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I’m gonna invent a style of sword fighting that doesn’t require someone to put their knee and hips into agony for hours
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misterbitches · 3 years
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Hello! @flootweed replying to the post from before. the long format was killing me. why does tumblr look like this...
I haven’t watched episode 8 yet...or have I? If it’s the most recent one. No.
Is the hornbill a bird? It probably is but I have a terrible memory and I’m dumb so. I skipped the last few weeks because I’m scawwed. How are you liking it? I did see someone say that the hornbill makes sense (without knowing what it is...at all) bc heart transplant patients only live like 5-15 years after but someone in those comments pointed out that he was so young when he got his and that’s pretty rare so he has a higher likelihood of survival. Frankly, this is the only way I will proceed. Since when did shows ever care about the heart transplant health? Never and it needs to stay that way!
What did we think of ep 6? LMAO. I need opinions! And omg it makes me feel special when I can point things out to people because I so...rarely get to LOL. Editing is like one of my favorite things ever so I can be super particular about it but I try to do the thing you do when you’re supposed to see if it works within its context. I’d like to go in with scissors and glue but alas. 
THe mic covering....the rustling....it’s like guys...please. Ironically the audio today wasn’t great. I don’t know why. IDK if you watch c-dramas but I am not even sure what’s worse between them because they dub their dramas. But actually no it’s best to have the dubbing because even tho it is painful they have to put a lot of effort into it. LOL. 
Right? @ Aey! It’s just weird if they would show us more about what he’s done instead of saying he’s done sth bad and not even explaining that....like you could even do some shitty exposition. I think if he is to be a true villain then we really need to be privvy. All the warnings make it seem like he’s a fuckin’ serial killer so when we get the scene of him at home it’s like....actually this is really serious? Maybe his pain is like...for a reason. Althought you won’t even TELL US WHAT HE’S DONE WRONG BESIDES BE JUST FUCKING WEIRD AND ANNOYING! So from what we have it’s just a realllllllll fucked up sad person lol. god i forgot about the dinner! and i totally agree. he really needs them to succeed. i like your theory because it would make the scene where he like blocks the twitter user make more sense. he also says they dont really know each other etc so it’s realllllyyyyy probable that he just sees it as a way out. if not then we shall pretend u wrote it :)
god yea i wouldnt say it is art but i also guess we technically have to since it is technically. in the way that technically performance artists are artists but mostly i uh technically ignore them. Also one of my fav BLs is called the best twins. If you do not know what it is I will not elaborate further.t 
i want to know more abt poli sci majors lmao but they sound DRAMATIC/ hopefully most ppl in ur cohort arent losers! 
hahahha i understand. there was just a thing on twitter about DSA and then the day before about reading discourse. the same thiings. over. and over. and over. and over. we are our own worst enemies but also our own best friends? but i hate tankies and that wont change. but hasan’s a decent guy. he said sth abt black ppl during biden’s primaries in GA or whatever and i was like chill. but he’s insecure and has adhd which means ur more open to being wrong and changing otherwise u will suffocate and die. 
and totally about hiding fuck ups. i’ve tried really hard bc of organizing IRL to like...be honest, question, etc but also like...approach it naturally? because if you’re trying to be perfect and so worried you’ll fuck up you don’t realize that puts  more stress on you, makes you seem like a robot, and could potentially not make you realize the mistkaes you made. also if we’re privileged in certain spaces there is just no possible way we won’t get something wrong. im light and i know that honestly any way to speak up on colorism is going to be difficult and that’s a space where i have power so i just have to figure it out. we should be uncomfortable because we have to sit with unpleasant feelings and sort through our own whatever. that just makes the next time even better and people can trust u more.  i think some people sweat it sooo much or maybe they think their personal life and what theyve been through is more the norm? on the other hand people can be sf reactionary in the worst way and idk what their issue is. there was also a user who said sth very inch arresting about tankies which i thoroughly enjoyed (how like violent lefitsts or tankies / ppl who are like ooh a gun whatever just want to be violent in another space so they have shit tendencies from jump and nothing of substance which i think i agree with tbh fo ra lottttt of ppl. like their anger is actually like “no im about to beat that ass” instead of what we actually want to get done) 
sort of in the same vein re: taking it easy...we coudl all be more understanding too. to slow it down like you mentioned about not being privvy to fucking eveyrthing and saying anything on our mind. i saw this person talk about y2k which was a huge deal while happening bc it was the turn of the millenium (bruh were u even alive?) but this twitter user grew up in a super super SUPER religious household and was like why do ppl make jokes about Y2K it was insanely traumatizing? though my first instinct was confused ive tried hard to like look more before i judge especially thanks to a friend of mine. turns out that with the further reading the more we found out he was just really traumatized; it was very common in religious households to be afraid of 2000. so we could have come at him with no understanding and he could have thought that everyone had the same experience with that year that he did. his feelings sit precedent though but i think it was just very hard for him to fathom. 
