#but that's gonna have to wait until he;s back from his vacation in august . oh well

[whispering-kavka]

the struggles of today proved to me that i might indeed be a little mentally unwell

[julessworldd]

Manager Duff x McGhee!reader

Little manger Older!Duff Mckagan X Fem!Reader

I love older Duff but there's not many stories about him.. I've been reading a few older guns fics lately. Summary: Reader is Doc McGhee's niece, following in her Uncle's footsteps. Happens to manage Guns N Roses, opening act, Blue Kennedy's.  A certain bass player’s attention gets caught by Doc's niece. Warnings: Mention of drugs, alcohol, start of smut, horrible flirting and Duff sorta being a prev. Should be it, sorry if I missed any

Today was the first day of tour for The Blue Kennedy's, the second band I've managed. Managing bands can be fun but also stressful, I've not had a band be like Motley Crue. My uncle said I would want to retire and take a vacation forever. So far, I'm not on a beach, naked and drinking my worries away. I was very excited for this tour because it was Guns N Roses reunion tour. Growing in music, I got to hear all the classic bands from the 80's even 70's. Guns N' Roses were my all time favorite after The Runaways, thank god for Uncle Doc. I was at the venue waiting for my band to show up for soundcheck. 

I walked towards the stage hoping they would be on stage talking and waiting for me. "No, Angela I said not bring this jacket. It's new and I don't want to be in dry cleaning already!" Axl rubbed the bridge of his nose. "Are you my other assistant, I'm suppose to have a new one here today?" He asked me. I pointed at my chest, "I'm your opening act's manger, not your assistant and thank god I'm not" I sassed. Holy shit, I sassed Axl Rose. "I'm sorry huh?" He trailed off. "Y/n McGhee, I know who you are" I smiled reassuring him he was okay. "McGhee? Do you happen to have a dad or uncle named Doc?" Axl said walking to me. "Uncle and yes that's him" I smirked. "Cool, I remember him from touring with Motley in 87ish" Axl smiled. "Have you seen my band? They're suppose to be at soundcheck and I've not heard them or seen them" I asked.  "What band? Ax said something about two bands this tour" I turned to see Duff McKagan behind me.  "Huh, Blue Kennedy's, punk band from Seattle and Pasadena" I blushed.  "Oh, if it's the one with the chick singer, they look scared and confused." Duff smiled. "Yeah, that's Sasha. Uh thanks" I trailed off and decided to walk away before my soul left my body.

"Y/n, you made it! We thought you bailed on us", Rocky, the bassit ran up to me. "No, rock just ran into a couple Guns members.We got to talking. Now you guys come here." I smiled. The band stood in front of me, "Now this is your first real tour, first show that the world sees The Blue Kennedy's, You are gonna be amazing and people will love you much as I do. Okay so kick some ass, you gotta have an audience now" I said glancing up and seeing Axl, Slash, Duff sitting in the stands. They all looked at the older men and flipped. "Hey, it's okay ignore them" I smiled and the band grabbed their stuff and Rocky asked what was gonna be played.  Sasha suggested a cover to get warmed up, I sat on a cart down from the stage, a proud mother hen moment. This band had potential and amazing chemistry and I knew they were gonna be a success one day.  Sasha danced and jumped around, striking the style of Joan Jett back in the day. 

"Okay guys, forget what Thomas told you about going out there. This is for you guys not the label so fuck that. Go put on a killer show like you would at the Whiskey or another club on the strip" I smiled before they went on stage.  'My babies' I smiled as I watched Rocky standing at Allie's drumset rocking away.  "I never caught your name, Sweetheart?" A deep familiar voice said behind me. "Prolly cause. Oh hi, Duff'' I blushed having my childhood and still celebrity crush. "Come what's your name?" Duff smiled. "Y/n McGhee'' I gulped. "Pretty name, you okay?" Duff asked. "I'm fine, aren't you married?" I asked but instantly regretted it. "Not anymore, we got divorced after my oldest daughter's graduation." Duff said, meeting my eyes with his.  "Duff, we have twenty until we're on and are you gonna wear that gross t-shirt?" Slash said walking to us.  "Nice talking to you, Y/n, but I gotta change'' Duff rubbed my shoulder as he passed the guitarist. "Your band is pretty good, by the way" Slash grabbed one of his Les Pauls, pretty sure one was for the Use your Illusion tour. "Thanks" I grinned as my band came running backstage. "Y/n, it was amazing, '' Rocky said, picking me up. "Okay okay, put me down" I laughed. The band wanted to go to a bar but I told them to go rest. Needed to know what was going on after the show, if it was a hotel or road. Guns finished their set and Axl wanted to go to a bar and invited the band. 

Sitting at the bar as the band sat in a booth, drinking, reminiscing about the show, I was in my dark thoughts.  Mostly over thinking and missing my shitty ex, making the tequila bottle sit in front of me. "Tequila, huh? You good?" Duff asked sitting down at the stool next to me. "I like tequila and just over thinking is all. I'm okay" I said taking  a shot. "Didn't even cringe, rare I see a girl who can take liquor that good without a chaser or cringing" Duff smirked.  "Nice pickup line" I rolled my eyes. "What is an ex alcoholic doing in a bar anyways?" I asked. "Tour life" Duff said playing with a napkin. "Axl drag you? Cause my band did, I didn't even get to process what Sasha said when Alex threw me over his shoulder" I smirked. He looked really sexy right now.  "Alex, what's he play?" Duff asked leaning towards me. "Lead Guitar, pain my ass mostly" I laughed. Duff smiled looking at me.  "Hey do you need a cab?" The bartender asked. "She's with me and I'm sober. She'll be okay" Duff spoke for me. Two bands decided enough was enough and headed to the bus. Duff and I trailed behind, "Seattle band?" Duff asked. "Singer and bassist are from there and the others are from Pasadena. Sasha dropped out of college and moved to LA, Rocky, his Dad's job had him move here" I rubbed my arms as a breeze came around.  "Here" Duff said laying his jean jacket over my shoulders as we hit the parking lot with the buses. The 17 year old in me was jumping around almost dying right now, "I'm good, Duff" I slided it off and handed it back to him as we got to mine and the band's bus. "Hard to get huh" Duff smiled. "Just the Doc McGhee way, night Duff" I smirked and got on the bus.  "Day one and Duff McKagan is trying to fuck you. This is gonna be a good ass tour" Sasha smirked. "Sash, he is not gonna fuck me" I laughed walking to get ready for bed. The next week we were in Denver and had a day off.  The hotel was nice had a indoor/outdoor pool, game room, a gym. I decided to hit the gym for a few, the tour was busy and left me with no time to workout.  "Hey Y/n, where are you going?" Alex asked me. "Gym, Al," I said as I passed him for the elevator. Gym was huge and no one in sight was perfect. 

"I can spot you if you want?" Duff asked

"I'm good thanks, only lift when I'm doing squats and already done those" I smirked while taking a drink of water.  "What else are you doing?" Duff asked. "Probably treadmill" I walked towards the treadmill getting my phone ready for music.  Duff huffed and went and grabbed some dumbbells. After a while, Duff threw his shirt off. I almost tripped on the mill looking at him. Fifty six never looked so good.  I decided that my muscles had enough toture and deserved a hot shower before the show. 

