#but other characters show some slow changes (esp older characters)

[edbaldwin]

i will say that it is very interesting to watch river mature as a spy and as a man, as he unravels more about reality if the service and his family history. which are intertwined.

he clearly wanted to be mi5 agent as as webb said to be special. and as louisa pointed out recognised (also by river himself asking lamb multiple times if he should not be applauded). it is seen clearly right until the end of season 3, when finale is just a game between lady di and ingrid; and slough house is a collateral to protect service's reputation. then he get his hand on the file this whole ordeal was about and seeks his grandfather's guidance who tries to protect him but is impaired by dementia so a lot is lost in translation.

and he’s just getting sadder every moment since s3 finale. his life is aimless, his job is a collateral, his only family is slipping away. and then in season 4 at les arbes when he starts connecting the dots little by little: his grandfather and mother’s estranged relationship, his mother's hippie phase, his own abandonment, the alternate reality where he was raised at les arbes and what it does to a man.

and when he gets to someone finally gets to be recognised by his own father it means absolutely nothing given the idk 72 hours(?) river just went through. and yay bad guy is taken down, but he’s river own father.

his grandfather won’t be able to tell his side of the story as there is a wall created by dementia. and he’s in his 30s with fucked up family, fucked up career and fucked up life. because maturing in a way is to stop romanticising reality and just seeing what you are up against.

[riallasheng]

Quite true on what 'makes a hero'... or perhaps more 'what makes a relatable protagonist' has changed. And some people like the newer takes, others like the older. Neither is wrong to my thinking ^^ and aye, TOS was more of a 'family' targetted show with an expectation that adults could and would watch without kids (and then you had the teen-to-young-adult focused comics and novels). Where-as - so far as I can tell - TaG is pretty solidly targetted at kids in the preteen-to-midteen brackets.

Yeah, like I'm willing to forgive the windows in tos5 because the answer to 'do you not know about' is... No. They didn't, not really. That knowledge would be found out later for the general populace. So I'm willing to let giant-ass windows slide for earlier works of sci-fi. More modern stuff I am less willing, esp when there is otherwise a veneer of harder sci-fi (well... TaG seems to have a veneer of harder sci-fi while actually being much more soft scifi than TOS)

Honestly, given how common giant ass viewscreens and holograms are in the TaG verse, I'd've just had viewscreens... and considering the speed at which the ring would need to spin to produce even Martian Gravity (let alone Earth Gravity) I wouldn't really want to see through the floor ANYWAY... vertigo ahoy! Although check my math... with a 20 meter diameter ring, that should be a rotational speed of... what, 18k/ph (11mph) for Earth Normal? Doesn't sound too fast but it'd be MUCH faster than what we see in the show and wouldn't be the peaceful slow crawl.

In TOS we can get away with windows a liiiiiiiiittle bit more, as "clearsteel" canonically has properties simular to heavily doped glass as we see it being used as protection from radiation while still allowing people to observe in the comics. (Honestly i tend to headcanon that the Calhelium alloy created on Mars in the Fireball comics is 'clearsteel', as Calhelium has radiation blocking qualities that are superior to steel (not as good as lead, but a thick layer of calhelium will be lighter and stronger than an equivilent amount of titanium, but will block radiation decently. If we extend those radiation blocking abilities to the 'transparent calhelium alloy commonly called clearsteel' then you would basically have 'uber doped glass' that would even protect against microstrikes. (As I mentioned before, while I like hard sci-fi, I'm quite willing to have fictional elements like antigravity or 'calhelium' if it's treated IN STORY like a hard sci-fi element with strict rules and limits and the like)

*nods* I thought of Skyhook after posting, but it is a perfect example XD Solves most any problem, really. You could even, as seen in Skyhook, lock the cable feed and just use the ring rotation systems to spool the cable if you needed more torque, letting the cable spool along the outside (although good lord... John, WHY DID YOUSTAY IN THE RING for that?! WHY WERE YOU IN THE RING IN THE *FIRST* PLACE?! Why is drama reliant on characters being dumb XD )

...

oh quick aside

we've direct and irrefutable proof that tag5 is not in geosync....

every time we see the earth beneath it / through the windows...

THE EARTH IS 'ROTATING' and scrolling away beneath it / beneath John's feet

Obviously they used how it looks from the International Space Station, but if tag5 was in geosync the earth would NOT be appearing to move beneath it... rather like the shots we get from tos5, the Earth would appear 'stationary'

hey um. what's geostationary orbit and why is it impossible for TAG's TB5 to achieve?

Hello!! I'm assuming you're coming in from the stack of memes I made lol so welcome welcome, this is my well-known pet peeve and I will happily explain because it involves my favourite subject - physics!

"Impossible to achieve" isn't quite accurate - my argument is formed purely on the observational evidence of where it is, such that when the show makes references to TB5 being in geostationary orbit it doesn't make sense because it's simply.... not.

So strap in, I'll go through this as clearly as I can but feel free to ask follow up questions :D Or just generally hang out lol TAG is a fun time despite the handwave-y physics ahaha :D

1. What is geostationary orbit?

Geostationary orbit is the specific orbit where a satellite/space station/whatever moves with the exact same period as the Earth's rotation i.e. 24 hours AND is placed so that the object is directly over the equator, it will move in that orbit at the same rate as the location it is over, so that it will always be over that position at all times. This gives it the name "geostationary", implying that the Earth doesn't move relative to the orbiting object, or if you look down you'll always see the same place.

Both conditions must be met for geostationary orbit to occur; an orbit with a greater or lower period will fall out of step with the Earth fairly quickly, and if not on the equator, you'll get a related type of orbit known as a geosynchronous orbit which will move up and down relative to the equator rather than staying put.

Furthermore, I won't take you through the calculation (1 | 2 | 3), but using Kepler's Third Law which is sufficiently accurate for this scenario, this orbit must always be ~36,000 km above the Earth, or the quoted 22,500 miles in the show. That is the main evidence in the show that implies that the writers intended for TB5 to be in geostationary orbit, like TOS was written to be.

However....

2. Why can't TB5 be in geostationary orbit?

It's not that it can't, it's that it isn't! There's two main reasons for this that I return to when grumbling about this to my friends (they are long-suffering on this point lol thank goodness they're reasonably good-humoured about it...)

Reason 1: The size of the Earth from TB5

This is the most damning evidence. Let's make some visual comparisons.

This is what the Earth looks like from the International Space Station which maintains an orbit about 400 km above the surface of the Earth (in a region known as Low Earth Orbit).

It's a little more complicated to show what Earth looks like from geostationary orbit as many satellites in this region are communication relays or broadcasting satellites (very appropriate for TB5 it must be said!!) But that being said, this is a full disk image of Earth from Japan's Himawari 5, a weather satellite in geostationary orbit.

Now take a look at the animation in TAG and decide for yourself what was being used as inspiration!

But I'm a physics nerd, so I won't take blind faith in some pictures! No, no - if there's a specific height that an orbit must maintain in order to remain in this orbit and the size of the Earth doesn't change, then it should follow that the Earth must be some kind of stable "apparent" size that we can figure out. Think about a freestanding house from 40 m away. It doesn't matter in which direction the 40m is, the house takes up the same space in our vision. The same follows here.

Once again, I'll gloss over the calculations ( 1 | 2 | 3) and simply state that from geostationary orbit, the Earth should take up no more than about 20° of our field of vision. In comparison the visual angle of the Moon is about 0.5° so it's still going to look really big!! But not as big as you'd see from the ISS :P If you make both hands into fists, place them next to each other and hold them at arms length from your body, that would be the approximately the width of the Earth from geostationary orbit.

So TB5?

....might be a wee bit closer than that 😂

Reason 2: The locations on Earth

This one's a little looser, but it illustrates my second point - in order to be geostationary, TB5 needs to..... stay over one location? Like okay sure it has rockets and engines so that it's able to move around, we've seen them plenty of times. But that doesn't change that fact that even when these are not in use, TB5 is never in one place.

Here's some examples…

The Strait of Gibraltar (Spain and Morocco) | 1x07 (Runaway)

Looks like Japan in the background to me | 1x07 (Runaway)

Ireland and Great Britain | 1x08: EOS

Cheating a tad, but he's only just launched so it's reasonable to assume that here TB5 is over SE Asia | 2x02 (Ghost Ship)

None of these are examples where John's manoeuvred TB5 into position like he does in Skyhook (1x11) and Impact (2x09) so it's reasonable to assume that TB5 is following its assigned orbit... and its not geostationary!

Moral of the story: TB5 could be in geostationary orbit, there's nothing stopping it! But uh... it's not. Thanks for listening ;D

All images stolen either from the thunderbirds wiki, or I've attached a click through link to their origin :)

[tsukishimas-shortcake]

Relationship Headcanons

↦ Character(s): Hakkai Shiba x fem!reader

↦ Rating/Warning: No rating though there are some light mentions of abuse (if you have read the manga you are aware of what I am talking about, I’m not going very deep into it though it literally just mentions it), mentions of anxiety attacks (no detail though), fluff, not proof read

↦ Word count: 1.8k (longer than planned, sections are bolded)

↦ Your Momo’s Receipt: Hello~ I’m post yet another TR headcanon and this was requested by the lovely @strawbub I hope this doesn’t disappoint, it did get longer than planned but I enjoyed writing it. I'll prob do a part two that's more of a scenario based on your first date or something since I didn't go into it here. Please note: for those of you who don’t know my blog is currently under construction, meaning I will not be updating my masterlist for the time being.

So how did you guys meet, well mostly because of Yuzuha,

One day in like elementary you’re walking home and you see this super pretty middle school girl just like yelling at this small group of guys

The guys end up running off just because they don’t wanna deal with her or the attention she's drawn to them

Behind her was a boy, taller than her but obviously younger. You didn’t assume they knew eachother though.

The boy and yuzuha began walking in opposite directions because one was going home while the other was going to pick up something like groceries

You’re so entranced by how she stood up to them yet she’s a girl who was far smaller and you end up catching up to her, almost stepping on her heels

You end up absent mindedly following her into the grocery store and eventually she just freezes, turns, and stare directly at you

Your eyes widen since you must’ve been staring and she just goes “may I ask why you’re following me?” And you explain how cool she was earlier. She invites you over for dinner (esp since her older brother won’t be home) and figured it’d be good for Hakkai to meet someone his age

You end up going over but Hakkai didn’t come down to eat so you never actually got to meet him, though from then on you would see Yuzuha every so often, visit every other weekend or so

But no matter how often you came over the next few months, you never once met hakkai,

That was until you both reached the end of your middle school education and we’re about to begin high school

You had gone over because you were going to borrow an old work book from Yuzuha, and when you go to knock on the door the door opens before your closed fist could hit it, instead hitting a firm chest

You blush and quickly apologize but the person in front of you doesn’t move at all, doesn’t say anything and almost looks like they drifted into space with their dead stare

You assume this is yuzuha’s older brother because you’ve also never met him and you immediately turn to walk away but Yuzuha calls over hakkai’s shoulder

“Y/N-Chan! You just got here where are you going?” This was def not yuzuha’s older brother. There’s no way she’d be that happy with him around; oh my god. Realization hit, the guy who you hit (though it was more of a tap) was hakkai.

The hakkai you had only caught a glimpse of in yuzuha’s photos, never talked to or actually seen in person despite going to the same school and living in the same neighborhood

He must hate you. That’s why he avoids you. That’s def why - is what you think

Yuzuha drags hakkai back inside and invites you in; you sit down with them in the living room and watch hakkai visibly relax now that he’s inside his house, his own space, with a pillow behind him and a blanket covering his lower half, he almost curls up into it as he continues to avoid your stare

“Hi hakkai…Kun? Im L/N Y/N” you say and you see his face dead pan once again

Yuzuha can be heard laughing from the kitchen as she comes back in.

