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narwhalandchill · 6 months ago

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oh omg this is such a great addition like disjointed what??? nooo ur golden i loved reading this sm thank uuu for adding to the discussion!!! i love talking abt this dude

bc like. honestly. i havent really even Thought abt the mechanics behind how the specific lie came to be and like. as u say. it really is just such a stupid fucking choice for a cover story its kinda insane . i have already been obsessed over how Bad this entire teucer debacle is and reading this made me realize its even Worse ajax & co what is your problem 😭😭 seriously

i rly love how u thought thru the logistics of the toyseller thing man like childe coming up with this whole thing when hes younger and more rash and Not thinking things through and very much like. making this clumsy out-of-touch attempt at Figuring Out whats cool with the Kids (TM) these days in a more or less genuine attempt to connect w teucer and impress him somehow except its really not that. Great. makes So much sense omg. him coming up w the whole thing on the spot... its so cringe hes such an embarrassment. what is he Doing

and then instead of interfering to correct the story or like. talk with ajax abt this whole deal his family kinda just. doesnt step in at all. like is the subject of childes employment and life in the fatui THAT much of a fucking taboo in this dysfunctional household ???? that they cant even hold a single proper conversation about how to handle the harbinger in the room?? theyre so horrible 💀

ALSO I KNOWWW abt just saying hes in the fatui like DUDE thats basically just the snezhnayan government + military + foreign policy dept + etc amalgamation??? theres probably Multiple families in morepesok who have kids employed in the fatui as a perfectly normal thing not even necessarily serving as combatants but in like. logistics and homeland security and such. like stuff that is Very easy to explain as a temporary white lie to a kid like teucer and then slowly graduate into getting closer to the truth of it

and YES childe has a very good reputation for a harbinger!!!! like now that u brought it up its just. holds head in hands. his stupid fucking lie got like 12 times worse after i read ur points what the hell KJWDJKWJKDDWJK

Like. to bring up a few.

he has popularized a Whole fucking fishing gadget. CANONICALLY. in snezhnaya. just bc he uses it a lot and the people saw him using it and went fucking wild for it like omgggg a lord harbinger endorses this product We MUST have it!!!!

theres one of those mini jokey comics Literally showing how Jarringly chill and nice childe is to those who work w him and how the agent whose pov its from just highkey puppy crushes on how unexpectedly charming and not-unreasonably-demanding-or-threatening he is like 😭😭 its still one of my favorites

HE CANONICALLY ATTENDS AND SOMETIMES EVEN DOES PUBLIC PERFORMANCES???? like. yes its hard to say how much these people know abt his actual job description (make life hell for snezhnayas enemies by being a walking chaos disaster problem magnet who has Great fun thriving in the eye of the storm he brings) but. hes definitely not getting rotten tomatoes thrown at him

so like. yes. they couldve just So Easily leaned in to telling teucer hes in the fatui and working overseas and slowly ease into the truth. like i get that maybe leaving the harbinger thing out entirely might still be better but. compared to his colleagues. childes street cred should be WAY sufficient enough to outright acknowledge. but like do his parents even know any of this shit or do they just refuse to even look up who their son is now???????? so many fucking questions

and like. yes. yes. SO much of this is on his parents too and like. for me i try to emphatize w them in the sense that like. realistically. both his parents and likely his older siblings (+ other ppl from morepesok who were closely involved with Ajax 14 Disaster Era) might well be just. actually traumatized to varying degrees from what happened bc as ive said. its just a horror movie from their pov. so like i do think there is a very human and understandable component to how dysfunctional and non-communicative this family ended up in the aftermath of everything but it doesnt rly take away from how Bad it still is (esp since the one suffering from it now is teucer whos completely innocent). but thats why im so obsessed w the entire thing too like man. chef kiss. its such a messy tragedy

ik that hoyo most likely wont want to go This deep into the horror of this particular family so like canons contributions to this subject will prolly be limited at best but . at least for Now i am free to speculate and imagine All i want and it really just is so scrumptious. i rly do hope we get at least some information on the whole situation in the future tho

spicy take incoming but i kinda wish ppl werent so desperately attached to and protective of this moniker of Great Big Brother 100% Perfect So True And Real when it comes to childe bc honestly. he really isnt (perfect or even that good at times) and to me acknowledging the ways both he and his family (for enabling him) are in some ways kinda just. doing teucer incredibly dirty in the long term but only with the best of intentions in the short term is so much more interesting than just pretending hes a flawless brother?? like it only adds to the drama and irony of it all man like theyre rly so dysfunctional as a family unit its great. even if hoyos likely never exploring that shit in its true depth it still lives rent free in my head for sure lol

like. you rly dont have to turn ajax into some sort of unfeeling uncaring monster of a shit brother to acknowledge that he does, in fact, repeatedly make incredibly reckless and selfish choices during his SQ with teucer and in general by choosing to obstruct the truth of who he is from lil bro so completely?

