#but this looks very much like a psychic connection situation

[brionysea]

quick! how many hints can we drop that mike's being targeted by vecna before they catch on?

[ancientgoddessofegypt]

The 12th Houses - The Divine Naturalist.

Knowledge is power, and what most 12th housers understand is that power is infinite, and the knowledge that we seek comes from within. The 12th house is filled with divine experiences, making the person with this placement see things from a higher perspective. Something that most can never find for themselves, its truly a mystery here.

Sun in the 12th house : Impractical knowledge, things that don't make sense on a psychical matter making sense more in the imagination. Artistic souls who's only purpose is to share what the divine has given them since birth. Angels of light who go into the darkness for some time to receive an answer. Could have issues with family and friends because they can be too floaty for them sometimes. Always floating with the wind, always going nowhere but somewhere. They may not know everything, but they know the importance of being in the moment.

Moon in the 12th house: Connecting to a higher purpose, these people could be the seers of our generation. Having mercy for every little thing, every person, every plant, animal... etc. They have the compassionate nature of a deity. Some may even believe they are quite delusional with the way that they put their all into others, even excusing the behavior of some becomes we all have been there. All in all, they have an expression to them that attracts any and anybody to them, their love is unmatched.

Mercury in the 12th house: Intricate minds, very solitary individuals. Like to live alone and be isolated at times. You may not understand them from time to time, but it does not matter to them. Their mind has more than a million channels, and they operate into all of them. I feel as though these placements need time alone due to their mind always being on constant overdrive. I guess it's safe to say they could be their own book that is more than 300 pages. They have the tendency to know more than what they let on, due to the source within them giving them an explicit amount of knowledge all of the time.

Venus in the 12th house : Beautiful souls with a tendency to love deeper than what most can define. No one can truly match the depths of these beautiful minds, who's love wishes to touch the stars to be closer to the divine. Their love life can be tempting with allure, but their bodies can feel the uproar of something being close to home. Their not for everyone, and the way their love life is set up.. it can have them questioning why the Universe put them in certain situations. Could it be that they must go against the grain? Love will make you do crazy things, and they learn a lot about this everyday

Mars in the 12th house : Their psychic senses are always tingling. The power they are looking for is deep into the subconscious. I feel as if they are always fighting for themselves to pick up their weight while society pushes them to the side often.. They know exactly what they want, and as it is capable they have to sure work for it. Because even if its not in the present, it is somewhere in the future. Because if you can see it in your mind, you can bring it into fruition. Mars in the 12th house makes a difference because as they transform the mind, they transform themselves. It's like seeing a totally new person, because they looked into the heart to find what they need to change to be the person they have always wanted to become. They always knew they could do it if they were to try.

Jupiter in the 12th house - They have a powerful connection to the ancestors, their spirit guides and the universe overall. They see things in a much more profound way than people let on. You might think their crazy, but baby let me tell you they are in 2050 while everyone is stuck in 2024! They have the tendency to know things by either looking it up or solving the clue on their own. Potentially they can lose their own minds because the world is farther behind, not being able to grasp the knowledge of everyday life even when its being practically handed to us. At some point, they tend to hide what they know and shares it with a familiar group, ones that knows the type of people they are and want to learn more of the fruits of nature that the Gods have given us. Ask your jupiter 12th house frined what is something out of this world that they know and watch your entire idea of life change in one sitting.

Saturn in the 12th house - Spiritual connections come in very interesting ways for this group. They naturally run with authority, they just don't see it yet. They have an understanding that things take time. And although they may not get it now, when they are much older they will see that everything was planned the way it was supose to be, and not the way they wanted it to be. They have the gift of seers from many moons ago, and they have the direction and path lined up for them by their ancestors and spirit team. They just need to know which lane to pick. Let go of control if you have this placement, you have no idea where things could lead.

Pluto in the 12th house - In a deep dark pool of webs, you will find the most intriguing persons here. They know so much about the darkness, it may shock you. Since they were a child, they have had a lot of psychic experiences. And as they grew, this could have surprised so many others to the point that the 12th houser has rejected their role in being all knowing. With this placement, they have to go against the grain. Looking within the psyche to accomplish what most never see coming, and it's to have full control cover their consciousness. They have integrity enough to keep going, even when things are bouncing out the wall. But they never give up on themselves, there is always room for self-transformation.

Neptune in the 12th house - Creators, Muses, Great thinkers. Very in control of their inner world, its just that others may give them a hard time. They are always on cloud nine. Very patient with themselves because the world tells them to speed up. Can be super creative when you lock them in a room by themselves. They will take you into a museum that connects to their soul, you'd want to know more about them the longer you stay with them. To have this placement is to know that there is something much bigger than ourselves out there. They live a life full of inspiration.

Uranus in the 12th house - Unique individuals who take the time to create inventions far past their peers level of thinking, and I mean that gracefully. They have the capacity to see beyond what the world sees at such a young age. The universe connects them to the akashic records of information so that they can be ahead of time. Can fulfill a leadership role if they find themselves in a predicament where others won't take the lead, they'll have you thinking about things in a totally different way. Can be seen as the crazy-heads of the world but they aren't so crazy once you get to know them. Have mercy on them, they have so many ideas, philosophies and knowledge tied into their tiny brains it will almost make anyone seem insane. Just enjoy the rollercoaster that their brains make us feel, its a ride of your life.

I hope you all enjoy !

[loveemagicpeace]

Astrological Life Events🌠

Fire venus -feel fun, drive at the beginning, but if they don't feel the same energy over time and if you don't stimulate them, then they usually lose interest. They need constant passion and playfulness. Especially from the beginning (because they want the person to show interest in them). They like more dramatic love and a relationship that is more spontaneous and interesting. They will never think you are too much for them because they like the energy when someone is more direct with actions and shows emotions.

Earth venus- they are initially cooler and observe the situation and think. And later they become more fixated on the person and then they become really devoted to that person. They don't like to rush into something because they are afraid that they will be hurt again later. So they do things more slowly and carefully. But when they really care about someone, they will really invest a lot in that relationship.

Leo rising people choose a spouse who usually does not suit them as much as they thought at the beginning. They can go into something very quickly and then regret it later. They can go very recklessly into something.

Capricorn rising will always test you before going into a relationship with you. They actually spend a very long time thinking about whether the person is right for them. They are very deliberate and make very deliberate moves. You think you know them, but you really don't. They observe your movements in silence all the time (similar to scorpio rising). They will always be one step ahead of you.

One of the reasons why fire moons are not compatible. The moon represents emotions, home, comfort, safety, care, etc. Fire signs don't feel so comfortable in water energy by themselves. Fire Moons often grow up independently and feel more distant from their family even in childhood. They can do many things on their own and the mother can be quite alienated. Especially with (aries moon and sagittarius moon). Therefore, these people are looking for someone who understands them emotionally, accepts their feelings and will be able to open up emotionally and be able to rely on someone and feel that the person will really be there for them. And when two fire moons are together, this creates emotional distance in the long run and not dependence (reactions are often similar) and emotionally the two people may not be able to complement each other because they both want a safe space for their emotions. Therefore, fire moons would be more compatible with water moons, because these give them the feeling that they can open up emotionally and make them feel that they can be vulnerable.

A balance between starchy and acidic foods is important for people born under the sign of Libra. They need lots of fresh air and moderate exercise. They should be careful about what liquids they consume.

The places ruled by the scorpio are: slow and muddy streams, calm ponds, swamps, vineyards. They also rule slaughterhouses, operating rooms, garbage disposals. As for food, people born under the sign of Scorpio should be careful to eat a lot of cooling food and fruit. Spicy and meaty food can bring them negative qualities.

Sagittarius is an optimistic sign and their health often depends on the mental attitude they have towards themselves. Sagittarius is connected by open places for exercise such as tehnis, horse riding. Therefore, people who have Mars in Sagittarius need to relax with a way to have fun: for example, jumping on a trampoline, rollerblading.

Capricorn is a dark sign in itself and rules places such as: tombs, cemeteries, morgues, dungeons. It also rules cellars, dark holes, abysses, frozen places, monasteries. They are supposed to rule even old churches, dark forests. Capricorn rules the skin and skin diseases, such as eczema, rashes.

From a medical perspective, Pisces rules the feet, the psychic mechanism of the mind. The bones they rule are: knuckles, ankles. The sign of fish also rules the veins of the feet. Problems such as colds, excessive sweating, dropsy, infectious diseases are also the result of the negative influence of fish on the soul. Most people with this sign are hypersensitive to medications and should avoid them. Pisces can be very sensitive to things and their environment affects them a lot. Whereas virgins are just the opposite. Virgos are actually very resistant to certain things and can heal quickly if they so desire. But they can be obsessed with overdoses of medication and can overdo it.

The ascendant shows your personality, how you behave, how you express yourself, how people see and perceive each other. The sun shows who you are and what your mission and inspiration is. The moon shows how you express your emotions, where you find comfort, your home. Mercury shows how you express yourself, communication, mentality, thinking, intelligence, your first impressions of childhood and environment. Venus shows your experience of love, how you look at love, how you behave in a relationship and what kind of partner you are. Mars shows your anger, energy, competitiveness, possessiveness, sexuality, and since Mars rules the first house, it also shows part of your personality.

Aspects in Astrology:

✨A conjunction is when there is no distance between the two planets, but the planets are equal to each other. It has the characteristics of the sun, for it represents strength and dynamism.

🍓The sextile is an opportunity complex and we associate it with Venus. It symbolizes harmony, harmony, love and lightness.

🚀The square is a destructive complex that the individual causes himself, either consciously or subconsciously. He has the characteristics of Mars, so he is more energetic, intense and determined. But it can also cause conflicts.

🎯The trine is a luck complex and is always auspicious and also has an auspicious nature. It has the energy of Jupiter, which means that it acts as an aspect that offers opportunities and lucky coincidences. In the synastry chart, it can show a chance / fateful meeting with a person.

🪼Inconjunction is a stress complex, it is considered an uneasy aspect. But it has the energy of Saturn, which means physical or mental illness or a strong sense of guilt.

🌙The opposition is a disturbing complex. It symbolizes duality. It has the energy of the moon (although many people think it has the energy of saturn). It is an aspect that causes a dual emotional energy that oscillates between one energy and another.