i didnt reply bc he didnt need that and what could i have said? he’ll see what the truth is with exposure and unfortunately this was something he really did go through. 
and that’s what makes most people think others could be over the top. because it sounded ridiculous but then it was this huge traumatic thing that we could have never known about. so maybe when someone sounds like actually crazy they have an explanation? of course some ppl are just batshit or annoying but that’s anywhere not just leftists it’ just means more i guess when a ~~librul is annoyed~ but it can be easy to want to make fun of ppl too. lmao.  basically what i am saying is the internet? especially twitter? for leftists? in this economy? bitch it’s the wild west out here.
i am 29! idk if i said it or not. i am OLD u probably werent even born in the year i was talking about wah. i know not old-old or old at all but compared to you i’m due for a colonoscopy.
omg i hope u can get vaxxed soon! are you wfh rn? i hope ur also not in a bad state as in state state not state as in ur being :| bleh what a fucking time. it sucks that you have to fucking do work. well unless u like school. which i hope u do. i just assume everyone hates it cos i did lmao
was it the lindsay ellis drama? that bitch is dumb. if there was other drama oh wait the drama i was referring to it all happened on the same day. idk book twitter that well but i saw something from someone who was abt that shit and wowie! the american people are not that.....intelligent to put it lightly.
i’ll get better. ppl tell me they miss me and im like aw. i have insanellllyyy bad insomnia and a lot of stuff happened this year HOWEVER I SLEPT FOR TWO DAYS FOR 8 HOURS AT A REASONABLE TIME. im a new woman.  anyways you too! i hope ur not too burnt out with school. we just dont know when the burnout is or we just dont know we are burnt out until we are. the panaramiciccici hit and all the things i was ignoring kind of just fell on me and sooo much happened at once. and frankly it’s hard to take care of ourselves. lord. 
Like if you aren’t interested in expanding on the issue in a way that hasn’t been done before all you gotta do it like… spread resources and donate if you can. I dont see the point in having to say something about every issue especially if you (not at you specifically just in general) aren’t immediately impacted by the issue. Like is the 14 yr old white marxist named sarah on twitter really gonna have meaningful insight on anti-asian violence ?
this is part of why i cannot telecommunicate. i dont want to do shit on the internet. i am able bodied so i know that this time has been of such ease for other people. but mentally i just can’t. i don’t have a comment on hand like that and i hvae no desire to engage with ppl that way. i am a super super super solitary person but thats bc it’s MY time so when it’s like all this effort with other people i dont ever want to be alone. it’s the same with the way i approach filmmaking. it isnt a sole thing so i hate it not together. that’s part of how u can get so sucked in and repeat doom scrolling. i was in this webinar last may after [redacted] and this black woman prof said “read with a community and talk” because otherwise she said we are torturing ourselves. you can’t carry that weight all on your own. unfortunately i hate zoom, discord, slack, signal, whatsapp, facetime. you name it this panera has made it evi.. L
you make a really excellent point. i think the young young gen zers are really really just interesting because it’s like this whole new world for them with leftist politics and they just can’t grasp the horrors of the world and the kind of freedom being a leftist can bring. and so many people don’t grow out of it. those people so happen to be the “least productive” in terms of how much time they spend IRL withe these issues. naturally, younger kids are gonna have a harder time. they are not as mobile as well so the internet becomes this place. but then it’s this echo chamber. and many times just things posted without sources. and social media NEEDS that to exist.
i think of the irony of leftist kids on tik tok and while i am happy it’s reaching them it’s just....different. very different. the growth of social media is so good but also so fucking sad, it’s too much! i think the point about not writing everything is major. even i have to do this which is part of the disappearing.y ou need to detach and make sure your head is on straight again. but when you think eveyrone has to be privvy to every thought and you can’t just sit back....which twitter and social media doesn’t encourage. you have to join in. that’s often why when i have something to say it is dense because i don’t feel like repeating it. ever. lmao ust ever. i cant pay attn. social media is a fucking minefield for my brain u can get so lost in it and absorb it but once u start talking you may not be able to stop. 
