#but there is a yt video on how to pronounce every word no matter how simple so maybe look up some of the ones u fret abt

[geoffrey]

its been said before so i wont pretend its new. but i love when ppl are like english is so hard like how would you know to pronounce this correctly [screenshot of italian or french or spanish word we adopted]

[ankcna-blog]

hello guys !! i’m blaire, and i come to you with a VERY belated greeting !! i went to a skz concert a few days ago and as you would expect my life has been flipped upside down ever since !! but now that things are calming down, i’ve got things in order and would like to introduce you to my beloved weirdo kwanchai, more commonly known as dreamdrop’s choreographer KAI ! i’ve wanted to join you all for the longest and can’t wait to have some fun now that i’m finally here ! without further ado, you can find all his links here ( more to come ) as well as some important info about him below ! and of course, like this if you want to plot ! i’ll also be joining the discord very soon, so that’ll be an option too !

background !

from bangkok, thailand ! maybe it’s because of this he’s such a city boy and loves being around people, because that’s basically been his whole life ! in bangkok there were people around nearly all the time and now that he lives in seoul, it’s no different !

like his fc, he’s ethnically chinese but his nationality is thai ! honestly he feels more of a connection to his thai side because it’s the one he’s the most familiar with, though recently he’s been trying to connect with his chinese side. 

grew up around mainly girls, 3 older sisters and one younger ! his dad’s the only boy, but his parents are divorced. they still co-parented pretty functionally, though, so he mainly stayed with his mom and did weekly visits to his dad. he believes the heavy presence of females in his life is the reason he grew up to act a little more conventionally “feminine” and why he has such a high respect for women ! his sisters have always been .... v strong in comparison to him ojoijoijoij so it makes sense why !

his sister is the original dancer of the family, picking up ballet at only 5 years old ! she’s older than him so, wanting to follow in her shoes, he begged his parents to join as well !

his parents were v apprehensive at first, especially his dad, because they weren’t the most progressive and didn’t think a boy dancing ballet looed good. it took some convincing, but eventually they allowed him !

absolutely loved it, would come home dancing nearly every day. once they realized he was really enjoying himself and taking himself seriously he convinced them to add on tap and hip hop classes as well !

always been into american culture, he was always watching shows & listening to music from america, and that transferred into a general interest for the country ! so in high school, he studied abroad for a semester w / a host famiy !

this really helped his english skills and is the main reason he’s so fluent today, which definitely helps with his job ! it’s the reason he sounds less like a foreigner now when he’s speaking.

coincidentally, through america, he found an interest in korean culture ! his host family lived in california, which already was home to a lot of korean spots, but his host sibling was a kpop fan and got him into it ! so when he got back home to thailand he had gained an interest for it.

he started listening to a lot of the music, and at 17 made a very spontaneous decision to send in an audition tape to a company ! ( not noir, a smaller up-and-coming one probably ! )

he was .... incredibly shocked that he’d gotten in, but ecstatic for the chance to do what he loved ! not everyone was quite as ecstatic as him ... mainly his dad who thought his career choice was unfit for the one son of the family.

regardless, he packed up things and moved to korea, where he began to train to become an idol ! contrary to what he’d thought he kind of hated it lmao ! he had a super hard time trying to learn korean initially and didn’t deal too well with the stress of such a cutthroat environment. on top of that, he wasn’t favored by the company and they kept giving other trainees opportunities he didn’t have ! he didn’t like that because he felt he had the personality and drive, they just weren’t willing to take a chance on him. but he really loved the chance to perform alongside other passionate people and learn from them.

so it was a bittersweet moment when, at 18, he terminated his contract. he felt relieved with all that extra pressure off him e but was also sad to no longer be performing. he tried to lie and act like he didn’t to his family but eventually, they found out and his mom sent him back home to thailand. his dad was livid and promised that if he didn’t do something within 2 months to get a job he’d stop helping him out.

kwanchai wanted to keep dancing but still needed a job, so did the best thing he could think of ! a choreographer he’d met in seoul promised him a room in his house if he agreed to fly back to korea and start working as a sort of dance apprentice under him at a studio !

so, going back yet again, he agreed and made one of the best choices of his life ! he got a lot better and not only dance but teaching / choreographing it ! with this, he comfortably began to adjust to the country and learned a lot !

the more he was there, the more he realized how much he enjoyed choreographing ! his friend gave him the chance to begin creating dances from the studio and it was then he decided he wanted to do it as a career !

he didn’t want to feel like a burden at his friend’s for so long, so it was then he decided to apply for a job at noir as a choreographer, hoping to save up and buy his own place. he applied unsure if he’d really get it due to his short experience, but was ecstatic when he did !

the whole thing has proved to be one of the best choices of his life - he’s got a steady job that’s very fulfilling, he saved up enough for an apartment, and he gets to dance while maintaining the level of freedom he’d craved as a trainee !

personality / random tidbits !

his app summed it up well, he’s incredibly eccentric ! he’s just different in nearly every way and if told to do something one way, he’ll probably do it the other. 