Mercury in Scorpio - they have a need for analysis, secret communication. They are bright, cunning, sarcastic. They are secretive and good at keeping secrets. They are susceptible to the weaknesses of other people, they are critical, doubtful and suspicious. They make quick ends of things. They don't forgive, they don't forget and they don't trust. As a child, you were privy to a lot of other people's secrets and you weren't allowed to tell them.

Mercury in Sagittarius - they need open, free communication. They are generous, know how to help, honest, independent and do not care about other people's opinions. They have an expressive way of expressing themselves, they like sports, they like authority. They are interested in philosophy, religion and law. Quickly earns the trust of others.

Mercury in Virgo - they have a need for stable and realistic communication. They often criticize others and notice small things. They have a good sense of detail and judgment.

Mercury in Cancer - the need for careful, personal communication. They are tactful, discreet, flexible, pleasure-loving, friendly. They are emotional and like their comfort. They are interested in home, family, security and sometimes they can depend on the opinion of the family.

Mercury in Leo - the need for creative, fun and joyful communication. They tend to be self-centered and domineering. They are sociable and popular and sometimes consider the opinions of society. They are fiery, quick to anger, stubborn, persistent, compassionate.

Mercury in Pisces - the need for idealistic, inspiring communication. They are often artistic, spiritual, and have rich intuition. They are imaginative, prone to absorbing other people's emotions. They like music, poetry, water. They are strongly influenced by the environment because they are hypersensitive. They are easily hurt and resentful. They tend to abuse alcohol and drugs. They are often more concerned about others than themselves.

Mars in Taurus -these people are jealous, possessive, combative and persistent. Sexuality is important to them. At first, they don't show much energy outwardly, but the energy shows later. They know how to appropriate people and secretly want them to be theirs. Maybe they don't feel that way at first, but they don't like to share someone with another person. This is often the case with earth signs, that the energy is not noticed immediately but later.

The Sun in the first house indicates a person who is more egotistical, has a strong personality and is confident. The individual is generous, talkative, independent. The Sun in this house brings problems due to haste, quarrelsomeness or recklessness.

The Sun in the 5th house brings small families. It can sometimes mean that there are no children (the individual does not want them), there can be problems with conceiving. The individual tends to dominate. This position often brings spiritual inclinations, artistic and creative talents.

Sun in the 6th house - makes a personality that feels good when serving others. They are interested in health, both personally and publicly. The individual is usually careful, orderly. Since this is a descending house, the individual may miss many opportunities that arise in the early years of his life.

Sun in 8th house- The individual is quietly ambitious to achieve a powerful position in life. He is usually fearless. Problems can arise due to lending money. The financial situation can improve after marriage because this is where an individual can gain the most from marriage. This position also indicates long life. People with this position can be careful of straining their bodies, especially the heart.

Sun in the 9th house - makes a personality that is noble, idealistic, enthusiastic. However, a person can be capricious or changeable and show a dual nature. It makes a personality that tries to maintain its position in life. Relationships are often very important. Success is usually far from the place of birth. It also indicates living abroad. The person loves art, music and literature.

People who has neptune, jupiter & uranus 1st house makes them very special and different from the rest. Because all planets stand out in their own way. Neptune gives a person a magical and special appearance. The person looks like they are not real. Emphasize their eyes, which look hypnotic and dreamy. Jupiter gives the person visibility and luck in appearance. Many people notice them quickly, they also look spiritual and fiery. Uranus makes a person different from others, their beauty is more outstanding and special. They can wear something that will look good only on them. They know how to wear things in their own way and thus stand out.

-Rebekah🍓🧚🏼‍♀️✨

[darkkitty1208]

Something I like to think about while chin-deep in this godforsaken serirei brainrot is the something-of-a-parallel in how both Serizawa and Reigen are both actually very lonely people.

One of the things I love about ONE's storytelling and style -- especially in mp100 -- is the way the sad stuff is deliberately concealed under humour/comedy while still managing to sprinkle a tasteful amount of seriousness in the mix. The show balances the Funny and the Plot really, really well.

But if you step back and peel off the slapstick for a moment you'll realise that a good amount of characters in the show are the kind that, if you think about them a little too hard or for a little too long, will just be devastating. Seri and reigen fit into that a lot -- while unlike reigen, serizawa isn't much of a comic relief/joke character that hides behind his flashy ways to obscure the raw existential terror of being fundamentally flawed inside, the way his character is being laid out in the story and how he subsequently grows and develops as a person is still very subtle. And kind of depressing, if you think about it.

They're both very isolated people. Serizawa being a former shut-in forced to navigate in society independently freshly after spending years relying on the boss of a toxic workplace environment -- understatement, btw, it was literally an evil organisation -- and Reigen spending most of his life faking who he is and robbing himself of the opportunity to form meaningful bonds and relationships and connections to people as Just Himself and not the persona he for some reason staunchly puts on... it's just something that gets me real pensive these days.

They literally complement each other. Reigen, giving Serizawa that one needed push to finally let go of his dependency towards anyone who poses a higher power over him, and to become his own person, and serizawa, being reigen's first ever adult friend besides a couple middle schoolers and a green cloud -- and the thing is!!!!!! The thing is. Serizawa admires reigen not for his psychic powers (or lack thereof). Somewhat-of-a-parallel aside, there's a contrast to how serizawa and reigen are about vulnerability; seri's the kind of person who'd dump his entire life story to anyone who's willing to listen (case in point: his literal first meeting with mob) but reigen would rather rub salt on his own underwear than share a single piece of his personal life or just about anything pertaining to his full, honest, human self. It literally took mob plowing through half the city to get him to admit that he isn't psychic. The only way he knows to form connections or befriend people is the indirect way -- giving personal advice without revealing any personal experience, giving encouragement and reassurance while acting like he himself knows how to handle a situation even when he's cornered himself/struggling not to let things go to (further) shit, being sincere but not exactly being honest.

Which is why seri probably wouldn't think twice about reigen's social 'adeptness' and 'wiseness'. Spending most of his life not exactly being taught social norms or how to read into social cues, it's not a wonder someone like reigen is somebody that seri canonically admires and looks up to a lot.

But that's the thing. Serizawa admires reigen for him, and his skills, and his good heart that pushed seri to choose what he wants in life and to make decisions of his own, instead of reigen's facade of being a great and powerful psychic. I firmly, firmly believe serizawa knows reigen isn't psychic at all, and while i think he might've been conflicted about it at first, i do think he eventually grows to accept it because reigen doesn't need to be a psychic for serizawa to connect with him or to admire him, unlike toichirou.

And that really enforces the whole "psychic powers are still a human trait/don't make you any different from others" message that the show time and time again delivers real, real well.

I just. Ugh. I love them a lot.

[painlandweek]

Additional information about each of the day's prompts:

Day 1 - Fake relationship/Flirting:

The works can depict how guys enter into fake relationships to save each other, solve case or for some reason, which inevitably leads to genuine feelings and dramatic revelations.

The plot of the work is focused on how Charles and Edwin flirt with each other. This can be flirting in danger, so-called “flirting under fire,” or some casual flirting.

A work in which a significant part of the plot contains one character flirting with the aim of getting the attention of another. Put the guys in circumstances where they will have to flirt a little.

Day 2 - Songfic:

These could be works based on a song that evokes associations with Charles and Edwin.

Works could include lyrics that could be inserted between parts of the story. The song could be woven into the story of the narrative or the song in question could be in the plot in some way.

This could be a work about the boys listening to a song or dancing to a song, maybe there is a song with which they associate memories. You can use all your imagination!

Day 3 - Accidental kiss/Magic kiss:

Nothing is more embarrassing and exciting at the same time than an accidental kiss. An accidental kiss can happen in a variety of situations, often due to a rush of emotion, lack of coordination, or unexpected movements. Quick or unexpected movements, such as a sharp turn or reaching for something at the same time, can lead to accidental contact and a brief kiss. Perhaps one of the guys is saving the other and accidentally, unknowingly kisses him in a rush of emotion.

Some kisses are so sweet they seem like magic, but some kisses are truly magical. The power of love in its purest form. A magical kiss has some kind of supernatural effect that either binds or releases from a spell, for good or ill.

The work may focus on how one of the guys needs to kiss the other to break a curse or save the other.

Day 4 - Forced proximity/Bound together: 

The work could focus on Edwin and Charles being forced into a closet, a closet, or any space that is very small. They could be trapped under a spell or something else, which creates romantic tension. The forced intimacy forces characters who would otherwise not declare their feelings to do so, pushing the characters to their emotional limits, setting the stage for conflict, passion, and ultimately deep emotional connections. 

The work makes a big deal out of the fact that Charles and Edwin are bound together in some way from which they cannot easily break free: magically, psychically, physically, or otherwise. You can imagine them getting into all sorts of sticky situations, or, conversely, acting surprisingly easy. The usual result of all this one-on-one "bonding" time is that they become aware of their feelings.

We look forward to your works!

Day 5 - Love potion/Love spell:

The work involves a magical potion that makes the drinker fall in love. An accidental potion consumption that leads to unplanned romantic chaos. This could be a story about one guy drinking a love potion and the other having to deal with the aftermath, or the love potion not working as intended. Perhaps Charles and/or Edwin are under the influence of the potion and their journey involves sorting out true feelings from those induced by the potion.

Your works could focus on Charles or Edwin falling under a love spell, which could have funny or unpleasant side effects, leading to dramatic and emotional moments.

Day 6 - Touch Starvation/Mutual pining:

Starved for touch, you will feel that even a simple touch, the touch of a fingertips, can feel like a sip of cool water after a day in the sun and it can make you melt, and it can scare you with how much you want to hug someone, how much you want to hold someone's hand or sit side by side or just exist next to someone. The works can focus on how Charles or Edwin experiences a longing for affection through physical touch.

The plot of the work focuses on how the boys are in love with each other but yearn for each other and may not initially realize that their feelings are mutual, each of them convinced that the other person will not reciprocate their feelings or at least not to the same extent.

Are there good reasons why they are kept apart or is it uncertainty about how their feelings will be received.

Day 7 - Free day:

Free day for all works that do not fit with any of the themes.

Please let us know if you have any questions or need further clarification and we'll give an answer.

