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I am so glad i only watched O.K K.O let's be heroes series when i was over 15. Because if i was younger i would totally had based my personality off T.K.O
I still stan them tho
#the series was hell to get through#but was soooo worth it#every season there was like. 5-6 episodes max about lore. and the rest was just fillers#yes they're funny. good for a tv show. but when you watch from a stream servuce it can get soooo boring after the 3 season (ro smtng)#still. it's a really good series. id tecomend#but only if you're really patient#otherwise its really annying lol#i watched it with steven universe series#- chef kiss -#perfect combo
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Sonia and Komaeda getting along well enough to room together is so good honestly. Even if its mostly bc she takes no shit, Komaeda was still like the only person to stand up for her when Teruteru was trying to get frisky about her naiveté in the prologue/ch1.
I kind of suspect she was acting more unknowing than she really was then, to suit her role as a princess, but he had no way of knowing that then. Plus, if she was aware then, it might be easier for her to recognize the side of him that isn't all hope n murder? Since outside of the killing game he's pretty polite (if self effacing) and generally not down for creepy behavior.
If you've got any more thoughts on these two's interactions postgame, I'd love to hear.
I dont think it's perfect by any means (nothing on the ship is!) but its proooobably the best quick-solution scenario?
#God I dont even wanna tag this as art ugh#An art#FOR ORGANIZATION#Its true Nagito wouldnt try shit with Sonia or be creepy (also he gay) its just the things that he says#And Sonia is firm on her boundaries there but also patient about the rest. She's the expert diplomat after all#They're both Perfectly Civil after only a little bit and even get friendlier#(and Nagito is probably somewhat glad at least one person outwarly calls him a friend) (more of that to come ofc everyone ends up friendly)#Sonia: you're my friend!#Nagito: I'm sorry you feel pressured to say that. As expected of a princ-#Sonia: PARDON BUT DID I STUTTER.#Nagito: are you sure about rooming with me? It's rotten work.#Sonia: yeah it really fucking is actually. I'll do it though.#Ok I'm done sorry the doodles are unusually shitty it's not cooperating today#'It' what? Yeah
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i do have words and a story to tell,
it's just really fucking hard sometimes when
these are all pieces of me i feel like i should keep to myself.
#today it's mourning all the wips that will never make it out there bc insecure writer hours never ended#but in all honesty#to the too scared to share my works with the world writers#to the this much isnt good enough writers#to the will i ever improve and will it ever become something i can be proud of writers#the only doing this for the validation and the i want someone to love this as much as i do writers#to the ones too scared of pouring out their hearts only to be met with no response#and the ones who envy how easy it seems for others#the ones who wake up at 2 am with a thought and write until the break of dawn#the ones who dream more than do#and the ones that do more than dream#to not being able to look back bc you feel like you have nothing to be proud of#or getting bored of your own stuff and thinking who would ever read this#to every writer really#you're all doing so well#and you got this#be patient w yourselves#you're allowed to put things to rest#you're allowed to start a new project#you're allowed to do whatever you want to if it makes you happier#everything is within your hands
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Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!
You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!
You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!
You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!
Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!
Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!
So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.
Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!
You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.
Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!
Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.
Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.
Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*
Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...
Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.
Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.
Better not get confident.
Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)
Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people
- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties
- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations
- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you
- you might start loving the effect you have on a room
- you might enjoy conversations more
- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently
- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations
- you might stop apologizing so much.
- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.
Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!
Why, it would be carnage!!
In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!
If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:
- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.
- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.
- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.
- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.
You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.
So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.