i think a big part of that is it not being a leisurely thing but sort of just in our lives always. this sounds like a grandpa rant but ykwim. We dont have to see the same thing over and over again. And eventually it gets sincerely diluted or its diluted bc of capitalism or whatever. Or if theyre very young or maybe they don’t have like the greatest way of sharing the knowledge? then it can be butchered. I hope this is making sense...i’m talking beyoond the boring surface-level milquetoast shit. i see really ahistorical stuff on there from leftists (like this thing about NK + africa and it being a beneficial rship as opposed to a um not beneficial one. and it isn’t.  beneficial but this young black girl was talking abt it and noname rtd and i was like it’s just too complex. there’s no good/bad here just bc it’s not america. dont get me started on this.)
but Lol that was kinda off topic but I think what I meant in my last reply about not turning off the voice in my head is about when I consume media, not necessarily when I’m online talking about. Even if I have criticism for something, I’m usually pretty chill when consuming fandom content bc I think being serious online all the time is kinda boring. Like sometimes I’m analyzing theme and shit but really most of the time im memeing.
exactly.........gotta laugh. thats why sometimes im like i cant think lmao. unfrotunately i have been ARGUING with ppl on the internet for rly no reason when  i could have replied to ur very nice fun wholesome message. i love torture. i miss memes.
“ i think the people who get the least enjoyment out of that are those so obsessed with getting upset with anyone thinking outside of their lines as if it equates to them “ EXACTLYYYYY
kekekekeke im glad u got it. it’s like with conservatives throwing around snowflake. now im beginning to question who the real complainers are. 
LMAO exactlyyyy. i posted a screenshot of this writer from twitter saying that exact thing. Like first of all, I’m...an adult? and if you are as well uh? i’m sorry for you but are we 12? But how is it affecting u this viscerally? And if it does why dont u...do...research? pihgofuaipoajghou but honestly everything u said. we’re trained to go into it with nothing. i was only around ur age when i started to get more serious about this stuff but you’re like lightyears ahead of where i was at 21. did i say this but i’m in iww and literally i can tell u in 2016 i did not think 2019 me would be in a union bc i told my friend in a train station that we don’t need unions. i was 23...but the thing is i didnt know what i was talking about. at all. and i knew i didnt know and she knew i didnt know and now i am the clown.
also yes at critical engagement. i had to learn so much through experience and this is tuff that i coudlnt be shielded from. there’s an empathy you kinda have to develop and this understanding that you move through the world as this person who is “nowhere and everywhere; nothing and everything” so i’ve always had to think about things differently just to survive. that’s also what can drag a lot of people towards it like theres so many black kpop fans bc i think a lot of the pain in SK can be mirrored (sort of) through our history. and theres currently a history now but it had to be forged. uh what was my point oh yea however i wouldnt have been able to move further if i didnt have my background to go off of  bc i knew something was off when i started getting into all these things (ill give u a hint) but if i had no prior knowledge and didnt have to think about it then the critical approach is either stale or stupid. 
i had to research but i dont understand how ppl are so bold with little to no research and understanding? thhey just inherently know with also like ZERO experience in what they need experience in. engaging critically means “how i see the world” with dashes of trying to be open adn understanding or whatever. actually that’s another thing like being afraid of criticizing things bc theyre foreign to you so u give it a pass (like we discussed) but it doesnt hAVE TO BEEEE JUST REAAAAAD and then take all the info ur teensy brain and apply it. be a normal human being and dont be fucking rude and racist. thats it! u can complain abt literally anything without being a dick.
as we start with LW and end with LW.....what do we think (i asked this already) omg please share wbl thoughts i THINK i know what ur talking about. well it could be two things; their rship when they came back and the physicality and then pei shou yi. i almost dont even want to use my brain to fucking look at that. i think wbl can get away with more bc of visual~*~*~* reasons (like literally, the look of the show. there’s more space to get lost in the frames. many thai dramas are a lot more literal? this isn’t the right word but it’s very heavily character focused particularly bc of $ i think) though good production also underscores flaws so i am also wrong. but like do u know what i mean? u have to kinda focus on it? or maybe it’s just cos like.....ur so used to it in thai bl idek. i’ve seen tw bl ofc. 