[dreamlikevening]

Pick A Shade Of Pink ౨ৎ

for something you need to hear right now ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚

₊˚⊹ ᰔ piles 1, 2, and 3 ᰔ ⊹˚₊

pile 1

hello angels! i felt called to call this pile "angels". i think you're positively surrounded by them at this moment. i will give some intuitive channeling without any cards or anything. what i'm getting is "cherubs", you could be into melanie martinez. you could really enjoy piano and/or lo-fi music. you could like the song "still with you" by jungkook of bts, or "interlude: shadow" by suga of bts. 505 by arctic monkeys. you could enjoy magical-princessy stuff, i'm getting madoka magica? you could enjoy really cutesy stuff but also be into horror. i'm getting a very dual energy. maybe you like to mix opposing characteristics in certain things. if any of that resonated with you, this is definitely for you! remember to always trust your heart. let's begin! :D

when i was shuffling my decks i felt very nostalgic and cozy and familiar. a type of feeling that i felt all the time when i was a kid. you may be reuniting with your childlike joys and having a lot of wishes come true that you forgot you even made when you were a child. maybe your childhood required a lot of hope & faith on your part. and you held on for the lovely moments. angel, look around you and observe all the magic. create your own magic. surround yourself with things that lift you up. let it sink in.

your tarot cards are: 7 of pentacles, 8 of pentacles, queen of pentacles, and the hermit in reverse, oracle card keywords are compassion, devotion, humility, humanity, grace, psychic abilities, acting on visions, it's destined, heart healing, emotions, connection, time eases

you have four earth cards, and i am getting the message that someone here may be pushing aside their intuition or dismissing psychic visions or maybe they're seeing repetitive signs to stop doing a certain thing. this could only be for some. but if there's anything you've been doing impulsively, specifically a bad habit (i'm leaning towards substance abuse), your guides could be advising you to come back to yourself. if it's not substance abuse, it could be a tendency to overwork yourself or distract yourself too much. i'm getting an imbalance of the 3D and 5D-- too present in your ego rather than in your soul. and this is directly because of that "unhealthy habit" this will lessen over time because of a natural cause, but you also have the full power to work on it yourself and feel a lot better and quicker! my piece of advice to you is to take at least 3-5 minutes to meditate at the end of each day. have some tea and just let yourself think without running away or escaping your thoughts. i think you've been working on yourself for a long time, and this experience is just trying to remind you to stay on track, it won't change your progress (which is beautiful by the way! congratulations!). any epiphanies you gain right now, or any blockages that you perceive, write about them and analyze the little details. you will come out of it feeling brand new. whether this is about a creative project/aspiration or your spiritual journey, or both, you're reaching a very significant point of no return. you are "mastering" something meaningful. ending a long & difficult cycle. congrats congrats congrats!!

pile 2

hi! some intuitive things i got were dry skin, wintery (someone who likes winter time a lot), a difficult or unpleasant relationship situation. i'm also feeling the need to remind you specifically to stay warm right now, take lots of care, rest a lot, and just relax. i was hearing "Nurse Yourself" if you'd like to look that up! bubblegum.

some paper slips for confirmation that this is for you: animals (u like them a lot or take care of them), mind matters, winter (double confirmation!!!!!!!), summer (interesting, you could be dealing with someone in ur life right now that is your exact opposite or your half-birthday is their birthday and vice versa. getting capricorn and cancer energy), "baby ♡" so once again a romantic interest, and "never too late". if any of it resonated with you, this is for youuuuu

your cards: the emperor in reverse, two of cups, five of cups in the reverse, and king of pentacles.

i asked spirit what you were dealing with right now and got the emperor in reverse. i'm getting some sort of masculine figure that has an authoritative characteristic in your life is having an impact on you. maybe a relationship is bringing these things to the light so you're recognizing patterns that have to do with parental especially paternal (father) wounds. you could be struggling to see eye to eye with this person because the situation is pushing you into changing your mindset (for the better), ending a pattern. this relationship you're dealing with could be anything from romantic to someone in your circle, and they've been on your mind a lot, but for sure it isn't easy. it seems quite tough to deal with this situation, again, because it has karmic energy. you were definitely meant to meet them and learn something super important. this shift in perspective that is seeking you out could be related to the following: standing in your power/being more confident, knowing your worth, letting go of codependency/having a healthy balance between independence and relying on others, detaching or moving on from someone that has hurt you. if you've been feeling called to reflect on any or all of those, i would recommend doing ANY of these activities, i would suggest going with the ones you feel the most inspired to do! it's all about the intention anyway so these are just ideas to get a lil' nudge <3 reading, writing, research, gardening, crafting, helping others out, volunteering. these things may really help you find closure and do some wonderful healing! 🪴 "be resourceful! be wise!" i also just got harry potter for some reason haha. maybe ur feeling called to watch it :) those were your lovely messages, i hope clarity always finds your way.

pile 3

hi sweets i hope you're having a good day. i'm getting such a natural feeling from this group. very light, airy, natural, hollistic, down-to-earth kind of energy. if this sounds like you, or an ideal version of yourself, this is for you my love! �� i just heard "you're like a flower in bloom right now" !! very kind message from your angels. (specifically got angels rather than just "spirit guides"). 222 and 333 could be significant to you. yogurt. yakult. soju. south korea (maybe makeup or fashion or snacks from s.korea). animation or manga. romance. filters. trend-setter. coffee or tea. a very truthful person with high principles.

your cards: the high priestess, the emperor, the magician, 9 of pentacles, oracle card messages are inner power, unbridled confidence, claiming your pace, and "what are you being called to create?"

when i was barely shuffling the cards i was just thinking to myself how beautiful you are. i could feel it so truly. you're like the calm breeze in people's lives. a constant. such a reassuring force. in my mind, i got the picture of a palm tree in front of a beautiful beach (very soothing and clear blue waters) and the wind was blowing a bit harshly, but the palm tree still looked So in its own essence. just existing beautifully. a part of nature. this is exactly what you give off and oh my goodness i would love to have a friend like you. i asked your angels what you needed to hear right now and FYI, when i shuffle and a lotsss of cards fall, i know that whoever i'm reading for has some guides that want to tell them So Many Things. lots of chitter-chatter. your guides freaking love you because you have such a special way of being and a light inside of you "like no other". whatever you are doing spiritually at the moment is being praised by your angels. i keep feeling the sensation that they are endlessly proud of you. i got the image of a kid with a golden medal and two angels on each side of them. you are surrounded by them. ahhhh. you are a breath of fresh air in this world. i'm getting that what you need to hear right now has to do with being sure of yourself. trust yourself. trust the universe. it has your back because you do a lot of important and not-so-easy things in your life. you have lots of integrity and i wouldn't be surprised if you had prominent earth placements in your astrology chart or maybe you're making some big strides towards finding true inner peace and finding contentment. your hard work is paying off. your inspired ideas and creativity are really wanting you to make them physical. put them out there. create something, anything that feels close to your heart and makes you feel excited. it's okay to be afraid, but as i always say, let fear be your motivator. fear is nothing but a little insect which you can just walk around. you're unstoppable seriously i'm so excited for you and whatever you're creating. whatever this thing is... it's gonna be rewarding. you're gonna be able to treat yourself to something really nice as a result and celebrate yourself and the wonderful person you are. this made me teary-eyed. have so much fun with whatever you're doing, you do not need instructions or rules, you just need yourself.

some songs i channeled for you, feel free to listen if you'd like :3 runners by stray kids, edge of seventeen by stevie nicks, chosen by blood orange, do it again by steely dan.

thank you for being here 🎀⋆˚˖°𖤣.𖥧.𖡼.⋆˚˖˚⊹

[writeroutoftime]

precious secrets (part 2)

part one

pairing: eris vanserra x reader

summary: months later you still find yourself in the night court while your mate is stuck in autumn. but one day, feyre comes by with interesting news.

warnings: none, I promise it's fluff!

words: 1k

a/n: loved writing this so much, and thank you so much for all the support on the first part! also, if you want to request any other scenarios, please send them in!! enjoy!

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The cool, night air washed over you as you stood out on the balcony, looking down below at Velaris. Even you had to admit the city was more beautiful in the evening with the stars shining down on its citizens. It had been weeks since your first introduction to the secret city of the Night Court, and, in turn, weeks since you had last seen your mate.

The time away from Eris was torture, made worse by the fact the two of you were only able to keep up minimal communication. Short letters slipped between members of the Night Court when they were able to visit. Feelings of love and support down the bond, but it was never enough. It didn't erase the uneasiness you felt at the thought of Eris alone in his father's grasp.

You heard the laughter and cheer of the Inner Circle inside and clutched your glass of fae wine tighter. While they had all been incredibly welcoming of Eris' secret mate, watching so many pairs of mates love each other happily and openly made you long for your own. Very quickly, you became jealous of Feyre and Rhysand, suddenly wishing you possessed their daemati powers.

'I think of you every day and every night, my love. I know we will be together again soon. Please, stay safe."

With thoughts of Eris' letters in your mind, you sighed and turned from the view and pushed off the balcony. You offered a tight smile to the Inner Circle. "Goodnight."

"Wait, y/n, are you sure you don't want to stay?" Feyre asked, reaching out to gently grab your hand.

"I'll see you in the morning." you reiterated, slipping away from the looks of pity you know that followed you.

As you got yourself ready for bed in your temporary room, your mind raced to Eris. Looking out the window, you wondered if Eris was thinking of you at the same moment. A warm, loving feeling blossomed in your chest, and your hand brushed over your heart.

"Stay safe, love." you whispered before slipping under the covers.

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The couch in the library had become a favored spot of yours as you worked your way through the Night Court's collection. You currently were reading one of Nesta's recommendations. She had only smirked when she handed you the copy, and it didn't long to figure out why. Just before you could get to the good part, there was a soft, yet urgent tap against your mind.

Allowing your shields to fall just a hint, you heard Feyre's warm voice fill your mind. "Beron is dead. We just received official word from the Autumn Court not even an hour ago."

Your heart froze in your chest. Beron was dead. Well and truly dead after centuries of keeping his people underneath his tight reign. For the first time in what felt like forever, a weight fell from your shoulders. You could breathe again.

Once your mind was able to process the reality of your situation, you thought of your mate and the possibility of seeing him again. As if you were psychic, you felt a tug at the bonder sharper than it had been in weeks. The book slipped to the floor with a harsh thud without a second thought.