#social skills#i have a few posts now in my ' social skills' tag#original#maybe eventually I will compile them and polish them in some meaningful way. I know what I want to call the book title#in big text it'll say 'I'M AUTISTIC' and then beneath that in smaller text 'And I Have Better Social Skills Than You'#or something to that effect. and the cover of the book will be me making an exaggerated smug face like the little rascal I am#challenging the viewer to pick up the book and see if they can prove me wrong.#and then the entire first section of the book is about how actually the issue with our society's social skills is the harsh judgment#for people who have trouble communicating and not the other way around. I don't actually think I'm the#most charismatic person in the world by a very long shot. but i do know that I have put more thought into my social skills than#most allistic people and frankly i have surpassed most of them. not because i am more persuasive or smooth or funny#(tho i am persuasive and funny lol) but bc i have questioned which social functions are more restriction than utility.#and instead i have focused my energy on actively learning how to make people feel safe. i feel social rules would benefit all people by#being a little more autistic tyvm. i don't think every person should dedicate themselves to being better at communicating#i think people should dedicate themselves to being kind and patient to everyone regardless of their ability to communicate#I think our society wrongly links communication ability to intelligence and intelligence to level of humanity.#when in fact all three of those things are fucking unrelated and connecting them inevitably leads to#really fucked up views on disabled people that hurt us. and then with that aspect of the book firmly understood and established I would#go on to recommend some ways to make socializing easier and more fulfilling (and less shameful and terrifying) for all kinds of people#it wouldn't be a book about Leaning In To Succeed in Business or 'here's how to avoid being the awkward loner at a party'#it'd be a book about how if you see someone alone at a party here's how to invite them to join your group without pressuring them#stuff like 'hot tip! if someone takes a while to type or speak a full sentence - talking over them b4 they can finish makes u an asshole!'#I know that a lot of people cannot or don't want to dump a lot of skill points into socializing like i did and they shouldn't have to in#order to experience basic dignity and respect. if we treat people like that then we just validate that people - especially#autistic children and elders and disabled people of manu varieties - have to suffer unless they learn all these arbitrary bullshit rules#and a lot of them are arbitrary bullshit! one of the reasons I throw people off so much is because I harmlessly break a lot of social rules#but I know I'm doing it and I'm not ashamed and people just don't know what to do with that! but a lot of them like it actually!!#i think it's a relief to be around someone so openly and unrelentingly weird bc what am I gonna do? judge you for being weird??#I only care if you're kind. not necessarily 'nice' or passive. Kind. Brave enough to care about people being treated well. Kind.#also I recognize that at least some of my ability to be openly weird is white privilege so that's important to acknowledge too
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hmm not very impressed by the eye doctor... he was 30 minutes late to start with and then he did the "1 or 2" thing like three times total and none of the options were any better than my current lenses. then instead of continuing to try he was like ok we'll order these lenses (even though the one he picked was still blurry?). i was like oh that's not quite... i was still having trouble with those... and he was kinda impatiently like well your eyes are dilated so we won't be able to tell for sure until you come back and your eyes aren't dilated. sir you were the person who dilated my eyes literally five minutes earlier... why would you have done that if it meant you couldn't get an accurate prescription?
#also at one point he looked at me very seriously and said#i always tell my patients that if you're pregnant one of two things will happen... either your prescription will change or it won't#and i laughed because i thought he was joking#and then he gave me a really weird look like why are you laughing at this serious advice#but uh aren't those the only two options ever?#either something will happen or it won't?#anyway ughhhh#i think doctors struggle a bit because i have a super super high prescription + pretty bad astigmatism#and it always seems to take forever to get a prescription that's mostly right#i'm like can i just save you the trouble and have you order like three different types of trial lenses#because this back and forth is going to take ages#and my rx is so off right now i don't feel great about night driving with the baby in the back
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Sometimes I forget I'm an Omega until I randomly get into playing an otome game for fun and a fictional man shows me just one single ounce of respect and kindness and genuine care, and I'm immediately planning a wedding and considering whether I'd be willing to give birth to his kids after all if he REALLY wanted kids and adoption wasn't an option.
#for the record this fictional man of the week is Haku Kusanagi from Tokyo Debunker. he's the first guy the MC properly meets#and possibly the only one who has never been anything but genuinely nice chill and earnestly concerned for MC's safety#at least as far as I've read#he's just. genuinely concerned for MC#understands MCs emotions and struggles and is patient and respectful#but also can be very funny and is always very laid-back and helpful#like yknow. a decent person.#it really doesn't take much to impress me huh#basic respect and genuine care? I'm planning our wedding already /hj#it's one of those unfortunate side effects of trauma. when you're used to being mistreated#things that most people would consider to be bare minimum expectations#instead feel more like... grand gestures#like how could I possibly deserve this kind of kindness and care#bc of being so used to feeling undeserving and unworthy of kindness or care etc#anyway im yapping way too much I need to sleep#gamietxt
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oH mY gOd, i JuSt FoUnD oUt tHiS fAndOm hAs x aNd X sHipPers XD
#LiKe oH mY GoD tHaT sHiP iS sO cURsE #i hAvEn'T bEeN iN tHe FaNdOm fOr tHaT lOnG aNd i aLrEaDy fOuNd ThEm
Bro shut the fuck up, like for real, you're really out here being the bummer at the party huh.
"Oh my god, that ship is so curse hahahahah-"
You're annoying. Shut the fuck up or get out. It's not that hard.