She leans over and begins explaining that hakkai literally just freezes with any interaction between him and girls who aren’t in his family

You nod, thinking maybe it’s an anxiety thing? Which is the case with you, but only because he’s been watching you since you’ve come over (not in a creepy way) wanting to and working the courage up to talk to you

The 5th or so time you came over after that encounter he was inches away from introducing himself before the house phone rang causing everyone to kind of “wake up” in a sense

Every time since then he gets closer and closer but isn’t able to say anything; he even realizes he has a crush on you.

The way you sit when you do homework and how cute you look when you’re focused.

How your forehead scrunches up when you’re trying to figure something out and you end up just sitting back with a small huff followed by yuzuha’s signature laughter.

It’s also a huge thing that you get along with Yuzuha.

So enough with first meeting time for the confession.

He ends up confessing accidentally. He didn’t know you were coming over to begin with so he was flustered out of his mind. And how was he supposed to know you hadn’t actually fallen asleep and you could hear him over the tv

The tv was more white noise than anything and the day was hot since it was the middle of summer causing the window to be open and the sound of soft wind and small birds to drift in; this was the hot that makes you tired so you were all sprawled out of just sitting in a daze

So while resting your head on the table you’re dozing in and out but then you hear hakkai begin to speak, something he never really did around you

Now did you and hakkai text? Yes. Did it take him an hour to reply because his brain would explode when you replied to him? Yes. But was it a start to communication? Also a yes.

You hear him say your name quietly before he moved closer, you can feel his gaze on your features

“I like you” is all he says. Simple and sweet. But you sit there in shock, trying not to blush so he’ll have no idea you heard him but he can tell because your forehead scrunches

You heard him and are focused on if you should reply or not. And he knows that.

You open your eyes and just look up at him, he’s closer than expected. His hand close to yours on the floor and he reaches over and grabs it lightly. Hoping you’ll also return the gesture by holding his hand instead of leaving your hand limp inside his.

And you do, thank goodness, and Hakkai almost mentally can’t handle it.

Once you start dating it’s more so just hanging out at his house or yours; however he talks a bit more and you text a lot more. He’s gotten better at replying. It usually takes him like 15 minutes now

He’s kinda stressed about your relationship but not due to anything you or him did

He’s stressed because of the mentality his older brother gave him

Is he even allowed to be this happy?

He finally has someone thats small enough and naive enough that he can protect you; compared to constantly being protected it’s a sudden, strong, yet good change for him

He’s touch s t a r v e d

Yes Yuzuha shows affection; but he stopped accepting her hugs when he was around 8 just because he physically wasn’t able to handle it due to his bruises and such

But with you, even with his bruises and all you take care of him. Able to coax him into using medicines and toning down the physical violence (that he can control himself)

He also finds it super soothing when you lightly brush over his scars (especially those that his brother gave him), it helps him believe that scars are only physical and can fade with help

One thing that stresses him out the most is trying to hide you from his brother. Any time you leave something at the house its easy to pass it off as yuzuha's but when it comes to things like photos he has with you, he can't hang them up, show them off, or have them as his phone Lock Screen, etc. because he just really doesn't want his brother to know and target you since he'll then know that you're his weakness (aside from yuzuha as well)

Sometimes won't explain why he can't hang out and has legit pushed you out of his house before at the last minute notice of his brother coming home

Will always make sure you get home safe though, usually by having Yuzuha go with you since then she can just say you're a friend from school

Your parents love him, though they were a bit hesitant it became a "you always have a place to stay" because they learned about their family situation from you and yuzuha. So expect him to spend the night when he's too scared to deal with his brother. Same with yuzuha. (yes I know this isn't yuzuha head canons but its hard to write for him without mentioning her when they're so close)

We're talking three person sleep overs. Yuzuha and you of course share the bed and Hakkai takes some time to even set foot in your room much less sleep on a mattress that's on the floor

He has a small heart attack every time he comes into your room because he's overwhelmed with everything, he's never been so comfortable and it makes him feel restless. Like he's never and I mean n e v e r been less stressed and slept better than when he does so in your room

The smell, the colors, just being surrounded by you is something that completely changes his mood

Once showed up after he fought with his brother, tears in his eyes and clothes a bit tattered and you just pulled him to your room, and sat down with him.

You laid on your bed with him laying down onto of you, head on your chest as you rubbed his head and only said a few words "its not your fault"

He ends up crying so hard he falls asleep and gets dehydrated and you have to make him drink a bunch of water when he finally wakes up.

NSFW

super fucking careful w you

almost annoyingly so, but you're understanding

He knows that he might be taking things frustratingly slow but he knows that since you understand and know his history that you can help him get through it

Your first time you think you'll have to call it off because he's shaking so bad

"baby... are you sure it won't hurt you?" he keeps asking.

pretty sure that's the longest its ever taken him to finish because he was so anxious

despite being so slow and hesitant, late he isn't too scared to get a bit rougher

but im not talking anything crazy im talking like he's willing to pull your hair a bit or nip a bit harder at your neck.

Please never ask him to do anything like degrade you or some type of harsh physical rough shit, he can't

like literally im 99% sure that if you ask him to choke you or something he will pass out because of the anxiety attack he would have at even the thought.

in short with nsfw though he is sweet boy. He's a switch through and through. Loves when you take care of everything because then he doesn't have to be scared of hurting you.

[armorsleevedsinglehit]

the huge shippuden music meta

no one asked for this but i’m gonna write it anyway. i’m going to focus primarily on the shippuden soundtrack here, but expect some references to the original series soundtrack as well. also before i begin i know approximately two (2) music so some of my terminology is probably going to be incorrect lol, it’s been a while since college. this is a general shippuden meta but it does focus on the uchiha clan, in particular sasuke and madara.

anyway, to start off, you can pretty easily divide the shippuden soundtrack into a few general categories:

traditional and/or acoustic

electric guitar tracks

some combination of these, plus orchestra hits aplenty

there are a few odd ducks here and there, but no worries, we’ll get to them. and then within these general categories we have a series of recurring character motifs (which can be a bit muddled, because certain themes are used for multiple characters. i assume that naruto (the show) isn’t necessarily scored the way a film would be, and so the directors just slapped whatever dramatic/sad/upbeat music they could find onto a scene, esp if it’s a filler ep, which definitely generates some confusion.) but characters and groups in shippuden DO sort of get their own motifs and themes, so here is my very basic list of those as well:

uzumaki clan and its descendants/allies: “emergence of talents/hyakkaryōran” has a very cool melody towards the end that comes back in “narukami/weeping god” and “shoryu/rising dragon”. we can basically call this the protagonist theme. naruto, sakura, kakashi, jiraiya, most of the konoha 11, and even minato get to claim this one. however, VERY interestingly, narukami is what plays when tobi (as madara) is telling sasuke about the glory days of the uchiha clan... possibly hinting at greater connections between the two clans???????????

akatsuki-related themes: i won’t link a ton of these because they’re super obvious. they’re often full of choir and organ (harkening back to orochimaru’s original series theme); they also tend to be slower. not always, though; look at crimson flames, a slapper if i ever heard one. prime example of akatsuki themes: girei, my FAVORITE bit of the shippuden soundtrack. UGH.

general shippuden themes: things like hurricane suite, heaven-shaking event, etc. most of the first ost goes in here. this category also contains the closest approximation to hashirama’s theme that i could find, experienced many battles and departure to the front lines, which both make me cry lol

there are other fun little motifs and bits and bobs that appear in this soundtrack that i won’t get into here for length (remind me to talk about the angelic herald of death sometime), but it’s a remarkably cohesive piece of work to the point where it gets repetitive sometimes; why are all the super interesting tracks unreleased!!!!??? anyway the purpose of this meta is to attempt to make sense of the way this soundtrack works. we’ll investigate sasuke primarily because i feel that he really ties the whole soundtrack together, and you can extrapolate a lot from the way his theme evolves.

sasuke’s theme (wandering/hyouhaku), yes the dramatic cowboy music theme, is this wonderfully atmospheric track that makes use of the kind of negative space between guitar strums to build up this aura, this Essence of Sasuke. this alone makes it stand apart from other mostly-acoustic pieces on the soundtrack, to me. the whole thing is just humming with this simmering frustration and melancholy and it really gives you a sense of sasuke as this tortured figure who has been severely wronged and experienced the world’s faults firsthand. notably, this version of sasuke’s theme lifts its opening notes (and structure, sorta) from sasuke’s original series theme, which i assume was on purpose. it shows that he’s grown jaded as he got older, i think.

anyway, as the inevitable battle between sasuke and itachi draws closer, we get our first variation on sasuke’s theme: black spot/kokuten. it has the same melody and structure as before, but features heavier guitars, more orchestration, and, in the final bars, notes that previously fell on 1 and 4 but now fall on 1 and 3, which bring a heightened sense of urgency to the whole thing. and more importantly, it ends without resolving itself? it leaves us hanging on this almost call-and-response bit with one wailing guitar after another, before winding the orchestration down and fizzling back down to the level of “wandering.” here we see a sasuke in progress, if you will, working towards a goal that some may find sinister, but he is determined if nothing else, and the instruments match his fervor. it’s roughly analogous to “crimson flames” in terms of intensity, but it’s very distinctly Sasuke.

there are several more variations of sasuke’s theme floating around, but the next one i want to talk about is this one called “sasuke’s ninja way,” apparently, never officially released but relentlessly employed by the anime directors. it takes a more subtle turn than “black spot,” but i don’t see it as a direct sequel to “wandering” for a few different reasons. i think it represents the dilemma sasuke found himself after finally killing itachi and learning the truth about him: the realization that this whole quest for power of his was never really about revenge on one specific person, but rather about reforming the shinobi world as a whole. it’s slower than “black spot,” yet darker, more ominous; it treads the same general path as “wandering” but with added electric guitar, and, notably, choir. recall that choir is often used for themes related to the akatsuki, which i think ties in neatly with sasuke’s motivations at this point. he, like nagato before him, wants to remake the world.

the final iteration of sasuke’s theme, “sasuke’s revolution/junkyousha,” brings it all together. the akatsuki is commonly represented through choir and organ, and this theme starts out with both of these cranked up to the max. this is (pardon the pun) sasuke’s rebirth, if you will. just combine the intensity of “girei,” the anger of “crimson flames,” and the determination of “emergence of talents” and you’re there. seriously: this culmination of sasuke’s character development basically pulls from every single facet of the soundtrack and produces this MASSIVELY rich piece full of anger and rage and hate and fury, while STILL managing to include the twangy guitar bits from “wandering” (which have gone back to 1 and 4!!). we also have someone going ham on a shamisen towards the end of the track, which calls to mind the shamisen solo from “emergence of talents” and other tracks. hinting at an eventual compromise with naruto, possibly?

anyway, i started out this meta trying to find a piece of the soundtrack that could serve as madara’s theme, but i wasn’t sure that one existed. i think the susano’o has a theme, and the uchiha clan has a theme, but....madara just doesn’t?? sure there are unreleased tracks like “legendary uchiha,” but i’d argue that doesn’t really go into his character as much as it just says “watch out for this fucking guy.”

but then i listened to hurricane suite one more time, and i was like HOLY SHIT THIS IS IT. for one thing, it’s long as fuck: this track is a whole journey. it really gives the impression of someone who has lived an impossibly long life and become jaded and cruel and hardened. i realize that the argument could be made that hurricane suite is sasuke’s theme, not madara’s, or that it’s a general shippuden theme and doesn’t represent one character in particular. and yes, i think both of these interpretations are correct. hurricane suite represents what sasuke could POTENTIALLY turn out to be, given his evolution from “wandering” to “black spot” to “sasuke’s ninja way” all the way to “sasuke’s revolution.” hurricane suite warns us that sasuke can (and very well may!) make the same mistakes madara did and end up destroying himself in the process. (the middle of “hurricane suite” GREATLY resembles “wandering.”) and recall that hurricane suite is used in the very first episode of shippuden: the episode where naruto encounters sasuke for the first time, AND- are you ready for this- when madara’s name is dropped for the first time in the series.

this is why i think that, along with it being a general shippuden theme, hurricane suite is also madara’s theme. shippuden as a whole is practically suffocating under the oppressive weight of madara’s presence, right from the very first episode. even before he’s introduced, he is VERY much there. so much of madara’s character is established before he even shows up. we hear so much about him from other characters (kurama, itachi, obito, hashirama), and as such our view of madara changes drastically over the course of the series. and guess what plays when itachi shows sasuke that genjutsu of madara stealing izuna’s eyes?

anyway, in my opinion and in my interpretation of the character, the music fits him perfectly. it starts out all low and choral with these slow ominous drums and deep strings, and this violin comes in that sounds like it’s weeping. we hear something like a heartbeat that grows darker over time, before the music comes to some sort of resolution, an inflection point, and the brass comes in heavy. NOW we’re dealing with the orchestra, three quarters of the way into the song, and we’ve got strings and drums set to a marching pace, more choral chanting, climbing strings and shamisen tumbling down the scales. it sounds like grief!!

and note that yes, this track is used in the very first episode of shippuden, during naruto and sasuke’s first encounter. but it is ALSO used during the scene in hashirama’s flashback when izuna is mortally wounded and madara makes the decision to abandon the clan on the battlefield to take care of him, despite his better judgment and hashirama’s offering of peace. the inflection point in the music represents a very real inflection point in madara’s life: the loss of his last brother. (it always comes back to that, doesn’t it.)