In an instant, you ran down the hallways of River House and found yourself outside the living room. The doors were closed, but for the first time in months, the bond that connected you to Eris sung a beautiful melody. You knew, without a doubt, that your mate stood on the other side of the door.

There was a moment of hesitation as you reached for the handle. It had been months since you and Eris had truly seen each other. How had he changed? How had you changed? But you quickly decided that none of those things mattered. With passion, you pushed open the door and felt yourself freeze.

In the middle of the room stood Eris. His auburn hair was disheveled and the bags under his eyes were as prominent of ever, but underneath it all, you could only see was the male you loved. Hesitantly, you took a step forward, arm outstretched, hovering just inches away from your mate.

"Eris?" you breathed out, afraid it was an illusion which would shatter at any moment. "Are you really here?"

Your mate offered a warm smile and closed the gap between you. "It's me, my love. I promise you this is real." he said, wrapping his arms around you and pulled you flush against his chest.

The scent of cinnamon and fresh autumn air engulfed your senses, providing you with a sense of relief you hadn't felt in ages. Burying your face against his chest, you let your hands roam the expanse of Eris' back holding onto any piece of him possible.

Eventually, you pulled back and glanced up into your mate's amber eyes. "Is it true? He-he's gone?

"He's gone." Eris confirmed, moving to cup your face with his hand, delicately swiping his thumb along your cheekbone. He leaned down to brush his lips against yours after years of yearning for this moment. Your first kiss free from the fear of constantly looking over your shoulders and waiting for the shoe to drop.

Eris broke the kiss and let his forehead rest against yours. "He can no longer control us or our lives, my High Lady."

Your eyes grew wide with shock. "A-are you sure, Eris?"

"There is no one I would rather have my side. I have dreamed of this moment for years, and now, all of Prythian can come to know my smart, strong, beautiful mate that I love with all my heart." Eris stared at you adoringly, bringing your hand up to brush a kiss against your knuckles. "Let's go home, High Lady."

"I thought you'd never say those words, High Lord."

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tagging (based on comments from the first part): @fxckmiup, @tele86, @m00n5t0n3, @mybestfriendmademe, @glitterypirateduck

[ahamkara-apologist]

Okay I kinda get being dissapointed at how they rushed the Sov sibling reconcilliation with just one conversation after drawing it out for months but y'all...this really isn't the end-all-be-all of Crow's character arc, nor is it necessarily out of line for him. His biggest weakness is that he's a bleeding heart who lets people walk all over him- remember how he decided not to get revenge on Spider despite Spider very literally keeping him as a slave? Or how he killed a psion because he was too empathetic to a hive guardian? As much as I love him, and as much as his love is a terrifying force when weilded correctly, he's soft and weak. He always has been. He was bound to forgive Mara eventually, esp. since they have a psychic twin bond going on.

I think y'all are also forgetting the fact that Mara has had quite a bit of character development over the past year or so and has very notably been more open about her emotions and better about keeping herself out of Crow's life- because she got bitchslapped by the reality of what she'd done to him in Season of the Lost and then got shaken to the core by her confrontation with the Witness in Witch Queen. She hasn't been 'defanged', she realized that the way she was acting qualified her to be a Disciple (aka the worst of the worst, the enemy she'd been hellbent on fighting this whole time) and that in tandem with Crow's rejection upset her deeply enough for her to change her behavior, which hasn't been as apparent until now. Idk how y'all can forgive how Uldren Sov slaughtered hundreds of Awoken citizens and wreaked havoc on the Reef but is changed as Crow without also acknowledging the fact that Mara herself changed as well. It's not as dramatic of a difference because it happened more gradually and without intervention from a Taken Ahamkara and the Traveller, but its still there and is the most apparent its ever been right now. It wouldn't surprise me if the reason why Crow is forgiving her now- apart from the fact that he's a softie and discounting potential Riven bullshit- is because she's proven she's changed by both keeping her distance and being more emotionally open with him, as well as open about how she knows she fucked up. That's the second thing Uldren wanted other than her approval, after all.

Also, it's been like, 2 years of Crow being pissed at Mara and avoiding her, so them starting to make up now is kinda necessary even if it feels a bit rushed. I personally would have loved to see more snark and nettling from Crow's end, bc I love conflict and sibling angst, but it really isn't out of character nor is it throwing away Crow's character arc. It would have if Mara hadn't changed, but she has. And while I myself love storylines where victims don't need to forgive their abusers and can exert their wrath upon them as they wish, the fact of the matter is that how such a situation needs to be dealt with varies immensely on a person-to-person basis, which the writing team has already proven they're capable of understanding. Just look at Calus's and Caiatl's relationship! That ended with no reconcilliation because Calus simply refused to change, while Mara has spent the past year trying to get Crow to feel comfortable with her as an equal in conversations and open up to him more and trying to break her habit of watching him like a hawk- aka, acting like an actual sister rather than the pseudo-mother figure she'd picked up from Osanna. Ofc Crow the softie is going to respond to that, esp. since he's got a psychic connection to her via Awoken Twin Magic and seems to have been walking Uldren's memories as of late. He just genuinely is really fucking bad at holding a grudge.

(And while its easy to go 'oh the writing is lazy and rushed', I also think its kinda sus that Riven specifically talks about the human wish to reconnect with family right after the Sov sibling talk happens. It wouldn't surprise me if she picked up on Mara's desire to reconnect with her brother and pushed Crow towards forgiving her. It seems like she's been trying to pull Uldren's memories to the forefront everytime she talks with him and that could be a big factor as to why he's been reflecting on them a lot recently)

[fallenrocket]

I feel a little apprehensive putting this into words. I guess I'll just start by saying that this is 100% IMHO. I know a lot of people are celebrating "Rogue" and really love the Doctor/Rogue dynamic--I'm not contradicting them or trying to downplay the significance of seeing the Doctor in a same-sex romance, especially after the show seemed to hold back with the Doctor and Yaz. I get that this episode is a big ol' "happy Pride to us!" moment for a lot of fans, and they have every right to feel that way. I just want to talk about why I, an aroace who views the Doctor as aspec, had a hard time fully embracing it.

From the moment I heard chatter that Fifteen was going to be drawn more to men than women, I was fine with it. As I've said before, one of the fun things about Doctor Who aspec headcanons is that each regeneration feels ace in different ways. Most of the new Who Doctors are some flavor of romantic, and plenty of them have been neutral or receptive to men flirting with them. It's all good. I just hoped that an m/m-leaning Doctor still felt ace to me, the way that m/f- and f/f-leaning Doctors have. I was hoping not to get, "The Doctor is gay now, and he's DTF!"

In my view, when the Doctor is drawn to someone, it's always primarily about who they are and what they do, not what they look like. The Doctor does use words like "beautiful," "gorgeous," and "sexy," but they're far more likely to use them in reference to a machine/creature/constellation than to a person. The Doctor forges deep soul connections in their romances while also giving just as much weight and respect to their platonic connections (love you forever, Fifteen and Ruby!) The Doctor's version of "flirting" is usually just being themselves, which people can't help falling in love with, and they're often slow to realize other people are flirting with them. Different Doctors have different reactions to kissing, but 1) they're often the one being kissed, not the other way around, and 2) they often find themselves surprised by kisses. When it comes to sexual references/propositions, their responses usually range from uncomfortable to confused to "does not register at all that there is something sexual here."

Nine when Jackie gives him the old "there's a strange man in my bedroom, anything could happen": ...No.

Ten when Lilith tries to seduce him: Now, that’s one form of magic that’s definitely not going to work on me.

Eleven when Craig says to give him a shout if he needs privacy with a girlfriend or boyfriend: Oh, I will! I’ll shout. Yes, something like, “I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS!!”

Twelve when River points out that he has no idea whether or not she looks "amazing": Well, you, you’ve moved your hair about, haven’t you?

Thirteen when Yaz's mum asks if they're dating: ...I don’t think so. Are we?

Now, I get that the show doesn't owe me an aspec Doctor, but what it's given me so far has pretty much always fit into that headcanon nicely. I love that this show is led by a brilliant, imaginative, compassionate hero who has boundless love for their friends and doesn't really care about sex.

That's the energy I was hoping for with Fifteen, and "Rogue" doesn't really deliver it for me. I'm not saying that an aspec person can't respond to Rogue the way the Doctor does, but to me, it just feels off compared to how the Doctor usually is in romantic situations.

When Rogue invites him for a walk outside and the Doctor remarks, "Fast mover," before following him--would any other Doctor take that as a proposition?

Just generally leading with the physical--handsome strangers, commenting on how good Rogue looks in his jacket, "you're hot" on the psychic paper. Again, I've seen the Doctor fall for people based on their bravery, their kindness, their intelligence, their skill in a crisis, etc. They usually are hot, in the way that most people on TV are, but that's not why the Doctor likes them. And with Rogue, that seems to be the very first thing the Doctor notices about him. What qualities of his is the Doctor drawn to?

The Doctor taking more of a lead when it comes to overt flirtation--given that Rogue is kind of a brusque, prickly loner, he likely wasn't going to start it off, but it feels weird to me to see the Doctor take the reins on a romance that isn't some kind of pretense (a la Ten proposing to Queen Elizabeth because he's trying to prove she's really a Zygon.)

I'm not about to say this episode is blatantly sexualized or "think of the children!" or anything like that. And honestly, Fifteen's portrayal here isn't drastically far off from previous characterizations of the Doctor. But there are just lots of little things that, if I was writing it, I'd have nudged slightly to put the Doctor's reactions to Rogue more in line with how they reacted to Rose/Reinette/River/etc.

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I'd open with the Doctor curious about Rogue as someone who clearly isn't from that time/place, drawn more to the mystery than anything else. When Rogue is dour in response, the Doctor teases him--he's at a party, he's in a playful mood, and he wants the guy to lighten up.

They go outside--maybe together, maybe separately--but they both come across the duchess's shoe, shortly followed by the duchess herself. Rogue makes a clever observation or asks an Excellent Question that piques the Doctor's interest, but then he's disappointed when Rogue pulls the gun on him. Something along the lines of, "Bounty hunter? Just when I thought I met someone interesting," or, "I thought you were clever! How can you find so much evidence and follow it to exactly the wrong conclusion?"