You literally have a blacklist option. Use the block button if you so desired to avoid it (like really, I'm serious, use them please). You making fun of ships doesn't give you cool points. And no, it's not a funny thing to point out. You're just making yourself look like a jackass. Stop it. You look stupid.
#Also stop with the 'quirky' OmG iS tHiS FanDoM dEaD!? aM i ThE oNlY oNe hErE!?#Chances are... no you are not. You really out here insulting the people that are actually in that fandom.#waiting patiently for new stuff only to see you post OMG THIS FANDOM IS SO DEAD LOL LMAO XD XD XD#You're not funny. Stop it.#AND YES THIS IS BLAZE I'M TIRED OF SEEING THIS CONSTANTLY#Y'ALL ARE NOT ONLY DRAINING AS FUCK BUT ALSO A REAL BUMMER TO THE FANDOM#PARTY POOPERS! THAT IS WHAT Y'ALL ARE
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#just saw a post that was like 'if you have religious or moral objections that stop you from providing certain types of medical care maybe#you shouldn't work in healthcare' (paraphrased) and...#what a way to look at the world tbh#like. they're talking about me i think - i am a conscientious objector when it comes to euthanasia#(which granted has come up exactly twice and both cases in a theoretical capacity only this is not a frequent request to me)#and... i am also a good doctor#last week i told someone that her weight doesn't matter to her health with receipts to prove it and she cried#no one had ever told her that before#and that was something that came from me specifically. that was something i would not trust all of the GPs in my practice - a practice of#excellent and compassionate GPs! - to say#i am verifiably doing good in my job that is coming from specifically who i am as a person#i cannot put that down when it comes to issues i care deeply about#fundamentally the fact that i cannot put it down is what makes me a good doctor#i think that's what i'm trying to get at#the reason that i do well by my patients is that i practice out of my values and my ethics#if i did not stand on that core i would not stand at all#so you can't have it both ways. you can't have engaged and active and compassionate healthcare providers without sometimes those engaged an#active providers having things they do not feel comfortable doing#and it is to everyone's service if they are up front about it and do not try to hide (i am suspicious of people who try to hide this)#i am literally figuring this all out as i type hence the v long tag ramble and also being nowhere near the post that started this train#(honestly in med school we talked so much about ethics as like. abortion! euthanasia! trans rights! and the ethics in practice is the littl#things. do you apologise when you mess up. how do you manage a consult with your patient with paranoid dementia and her child in the same#room at one time - or one by one bc that's fraught too. (that one's on top i had one of those today.) how do you act with grace when#you're a bit stressed and your patient is a bit stressed and the nurse wants to add five more things to your book. the day to day ethics is#SUCH a bigger thing when you come to actual practice.)#this is obviously entirely about me and leans on the fact that i largely do think i am doing a good job i am really feeling my own way#to a Thought. but i think to a certain extent it is generalisable
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also found a doodle of kryptos’ “suspiciously unmarried uncle” who i mentioned in my post yesterday. dont think he’s ever gonna show up in my fic proper, but he has been mentioned twice so far, and a few times in future chapters— he’s the one who sends andy birthday money
#rene is a character i think about a lot tbh even though he will never make a physical appearance in my fic#he's the only positive famliy figure andy has but he also like... never comes over and (understandably) spends as little time as possible#around his horrible father and horrible brother in law and less awful but still not very kind sister so he just avoids the entire family#so he also just... doesn't spend time with his nephew and doesn't realize just how much kryptos needs like. a nice family figure#he sends birthday money and is actually genuinely affectionate on the very rare instances andy sees him#but he's not even close to being a constant enough figure in his life for him to be an actual trusted adult#he's also a doctor who deals with irregularity so there's that distance because andy doesn't... particularly trust irregularity doctors!#rene himself is like... more compassionate than the average doctor who 'treats' irregulars and attempts to be as 'decent' as he can be#but that only really goes so far y'know. especially when you're still working within a horrible system#which rene very much is#and it's genuinely great for the occasional patient whose life he improves but he is also complicit in SO many horrible things#and kryptos is just.. aware of that so there's always been that bit of distance especially since he befriended bill#my art
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I just had the horrible thought that I need to fall in love because having devastating crushes on beautiful, competent, authoritative women that I desperately want to please is exhausting and I need it to stop