"Damn, girl will be the death of me" Duff said as I walked out of the gym

Now we're in Dallas or Huston, can't really remember my hangover and coming down from coke. Lately the tour has been one big blur, couldn't tell you what day it was.  "Y/n, you in here?" I heard Duff asked through the door. "Yeah give me a sec" I yelled. I opened the door for Duff. "Hey" "Hi" I smirked. My phone rang making me jump.. "Y/n, its Rocky, he's hurt" 

"What happened? Where are you guys?" "ER, downtown" 

"Shit, Duff I gotta go. Rocky got hurt and is in the ER. I'm sorry" I noticed the flowers and food. "Its okay, maybe next time. Do you need a ride?" Duff brushed it off. "Uh no, I can have Allen take me. Thanks. I'll make it up to you" I smiled rubbing his arm. Rocky busted his hand and couldn't play for a month. Tour is still 5 months, I need to find a bassit quickly. I knocked on Duff's door, Duff smiled down. "Hey, how's Rocky?" "Busted his hand and can’t play for a month. I need a damn bassit before tonight's show, guess the band could do cover songs until we get someone-" I trailed off. "Y/n, it's okay. You have someone" Duff said. "Duff, no you have your own show. A two hour set, your hand will be dead" I said looking up at him.  "Just offering for tonight, love" "I know and I appreciate it. I can call management and see if there's any local bands or send someone. Ashton, I can call him." I pulled out my phone.  

I climbed on top of Duff as he pulled me down for a kiss, his hands ran down my sides. Shouldn't be doing this, it's wrong. I've always broken rules anyway, and this is amazing.  Suddenly Duff pulled away and pushed me to the side. "All of the tour, you've been drooling over me and now you push me away like I'm some groupie and your wife is here. What the fuck is your problem?" I sighed. "You're a fetus is what" Duff yelled. "I'm 27 and gonna be 28 in August.  You're not the only old rockstar who has been with a younger girl. Duff, it's okay" I looked up at him. "I'm old enough to be your father, Y/n'' Duff sighed pushing me on the bed. "I don't know my dad, he bailed before my mom gave birth.  Doc is my father figure" I said. He's been chasing me like he's 24 again so I was just giving in.  

Duff sat at the table and looked out the window. He was quiet.  "Duff, I like you, I have since I was 17 and found appetite in my brother's room. Sure, I was a toddler when you were married the second time. It will be looked down upon, but screw that Duff. I want to spend my days off with you in bed, be in the studio with you, so what if people judge us. I can respect you and leave you alone forever and move on. Much as I would hate it but you have a bigger spotlight, kids, image to protect. But chose me, try it out for a bit more. I'm not a bitch like Rocky and Alex put me out to be." I said standing in front of him.  He just looked at me, "Sorry I said anything. I'll go now" I said turning around but landed in Duff's lap.  "Okay, I chose you, Y/n '' Duff said, laying his hands on my waist. "Good choice, a crazy one but a good one" I smiled kissing him.  “Not the first time, I’ve done something crazy” Duff rubbed his hand on my thigh. 

The band done great even without Rocky, not seeing a bass player hop around was odd. Rocky managed to get on my nerves, a pair of big hands wrapped around my waist pulling me towards them. I looked to see Duff, “Hi” I said where he could hear me. Rocky was smirking at us, “Uh Rocky” I looked at him as Duff almost had me pressed agaisnt his chest. “What?”, Rocky asked like a child. “Go away, now” I said rolling my eyes. Rocky gave in and huffed away, “Sorry about him” I giggled as Duff pulled into his chest.  “They really love you huh?” Duff chuckled. “Yeah I guess”  “You don’t love them?” Duff asked. “I do, but its like hurding drunk kittens, who have seperation anxitey” I smirked making Duff laugh.  “Duff” Axl yelled making us pull apart and Duff sat me on the equipment box.  “Hey handsome” I said making Duff turn around. “Good luck” I kissed his cheek as he grabbed one of his basses.  Sasha walked up to me as Guns n Roses walked towards the stage, “Hi” “Hi, Sash. What’s up?” I smiled watching Duff and his long legs walk away. “Honey, your motor is leaking on my boots” Sasha smirked. “Get bent” I rolled my eyes as Meegan walked by with her camera.  “Have you fucked yet?” Sasha asked. 

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“Watch the lamp, Duff” I laughed as he threw me on the bed and impact made the bed side lamp move a little.

“I can pay for it, I did in 88″ Duff pulled me to the edge of bed as he threw his tank top on the floor. He looked up at me for an ‘Okay”, “Go on then” I smiled at him before he spreaded my legs open far as they would go. “Mhm come on, Duff do something” I whined as he looked down there. He looked at me and went back to my exposed heat, “Damn, you’re fucking beauitful” I blushed at him. 

There was a knock at the door, Duff got up and answered it

“Who was it?” I asked sitting up

“Noise complaint” Duff smirked. “Opps” I looked at him doe- eyed. “Not the first time, baby” Duff smirked and flopped next to me.

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I smirked biting my lip

“Said you two would end up fucking. I’m happy for you, I was getting worried about you. After Scott, you’ve not-” “Okay thank you for being happy” I cut her off. “Sorry, Y/n” Sasha said looking sad, “Hey, what’s wrong?” Duff asked. “Oh nothing” I smiled. Duff stared at me trying to find an emotion visble, “Just making sure, I don’t have to kick some young buck’s ass for making you upset” Duff said making Sasha and I laugh.  “Young bucks? Sasha write that one down” I smiled. Duff had to run back on stage with Slash.  “You love him don’t you know?” Meegan came back for water.  “Is that fuzzy feeling in my chest”, I asked. Meegan smiled and nodded, “Yeah and usually don’t go away. Slash has had a headache since Duff won’t shut up about you” Meegan laughed. “Tell Slash im sorry” I leaned on Sasha’s shoulder. 

I looked out to see Duff and Slash back to back playing ‘My Michelle’ 

I really do love that ‘Old Buck’ damn he got me good.

[premiumpendeja]

The Reunion - Sebastian Stan x reader

A/N: Sebastian in this suit makes me want to yell.

Warnings: some lAngUAge

y/s/n: your school name

y/f/n: your friend’s name

“Y/n! Your phone dinged again! It’s an email!”, I hear my husband of two years call out to me from the kitchen.

“Coming babe!”, I retreat from the bathroom after finishing giving Nova, our rescue pup, a bath and drying her off. I make my way to Seb, slower than usual seeing as I’m almost 6 months pregnant, and check my phone and see it’s an email from the high school I graduated from.

 “Good afternoon Y/n Y/l/n, we would like to inform you that y/s/n will be hosting its 10 year reunion on the first of August at eight PM. We’re excited for you to join us on this evening to rekindle and reminisce. Attached below is the link to RSVP. See you there!``'' I read out loud to a very intrigued Sebastian, who is now holding Nova.

 “They got my name wrong. I’m a proud Stan now.” I say, earning a chuckle from Seb.

“Baby we should go, it’ll be fun. Besides, I wanna see where you spent your so called worst years of your life”.

“I mean, it does sound interesting to go see how my former classmates moved on and I kinda wanna see if anyone aged bad. Is that bad?”

Seb comes over to me and wraps his arms around me and plants a sweet kiss on my lips and places his hands on my ever growing bump, earning a small kick from our little jelly bean.

“Not at all. Is there a dress code involved? Oh shit do I need to wear a suit?” I chuckle and reread the email. Lo and behold, it is a semi formal event.

“It’s semi formal, so I think you should maybe wear that light blue suit you wore to the Endgame premier, it really brings out your eyes and you look scrumptious in it.” I say with a cheeky grin. Sebastian smiles and kisses me once more, earning a small whine from Nova and her trying to squeeze in between our legs. We break apart and Seb picks her up and immediately she starts to lick his face. 