Still, the Doctor's annoyed, not worried. He's confident that he can either convince Rogue he's wrong or get away, so he keeps up the teasing. But when Rogue takes him back to his ship, the Doctor quickly picks up on the fact that it's made to be flown with two. He's becoming slightly more worried about his own predicament, but he also wonders what pain Rogue is trying to conceal, and the little surprising touches around the ship--the DnD dice, the music--are piquing his interest again.

The Doctor uses the scanner to prove he's not a Childur, and Rogue realizes he only wants to capture the right person. The Doctor starts to think maybe there's hope for this guy yet. They go to the TARDIS and have basically the same conversation: "Pure Imagination," the pitch to travel with the Doctor (with added emphasis on there being better possibilities out there than bounty hunting,) and the two of them opening up about continuing on after loss. It's in this scene that Rogue really starts to feel drawn to the Doctor. He considers a kiss, but the Doctor is distracted by reprogramming the triform and misses signals that are visible from space.

Back at the ball, the Doctor and Ruby reconnect and catch each other up. Somewhere in there, they have a brief side exchange about Rogue. Ruby makes a comment about his good looks, and the Doctor says something like, "Is he? Now I know he's a bounty hunter, but he wants to do the right thing here. And no one who listens to Kylie could be all bad!" He spitballs a few "scandalous" ideas before realizing that him and Rogue dancing would be the juiciest. Fewer pregnant pauses and smoldering looks here, maybe some awkwardness like, "We could--I mean, if you wanted to--just to draw her out, mind..."

It's during the dance that the Doctor really starts to twig that he might be catching feelings, even as he stays focused on the task at hand. And it's not until Rogue pulls the proposal move that it occurs to the Doctor that Rogue might possibly be catching feelings for him too.

Climax mostly plays out the same way. Again, less of a pregnant pause with the kiss. Lean into the Doctor's distress over Ruby--maybe Rogue says something like, "Shh, it's okay," before going in for the kiss. The Doctor's face registers surprise, then he kind of melts into it, then before he knows it, Rogue has swapped places with Ruby and is telling the Doctor to find him. And then he's gone.

And this has nothing to do with ace stuff, but I'd set the last scene between the Doctor and Ruby in the TARDIS, with Ruby walking in to find the Doctor aggravated that he's tried numerous options and can't lock onto a way to track Rogue. He tries to play it off--"It was always a longshot, endless dimensions out there. Where to next, huh?"--and Ruby shuts him up and encourages him to let himself feel this loss.

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But I dunno. Equality doesn't equal equity. Maybe if the Doctor's romance with Rogue had a similarly light touch as some of their m/f connections, people would be arguing that it wasn't really a romance. That the Doctor "clearly" wasn't into Rogue like Rogue was into him, or that the show was pulling its punches with a "sanitized" m/m romance. I can't speak to that experience, and maybe my version wouldn't come off well for reasons I can't see.

And like I said, if you love the Doctor/Rogue, that's great. I'm glad that you got an episode like this during Pride, and I know I can't blame a show for not following my headcanon. I went into "Rogue" apprehensive but hoping I'd love it, and these are just my thoughts and reactions to the episode.

[dr-futbol-blog]

Grace Under Pressure, Pt. 14

Back in the rescue jumper, we find Zelenka cursing in Czech to himself and although we did see McKay basically do the same thing earlier -- cursing Zelenka out to relieve some of the tension he was feeling over the situation without actually meaning what he was saying (mostly) -- it is not entirely clear whether Zelenka is cursing out McKay or Sheppard here. Very likely he sees this as both of their faults; he knows that he would not be in the jumper bearing down toward the ocean floor without McKay, and he knows that he would not be there without Sheppard, either. The two men are very much a package deal to him, each one infuriating in their own ways.

Zelenka: It's screwed up this. Whose idea was this, we'll be under water, this time? Sheppard: I think my Czech's getting better, 'cause I know what you mean. Zelenka: Could be the shields, could be the depth -- I'm having trouble detecting the jumper. Only...

Now, it is interesting that Sheppard claims to be able to understand Zelenka's meaning here. It could of course be hyperbole, that he can appreciate the sentiment although he cannot understand the words. It might not be all that difficult to guess what Zelenka might be saying, to hear the emotion and to fill in the blanks. But Sheppard's expression here is curious because he does actually look like he is picking something up. Now, some people joke that he has been learning Czech in his free time, which is neither here not there. For sure life may get boring for them now and again but we have no actual evidence for this being the case. The other option might be that Sheppard has been spending enough time in McKay's lab watching him work (for which there is evidence) that he has started picking up some of Zelenka's more colourful expressions.

This is possible. But it is curious that this happens in the jumper because Sheppard is connected to the jumper via neural interface and we have seen previously that the jumper at the very least attempts to fulfill his requests, his desires. Therefore it is possible that just because Sheppard wanted to understand what Zelenka was saying that the jumper itself translated the meaning if not the words right into his brain. And the reason why Sheppard wanted to understand what Zelenka was saying was not out of simple curiosity but because McKay's life is on the line and he feels like he needs to be on top of things, to have all the available information. And what Zelenka tells him is that he is having trouble detecting McKay. Their machines are not able to find him.

Sheppard: Only what? Zelenka: Could you bring up the HUD please? Sheppard: What's that? Zelenka: Your sea monster. It's at least six to eight times as large as this jumper, so let's not venture too closely, OK?

Although the scanners are unable to locate McKay, they are able to find the giant fish and although it is humonguous, we later learn that it is just a child and that even larger beasts exist in the ocean. Regarding the roles that Sam -- assuming that it is somehow a manifestation of the psychic fish -- has been playing, it is interesting that Zelenka calls it "your sea monster," coining the phrase Sheppard had used earlier, because while it has the outward appearance of Samantha Carter, it certainly seems to consist of much more than just Carter. Given how the fish seems to have the express purpose of drawing the rescue party to McKay's location, it could even be that it is not entirely manifested from McKay's mind alone but that it is actually bridging the minds of the two men together to lead Sheppard down to McKay. The two other times that we see the fish, both in the real world and in their shared subconscious mind in Doppelganger (S04E04), the psychic fish is a pet project shared by the two of them.

Sheppard: How're the shields doing? Zelenka: Twelve minutes. Sheppard: Alright. Let's check it out. Zelenka: Why? Sheppard: Because it's still swimming around in circles in the same area, which means it might have found something interesting.

While Zelenka wants to steer clear of the sea beast, Sheppard on the other hand wants immediately to get closer to it and this is not because he is simply curious or thinks that the sea monster is cool. There is something drawing him to the location, something that is telling him this is worth checking out. Sheppard tells Zelenka that it is because the fish seems to be circling something, which he is able to tell after two seconds of observing it, suggesting that this is more his intuition speaking than just his keen observational skills.

But what Sheppard tells us here is important. For one, he hopes that what the fish finds interesting is McKay and because McKay is interesting to him, he naturally assumes McKay must be interesting also to the fish. And the other thing is that swimming (or in his case, walking) around in circles around the object of his interest is how Sheppard himself seems to express his interest in something or someone, and in this regard it is fascinating that we saw Sheppard frequently twist his whole body back to be able to walk in a way that allowed him to see McKay's face when first started expressing his interest in the other man. He was giving McKay his full attention by seeming to surround him. Sheppard is able to intuit what the fish is doing because that is what he would do if he had discovered McKay at the bottom of the ocean.

McKay: What? What do you want from me? Just, just, just go away! I think he's... I think he's just waiting to eat me.

From Sheppard trying to figure out why the fish is swimming around in circles and seeming to hit the nail on the head we get back to McKay who seems much worse in divining the intention of his constant companion. Whether or not McKay actually thinks the fish wants to eat him, he is afraid of the possibility nonetheless and getting eaten by a giant fish would just make his day. The water has been steadily rising and must be getting colder to boot so it seems like complaining is the only thing keeping McKay warm at the moment.

With regards to being eaten, we might point out that in Epiphany (S02E12) when Sheppard had come across a beast that he worried might want to eat him up, he had told him that if the beast was not going to eat him, he was going to eat the beast. Now, even though McKay suggests that the fish's motivation for hanging around is that it is waiting to eat him like a sardine snack right out of a can, he does actually raise the question of its motivation here. It seems obvious that the fish is trying to save his life -- but why? What does the fish want with him? Does it want something from him? Eating does not seem to be on its agenda and for all we know, the fish are vegetarian. Later on, they do need the humans to save them from a coronal mass ejection from the nearby sun. But the motivations of this particular fish are not made entirely clear. And although here McKay tells it to leave him alone just as he had told Carter to leave him alone earlier, the fish seems reluctant to do that.

McKay: I treated him pretty bad. "Carter": The whale? McKay: No, Griffin. I changed the subject. You of all people should be able to keep up. "Carter": Sorry.

McKay seems to be rambling, seeming to be talking just to keep himself awake and warm(er), but it is still worth pointing out that who ever or what ever Carter is, she is unable to tell when he suddenly changes topics. Carter cannot follow his train of thought which means that she is something other than a simple manifestation of his mind. If she was a feature of his subconscious mind and the purpose of this was just to show McKay talking with his own mind, she should easily have been able to keep up with him switching topics, which even he is able to point out here. McKay seems barely to be conscious and he can still tell that a hallucination should be able to respond to his thoughts better than she can. Now, Carter does refer to the fish as a "whale" here which seems to be taxonomically incorrect -- it is later revealed that the sea beasts are closer to fish than they are to whales, which are mammals. This too might hark back to their earlier discussion over tomatoes, given how these animals might outwardly resemble whales but still taxonomically be fish just like tomatoes are actually fruit and only thought of as vegetables.

This of course does not prove that Carter is not a manifestation of the fish, only that "whale" is the thing that McKay would be most likely to call it given his current knowledge. If all the knowledge about marine life the fish has is coming from McKay's mind then whale is the name he probably would use of it. But if Carter is a manifestation of the fish, it is also interesting that it immediately arrives at the conclusion that McKay was talking about it here, that McKay had treated the whale bad(ly). For sure McKay is not the friendliest of men but what the fish or "Carter" would specifically view as bad treatment is anyone's guess, given especially the fact that the fish attempted to cozy up to McKay physically much more aggressively than McKay had done to it.

Regardless, McKay was not talking about treating the fish bad(ly) but of Griffin and given that he now very much thinks that he is dying, he seems to want to spend his last remaining moments feeling regret over what had transpired earlier.