look i swear i will justify this forever bc there are some things we miss right but if u feel like someone’s a bad actor....theyre bad. it’s about tone movement etc etc etc and since most thai bl productions have 0 interest in that....well. they take these newbies and put them in these situations. we dont understand thai but if we see them and we’re like “wow this is really bad” then they’re bad lmao. IDC i will never be like cos idk what theyre saying NO WHY HE LOOK LIKE A ROBOT???????? DOES HE EMOTE? why is he CRYING WITH NO TEARS? and it’s not even a total requisite to cry with tears(i mean for me it is) but it’s just like what is happening on ur face right now young man????????
painful.
the inflection stuff is very valid ooh good point tho but that’s only a part of the piece. plus we get used to the way they communicate. like the ppl from sotus were prtty bad. i dont like that show but thats an ex of ppl liing the actors and the person i thought was better other ppl dont think that? well apparently hes a shitty guy but. um. so when theres decent acting its so glaring.
although i must say even tho i dont care for 2gether anymore and would never like to be reminded about its existence (only bc i just cringe lol) i honestly....didnt think bright was a bad actor? but people keep saying he is and i am much more inclined to believe them than myself. though i am not often dickmatized that could have been it. until he opened his mouth and ruined it and then i stopped paying attn.
although honestly i’m so much more critical than i could be positive. i have ben stumped for the last day about how i wasnt mad at his acting in the show. is it me? is it him? who’s......the wrong one.....(me) 
oh shit they have been denied? i haven’t been paying attn to whats been going on recently. i just got into it on MDL because of snowdrop. sometimes i literally cannot engage bc ill just be like alright well im black so this power button in my head is going off when ppl talk abt that shit. back in the day when kpop jawns were saying some real outta pocket anti black shit (now everyone is slick with it) it’d always be THEY DONT HAVE GOOGLE THEYVE NEVER SEEN A BLACK PERSON but really it’s like no...maybe they are just racist? that’s ok too.
also the past 2 weeks have been um atrocious bc how fucking easily people fell into the pit of white supremacy and started to turn their ire towards black people and making a competition between our groups just like they wanted. it’s not about the women who are dead anymore, who were sex workers, their womanhood, being asian, being poor anymore. it’s about how much black people get attention and why people only pay attn to us. i am not feeling very generous this week for ppl to excuse that hsit.
on a lighter note, ppl say that abt the whole husband and wife thing. i dont know how to explain how angry that shit makes me but maybe it’s because i do not want to think of my body in relation to a fucking penis at all hours of the day. if bls could kindly not do that it would be nice lmao 
yes there are a lot of those. who are only there to gawk lmao. and just idk worship bc of the cult of personality thing bc of how weird and open they have to be as actors. some of the others are people who /think/ theyre really smart (i think im asmart but i also think i am very dumb and i have adhd to prove that MEDICALLY!!!) but are actually not? or their observations arent great? or idk if they are they arent interesting? but i think well..........we have more refined palettes :P
jk also theres just different personalities. you and  i mesh more bc we have a lot of the same beliefs and are coming from the same place. that makes it easier to understand as well. i really try to remember that but some people are really weird so. again just...the perception of certain things even down to acting skills. but i also dont like.......believe this genre can really do anything at all. on one hand i want them to do it right bc it’s a piece of work so they should. be proud of it. cos most things arent advancing us bc representation and culturalism are a lie bla bla. it’s just that when the depictions are negative or not done well it adds to the problem as opposed to the things that are well done are fairly benign and can’t really pull us back (perf example is the black panther film. i woudl definitely not say it was transgressive as a literal work but visually it’s just stunning. and it’s sad that it’s stunning and surprising but still with basically an all black cast of mostly dark people abd like what it means in the zeitgeist yes. it’s also just a good movie. but it’s still imperialist prop and unfortunately and this is fucking pathetic to say it “opened eyes” in other countries where they hate black ppl and ignore their own racialized minorities HENNYWAYSSSS a better ex is moonlight except moonlight isnt mainstream and is indie tho...still thru a funnel of capital bc a24 but who cares bleed the fuckers dry is my motto. my point is moonlight is both a great work and doesnt bring any failures to the table and its existence helps in ways outside of art but they arent the defining things giving us material advancement sooooo i mean it’s complex (this is my conclusion to everything um guys it’s complex) 
er i had one more point in conjunction to above. oh yea so i like dont need all these extra things to make it progressive. like people really want more women in the show and i am honestly like i really dont. i dont want them to actively do this. if they cant do it naturally then let someone else do it. i am not asking for more bc i dont want it from them. when something comes along i embrace it but i do not see why women should be represented when the genre RELIES on patriarchy. there is no complete satisfying existence for the women in these series. i dont want it. i dont ask people to show us~*~* or respect~* like fuck no the people who make it make it and hopefully more will make it in the future but i will not beg bc THEY DONT WANT TO DO IT SO WOULD FORCING IT MAKE IT BETTER? just fucking leave them out entirely. that’s the answer if theyre gonna make nasty female characters then those bitches can geaux. we have other plcaes to be. booked. and. BUSY!