like this stuff can be nuanced and coexist with his absolutely 100% genuine commitment to protecting teucers bubble of a worldview (and w the theme of childlike dreams and wishes being so prevalent in general who knows what could be cooking w that one in particular) and his loyalty and love for his family without just having to whitewash the dumb shit he does lmao

like just bc hes capable of and willing to face the potentially grave repercussions of absolute bangers (🙄🙄) like teaching an actual fucking child to consider ruin machines fun besties and 100% insta ready to fuck himself up by protecting teucer at the cost of aggravating his still-unhealed injuries from the liyue AQ when dottores abandoned lab turns out to be more lively than expected doesnt. make that choice not a very irresponsible one yall im begging 💀

like. hes the adult here . the entire situation unfolding as dangerously as it does in the factory is Absolutely all on HIM for not being able and/or willing to disappoint teucer by just . Doing the mature thing and sending him away to safety because HES gotten too attached to this idea of being his lil siblings' loyal knight and perfect brother that Always finds a way to surpass the expectations no matter the cost its a role HE wants to keep playing despite the risk

like its So obviously a pride thing for him too and thats so fucking interesting because Of how flawed and questionable the logic is!! like yes he truly cares about teucer and ensuring he has a great unforgettable time during this impromptu escapade in liyue like thats not up to debate but the point im trying to make is that the choices he makes are Still very much intertwined with his ego and overconfidence and not really based all that much on Whats Actually The Best Approach Here. he improvises a way to give teucer the best mr cyclops outing he has ever seen bc HE wants to be the one offering him that experience and ends up biting off a bit more than he can chew and he can only blame himself for that one and This Isnt Fucking Sustainable

like i dont think that makes him evil but i do think it showcases his arrogance and flaws in a very concrete way and is a part of why calling him a perfect brother or at least one without an asterix just. rubs me off wrong lmao

like idk feel free to keep calling him that if its important to u and all if u want idc (and i do to some extent get why this defensive narrative of insisting hes great no issues at all emerged bc i remember 1.1 some ppl acting like hes childcare satan for how he treats teucer lol) but. at least like . Be willing to chip in to fund the therapy teucers going to need for those lifelong trust issues in the future man 💀

Bc Thats The Other Thing. now tonia and anthon i dont consider a part of this bc at least they Know hes in the fatui and hiding the gory details of ur harbinger job from ur baby sibs is like. fair enough and reasonable. but. crafting an Entire different AU version of yourself and feeding it to your baby brother as what constitutes actual reality surely is a choice of all times like ajax ily but genuinely . What the fuck if you were real id throttle you

AND HIS FAMILY ENABLING IT THE ENTIRE TIME ITS CRAZY LIKE. As a person with multiple siblings both older n younger with some similar age gap cohorts involved. God id snitch so fucking fast i dont think ppl rly stop and think much abt how objectively horrifying this shit is from teucers long term pov 😭 in the best way obviously given its fiction like its so scrumptiously awful and dysfunctional .

(& just in general man im just so obsessed with the way ajax 14 basically broke the eggshell of his past life and emerged to rise towards his destiny drowned in the guts and gore of the place and people and community he once called home unconditionally. Bro he fucked that town UP and now his family relations will never ever be the same its so fucking Delicious. those 3 days missing and what followed are just Actually a literal fucking horror movie when you stop blindly stanning our ginger menace, forget ajax' side and take the pov of his family and morepesok in general Why Are People Not Talking About This)

like. its not that i dont understand Why this is sth childe ended up doing as i said Thats The Point. its human. teucer is the only one in the family who wasnt there during that fateful 3 days/months . Like yea anthon and tonia were prolly sheltered from most of the carnage back then too but they still Know where he was sent when he became literally uncontrollable and almost killed the neighbors (everybody & their mom loves demonizing his parents as if his demon spawn ass left them a fucking choice JFEJSJSJSKDKS) . like its at least Known.

but then theres teucer.

And like. teucers the Only one with whom ajax can even pretend to have that delusion (ha) of normalcy and a family that hasnt seen him gaze into the abyss and stare back bloodied and grinning ear to ear . like. hes the only shot childe can have at even playacting some crude imitation of normalcy before Everything and even That comes with an expiration date hes fully aware of. so theres just lies after lies after lies and the fact that even his family just. if not actively partaking in the charade then at least silently allows the entirety of it to happen to teucer whos the Only fucking one out of the loop is just..... dude its not fair on him At All

Misleading teucer THIS much is just. its fucking horrible man but i GET it. thats why its so delicious man i GET it but god its just . imagine being teucer in this situation.... thats his entire fucking World shattered once the truth comes out. Everyone close to him has been lying to him his entire time. They all knew and they let him be misled. Like sure he might be happier Now with ajax dutifully protecting that childhood dream of his but after that. Just. sit on this for a bit. after everything do we Really think teucers just going to understand why it came to be and see it as worth it???? Will he really????

yet at the same time as awfully cruel it all is its just So human!!!!! Its so human of both ajax and his family to use the innocence of the only child that was spared the aftermath of worlds best/worst 3 month abyss training camp to indulge in this flawed false reality where their third son didnt walk into the void and come back hungry for More until only the fatui could take him and even then it only spurred him on further on that path. Like its all an act and a lie and its just. Not fucking fair on teucer but hes still doing it and theyre letting him even tho they Know it wont last theyre all looking teucer in the eye every day and letting him believe like man....

