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hallwyeoo · 1 year ago

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I think I love bingqiu so much because to be loved is to be known and they are both so terrified of that. There is so much there, so many pretenses, so much history and hurt. Sy is constantly putting on a mask, hardly ever being his “real self”, and lbh has a bucketload of trauma regarding his identity and acceptance of that. They’re so insane but also so real and I hate love them for that.

#to clarify #I don’t think Binghe genuinely believes that sy will throw him away for being a demon #but looking from his perspective on sy #sy is… eclectic.#he does a lot of shit that only really makes sense if you know his exact thought process (and even then sometimes…)#what I’m saying is sy is scared in part that he’s not good enough #and Binghe is as well. at the same time #but sy masks it with cool indifference and lbh plays pathetic #and I LOVE when ppl write them post cannon with sy being super openly affectionate #cause even if it would take a lot of work from both of them #they could actually heal and resolve a lot of the hurt that lingers in their relationship #text post #svsss #luo binghe #mxtx svsss #mxtx #shen yuan #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #scumbag self saving system #bingyuan #this is a stream of conciousness and not a super well thought out analysis #but I’ll probably return to each of them individually and break down what makes them tick

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