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jaquesofdragons · 4 years
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Question for readers
I’ve been feeling a little down this week which has made me hypersensitive (probably irrationally) to the response to my fic In Another Life.
But I figured instead of freaking out about, I should just ask: Do people enjoy a mysterious prologue and putting the pieces together as the story progresses? Or find the lack of information off-putting? And second, are people interested in seeing everything from the exact moment the time traveler arrives? Or can they enjoy a time skip that leaves questions to be answered?
I’m aware that these questions probably get different answers for original works vs fanfiction as there’s a tendency to pick exactly what you want to read in the latter, so I’m mostly interested in the context of fanfiction. 
Despite mainly being interested in the specifics of my own fic, I’m trying to keep this fandom neutral for anyone who’s got a little free time and an opinion.
More details below.
Essentially, when I chose the start of my fic, a process of months, I jumped around a lot on where exactly was the best point to bring in the readers.
As it’s a time travel fic, having a prologue set pre-time travel makes a lot of sense. I’ve had the events leading up to the time travel event for a long time. But when it came down to it, I wasn’t sure how much of it to show. I have about 15,000 words that are all but finished, and a boat load of extra content in rough draft form.
But I was concerned about spending a lot of time setting that up, introducing the changes I made and various characterizations and the like to the reader, only to rip them away after 15k words. Many of those characters and various plot points won’t become relevant until much later in the story. 
So in it’s current form, I drastically shortened the prologue to 2.5k words, leaving it vague and mysterious with a few hints to direction.
Now I’m second guessing, wondering if it’s too obscure. Or if it feels misleading, etc.-- just doesn’t catch the readers interest in general because the premise is now too hidden.
I’ve though about scrapping the prologue entirely, tbh. Or putting the rest of the content back in and having a prologue arc of three chapters.
The followup of course is what happens right after the prologue. I did write the fic fairly chronologically and I do have unpolished content that takes place between the time travel event and my current first chapter. In fact I have a crap ton of content for it, two entire arcs.
I chose to skip those arcs because, one, it has much heavier OC content as it primarily takes place in the vague outskirts of canon. Aside from two main characters, canon characters don’t start featuring prominently (i.e. as more than mentions) until the second arc. 
And the content has a drastically different tone then the arcs after that, and has a separate plot line. As the fic is now, I started at a place where the main character has a large decision to make which sets the major plot in motion for the entirety of the fic. 
Canon characters are involved fairly quickly (in the first ten chapters), as are the hurdles to be overcome, the conflicts, various antagonizing elements, etc.
i think it makes sense to start there and refer back to, hint at the content that was developing in the prior arcs, instead of hoping the readers will gain and retain interest in two arcs of fairly low action almost unrelated to typical canon topics.
But it does leave a lot of questions that the reader may assume are plot holes, writer mistakes, etc, instead of intentional choices built on material they haven’t seen.
There is probably a middle ground somewhere. And as a new writer, writing in an older fandom, with a fairly rare main character and rare pairings, with a non-romantic centered plot, with only a few chapters out yet, there are probably more than enough factors to explain low reactions without hyper-analyzing my content. 
But these are doubts that I have and half the reason I posted this was to grow as a writer, get feedback and improve. (the other half was just to find people to share my excitement about this story, the characters, the fandom, etc. with)
So If anyone’s survived to the end of this post and has an opinion on these questions (or anything to do with the story really, or my journey as a writer, etc), please let me know!
I really really want to hear your opinions.
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izayoichan · 5 years
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Simmer, Get to know
I was tagged by @katsimsdreamer​, thank you!
Your name:  Izayoi, sorry my name is not one I willingly share everywhere. Iza is fine too. 
Languages you speak: Norwegian, Swedish, English
Are you a mermaid:  If only!
(Will hide the rest this is long!)
Your playstyle: Stories, some built around ingame stuff like the story in strangerville
Your self sim picture:
Don’t have one, sorry, you may  have one of Hayle, because who wouldn’t like to be a dragon god. 
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Stories or gameplay builds, lookbooks, edits or cc:  Stories, their my thing. 