like in both the entire ruin factory sequence And in general hiding the truth from teucer as extensively as childe does hes being incredibly selfish but at the same time its selfishness only rly in the way all people are when it comes to Wanting to be seen a certain way by the ones they love and care about. and thats what makes it so interesting. bc as much as the choices he makes are dubious (or like. this decision makes sense to him. a morally bisexual total omnivore ethics-wise narwhalpilled since 14 who sees exclusively in abyss shrimp colors and acts accordingly) both they and the motivations behind them are also just. So very human ones . as terrible as the implications and eventual inevitable downfall of those choices can (will) be.

like. is it not that much more fascinating to consider all the ways that childe is neither a particularly exemplary nor an egregiously bad brother just one that. Happens to be wired weird in the head and proud and flawed and with a track record of heavily suspect decision-making but that also very much genuinely loves his family man. Like i can love that about him without dismissing the fact that theres parts to how hes treating teucer that 100% can and imo rly should backfire horrifically bc. It really just is that fucked up

hes not a good brother hes Worse AMD better than that and also not alone in this like. his family is an active fucking part of this . But like still . Is he trying his best with his abyss shrimp colored vision ? Yes. Is his love genuine? Absolutely. What are the marks? 3/10 meet me in the office after class mister youre just actually horrible (affectionate) 😭

A perfect brother? Not My Ajax man 🗣🗣 and like theres SO MUCH to explore in that it makes me so sad you just. Never see any of it p much in fanworks bc we all just call him best bro and whatever and thats that like its so sad. this family is terrible horrible awful and no good and they deserve it but also didnt deserve it it was misfortune it was fate it was inevitable . justice for teucer man i need to get him in therapy asap

#anyway yeah. shocker moment from me this response got long too but . THANK U FOR THIS ITS GREAT #(stashes this away in my childeposting tag so i profit off of ur banger observations like a scheming schemer) KJJDWJKWDJKWDJK #man. i just cant get the image out of my head of. ajax like. what. 17. completely absorbed in his dream life #of choosing violence and the thrill of battle every day and getting paid for it in the fatui #and then teucer happens its just freeze record scratch like. what. what do. ch. children like. (bc its just. so far removed from him NOW)#toys????? toys????????? yeah that checks im a fukcing genius (is not) 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#bro is so out of touch. abyss shrimp colors narwhalpilled he couldve called himself Anything. adventurer like his dad used to be. Anything #ajax pre maturing closer to his 20s is actually such a cringe edgelord to me i have a v distinct view on how his self awareness came to be #he was just teenage hubris and egomania bass boosted and enabled by the government and just lost in the sauce of that euphoria #fight me on this. he was an embarrassment . being a funny just a guy with a uncanny good work life balance and self awareness came Later #as did the gradual reconciliation (not rly tho its more a silent dysfunctional truce) w his family and showing his face in morepesok again #but thats a whole other thing dwkjjdwkjwjd #genshin #rambles #childeposting #discussion

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werewolf-girlfriend · 1 year ago

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ive been enabled so let me share some of my thoughts on how to get ur art noticed online

if u want Engagement on ur posts then i believe that its critical to make people care about ur art. the easiest way to do this is to appeal to something they already care about, like fandom, aesthetics/subculture, current events, having fun (people love humor!). a harder but perhaps more fulfilling route is to talk about ur own ocs and projects enough until people start caring about them too

theres an infinite amount of topics people care about out there so id suggest picking something u already care about urself and channel ur art energy there. trying to make art for the most popular things out there regardless own interests is an exercise in misery, id advise against it..! if im allowed to get superstitious for a moment, i do believe that even untrained eyes can tell whether a piece of art was fun to work on or a chore. and besides! if ur having fun then its easier to create more, and the more u create the more chances ull have at getting lucky and having a post seen :)

on a very related note, art is a way to communicate ideas so the quality of the idea being presented in a piece of art is paramount to how popular a post will be. what i mean by this is that technical skill isnt the primary determinant of a posts popularity. if all your posts are portraits of original characters then people will have a hard time connecting with your posts and theyll keep scrolling, even if those portraits are masterpieces! the major exception to this is probably other artists, who ive found usually have a greater appreciation for the technical side of art (we can only speculate as to why..!)

lemme finish by saying that making popular posts and being good at art are two entirely different skillsets, ive seen many incredibly skilled artists with jack shit for notes because they dont give people a reason to care about their stuff NOT TO MENTION its a huge game of luck whether a post will get seen. so dont go insane in pursuit of recognition!

(i dont want to make this post too long so ive included examples from my own art and their note counts with my analysis after the break)

hello and welcome to the extracurricular segment to this post :) i bring yall two pieces from my art blog @werewolf-artfriend:

here we have a portrait of my fursona that im still proud of and a sketch suggesting "what if sniffers (from minecraft) were the size of mountains?" (let it be noted that the sniffer sketch was posted right during the minecraft mob vote = peak interest in the subject of sniffers).

the portrait at the time of writing has a crisp 30 notes, whilst the sniffer sketch has over 2000 notes. from the same artist, on the same blog, posted only a few months apart. i believe this is a good example both of the power of a piece of art having an interesting idea at its core AND of a piece appealing to the interests of the masses

this is of course just two convenient example posts, but i have experienced fan art of popular topics getting thousands of notes a couple of times now, amidst my other furry shit that these days get around 200-300 notes in comparison

this may sound like a really long winded way of saying "fan art make the world go round" but i just want to point out the nuances that

1) it matters what u make fan art of: if a fandom is small or dormant (waiting on new canon content for example) then clearly less people will be excited about the fan art you make. dont expect 10k notes on ur post if the average recent post in the fandom gets around 200 etc etc

2) it doesnt have to be fan art! ive also had some of my bird art get thousands of notes because people simply like birds :) and this applies to ANY topic people care about! the world rly is your oyster on this one

anyway i think ive started rambling dhgdjhgd thanks if u read this far! i hope i got my point across! and if ur feeling down about ur art not being seen then just keep at it okay! keep creating and keep having fun! keep sharing ur ideas and perspectives with the world and ur audience will eventually find u! i love you!