his name is kwanchai, but ever since he was 17 he’s gone by kai, a shortened version of his full one ! it’s because it not only easier to pronounce for koreans but to his many american friends as well, and honestly it makes him feel less out of place as it’s a fairly universal name !

he’s super talkative, inherited from his sisters, but in turn is a very good listener ! so you’ll catch him either ranting about all his problems or listening to someone else doing the same.

naturally, he’s very fun and excitable ! rarely takes anything seriously, that is .... unless he’s dancing ! typically when teaching he likes to crack jokes and such to make the experience fun, but if it’s crunch-time he does a whole 180. when he has to he takes dancing very seriously, sometimes maybe even too much ! he may come off as controlling but in reality he’s just very passionate and a true perfectionist in terms of technique. 

speaking of dancing, seeing him do it is quite an amusing sight ! kind of like j-hope he’s always making noises when he does it, and always has some sort of noise or word that correlates with his dance move ! def the type to say “and jazz hands !!”

maybe it helps, maybe it sounds stupid ! but since he has such a horrible memory it does tend to help him out a lot.

his hair right now is dyed, and the best reference i can give you is the john’s banana video lmao !! he keeps it pretty short to keep it out his face when he dances, and tbh his hai is a different color all the time !

he has a food blog, “rate what i ate”, where he does food reviews for restaurants ! it’s really fun for him because he loves to eat and has a very strong opinion on nearly everything. muses feel free to come eat with him, he’ll never say no to a dining buddy !

aside from that he has general social media and an ig where he posts short dance covers ! thinking about starting a yt cover channel.

coffee is his everything. he’s got a horrible sleep schedule, staying up late and having to wake up early ! but coffee is the one thing that gets him through, and no matter what time of the day he can always be found with his favorite cup in his hand.

remember how his app said power poses ? well it’s something kai actually does ! every morning and before doing something important he stands in a power pose for 5 minutes, saying affirmations rather dramatically. that alongside his guided meditation obsession makes kai in the morning time quite the amusing sight.

he has a black bombay cat affectionately named luna ! she’s his daughter whom he loves very very much and would die for. a total sweetheart who will accept all love, muses feel free to pet !

even though he’s fairly happy somewhat out the spotlight, he still has the idol mentality, and definitely has the whole charming personality thing going on ! he’s a whole personality and it’s almost a sin he didn’t become a talkshow host, but i assume he’d have a small following because of it ! not dreamdrop level of course, but a little bit of recognition !

that’s all i can thin of right now, that and i don’t want to keep you all waiting for this intro for too long ! i’ll add more as i see fit, and again, i can’t wait to meet you all !

[ssfml]

Mass Shootings Symptoms In May 2022: Fake Allies (YT Folks), Race Traitors (Raccoons) & White Silence

I simply wanted to make this video short today to serve as a friendly reminder. It won't be difficult at all to get the gist of the three main points of my discussion today. I want to share three red flags: Fake Allies, Race Traitors, and White Silence.

FAKE ALLIES (YT FOLKS) who have false intentions because they are NOT black and don't necessarily associate themselves with the Black Culture or Black Identity. If you wanted to be an anti-racist ally, you MUST actively support the black community or the BIPOC community in public and work with the members of those marginalized groups. Take the example of white people you might know who are active supporters of the Black Lives Matter movement. This appears to be the constructive awareness of the allyship.

We'll move on to the second part of my speaking notes about white people as racists. You're probably already familiar with sadist racism, so I don't need to repeat it.

White silence and race traitors are the third and last numbers, but they're one the essential topics in this vlog. 

DEAF BLACK PEOPLE (COONS)

"Race Traitor" is one of the toughest definitions I visualized in American Sign Language. How do you pronounce this in ASL? Am I supposed to finger-spell "race traitor" every time? YET, MY POINT IS THAT IT HAS TWO WORDS TOGETHER: RACE TRAITOR (COONS). I want to say this to the black deaf community, including all the non-disabled black people, regardless of their skin tone. I'm NOT worried about naming names right now. I don't care how they appear on the outside: darker or lighter. Look, my point is that it might be anybody identifying as "black" while being a traitor to their own brethren (siblings) or non-binary folks, but it doesn't matter who they are. For example, they have chosen to ignore the reality that someone they know has died of a racist attack or an act of black-on-black violence. Unfortunately, some black people are like that and randomly say, "It's not my fault they got themselves killed!" "They probably deserved it." "I don't give a f**k."

THEY DON'T CARE WHETHER THEY'RE FRIENDS WITH THE VICTIMS OR NOT IN REAL LIFE. THEY JUST DON'T CARE.

So you decided to stop caring about my well-being after the mass shooting incident in Buffalo, New York. Then you're automatically considered a "race traitor" in my eyes.

Three Red Flags being considered that you might be curious why I brought this up or made the biggest fuss out of mass shooting symptoms. Remember the previous video I made? Click the link now!

You saw that video. Right? Right now, that's where I live. I shared the 22-minute video with people I know on social media sites, but then I noticed a problem and found out too late that some don't talk to me often, don't respond, or ignore me for a long time.