[xslater]

we got a live one here, folx! california native, former air force computer nerd, budding conspiracist, grandspawn of george alby. without further ado......

JORDAN ALBY-SLATER  — THIRTY-TWO  —  IT MANAGER AT THE NOUVEAU HOTEL AND RESORT.

TRIGGER WARNINGS: drug use, drowning.

as u can probably already tell from the name, yes jordan is related to george alby. he’s one of the old geezer’s grandchildren, to be specific! his mother is george’s daughter.

born in santa monica, ca, jordan’s family spent every summer at pleasance. he’d always particularly loved taking boat rides on the lake. he had a group of friends here in pleasance that he always hung out with whenever he was in town and they’d usually smoke some pot, take some pills, so when jordan started seeing and hearing a woman in the lake, he just attributed it to the drugs.

which brings us to june 2006 - jordan had just turned 17 and was taking a boat ride by himself and the next thing he knew, he was soaking wet, lying on dirt, surrounded by concerned faces, among those of which his mother and grandfather. apparently, someone saw him just jump into the water and when it took some time before he resurfaced, they decided to go after him. he remembered nothing of this story.

after that, the summers at pleasance stopped. jordan never bothered asking why they couldn’t go back for he simply assumed that there was some kind of animosity between his mother and grandfather since they seemed to have stopped communicating with each other as well.

fast forward 2 years. jordan enlisted in the air force and trained to become a cyberspace operations officer. he was eventually based in san antonio, texas and things had only gotten weirder from there.

he started receiving radio frequencies transmitted from somewhere in ohio. and not only was he not able to pinpoint the exact coordinates from where the signals were coming, but he couldn’t even decipher what they meant or who they were even meant for.

he never told anyone about this, least of all his superiors. so for years, he kept this information solely to himself, documented every occurrence, tried to figure out the patterns. this obviously took out a huge chunk of his time, but that was the least of his concerns; somehow, he’d fallen into a more troubling drug habit than what he’d been dabbling in when he was younger, which alarmed his coworkers the less he showed up for work, and when he did show up, he was rarely himself. a simple drug test was enough to confirm what jordan had been up to, resulting to his immediate dismissal.

jordan moved back to santa monica with his parents and was admitted into a rehabilitation facility for his substance abuse issues. the program was successful and he managed to start building his life back up. he made himself useful at his father’s store and even rented out his parents’ garage as his temporary residence ( also because they didn’t yet trust him to live on his own ). what they didn’t know, however, was that he’d taken some files from san antonio with him and was covertly continuing his investigation on the sound frequencies.

eventually, he was able to locate the source of the transmissions. needless to say, seeing pleasance’s coordinates on the map couldn’t have been any more surprising.

he needed to follow the trail before it goes cold, so he told his parents that he wanted to move to pleasance for a change of scenery, help out at his grandfather’s hotel. george alby was more than happy to take his grandson in seeing as one of jordan’s older siblings was already the hotel’s manager. jordan, given his previous work experience, would be the new head of the it department.

he’s been in pleasance for six months now and has been continuing his research, which has been frustratingly slow in terms of progress, if there’s any at all. 

WANTED CONNECTIONS!

siblings (3) - jordan has an older brother and an older sister - one of which is currently the manager of nouveau hotel and resort - and a younger sister. 

summer lovin - jordan used to always come to pleasance every summer with his family until he was 17. this character would’ve started off as a summer friend but as they grew older, it became more apparent that there was definitely an attraction there. they probably hooked up for the first time the summer that jordan drowned and that was the last they’ve ever heard of each other until jordan returned 6 months ago.

kings and queens of summer - basically jordan’s group of friends he would always hang out with whenever he was in town for the summer until he was 17. 

neighbor - probably met when jordan was helping them set up a router or some other tecchy stuff and since then their doors have been constantly open to each other - they probably have keys to each other’s houses too, tbh. the neighbor also maybe occasionally just comes over to check in on jordan esp if they’re a friend of george alby, kind of like someone coming over to water somebody’s plant, only it’s a human plant.

fellow investigator - somebody who’s actively looking into the strange phenomena in town, not necessarily the same frequencies that jordan’s trying to monitor but they could totally put all their findings together at some point to make better sense of things.

ESTABLISHED CONNECTIONS!

to be updated.

[mego42]

I 100% agree about wanting more fanfic lists! I honestly think it's the best way to get a variety. Everybody has personal preferences, if someone, who mostly reads long, fluffy au Brio fic, is making recs, they're not likely to mention short, angsty, canon Brio (which is understandable and fair!) so ideally someone else, who does like those, would also do recs. I'm pretty sure I've read or at least tried the vast majority of Brio fics, but the recs often make me re-read the fic and author.

YAAASSSS!!! I mean like, okay, I v much get why people have issues with rec lists, and I def do not by any stretch endorse the idea that recs/rec lists should be considered anything other than one person sharing a think they liked, but to me a lot of the issues (the same fics/authors getting recced, feeling like awesome fics/authors are going unrecognized) can be solved by more reccing, not less. everyone’s got different taste and different stuff they look/read for and I am extremely pro sharing that.

Idk, I think about it like this: in a previous internet life I was a YA book blogger and I lived and died by recs from other bloggers whose taste and preferences I knew. I mean, you know, I’d check out a book bc the premise sounded interesting but literally the first thing I would do was go to Goodreads and look for a handful of people who tended to like the same books I did and see what they were saying about it bc that was the best way to get a good idea of if I wanted to give it a shot. Or, on the flip side, there were some people whose reviews I followed bc I knew we v much did not read for the same things so if they hated a book for X, Y and Z reasons, I was probs going to like it (one thing about book blogging is if you want to keep current, you do not have a lot of time to mess around, snap judgements are key but that’s a whole other thing and idk if it’s even relevant anymore bc that landscape has changed so much). 

ANYWAY, the point is, I got in the habit and now I do the same thing with fic bc, tbh, I don’t have a ton of time to read, esp not when I’m actively writing which, with the exception of the last week or two, I’ve been doing p non-stop since I got here. All of which to say is, I am desperately in favor of fic recs for purely selfish reasons, I need them! Give them to me!!! Please!!!!!

That said, I uh, am v bad at returning the favor and I recognize that (I think I’ve made what? two rec lists for this fandom?) so I will try to do better to live by my own, idek what this is, moving on and here are 10 recs not really thematically linked by anything other than I’ve read them and loved them and don’t think I’ve put any of them on one of my rec lists yet (and if I have, my blog is a trainwreck I cannot be expected to remember what’s on it LET ME LIVE):

The Goodest Boy by EnsignDisaster

There’s a key turning in the lock and Buddy rushes over to greet his Master excited for her to meet his new friends. The door opens and he dances around Master’s feet rejoicing on the fact that she’s made it home. It's been literally forever.

“Hey Buddy what’s wrong? Need to go potty? Need to pee-pee?”

“Nah he’s good we took him out.”

Master does something very unMasterlike, she drops all the food she’d brought in on the ground and screams. It’s a non traditional avant garde type of hello…Buddy loves it. Mostly because while Master taps furiously on her small light box and sits tense in the corner opposite his new friend Buddy can lick up the egg smashed on the hardwood floor.

Buddy! The! Dog! POV! no further explanation necessary. Technically WIP, but it covers the whole pilot in a way that could be read as standalone (THOUGH THAT WOULD V MUCH GIVE ME A SAD though, when did the show forget the Bolands had a dog? so maybe that’s a tragic casualty of canon, idk)

May The Moon’s Silvery Beams by @pynkhues

Emma hums in agreement, and Rio turns her around to sit her on the counter, grabbing one of the older looking boxes of muesli while she kicks her legs out, heels bumping back against the counter, watching him. He gropes around the inside of the box, finally just opting to pull the plastic cereal bag out and peering inside. He can’t quite keep the grin off his face when he sees the wad of cash lining the bottom. This woman kills him, she really does.

Then there’s a little face peering up beside him, trying to peek into the box.

“What is it?” she asks, and he tilts the box sideways so she can see inside.

The upside to not getting here until s3 is that old fic is new to me! Huzzah!! Idk how many of y’all have already read this on but if you haven’t I highkey recommend. Extremely cute take on what if Emma woke up when Rio and came by to collect his/Beth’s/whoever's money during the shutdown. Cannot believe I’m reccing kidfic. Witchcraft!!!!!!

Maybe You’re My Fantasy by ohmisterjapan

He fucking loves the involuntary. It speaks to how he likes to unlock chaos and walk away. He's been called a control freak before and it felt like such a misunderstanding of him - he's all about self control but he doesn't want to control others. It's more that he enjoys revealing to them how little they can control themselves. It's more that he likes to stand still in the eye of someone else's storm and pick coldly through the wreckage.

Another oldie but a goodie. This fic is more like an extended character study (first chapter Rio POV, second chapter Beth) and I LIVE FOR THIS KIND OF SHIT. I really really really love the take on both characters, it really digs in and pulls out some nuances that made me sit and think about my own read of them and I love it.

A Shock Of Blue by mintletters16

“You don’t look very well. Would you… like me to get you a glass of water or something?”

Her voice is low but smooth, laced with a softness that cuts straight though to his core. Strawberry blonde locks fall gently just above the pair of magnets freezing him in place.

He can still feel the chaos tearing through his veins - emanating from the gold plated gun stuffed in his waistband - and suddenly he can’t be here anymore. Can’t meet this wide-eyed gaze that’s been locked on his for the past God-knows-how-long anymore.

Can’t see blue alive and concerned when he just left it cold and void somewhere in oblivion.

She’s looking at him like he’s on the brink of madness. He thinks maybe he is.

Apparently, it’s backlist rec day over here and I’m not sorry. This one is another technical WIP but the chapter works as a standalone (BUT if the author decided to return to it I WOULD NOT BE MAD). It’s a what if Beth and Rio met pre-canon and it works so!!! well!!!! The tension and fascination and build are all *chef’s kiss* plus the writing is gorgeous and lyrical and ugh, I love it.

for a moment we were strangers by openhearts

“We got stuff,” Rio motions with a nod to the backpack Beth hadn’t noticed when they arrived hanging on the back of one of the chairs at the island.

She swallows and turns back to the dishes, realizing Rio apparently means to sleep there , assuming the place isn’t bugged.  Or for some kind of cover story if it is.  She turns and fixes Rio with a narrow-eyed stare, studying his face, the corner of his jaw especially prominent from the angle she’s looking up at him.  He’s methodical about drying each dish and setting it back on the rack, maddeningly ignoring her hard stare, so when he goes to take the next plate from her hands she grips it tightly and gets his attention.

“Hey.”

“What you on about now?” he asks, irritated.

It gets her gut uneasy, how he’s just . . . there, settling in, in ways he never had before, no matter how nonchalantly he would let himself in through her locked doors.  

“This is,” Beth tries, failing, to find words for it, “. . . it’s weird .”

