#but theres peeeopleeeee onnnnnn

[shoezuki]

im gon be venting sorta kinda for a hot second here

so like this time if the year is extremely hard for me because christmas is something my child abuse was really. notable around because it was when i had to spend time with my horrible dad and his entire side of the family. which i aint hidin to say yknow i dont care. but its like. hard. really hard. this month hasnt been kind to me

i have been having trouble Talking to people and engaging with people. literally right this second im trying to build up the courage to even go onto the t’echnocord smp because i havent been on in weeks. the last time i did i had a panic attack. same with my hade’s server i aint been so active there but i been trying

but like i am doin a lot here instead. i scream into the void of the tech.nocord. mostly because how my anxiety and trauma manifests the most is i am So tempted to just cut myself off from absolutely everyone. a few years ago i literally deleted all social media and went dark. idk what it is but im tyring

i been gettin more asks here and shit n honestly thats been really helpful. the streams too its all. a really good distracted. so if youre readin this n you ever sent me anything, thanks.