#but the version I saw on facebook was soooo bad

[the-fibre-stuff]

@tyrninne you asked about the student I had with the pseudo-science reasons for learning to knit.

Honestly, I can't understand it very well (I have too much of a STEM background, realistically), but it boiled down to wanting 100% natural fibres for everything. So the nylon blend sock yarns were out. Which would have been less of a problem if I wasn't working at Michaels which doesn't even have 100% wool sock yarns and if she had been willing to wear wool in summer. She found a local Mennonite (presumably Plain) lady to knit her some cotton socks.

As for what her beliefs around this were (and yes, I was almost as scornful about this to her face, because she insisted in behaving as if I not only knew what she was talking about, but shared these beliefs) there was something about vibrations. I'm not sure that she knew any more specifically than that by the way, because anytime I asked for more details (I asked nicely at first, because I thought that maybe there was a kernel of something in there that had just been misinterpreted, like the seed oil nonsense that goes around these days, so I could possibly answer her questions even though I disagreed with the premise) the explanation kind of stalled out at that level. Natural stuff was better for you and processed stuff was bad for you. Worsted vs woolen spun yarn apparently didn't matter, when I told her about that.

I suspect this was the same stuff that I saw on Facebook where someone apparently had "hooked an oscilloscope" up to both wool and linen (yes, that's as much detail on what they were measuring as was originally given) and discovered that wool and linen are both amazing because they vibrate at high frequencies 5000 and negative 5000, but if you mix them then they cancel each other out and are bad for you, so the Jewish law against mixing the two was clearly a case of important divine knowledge being passed on for people's health.

[sirfrogsworth]

The Return

(Note: I would have loved to have shown both sides of this so people could judge for themselves, but as you’ll see later on, that was quite impossible. I give you my word as a frog that I am representing events as well as I can remember them.)

So the “Nazis were socialists” guy came back. 

If you don’t recall, I politely told him “the Nazis weren’t socialists, here is a list of reputable sources you can check out.” Then he yelled at me, quadrupled down, then he told me the US was “a republic not a democracy” and rage quit all of Facebook. 

Well, he un-quit Facebook. 

Then he made a post that started “Now, I’m no fan of Trump” (which is usually a terrible sign of things to come) and proceeded to say Obama put people in camps too. And that the photos of people in camps being shown were taken during the Obama years and that the evil press is manipulating people and “tugging on their heartstrings” about the kids in ICE facilities (aka concentration camps).  

Then he left a comment on my friend’s post with a watered down “liberal safe” version of that, saying that the pictures shown were old and that my friend was spreading misleading information. Even though everything described in the article was totally accurate and the pictures were only used for reference. 

And I was like, just because Obama did something bad doesn’t make it okay now. And the fact that it is still happening, and to a much greater degree, means we are moving backward not forward. Plus Obama didn’t keep little kids in camps for weeks at a time without soap and toothpaste. Most of the people in those facilities were in them a short time. And they didn’t separate families! 

That doesn’t make what Obama did okay, but it was a very different thing. The situations have some connective tissue, and what Obama’s administration did was probably negligent, but the comparison ends there. 

Trump’s policies are by far more cruel. And they are intentionally cruel. Obama’s handling of migrants sucked, but he was also trying to pass legislation to improve things (which the Turtle blocked outright) and he advocated for the Dreamers. The situations are not really comparable except to say we didn’t learn from past mistakes. 

Plus, the only reason there are not recent pictures is because the press is not allowed in the current camps. 

The “both sides are bad!’ argument is false equivalence bullshit. And this isn’t the first time he’s done it. He once said Elizabeth Warren’s DNA test was just as “disgusting” as what Trump has done. In his defense, he said this before Trump’s 22nd sexual misconduct allegation, soooo... yeah, that’s still a bonkers comparison. 

It was clear his intention was to say things weren’t as bad as the media was presenting them (fake news) and to convince people Dems are just as bad as the GOP and Trump. 

I just thought if he was more concerned about what Obama did and “old pictures” rather than kids being tortured, perhaps he has the wrong outrage priorities. He originally didn’t even mention there were kids in the camps and that lawyers had verified the horrid conditions they were in. There was not an ounce of concern for the people in his post. He only cared that “Obama did bad” and “media bad.” 