“Welp, we should start planning what we’re gonna wear, it’s in like two days. I’ll RSVP and you call someone to watch over Nova for that night?” Seb nods and takes an excited Nova to our room. I call the number attached to the email and confirm our attendance.

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“Y/n are you ready babe it’s almost 8 and we need to go.” I’m finishing up my last curl as Seb pops his head in the doorway of our bathroom. His eyes go wide when he sees me all dolled up and the vibrant yellow maxi dress I chose to wear accentuates my bump perfectly. He eyes me up and down and I see a mix of love and lust in his crystal blue eyes. He wraps his arms around me and rests his hands on the center of my bump and rests his chin on the top of my head, making me look tiny compared to his massive size.

“My my my Mrs. Stan, you look radiant. Absolutely breathtaking.” I let out a small giggle and melt into his arms. I turn and peck his lips and pull him out of our bathroom and out to the living room where my neighbor stands with Nova in her arms. 

“Oh Mrs. Adams thank you so much for watching little Nova tonight!” Mrs. Adams is the sweetest lady and  was the first person to welcome Seb and I here and she’s helped us with settling in and getting to know our surrounding neighbors on our floor. She even tells us the latest gossip going around our building.

“Not a problem dearie, you kids go enjoy your night out, we’ll be just peachy here.” With that, Seb and I head down to the lobby of our building and make the drive to my old high school. I haven’t been there since I graduated, I hadn’t even visited.

“You nervous bub? It’s totally fine if you are. Seeing old friends for the first time in a decade is pretty nerve wracking, but think about it as exciting to see old pals.” Seb takes my left hand in his right and runs his thumb over my knuckles, grazing over my wedding ring, then brings it to his lips in a sweet kiss. Consider my nerves dissipated. 

We finally make it to y/s/n and notice a few old classmates making their way towards the cafeteria doors, it reminds me of going to homecoming for a second.

Sebastian parks and opens my door for me and leads me to the double doors and ushers me in, like the gentleman he is. Immediately upon entering I see that the whole cafeteria is decorated with balloons and the year we graduated and all that. There’s a whole buffet in the back and tables set up throughout the space. 

Seb and I move to find a table after checking in and it doesn’t take long for people to notice us, seeing as I’m in a bright yellow dress, pregnant, and with Sebastian freaking Stan right next to me with his arm around my waist. My former classmates stop and stare, some with bulging eyes, some with smiles, and some with just pure shock. Part of me is thinking ‘ha look at me now bitches’ and the other part of me doesn’t want the attention towards us.

I hear faint whispers of “is that y/n?” and “oh my god”. Seb smiles at everyone and continues to usher me to the nearest table. 

“I’ll be right back, dragă, I’m gonna make you a plate.” He kisses my forehead and head towards the tables lined with food. While he walks away, a few of my classmates come towards me and vacate the chairs surrounding me, but leaving one empty for Sebastian, I assume.

“Oh my god y/n how’ve you been? You look amazing, you’re glowing!” The first to speak is this girl named Rachel, I remember her from our pep rallies. She was fairly nice to me. 

“I’ve been doing great, thank you, just getting ready for this little one to come, y’know.” I smile politely at the small group formed in front of me.

“How did you and the Sebastian Stan meet? Like, you’re literally married to Bucky Barnes!” Another girl, Erika, gushes. This question seems to get everyone listening intently. I smile at the memory of meeting the love of my life.

“So a few years ago, he was at this ACE comic con and I just so happen to be leaving from work and unfortunately I missed the ticket sales, so I didn’t get to go to the meet and greet but that didn’t matter when I bumped into him as he was leaving and I had a smoothie in my hand, strawberry banana to be exact, and I spilled it on my hoodie and the poor thing felt so bad, he kept apologizing and offering to make it up to me and I was still in shock that I had bumped into him in the first place. After I had snapped out of it, I smiled and told him that it was fine and I saw the opportunity and took it and asked him if we could grab dinner, y’know to make up for my smoothie. He immediately smiled and walked me to his car and took me to one of the restaurants he remembered from his last visit. Luckily it was just my hoodie and not my blouse. So we ate and talked all night, well until the restaurant owner closed up and we just went for a walk and exchanged numbers and the rest is history.” I finished just as Seb came back with two plates of food, setting one down in front of me with a cheeky grin. 

“You telling them our fanfiction-esque meeting? I still feel guilty about your hoodie by the way.” He chuckles as he greets everyone and sits next to me.

Everyone around us is grinning at our exchange and gushing at how cute of a couple we are. 

“Wait til they hear our wedding stories. Oof those are cheesy. So we decided not to get married in a church, we aren’t too traditional, so the beach it was. It was a bit windy that day but we had to suck it up. Our wedding was ocean themed, thus the beach being the location. I shit you not, I cried so hard when I saw her walking down the aisle. I was seconds from bawling, and so was she, she can’t deny it, I have photos.” Seb started to loosen up and feel more comfortable as he told the story and I can’t help but get lost in his voice. 

“Our honeymoon was one for the books. I didn’t Y/n a thing about where we were going. I had packed everything she’d need so she didn’t get to ask. I took her to Santorini. She was floored. She’d always wanted to go and me, being the perfect husband, I made it happen.” Sebastian finished with the cheekiest grin at me and I literally had all heart eyes for him. I looked around at the group in front of us and heard a chorus of ‘aw’s’ and various compliments.

“Oh the surprises didn’t stop there. When we got back from our honeymoon, Seb took me to a dog shelter and let me pick out a dog and I saw this gorgeous little angel, she’s a great dane border collie mix and with one look I knew I needed her. We adopted her and now Nova is our pride and joy. She took it so well when we found out we were having a baby, she never lets me go anywhere in the house alone, sweet thing, and when Seb is traveling she gets even more protective, more so when I started showing. Now she knows she’s gonna be a big sister and always sleeps with her head on my bump.” I feel everyone’s intense gaze on me, and I turn to Seb, who has a glint in his baby blues, looking at me with all the love in the world. 

Soon enough, everyone went to get their own plates of food. At the table we were sitting at, the rest of the seats were taken by my best friend, her husband, two girls,Haley and Lorie, I became friends with later in my high school career and their husbands. There was some mingling, catching up, some laughs, the usual. 

“So Y/n, have you and y/f/n kept in touch since graduation?” Haley asks. I haven’t heard her name in a while now. We used to be really good friends until we just drifted apart. I would try to reach out but keeping in touch with her became difficult and I had hope that inviting her to the wedding would help patch up the loose ends. I feel Seb stiffen a little next to me, and it didn’t go unnoticed by the rest of the table.

“Um, no we haven’t. Not in about a year now. I tried to keep in touch with her and her family but I assumed she was always busy y’know. I sent a wedding invitation to her parent’s house in hopes that they’d see it and tell her about it, ‘cause I assumed she regularly visits them. I stopped by after a week in hopes to run into her but her parents said she wasn’t home and invited me to stay for lunch. I accepted of course and caught up with them, told them what the deal was and they promised to talk to her, I mentioned to them the invitation was for all of them, if they wanted to, of course, and they thanked me and sent some leftovers with me. The wedding was getting closer and I still tried to get ahold of her and nothing, her parents R.S.V.P’d so I had assumed she knew. Wedding day came and I made sure there was a seat for her just  in case because I didn’t know if she was going to come, I’d hoped so, but all that dissipated when I noticed an empty seat next to her mom and I decided to drop it altogether.” By the time I finished telling the table, Seb was holding me hand reassuringly, my best friend was shaking her head disappointedly seeing as she was there when it happened and the rest were in shock. Seb was just as upset, if not more, as me when it happened and I remember her family apologizing profusely and I didn’t want them to feel worse so I just waved it off the best I could, but I knew they saw through it all. They promised they’d give her an earful and bid us their congrats and goodbyes. I haven’t forgiven her, even when she finally returned my calls and agreed to meet up with me. It was mostly me calling her out and her making excuses. I left it at that and from that point I haven’t spoken to her.

