#but then Ramadan kind of disrupted that routine and I did my thing and created a mental block in replying/reaching out etc etc | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

contained-mess · 1 year

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finally replied to some people today!!! and GOD I just need to remind myself that it's always infinitely more daunting in my head and the outcome after actually replying is so much more pleasant and bearable than just letting the task build up. knowing myself I'm gonna forget this in hmmmm let's say a month? but rn the clarity feels good so ima relish it 🧘🏻‍♀️

#the last ss is from my almost 10 yr old cousin 😭#we used to vid call almost every day since I got back from visiting him in the UK #but then Ramadan kind of disrupted that routine and I did my thing and created a mental block in replying/reaching out etc etc #but anyway I was most nervous about damaging that relationship bc he's just a little kid yk and with my friends I can be like #sorry guys I got anxiety that triggered my fight or flight response and I choose flight 8/10 times #and they'll be like ya ok #but what do you say to a kid #but alhamdulillah man I'm so relieved things are so normal and he's even talking about coming to Canada this summer maybe #we just video called for 20 mins and he showed me a magic trick and showed me his cat showed me how he can still fit under his bed #it was just normal!!!#the 2nd last image is from a reel a friend sent in an attempt to show that they understand what I must feel 🥲

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