This one takes place post 204 and Rio and Marcus end up spending a long weekend staying with Beth and Emma for reasons (that work, for the record, I’m just not trying to summarize rn) and it’s domestic and cute but honestly my fav part of it is how weirded out Beth is by how easily they slip into sync. The story does an excellent job balancing where they are in canon (uneasy post-sex truce) with a snapshot of what they could be if they got over themselves (HA! as if) and Beth is DEEPLY FREAKED which makes her slow slide into realizing she could maybe sort of kind of oh shit like it/him??? that much more satisfying.

Not So Careful by @bensonstablers

When he doesn’t answer, her eyes go to his but he’s too busy watching the letter opener which is still pressed against the back of his hand. Curiously, Beth runs it up his arm, careful not to press too hard, and smiles a little as he shivers. Pulling her leg up onto the bed, she shuffles closer to him before pressing the tip of the sword to his chest and slowly circling his left nipple with it, being sure not to get too close.

“You ain’t gotta be that careful.”

And when she lifts her eyes to meet his, he’s got that look. The one that always makes a lump form in her throat and for her to fall back into bed with him without a single thought of what they have to do that day. Only thing is, this time they’ve got nothing to do for the rest of the weekend and well, staying in bed the entire time had seemed like an appealing idea so she allows herself to give in a little to that look.

It makes me EXTREMELY SAD that knifeplay ranked so low on the kink survey so I’m gonna need y’all to check out this V V V EXCELLENT example of it and come back and tell me you’re sorry and you voted wrong. I am v reasonable what are you talking about.

love (where it wasn’t supposed to be) by @lilliloves

"You know what I can't stand?" Rio asks, stepping closer. It's a rhetorical question but he pauses for a second and watches Dean sniff, watches a bead of sweat trickle down his forehead, watches him shift on both his feet as he contemplates making a run for it.

"A guy who don’t realize how good he's got it." Rio continues, looking Dean up and down in disgust. "A guy that will literally fuck up a good thing just to get his dick wet."

"Yeah, well I can't stand a guy who can have anyone he wants but chooses the married woman he's not entitled to.” Dean shoots back. "And I really can't stand the fact that you're always in the room with us even when you aren't there."

And who brings him into the room Dean hmmmmm????? Jk, jk (or am I). In this one Rio catches Dean out on the town with another woman (bc of course he is) and tries to call him out but whoops! gets called out himself. I really love the like, idk, undercurrent of wistful regret in this fic. I love Dean straight up calling Rio out on his feelings (spoilers but there’s an exchange right after this one that made me straight up holler), and, you know, obvs I am here for Rio making Dean feel like an ass. 

Hell Is Other People by makemanybraver

Rio: We're in Hell, Elizabeth! If you don't think you belong here, then repent! Don't fuck everyone in the room in hopes that you get to go out!

Beth: Why do I have to repent?!

Rio: Because you did some fucked up shit in your life, Elizabeth! You keep doing fucked up shit here, too! And you think you don't belong here!

Beth [screaming at the top of her lungs]: Because I don't!

This fic is existentially bonkers and I love it. It’s the kind of experimental format/homage/what have you kind of thing that I L O V E. Based on No Exit by Jean-Paul Sartre, Beth, Rio, and Fitzpatrick are stuck together in a room in hell for all eternity. What more do you need, honestly.

Working On Things by odenkirk

Unknown Hold up, Elizabeth. I'm really thinkin about you here.

Beth turned her face into the pillow, effectively suffocating herself for a moment, but thinking it was a good trade off for the way the cool silk of her pillowcase chilled her skin.

She lifted her head to glance at the still sleeping Dean before replying.

Beth I'm thinking about you too. But this can't happen.

She wanted him to know she wanted him, but she also thought that admitting she was already there would save Rio from trying to convince her. She wanted him, but morals had to win just once in a while.

YES this is technically Beth/Dean while also being Beth/Rio BUT it’s also sort of Rio/Dean and I am HERE FOR THE DIVERSITY OF SHIPPING leave me alone who asked you.

Five Times He Knew What She Was Thinking, and One Time He Didn't by JoeyLee

Aight, so tell ‘em I was hittin’ it. Said deliberately blunt, eyes locked on her face the whole time, just to see those blue eyes widen. She looked so shocked that he almost laughed, so he softened it teasingly just to keep her going. Oh, I’m sorry, sweetheart, tell ‘em we were makin’ love.

Then he just watched her, just watched her face, just fucking fascinated. Her lips were parted and her eyes were big as saucers, and…there it was. Before she could look away flustered, he watched the thought go through her mind. Him and her together.

He wondered what she was picturing or where. Them in the back seat, her bed, a motel?  Her on top or him from behind or his face between her legs?

Whatever it was, the blush started immediately, and he watched it bloom out from her cheeks to her hair. Then she was tearing her eyes away to gulp a little.  But it didn’t knock her down for long before she was looking back. And then, wait, was she actually asking him how to go about telling a fed they were fucking?

Okay this is another technical WIP but works as a standalone. I am absolutely fucking feral for character POV takes of canon scenes and this is a supremely excellent take on Rio POV of some notable scenes from the pilot through 204. Imo it brilliantly captures Rio’s voice and I love it a lot. 

HEADS UP I am absolute shite at tracking ao3 to tumblr unless people have specifically told me someone’s ao3/tumblr name SO if you recognize any of the non-tumblr authors on please lmk so I can tag them and YES I recognize that I am asking y’all to do things for me throughout this entire post and I’M SORRY OKAY I’M A WHOLE ASS MESS LOVE YOU BYE

[kpop-ruined-my-social-life]

Taeyong NS*W Alphabet

Gonna put this under the cut cause I know some of yall wanna get to some other writings or something + these can get super long with all the gaps

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Big on aftercare but you share the responsibility, esp if he is super tired after

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Loves his arms and hands, honestly he is fine choking you if you want him to but just know he isn’t going to do it hard because it low key scares him when you gasp for breath. On you he loves your collarbones, marks them all the time and kisses them, likes giving you shoulder massages for this reason

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Clean, wears a condom and if he cums on you he wipes it away almost immediately

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Wants to try pet play, ears and collar and maybe even the leash but that is really it

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

None really, but he knows what he thinks he’ll like you know what I mean?

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Likes being able to see each other’s face so you can tell if something is going wrong, he doesn’t want to hurt you and doesn’t want to go over any boundaries even if you have a safeword he is just a sweet boy so

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

When trying something new or a new toy or something that can be funny, like him holding a small vib and trying to figure out how to turn it on or if it is dead or something makes you both crack up, one time he lost the cuffs to your handcuffs and he had to break the middle so you could help him look, turns out it was literally on the bed side table just behind a cup

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Honestly doesn’t groom that much but that is because he doesn’t grow a lot of hear there, it is a bit thick but def isn't that long so he doesn’t think he needs to that often

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Pretty intimate but because he is new to it he is also just sometimes super awkward

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Maybe 3 times a week at most, 1 a week at least

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

If he is in dom space he wants to tie you up and do anything and everything you’ll let him. If he is in sub space make him feel used but not abused.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Mainly the bedroom but you have done it in a dressing room a few times before or after shows

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Literally random, he is still in that phase of random things turning him on even if they shouldn’t or wouldn’t most of the time even though he is a bit older and out of his teenage years

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

As soon as he senses too much pain he is s o f t he doesn’t want to hurt you or be hurt too much so it just wont come up

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Likes both giving and receiving alike doesn’t matter to him

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Changes, if it is a quickie or he is in hard dom space then def rough and fast if soft dom and taking time then slow and sweet wants to make you feel loved

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Doesn’t prefer them but def is not opposed to them either

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He would risk everything except too much pain and/or getting caught he just doesn’t like the thought of hurting you or him and doesn’t want someone else to ever see him or you like that because that is only for the two of you

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Decent but he only goes like one round of both foreplay and sex every time you guys do it, can go more if you want but most of the time he is just too tired

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Down to try anything, doesn’t really want to try pegging or like cock cages or something but def will use simple toys quiet often

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Tease? Him? He would nneeeevvveerrrr? Nah he is the biggest tease. Even when he doesn’t realize it he is teasing proven fact

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Loud whines but low and quiet groans and moans, sometimes whimpers but only when he cums and sometimes he gasps when something feels super super good and breaths super heavy no matter what

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Loves mutual masturbation, esp if you guys are like watching a movie or something and just slipping a hand down the other’s pants. He doesn’t know why but it is just the best 

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Pretty average, prob like 6-6.5in, below average thickness but he learns how to make up for his shortcomings super fast

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Pretty high but can hold off until it is literally painful. Maybe 4 times a week minimum, if he is holding off 1-2 times a week, at most like 1 a day or even more

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Pretty much right after everything is over he is turned over facing you or laying on his stomach and off to dream land

[furubase]

Posting this ask from my main (gotta stay consistent)! Hope you don’t mind anon!

This is actually a great question because you’re right, I have no idea why I put Ayame/Mine and Arisa/Kureno on the same level. The truth is, outside his relationship with Yuki, I find Ayame very boring, so I don’t really mind his relationship status (don't know if him being gay would have changed anything though). Arisa and Kureno though? They’re both very interesting on their own, and I really like them. I think my interpretation of some of the core themes of the show isn’t too far off, but the way Kureno’s arc plays its part in it is very much a personal interpretation, so bear with me here. 

So. To be quick, yes, the age gap is probably one of the issues, along with the way their romantic arc is the only thing that ties them together until issue 22 (and I tend to consider issue 23 as an epilogue of sort). Theirs is a very strange romance overall, and I think it all boils down to frustration. 

I think most people aren’t squeamish about age gaps as much as they are about power imbalances, so to be fair, Arisa and Kureno are much better off on this front than Katsuya/Kyoko. Arisa is 18, eight years younger than Kureno, so at that ambiguous age where it’s “okay” to date someone older, but also weird when older men are interested in her. It’s pretty obvious that their relationship is heading towards romance but I’m of the mind they take it very slow, so it’s more how it happens that concerns me. (Still, I think it’s important to keep in mind all of the parallels between Arisa/Kureno and Katsuya/Kyoko, although they’re a much healthier version).

I really like that Arisa is given the revelation in chapter 127 that she knows next to nothing about Kureno. She’s intrigued, she has a crush, sure. But we’re only ever shown on one occasion that they would maybe be a good match together (same thing with Mayu/Hatori tbh, but at least we’re told that they’ve known each other for a long time). I don’t really see how her feelings for him evolved into more than a crush. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Where do their arcs lead to? Once she meets him, Uo doesn’t really have an arc that doesn’t revolve around her romance with Kureno. At the end of the series, she has to let go of Tohru, and she has to figure out what comes after high school (she just wants to work and start her life, without any specifics). I think it would have done wonders for her character to be shown struggling with the freedom the end of high school grants her, especially given her past. It would have given her an endpoint to look towards, but also a thematic motif that ties her to the Junichi and to Kureno especially - the one who lost the ability to fly.

Kureno’s arc is very dissonant, compared to the rest of the Zodiac. It’s all about freedom and what to do with it. He’s refused it once, and it shaped his life in a way that has hurt him in the long run. I think it’s fair to say that Kureno was a victim of emotional abuse - a dependency that started when Akito was very young and that he feels responsible for. There’s this ambiguity in Kureno in that he’s the most lonely of the twelve, and still that he’s completely shackled to Akito. So letting Akito go means setting himself up to be alone, and that’s probably something that scares him. 

Kureno’s arc is infinitely bittersweet to me. All the other members of the Zodiac understand, with Tohru’s influence, that to help out the world and make it better they need to start with themselves. The easiest way to show that is to have them paired up - because love is always a bit selfish, isn’t it? Kureno hasn’t really grasped that lesson.

I don’t think this is all about Akito - Kureno needs to leave, but his words make it seem like he hasn’t grasped the simple truth that he should be doing it for himself. He’s leaving when everyone’s relationships is becoming easier, healthier. He's finally leaving, taking advantage of his freedom. He’s also ten years too late, and he's doing it with a mix of regret, devotion, and if the need to see the world finally is there, it’s pushed pretty far back. 