As the night goes on, I’ve caught up with most of the people I shared classes with and had a fair share of girls I never spoke to come up to me and act as if we’ve been friends for ages, just a little show for Seb and it made me want to laugh because Seb was clearly ignoring their little acts and kept his arm around me, making sure his wedding band was in view.

Right before the reunion ended, I was walking to find Seb so we could go home, but not before I bumped into Y/f/n. She seemed surprised at first, then a small smile and I could have sworn she looked a little guilty??

“Y/n, how’ve you been? It’s been a while, congrats on your baby.” She spoke as if nothing happened and I couldn’t care less if I’m being honest. I just smiled and thanked her and walked off. Well, waddled off to find my husband to get the hell out of here.

From a few tables away I see Seb talking to a few of the guys and smiles sweetly at me when I reach his line of vision.

“Hey angel, you ready to go?” He seemed to have seen the look on my face and knew exactly what had happened. I nod and grab my purse and hand him the keys. We say goodbye to everyone and finally make our way home. The car ride isn’t silent but it’s not filled with the usual boisterous conversation.

When we actually step foot in our apartment, Nova comes barreling towards us and Mrs. Adams is watching Family Feud in the living room. She notices us and greets us with her warm smile and we thank her for taking care of Nova and she waves it off with a smile and retreats next door.

“Baby, are you okay, you’ve been quiet the whole ride home, what happened?” Seb steps in front of me while placing his warm hands on my bump, earning some kicks from our lovebug. I wrap my arms around his neck and let out a sigh.

“I ran into her. She acted as if nothing happened. I just left her there and went to you. I wanted nothing of it. This was one hell of a reunion, I guess.” I whispered. Seb wraps me in his loving embrace and kisses the top of my head and helps me out of my dress and does my night routine for me. I love when he pampers me like this, he’s so loving in all his actions that it nearly brings me to tears. Nearly. While I’m changing into one of his shirts and sweats, he’s already waiting for me in our bed. Once I lay down he pulls me towards him and wraps his arm around my bump and holds me.

“I’m so proud of you, dragă. I love you so much.” He whispers as I drift off.

[fromcrossroadstoking]

Liebgott and the Accident

Part 6 of Welcome to the 5061st

Tags: @gottapenny @itisjustmethistime @indigosandviolets @scarecrowmax 

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August 3rd, 0900

When Liebgott received his draft letter, he had pictured himself with a gun in his hand, fighting his way through mud, defending the lives of his fellow soldiers, and sleeping in foxholes. 

Skip forward about a year and here he was, washing down the back of the ambulance that he drove. 

He dumped another bucket of water, rinsing away the last of the soap and blood. 

The ambulance needed a cleaning almost daily and it was Liebgott`s least favorite part of his job. There was something deeply unsettling about seeing blood pooled on the floor and sometimes even splattered on the walls.

Hopping out of the back of the ambulance, Liebgott began putting away the cleaning supplies, humming quietly to himself as he worked.

"What song is that?"

"What?" Liebgott turned to look at Sisk who was busy working on the jeep currently parked next to Liebgott`s ambulance.

"The song you're humming? What is it?"

"Oh, nothin'. Just a tune I made up," Liebgott shrugged nonchalantly and placed the jug of soap back up on the shelf. Turning back around, he headed over to the jeep, hopped up in one of the seats and rested his feet on the dash.

"This gonna be up and runnin' anytime soon?"

Sisk looked up from where he was working on the engine, rubbing the back of his neck, which was becoming increasingly sore.

"Hope so."

Sisk suddenly froze as his eyes spotted something a few feet away, huddled against the wall of their makeshift vehicle bay.

"Hey, isn't that Mr. Scruffy?"

Liebgott craned his neck to look where Sisk was pointing.

"Hey! Yeah!" Liebgott jumped out of the jeep and made his way over to the bunny.

"Don`t scare it Lieb. Luz will lose it if Mr. Scruffy runs off for good."

Liebgott crouched down as low as possible and held out his hand as he slowly moved forward, making cooing sounds. The bunny didn't come any closer but it didn't run away either, so Liebgott figured that was something.

"Hey," Liebgott spoke loud enough for Sisk to hear but low enough to not startle Mr. Scruffy, "Get me a box or somethin' to put him in." There was a quiet shuffling sound as Sisk found a crate and brought it over. 

By now, Liebgott was mere inches from the bunny and decided it was high time to strike. He reached out as fast as he could, grabbed Mr. Scruffy, hurriedly put him in the crate, and placed a piece of scrap wood on top to keep him inside. Liebgott straightened back up, a proud smile on his face, "Am I good or what?"

Just then, Roe appeared in the opening to the vehicle bay.

"Hey Doc," Liebgott nodded in greeting, "What can we help you with?"

"Either of you seen Mr. Scruffy? We cant find him anywhere and Luz is gettin' real worried." Roe`s brow was furrowed with concern, the look accentuated by the dark rings under his eyes. Liebgott couldn't help but note that Roe, who just got out of an eighteen hour shift in the OR, was giving up precious sleep to help Luz look for his bunny.

Maybe me and Grant ain`t the only ones around here... 

"Well, it`s your lucky day, Doc! I just happened to catch Mr. Scruffy right before you came in," Liebgott picked up the crate and handed it over to Roe, "All yours!"

Roe`s face lit up like a kid at Christmas, "Thanks, Liebgott. I owe you one." And with that Roe turned and hurried off to reunite Luz with his beloved pet.

August 7th, 1500

The rain hadn't stopped in days. Neither had the wounded. Liebgott lost count of how many trips he made between the line and the 5061st. He was exhausted to his core.

Which probably explained why, when meeting up with Grant in their usual spot, he fell asleep just as Grant began to trail kisses down his throat. Grant sighed, grabbed their blanket, and covered the two of them up as he laid down next to Lieb on their makeshift bed. Curling himself around Lieb, he figured he might as well get some rest too.

August 8th, 2200

It was pitch black out and the rain was coming down hard. The visibility was some of the worst it had ever been as Liebgott tried his best to drive quickly back to the 5061st. He could hear the cries of pain from the back of the ambulance, which made him push the ambulance to speeds that probably weren't the safest under these conditions.

The ambulance rattled as it flew down the winding dirt road. Liebgott was squinting, trying to see what was up ahead through the downpour. 

Just a few more minutes and we`ll have made it.

There was small feeling of relief, knowing that he was so close to making it back, but just as he felt himself relax just the tiniest bit, he lost control of the ambulance.

August 9th, 1400

When Liebgott woke up, he was laying in a hospital bed. It took a moment for his senses to come back and for his mind to kick back in gear.

"Well, it`s about time."

Liebgott turned his head and his eyes landed on Grant, perched in a seat next to his bed.

"The fuck happened?"

"You crashed. Right in to a tree."

"Oh." As that night slowly came back to him, something caught in his throat, "The guys in the back? They okay?"

"Yeah, Lieb. They're fine. You weren't far from camp. Close enough that Lip heard the crash. Docs were there in an instant."

Liebgott felt immediately relieved and said a silent prayer of thanks.