#i dont know if this stuff is obvious but i was like :o when i started viewing things this way! i think it makes sense!#i honestly still have more thoughts on this subject + some more practical advice from my experience #but ive never written a long talk-y post before so uh maybe another day <3 #isa speaks

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seelestia · 7 months ago

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who are a few mutuals that you appreciate alot? mutual appreciation day 🥰❤️😊🤩💐✨

OOOO FUNFUNFUN!!! thank u so much for sending this in and for essentially spreading positivity, nonnie. this is appreciated ♡ also, instead of strictly moots, i decided to extend my appreciation to everyone! moots, anons, friends and readers alike ໒꒰ྀི´ ˘ ` ꒱ྀིა

some odeliaesqué sappy appreciation under the cut:

@yvnaology - one of my fav facts abt yona was that she's one of the first moots i ever had on tumblr!!! and she's a lyney kisser and a fellow aventurine kisser (#taste). also she's so silly (/aff) and easy to talk to! like u'll feel at ease around her. she deserves good great and awesome things in life, so make sure to water ur yona daily with love <3

@solarisfortuneia - mika wished me congrats when i reached 1k and i still remember it till this day <3 she's friendly in a shy/modest way and suchsuchsuch a good writer! e.g. i cry over this every day actually. mika also has her silly moments sometimes too. someone save her /j

@floraldresvi - simply the sweetest & most supportive moot EVER! vivi is full of love and she's good at giving some of that love to others <3 her selfships are like bottles of serotonin to me. 100% would drop anything and everything in my hands to support her!!! and ik she'd do the same for me <3 mwah mwah 💐💐

@monicahar - the moot who comes online once in a while and drops absolute meals when she does. ate, left no crumbs 🔥🔥 also SUPER FUNNY!!! and unhinged, i'm concerned but amused at the same time. i hope she's having a nice break!! thank u for ur past & future services ma'am. we love u 🤭🤭

@milk-violet - MIREI !!! sunshine personified but also vv precious. i'm the leader of # protecc mirei squad (real). best person to have ever appeared in my notifs and i lovelovelove when her username pops up. take care & good luck with school! IK U CAN DO IT. remember what i said: slay before ur slayed 🗣️

@xianyoon - the butterfly moot 🦋 !!! both socially and aesthetically hehe. sosooso sweet & kind. has creative projects and executes them well at that too. i personally crown her as genshinblr's best hostess™! also, send her a moodboard and she'll cherish u forever - that's one of her love languages <3 ++ her pretty & aesthetic rb's are such a good refresh for my dash. love her for it!!

@hermosacolibri - the name, 'starlight' fits them sm bcs i feel like if we were to take a peek into their mind, stars will burst out!!! /pos (<- unique complimenting skills ik pardon me). their ideas are brilliant and i can tell they put their all into pursuing their vision <3 it's truly an honor to be a witness & reader. if u want to check them out, they write over at @/starlightlacrimosazpsff !!! ★

@wolfhookk - aaaaa ri !!!! booping her x1000 rn bcs i cannot believe boop trend ended when she came online. the discrimination 😔 /j i'll always remember ri as my first ever moot on here like first, 1st, #1!!! i forever thank her for swooping into my inbox back then and she's welcome to do that even now any time she likes <3

@kaiserkisser - skylia is the true angst consumer, the realest of it!! even in different fandoms LOL. she's nice (and gremlin-ish) when u get to know her more and she reciprocates energy really well! i'll never forget the disaster of boops in my notifs /lh

@callilouv - COOL MUTUAL ALERT !!!! cool art & cool interests. truly, picasso w/ the finger and fandoms!! idk if cal still draws with his finger dhjahshsj but still vv mega cool!

@manager-of-the-pudding-bank - the grandpas & old men kisser where art thou 💔 /j loqua has that awkward & silly rizz!!! idk if she still does wax stamps but i still think it's really cool. bcs qua's just cool in general !!! hehe

@calxlu - aaaaa vi!!! the one who enables my rambles and selfships shhshsh i am so thankful <3 rambler 🤝 rambler is the best. i love talking to her and it's super reassuring to know that it's mutual! even if i take some time but i always look forward to seeing her replies in my inbox. it's like we're penpals across the screen talking abt irl stuff and our f/o's ꒰✿´ ꒳ ` ꒱♡

& honorable mention: @/zhongrin. rin does not interact with minors anymore (which i respect and so should everyone!), so we count as former moots. but !!! i still think she's an amazing person regardless <3 (note: her blog is equally as great but plsplspls be mindful of her rules beforehand.)