I don’t really like that it’s Uo - someone he barely knows - and the thought of her, her words, that pushes him to leave his situation. He’d known for a while that it was bad, that he needed to leave for both his and Akito’s sake, but it’s so clearly entangled with his romantic arc in the manga that I can’t get fully behind it. He likes Arisa because she’s strong, and independent, and funny, and a breath of fresh air, and for all the right reasons (and that’s probably where the age gap might matter, because she might be strong but she’s still 18!), but I wish he took the time to figure out how he’s strong and independent on his own. He can still do that, obviously, but this kind of “I’ll follow you anywhere” mentality, in this context... I don’t think this was the solution I wanted for either of them.

So yeah. It’s not the worst relationship, and it might have been good had it been given the proper development, and if they each had individual character arcs (esp for Uo) that sustained such a deep connection so early in their relationship. This is a complicated situation that was given too simple a resolution. As I said, I deal with it by interpreting their last appearance as the hint that there is more to the story and more to deal with, but Takaya’s insistence on giving everyone a resolutely happy ending, while cute, sealed the deal on this one for me. I really do see the appeal though.

[sttrawberries]

11 questions asked and answered (skam edition)

I was tagged by @capelli-di-merda, thank you!<3

1. Always repost the rules

2. Answer the questions given to you by the one who tagged you!

3. Give 11 questions

4. Tag 11 people

1. How did you find out about skam?

I remember that saw some posts about isak and even on twitter, I was curious about it but I didn’t do anything. A couple of months later I searched videos of them on youtube and ended up watching the whole show in two weeks (it was over airing by that time). Later on, I saw some people talking about the fact that there was going to be remakes of it and I wasn’t so sure about it I ended up watching all of them and now my life is 95% skam remakes

2. Which character (from the remakes) deserves its own season and why?

Daphne and Viri! I was so sure we will get daphne’s season but maybe, considering all of the thing they showed us, we will get it after arthur’s. And I’m definitely sure we will get at some point Viri’s season, they gave us way too many clues (but I have to admit I want Nora’s season first)

3. Some of your favorite songs that you discovered while watching skam?

A lot of them, but I’m going to check the playlists and write one of each remake, otherwise the post will get too long

They have no particular order whatsoever and they are not necessarily my first favourite from every remake

1.  human again by carl louis (feat. ary) -> skam og

2. last dance by scratch massive -> skam fr

3. jungle by tash sultana -> skam nl

4. getting older by anni b sweet  -> skam esp

5. ich will dass du mich brauchst by rin -> druck

6. self control by raf -> skam it

7. when i was older by billie eilish -> wtfock

8. no devotion by tender -> skam austin

4. Is there anything that you would like to change in any of the seasons?

I really want them to change the noora x yousef storyline in skam italia, I feel like they would waste all of the changes and progress they’ve made so far

5. Favorite version of Noora and why?

Eleonora oh what a surprise! It’s the one I feel most related to, I love all of the changes they made, I love how ele’s personality was portrayed, I love the fact that they choose to be her the one telling what happened to edoardo, I love the fact that they showed that she was the victim in that story and they didn’t made her apologise, I love every little small thing of it. Despite the fact that I think we could have got more content, I loved and I aprecciated the one's we've got

6. Favorite version of William and why?

Edoardo, I love every change they made in him, I loved that he apologised for thinking about what happened with her brother instead of how she was feeling , I loved how respectful he was, I loved when he asked her if she was ready, when he cleaned her room(?), I loved when he confessed so their friends won’t get in trouble, the fact that he went looking for her to apologise, I loved the fact that he listened to her and he didn’t interrupted her and he told her that he wouldn’t hurt her instead of the classic ‘’im here now so everything is better’, among other reasons i’m just too lazy to write

7. Top five moments from the og?

Again, they don’t have a particular order

1. noora’s panic attack scene

2. the clip where isak comes home and even is playing video games with linn

3. the party clip on eva’s birthday in s4 (also william’s comeback, but i love the part where everyone was having fun)

4. the morning clip in s1, after the girls came to eva’s house and they thought vilde was pregnant

5. william and noora’s slow-mo at s4

8. Which skam characters would you date in real life?

Probably Edoardo or Alexander, Isa or Mia

9. Would you want for the og to have more seasons?

Vilde, I’ve been curious about it after her POV clip in the last episode of s4

10. Your favorite character from the skam universe and why?

Eleonora, for the reasons I wrote before

11. Best girl and boy squad in the skam universe?

girl squad: skam nl, skam españa, wtfock

boy squad: druck, skam fr and skam it

My questions:

1.  To which character do you feel most related to?

2. Do you watch all of the remakes?

3. Did you see the og while it was airing?

4. Name 3 facts you like about every remake (or the ones you’ve seen)

5. Have you tried to convice some of your friends (or anyone) to watch skam? Did you succed?

6. How did you find about out skam?

7. First impression and what do you think about it after watching it? (it can be about any character, season or remake, you choose)

8. What did you think when you found out that there were going to make remakes of skam?

9. Favourite speech? 

10. Favourite version of every character from all of the remakes? (or pick three if you don't want to write much)

11. Favourite room from all of the one’s we’ve seen?

I tag: @air-bison-yip-yip @incantsava @ayellowcurtain @aelingalathyniux @contrabbandieri @ciaoragno @joondlxnx  @nori-sava @incantieleonora @edonori @walkingandpanicing

(do it if you want to! even if you haven’t been tagged)

[miloucomehome]

Thoughts, feelings, theories and assessments (esp. the 02 kids and adventure kids’ relationships) before the premiere of the final chapter

This sort of morphed from a short thread on Twitter with some friends a while back and it was as if a lightbulb went off in my head. There might be some holes and here and there, but hear me out (It’s long. I’m so sorry. Go make tea, a snack and come back and read)

First: If you haven’t already, rewatch the first 5 movies. It’s well worth it.

This post contains spoilers for Parts 1 through 5. No spoilers from the advance screenings of Part 6 are in this post. (I’m a spoilerphobe with tri of perhaps the highest order)

So here’s a few things:

All 12 of them seeing each other at once was not a regular thing. It wasn’t in 02 for the Adventure kids, that’s for sure and each episode showed this early on.

Them not being in daily communication for days or weeks was probably normal too given how things may have become for them as Chosen. They had no reason to worry--there was peace. Everyone was busy and had their lives

Whatever the 02 kids encountered prior to Part 1, it may have occurred swiftly. In other theories I’ve tried to come up with, this is one thing I think is a strong possibility. There’s been theories floated that maybe Maki deliberately sent them there because they were the active team, but what if in an emergency with no way to directly communicate, in desperation the 02 kids were sucked into the situation out of a sense of  duty and urgency?

Say in an emergency, Gennai (good) urgently tries to get a hold of the Chosen--anyone they can get--and they discover that communications have been hampered. They try and try and get a hold of the 02 kids first. Not all at once, but maybe somehow Ken, Daisuke, Iori and Miyako were able to link up. Maybe even Iori and Miyako suggested they try and get Takeru and Hikari, but they can't--time is of the essence and their help is needed post haste so they leave...and end up in an unwinnable situation.

While faced with this, the kids try to message for help as one by one--Imperialdramon, Hawkmon and Armadimon’s evolutions--are taken out, but they realize their message can't get through much like how Takeru's D-Terminal couldn't send messages in Part 4. (Maybe related: Koushiro notes he can’t get a hold of Gennai in Part 4) They're stuck with no way out nor way to call home and before they can run and seek shelter, they're all taken out (image of the final panning shot)

Due to the state of their relationship and not being in constant communication with one another, their “non-responsiveness” hasn't raised flags yet given the timeline of the films and ever-evolving and rapidly changing priorities. It could be in Part 6, albeit a bit late, they will realize they need them and *thats* when things click. I’ll concede that there is a bit of explaining to do on this point whether it’s a friendship question, or that “External Forces” (Homeostasis, the Agency, Mysterious Man, the World/Digital World) are at play.

(More after the jump!)

The 02 kids are missing because of an event out of their control that we can see from the opening act of Part 1: Reunion.

What happened before that dramatic moment is where my theory comes in.

We know from Takeru in Reunion that the Digital Gate has been closed for a while and even though the Adv kids are in the Digital World right now, they got there through unconventional means which bypassed that block. Let’s assume that when the Digital Gate closed, for whatever reason, it was after a period of extended peace in the Digital World--Gennai (the real one) decided that they should let him and the Agents take care of fixing it and let them relax. After all, they had defeated BelialVandemon and Oikawa became an extra barrier for the safety of the Digital World, there wasn’t any need to be worried.

Over time, maybe during this peace, the 02 kids and Adv kids find themselves in a kind of “retirement” or hiatus from their duties as Chosen. They’re not rushing to intercept trouble or prevent anyone from taking over the Digital World or being summoned by the Sovereign Digimon to reinforce the barrier between the Worlds so they all aren’t really needed at the time.

It’s very in-character for Gennai to tell the kids to take it easy. I could see him not having any reason to be concerned. “We don’t get together as much as we used to anymore”

I strongly believe Koushiro’s line in Part 1 wasn’t just a cute reference to Our War Game--where they were hampered by the fact that they could not communicate to assemble everyone, handicapping them at the start versus Diablomon--but actually a comment on the current state of their relationship between the 12 of them.

Perhaps in a similar way to Our War Game, the 2nd original film, the kids slowly settle into “normal” routines and “normal” lifestyles as Jr and Sr High School students. Perhaps as a result of this state, the Adventure kids and 02 kids aren’t really communicating or seeing each other as much--not because they’re no longer friends, but simply because there is no reason to. They’re not having hush-hush meetings in the computer lab nor strategizing at Koushiro’s apartment over the latest Digital World developments. They drift apart somewhat, but, they’re still in touch. Life is good for all involved from 2003 onward.

Joe and Miyako being in their respective final years of High School and Jr High are likely becoming consumed by their studies (but Joe isn’t quite at the stage we see him at in Part 2) everyone is leading their own lives waiting until the day they’re called again (though not expecting). Rewatching Part 1, you can see that Taichi wasn’t terribly aware of Yamato’s band activities. It’s played as a normal conversation for laughs, but I’d say it’s another way the story demonstrates how little they hang out compared to before.

I think we can safely assume their relationship is in the state it’s in is close but not I-know-every-detail-of-your-day level. After the events of Part 2: Decision/Determination, Hikari and Takeru go and try to find out what’s going on--no one answers at the Ichijouji residence (Empty? They could be out for the day (or town) and Ken is busy himself given they may not be aware of his daily activities), Takeru fires off a text to Daisuke and presumably the others. Had things not escalated as much in Part 3, they probably would’ve had more time to sleuth around and investigate and take notice of the flags, but then the infection and Meicrackmon took priority. Had this had their undivided attention, I’m sure the story would have had them speak to the older Chosen to note they couldn’t get a hold of the other four. 

(What I also find curiously interesting is that Daigo is also aware in Part 3 that the 02 kids are missing. Whatever his implication is in the events that led to their status, it’ll be interesting to learn the extent of what he knew. Given how crushed he was by the fact Maki was lying point blank to Yamato and to himself, I wouldn’t be surprised at this point if all he knew was they had lost communication with them, not that they had been ambushed)

Closed Gate = Closed Communications

We know from a few things in Part 3: Confession that, granted we are seeing a post-reboot DW, communication between the Digital World and Real World seems to be hampered as seen when Takeru tries to use his D-Terminal to message Maki but the message doesn’t go through. We could chalk this up to it being a reboot bug, but what if this “lack of reception” had been around the time when the Gates remained closed? Now wouldn’t that cause problems if any of them made it into the Digital in an emergency through unconventional means but had no ability to communicate back for help? If this had been the case, neither of them would know this was a problem. Keep this point in mind.