Your favourite age state:  Teenagers & Young adults
Your favourite season: Winter, a proper old style winter with plenty of snow and cold temperatures
Your favourite holiday:  Christmas. (The lights, the happy people and all the good food is a win!)
How was your day: It’s monday morning, not sure I need to explain that any further
Your favourite career:  Don’t really have one, I like them all, military is kinda fun though. Or veterinarian
Your favourite aspiration: The pet one that I can’t remember the name off. 
Your favourite EP, SP or GP:
Favourite Ep: Seasons (quickly followed by Pets)
Favourite SP:  Ehm... none of them really stand out.. Maybe laundry day for 
Favourite GP: Strangerville (Because it had a story built in that I could use to write a story around. 
How old is your simblr:  A little over 1 year old. 
Have you woohooed:  Yes
Your favourite skill: Anything musical
The size of your mods folder: Hmh... somwhere around 25gb if I remember it right.. should really clean that up
Your 3 favourite mods: MCC, WW and the one that lets me control my pets. 
Your interests (other than sims):  Gaming (in general), Books and scrapbooking (making cards)
Your favourite sim (picture if possible): 
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Atm... this little family, and their loved ones.. (was the picture I could find at work)
which sims games you have played (including mobile games): Sims, Sims3, Sims medevial, Sims mobile, sims 4 (yeah, I skipped sims 2 as I hated it)
Propose a crazy scheme: Everyone is dead. (yeah..)
The best part of simblr:  The stories I get to read and get invested in. 
The worst part of simblr:  The general clickyness and the overly (to me) fake love and friendship thing. Along side the general tendency to jump like an angry mob if there is something you don’t like.(learn to scroll past and move on with your day tbh)
What other games you play: FFXIV (not a shock), generally Final Fantasy games, Wolcen, Temtem, Survining Mars, Two point hospital, Red Dead Redemption II, Detroit Become Human, Bloodborn, Life is Strange (the entire series so far).. the list is very long tbh... 
other websites or accounts (origin, twitter etc..):  @Litakins is my twitter, and I don’t really use anything else. Sure I have facebook, but I am not sharing it ;)
I think most have been tagged allready, but I’ll still sneakily tag @shahkiertai​, @dandylion240​, @cillaben​ and then if you want to just do it, if you don’t, don’t!
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ilovemygaydad · 5 years
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A Wrinkle in Time AU
yes, i made a new au. yes, i’m planning to write this as a full au. sue me. i jump from thing to think like a squirrel, okay.
for now, it’s just a list of the characters and their traits (except the twins because they’re a super minor role, and i can’t bring myself to write it rn okay)
pairings: logicality, eventual prinxiety, platonic remileceit, familial LAMT
warnings: swearing, sympathetic deceit (as mx which), anger issues, lashing out, transphobia, queerphobia, homophobia, patton is called a whore one time, trans!male pregnancy, transitioning mentions, deadnaming, misgendering internalized aphobia, crying is mentioned, people are just mean as hell, mild sexism, mentioned abuse, broken families, rumors, mentions of cheating/running away with a woman (as a rumor), mentions of forcing sexuality onto others (as a rumor), mentions of disappearing, mentions of non-malicious lies, selective mutism, self hatred, internalized homophobia, and definitely more that will be added as the story progresses
summary: thirteen year old virgil murry is your typical delinquent, but throw in a dash of having two dads, one of whom is missing, a brainiac little brother who everyone thinks is an idiot, and only two normal family members. it’s a shock, really, that virgil acts the way he does, but it’s even more of a shock when three celestial beings come to take him on a journey to save his father with the help of thomas, the weird little brother, and roman o’keefe, the poster child for stable popular kid.
