#but tbf neither are my thoughts abt mask so

[ipatrichor]

ik i’m the one writing the character but like,,,, mask genuinely fascinates me. it has severe anxiety and is also down to fuck with people anytime. it’s terrified of dying but at four hit points moved toward the fighting to help its friends. it doesn’t trust the people around it enough to tell them its real name but also immediately turns to them for direction and reassurance when it feels off-balance. it has separation anxiety and doesn’t want to be alone, but also pushed away its first friend in the party and tried to get her to leave it because it’s even more afraid of hurting her than of being alone

it loves causing chaos but also needs things to go exactly according to how it expects them to or it’s thrown way off balance and struggles to keep up. it considers itself a failure as an older sibling but also goes out of its way to make a kid the crew rescued from a shipwreck feel comfortable, promise to protect her, and make arrangements for passage on another ship when they land so that she won’t have to wonder what’s going to happen to her. it wants to genuinely connect with the people around it because it’s not built for solitude or distance, but is too afraid of accidentally hurting them with its magic to let itself try

it separates itself into pieces in its head because it feels like ‘sim’ is too weak and got people hurt, and ‘mask’ has to be better & a separate person. it hides its face all the time but especially while shifting because it hates how the transformation process looks, and it hasn’t shifted into its true form in years because it hates its actual appearance. it has at least 3 mental illnesses and 5 complexes i want to study it like a bug but also wrap it in a blanket and pat it on the head can anyone hear me do you See My Vision-