He then deleted his first post and said “I never said anything about Obama”--hoping I only saw the “liberal safe” comment on my friend’s page. Then he completely changed the nature of his argument and said he just didn’t want people to get distracted with debates about the old pictures being used. He started talking about the kids and how if we want to help them, we need more accurate reporting. He then called me a troll.

I was like... “ummm, I saw the post on your page before you deleted it, friend. Do you not remember what you wrote 2 minutes ago? And where did this sudden concern for the kids come from?” 

I explained that I just didn’t care for his take on things and that he has a real problem with having his ideas challenged. I told him that debate is actually a good thing and if he believes in what he says, he can defend his arguments without getting hostile. But if he wants to act like a child and quit Facebook again because someone didn’t agree with him... that was fine with me. 

I was kinda done being civil. Sue me. 

Oh, and I may have linked to the Wikipedia page on representative democracy. I told him they listed the US as the main example and he should really edit the page because obviously those editors must be wrong. 

I mean, he called me a troll so I leaned into it.  

Then he deleted his entire comment AGAIN (because that’s what people who have confidence in their views do) and created an entirely new comment, altering his argument even more and calling me an idiot. He also claimed that he never said that the US was not a representative democracy and that I was using ad hominem attacks. 

This is after he called me both a troll and an idiot. 

So I replied to the new comment and said he can call me an idiot if he likes, but he can’t deny what he said. 

Because I remember. 

And Pepperidge Farm remembers... 

He then told me I have a sad life. I was an armchair internet expert and then went on to list his CoLleGE EduCAtiOn. He majored in “poly sci” and minored in military history. And that’s why he knows the Nazis were socialists. (Yeah, he quintupled down on that one.) He said I was ad hominem attacking him again. And that I just didn’t understand what he meant when he said the US wasn’t a democracy. Like he meant it metaphorically or something. 

Which might be a valid argument if you ignore that I left off this part of his original message. 

Not only is this a right-wing talking point, but his political science degree must not have informed him that being a republic does not preclude a country from being a democracy. 

Thanks, Wikipedia! 

If he meant the US wasn’t a democracy “metaphorically” then why say it was a republic instead? 

Maybe I would understand better if I had a fancy college degree.

I’ve come to discover that when he gets backed into a corner and can’t deny being wrong about something, he will just lie about what he said. He will change his argument and then create a new one that was “what he really meant.” Or he will just delete his comments like a coward. 

Perhaps he should join the Trump administration. 

After his rant saying I had a sad life, was a troll, oh... and I was “killing the Left”... he repeated that I ad hominiminem’d him. The fact that he had to repeat it 4 times makes me think that is the only debate defense he knows and thinks it makes him sound smart. I mean, I like using big words to sound smart too, but I try my best to at least use them correctly. 

I stopped responding to him at this point. 

And do you know what he did next? 

HE DELETED THAT COMMENT TOO!

And unfriended me. 

Which... darn. 

Maybe he really doesn’t like Trump. I suspect he’s a closeted “embarrassed Republican” but has too many liberal friends to admit it outright. If you have to preface everything you say with “I’m no fan of Trump” that’s a huge red flag. I figure he just wants to salvage the reputation for the Right as much as possible for when Trump is gone. As if the GOP wouldn’t follow with someone just as terrible. 

I don’t say the things I say without being prepared to defend them. I spend a lot of time researching my positions to make sure I am confident in them. I may not get challenged much on tumblr, but I regularly get in heated debates in less friendly places ‘round the net. PragerU Facebook comments often test my mettle. 

This guy clearly just wants to say his hot take, have no one question it, and if they do... 

SCORCHED EARTH DELETE DELETE DELETE IT NEVER HAPPENED

[themessafterthemarty]

92 Things

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag people.