WHY WHITE SILENCE IS VIOLENT

Whenever I tried to communicate online with my "white friends," they got strangely silent around me. This is called "white silence" because it indicates that the YT FOLKS don't care about black individuals killed due to a violent act. They're simply unaffected by the disturbing incident. They just decided NOT to talk about the victims, which created a worrisome silence. They won't engage you in a conversation because they don't care and won't change their minds. After observing my "white friends," I realized my instinct tells me they are either well-hidden racists or fraudulent allies of anti-racist activist groups, even though they claim to support them. Although we were "chat buddies" on the internet, we NEVER really talked for a while. It seemed ironic that they were supposed to be my support system, but they AVOIDED talking to me for a long time.

IT'S BEEN AN INCREDIBLY BIZARRE EXPERIENCE BEING FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE WHO HASN'T BLOCKED ME ONLINE.

On May 14, a shooting happened in a grocery store in my residential location of Buffalo, New York. I told my "white friends" on the internet about what happened, and they NEVER responded! Only a few of them do, but I began to be suspicious of them because of that.

HIDDEN RACISM?

Is it possible that my "white friends" have racist feelings against me, specifically by targeting me, but NOT to the others who have the same skin as me?

THEY'RE NOT ALLIES, ARE THEY?

My angry thoughts started rambling all over the place, which led me to believe that there was something strange about the way my fake friends being morbidly silent. I asked them online, asking, "Why do you keep ignoring me?"

Okay, fine! I guess that's what this is all about. I made a rash decision to block, unsubscribe, and unfriend them on multiple social media platforms. That is precisely what I have done in May 2022!

MY REMINDER TO Y'ALL

I just wanted to politely remind everyone that identifying names is NOT my main concern at this time because I don't care who they are or what their race is; it's just me reminding you. But if the people who call themselves "my friends" failed to care about my mental health, started alienating me, or took advantage of my emotional fragility without my prior knowledge.

OKAY, I GUESS WE'RE BETTER OFF NOT BEING FRIENDS. WHATEVER!

THOSE WHO WISH ME DEAD

I just mentioned my neighborhood food market exactly two days ago on YouTube. I often wondered if my enemies secretly reacted in anger that I didn't get bloodied or scratched or worse. They probably wished I was the eleventh victim in my zip code store.

"YOU SHOULD BE DEAD IN THAT STORE!" "I WANTED IT TO BE YOU, BUT YOU'RE AT HOME!" "WHY ARE YOU STILL BREATHING?"

I DON'T NEED TO EXPOSE THE NAMES OF PEOPLE (WHOEVER) SECRETLY WISHED ME DEAD.

I'm NOT surprised if they said that behind my back in a sneaky way that I didn't know about. I suppose I was tryin' to say that I'll use the phrase "secretly wishing." Some fake friends don't necessarily share their personal thoughts just because they have a right to their own privacy without making it public. 

FAKE ALLIES

It's probably because you don't have a clue what they're really thinking, in their own heads, you know? See what I'm trying to say? I'm pretty sure my so-called "friends" have already wished I wasn't alive in that store.

I MEAN, WHAT HAPPENS IF I GO TO THAT STORE? WHAT WILL BECOME OF YOU? WHAT'S NEXT?

If you did, you're NOT my most trusted ally, and you absolutely have a ZERO right to call yourself a "friend" to be happy that I died. You can't be one of our anti-racist allies who is honest and loyal to the BIPOC community.

YOU. JUST. CAN'T. BE. ALLY. PERIOD.

RACE TRAITORS (Raccoons or Coons)

I'm fully aware that I have adversaries in the black community, with or without disabilities. But I know NOT everyone in the same community universally hates me, and that's okay. I'm saying that whoever it was, they didn't like me for anything more than the fact that we're both black! I had many black people in my life who hated me to the core for various reasons. The only worry I had was that they would whisper to someone they confide in, "I really wish Payton Gendron had killed you-know-who in that store." Of course, then, I'll refer to these ones in my community as "race traitors." They don't care that our skin is the same color and have decided to be happy that I'm dead.

THE RECAP

Three Red Flags: Fake Allies, Race Traitors, And White Silence

You've already learned THREE RED FLAGS on the internet: fake allies (racist white people), traitorous black people, and white silence that amplifies the violence. 

You just have to keep them in mind daily.

Whoever you refer to or use the specific term "should," you become responsible for developing your forbidden desires of someone you despise. If you had a solid aversion to someone or weren't even friends with a specific person because you say "should" or "wish" to let adversaries know that they are better off being dead.

I WILL NOT ACCEPT OR AGREE TO "WISHFUL THINKING." THIS IS NOT OKAY.

Actually, that's what's happening to me in May 2022. Some of my so-called friends have already shown me their true colors. Now I have a better insight into their true personalities of being phony friends.  

IN CONCLUSION

I'll NEVER forget those who mistreated me badly from this moment forward. Still, the facts reminded me that I couldn't do anything to change the situation between them and me.

I'M IN CHARGE OF MAINTAINING MY ENERGY LEVEL AND MENTAL HEALTH, AND I MUST PROTECT MYSELF AT ALL COSTS.

I can't afford to be in the company of "fake allies" or "traitorous coons” while suffering in white silence! I just can't do that right now. I can't. That's why I'm ending my friendship with 'em now.

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