#this one is straight so there's no room for delusion which is good#but my burning need to be her most favorite is eating me from the inside#it IS making me better at my job though#.......i mean i think so but what the fuck do i know#on friday night amongst the grueling psychosexual chaos that ensued a very smart guy that I LOVE said to me#i have no doubts you're gonna be a great psychiatrist actually#i traded a month with him to have another month with her#he's a phenomenologist she's a psychodynamic....ist? rival theories#I don't like most of psychodynamic theory.......so far#but i love the way she works and i can see how well it fits with her manymanyMANY patients and goddamnit i love personality dosorders#so i made the choice to go with her yes and im very torn casue i LOVE that guy and i wish i could become his friend like my bff from my year#also.......kind of dumb of me since I'd only soend two days a week woth her and the other three with very scary ladies#but I've been in scarier situation i can manage#and god when she praises me (silently obv she's only been forward about my merit ONCE and i almost pissed myself like an overexcited dog)#the endorphin rush is........man#but yes i need to work on this.......idk how to define it. closest i can get to explaining it is professional sub space#with strong aspects of praise kink#pathetic is what it is really#but hey if it makes me study harder who fucking cares right#I'm gonna be the smartest most intuitive fucking bitch amongst my peers so if I can't have her (them) carnally then goddamnit#I'LL HAVE THEIR PRAISE AND RESPECT AND ADMIRATION AT LEAST#........I'll be normal again in a week or two i just need to get over these next couple of days of....idk. inflammation i guess#yeah it's just like an infected wound right now#angry red throbbing hot pain#i know the drill it'll be better in a couple of days you just need to not freak out and let it do its thing#it's nice to be mature-r about emotional impulsivity and the shame that comes after an episode of deregulation#it really doesn't have to be a big deal even while it still feels like it#it still hurts but it's like......hour three of a tattoo. it's a bitch but you know it's gonna be over eventually and wriggling won't work#the only thing left to do is enjoying it all while it's happening or trying to#I don't think I'm doing a great job but what're you gonna do right
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i think one of the ways self shipping really helps me personally is that my f/o tends to become a part of my inner voice to a certain extent. and whenever i have really bad episodes of self loathing, the best way to cut them short (or at least lessen the intensity) is just thinking that my f/o would never ever say those things, about anyone. it's literally ooc.
#being in character is really important to me so whenever my brain goes down the route of “m.avuika would hate you and think you're annoying#as fuck" i can just be like nu uh! she's canonically immensely compassionate and patient and would never have those thoughts about everyone#the thought of making my f/o act ooc is enough to slow down my self loathing at least a little#at least so it's only coming from me and not my favorite character too#i am rambling so much idk if i'm making any sense#but yeah. therapeutic effects of self shipping <3#i still don't like myself very much but i know m.avuika would never hate me and that makes me feel a bit better#ramblings
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little peek at somethjing i am cooking up ...
#this is rlly rough but rn im just blocking everything out#i have like 6.5 pages sketched so far this is already going faster than last time i think..^_^#im having a blast also#im tryna rewire my brain . every time i think Blehhh i hate drawing i just want to see it done i gotta stop n correct myself#like Hey wait you actually love drawing why are you telling yourself this The process is frustrating sometimes but that comes with art#i had to redraw this one page like 4 separate times and i still didn't feel like giving up#like yeah i was feeling pressed but at the same time i was being patient with myself#like this is part of improving Stop laying on the floor and wondering why you're even doin this you've always loved it#only drawing when u know it's gonna turn out good defeats the whole purpose of learning#also i added cal last minute to this comic and im gladi did he's so creeepy#im very excited to get this done Not impatient like i was before#im impatient for people to see it yeah lol but not w myself#and im not gonna be all like “yeah we'll see how long this lasts lol” bc i think that's already setting myself up for burning out#i have hope that i can keep enjoying art like this I just need to change the way i think#and accept the messy n ugly. the perfect is the enemy of the good#aaron blaise really inspires me. he sincerely loves what he does and i want to be like that#this is also gonna be more comic-like Panelwise i think#scott pilgrim n my bro inspired me#also the way cal's face cuts off on the right makes sense in context he's peekin from behind a chair
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#this isn't at all surprising but it IS disgusting and enraging#'you're costing us too much money. we're going to lie and say that your doctor signed off on reducing your dosage.'#among many other things#anyway this is all extremely par for the course for people who've faced these kinds of issues or who've listened to others who have#but. even so.#if you want to be furious read this ig!#at the time of writing his costs HAVE at least been covered but like. it took a lawsuit.#the only thing that really surprised me here was the extent to which company employees said really damning shit on the record#but like. they know how much power they have and how little power patients typically have.#anyway health insurance is frankly disgusting. i was lucky enough we never had to worry abt it when i was a kid#and now that i'm grown up and don't have any and hear stories like this… how the fuck did we get here.#healthcare shouldn't be a for-profit business.#the medical establishment
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how is my mom being prescribed almost a thousand morphine pills to manage mild pain after having scar tissue broken up in her knee when she already gets 200mg tramadol every day... yet they could only give my wife with blood clots in both her legs and lungs a single sheet of 50mg tramadol to manage the pain after she got home...