brainrot anon - A REAL ONE!!! always there when i come back from the grave each time. i get reminded of them whenever i look at my inbox, it's an instinct atp. their brainrots are so fun & random (but that's a charm in itself /pos) !!! tbh i love elaborating them all so never stop sending the brainworms in <3 feel free to treat my inbox as a drop-off for ur thoughts LMAO /gen. come by again soon!

michiki anon - MY COUSINNNMNMN!!! i still love and miss when they'd come into my inbox to chat. it was so nice getting to know someone in a casual way <3 i hope ur doing well wherever u are, michikinon! i'm doing well these days and i hope u are too 🤍

rix anon - their series still has me FLOOOORED. i still think it deserves a proper platform than just thru my lil ol inbox. it deserves more recognition :( but just the fact that i got to help share their writing alone is an honor of its own!!! i hope ur doing well too, rix anon <3

++ everyone who has left a nice feedback / said anything nice in my notifs or my inbox!! even a simple 'cute' or 'this is good' or even just leaving a note means sososo much to me. i'm just a measly guy in my own little corner on this site, really - so thank u thank u thank u all !!! 🫂

#SORRY FOR THE PINGS Y'ALL 😵#this is giving 'end-of-the-year post' energy LOL (it's literally the end of april)#but yes why not <33 #ask box! 📬#anon visitors!

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kyuummie · 5 months ago

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I am absolutely insane abt c!TNT duo, and don’t have anyone irl talk to abt them :[. Pls info dump to me abt c!TNT duo and pls bestow upon me any and all c!TNT duo headcanons that u have. It’d absolutely make my day (also, ur pretty cool and I like ur Tumblr)

i am SO mad i had entire PARAGRAPHS OF AN ANSWER to this but it didnt save as a draft. TWICE. Anyways i finally decided to check my inbox..!!!!!!!!!!

And thank you! im not creative when it comes to hcs so heres ramble about metaphors and comparisons that are canonical/headcanon for ctntduo. Would base this on canon divergent interpretations but Nah

1- yin/yang

very obvious. “he is my yang”. recognizable and iconic. Two opposites which bring harmony. self perpetuating cycle of two interconnected sides.

the self perpetuating part is very important. it has always been established that they have a push and pull for everything, because they relish in the other’s reactions and its almost instinct. it all started this way too, their upbringing puts them in a very strange position slash relationship. they “balance” each other out — rather,, they teeter on a tightrope keeping them entertained and enabled . they are sides of the same coin, and complement the other. they always have a quick witty quip ready for the other’s petty insults, so so predictable. they dont keep harmony and peace between them, more so a light to keep them going similar to a smoker lighting cigarettes over and over again (insert the 10000 arts of wil lighting his cig with Qs light and vice versa. my fave ever) its close to an addiction, they need each other to keep running and flowing in the most unconventional ways they can find. if you look carefully, they are always circling enabling balancing each other

2- fire/light/burning

i like the metaphor of cwil being under the spotlight of people's perception .. sure, its cool to finally be able to see and interact with people but Q is different. he isnt and never will be afraid of wil. he is only "unpredictable" to him. freakishly enough this is also entertaining to Q. what will he destroy next? graffiti next? say next? do next? he cant help himself but to react. wil on the other hand will do anything to get a petty reaction from Q, to get his precious eyes on him that makes him burn in the light. tearing each other apart then rebuilding each other is an important component of their relationship me thinks

3- president/vice president

usually, i tjink this is a concept used to try and dethrone the other of their humongous egos and get that feeling of a win lol its all about reaction

their relationship is so interesting and weird because of the fact they wanted to over throw the other in politics — i dont think you see two POLITICAL rivals have that homoerotic tension often … anywhere! but i think its so funny that they became a version of the other further down the line (menace -> president, president -> menace) and it also goes back to the yinyang, over time and under certain conditions one can become the other because the other will always be present in the other. (like yin contains yang vice versa)

4- cannibalism Sorry /j

ok this is Strictly fanon. does this count as a headcanon i dont know.

if anyone remmeberes there was a certain point over on ctnttwt a handful of people were crazy for cannibalism ctnt go read whispers of blood and love. recently its become a not too uncommon/pretty popular characteristic for oc ships etc. of course its usually metaphorical in (ctnt) art and sometimes written but the act of giving yourself up completely to another to become a part of them goes pretty well with the psychology of ctnt/the game they play so i very much see the vision when people use this concept to depict Wil’s “devotion” (i guess? idk Refer back to ‘I am your servant’) to stay w Q in order to keep feeling that feeling of being “alive”.

it also goes hand in hand with quackitys want for power over people/things from beinng deprived of it in his earlier days. biggest stretch ever but also his capitalistic ideals to consume consume consume. and wil is willing to give him that opportunity because it is beneficial to him as well. horrible mutualism psa guys dont eat your boyfriend

these r mostly cwilbur centric mb. i also hate being wrong Which is why i hate having HCs. but why should i when theyre practically my ocs and the whole point of hcs is that theyre YOUR canon but oh well

anyone and everyone add on if u Like. Humble me if im wrong idc

#ctntduo #Woah havent dont that in a long time.#its been literally 3 months #cw cannibalism #kind of #its only like mentioned not described #kae infodump #kae asks