Something occurs suddenly in the Digital World. Maybe only the 02 kids, or only Daisuke, Iori, Miyako and Ken, are able to get to a Gate. They get there, try to get a handle on the situation they’re facing only to be up against something they couldn’t fathom even keeping at bay. Maybe the Gate was closed,(maybe those screens we see in the canyon in Part 4 were Gates that were out of service) so somehow they go in through an unconventional method, but when they get there and things escalate too quickly. Even though they may have sent messages for help...maybe they were never able to send at all.

What also occurred to me is that Meicoomon’s nature distorts with digital communications. Would its existence in the Digital World have begun a slow corrosion of digital infrastructure there? (That is: The Gate, the D3s’ Gate opening abilities, D-Terminal/Digital communication between the Real and Digital World) We can also see from Part 3 onwards that access to the Digital World is currently only being done through the distortions.

The Role of  the 02 Kids in the Final Film

Difficult to pin, but I have confidence (blind?) that we are not in for a repeat of the role of the Adventure kids during the events of Movie 3 (Hurricane Touchdown), granted there are similarities to tri.: Missing kids, a tamer with the burden of caring for a Digimon partner gone berserk who harms/kidnaps one team. In fact, I truly believe that Miyako, Daisuke, Iori and Ken are key to unlocking Omegamon Merciful Mode, like how Imperialdramon Paladin Mode was unlocked by a sacrifice, of sorts, by a heavily damaged Omegamon in Movie 4, Diablomon Strikes Back. Maybe Imperialdramon FM will reappear and sacrifice part of itself to unlock Merciful Mode, then all the kids will unlock or power the new blade it wields.

I am also Team They Will Speak (or Some Will Speak) and not Team Brief Cameo. ;;;;;

Final comment -- Regarding one scene from Part 1:

This might be random but, hear me out--Much of the thinking surrounding this opening shot with Taichi is that he was maybe feeling guilty for something, but what if it was nostalgia? Koushiro did mention that they all don’t get together or talk much anymore.

What if not only that, but what of Taichi’s scene --when coupled with his vague comment to Daigo (as teacher) about going to see some friends often but not anymore--wasn’t just about the Digimon, but just...everyone? The other Adventure kids and the 02 kids included. Peacetime and an unexpectedly long one without their Digimon and without being wound up in something with his friends….what does one do but reflect on “happier” times when in times of trouble, they were with their friends almost every day?

Everyone’s going on growing up and here he is struck with a strong sense of wanting to return to the “Good ol days” with everyone, maybe. It’s probably possible he believes that going back to that would assuage his worries a little about changes..

We’ll see what happens in the final chapter of this wonderful series on Saturday!

[galathynius]

thanks for the tag, @rayonfrozenwings!

this is long so i’ll put it under a cut

last?

drink: Water phone call: my roommate text message: my sister song you listened to: some country song that i don’t know time you cried: i got teary a couple weeks ago when talking to my sister about how she’s really struggling with starting at a new school bc i felt bad that i wasn’t there to be her friend (shoutout to pms for making an already emotional person even more of a mess)

ever?

dated someone twice: no kissed someone and regretted it: no been cheated on: no lost someone special: yes gotten drunk and thrown up: no and i never want to fave colors? purple and blue

in the last year have you?

made new friends: for sure! fallen out of love: love? don’t know her laughed until you cried: ofc found out someone was talking about you: not me specifically, but my friend group yeah met someone who changed you: does the ten seconds during which dan reynolds was in front of me count even though i didn’t speak to him found out who your friends are: i mean yeah i guess?  kissed someone on your Facebook friends list: nope

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them do you have any pets: a havanese! do you want to change your name: nah  what did you do for your last birthday: went to the melting pot with my family and to get pizza with my friends what time did you wake up today: uhhh like 8:40 but i wish i’d slept in a bit more what were you doing last night at midnight: chillin with some girls on my floor what is something you can’t wait for: the new muse album what are you listening to right now: at this very moment? the white noise from the air conditioner. in general? the same playlist of like four artists that i always listen to lol have you ever talked to a person named tom: yeah something that gets on your nerves: slow walkers and loud chewers most visited website: tumblr and discord haha hair colour: somewhere between dirty blonde and light brown long or short hair: ummm medium length? what do you like about yourself: my eyes bc i’ve been blessed with blue/gray/green and long eyelashes want any piercings: maybe my second ear piercing? but i barely wear regular earrings so idk blood type: i honestly don’t know yikes nicknames: alli/ally/allie (all of my friends spell it differently haha), gator  relationship status: never been anything but single zodiac sign: capricorn pronouns: she/her fave tv show: parks and rec is the go-to tattoos: none right or left handed: right ever had surgery: no piercings: ears sports: i used to swim, and play softball, which i miss so much. in terms of watching sports i love baseball but i’ll really watch anything, esp hockey and college basketball vacation: i think the next one we have in the books is visiting family in ireland in june trainers: like the shoes?? nike? eating: nothing drinking: nothing… i’m about to watch: college football baby !! spurs up, it’s gameday  waiting for: um... the game i guess want: floorteen boy to make the most of my college experience get married: i mean probably career: man idek hugs or kisses: both probably lips or eyes: aeyes shorter or taller: taller older or younger: uh... older? ig? nice arms or stomach: oh arms for sure hookup or relationship: currently i’d rather have a relationship troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant?

have you ever?

kissed a stranger: nope drank hard liquor: nope lost glasses: no turned someone down: yeah sex on the first date: no broken someone’s heart: don’t think so had your heart broken: no been arrested: no and i don’t plan to lmao cried when someone died: ofc fallen for a friend: eh not really

do you believe in

yourself: sometimes  miracles: sometimes love at first sight: doesn’t seem realistic. infatuation at first sight, sure kiss on the first date: if you actually like the person then yeah angels: idk i’m not religious

other?

best friend’s name: rachel eye colour: supposed to be blue but usually some combination of blue/gray/green fave movie: i’m bad at picking just one favourite actor: ^  favourite food: hmm... pasta extrovert or introvert: introvert favourite flower: sunflowers favourite hello kitty character? idk????

tagging: @mariamuses @perranth @elaln @foxway @adriata @feyrearch @zenik @emcrie @sannasketches @ladyhavilliard and anyone else who wants to do it

[starryseo]

youtuber!hyunjin

time for the man

who is more than just a pretty face

hwang hyunjin everyone :))

Chan | Woojin | Minho | Changbin | HYUNJIN | Jisung | Felix | Seungmin | Jeongin

yes, he’s beautiful

but hyunjin is also an amazing dancer and rapper can we appreciate that too

as said before, he, minho and felix all attend the same dance club so they’re really good friends

he and felix live to annoy minho as much as possible

he goes to the same school as seungmin as well so they’re quite close too

and they game together

hyunjin teaches him all the lil’ tricks and tactics

pretends seungmin’s like his little brother even though they’re just months apart

his instagram is full of videos of him and seungmin going out & he’ll make vlogs when they’re out at some exciting place like a theme park, funfair or arcade etc.

the two of them are always together outside

changbin’s jealous

speaking of social media

in a video on the shared stray kids instagram

felix mocked hyunjin’s snapchat username (it’s hyunjinyoung - nothing but love & respect for his love jinyoung ok)

and that spurred on hyunjin being attacked with lots of people adding him

and he’s just like uhhh what 

he was really confused as to how they found out and what he should do

add 100+ people?? make a new account???

he didn’t really want to make a new account though because that would mean losing his cool username :( 

he gets the most comments on his youtube videos from people saying he’s beautiful

he’ll always be like “gosh i know i’m pretty”

but lowkey he’s all like “awwww” like a blushing baby because it feels nice knowing others find you good-looking

at first he was in disbelief bc like ?? the comments are probably just exaggerating

but they continue through all of his videos so now

he prefers getting comments that are actually about the video/ dance/ game he’s posted though

like he’s practically on the hunt for people commenting on how they found his gameplay or if they liked what he choreographed

it’s kind of sad because he tries so hard, putting effort into his dancing and being fun in his game streams

but then a lot of comments are just about his face

he’s really quiet about this problem because he doesn’t want to seem ungrateful for all the comments about his beauty

but he would also appreciate comments on how skilled he is

i feel like i got kinda sad here tho so lets bring up the mood :))

he constantly sees felix replying to the comments about him being pretty

like “yEAH HE’S GOT NICE LIPS BUT DID YOU SEE THAT CARTWHEEL HE DID???”

or “his jawline could slay my life too but that 360 no scope in the fifth minute was so much more lethal APPRECIATE HIS SKILLZ GODDAMN”

the comments are funny but he’s glad that felix is out there trying to make people aware of his efforts

on a much happier note!!!!

he’s the second biggest foodie after woojin

and that’s evident when he randomly appears in woojin’s videos

like in one cut woojin’s there mixing food in a bowl

and in the next cut the whole place is clean and hyunjin’s in the back washing the equipment

he’ll do a n y t h i n g for food okay

he loves woojin’s cooking the most

because it has such a homely, loving touch (as cheesy as that sounds)

so most of his days are spent waiting for woojin

woojin went out shopping one time

came back to his house, seeing hyunjin outside his front door

hyunjin had started a live stream whilst waiting outside for him

as soon as he sees woojin he’s like

“i want cakeeeee”

and woojin’s like “??? the shops are that way - away from my house”

“why would i buy food when you can make it for me :) please :) i’ll clean your whole house :)”

so woojin’s just like eh, why not?

hyunjin always tries stealing quick tastes

he’s super sly, woojin’s never noticed ;^)

he loves having someone who’ll make food for him when his parents say no or don’t buy it bc this boy just loves junk food

he’s memorised the way to woojin’s house and what buses he’ll need to get there on because he goes there so much

he’s one of the guys that plays a lot of video games

he really loves games like overwatch and paladins because you get to choose which character you can be for the matches

he loves changing it up and getting a feel of all the different characters and their individual abilities

he loves reading the backstories of the characters

finds them so interesting and would genuinely want to get into a game-making career when he’s older

while he does solo game streams

like when a youtuber tries out a horror game or smth

he’ll just start rambling about any particular character and he ends up not getting scared by any jumpscares etc.

he still loves playing horror games

once invited chan over to play one and chan literally sCREAMED 

he has since lost his faith in hyunjin 

because hyunjin managed to video the whole thing

and shared that video in the SK group chat

felix cut down the video to just when chan was screaming 

they forever mock him with that lmao

hyunjin also likes rapping but he isn’t as open with it as the 3racha guys

he and felix will rap along horribly to their songs in front of them and jisung’s just crying in the background like TnT

and he’s rapping in a few of the instagram videos when the group are just chilling, messing about

but that’s about it

people keep requesting for him to do a whole song or smth

but he’s kinda shy??? like, he wants to improve more before showing everyone else

he stays up late practising and the guys are proud of the effort but are always telling him to rest <3333

the instagram is also filled up with loads of his selfies because he just really loves taking pics

but he’s always doing something funny in the pics

like chan was sleeping and he used snapchat’s faceswapping filter on himself and chan

it was so weird but he still posted it bc yolo

also got a short video of himself shooting a fingergun at felix

and then felix, in the back, moved his head as he got shot

it took really long to align felix’s head with the end of hyunjin’s finger gun

but the outcome was worth it

he slowed down the video and it looked really badass

he’s also got blackmail material on everyone in the group

from the full video of changbin acting cute to the most ugly screenshots during their skype/ face time sessions

he has shit on jeongin too

but he’s too nice to actually use it against him

jeongin usually just listens to him anyway

so he keeps the screenshots for sentimental reasons

he’s 1/4 of the ‘00 line gamers

and whenever they’re in a group game together

he’ll call the shots and be leader

and they all listen to him

bc he has almost always lead his team to victory

he was all bashful like “guuuuys we’re a TEAM, we don’t need a leader”

but they made him leader anyways

takes advantage of seungmin’s lack of proper strategy when he’s against him and always goes after him to perfect new trickshots

and then in the next match they’ll be on the same team and he’ll do a complete 180 and help him out so much

he likes how they all depend on him and trust him

not just during games but when the guys have their serious talks too

he knows that he can trust them with whatever and vice versa

also really loves how the older guys (esp. chan) will try to help him because he’s quite young, still learning life and going through typical teenage stuff

and also loves how there are other guys that are his age so he finds it easier to relax around them all

will also try to give the ones younger than him his own advice

(he feels so mature when he does that like wow damn you go hyunjin!)

i feel like this one wasn’t as good as the other ones sorry =\ feedback is appreciated &&& thanks for reading!!

