weekend uuwuwuwu #luna ❣#reply #khongz

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nessababydoll · 7 years ago

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Makes me sad to know I’ve only ever once had this. Kinda makes me scared thinking I’ll never have something like this again 😞 the relationship with the father of my kids ruined so much for me. But especially this. After being with someone for yearssss & never truly getting to know them, not being able to tell someone if they asked, their biggest fear, or most traumatic experience, what he truly wanted in life, & him never bothering to get to know me & know much about me, scared me. Only one person ever took the time on that. & regardless of anything that person to this day can tell my mood just by how I text, can tell you how I got every scar that I have, my biggest fears & my biggest goals in life. We’ll probably never be together again & that’s okay. 👌🏼 but what I hope is that, it wasn’t it. That I can again find someone that truly take the time to get to know me. That WANTS to know me. & asks me about every detail in my life. & my past. I think that’s why I never felt that deep love & connection with the father of my kids. He didn’t care to get to know me like that. & at one point I stopped caring to get to know him as well. But I’m glad that happened because now I know exactly what I don’t want in a relationship. I know that when I decide to give my all to someone it’s because they deserve it. & because they want to get to know all of me. Haven’t found that yet, therefore that’s why I refuse to keep people in my life that don’t give me that spark. I may seem to picky. Or too stuck up. But in reality I just want something good & real. Something farrrr from what I had in my last relationship & if I feel like someone isn’t it, then I don’t spend more time on it. I refuse to do what I did last time & entertain something that was going NOWHERE, knowing it was going nowhere but hoping that it would. 👋🏼

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jefardi · 8 years ago

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Not my story, just wrote a review that broke the character limit on Ao3 thrice over. So posting that here. @okapifeathers

Cool, awesome and Bravo!

This is going to be a long review, so strap yourself in!

Disclaimer: I thoroughly enjoyed this story and any critiques I make are with the best intentions of helping self-improvement. Also, I tend to jump around topics a lot, sorry (not sorry)

Let me take a bit of backstory before I begin the review proper;

I honestly was just browsing tumblr idly when I came into the NicoMaki tag out of pure boredom… I want to say either 3 or 4 days ago. Discovering that this was my jam happened fairly quickly and lo and behold I ended up searching invariably for fanfic on Ao3 (which, honestly was only because I was doing it mobile, else I would be using FF.net…). Love Novels (which a friend farrrr more into Love Live then I am, has pointed out is a song name, which I had not the faintest clue) was the first long formatted story I read in the Love Live Fandom. I’ve read a few Hogwarts AU for the same pair but that’s it. Nothing else.

To a certain degree, I think this is why I’m so enamored with this story; I have no pre-conceived notions or head canons that it could realistically conflict with… oddly enough, the reason I have trouble even reading RWBY fanfiction nowadays, is because I write my own, which then makes incompatible head canons with others’. To put it simply, I can hear Nico or Maki talking in your story exactly as they do in the dub (because I’m a scrub who can’t understand Japanese…).

Perhaps what draws me the most to this pairing is one of the things that stand out the most, that is to say, the way you do the chemistry between Maki and Nico.

That is the biggest selling point, one that all other stories I read after this for this fandom will have to hold themselves to; having dialogue that flows and ebbs like the way you write it. The back and forth that happens so naturally between two characters with misaligned world views or clashing personalities.

Very often in writing, especially in fanfiction, authors have a bad tendency to not understand or have trouble differentiating between saying something in-character or just having the character be a mouthpiece to what needs to be said. Which in turn breaks the suspension of disbelief that these are real, organic characters. Characters that exist just as well as any average person off the street. The manner in which you write them completely side jumps that.

With that out of the way, lets dive in, shall we?

You handled the slow burn extremely well, in fact it was rather incredible. I think the strongest point, though possibly the oddest to me, was how to handle Maki’s end of the romance. Throughout the first half (or was it 12 chapters? It blurs a bit to me), there was a lot of build up on Nico’s end, making the audience very firmly know her point of view of the dynamic. Yet Maki’s view…. Was, how to put this, rather vague?

Perhaps that was intentional, but it certainly seemed like that we weren’t given a clear understanding of what she thought of Nico until way, way later. At first this was a non-issue, seeing as it was thought/implied that she didn’t have feelings for her and it was a one-sided romance (poor Nico), except once Christmas hit, that all changed. It was weirdly jarring how Maki suddenly went from no clue to “yup, I’ve always had these feelings wheeeeeee”

On the one hand, it seems that Maki wasn’t thinking about it up until then because she was flying by the seat of her pants once school started, yet I can’t help but think back to when they are in Nico’s apartment, in the first chapter, eating cake. That is when Maki is not quite stressed, yet it’s not even something she brings up, when its later implied she thinks heavily on it.