McKay: He knew we were both gonna die if he didn't do anything so... he... Why didn't I think of it first? Maybe I did! I thought of it, I just couldn't… He was a brave man, and I… It just doesn't seem right, you know? Been a bad day.

Again, McKay has a tendency to slur his words pretty badly when he is agitated and he is trembling with cold here, to boot. But the GateWorld.net transcript here makes no damn sense ("He knew we were both gonna die, and he didn't want anything, so … he … I don't think I can think of a person … He was dead … I don't know … I just … couldn't" -- what is he even trying to say here?), seeming to have misplaced the thread of his thought. McKay is feeling regret over what had happened and this here, what he says when he thinks he is dying, is not just important but the crux of the entire episode. He calls Griffin a brave man, and as mentioned, Hemingway had defined courage as "grace under pressure" (where he said it initially is less clear but it is featured e.g., in a letter to F. Scott Fitzgerald). And that is what McKay is also exemplifying in this episode -- McKay is the brave little toaster who has those depths of character he does not even know he has.

The situation he is placed in here, albeit he does not have much of a choice now to do anything beyond hope to either be rescued or die, does show us his character, does show us that he is not willing to give up and that he very much wants to live. McKay says here that he would have done what Griffin did. While he is honest (and self-aware) enough to admit to himself that he did not rush to sacrifice his life to Griffin the same way as Griffin had for him (and again we may raise the question of why exactly he did that), what he is saying here is that he wanted to do it. McKay cares a lot about people even if he cannot stand to be around them or listen to them talk about tomatoes all the time, and we have seen many times that he is willing to lay down his own life so that others might live. In the alternative timeline of Before I Sleep (S01E15), McKay had drowned trying to save the city and he had given up his own life easily because he had no reason to live. Having fallen in love, our McKay is different from that McKay, he does have a reason for living and not wanting to die. He is brave but not one to want to throw his life away, and it is having something to lose that makes his willingness to sacrifice even more noble. It is his bravery that Sheppard admires about him, that made him take stock of McKay in the first place.

And here, McKay is saying that he would have wanted to do what Griffin had done. What he does not understand is why he had done it because although he cares about others, McKay has a much more difficult time seeing his own worth. He does not think that he is worth saving, and certainly not worth dying for. And all at the same time, Sheppard is making his way down to him not just thinking that he is worth dying for but that he is worth killing for, which is a whole other ballgame. It will take McKay a long minute to understand just how much he means to Sheppard and just how much he would do to keep him safe.

What is important here is this: McKay admits that maybe he did think of it first but he could not go through with it. And the one thing that is different between this McKay and the one who drowned with the city is that he has someone he loves. Because his life is not just his life anymore. He could not sacrifice his life because it is not just his life that he would be giving up, not anymore. He had been injured when Sheppard had made the decision to lay down his life for him without asking him, and he would never want to do the same to him. For McKay, falling in love had meant giving his life into the hands of another, but as far as he was concerned, Sheppard had misunderstood the assignment in trying to sacrifice his life so that McKay might live.

"Carter": You're gonna get out of this. McKay: I don't think I would even believe that if you were naked. Oh well!

McKay seems to be almost delirious with the cold and he makes one last play at trying to see whether this thing that is very much not a hallucination would actually do what he thinks at him to do which is to turn naked at his thinking it. It does not. Again McKay is not actually saying that he wants to see her/him/it naked or that seeing women naked is something that he generally likes to think about, all he is saying is that if she was a figment of his imagination, he could make it happen and because he cannot make it happen, she is not created from his mind. And we were just confirmed with what McKay was saying about Griffin and his own motivations that he cannot lie to himself, he is much too self-aware to be fooled by his own mind into thinking comforting lies or half-truths. Also, McKay does not exactly seem broken-up about not being able to see her naked here.

"Carter": Stick with me, Rodney. You've gotta stay alert. McKay: My plan was stupid. What was I thinking? "Carter": Twenty-twenty hindsight. McKay: You were right. Should have listened to you.

McKay admitting that he should have listened to her is another acknowledgement that he does not think that she is created from his mind. He seems to be falling unconscious and Carter is trying to keep him awake although she seems have run out of any feasible ways of doing that. We have noted previously that it is in their final moments that people reveal who they really are and while this is far from the only time that we see McKay in this situation, it is still worth pointing out that he seems to care about people a lot and he is willing to admit that he was wrong here, that he should listened -- just as he probably should have listened to Sheppard after his long exile in the time dilation field. He is saying it to Carter here but given her earlier jibe at not listening making him bad at relationships, the fact that he admits that someone else had been right and that he should have listened is also something that he at least wants to say to Sheppard, as well, if he ever gets out of here.

McKay: Always admired you, Sam. And, and I'm not just trying to... "Carter": I know. McKay: I honestly don't think you're smarter than I am. On your best day, we're, like, maybe a tie? "Carter": There is a compliment coming, right? McKay: Yes. My intelligence aside, you're wiser. I guess at the end of the day that's, that's why you're down here.

Again McKay calls her Sam in a way that he never has in the real world and he may be delirious enough that he does not even know who he is talking to at this point. He tells her that he admires her which may well be true -- this is an iteration of what McKay had told her at the SGC. He told her that she is an artist where he is just a fine technical player. Note also that he is actually explicitly stating here that is not saying this to get into her pants or that he even wants to get into her pants. He admires her as a scientist even though it is not easy for him to admit that. And it is not unimportant that he also confesses that he does not honestly think that she is smarter than him. In fact, he seems to be saying that it is only on her best day that they are even equal meaning that he does think that he is smarter than her.

The "one person" he thinks is smarter than him that was mentioned earlier is not Carter but we have every reason to believe that it is, in fact, his sister. And that ties to what he is saying here: why Carter is the one down there with him instead of someone else. Carter is certainly wiser than his little sister is. It seems like he is trying to figure out why out of everyone that it could have been, it is Carter. And of course Carter's job here was to convince him that Sheppard, the man who loves him, is on his way to save him and to give him time to find him so obviously it could not have been him. It could not have been Zelenka because McKay would never have believed that Zelenka was smarter than him. That is why she is down there, but it does not mean that just because she had taken the physical manifestation of Samantha Carter that that is the only thing she is because there certainly seemed to be aspects of people other than Carter that had gone into her, that she was drawing from his mind.

McKay: You were right. "Carter": Well, you were right, at least subconsciously. McKay: Huh. I guess that's something.

If she is the fish, the fish certainly seems to have grown fond of McKay during the time that they have been together and it has been trying to learn about the newcomers from the strangest man among them. In admitting that she had been right, McKay is showing that he is not quite as petty as he projects most of the time and that he can admit when he is wrong, which we have also seen him do before. But given that McKay seems to be dying and she is trying to keep him alive knowing that Zelenka and Sheppard are fast approaching their location, she does not see the harm in giving him comfort. If it had not been for him, the fish, swimming around the jumper, McKay would never even have thought of the idea of swimming the jumper to the surface only to lose most of his remaining power in the attempt, so it really had kind of been Sam's fault McKay was in this mess.

Continued in Pt. 15

[wendichester]

𓂃˖ ࣪ 𝔠𝔬𝔪𝔭𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔟𝔦𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔶 𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔡𝔦𝔫𝔤

˚₊‧꒰ა @americanvenom13 ☆ castiel ໒꒱ ‧₊˚ ⋆˙⟡ where cancer, unknown, sagittarius meets virgo, capricorn, pisces*. ⟡˙⋆

𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐⭒๋࣭ ⭑✧˖⋆𖤐

ꔛ. meeting each other,

✧ what’s the most likely way for you two to meet?

oh, it’s one of those “you’re minding your business, not expecting an angel to drop into your lap” situations. maybe you're researching something weird, some old supernatural lore in your spare time (thanks to that moon in sagittarius), and castiel literally shows up out of nowhere. it’s probably not his first entrance into your life—you're a little psychic, maybe even intuitive—and you feel this weird presence, so you’re like “oh, cool. that’s probably an angel... whatever.” classic, right?

✧ are you a hunter or a civilian?

you’re a civilian, no question. you’re probably a person who’s deep into studying the supernatural from a very “i don’t really want to get involved” perspective. meanwhile, cas is dealing with some serious angelic drama, which he doesn’t really talk about much at first. he’s here because you’re involved in things you don’t even know you’re involved in yet.

✧ what’s his first impression of you?

honestly? castiel’s first impression of you is confusion, fascination, and a hint of… awe? he’s looking at you with that “how did a human manage to be so emotionally pure and yet so suspiciously involved in the supernatural?” vibe. you get to him with that cancer sun and mercury vibe, like he doesn’t get your emotions at first, but he does sense that your heart is real. you’re a bit of a mystery to him—sensitive, but sharp when you need to be.

ꔛ. friendship compatibility,

✧ how would the friendship be like?

your friendship is deep, soft, and a little unpredictable. you’ll bond over things like personal growth, your mutual need for emotional connection, and your ability to help each other become better versions of yourselves (though castiel doesn’t see it as “help” at first—he just sees you as a human trying to survive in the cosmic chaos). he’s a pragmatic angel, and you’re a feeling human. you will ground him in ways that he’ll never quite understand, but he’ll appreciate.

✧ how would it begin?

you’d start off as “curiosity meets help”, with you possibly fixing his issues with humans and interacting in that chill, emotionally aware way that seems normal to you but not to him. maybe you’re giving him advice about things like how to talk to people or how to handle his frustrations (castiel’s awkwardness is real). your way with words and your emotional intelligence would be what makes you so different.

✧ quirks and fun things about it:

✶ you’d teach castiel about humanity, one awkward lesson at a time. things like how to hug properly (because he’s really bad at it). ✶ you’d make him watch “dumb” human shows, and he’d never get the appeal but secretly enjoy it—especially if it involves animals or kids. ✶ you’d both have a really dry sense of humor, but it would be so good that you two end up being that weird duo everyone doesn’t understand.