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aztarion · 9 months ago

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3, 14 & 16 for deva and mason plzzzzz 💜

*twirls hair* omg hi rowen.. thank u for enabling me <3

3. Do they wear each other’s clothes? (sweatshirt, bandana, necklace, etc.)

honestly not really… i could see dev stealing a shirt and maybe his jacket sometimes but thats obligatory.. however she is a big believer in eyeliner and black nail polish herself so when he’s feeling it you know she’ll be peddling it off to him

14. How do their personalities compliment each other? How do they clash?

oooh they are both super contrary but in a similar way which most of the time has them sharing views & opinions or rather lack of views & opinions on things until it’s something to do with tackling baggage and confronting feelings...

dev is blunt & does not beat around the bush when it comes to flirting or her job (when it suits her), which is def something he relates to and appreciates in the beginning. she’s also pretty irreverent and sarcastic (thanks rook) and especially in book 1 & 2 is quite volatile temper-wise, and so on occasion will not gaf and just say whatever, which amuses him (and greatly distresses Nate). she’s got that F Hauville no filter blabbermouth but without ANY of the charm 😭

once the initial hostilities between them settle over book 1 and mutual attraction is the more precedent elephant in the room, they have a pretty good dynamic in that they just GET and respect each other and don’t push — unless it’s pushing buttons (each others — he likes that she dishes it back as much as he does — and poor Nate’s rip).

they absolutely share a prickly independence and preference for solitude, and value their autonomy. ironically they are both pretty perceptive and emotionally intelligent — just EXTREMELY bad at processing that and later putting it into words — definitely where the clashing eventually comes in. loyalty and trust are huge for them and unfortunately the two biggest problems — where Mason is slow to gain in those (but it’s happening and he’s not fighting it, just confused), Deva is dragging her heels kicking and screaming (mostly figuratively). She refuses to get emotionally attached — even to the rest of UB, and would never consider reconnecting w Rebecca either. the gradually more playful/teasing tilt to whatever dev and mason have going on is definitely a testament to how comfortable she is becoming w him but she has big abandonment and commitment issues, and his ignorance to his own feelings kinda amps up her denial, so she’s stuck in this grudge-y cycle of avoidance of any sort of open communication throughout book 3 while he’s kind of just 🗿🗿🗿 wtf-ing his way through whatever’s going on.

(Ok tangent but she is actually the result of me being bored and wanting to do a literal chaos run of twc ages ago 😭 refusing the tests, stirring shit up, bad relationship w mom and the agency, insulting them being vampires, lots of terrible decisions and worst scenarios 😭😭 and it was so fun lmao i just kinda started building around it)

i think ive rambled too much I literally start giving a press conference in my room when I think about them. Sad!

16. Can they stay up all night just talking?

you know what, dev probably could but i dont think mason has that many words in him and i think she would drive him to decking her with pheromones again just for peace. but would they? earlier on, definitely not. they like their space and are usually respectful of each others. later though, maybe, but it would be extremely rare and likely due to something emotionally charged happening, and dev would still be doing most of the talking. oh they can absolutely stay up all night doing other stuff though

#ask #oc pussy indulgence #btw i restarted the sadie/ava drawing bc i found new brushes and its looking so mych better T_T sadie <333 my search history at 4 am #was 4 different tabs of fishing rod references #WOAH FORGOT THE READ MORE #x: entombed

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antirqclover · 7 months ago

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Hi!! Good to see you've gotten out of that community! I'm so happy to see you getting better! :D

FIRST ASK HAIII!! also thank u, ive been working alot on myself and while ik i probably still have a ways to go i Have made a lot of progress honestly. after that community enabled me so much i had to get more intensive therapy, i was actually hospitalized, and im on more intensive meds. sure, my year long manic episode is definitely to blame, but the rq community enabled so much of my behavior until i hit rock bottom and was (kind of forcefully) hospitalized by a family member (it helped a lot though thank you tio 🙌🏻)

AGHH SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE, tldr i was hospitalized and the rq community enabled me in the biggest manic episode i ever had

#cw psych ward #anti rq 🌈🍓#anti 🌈🍓#anti radqueer

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fearforthestorm · 1 year ago

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I AM ASKING U ABOUT THE SYMBOLISM IN THE JENNY PATCHES

I am SO glad you asked :D please allow me to ramble for. way too long probably. (original post this is in reference to)

Let's start with Thief because that's the one that I nailed down the design for first. In this design: an hourglass almost out of time, a ring of three keys - a house key, a car key, and a skeleton key - and a compass keychain.

Jenny the Thief is the one who held the gate as long as she could before vanishing into the night, the one who traded in her old car for a custom Kawasaki to leave behind a no-longer-safe house (ring of keys). Thief is the one who didn't know her time was up until it had gone, the one who had to live through everything ending to understand how it happened (hourglass). When she left, it wasn't towards anywhere particular, just away from here, pick a direction and run (compass). Additional note for the skeleton key specifically: that one is mostly for me, because I wear a key like that on a necklace and I thought it fit nicely, but also it's for places and stories we can only guess at, events locked outside the scope of the narrative.

I had a lot more trouble nailing down the design for Warrior - it went through a few iterations. The original one had a sword and a pen: battles to fight and stories to tell. I talked with my friend Sunny @paladinboyfriend for a little while about it, bouncing around ideas; ey said something about Jenny being a bastion of hope glowing like a lighthouse, but burning too bright and consuming herself in the process, and I decided to go with a lighter as a modern analogue to that.