some random important information about this au:
it mixes up things from the book and the 2018 movie because i said so
exists in a time outside of our timeline (think ‘50s/’60s mixed with present day)
virgil, thomas, the mxs, patton, and (sort of) logan’s appearances all stem a lot from the 2018 movie’s definition of their characters with some other facts thrown in, so you can look those up to get a somewhat decent idea of what they look like
the warnings may seem like a lot, but a lot of them are just brief mentions that are repeatedly scattered throughout the story on occasion
a place for the au to go when i actually write it
everything is under the cut because this is about to get SPICY (aka really fucking long)
Virgil Murry (13 going on 14):
appearance
dark, coiled hair like his dad’s
kept short on the sides and longer on top
the longer bits are unruly and usually flop into his face and eyes
brown eyes that glitter gold and green in the right lighting
they don’t glitter often (or at all, really)
braces with purple rubber bands
a little shorter than he should be for his age
pretty normal physique--if a little bit thin
personality
very worried about his family (and eventually roman, too) all of the god damn time
hot-headed and rash with his words
the most stubborn person ever
tends to be aggressive when he’s upset/worried
easily swaps between emotions (much to his and everyone else’s chagrin, it seems)
uses anger to protect himself from being hurt/his anxiety
defensive of his brother and dad
wardrobe
his jeans are always ripped
round, vintage-style glasses (look up 50s glasses frames and you’ll get it)
he’s ended up with his sneakers being composed of more patches than the original fabric 
his hoodie is equally as worn, and he’s barely allowed to wear it to school anymore because the teachers think it’s “un[professional/becoming/sightly]”
other info
hates his appearance and personality
very smart, but his tendency to use shortcuts in school upset his teachers and lead to bad grades
good at math but not creative stuff
accepts his dads but hates his own sexuality
really misses his father
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Roman O’Keefe (14)
appearance
pale as hell with tons of freckles
flaming red hair
super tall and thin
baby blue eyes that are super pale and pretty
very conventionally attractive
personality
very friendly
becomes protective and caring immediately
good at conversations and diplomacy
perceptive
good with words
can be kind of awkward/overbearing at times
wardrobe
clean jeans and his school varsity jacket are his go-to outfit
nice basketball shoes
his clothes are always very clean and neat
he takes his clothes very seriously--doesn’t like messing them up
other info
third oldest of his many siblings
weird family life
really smart
skipped two grades
good at the creative stuff
very gay (unfortunately)
kinda maybe has always had a crush on virgil
never believed the rumors about the murry family
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Thomas Murry (6)
appearance
dark brown eyes and hair
a bit short and small for his age
idk what you want me to say he’s a little boy 
personality
doesn’t speak much when he’s outside of the house
difficult for everyone else to understand
his speech is highly elevated, but he doesn’t elaborate when he’s being confusing most of the time
sometimes arrogant and rude when people are stupid/unkind
wardrobe
an odd mixture of professional and casual clothing
often wears nerdy t-shirts and jeans with a blazer or slacks and a button up with a hoodie
always wears the same type of shoes (red tennis shoes with a yellow star)
other info
was adopted just before father disappeared
feels most connected with his dad and virgil
despite his high intelligence and love for learning, he didn’t start learning to read until he was actually in school because the other kids already disliked him enough as is
he tries not to go ahead in his studies for the same reason
easily frustrated by not knowing things
everyone in town thinks he’s dumb because of his not speaking much thing
ridiculously perceptive--possibly too much so
protective of virgil despite being a kid
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Mx. Whatsit (Remy; age: old)
appearance
youthful
long hair of all sorts of colors
usually pulled into messy braids or elaborate updos
pale skin that shimmers rainbow colors in direct sunlight
unknown eye color
sharp features (almost inhuman looking)
personality
sassy and blunt
doesn’t completely get social conventions and the idea of being subtle
highly protective of thomas
kind of a bitch sometimes ngl
wardrobe
never without a leather jacket and his aviator sunglasses
everything else is literally random
usually it’s flowy dresses made out of scarves/bedsheets/fabric scraps of all shapes and colors, but sometimes he wears colorful pants and blouse-like shirts
think big top tent meets aerial silks and that’s his aesthetic
other info
uses he/him pronouns
youngest of the mxs
apprehensive of virgil at first (like a lot)
best vocalizer and materializer of the mxs
often messes things up, but he always works to fix what happens
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Mx. Who (Emile; age: even fuckin older)
appearance
youthful, but a bit older than whatsit
pink hair that’s always pulled into some manner of curly updo
bright blue eyes
brown skin with deep brown freckles
a lot more round features and chubbiness than the other mxs
looks just the tiniest bit off of what a human should look like, but otherwise they pass fine
personality
only (or mostly) speaks in quotes, which makes them difficult to understand at times
very kind, gentle, and loving
enjoys being with the kids
doesn’t speak nearly as much as whatsit
wardrobe
purple crystal glasses with lavender lenses that are hooked to a chain around their neck
lots of very eccentric, patchwork-quilt-lookin clothing