ꔛ. romantic compatibility,

✧ are you compatible? is there a chance for friendship to develop into more?

yes and no, babe. castiel doesn’t always understand how to process feelings—he’s a very stoic, calculated, analytical angel who’s used to dealing with celestial things, not earthly emotional connection. but that’s the magic of you two. you meet him where he is: cancer venus vibes, emotional, warm, nurturing. while his virgo sun makes him a little “emotionally detached” in the beginning, your cancer placements will absolutely make him soften towards you. so yeah, while it’s a bit complicated and you’re like “how do I deal with this angelic mess?”, the attraction is definitely there. your moon in sagittarius clashes with his pisces moon, but it’s a beautiful tension that makes things interesting—one’s dreamy, the other’s all let’s get real. you get each other’s emotional needs in a way that no one else can.

✧ what type of relationship would it be?

it’s intense, soulful, and you’ll definitely learn a lot from each other. it’s like that mix of cosmic destiny and awkward, painfully human vulnerability—the good kind of weird and cozy. he’s fiercely protective of you, even if he doesn’t fully understand why. you’ll feel that safe warmth, but you’ll also need your space. lots of communication—he’s awful at it, but you’ll get him there.

✧ what are your love languages according to the charts?

castiel is all about acts of service and quality time—he wants to show you he cares by doing things for you. the problem is, his “doing” may not always be human, and you’ll need to translate some of his actions. your love language, though? words of affirmation and physical touch—but it’s not like you need to cuddle every second. you just need him to acknowledge your feelings and connect with you emotionally. you’re all about the deep, emotional talks, babe.

ꔛ. scenario, ₊˚⊹౨ partners ৎ ₊˚⊹

as partners, you’re probably that cute, ridiculously emotional couple that everyone secretly admires. you’ll do a lot of “let’s fix the world” together, maybe take care of some stray cats, and have deep talks about humanity. you’d be the one telling castiel, “it’s okay to feel things, you know,” while he’s like trying to get it but honestly struggling with the whole concept. you’d have a quiet, calm domestic life, with deep talks over tea or coffee, and occasionally getting into fights because he can’t quite process things as quickly as you want him to. but when it comes to real connection? oh, babe, you two would be practically unstoppable—soulful, mutual respect, and all the emotional depth.

ꔛ. overall, score : 8 / 10

you two are a slow burn couple, but it’s the type of burn that stays lit. there are some miscommunications, mostly on castiel’s side (he’s learning real human emotions, okay?), but overall, you’re a perfect balance of understanding and teaching. you’ll find your rhythm, eventually, even if it’s messy. he’s probably way more emotional than he lets on, and you’ll be the one to help him uncover that side. just be patient, babe, and when you get there, it’s going to be beautiful.

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* since he's an angel and we have no real information of his birth, i did a rough chart according to his personality. so, castiel is: sun in virgo, moon in piesces, rising in capricorn, mercury in aquarius, venus in cancer, mars in aries, jupiter in saggitarius, saturn in scorpio.

[mermaidsirennikita]

hi! do you happen to have any recommendations for contemporaries with an arranged marriage plot? or arranged marriage adjacent like they have to be together for plot reasons but not in fake dating kind of way.

Def!

The Lyonesse series by Sierra Simone (beginning with Salt in the Wound) is an MMF contemporary erotic romance series that kicks off with Isolde Laurence getting betrothed~ to the sex club owner/ex-assassin (maybe ex? Maybe?) Mark Trevena in order to align her family with him. The issue is that a) they don't trust each other at all and have their own agendas b) despite this, they're both fascinated with each other in a very "black cat meets black cat" way c) they both happen to fall in love with Mark's bodyguard Tristan. Who is NOT a black cat lmao.

Mafia Virgin by Mila Finelli. This is a contemporary mafia romance in which the hero (a mafia don who everyone thinks is stupid but he's actually just very smart and also a boxer) and the heroine (a lower boss's daughter who just wants to go to med school dammit) are forced to marry for alliance reasons... and the Big Bad wants her pregnant within six months. Good thing they both have a breeding kink, despite, you know, ALL THE ISSUES.

Kiss an Angel by Susan Elizabeth Phillips. A fabulous older contemporary; the spoiled little rich girl heroine's father basically forces her to marry this man who wants nothing to do with her. They plan on having it annulled as soon as possible, but FIRST... she has to go on the road with him and the circus he worked for as a kid. He's also very mean! In a way I was into! He does whip tricks in the circus! There's a psychic connection with a tiger, an elephant situation, SOOO much drama. It's great.

Marriage for One by Ella Maise. To be clear, I need to reread this because I largely remember enjoying it and not as many specifics, but it's basically a "marry for the inheritance" deal where the heroine needs someone to marry her in order for her to inherit a coffee shop (I think?). And for some reason, the cold man she hardly knows agrees lol

You might get some of this from:

The Bride Test by Helen Hoang. In this one, the hero and heroine don't marry off the bat, but the heroine is basically brought over from Vietnam because the hero (who's Vietnamese-American, to be clear) is single and his mom wants him to... not be. The heroine is secretly a single mom, and the hero is single because he's on the spectrum and believes he's incapable of love (also, he's a virgin).

Possession by Adriana Anders. This one has an A-list actor hero who is in a PR marriage with the ingenue rising star heroine. It's supposed to be completely platonic, but it is a legal marriage. He's caught "cheating on her" with a woman who looks just like her, and in the ensuing scandal he runs off to this secret kink camp he likes to visit when he's overwhelmed... and she follows him there... and learns some things about herself...

Nobody's Baby But Mine by Susan Elizabeth Phillips. In this one, the heroine was this genius prodigy who basically has never had a normal relationship because she's too smart for everyone... So the logical solution is to have a baby (she desperately wants to be a mom) with a dumbass. So the baby has a normal IQ. She selects this famous quarterback as the dumbass (it makes sense in context) and pretends to be a sex worker and basically tricks him into getting her pregnant. WHICH IS BAD! But to be clear, the first time she pokes holes in the condom and it doesn't work lol. Then she never plans on seeing him again. But they HAPPEN to run into each other... and he goes "fuck the condom" because he's frustrated... and... WELLLLLP.

He quickly finds out she's pregnant because he is in fact NOT STUPID AT ALL LOL, and because no child of his is gonna be a bastard and he's famous, he forces her to marry him. I do... love this novel.

[multidimensionalguidance]

Cancer Season For All Signs (Part 1)

As summer time continues to pass, the sun will now be going through one of the most soft, nurturing, and psychic signs, Cancer! From July 16th till August 16th we will be focusing our energy towards the aspects of our lives that are related to our home, mothers, domestic comfort, vehicles, roots, and inner world.

This transit will have a particular effect for each Ascendant/Rising sign during this time, but please make sure to also take a look at your Moon as well.

Note: All of my astrology post are sidereal calculations!

Aries

You will be extra focused on home matters, spending time with your family or mother, renovating or making changes at home, and overall feeling like you want to be comfy, nurtured, and loved within your home environment. There might have been or will be an unexpected change in your finances be it for good or bad, and it will trigger you to focus on the importance of having your own property or vehicle. There will also be certain psychological or subconscious patterns that will become more noticeable to you during this time, and this could make you feel very sensitive, so be careful on not pressing the anger button on everyone. This potential stress might end up affecting your work or career as well, so be gentle and allow yourself to be nurtured. A lot of changes and transformations have been occuring within your work environment, profession, work, and public image so things have been a bit all over the place with finances, but this has also open your eyes to needing more stability in other areas of your life such as your home. Enjoy your favorite comfort food and people during this season, you deserve it!

Taurus

During this month of the Sun being in your 3rd house you will be more communicative and feeling comfortable with voicing out to others the way you feel, and don't get me wrong, you're not the type to stay quiet at all, but there could have been matters that you've allowed to sit in your head for far too long. It will push you towards being interested in learning new things, processing a lot of information, and/or developing new skills/hobbies. Be mindful of random bursts of anger or unexpected situations occuring out of your own impulsivity that might end up physically affecting you somehow. Luckily, you do have Jupiter fully protecting, guiding, and throwing wisdom your way. Your energy levels might be all over the place, and for the next couple of years you will be experiencing a lot unexpected changes to your body and personality. It will take you some time to get used to it, and even for others who are used to your very stable or predictable nature will be up for a surprise. This is a chance for you to think outside of the box and break away from old ways of being. This season is a good time to accept these changes and to pay attention to the way you share your thoughts, be it spoken or written. You might also thinking about the ways your near environment has kept your from traveling, exploring other places, and connecting with your personal philosophy.

Gemini

Your focus will be all about your resources, finances, self-value, family, food habits, and even beauty related to your face. This might be a season where you'll put more of your energy towards upgrading your finances, and most likely due to expenses being much higher during this year. You might want to organize yourself better not just with your money, but also with the priority you give to self-care when it comes to the food you ingest and the care given to your face. If you decide to buy any products towards those matters it will be highly beneficial for you since Venus its also in there. If you are in the mood of traveling abroad, be wary of any unexpected incident occuring. It would be best if you wait until Mars is no longer tightly conjunct Uranus. If anything, you would do better by growing your savings account during this time until the cosmic weather settles down a bit. If you've been feeling called to staying inside more often or isolated, it's okay, just make sure you're not pushing those who love and care for you away. You are currently being guided to explore subconscious mind, spirituality, and any self limiting beliefs that are stopping you from self development. If you've even been questioning matters of afterlife and religious beliefs, it is also completely normal! Do not shy away from those big questions and stay as curious as always.

Cancer

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all the nurturers, wifey/hubby material, psychics, and most kind hearted souls of the zodiac. This is quite literally your month to shine and feel like the main character because you are! You will be getting more compliments and looks your way with Venus transiting your sign. This is a time for you to simply exist and be yourself. Spend time taking care of your body, mind, and soul during this month and it will be well rewarded. Your social circle, whether it's online or face-face have probably expanded a bit during this year, and it will continue to do so, but please be mindful that not everyone is deserving of your energy this month. Spending time with your family, specially your mother will be very beneficial for you as well. You're always so concerned with taking care of others, but now its a time for you to give that energy to yourself and focus on spending time with those who want to nurture you. Treat yourself this month like the royalty of the zodiac that you truly are! Your social circle has been expanding and gains have also been making their way to you as well, so be wary that all of these blessings also comes with having more eyes on you than you would like to, hence why it is essential to purge those who reek of envy, jealousy, etc. There might be unexpected endings or beginnings occuring within your networking circle, and this could affect your long term goals plus investments, so again, invest in relationships that truly wish the best for you!