August 12th, 1000

Although not seriously injured, Liebgott was still laid up in the hospital for a few days. Thankfully, Grant kept him company, spending all his free time sitting in the hospital by Liebgott`s side. They talked, played cards and dice, and read comics. Truth be told, Liebgott was actually rather enjoying the monopoly he currently held on Grant`s time.

When Grant wasn't there (he did still have duties to attend to after all) Liebgott spent the majority of his time people watching. He had never really spent time in the hospital before, he usually just dropped wounded off and took off again, so it was interesting to watch how the whole thing worked.

Roe and Spina seemed to be the favorite docs by far. Speirs was just a bit too intimidating to be a people person and his bedside manner needed some serious work. But Liebgott wasn't going to be the one to tell him that.

The patients themselves were an interesting mix. Some were in far better spirits than others. The patient to Liebgott`s immediate right was definitely part of the latter group. The docs could barely even get him to eat. But honestly, it was better than being next to the cheery son of a bitch a few beds down who kept singing to “brighten everyone`s moods”. 

There had been someone on Liebgott`s other side only for about a day before the other man was shipped off to Tokyo General. Since then, Grant usually plopped himself down in that bed when he came to visit.

Luz also seemed to visit quite a bit, which was interesting since he wasn't a part of the medical staff or visiting a patient. Out of boredom, Liebgott started keeping a running tally in his head of how many times Luz dropped by the hospital. 

As Luz made his third trip of the day, Liebgott called out, "Hey Luz! You forget where your office was?"

"Ha ha, Lieb. Just need to see Roe about some paperwork, you know, because I have a job to do, unlike some of us who get to hang out in bed all day." Luz grinned as he made the friendly jab at Liebgott.

"Fuck you Luz. Don`t be jealous that I get to spend all day with Doc." Liebgott smirked as he winked at Luz. Luz flipped him off and went on his way to find Roe.

August 15th, 0800

Liebgott could not have been happier the day he was finally allowed out of the hospital. Or he was happy. Until he saw his ambulance.

"Oh fuck. Shit. Fuck."

"Yeah, sorry Lieb, I`m not going to be able to fix that. New one is on the way though," Sisk gave Liebgott an apologetic smile.

"What am I supposed to drive until then?!"

Sisk shrugged, "You're out of commission. Think of it as a little vacation I guess."

August 19th, 1300

Liebgott did his best to enjoy his "little vacation" but he ended up so bored he could practically feel his brain melting. So when his shiny new ambulance arrived Liebgott was over the moon happy.

Well, ok, it wasn't exactly shiny and it was definitely not new, but in Liebgott`s eyes at that moment it was the best damn thing he had ever seen.

"Congrats, Lieb. Just be a little more careful this time, yeah?" Grant reached over and gave Liebgott`s hand a quick squeeze, letting go before anyone could notice.

"Yeah, yeah," Liebgott gave Grant a reassuring smile, "Don`t worry, I`m a great driver! It was just one little accident!"

Grant rolled his eyes and Liebgott bumped his shoulder against Grant`s.

Liebgott couldn't wait to get back behind the wheel.

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9.35am

Good morning...

I hope this finds everyone happy & doing well this last Friday of August.

Have a beautiful day!

▪︎▪︎▪︎

I am sad, missing those I love with all of my being.

But listening closely to God's Plans.

Yesterday I realized while standing in line at the bank that I am going to have to make appts for everything I need to get done in order to keep this process moving. [Because the bank wouldn't do a <5 minute task without it. And charged me $10 bucks for a damn cashier's check for the appraiser. ]

Sigh. I hate fees. Nickel & dime the hell outta ya! But just like as I wasn't eating while at the beach, I did lose weight! [Now I know it wasn't the right way, but it is helping me to remember & keep going.] Just remember that the fees are to get to what I want to happen.

So I gotta make appts now with DL, SSA, ATF, & contact the apartment place I like to learn their process.

[I am not a renter. Never rented anything but a car for vacations & such in my life. I like to pay things as quickly as possible to keep the interest rate & fees from piling up.] But it seems I need to rent as a first step, because I am gonna have to fight every step of the way. Way wh has forced it to be. Anyways. Oh! Gotta put my new passport on that list! Ugh.

So I've got the appraiser coming, the QDRO atty going, all these appts. Using my GTasks to keep track. Getting my meds back on track.

Cleaning, culling, & packing. This is my life right now. I sssssooooo..... look forward to being out of this place & having a tidy, neat, organized abode!

I remembered that part of myself at the beaches. Kept my stuff clean. Never left messes for others to clean up.

Always spoke to the maids & maintenance people. They always helped me out too. Musty smells, flattened pillows.

I always have spoken to staff, they are the people that are real in those types of situations. And showing them kindness to brighten a moment of their day makes me feel like a decent woman.

Anyways... back to work.

I miss You Alll each... just...

I am staying positive the best I can, keeping on doing my tasks,

until I am finally outta this door permanently. [I think the moment I give wh my house keys will be the happiest I've had here. Sad, but true.]

I am giving this to God every day. That He will continue to bestow Grace & Mercy upon me. That I do the righteous woman path & get out. Rebuild my life. Rebuild me.

With wisdom & knowledge of these years, but back to the nice person I always have been.

I love You each.

This is not where this ends...🎶

True love never ends ~&~ true love always waits.

Thank You God, Jesus for loving me & saving me daily.

Please... keep Teaching, Guiding & Molding me into the woman You God Created me to be.

Your warrior queen submissive woman for the One/s...? You Created with & for me that hold the keys to me. As I pray to be worthy to hold... their's...his... God...please...

Your Plans. Your Will. Your time.

Humbly bowed to You Lord.

Your fallible loving daughter.,

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

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Sigh. So many interruptions!

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get to know me tag

RULES: ANSWER THESE 88 QUESTIONS AND TAG 20 PEOPLE (mini rant: why do these thing always request 20 people to tag. i dont even know ten people pls let me breathe) **I keep the rant cause seriously I don't even know 20 people irl not in the tumblr world**

tagged by @in-theory (and im really sorry for being so late, like a month has passed but well okay im doing this lol)

tagging : @vxplln @anastassiamlt @teh-panda @itsthewonderfulworldofsu @inkyblacksky

THE LAST:

1. DRINK: water probably it's summer lol

2. PHONE CALL: my dad

3. TEXT MESSAGE: κλαιω ήθελα να πω (greek)

4. SONG YOU LISTENED TO: My Neighbor Totoro ending song

5. THE TIME YOU CRIED: I don't even remember. I think last weekend watching the Judgment at Nuremberg (1961)

HAVE YOU:

6. DATED SOMEONE TWICE: not even once

7. KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: nah

8. BEEN CHEATED ON: everything here is going to be a no, ( I keep this answer by @in-theory cause seriously gurl I feel the same)

9. LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: idk what you mean by that. So im gonna answer yeah

10. BEEN DEPRESSED: hell yeah what I was doing the whole winter? 

11. GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: im not sure abt getting drunk but I haven't thrown up from alcohol. Alcohol is my friend

TOP 3 FAVORITE COLORS

12. That's tough

13. seriously though

14. I can't even tell them apart at times, but I like the colors of sunset

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. MADE NEW FRIENDS: AHA AND IM HAPPY ABT THAT

16. FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: nah prob. I haven't fallen in, how can I fall out?

17. LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: seriously I don't remember. I remember this time. I couldn't breathe from laughing too hard. I had just discovered a new laugh which was like HIHIHIHIIHIIIHIHHIHHIHHHHIIIIIIIIIHIHIHIIHI and I didn't even remember what I was laughing at cause everyone (included me) just laughed with my new laugh lol. But idk if it was this year. Maybe some other time that i don’t remember now cause well i have the memory of a fish

18. FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: what

19. MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: maybe???idk

20. FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: im still through that tbh

21. KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: what is even a fb list?

GENERAL

22. HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE: welllllllllll it depends on what you mean know irl

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: I wanna get a doggo but I only had fishes till now and they all dead now so yeah prob gonna delay getting the doggo till I get a house that would be comfy for him

24. DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: tbh I didn't really like that as a kid. And I would like to change it if I become an artist of any form of art

25. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOU LAST BIRTHDAY: my sis got me presents and we went to a nice café-bar, and some other time we got some pizzas with ma friends

26. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: eight o’ clock 

27. WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: watching the Russian boy who looked like a real-life anime dancing folklore and I tell you he was fineee

28. NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: life

29. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: before 3 hrs or something

30. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU COULD CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE: my character. And my hobbies. Like sometimes I really wish I had been in some athletic team or dance team, be a little more sociable a lil stronger. ANyway

31. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: Put My Hands On You by Dean ft. Anderson Paak (please do babe, i want that too)

32. HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: Nah

33. SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: people, me included

LOST QUESTIONS

34. MOLE(S): everywhere but I think the ones that come more to my mind is a huge one that is above of my left ear and thankful my hair cover it, then one in my right wrist and one left of my nose

35. MARK(S): stretch marks everywhere

36. CHILDHOOD DREAM: ha I prob changed them every week, but I think that actress was the final one cause I found out as a kid that in this way I could be everything I wanted and change profession with every different movie/series I got myself into

37. HAIR COLOR: brown 

38. LONG OR SHORT HAIR: now short

39. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: *laughs* what’s a crush **(sorry babe gonna keep that as well cause yeah same)**

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: i’m confident at my dreams and goals

41. PIERCINGS: nah 

42. BLOODTYPE: A I think 

43. NICKNAME(S): squidie, agg, ang, bro

44. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: IM SINGLE af 

45. ZODIAC: cancer but who cares

46. PRONOUNS: she/her

47. FAVORITE TV SHOW: Friends (American), It’s okay that’s love (Korean) (UGGHHHH THIS IS HARD OMG REPLY 1988 TOO OKAY?) and Είσαι το ταίρι μου (Greek)

48. TATTOOS: nah, how could i decide where to put it and what to write/draw, nahhh

49. RIGHT OR LEFT HAND: right

50. SURGERY: not yet

51. HAIR DYED A DIFFERENT COLOR: no

52. SPORT: does eating count?

53. VACATION: Nisiros-10 and Skopelos D-24

54. PAIR OF TRAINERS: got me some converse and a pair of vans but converse is next level I tell ya 

MORE GENERAL

55. EATING: haven’t eaten since i woke up probably won’t eat until noon

56. DRINKING: more water lol

57. I’M ABOUT TO: Watch a movie prob or go for a walk

58. WAITING FOR: Awesome summer to start even on August

59. WANT: to travel back in time and become friends with Bogey and Bacall 

60. GET MARRIED: who knows what life has for me? im too young to know

61. CAREER: nobody knows, maybe i will become a millionaire,maybe i will become another jobless person, maybe i will sell tomatoes and pancakes and cookies in flea market

 62. HUGS OR KISSES: Both actually

63. LIPS OR EYES: heart, sorry i never (after middle school, cause we don’t speak of the time before shhhh) really cared abt specific characteristics on people. I mean, he could have the most beautiful eyes/lips i have set my eyes on and i could be not attracted by him. Idk im weird

64. SHORTER OR TALLER: taller cause well im 1,64 m, and idk i just need his height to tell me HUG ME IM A HUGSIE PERSON (I know im weird, that’s why i have few friends)

65. OLDER OR YOUNGER: now older. but idk generally i don’t think i would have a problem with younger people

66. NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: i’m a hoe for arms oh dear God mercy

67. SENSITIVE OR LOUD: loud people because i am quiet and reserved so yeah this is abt what person i am or which kind of people i like? well it doesn’t matter cause well idk abt sensitive, but im not and neither im attracted to loud people

68. HOOK UP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship

69. TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: im 10000% hesitant and i would like a troublemaker to have a lil fun sometime

HAVE YOUR EVER:

70. KISSED A STRANGER: no

71. DRANK HARD LIQUOR: no

72. LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: like 8737918731432867 times

73. TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: well. . . maybe?im not sure abt that

74. SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: no

75. BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: no

76. HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: does elementary school count?

77. BEEN ARRESTED: no

78. CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yes

79. FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: i don’t think i have male friends (like real friends, to talk at least once a month and really care abt each other) and i never actually had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

80. YOURSELF: im a magic fairy, who doesn’t believe in them? my specialty is to make everyone sad lol

81. MIRACLES: yes

82. LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: okay im still not over that ice cream, why do you keep reminding me of that *sobs* it was my first love *tears fall* when we set our eyes on each other *mess* *somebody sto0p me please*

83. SANTA CLAUS: well i believe in Santa Claus in the way i believe in all other Santas

84. KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: is this something to believe in?

85. ANGELS: yes

86. CURRENT BEST FRIENDS NAME(S): anastassia, maryam, i think that’s it

OTHER

87. EYECOLOR: dark brown

88. FAVORITE MOVIE: Mamma Mia (2008) (judge all you want but it never fails on making me happy), Philadelphia Story (1940) (come on this movie is just amazing i love it). Im not sure abt favorite, but i really liked It’s a Wonderful Life (1946), cause it made me rethink my priorities in life and it certainly demands a re-watch. In abt a month i think many many more will be added to this list hopefully

OMG I DID IT YEY

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tagged by @malicezero (thanks, babe, now I have something to do for a bit!)

Rules: Fill in these 92 statements and tag 10 people

THE LAST 1. Drink: coffee 2. Phone call: my daughter 3. Text message: “Yeah I didn’t think they would go there...just thought he’d be the sidekick” 4. Song you listened to: “Mariner’s Revenge” by The Decemberists 5. Time you cried: This morning

HAVE YOU: 6. Dated someone twice: yes 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: yes 8. Been cheated on: Not that I’m aware of 9. Lost someone special: yes. quite a few times 10. Been depressed: yes 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: yes, but that was 25 years ago

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 12. orange 13. purple 14. teal

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: yes 16. Fallen out of love: no - i haven’t been in love for a very long time 17. Laughed until you cried: yes 18. Found out someone was talking about you: no 19. Met someone who changed you: yes 20. Found out who your friends are: no 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes, more than one

GENERAL: 22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23. Do you have any pets: 2 dogs and a cat 24. Do you want to change your name: no, I love my name 25. What did you do for your last birthday: went out to dinner 26. What time did you wake up: 4:30 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28. Name something you can’t wait for: going to see Depeche Mode in August! 29. When was the last time you saw your mom: day before yesterday 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: no longer be alone and sad 31. What are you listening to right now: The Joker - Steve Miller Band 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes, a friend from high school 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: my teenager not listening to me and being rude and spiteful and entitled 34. Most visited Website: pfffft - Tumblr

LOST QUESTIONS. I JUST PUT IN RANDOM INFO ABOUT ME 35. Mole/s: yep. got a couple of those 36. Mark/s: cafe au lait spots all over. plus lots of freckles 37. Childhood dream: to be a teacher 38. Hair color: red 39. Long or short hair: right now it’s shoulder length. It’s usually long 40. Do you have a crush on someone: Jared Padalecki, lol 41. What do you like about yourself: I care about people (maybe too much) 42. Piercings: just my ears 43. Blood type: O+ 44. Nickname: Squee 45. Relationships: currently still single 46. Zodiac: Taurus 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favourite TV Show: Supernatural                                                             49. Tattoos: none yet, planning my first one 50. Right or left hand: right 51. Surgery: Major back surgery when I was 12 52. Hair dyed in different color: yes, blue, purple, blonde, red, magenta... 53. Sport: I don’t play, but LOVE to watch football (not soccer)! 55. Vacation: I would love to visit Ireland someday 56. Pair of trainers: I don’t know how to answer this one