I was tagged by- you know what, just guess.

spoilers: it was @monstermunch321​

LAST:

1. Drink: Hot chocolate with Bailey’s 2. Phone call: .... @missgoldfishqueen ?? I think?? 3. Text message: Definitely @missgoldfishqueen 4. Song you listen to: At The End of The Day from the 10th Anniversary Les Misérables Concert 5. Time you cried: Literally no clue

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: you say that as though I’ve ever been on a date 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: debatable consent from my part but there was definitely regret there 8. Been cheated on: you say that as though anyone’s been in a position to 9. Lost someone special: everyone’s special in their own way 10. Been depressed: only a doctor could say 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: noep

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLOURS:

12-14: Red, purple and... black? Grey? Green?

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Indeed 16. Fallen out of love: Nindeed (did that work as a humourous negative indeed?) 17. Laughed until you cried: Indeed 18. Found out someone was talking about you: ..... I mean yeah sometimes my friend mention things about me to each other, I guess?? 19. Met someone who changed you: Like, everyone changes you in various ways 20. Found out who your friends are: this sounds so ominous, like what, were they lizards (but also kind of yes) (not that they were lizards) (if they are I don’t know that they are) 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: there has been no kisses

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I don’t really keep count?? Excepting like around a dozen people I’ve met online over the years, I’ve met everyone IRL in one way or another 23. Do you have any pets: Not currently, unless you count the infinite spiders around the house (especially the one with a garage door sized web that I am just not touching ever) 24. Do you want to change your name: I mean I’m using a nickname version of my middle name and I’ve never used my first, but I don’t feel any urge to change that, I enjoy my secret identity 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: ... Don’t think I did anything? There was no one to invite, probably just some family thing. EDIT: wait yes I remember I was looking forward to getting dinner made for me for once and instead my dad challenged me to invite THEM over for dinner so instead of getting a day of relaxing I got cleaning my living room and making a dinner for 8 people 26. What time do you wake up: like 1 am or 1 pm or 5 pm or 10 am or noon or 6 am or.... (these are all times from the last two-three weeks) 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Writing fanfic and trying not to disturb my mom trying to sleep in the bed next to me 28. Name something you can’t wait for: I’m feeling like I could comfortably wait for most things these days, a bit of time is good for the soul 29. When was the last time you saw your mom?: she’s right here, m8 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: hah let’s not get deep, I like looking forward rather than back, if I can’t change it then let’s not dwell on what can’t be 31. What are you listening to right now: There’s a TV on in the background and this keyboard makes a lot of noise when I write on it.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: I have 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Being told I need to clean my room. I am aware it’s a mess, grandma. I live on my own. It’s mine, not yours. (also monstermunchkin, in response to your answer, you don’t need to diet, omg?? dude you look great as you are) 34. Most visited website: On this laptop, apparently Tumblr (according to Chrome) 35. Mole/s: I mean who doesn’t have any?? 36. Mark/s: As in scars or something? If so yes (if birthmarks then also yes) 37. Childhood dream: I wanted to become an author, and a pirate, and a composer, and a scientist, and a performing musician. I mean preferably all at the same time, I guess. 38. Hair colour: Blond 39. Long or short hair: Short but MUCH longer than it was 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Noep 41. What do you like about yourself: People apparently feel safe talking to me, so whatever that trait is, that’s nice 42. Piercings: Just me ears, matey 43. Blood type: Mom says A+ 44. Nicknames: Of the nice sort there’s Marty, Martyparty, Mørt, Mørterøl (a variation of vørterøl, a non-alcoholic malt beverage that I have no connection to) really if it starts with an M and @missgoldfishqueen says it, I just assume she’s trying to communicate with me  45. Relationship status: The Singlest 46. Zodiac: Scorpio 47. Pronouns: take the first vegetable that comes to mind and just go with that 48. Favourite TV Shows: Star Trek 50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: Never been in a hospital after the age of one 52. Hair dyed in different colour: Soooo many times 53. Sport: nooooooooooo 55. Vacation: At the moment 56. Pair of trainers: I have given up on understanding what different names of shoes mean in English