Normally this wouldn’t be a problem, except your story relies heavily on introspection. In some ways, that might be an even bigger selling point then the interactions between the main characters; it is enlightening and amazing, and does exposition dumping far better and less jarring then any other way, especially since Maki is more of a introvert by her nature. Yet, by this very fact, the very fact that it isn’t brought up in introspection early one is a weird one, especially in hindsight.

This segue ways into the next thing I noticed; the way the introspection messes with the pacing.

Now that might be subjective on my end, but during the whole course of this, you’d have bits of dialogue with huge chunks of introspection. There was a tendency on my end to keep skipping the introspection to find the next dialogue, which resulted in a lot of rereading something.

The other issue I ran into during the pacing was how much it jumped around. One moment we’d be going through a very long scene and then line break, and it skims through the next several weeks. To a degree, I understand brevity is the soul of wit, but at the same time, it was beyond frustrating when this happened at several points of the story. If you want, I can go back and find though I think it’s a lost cause at this point, given that having already read it, my eagerness to jump ahead is sated haha.

Other pacing issues; this was a big one for me, but sometimes you’d have very important things happen… and then format in such a way that it didn’t pop out immediately. Again, possibly personal preference for me, but when Maki’s dad calls before the birthday, its like a sentence in the middle of the paragraph, and I swear I missed it twice before I could figure out why Maki was freaking out. This happened a few times, where a important thing that should, by all rights, have its own line, being jammed into the middle of a paragraph.

Another one of the strongest points of the story was honestly how you handled Maki and Nico’s ship sailing.

While I might have railed on it a bit, I certainly enjoyed it when it wasn’t some awkward confession, or having to watch Maki’s feelings develop and effectively watching the story drag, but instead by revealing she has always had them… that made it good. Like really good. Like A+++++ give yourself a cookie, go to start and collection a thousand dollars kind of good.

Swinging back around to the interactions, between Maki and Nico, there are some of their exchanges which made me burst out with ugly laughter. Like holy shit dude, good shiiiit. Personal favourites are of course, the time when Maki attempts to make breakfast and drops it and Nico just deadpans “well, I’m sure the floor appreciates the meal.” Another, which while its not quite nicomaki, it is related, is Nico’s realization that she has indeed left Maki home. Alone. And her kitchen might not be standing when she gets back.

There are a lot of interactions that you wrote, that I just flat out found hilarious, okay? :P

Skipping back to critiques, I think there was one moment that stuck with me… not because it was amazing but because it was ultimately one of the most unsatisfying in it. The moment where Maki goes “they know.” It’s quite obviously cliffhanger material, but nothing is quite as much a punch in the gut as getting to the next chapter and realizing that the worry that Nico has is essentially worthless (not completely, but you get what I mean). It’s akin to seeing an episode of something and ending with major developments… only for It to get regened as a dream at the beginning of next episode. Maybe I’m being a bit overly harsh but that’s what it felt like to me.

Wow, okay, I’m at 1400 words. That’s, um, huh. More then I’ve done in a long while.

Moving on…

As a story, and from my own personal experience of trying to write semi-realistic slowburn, there is something that I have to say I’m most envious of and that is the way that you created drama within the story.

For instance, the way Maki’s father is set up.

For all intents and purposes, he is the primary antagonist, or as close as we get to one. He is the one that Maki is the most concerned with, the one that continually gives Maki stress like you wouldn’t believe, the one who basically drives her to the point of several mental breakdowns and a panic attack or two. Yet for all of this, outside of the final chapter, I don’t think he says more then maybe… 10 or 15 lines? Rather it’s the looming possibility that makes him such a negative force. Realistically, he can’t do all that much to harm Maki. I mean, he COULD, but I feel like that’d be a whole another type of story.

In that way, this story is very much about Maki failing to meet her father’s expectations. Its not something grandiose like saving the world or the school, nor is it about her father blowing up. Rather its infinitely a much smaller and larger thing. Perhaps the glory of it all is that he doesn’t need to be. In fact there is real no conflict besides what Maki sets up for herself. No external forces conspiring against them, just what Maki thinks would make her father happy.

To be perfectly honest, the moment Nico rang the doorbell, I was so into the story that I could feel Maki’s anxiety, my heart was just about to pound out of my chest.

I think, at it’s core, Love Novels’ theme is about choice.

While I would call Nico and Maki the main characters, I would argue heavily that Nico isn’t the main, main character. She effectively is the same person as she was at the beginning. The only character who experiences real character growth is, of course, Maki. She goes from being a caged bird to a freed one.

To an extent.

I have to believe that this story is not over by a long shot(not just because part two is up to 3 chapters, of which I’ve read a bit of the first… thought I should this first tho).

Namely I’m wondering if Maki is actually going to finish her medical degree.