MORE GENERAL: 57. Eating: lately, not much. Can’t seem to find any food I like 58. Drinking: guess I’ve been doing more of this lately. Vodka cranberry is my current go to drink 59. I’m about to: do laundry? 61. Waiting for: love 62. Want: happiness 63. Get married: probably will never happen 64. Career: teaching 65. Hugs or kisses: both. I miss them both 66. Lips or eyes: both, but lips are more fun :) 67. Shorter or taller: he should be taller so I can snuggle into his chest 68. Older or younger: I prefer he be older 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: Oh, I’m gonna want both here. Because reasons 71. Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72. Hook up or relationship: I’m looking for relationship. Otherwise, why other. I’m done with people using me and leaving me 73. Troublemaker or hesitant:  neither

HAVE YOU EVER: 74. Kissed a stranger: no 75. Drank hard liquor: yes 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: no 77. Turned someone down: Ha, no, I’m desperate. But I haven’t been asked, so it’s never been an opportunity for me 78. Sex in the first date: not for me 79. Broken someone’s heart: I doubt it 80. Had your heart broken: more than once, yes 81. Been arrested: no 82. Cried when someone died: yes 83. Fallen for a friend: yep. was fun for a while, then just got my heart broken

DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84. Yourself: not at the moment 85. Miracles: not anymore. 86. Love at first sight: lust yes, desire, yes. Love? No 87. Santa Claus: no 88. Kiss on the first date: I have kissed on a first date, yes. And I would agin, if it ever happens again 89. Angels: I used to. But right now, not so much

OTHER:

90. Current best friend’s name: Jami. But I haven’t seen her for 4 years, she’s across the country. I only really have internet friends 91. Eye color: hazel/green 92. Favorite movie: huh. Well, currently I’m on an Avengers kick, so right now I guess anything in that series of movies

My 10 peeps to tag: (ok. more than 10) feel free to ignore, just thought it might be fun if you have the time :)

Edited my peeps because I was asked to remove one, and I forgot some that I should have included, so there ya go...

@crossroadsangelcastiel  @legosandanarmyman   @agent-superwholockian   @goodnitejerk   @hannahindie  @sille1992  @ravenangel33    @godshipsit      @impala-dreamer @sabath68 @itsnotsammy @nothin-after-79   @royalrowena @wanderingcas

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Doing another one of those looking back surveys ‘cos it’s fun to do that sort of thing as a way to cap off the year. This is one of the first surveys I took, all the way back in 2012. Let’s gooooo. [Edit: I wasn’t able to finish this by the end of the year, so I guess I’m opening this year instead with a throwback hahaha]

Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed? Closed. I’m pretty OC, so if I leave them opened I’d only end up irritated. Now: Closed. Why the hell would I leave my closet open?

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels? My mom does. Now: Dear 14 year old Robyn, I don’t know what you were observing but your mom definitely never took anything from the hotel??? But to answer the question, no I don’t. The most I’d take is probably a notepad. Have you ever ‘done it’ in a hotel room? No. Now: Six years later, yep.

Where is your next vacation? My family haven’t decided yet! Now: We’re flying over to somewhere in Bicol a couple of months from now.

Have you ever stolen a street sign before? Nope. Now: No, that’ll never serve me any sort of purpose lmfao.

Who do you think reads these? Meh, no one. Now: Surprisingly, both my old survey blog and this one have earned its share of followers, so I guess at some points my surveys are being read. I say ‘surprisingly’ because both blogs were just meant to be a feelings dump for myself, and I never expected anyone to read my posts. 

Do you have a calendar in your room? Like, one that’s hanging on wall? No. Now: Nope. I have one on my phone, which is more convenient. 

Where are you? I’m in my house. On a bed. In my room. Now: ^ Literally the same answer. I guess little has changed when it comes to this.

What’s your plan for the day? Finish Romeo and Juliet and start on that Friar Lawrence essay. Now: Hahahaha freshman year. Well it’s New Year’s Eve, so my crazed mom is gonna take us to church to idk I guess ~commemorate the end of the year because apparently god still has to be involved in that. We normally celebrate NYE at home since our rooftop has the best view of the fireworks, so I’m guessing we’ll have media noche and then wait for the clock to strike midnight.

Are you reading any books right now? Yeah. Romeo and Juliet. Now: I’m reading Bret Hart’s Hitman: My Real Life in the Cartoon World of Wrestling. I’m also reading AJ Lee/Mendez’s (I never know what to call her anymore) Crazy is My Superpower, and sometimes I’ll skim through Chris Jericho’s The Best in the World: At What I Have No Idea because Jericho’s always a good read. Obviously, wrestling autobiographies are my thing.

Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Occasionally. Now: I literally never counted my steps. What the hell was young Robyn so loud for?

Have you ever peed in the woods? No. Now: Nope.

Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? Yes…maybe it’s why I have no friends? Now: ^ Stop trying to sound cool, you hate dancing with every atom in your body. I don’t dance, even if there is music playing; but the grand exception to this is when I danced my soul out at my Paramore show last August. I’d be crazy not to have.

Do you chew your pens and pencils? Uh. Yuck. Now: Never did. I liked chewing on my lollipop sticks though.

What is your “Song of the Week”? Night On Earth - The Bouncing Souls Now: Haven’t listened to a lot for this depression break, but let’s go with Paramore’s Franklin. Night on Earth is a fucking banger though.

Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Of course. Now: Of course.

Do you still watch cartoons? You bet I do. Never letting the kid in me go. Now: If I catch a rerun of Spongebob then yeah. But I generally still agree with the answer I gave. We Bare Bears is a favorite.

Whats your favorite love movie? Titanic, Love Actually, Friends With Benefits. Now: The Proposal, Love Actually...do Revolutionary Road and Eternal Sunshine count?

What do you drink with dinner? I drink water most of the time. Now: Water’s still my bet.

What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in? Barbecue sauce. Now: Whatever’s available, but barbecue seems to be the default dip.

What is your favorite food/cuisine? I enjoy pizza and fried chicken. Now: Indian food for days. Also sushi. I’m not much of a pizza person anymore; I’d get it while on a date with Gab but my heart belongs to sushi this time around.

What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Titanic! Now: Yeah...Titanic’s still That Bitch. But also Ferris Bueller’s Day Off! That’s a fun movie to see if I just want to spend a fun two hours watching something.

Last person you hugged/kissed? Last one I hugged was Gabie; I’ve never kissed anyone. Now: My five-year-old cousin went in for a hug when I came over to see her the other night. My girlfriend was my last kiss.

Were you ever a boy/girl scout? Nope. Now: Never been.

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Never. Now: Never.

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Last month during my class’s recollection. Now: One of my friend groups did a secret Santa, but we also required everyone to write a letter alongside our gift/s. That said, I wrote a reeeeally long, handwritten letter to Laurice, who I happen to have grown close to this year.

Can you change the oil on a car? No. Now: Nah. I leave that to my dad.