despises shoes with a burning passion
likes wearing different colored ties on their wrists and ankles
other info
easily tired out by speaking freestyle (without quotes) and in full materialization for long periods of time
any pronouns
loves cartoons and visual medias of earth
age-wise in the middle of the mxs
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Mx. Which (Deceit; age: too old)
appearance
dark brown skin with shimmering patches of scales scattered around his skin
the largest patch of scales covers the left side of his face
right eye is brown and left is yellow
the most inhuman looking of the mxs
tall compared to the other mxs
personality
speaks mostly in lies (aka pretty much all the time)
difficult to understand most of the time
very proper sounding
vague and cryptic
wardrobe
always wearing some sort of hat
looks like a yellow flower most of the time because of his penchant for yellow
otherwise he’s wearing a lot of black
likes wearing formal clothing and bedazzled dresses (very avant garde)
other info
he/they pronouns
oldest of the mxs
very bad at vocalizing and materializing (aka they get tired so fast)
very wise
literally just a cryptid tbh
sounds snakey a lot of the time
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Patton Murry (Dad)
appearance
very, very pretty
extremely elegant features with long lashes and full lips
similar hair to virgil’s but neater
big, brown eyes
warm, dark skin
kind of short
a bit stocky
personality
manages to hide his upset feelings unless something is really bugging him (it’s usually about his husband, then)
incredibly kind
not extremely social due to the down’s actions towards him
loves his kids and husband so much
represses his bad emotions
hopeful (especially about logan coming back home)
wardrobe
wire-framed glasses
steel-toed boots or old sneakers
everything in his wardrobe basically falls in two categories:
nice clothes for going nice places (like dinner)
lab clothes
lab clothes make up the majority by a long shot and include
nerdy t-shirts
old cardigans
jeans
pajamas (bad etiquette, but highly convenient)
other info
(fully/mostly) transitioned (depending on how you look at it--he’d been pretty masc presenting for a while, but he got top surgery) pretty soon after virgil was born and decided he didn’t want to do that again so the other kids are adopted
often mistreated and misgendered by the townspeople
extremely smart, but people write him off as “dumb” (or a whore) because of his birth gender
loves being a doctor because people (sometimes) won’t refer to him as “mrs”
insists that logan will come home very soon (like he’s been saying for four years)
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Logan Murry (Father)
appearance
neglected, long brown hair
usually clean shaven (if he remembers)
blue eyes with green and gold flecks
so many freckles
tall and thin with sharp features
looks like a huge nerd
personality
very respectable and serious
overworks himself to keep his family safe and happy
a bit of a hot head and scary when angry (either he’s calm and cold or he’s gonna kick your ass to the next century)
super passionate about physics and the universe
seems cold sometimes but loves his family intensely
secretly a huge softie
wardrobe
doesn’t understand that there are clothes other than lab gear
practical shoes only
likes ties but doesn’t wear them because lab safety is key
only gets new clothes when patton forces him to
very thick glasses
other info
(a lot of this is both him and patton. idk how it got so long, but please just understand that i can’t stop myself from making logan the most badass character okay i just love him)
very coldly defensive of his husband
has punched queerphobes on more than one occasion
gets really angry when their mail deadnames patton or refers to him as anything other than “dr patton sanders”
he once literally marched into a company and screamed at the highest ranking official that his husband is to be referred to as “dr patton sanders” as it is his proper name and title, so why the hell does this letter say “dr logan sanders and mrs [deadname] sanders” on it?
never compares his and pat’s intelligence because they’re both equally smart and knowledgable in different areas, even if patton has fewer doctorates 
he might even argue that patton is smarter because he’s dedicated so much time to his fields of study exclusively, not to mention his emotional intelligence
very supportive of patton no matter what (do you sense a theme here)
was very glad that patton decided that they would adopt their younger kids because logan hated every second of the pregnancy from trying for a baby to birth
he loves virgil so damn much regardless of the emotional turmoil because the kid was such a good reward
came out as sex-repulsed asexual about three months after patton announced that he was pregnant, and patton was pissed that he hadn’t spoken up sooner so they could have tried something different to make logan more comfortable
he’ll never admit it, but hearing the kind, caring words come out of patton’s mouth made logan cry for hours because how the fuck did he find such an incredible, loving husband
disappeared four years ago and no one has heard from him since
it’s rumored that he ran away with another woman (as if there was a woman in his life to begin with)
stories also sometimes include that patton tricked him into being gay (even though he’s a “woman,” right??? people are fucking stupid), and logan ran away from that lifestyle finally
but why would dr. murry just up and leave when he had such a good family and important research to finish? things aren’t adding up, and there’s only one way to figure out what’s going on:
figure out what the actual hell thomas and the mxs are talking about
a place for the au to go when i actually write it
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