A reoccurring theme that occurs throughout this story is that of choice, and Nico brings up multiple times that Maki isn’t truly happy being a doctor, but instead hints at how she is happier being behind the piano, or being an idol. Which makes me think if she might change majors or drop out completely? Much like it was stated above, given her father isn’t abusive nor is the one with money and her mother actually gives a damn, she isn’t going to lose her inheritance at this point (though I do wonder if she will buy the café Nico works at just to make sure she doesn’t have to work ever again and lazes about in bed all day…)

At this point I’m getting speculative because I’m wanting to lock my speculations in a time capsule before starting part 2, so just a warning about that and what not…

Another thing I’ve noticed, and it still stumps me is the way the first chapter starts. The tone feels off. Like something much greater is about happen that day, when all conventional story telling wisdom would make it be the happy times before the bad, not Maki getting a sense of foreboding doom.

I have two great hopes for the next part. Maybe three, but the third is super long term.

First, I’m hoping that its something that focuses more on Nico’s development instead of Maki. I say this because as a character, Nico has literally no reason I can think of to block her from doing her dreams of being a professional idol. She doesn’t have to pay for the kids’ college, and Maki can pay her share of rent/food money. Going along with the theme of choice, it would be Nico’s turn to deal with that, albeit with some help from her ever so supportive girlfriend/soulmate/princess ;)

Another would be to see Maki’s continued development, i.e. seeing her continue her choice to do something she is passionate about not something that was pre-chosen for her at birth.

My final curiosity is less about the characters and more about the ship. Namely what you will do with a relationship in the long term. As of now, they are currently in their honey moon phase, and like all things, as the poem, Ozymandias teaches us, nothing is eternal. The good times won’t be around forever, or if they do this might get stale really quick.

I’m actually personally quite excited that you are continuing this on past the getting together stage. I’m very, VERY interested in the long term. How the stress of a first relationship would get to them, or how they would just do the wrong thing. Really anything like that. I want to see them screw up, and take a break, or get angry and yell at each other. Something that breaks their bond so it can be remolded. Speaking of which…

This might be a personal gripe, but while I can accept that they could all (Muse) of them be other than straight (quite easily, actually), I’m curious to why you had them all pair up (besides honoka)?

Buh, I think I may have missed a few things, but I’ve gone over triple the character limit that Ao3 allows so I think I should post this. I might update it later, however.

Like I said before, this was awesome! You should feel proud ^_^

Cheers!

#love live #review #maki nishikino #nico yazawa #love novels

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"Hope this isn't true", "No thanks" - Some Rangers fans "unconvinced" by Steven Gerrard target

Rangers fans aren’t convinced that James Lawrence is a viable transfer option for Steven Gerrard this summer after he was linked with a move to Ibrox.

The Daily Record reported on Sunday that the club were weighing up a £3m move for the Anderlecht centre-back, with the Gers boss said to be a big fan of the player’s talents.

Be sure to check out the incredible story of the man who rose from a Tanzanian refugee camp to become one of Australia’s biggest football stars in the video below…

Signing for the Belgian giants last summer, he was part of a rather disastrous season for the club, who are now embarking on a new era under Manchester City legend Vincent Kompany.

A Welsh international, he would likely have enough ability to compete at Scottish Premiership level, but the fee involved and the fact Rangers already have two first-choice defenders in the position has fans questioning whether it’s smart business.

Connor Goldson and Nikola Katic should be considered good enough to start consistently next season and while back-up is needed, supporters seem to think that can be delivered for less money.

These fans have taken to Twitter to share their thoughts on it all…

Watched wales against Croatia last week.. he was rotten man.

— RyanAli🇭🇷 (@Ryanali45385256) June 15, 2019

Lot of Welsh supporters unconvinced by him, and there were reports Anderlecht have been trying to move him on for a while. A £3m fee seems excessive.https://t.co/sYCtQm8B14

— David MacDonald (@d_mac2912) June 15, 2019

£3m for a 26 year old with no pedigree of note, deemed surplus to requirements after half a season at his current club, in a position we have two CBs good enough to start? No thanks. At that money it’d have to be either something special or one for the future. He’d be neither.

— TRG (@rangers_guy) June 15, 2019

3m which could be spent elsewhere not a player I’d like to see at rangers especially at CB

— marc anderson (@marco__90) June 15, 2019

Farrrr to expensive at 3-5 mil

— WhyDidSadiqDive (@DiveWhy) June 16, 2019

Why we’ve got 2 class centre backs

— Coley (@RFCCole070907) June 16, 2019

Rangers are said to be after James Lawrence with a bid of around £3million.

I hope this isn’t true, Katic and Goldson are good enough and should be our first choice centre backs.

In my opinion, Edmundson would be good as a squad/rotational player. #RFC #RangersFC

— staunch and blue (@staunchnblue) June 15, 2019

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