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I took a break to go eat at the hotel buffet in the middle of answering this so like, everything, dude 58. Drinking: Nothing right now 59. I’m about to: Write on my Phandom Big Bang fanfic, if I do what I’m supposed to 62. Want: my drawing tablet so I could draw something 63. Get married: I mean, I need a partner in crime someday 64. Career: If nothing else comes up I’m just gonna stay at the university and be a nerd professionally (Bachelor, then Masters, then PhD, then working towards professor), but also have way too many hobbies

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: Affectionate hug assaults and cuddle sandwiches 66. Lips or eyes: I mean are you looking at them or touching them cus eyes are beautiful but they’re kinda gross to touch while lips are like soft and squishy 67. Shorter or taller: Than what? 68. Older or younger: Than what????? 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Define ‘nice’, because I can tell you nothing works better as a pillow than a soft stomach and that’s very nice of it 71. Sensitive or loud: I am not seeing this comparison 72. Hook up or relationship: you go from bros to hos, but like, good hos 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: it’s all about the intentions

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger: Noep 75. Drank hard liquor: Mixed with stuff 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: No unless we count sunglasses 77. Turned someone down: you imply there’d be someone 78. Sex on the first date: you need a date first 79. Broken someone’s heart: not to my knowledge 80. Had your heart broken: not to my knowledge 81. Been arrested: not to my knowledge 82. Cried when someone died: you’d think this was family but it was Leonard Nimoy 83. Fallen for a friend: For a second I thought you meant that literally and let’s just go with that: yes, yes I have, I was on rollerskates, and well it was more like she fell for me cus I fell on top of her.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84: Yourself: I do sometimes doubt my existence 85. Miracles: Per definition this means divine interference and I just think any possible god is a bit too busy, the world’s just full of glorious coincidences 86. Love at first sight: I’d immediately suspect alien interference 87. Santa Claus: a very real cultural concept that should be respected 88. Kiss on the first date: I mean each to their own, you could’ve known each other for 10 years or an hour, a “first date” is pretty vague, just go with your gut as long as everyone’s consenting

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: Seasons change and so does her name, but I’m making an execute decision right now and her name is Bella 91. Eye colour: If you have like, the ocean, but the weather’s really bad and you’re like “wow I don’t wanna go out there”, that’s the window to my soul right there 92. Favourite movie: There’s way too many to choose from but I’m gonna go with a childhood favourite for this and say The Aristocats (haven’t seen it in ages, tho)

I tag: @missgoldfishqueen , @laura-sketches , @tiredofbeingnice123 , @glitterydoritos (though I think you may have been tagged by monstermunch, too) , and now I can’t remember who usually responds and who I might just be tagging infinitely so I’m not gonna risk bothering someone (pls don’t feel pressured and know I do not mean to annoy)

[lesbianstrawbie]

“should we know us a little better” tag 📜        

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people I was tagged by: @lesbianblossomjimin 💗

THE LAST:

1. Drink: is a milkshake a drink??

2. Phone call: making a doctors appointment

3. Text message: i never text anyone?????

4. Song you listened to: Cathedrals by Varick

5. Time you cried: when 9muses mv came out…

6. Dated someone twice: nopeee

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: i kissed a girl when i was on sleeping meds and forgot about it and then she fucking treated me like shit after… so yea i regretted that

8. Been cheated on: nah ive never actually dated anyone soooo

9. Lost someone special: family members i wished i knew better

10. Been depressed: a couple weeks ago when i had a panic attack when i hadnt had one in over a yr. i was pretty down the next couple days.

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: ive never been drunk bc i never drink..

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: pink blue and yellow (all pastels)

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: im very social online so ive definitely made great new friends here. 

16. Fallen out of love: nope

17. Laughed until you cried: it was a recent vlive from Pentagon when they “switched” personalities and omfg i cried

18. Found out someone was talking about you: just a half hr ago but it wasn’t bad.

19. Met someone who changed you: Lupita who i met on here has just made me happier. bitch im tagging you so you’ll see me getting sentimental but i luv u

20. Found out who your friends are: one girl who i had a crush on and was good friends with never talks to me anymore… its like we were never friends

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: nopeeee

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: maybe half??? idk maybe less. im too lazy to check

23. Do you have any pets: 4 cats in our house but only one is technically mine (maxxie)

24. Do you want to change your name: i used to for sure but im kinda indifferent now

25. What did you do for your last Birthday: i think just chill. i try not to plan much so i don’t have any expectations

26. What time did you wake up: 1pm..

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: watching Pentagon videos on youtube most likely 

28. Name something you can’t wait for: my laptop.. im hoping i get it sooner than i think

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: im with her right now actually, we’ve been chatting the whole time iver been typing this

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: a stable income

31. What are you listening right now: my ma’s noise machine which is set to ocean rn

32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: not that i know of???

