#but there werent any expectations. and everyone was just fucking chilling. they didnt drain my social battery. | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

peachfiend · 1 year ago

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Have you ever gone to sleep, JUST tired because you did a lot that day, no social or emotional batteries drained or anything you just like. Go to sleep. And you sleep through the night all comfy cozy and in the morning after the just woke up grogginess fades you get up and actually have energy? I have like once recently and what the FUCK you're telling me neurotypicals feel that way every day????

#like. i am autistic and have adhd #existing is fucking exhausting #trying to deal with people and mask and function in normal society even with meds #having to sit still in school when i want to go play in the fall leaves and having to get up and stand and walk around when my body hurts #managing the expectations of schoolwork on top of everything #it leaves you exhausted. sleep doesnt fix that. at least not just a few hours of it #but like i went to a halloween party with a group of all adhd + mostly autsitic friends #i met new people and made friends and played one of the loudest and most chaotic games of cards against humanity ever #but there werent any expectations. and everyone was just fucking chilling. they didnt drain my social battery.#they didnt hold anyrhing over my head #i got home at 10:30 then took a bath and went to bed #feeling JUST tired. none of that underlying ache in my chest or fear for tomorrow or just exhaustion #there is a difference and it is SO obvious when you feel it for yourself #no fucking wonder NTs do better in society. no fucking wonder if they feel like that at the end of every day and wake up like that too #(well maybe not social battery for introverts but you never know)#just. god. we dont always have to go to sleep exhausted. we dont have to wake up drained. it doesnt have to be like this.#autism #adhd #neurodivergent #neurodivergency

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