#AND SHE WON'T EVEN TAKE THE G-D DAMN PILLS#because she doesn't like being ever so slightly high#even though she spent the vast majority of the 80s and 90s smoking weed non-stop#I'm so fucking tired of this song and dance where I have to beg my mom to give my wife pills she should be getting from a doctor....#and having doctors be like ''well you're constantly sitting at an 7-8 on the pain scale but I can only give you an aspirin'' to my wife#and my mom go ''just threaten to buy them illegally'' as if that doesn't make your doctor instantly stamp you as a problematic patient...#not to mention not having the money to actually do that. which would be like 1000x more convenient than any of this bullshit#idk I'm just getting really tired of having to see my wife be in constant agony from when she wakes up until she goes to bed#it's really getting to me emotionally and making me feel fucking useless because I can't do anything...
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I just noticed what feels like a small cavity forming in another one of our teeth and god I hope that's not actually what's going on here because I cannot fucking handle that on top of the one we've already got. like if it is a cavity then I have no idea what to do about it
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#vent post#I think we deserve some kind of compensation for the problems that fucking dentist caused back in January#y'know... since we now can't even think too hard about having another dentist appointment without getting flashbacks#like wow look at all the shit we could have gotten fixed if a certain someone had just understood how to not be shitty to a patient#also it's weird because I can post about it like this#but only as long as I'm really vague and don't think about or mention any of the details of what actually happened#I can say ''that incident with the dentist'' but I can't remember what happened without having to try and push through a bunch of amnesia#which we avoid doing for obvious reasons#it's absolutely wild how that works because we do this with a bunch of stuff where we can mention the incident very vaguely#but not actually remember any details about it without having to dig for them#I'm rambling here but anyway yeah if you're ever thinking ''but how are you talking about it if thinking about it give you panic attacks?''#then this is probably what's happening
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if there's one thing I hate it's nurses who treat you like a child or an inconvenience when you're in pain despite them insisting you shouldn't be.
no, I can't sit on the side of the bed to eat my soup, sitting up hurts like hell and I don't care that you don't think it does. it does. I know it does because it's my body and I feel the pain, so what the fuck is that about?! I had surgery this morning, there's a wound in my belly button, so it's going to hurt for a bit, I'm not being dramatic or anything!
the weirdest part is that I didn't complain or say anything, I just started sitting up very slowly to eat, and she felt the need to treat me like I'm an idiot for being in pain 🤷
she also rolled her eyes and made an annoyed noise when I showed that I was in pain during and after she gave me the injection to prevent blood clots. lady, I don't know what your problem is but that shit hurts like hell for me, every single time I've gotten it, and it keeps hurting for over an hour. so I'm going to fucking wince a little and you're just gonna have to learn to deal with that without being an asshole.
it's like there's two categories of nurses - the ones that are incredibly sweet and kind and caring, who apologise if something they do hurts and are calm and understanding when you show that you're in pain. and the ones that are completely dismissive and treat you like you're a fucking idiot for every single question, statement or reaction.
#the one who said this has generally been really unfriendly and harsh#the nurse who was here when I came in this morning was SO nice though so I really hope she'll be working tonight or tomorrow morning#and I might complain (a little) about this one when the doctors come in tomorrow morning... or at least mention that she keeps being rude#like. this is the ward for people who just had surgery so how can you be that dismissive and rude about this??#anyway lol I can handle this behaviour now#last time this happened in I think 2019 I had a breakdown after one specific nurse kept treating me exactly like this#sorry but if you're such a huge bitch maybe you shouldn't work with people. especially not patients.#I've vented and now I feel better lol so it's fine now. and I should be going home on Sunday anyway so I won't have to deal with her for#too long#personal#tw medical#tw hospital#oof this just reminded me that the shitty nurse in 2019 actually told me to stop overreacting and being a baby when that stupid injection#hurt me. like??? why?? even if I was the only person who ever experienced pain during that (which I don't think is the case) that still#wouldn't give anyone the right to treat me like that?? over simply making an involuntary sound and shedding a couple tears#it's not like I said anything to her or was angry at her. it's so stupid#at least this time the lovely old lady I'm sharing a room with said after this that she thinks it's surprising that I can even sit up at#all so soon after surgery. that felt nice
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