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my fucking allergies.. i want to rip my nose off

34. Most visited Website: tumblr then youtube

35. Mole/s: i have them everywhere??? a very large one is on my left collar bone. but yea i have quite a few on my arms and even a couple on my legs. they are like my freckles… everywhere.

36. Mark/s: some from self harm on my upper left arm, a small scar on my nose from just scratching it too hard once. and one on my left hand from an outdoor cat i was trying to clean up

37. Childhood dream: i wanted to write children’s books.

38. Hair color: my natural hair is dark dirty blonde but right now its dyed a medium blonde

39. Long or short hair: my hair is pretty damn short. i have to two block cut i think its called? …but lets be real i just have a bowl cut with shaved undersides

40. Do you have a crush on someone: nope

41. What do you like about yourself: my sense of humor and style and how genuine i am i guess. 

42. Piercings: 2 in my left and one in my right

43. Bloodtype i actually have no clue

44. Nickname: ash. thats its. not pashta sauce. no.

45. Relationship status: very much so single

46. Zodiac: pisces

47. Pronouns: she/her

48. Favorite TV Show: probably sailor moon

49. Tattoos: on my “ring” finger i have an equal sign for equal marriage. it was done before it was legal in ny. and on my left forearm I have the title of my favorite song from my favorite Japanese band

50. Right or left hand: right handed

51. Surgery: nope

52. Piercing: already answered

53. Sport: laying down…

55. Vacation: in nyc. i just love it there.

56. Pair of trainers: black and whiteadidas

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: a donut

58. Drinking: iced tea

59. I’m about to: idk?? i have nothing planned for tonight so just chill

61. Waiting for: my uncle to leave

62. Want: im still thinking about my laptop

63. Get married: yes ugh i want a family a lot

64. Career: im just gonna leave this blank…

WHICH IS BETTER?:

65. Hugs or kisses: hugs

66. Lips or eyes: lips??

67. Shorter or taller: shorter

68. Older or younger: same age or younger. also i never meet people older than me???

70. Nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter

71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive but also loud aka me bc im a narcissist

72. Hook up or relationship: relationship

73. Troublemaker or hesitant: ??? neither

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a stranger: nope

75. Drank hard liquor: nope

76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: i dont need theme

77. Turned someone down: yeah

78. Sex on the first date: nope

79. Broken someones heart: idk???

80. Had your heart broken: yea by my friend group in high school

81. Been arrested: nope

82. Cried when someone died: of course

83. Fallen for a friend: hahahaha….ha yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: yes

85. Miracles: yes

86. Love at first sight: not really

87. Santa Claus: well saint nick was a real person. so yea minus the crazy version of santa thats sold to kids.

88. Kiss on the first date: idk maybe if it feels right

89. Angels: yes. my ma is psychic and im an empath so i believe that stuff

OTHER:

90. Current best friends name: amari, my sister and lupita

91. Eyecolor: very dark brown

92. Favorite movie: spirited away, inglorious bastards all the sailor moon movies bc im trash and probably titanic

I’ll tag @inspaceibelong @hobihomerun @knjz idk???? My mind has gone bank

[benlovej-blog]

Hi!!! Vanessa!!!

 Thanks for caring so much about me!!!  I feel very much undeserved for this. By the very few time with you, I feel really warm. Thank you so much...

 So my first struggle will be this unworthiness. You make me feel more cared and loved here. It makes me want to do more for international services or CGs. But I just don't know how to do it at two campuses. It is very sarcastic that I did much here at near west but didn't have the care deserved, and I have much more care here while I fall short giving and helping here. But I do really want to be friend with you and this could be a sincere asking.  