Leo

This month will be all about focusing on your spiritual side and subconscious mind. You might feel more introverted during this time or simply not as keen to being surrounded by a lot of people. This is a good time to put an ending towards bad habits and limiting beliefs that could be holding you back from greatness. Any activities related to shadow work or spiritual healing will beneficial so take advantage of it as much as you can. Even if you love being the star of the show, you also need to rest and allow others to miss you a bit. Be wary of not going over the top with expenses, specially related to traveling. If you have any plans of enjoying a spiritual or any sort of retreat, then this will be the best time to do so. You've been experiencing a lot of luck and expansion in your career and profession, but be mindful that the brighter you shine the more noticeable you become to others, and even if you might not care it will draw negative attention your way. There might be a shocking or unexpected situation related to work, your boss, paternal line, or your public image that might come to light so be ready for it.

Virgo

During this time matters related to your goals, friends, investments, online image, financial gains, and elder siblings will be highlighted. You love to bring your natural desire of service towards your friend, and being the mom-friend in your group is a given for you. There's a good chance of gaining money through collaborations with your friends. You might also feel like beautifying in some way your social media, meaning, uploading more aesthetic content or curating your algorithm to be more artsy. This is a good time to re-evaluate your long term goals and making sure that you're flexible to adjusting them if necessary. Any investments that you make during this month that aids your goals no matter how small will be very beneficial for you. Nurture your wishes as if it was your baby during this time and be proud of how far you've come to being closer to achieving them as well. If you have older siblings, then make sure to spend good quality time with them.

Thanks for reading! I'll be uploading part. 2 soon so if your sign is not in here, don't worry.

If you’d like to know with even more detail how Cancer season will be for you or would like to receive a reading from me, feel free to check out my services here or type multiguidance.com in your preferred browser.

[lesbianmasterchief]

you. fucker. gimme #14 for West

WAUGH. AGHHH

HI BASIL MY GOOD FRIEND BASIL!! I'm so scared. I was not expecting to have to answer one of these so soon BUT LET'S GO YAY YIPPEE!! I LOVE TALKING ABOUT MY OCS AND ESPECIALLY WEST

fhank you for linking the post in your ask as well!!

I really like how you set up your answers to this number, so I'm stealing the formatting <3

14. If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?

A thousand year voyage guided by compassion. West loves humanity. West loves people. She loves everybody she meets, she falls hopelessly in love with everybody she gets to infect know and understand. And she knows that every person, every single human being, has an interior life and wealth of personal experiences that she would love just as deeply if she ever knew them. West is a deeply empathetic, compassionate creature, and that is central to her character. Because even as manipulative, conniving, and power-hungry as she is, even though she's a sapient infection that chose to model her appearance off a glowing blue woman because she calculated that it would lower peoples' guards in the most optimal situations, she doesn't want to hurt anyone. West wants good things for humanity. You gotta understand this so that when she starts doing tyrannical psychic alien hivemind god-queen things, you can know she's doing some very fun mental gymnastics to justify it.

She was born yesterday and she knows jack shit. The other most important part of West's character is that she has no idea where she came from or what her purpose is. She is not part of an alien empire bent on subjugating all other species. She did not wake up thinking "aha, I was created to wipe out all organic life, and I have already succeeded in wiping out my creators, time to find more." She only started thinking after she infected her first human host. She has no memories. There is this urge to reach out, to make more connections, to spread... But whether that's an inborn instinct or just the fear of death, who's to say? There are no answers, no explanations, and there is no guidance. It's terrifying. For all her accumulated information, West is walking in the dark.

awawawawa thank you so much for asking abt her. I'm so scared. I have so much to say about her and I always struggle to put the right words down, I can only hope that this is accurate when I look at it tomorrow. but I had so much fun

[venuslovesmascs]

Pick A Pile : Tarot Reading - Message From Spirit Guides

pile one:

someone is currently working on a creative / academic project - perhaps going back to school! spirit is encouraging you to continue planning and putting work into this! It will bring you the abundance you have been praying for!

"Now Amotenia doesn't create actual love - that would be impossible - but it does create powerful infatuation or obsession, and for that reason it is probably the most dangerous potion in this room" - Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince

you may be doubting yourself because this project does not feel "of service to humanity" in the way you want it to

do not doubt the ways of the universe - and your soul path / soul journey. This thing you create - can inspire others to create, change a person's life, and change the world in your own little way.

plus - you can create another important soul project afterwards! this one feels really important don't give it up - allow yourself to have fun while creating - allow yourself to do "small projects" - not everything you do has to save the world!!

this little project - committing to it - may help you with committing to big projects in the long-run - give yourself the satisfaction of seeing something all the way through - of finishing something!!

pile two:

someone is getting out of a very stuck energy - they may have been struggling with depression and nightmares - and this caused them to not provide and take care of their partner / others as they would like.

you are making bold strokes and big changes - and spirit is really proud of you even if those around you can not tell yet!! you are beginning a whole new cycle and soul journey - this is only the beginning to your new path of enlightenment and fulfillment.

sometimes we need to go through really dark times - to remember what truly lights us up inside - and the things that "light us up" inside - and building our life styles / foundations off of that - is what leads to more long-term fulfillment and reduces burnout

you may have gotten off your feet because you were giving too much to a person - especially a love interest - and

you are starting to save yourself instead! I am proud of you!

sometimes the best way out of a situation is to accept your friends help. there are people who would love to give you emotional support at this time!! maybe even physical support - help cleaning your room - don't be afraid to ask friends - that's what they are for!! you do so much for them - they WANT to give back to you - being hyper-independent is not always "less of a burden" on other people - sometimes your friends want to care for and love you - the true friends in your life WILL feel guilty when they can't care for you back!

things would not have been different - if you made the other choice. time to look ahead on the path from now on - or at least acknowledge that looking backwards is only hurting you. try to stay more present.

pile three:

how do you deal with providing comfort and support to someone who is dealing with grief and loss?

perhaps a loss of a relationship - a pet - due so someones declining mental health.

someone just needs companionship and support - its okay to not have all the answers and to not be able to fix all of someone's problems. we are all suffering in our own ways. sometimes all we can ask is to be less alone and have a hand to hold.

do not let fear hold you back from connecting with someone new - and do not be afraid of your inner-darkness - a lot of your "inner-darkness" - may be undiscovered psychic abilities - connecting to mystics and doing deity work may be beneficial to you at this time

a sacrifice may have been needed to get yourself back on track and in a better vibration - it was not easy to let go of - the universe will soon reward you for this - this period of darkness will pass.

pile four:

someone wants an ending here - of a relationship, a career, etc. they may need to get more advice from friends.

wondering if the person they are seeing - has a partner?

this is a good time to ask friends for help - and not to go this journey alone - and question if knowing the answer is truly beneficial to you or not - would having a definitive answer make the situation any better or worse? would anything change?

something about this persons reputation - or your reputation - could be on the line- and this person may unfortunately have their own "side of the story" - maybe the relationship is very toxic / ab**sive- and you will ruin this persons reputation by calling them out for being a "cheater" - think of who they were when you two were together - trust your intuition of their CHARACTER - not of the SITUATION

maybe they made some mistakes in their personal and dating life - but it seems they never intended to hurt you - or for you to develop feelings - and they may not deserve to have their reputation ruined

this is a time to show forgiveness to this person - and not try to fully understand the situation.

this was NOT a lesson or test for you - not everything is about your path lol - this is about this persons path - you showed them your heart and healed them a lot - do not betray them - it may detour their path as well - you were brought into their life to show them the path of love and light - find contentment that you are an important person on this person's journey and will always be a good story for them to tell.

[balketh]

Third game of our new first-ever PF2e Campaign: Oblivion Deep.

(I don't recap every sesh/post heaps about it, but I've tagged it uniquely if you wanna mute~)

I'm a player; custom setting of DM's design, second campaign in this world. First campaign was 5+ years in 5e, ended with my Warforged Arcana Cleric accelerating the heat death collapse of the known universe while outside it, so he could use the unlimited potential of the early magic of the new empty universe that appeared in its place to bring the old universe from the past forward, but with a few slight alterations to how Time and Entropy work. (He a thousands-strong spies'-murmur Simulacrum hivemind user - he was literally starting to see the limitations of the universe, always contained within six second intervals. He was starting to see the Ruleset as the underlying problem of the whole setting, and so his end goal was to change it. And he did. To PF2e.) In our current game, I'm playing a Kashrishi (short psychic crystalhorn rhinoman, cool as SHIT) Alch Studies Investigator. Real sherlocky/batmany type. We've been dumped out of the playable intro cutscene - our trial-at-sea ship being attacked by a kraken, after we managed to successfully exonerate ourselves, no less - and murdering the crew trying to steal the lifeboat... So we could take it ourselves.

We were dumped out of this onto what I'm now guessing is the Tutorial Island Dungeon - an island wreathed in shadow, a world plot connected situation that we cannot easily escape from, and likely must solve to handle.

But I say tutorial island dungeon, because, so far, the two games we've spent on this island have been:

grappling with the very powerful but woefully inconsistently designed FoundryVTT (some things: drag and drop, works every time, flawless. others, of the same complexity: you need three modules and a custom bit of code and even then, it's only 80% of the desired solution.) Today it proved its worth by letting us undo a hugely misinterpreted enemy ability that was ruining the fight

we have mananged to kill 1 (one) grippli archer. This would have gone much better (and did, after fixing), if the DM hadn't been using its special multi-attack ability without any Multi-attack Penalty. One of us was still downed, in spite of that.

Rolling like absolute dogshit. I, rolling with +8 at level 1, have only hit, I think, one target, once. If it weren't for the benefit (and sometimes strong drawback) of Devise a Stratagem basically letting me 'preroll and decide' before wasting my attack action, I'd have been the most useless- oh, wait, I have been the most useless member of the party in combat so far; I've literally critically failed MOST of my attempted non-attack combat actions. I think the FoundryVTT roller just hates me.

It's taking a LOT of getting used to; we're definitely improving, but we're still very much in the run-up-and-attack mindset of 5e, and it shows, because a single grippli archer was such a fucking problem for us.

Ugh. Ah well. We actually started getting somewhere, so, things are looking up.

Can't wait to get out of this fucking Shadow darkness, though. Only one member of our party has Darkvision. Shit suuuuuucks.