[keep-on-trying]

My Digimon Story

It’s still August 3rd, which is basically the last day of Odaiba Memorial, so I thought I’d write about my history with Digimon, and how I came back into it just in time for Digimon Adventure Tri. Premiere.

So, it actually starts from as early as when Digimon Adventure premiered in Finland. My parents never really let us watch the show (Honestly, considering how incredibly bad the finnish dub was before Vamdemon saga’s mid point(?), I fully understand why), but whenever the tv was on the right channel I’d manage to see couple of episodes from here and there.

Ever since childhood, I loved Mimi and Hikari specifically, Tailmon and Patamon being my absolute favourite digimon. The most memorable episodes for me specifically were the early episodes and Vamdemon saga. I don’t remember ever seeing the show’s climax until 3 years ago. I may have seen the Mugendramon episode during my childhood, but my memory is very hasty on it.

However, my biggest memory from childhood is definitely the moment when 02 was airing, and I always looked forward to seeing the Ken’s emotional episode in finnish, only to be disappointed with it being suddenly in english. (I was very biased towards english back then guys, it had literarily nothing to do with me hating dub. I didn’t even know the term back then.)

I also remember most of my digimon knowledge in childhood being from 02 anime. I was always excited to see 02 because Takeru and Hikari were older, but then got confused about Daisuke, Miyako and Iori. I honestly didn’t understand plotpoints back then at all. I was just 10 years old back then anyway. However, due to that sudden dub change from finnish to english, I never saw any episodes past that. And that’s basically all the knowledge I had of digimon back then.

From merchandise, I used to own the weird digimon related doll. I reblogged about that a while back. I also owned a few cards iirc, specifically Mimi’s shiny card. 

But that was my childhood memories. For a very long time, I forgot about the series and didn’t have any interest in it. Until about 2 years ago...

A friend of mine was drawing lots of fanart related to original Digimon, and even sold them as prints at local cons. Not a necessary detail, but it is what made me interested in the franchise again. I saw him praising the anime being better than most people think of it being, and how hyped he was for the upcoming Tri. series. It got me interested in it again. I suddenly remembered how I had watched few episodes in childhood, in finnish, and having watched few different animes during the past years, I thought I’d give it a go, this time in japanese. It’d be perfect time to get prepped for Tri. Movies as well!

Well... I couldn’t find japanese dub first at all. I only managed to find english dub, and thought that heck, let’s give it a shot. Now, people are gonna possibly hate me for saying this but...

I could not stand the english dub at all. The fact that there was almost never a silent moment, some of the jokes were incredibly lousy imho and I couldn’t exactly get behind the voices most characters had, I’m surprised I managed to actually watch the english dub all the way to ep 37. English dub managed to make me dislike Mimi and Jou, I didn’t like their voices or personality at all. Idk. But then, I managed to find japanese! The moment I found it I jumped there and oh boy. It was a huge difference. Mimi’s voice was actually still something my ears could hardly handle, but after just few episodes, I actually started liking her again. I somehow felt like she was completely a different character. I much prefered other characters’ voices thou, and that managed to make me more hooked to the series than dub did. Again, I’m sorry for saying this about dub, I know people like it, but I just have my opinion on it. I hope you’ll respect it as much as I respect other people liking it.

Anyway, I got to the end of the series and good lord... I cried like a baby. I didn’t want the show to end. I fell in love with the opening song, the ending song and I eventually learned to like even Jou. By the end of the series, Jou and Mimi redeemed themselves from the dub impression, and became my absolute favourites alongside Hikari. I actually went and started watching the show from the beginning, this time in japanese. And I immidiately liked the show even more. This time I managed to cry at Angemon’s death and Wizardmon’s death as well. I also learned to like every single character.  If it weren’t for japanese dub, I’d have just left the series be.

After the quick rewatch of Adventure, I jumped to 02. Althought this time, again, I couldn’t find japanese and had to watch in dub til ep 21. The dub managed to make me loathe all 3 new chosen children, and I got super annoyed by Davis not remembering T.K’s name. Once I found japanese dub thou.... oh boy. Daisuke became my favourite! It’s amazing how a different dub manages to make me hate a character I love in another dub. 02 story is pretty much the same as Adventure. But y’know, this time I watched the whole thing. I got confused at times, but really liked Jogress and god damn the songs! They became my favourites real quickly. I didn’t like the epilogue thou lol. I got over it thou.

But y’know, this opened me whole lot of other doors as well. After finishing with 02, in time I got myself to watch other digimon series as well. Of course, I started with Digimon Tamers. This time, I found japanese all the way from the start, so I have no opinions on these dubs. I actually had hard time getting into all Tamers, Frontier and Savers, because imo they all had very slow starts. I even put my Tamers watch on hold once they got to their Digital World. But when I got back...

The Matrix Evolution is my favourite thing in Tamers, and Sakuyamon became my favourite evolution. Her animation was so god damn gorgeus, and the song that plays in the background is absolutely beautiful. I shed tears during few scenes again, esp. the ending. However, I was kinda not liking the whole D. reaper thing. I’m not sure why. It could be because the whole arc was handling depression and back then I didn’t like anything that depressing. Still don’t, but now it’s for different reasons. However, at the end I ended up liking Tamers a lot.

After Tamers, I checked Digimon Savers. Yes, I skipped Frontier, I had only read bad reviews of that show so I decided to jump into Savers instead. I wasn’t thrilled about the whole human becoming a digimon concept either, but later about that.

Even thou Savers had a slow start, I was surprised how much I ended up liking it. Masaru was way different from our gogglehead protagonists, and this new agumon... idk. :D I was about to give up on this show at around ep 14 or so, but then stuck through and didn’t regret it. I didn’t really like the ending tho. :’) But eh.

Then, I decided to give Digimon Frontier a go. Honestly, it remains my least favourite, but it had it’s moments and the fact that I managed to finish it tells something about the show. Oddly thou, I didn’t pick up any favourite characters. If I had to pick one, it’d probably be Kouji. Takuya was fine as well. But I didn’t grow attached to other characters at all, thou I do remember shedding few tears at the end for Kouichi.

Now, still at the moment the only digimon series I haven’t managed to watch past first 10 or so episodes...

Yup. I watched about 10 episodes of Digimon Xros Wars and left it there. I didn’t like the setting, didn’t like the lack of evolutions and it just didn’t feel as engaging to me. But since I didn’t get past first 10 episodes I don’t feel like I’m qualified to talk about it. So, let’s leave it at that.

So, then it was November, 2015. The premiere for Digimon Adventure Tri. Reunion. I liked how the trailers looked, and was pretty hooked. Back then, Crunchyroll didn’t provide license to Finland, so I was left tryhing to find it from elsewhere. And oh boy ;-;

I loved every freaking second of it. I was crying when Taichi and Agumon reunited, and I was utterly happy to see my favourite chosen children all grown. Everyone looked absolutely amazing.

I never was bothered with the lack of battles like lots of people seemed to have. To me, digimon was always about the story, and I was actually happy to see the movies focus more on story than having battles every 30 mins. Digimon Tri was exactly what I hoped to see of a sequal.

Til this day, I have watched every movie during their premiere nights, and after Determination, watched all from Crunchyroll. Each movie has made me emotional, and I have no doubt the last two movies will do the same as well. I’m so glad to have come back to Digimon, and I’m glad to have finally joined the fandom on Tumblr earlier this year. It’s a journey I’ll never forget.

Now, I’ll go back to eagerly away the September 30th, and prepare to cry once again. Thank you for reading this long ass text of my Digimon Story. Hope you enjoyed!

[sambashua]

92 questions/random questions/8 things tag~

hello friends !!! i’ve done the first two tags before but it’s been quite a while so ?? let’s see if i can come up w new responses i guess?? also these all have similar-ish questions so i thought i’d combine them so i don’t clog up everyone’s dashes~

tagged by (ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ(ilya so dang much my favorite muffins)

92 questions: mariel! @jaehyunscult kelby! @yooncheoly and claudia! @s-lay-ing 

random questions: kolbo! @yooncheoly ommo! @strawberryboo​ and cloodoo! @s-lay-ing 

eight things: em! @seoulscapes mj! @jungnoir and kat! @atshinee

i’m going to tag @everyonesabiaswrecker @hoshi-ssi @king-hao @moonhyook @taeismyking @honestlay @yoonsunha @amessence @kylamassie1 @peachesandkili and also the beans who tagged me above!! you can do one of the ones you didn’t tag me in hehe(≧◡≦)

you guys can choose whichever tags you want!! or all of them ? idk it’s basically either long, easy or creative so whatever you feel like doing… or do none of them!! that works too! if you don’t want to be tagged just let me knowwww also you rlly don’t have to read this whole thing it is so damn long… but w/o further ado…

92 questions

the last…

1. drink: water

2. phone call: my grandma !

3. text message: “THEBOP OF THE SUMMER” (sic)

4. song you listened to: ‘love paint (every afternoon)’ by NU’EST started playing before i got out of the car last night… WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I WATCHED MX’S NEWTON THIS MORNING OH MY GOD THE BOP OF THE SUMMER THAT’S WHAT THE TEXT WAS ABT BTW

5. time you cried: hmmmm not monsta x surprisingly ? but we have some rlly spicy food in LA and @everyonesabiaswrecker @taeismyking and i had to hide our eyes from the waiter lol

have you ever…

6. dated someone twice: nooo (as i said last time i’ve never dated so these are all no’s so you can skip around a bit i suppose)

7. been cheated on: nooo

8. kissed someone and regretted it: nooo

9. lost someone special: yea

10. been depressed: nope

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: drinking makes ya do bad stuff kids

list three favorite colors (12-15)…

grey, light blue nd light green !

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: yeAH SO MANY! irl and online i’m so thankful for everyone i’ve met~~ since i started uni i was rlly nervous abt meeting people and although i have one (1) new friend irl (shoutout to my main main main kat @atshinee literally where would i be w/o you i probably woulda gotten stuck at camp bc of the hail storm) i’ve met countless lovely individuals online that i am forever grateful for;;; now i’m being all sappy someoNE STOP ME

16. fallen out of love: nooo

17. laughed until you cried: almost everyday~~

18. found out someone was talking about you: oh yea

19. met someone who changed you: YES

20. found out who your true friends are: yeah!

21. kissed someone on your facebook list: nooooooooooooooope

general stuff

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: idk like probably actually 80% but they’re not people i talk to now ? (kat still yells at me abt my answer last time)

23. do you have any pets: I GOT TWO CATS TOM TOM AND MYSTERY THEY ARE ADORABLE BEANS ND I LIKE TO BRAG ABT THEM SO ASK ME FOR PICS

24. do you want to change your name: i like my name a lot tbh (there’s so many endless nickname possibilities honestly)

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i got gelato w two of my closest frandssss and also listened to nct dream like the whole day it was the best

26. what time did you wake up: um m m i think 9? yesterday i went to bed at 3:30 and woke up at 7:30 so i slept in more today lol

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: trying to read a soonhoon fic from eep and messaging ivy:D

28. name something you cannot wait for: uM IDK EVERYTHING I WAS WAITING FOR ALREADY HAPPENED i guess just moving back to school and starting classes??? i’m so anxious ugh

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 4 ? hours ago ?