Ever gotten a speeding ticket? No; I can’t even drive yet. Now: I dunno if the Philippines actually has a speeding rule? People here drive like death when the roads are miraculously clear (they never are except for Sundays and holidays) because it’s bumper-to-bumper traffic in the city 24/7, but they’re never pulled over. There are speeding rules on the expressways but people don’t seem to mind that as well, so I doubt getting pulled over for speeding is actually a thing here.

Run out of gas? Nope. Now: No that’s like one of my biggest fears. What happens when your car runs out of gas? I imagine it to be like that scene in Toy Story where Buzz and Woody are trying to chase the moving truck, so they use RC to move faster, but then his battery dies and he just kind of slows down lmao.

Favorite kind of sandwich? Chicken/gourmet. Now: Sandwiches aren’t my go-to so I don’t really have a favorite. I don’t know what I was talking about when I meant ~gourmet sandwich, what a feeler haha.

Best thing to eat for breakfast? BACON. Now: I like eating waffles with bacon inside. Omelettes with everything put in is great too, and so are scrambled eggs.

What is your usual bedtime? On school nights, 9 PM. On Friday nights it ranges from 10 to 12. When I’m on summer vacation I don’t sleep at all. Now: Yeah, I pretty much still sleep at 9 at the earliest on school nights. A bitch needs to function the next day. On Fridays and weekends I’d sleep at 1 AM at the latest, but that depends because sometimes I’ll have school stuff on a Saturday.

Are you lazy? The laziest. Now: I have my periods but when I do work I bust my ass off.

When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Tinkerbell! Now: Various stuff...I was Tinkerberll, I was a pirate, I dressed up as my former best friend, I was AJ Lee, I was Daria. I’ve had a lot of costumes through the years.

Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope. Now: No, I was never subscribed to any. I did buy Total Girl every month when I was like 6 up until I was maybe 11 or 12. It’s an Australian magazine for girls, or, as they liked to call my age group at the time, ~tweens.

Which are better, legos or lincoln logs? LEGO! Grew up playing those. And I’d end up crying after I stepped on them. Now: I was never familiar with Lincoln logs. We had crates of LEGO blocks though.

Are you stubborn? Very. Now: Yep, ‘very’ sums it up nicely.

Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Dunno. Should I give a crap about them? Now: I definitely don’t give a crap about either now...I mostly watch Fallon if I want to see celebrities doing silly gags, cos he does a great job making his show super entertaining.

Ever watch soap operas? Yes, when I want to laugh at horrible acting. Now: 14 year old me didn’t have to be so mean. No, I’ve never been into soap operas.

Afraid of heights? Yes. Now: No, only when I’m in a ride, which is partly why I stopped going to amusement parks altogether.

Sing in the car? Don’t we all? Now: All the time, but only when I’m alone.

Dance in the shower? No. Now: Just really rarely.

Dance in the car? When there’s enough space yes. Now: Literally never. Wtf was I lying so much for??

Ever used a gun? No. Now: Never, but lately I’ve been really interested in the idea of going to a shooting range for funsies.

Do you think musicals are cheesy? No. I think they’re the best. Now: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. What the fuck Robyn!!! You’ve hated musicals ever since and you hate it now. Stop lying and stop trying to sound cool!!!

Is Christmas stressful? Yes. Waiting 25 days to open that awfully tempting, beautifully wrapped present under the Christmas tree is really stressful honestly. Now: Buying gifts is stressful. Receiving gifts and opening them have leveled down on the excitement factor these days. Such is getting old.

Ever eat a pierogi? A what? Now: Nope.

Major annoyance right now? The fact that I have to write an essay about Friar Lawrence from Romeo and Juliet. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy writing but when you’re forced to write something you’re not really enthusiastic about, it’s just. Not. Fun. Now: I have to go back to school by next week and I just want to be on a much longer break.

Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? A fireman. Now: Fireman, astronaut, veterinarian.

Do you believe in ghosts? Yes. Now: I’m always open to the idea.

Ever have a deja-vu feeling? Like once a week. Now: Pretty often, yeah.

Do you take a vitamin daily? No. Hardly do. Now: Nah, not anymore.

Wear slippers? Occasionally. Now: Only when I’m at the beach or a pool.

Wear a bath robe? Yes. Now: Sometimes.

What do you wear to bed? Tank top + shorts. Now: I wear t-shirts more now, but yeah I woul wear tank tops on warmer nights.

Wal-Mart, Target or K-Mart? None of the above. I haven’t entered any of these stores yet, because I live in boring, old Philippines. Now: I don’t care about any of these.

Nike or Adidas? Nike. Now: I like them both and have sneakers from both.

Cheetos Or Fritos? Fritos. Now: Fritos.

Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts! Now: Peanuts. I’ve never had sunflower sees.

Ever hear of, “gorp”? Never heard of it. Now: No, I’ve still never heard of it seven years later.

Ever taken karate? No. Would love to! Now: Nah. I think I’m too unathletic to even try.

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? No. Now: Yes.

Can you curl your tongue? Yes. Now: Yep, but only in two. I know some people can curl it even more.

Ever won a spelling bee? Dude, I always get first place. Probably the only thing I’m good at besides writing. Now: Before.

Ever cried because you were so happy? Countless times. Now: I cry more because of wholesome videos or instances that make me happy, but not because something so huge that made me overwhelmingly happy happened to me.

Own any record albums? No. Now: I’d collect them if I actually had a turntable.

Own a record player? I sadly don’t D: Now: See above.

Regularly burn incense? No. The smell is annoying. Now: Yeah I’d still find the smell annoying, but only because it reminds me so much of church.

Ever been in love? Maybe. Now: Yes.

Hot tea or cold tea: Neither. Now: Hate tea.

Tea or coffee? Coffee. Now: Coffee for daaaaaysssss.

Favorite kind of cookie? Burnt chocolate chip cookies. Hnnng. Now: ^ Well...still that...except remove the ‘burnt’ part? Idk what I was thinking but I just enjoy chocolate chip cookies period. Anything with peanut butter is also a yes for me.

Can you swim well? Oh, no. I look like a dying fish when I swim. Now: I know basic stuff, but I know I don’t look good when I do the strokes, especially the backstroke eugh.

Can you hold your breath w/o manually holding your nose? Yes. Now: Sure.

Are you patient? NOPE Now: In some aspects. But I hate waiting in traffic or in lines.

Ever won a contest? Yes. Now: Here and there.

Ever had plastic surgery? Never. Now: Never.

Which are better black or green olives? No idea. Now: Olives are the worst.

Can you knit or crochet? No, which is the reason why I failed Home Economics last year. Now: Home econ was “LAST YEAR” at that point??!!?! That’s absolutely crazy. And no, I still don’t do either. I still wouldn’t even if it were graded.

Wash room or bathroom? Bathroom. Now: I use both.

Do you want to get married? Someday! Now: ‘S all I’m looking forward to.

Who was your High School crush? I’m only in my freshman year, but I’m having this crazy, suicidal infatuation with CM Punk. Now: I wish I could talk to 14 year old Robyn and tell her how delusional she sounded in her first few surveys. This is why Punk blocked you on Twitter sis. Anyway, Gab was my high school crush through and through, but I didn’t start liking her til about halfway through sophomore year.

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? I don’t, but when I want things to go my way and they don’t, I give everyone the silent treatment and roll my eyes every like, two seconds. Now: No I don’t, I just keep quiet until it fizzles out.

Do you have kids? No. Now: Nope.

Do you want kids? Yes. Now: Yep.

What kind of mom are you? …I’m a mom!? Now: ...Still not a mom.

Do you miss anyone right now? Sure. Now: Always do.

Who do you want to see right now? No one really. Now: My girlfriend.