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How does nobody see that I need help.

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I hit my first goal weight when I weighed this morning. I did eat a lot today but I had low blood sugar from moving all day. I’ll do better tomorrow.

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~Low Cal Single Serve Coffe Cake~

(Adapted from BlogLovin’)

This is suuuper tasty for when i’m craving sweets, which is ALL the time! Tastes just like the ‘real’ thing

Stay safe 💕

[Submission by @youcancallmepurpleskye​]

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I cannot get under 101.6 lbs no matter what I do. I also feel like I still look so fucking heavy in my stomach, arms, and thighs.

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I saw two girls yesterday who were SO THIN and I was so jealous. I barely ate yesterday and this morning I ran to the bathroom because I felt sick and I truly thought I was going to faint. Anyone have any tips on low cal quick food to bring up your blood sugar levels? I think my body is in shock from the small amount I am feeding it

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I’m doing a little better with restricting, but I still feel my thighs touch when my feet are together, which I hate.

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I binged today and I fucking hate myself for it. I’m so fat rn I could throw up

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Everyone apologizes after it’s too late

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I wrote a poem last night while I was in bed. This is my work so please don’t use it as your own. Here goes:

She’s constantly around

She never goes away

Reminding me of consequences

Every second of every day

Ana yells at me as I cook

She’s the devil on my shoulder

“Are you sure you want to eat that?”

Instead I reach for my cigarette holder

Today’s standards are so high

I call out diets on their bluff

But if I don’t comply

I’m afraid I’ll never be “enough”

She’s my best friend, confidant

I know she will always be there

The friendship that we have

Is one extremely rare

Everyday is a struggle

The calories my defeat

There’s a war waging in my head

It’s a battle just to eat

Maybe she will leave someday

And I’ll be able on my own

I might miss my friend named Ana

But I’m better off alone

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Goin to bed hungry but I’m down two pounds, yeehaw

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I have the mind of an anorexic and the body of a failure.

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My mom cooked so many things today and I refused to eat any of it because it was unhealthy. She ended up making me a meal which averages 250 cals but I felt so bad saying no to her cooking

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I’ve only been eating twice a day which is way less than usual and I’m still putting on weight. I wanna die

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I’m moving into my new place soon. I’ll be living alone so it may be easier to restrict in my own home. Wish I could make myself purge but idk how. I’m so heavy idk I hate looking in the mirror so much

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