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: um idk i think i’m pretty blessed to be completely honest

31. what are you listening to right now: there’s construction going on in the distance idk what they’re doing but it is LOUD

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i’m so shook people haven’t talked to any toms i’ve met so many i don’t undeRSTAND

33. something that is getting on your nerves: ignorance *finger guns*

34. most visited website: tumblr (i haven’t been on youtube much lately cry)

35. elementary school: yeahhh

36. high school: yeahhh

37. college: yeahhh

38. hair color: blonde 

39. long or short hair: it’s so long rn i’m constantly choking on it

40. do you have a crush on someone: crushes are for noobs

41. what do you like about yourself: “everything, love yourself.” -kat

42. piercings: ears but i never wear them

43. blood type: idk my parents are both AB so my mom says we’re that too but mom that’s not how genetics work

44. nickname: i have so many but my most common one is mir~ i answer to anything tho

45. relationship status: engaged to jeon wonwoo

46. zodiac sign: cancer~

47. pronouns: she/her

48. favorite tv show: game of thrones or below deck (watch it it’s a reality show abt a yacht crew it’s so entertaining) 

49. tattoos: nope i’m too indecisive

50. righty or lefty: right

first…

51. surgery: i had surgery junior year of high school

52. piercing: did they not already ask this oh jk this is first well i still only have ears

53. best friend: in the womb bitchhh (-8 months would be the official age)

54. sport: i think karate ? my dad is super sporty tho so sister and i tried every sport known to man

55. vacation: probably washington bc i have a lot of family there

56. pair of sneakers: literally who knows this tho

right now…

57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: now i’m drinking tea

59. i’m about to: eat a bagel maybe

60. listening to: good luck by aoa (yessss my girls)

61. waiting for: jordyn to get off work so i can see her new dorm:D

62. do you want kids: i always have

63. do you want to get married: i don’t really know marriage seems so outdated…

64: what career do you want: journalist (yay)

which is better…

65. hugs or kisses: hugs!

66. lips or eyes: eyes!

67. shorter or taller: i don’t have much preference but i’m tall and i like being tall

68. older or younger: i don’t really care bc some older people are really immature and some younger people are really mature so~

70. nice arms or nice stomach: i really really don’t care

71. sensitive or loud: these honestly aren’t even antonyms

72. hook up or relationship: relationship

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i’ve never been a troublemaker so ?

have you ever…

74. kissed a stranger: nooo

75. drank hard liquor: neh ?

76. lost glasses/lenses: i have above average vision boiiiii

77. turned someone down: i mean;;;; i think most people have at least indirectly

78. had sex on the first date: nooo

79. broken someone’s heart: i really doubt it lol

80. had your heart broken: jeon wonwoo breaks my heart daily

81. been arrested: nooo

82. cried when someone died: yeahh

83. fallen for a friend: no

do you believe in…

84. yourself: YEAH I GOT THIS! YOU GOT THIS! WE ALL GOT THIS!

85. miracles: maybe ?

86. love at first sight: not even a little bit

87. santa claus:

LOOK AT SOONYOUNG I’M LAUGHING

88. kiss on the first date: i mean i don’t see why not

89. angels: maybe ?

other…

90. current best friends name: sister n em n kat n cass n jords n val :3

91. eye color: grey ish

92. favorite movie: the proposal was my favorite movie for so long;;; i liked moonlight a lot too go see it

random questions

dude i fucking forgot abt this one i thought i was done fuck (why is this font so tiny)

relationship status: single for 19 years bishhhhhhhh favorite color: grey!! but i’ve been feelin orange lately hmmmm lipstick or chapstick: i like tinted lip balm:) but i even use vaseline sometimes try it okay it makes yo lips so soft last song you listened to: well i already said so i’ll do what’s stuck in my head rn: coffee by bts (it’s so good i get such calming vibes from it) last movie you watched: BABY DRIVER it was so ffffff good 100/10 would rec~ the car chases were so cool dude also ansel elgort is such a cutie top 3 characters: i’ll as april ludgate from parks n rec (are you happy jords), celaena from throne of glass, ndddd risa koizumi from lovcom:) top 3 ships: jejun ! soonwoo ! MARKHYUCK(ﾉ´ヮ`)ﾉ*: ･ﾟ books you are currently reading: rnnnn i’m STILL reading heir of fire (don’t worry cass i will finish it in time) top 5 musicals: mulan is endlessly iconic okay, hsm, phantom of the opera, the sound of music nd mama mia !

eight things

last movie watched: baby driver hoo hoo last song listened to: me gustas tu bitchhhhh last book read: Crown of Midnight still oops sorry cass i’m so damn slow these days  last thing eaten: fig newtons (buy newton by monsta x on itunes) if you could be anywhere right now, where would you be: wherever @atshinee​ is because i want to support her for her test but i know i would probably just distract her:(((((( a fictional character you would hang out with for the day: probably dorian from throne of glass bc he just seems like such a lovable dork i want to give him a big ole hug he needs it  what fictional world/universe would you want to spend a week in: i used to be obsessed w the series Gregor the Overlander as a kid and i’d really want to spend a day there that would be so awesome esp the one where they travel through the one rainforest jungle… but also Harry Potter bc i rlly want to go to hogwarts and just;;; look around? it’s so pretty and i want to see all the paintings and staircases and the people it’d be great last video game played: i’ve never rlly played video games… i used to play the sims does that count rip

well it’s finally frickin done i doubt anyone bared w me for this trainwreck…….. i’m so tired now will i even do more of these today jk i gotta i am so behind but no selfie tags i look trash

[lennoxfraser-blog]

ooc week: day three

RAPID FIRE:

Tea or coffee? tbh lately it’s been coffee bc i’m getting old and need a kick in the ass to get through the day, so. coffee.

Stars or planets? planets.

Sun or moon? moon.

Black or white? black.

The zoo or the aquarium? the zoo!!!!!!!!!

Drama or comedy? kdrama :}

Thriller or adventure? adventure. i can’t watch scary movies bc even though i’m not scared at the time, it tends to stick in my brain and i get zero sleep bc of bad dreams.

Short walks to the fridge or long walks on the beach? short walks to the fridge. [anakin skywalker voice] i hate sand.

Indoors or outdoors? indoors. outdoor has too many variables.

Animals or plants? animals. i used to want to be a veterinarian!!

Time alone or time with others? time alone 100%%%%%

Introvert or extrovert? introvert.

Silence or music? i’m very fine with silence but i love singing badly to music too. i also need music if i’m writing or being creative, so i def couldn’t live without music.

Darkness or light? darkness.

Cats or dogs? i can never decide. i love my cat, and i prefer their independence.

Dancing or being the wallflower? wallflower. i don’t think my self-esteem would allow me to dance in public lol

Right or left? i’m right handed and always take right-optioned choices but i always make my characters lefties.

Werewolves or vampires? ;) honestly.......... vampires. (says me who made a whole rp about werewolves)

Dressing stylishly or dressing comfortably? comfortably omg i don’t change out of pyjamas all day if i don’t have to.

Sunrise or sunset? sunrise. 

Lead or follow? leadership is something i can and will do if i don’t feel satisfied with someone else’s leadership, but i can follow just fine. this is why i admin a roleplay i crave control goodbye

Optimist or pessimist? pessimism is my default.

Staying up late or waking up early? literally both. catch four hours of sleep and do it all over again.

Speaking up or staying silent? i speak up in my head, plan what i would say, and then open my mouth and almost burst into tears lmao i can’t argue to save my life, but i feel like my ideas are good so i’d much rather speak up through text.

White lies or brutal honesty? tbh white lies.

Ask for permission before doing the stupid thing or ask for forgiveness after doing the stupid thing? permission tbh i need peer reviews, ratings, signed permission slips, the WORKS before i do anything ever. catch me texting my friends “do you think i should do this?” or “can we talk about what would happen if i did this” just bc i’d rather be logical and rational than jumping into something too quickly. quintessential ravenclaw trait.

LONG FORM:

Pet peeves: FEET. IN ALL FORMS. LITERALLY DO NOT SHOW ME YOUR FEET. also something that pisses me off is when i’m told information i already know.... like if someone repeats a story to me, i have zero patience.... or if they rehash information prior to adding new information, i will cut them off, fill it in with a brief explanation to show i understand, before letting them continue. idk why i think just hearing things for the second, third, fourth time always feels like wasting time? i can’t do it. people who cough and sneeze and don’t make an effort to cover their mouth/nose with something other than their damn hands. slow internet. NO INTERNET.

Bad habits: like above, a bad habit is cutting people who off who are rehashing a story or information. i don’t cut them off in general, only in that situation, but i could def work on that lol. chewing my nails. buying shit that i don’t need, especially books. 

Favourite scents (your amortentia!): coconut, vanilla, the smell of clothes when they come out of the dryer. 

Favourite animal: tbh either lions or owls. at a zoo, i’d ideally spend the whole day at the lion enclosure, watching them sleep.

Favourite colour: green!!!!

Favourite place to go (local or otherwise) (photos get bonus points): about five minutes from my house is the beach and a cliff that overlooks the beach. there’s a watch tower there, and beneath the hill is actually these tunnels that they used during WW2 bc they thought Japan was going to invade so they stored weapons and ammo there. anyway, sitting up on the hill and looking out across the water is my favourite place to go to think, and i usually always go there with my mum to talk. i’ll include some pictures at the end!!

Favourite meme: honestly, i love the “tag yourself, i’m ____” meme. whether that’s when people make the photos and poorly spelt options, or even just when someone posts a photo/text post and drags the OP by saying “tag yourself, i’m the ___” 

Do you have any creative or artistic abilities? so i write, and i’m hopefully alright at that. i used to do art, and i’m mediocre at drawing but i don’t do it to create, i usually draw to express story ideas or a character’s look/feel. i can crochet, idk if that’s necessarily creative or artistic. i can play the harmonica parts for “piano man” by billy joel!!! 

Talk about something that made you happy today, yesterday, this week: a few things did!! i went to a bookstore and bought some books, so that made me feel materialistically happy. right after that i got sick at my friend’s house with a cold that came on within a few hours and that wasn’t great but it made me happy that i had a friend who would take care of me lol. also i’ve been very productive this week despite illness, so that made me happy upon reflection!! 

Talk about an experience that made you feel proud or confident: tbh when i feel very bad about my confidence, i remember this one time when i was in high school (so i was 17) and we had mentor groups, which is when the ~smart kids~ are assigned to a teacher and mentored for the year. (the teacher basically just asks how you’re doing lol) ANYWAY we had a mentor day at a camp-like place, where there’s archery and games and shit. being a bigger girl in these kind of places = anxiety in the first place, and there was a zipline thing where you climb a telegraph pole (with no ropes? wtf?), strap into the zipline, and then they push you off and you fly down a rope for a few hundred metres. anyway, all my friends had gone, and time was running out, and i WANTED to do it, but my anxiety was like..... ur literally too big... also if you do, everyone will laugh.... and then i was just like ? fuck it???????? so i climbed the shit out of that terrifying pole, i strapped myself in, and i went down that zipline like Tris from Divergent and like. no one laughed? they were cheering? it was one of the most liberating moments of my life, just bc i realised that a lot of my fears are only in my head and not actually reality, and that if you want something, even if its small, you should go for it. i’m proud of myself for doing it.

Talk about something/someone that makes you feel relaxed: my bed makes me feel relaxed, but also probably talking to my mum - if i have a problem, i know that she’ll listen and help if she can.

Talk about something you’re yet to try for the first time but want to: everything i want to do is simply just so i can write about it better? lmao???? so i’d want to kiss someone so i could write about it more accurately, i’d want to get high so i could write about it better. i can’t drink bc of health reasons, but if i could, i’d like to get drunk to write about it better. mostly everything is just so i can be a better, more rounded writer. 

Who are your role models and why: tbh idk if i have role models. i used to, but the older i get, the more i feel as though i rely less on looking up to people?? i really admire a lot of writers though, like Neil Gaiman and Leigh Bardugo and even J.K Rowling. also even though she’s a youtuber, i admire Zoe Sugg bc she just seems like a good person with a good heart? she’s been very open about mental illness and she’s written books and released a make up line and she’s... just normal? that’s a great role model, esp for younger people, so i’m glad she’s got a huge audience. 

Talk about something you want to do this year: this year!!! this year is going to be organisation central, hopefully. i want to start/restart my book review blog where i write about books because that’s what makes me happy. i also have some RP goals, and they’ll hopefully be fulfilled very soon. i want to write more original fiction this year, and i want to read a lot more widely than i did last year.