 Mmm, maybe I will start telling about myself.

 So, growing up, my parents were not around(I will cut this short I had many lost feelings with family tho).  I lived by myself and cooked for myself and went to school since grade 3-grade 6. I really love nature and read books.  By loving nature, I formed this image of greater thing-like a God. And by reading books(mostly Chinese History and philosophy), I grew with a strong awareness what is right and what is wrong, and what it means to fight against the world to keep doing the rightful things. So when I first read Bible, there was just too many clicks what I believe and was doing in life.

 Before I became a Christian, I strongly believe some things or I live in this way.

 1.   I love others and I always want to put people’s need before myself and even it will mess up with my own life.

2.   I believe the most great thing is I can lay myself down for someone I love.

3.   I understand people and respect how people will prioritize their life and I can’t be sad or just stop loving because I am not on the top of their list. And things I do is just because I love, not to have something back.

 I don’t know about here, but who I am or was in China, is really abnormal to contemporary Chinese culture. Especially in schools, everyone is thinking of getting to a better school. And maybe because of the competitiveness given by populations or just what were passed down from the parents(they are the first generation after cultural revolutions), what most peers would not think like us two can go to good school together. Instead, they would think I will try to kick you out of this so that I can go alone to this better school. For example, I heard people would fake relationship and intentionally break up with people so that they have a hard time in study. And there were worse things happened.

 So as myself, what I experienced most in school, is people are judging and looking down upon people who have worse scores, from teachers to students.

And as a top student, I felt vey sick with those so-called top students. So, I spent much time with people who may not have as high scores. And by that, I am so glad I had many friends in many fields and I can help them and just be there to support them. On the other side, there were many judgements put on me. And when I got to SJTU, it became worse. I really want to see people walk together, shoulder by shoulder instead of using each other like ladders.

 And if I can have support from family, I wouldn’t have been in depression either. Because I just have this high expectation because they are closest. Home should’ve been a haven. But after being emotional neglected for the entire early life by parents. I started to constantly question myself, or to say beat myself up. I shouldn’t have feelings. It became frustrating and tiring and drained my vitality. Especially when comparing myself to my peers, I was in many aspects a better kid(sorry, I did comparisons), yet I can’t have any little piece of sweetness or warmth from home. What else can I do? Am I not loving people? Am I not already having the best score? Am I not forgiving?

It is easy to lose hope for life in such case because there isn’t really anything you didn’t do well or do enough. It is just a bad luck. At least I think.

 And all these maybe good qualities in me, I know its from GOD and I feel grateful for that. And it is the best gift I can have to be a good man by nature. Also I can truly feel it is a big cross to carry.

 I don’t know, I am kinda lost. But today’s message is very nice because it reminds many ways what does it mean to follow Jesus and commit to his love. But from time to time, I still want to feel same love here in this world.

 Sometimes I want to have rest in Christ, but it never truly hit me the way most people shared like salvation or Joy or heaven. And I really want to.

There are just moments I am blind to the fact he loves me and the gifts he gave and I think I am not feeling that God loves me. But this is also the way I always challenge myself, will you still trust him when you can’t see any benefit? And my answer is always yes, because I love him(he is soooo so great) so much that I don’t care  if I can be in that love. It is kinda parallel to the point 3 I mentioned above that if god doesn’t prioritize me this moment, I love him no matter what.

 Also, I saw this question tonight, “if God can answer all your prayers, will the world be better or the just your life?”(it is on Lud’s facebook!!). I didn’t pray much recently because unhappiness. But those times when I sincerely want to pray, it has nothing to do with myself, but Liz and Maggie will be great doctors, Celia will have a better family situation, Stephanie will have a great lab to rotate in and have family reconciled…or even short version “if people can have happy life, God pls take that from me if I can trade for it.”

 I don’t know, but thanks for listening to me rabbling this long. I can still see my cheering spirit buried in my heart. And you really helped this come out from time to time which is also the best part of me-making people happy. I really want this friendship too!!! I know (ok I am always using this excuse I am not good at English if I don’t know how to express my feelings). BUT big big big Thanks, for being the light to me !!!