To me, Jenny the Warrior is the kind of person that everybody knows someone like - a couple years older than you and leagues more confident, a steadfast support who's always ready for anything and has just the tool for whatever problem arises ("also jenny is butch, so there's that" - Sunny). She's not an ancient hero, she's here and now, a warrior with a motorcycle and a leather jacket and a house where you can crash for as long as you need. So she gets a pocketknife instead of a sword and a lighter instead of a torch, tools for someone who protects and guides. A pen for countless unknown stories lived and told, for lines drawn and lines held for as long as she could. I added a carabiner attached to the knife (which, yes I know you wouldn't do that irl, it's about the design) because I felt like it filled out the design a little bit, and also, again, in my heart jenny is butch, and it felt like a nice little nod to that.

For both designs, I used the same flat color palette of gold, off-white, and a dark warm gray, since those are the general colors of the album color. I also used a thick and slightly textured brush for the lineart, because I like the slightly more flawed and organic feel it gave the pieces.

I think that's pretty much it, but I can probably come up with more to say about specific aspects of the designs if there's anything else you're curious about! thank you so much for asking and enabling my rambling about this set of drawings :D

#.lyr #ask #the mountain goats #jenny from thebes #long post #i <3 symbolism i <3 things that mean other things #id in alt text #kes tag #<- resident symbolism enjoyer enjoys symbolism; to the surprise of absolutely no one <3

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a-tiny-sloth · 1 year ago

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i understood the web weaving post but i wanna hear you ramble about it anyways

thank u for enabling me as always thunder <3

this is ridiculously long, i tried my best at formatting it so it's easy to read, hope it is. still putting a cut here

for the first verse (black hole opened in the kitchen/every clock's a different time/it would only take the energy to fix it/i don't know why i am) i first chose one of the things jimmy says to piero in the phonecall at the party, which essentially boils down to "i don't know who i am" because i liked the idea of the last and first line somewhat mirroring each other (parallelism babyyy i love my rhetorical devices), but also that juxtaposition of the who/why. essentially, phoebe (or better, the poetic persona) and jimmy are both feeling stuck here and questioning themselves. that's also why i chose the friday joan of arc quote next (it is true i wished to escape; and so i wish still; is not this lawful for all prisoners?): to drive home that feeling of being stuck

for the first chorus (the way i am/not strong enough to be your man/i tried, i can't/stop staring at the ceiling fan and spinning out about things that haven't happened/breathing in and out) i chose a quote from when jimmy starts to dissociate during the meet and greet (but i'm gone, i'm already gone, i'm up above the three of us and gazing down at the three bodies and wondering who on earth decided that these three pathetically flawed human beings deserved so much worship) because of a) the "not strong enough to be your man" bit (he's not strong enough to face them and questions if he's even worth their worship), b) the whole "staring at the ceiling fan" line fits jimmy's anxiety perfectly and c) i just thought it was neat to have the juxtaposition of the rethorical persona of not strong enough staring up and jimmy staring down. the next line (hold the crucifix up before my eyes so i may see it until i die) is then supposed to fit with both of the other quotes, the ceiling fan and crucifix mirroring each other and the idea of worship/religion in jimmy's line being reiterated here

i skipped the second verse for lack of good lines to compare it to lmao

for the second chorus (the way i am/not strong enough to be your man/i lied, i am/just lowering your expectations/half a mind that keeps the other second-guessing/close my eyes and count) i chose another quote from the phonecall (everywhere i go, everything i do... i'm lying. i'm pretending. and everyone's watching me... waiting for me to get it wrong) for the similar themes of lies/dealing with others expectations/second-guessing yourself

for the bridge (always an angel, never a god) i chose a fereshteh quote where she calls jimmy an angel (but god, if anyone's the angel around here, it's him) because duh (but it is interesting to note that jimmy is very much called a god in iwbft... food for thought)

and finally, for the last chorus (i don't know why i am/there's something in the static/i think i've been having revelations/coming to in the front seat, nearly empty/skip the exit to our old street and go home/go home alone) i chose part of jimmy's and fereshteh's dialogue at st pancras ('home?' 'i want to go home.' 'like... like your apartment?' 'no,' i say. 'home. my actual home. where i grew up.') mostly as a juxtaposition because while the poetical persona is going home alone, jimmy takes someone with him. ultimately there's still mirroring tho, because they both want to go home (find peace?). and finally, the last line (i was in my thirteenth year when i heard a voice from god) is again supposed to fit with both of the other quotes, through "i've been having revelations" vs. the voice from god and through "where i grew up" vs. "when i was in my thirteenth year"

anyways, i think it's obvious not strong enough and iwbft are highly comparable due to religious imagery/anxiety/self-worth issues etc etc and i mostly just had fun here

#can u tell i like the word juxtaposition a normal amount #shoutout to my german and latin teachers for embedding a strong love for rhetorical devices and literary analysis in me #i'm also incapable of brevity and not really sorry for it #thanks again thunder <3 #iwbft #boygenius #osemanverse #noah's stuff

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diodellet · 5 months ago

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*slides in*

How about 3, 16, 17 and 29 for the fic writer asks?

omg i didnt think id ramble this much (thank u for enabling me ner 🤧💕💕)

3. how you feel about your current WIP

tbh i'm not super confident about my writing any time i come out from from a long long hiatus of not posting anything. also like… i'm not super confident writing other charas aside from jamil since i don't really think ab them as much… (sorry leona-natics* whenever this drabble gets posted, but like fingers crossed the sitch will hopefully be exciting enough)

*i think it might have to do with the fact that i kinda hc leona on the grayspec++have more vv specific hc characterizations i like of him, but ig i do see his appeal (one of m'oomfs is a leona-natic and well ahu her propaganda might've been subconsciously assimilated)

but ahaha i tend to write things that i'm very personally interested in so i'll find a way to have fun with it, i'll be gucci i just get too into my head, it's a vicious cycle as a writer.

16. favorite place to write

uhhh im a very sedentary person, probably a result from the pandemic, and being a thorough homebody even after that

hmm i would say id like a nice ambient public place with coffeeeee my blood my life force Some amount of people engrossed in their own work, but like in the ph, esp in a place populated by a lot of uni students, cafes end up being hella cold (im skin and bones the cold is Evil)++noisy (which i don't see as a big bad thing esp since i like socializing with my friends...at the cost of putting off my own writing oops HAHAHA)

17. talk about your writing and editing process

oh boy. here we go. one thing to note throughout all this: my only consistent practice as a writer is inconsistency. (and ig, if i try hard enough, i can usually put out a passable 200-300 words in one sitting)

sometimes i can outline a fic and take forever chipping away at it

^^(case in point: that sebek x vampire!reader x silver fic... i joked abt waiting until book 7 would drop on EN but it has been Stuck. i wanna write bi-disaster sebek so bad though 🤧🤧)

other times my actual writing veers waaaaay into a diff plotpoint instead of what i have plotted out

^^(there're these 2 now-removed bullet points in wcidfy's outline for ch 3 that went: "do i have the balls to write a fever scene… gaguhan anhirap nito pag walang ob [tl: fuck this is hard (to write) without overblots]" and "i also keep thinking of a scene in the (scarabia) gardens…and lying about bees…weird")

and sometimes i can just shit out 1k-ish words unprompted.

^^though this last example leads to my most rough writing++editing ('ily but leave me tf alone' and 'no id rather pretend'), i only look over for immediate errors, but keep iffy-phrasings and repeated words, but sometimes i still miss incomplete sentences that i jus quickly fix after posting ahahaha.

in terms of my more "polished" writing, i edit as i write (<- i do Not recommend this style. it's very unsustainable if ur planning to do more conventional writing/publishing and it's very easy to get trapped in your writer's block)

and after finishing 80% of it, i try to get a second pair of eyes on it (thanks @jessamine-rose mwaps) because validation of works in progress feels good it also helps to have a trusted outside person look at the work with fresher eyes. also smtimes we get into bouncing ideas back nd forth that we spawn new brainrot lmao like this👇

i like to call my writing a "semi-polished first draft" partly out of self-defense and self-criticism. but really, i think i'd rather have "good enough" writing posted than "my best" because i could spend forever hoarding my wips. i think i'll always have regrets over not fleshing out certain beats/using certain phrasings and references, but i also enjoy looking back on my writing and seeing the incremental, microscopic progress. it makes the process more enjoyable than self-flagellating.

on a personal note, the writing workshop scene can be brutal. with some criticism being needlessly harsh, sure it produced some of my "best" writing but the process was Not Fun. while i get that being able to revise meaningfully is an important thing, i think the endgoal of feedback (from my short exp of betaing for friends) shud always be aimed towards uplifting the writer's aim to create/improving the writer's vision of what they wanna achieve, especially in a craft that is as solitary as writing. wait ill rb a post about making ur shitty pots, very in-line with making art in general

29. how easy is it for you to come up with titles?

very hard. i hate thinking of titles, thats why i yoink lines from songs (who cares if the vibe doesnt fit im adding layers of interpretation or sumn🥴🥴). ACTUALLY wcidfy had like 3 other possible names (it was either *rolls out list* hairtie, nonequivalent exchange, or ben franklin effect* wcidfy was the most bearable one.) *i tried to look up how to distill the psychological phenomenon of someone probably liking u more after u do a small favor for them into 2-3 words, but it had to be a WHITE MAN'S NAME 🤢🤢NAW!!!!

for few other examples:

'say what you mean' was initially titled 'oh how the tables turn'

'roommates? more like roomfoes' was first titled 'pet peeves'

'hypothermia' was first titled 'frigid' but then i thought of paradoxical undressing nd stuff and da pseudo-warmth

i've also moved a bunch of other plot beats from wcidfy's main document into a file called "part 45678 of wcidfy"

as u can see i prioritize making myself laugh wid my wip titles. i wanna put the illusion that my writing's not that serious. unless it is? idk i'm not sure how to describe my writing in terms of its vibes.

(list of fic writer asks, ahaha bug me ab my wips)

#dellet-asks #nerenda #i shud really get into the habit of making more polished author notes alongside my published works but i think #ill js stick to the long and messy ao3 end notes ahahahahhhaha im still allergic to having my influences be judged (badly)

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