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Vader senses the Anxiety of an Anxious Person
So, I was at Hollywood Studios in Disney World on July 21st, and I did some character photos with Chewie, Darth Vader, Frozone, Edna Mode. The most hilarious interaction was with Vader.
As in the title, Vader mentions he āsenses high levels of anxietyā coming from me, and my immediate first thought was āthatās because I have anxietyā
And me being me, I had an absolute blast with that. Like, thinking āyou sense the anxiety of an anxious person, congrats! Would you like a gold star?!ā And it obviously still amuses me.
After mentioning that, he asks if I was hiding a rebel informant. I wasnāt (in fact, my brain said āHah! I AM the rebel informantā) and that it would be a shame if they found something that would bring me back into suspicion (lol, why give the anxious person more anxiety? something else could be happening right under your nose and youād be none the wiser, because all your efforts go to the one with anxiety.)
Sorry not sorry. This was way too much fun.
editing in tags for people whom I think might enjoy this: @a-lil-perspective @arwenkenobi48 @caddy-crystal-queen @zoeykallus @tchatso @s1st3r @pro-fangirls-unsocial-life @halzore @rainydaydream-gal18 @haloangel391
#vader senses the anxiety#like dude#i have anxiety#give vader a gold star for sensing the anxiety of an an anxious person#i have generalized anxiety#your efforts were wasted vader#try going past the anxiety#and the depression that you will most likely encounter#but only if you're brave enough#gotta get past a lot of depression demons#earworms#random thoughts#noises#you might just want to save your sanity vader#go bug someone else
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the middle of the 3.1 main quest for some reason:
#REALLY COOL NIGHTMARE SEQUENCE BUT IT STARTLED ME SO BAD LMFAO#the horrors of feeling yourself split apart into a thousand fragments and losing your precious memories of your mother#and all the love she gave you that made you into the person you are now - the person brave enough to inflict such an awful fate on herself#for the sake of others#but you're FORGETTING THAT. how awful...#and you've felt yourself fade away and die a thousand times over and there's only three of you left and one is actively dying as we speak#and soon you'll be all alone and then you too will die. Alone#and you chose this. it's your fault. and can you even say for certain that all of this will be worth it in the end?#UGH. TRIBBIE :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((9
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got too excited thinking about a bokuakakuroken hockey au where Kuroo and Bokuto are a D-man pair, Kenma and Akaashi are left and right wingers to some unspecified third character's center forward, all of them on the first line. I'd make the third character Hinata but I think Hinata and Kags need to be the craziest d-pair ever they need to have the most intricate scary ass bait-and-switch bullshit where they trick other guys into thinking they have the puck and then they smash the fuck out of them.
Anyway Kuroo and Bokuto are SO good at helping the wingers set up plays and Kenma is uncanny at reading where opposing players will go next while Akaashi has stick handling skills for DAYS and knows exactly how to keep up team morale in a quieter way than Bokuto, who crows on and on about how awesome they all are CONSTANTLY. Kuroo is captain and gives dorky ass speeches in the locker room that the other guys always snicker at him for (first guy to laugh has to pay a fine, usually it's Bokuto who is always more than happy to support the team LMAO)
I feel like Tsukki would be a good candidate for goaltender, y'know, blocking and all that. Yamaguchi would be a part of the power kill line, and he usually only goes out when it's a PK, which is unusual, but it makes sense because he's always somehow better when there's fewer guys on his side. Maybe because it makes him fight harder to keep shit away from Tsukki - has more of the burden on his shoulders, less guys to trip over.
Suga is a trainer, the trainer who seems the friendliest but is the scariest to get stuck with when you've got a major injury because he WILL fix you and it WILL hurt. He'll tell you to suck it up and give you a pack of skittles and tell you to get your ass into the ice bath now.
(He is dating Daichi, another center forward on the team, likely on the same line as Asahi and Tanaka's D-pair, Noya's right wing and Ennoshita's left. Asahi is a D-man for humor purposes only. He's like an elephant, huge but skittish.)
Kenma is an easy target on the ice (small, slight, etc.) but people learn DAMN fast not to go after him because Kuroo and Bokuto have a combined record of breaking like, seventeen guy's noses during games. At first they could get away with the high sticking, but it got a bit obvious. I think Bokuto has received an actual fine while Kuroo snickers and is more sly with it.
Akaashi is also not fond of people going after Kenma and he will target guys in a way that humiliates them - goes out of his way to break ankles and dangle shots and pulls out his best moves just to keep those assholes from getting to touch the puck at all, until their coaches pull them off the ice any time he's on it. He finds it far more satisfying, though watching Bokuto full-body slam some douche into the wall is also a nice feeling.
I also feel like Bokuto would make a GREAT goalie, though. HRNGH. There are so many positions I want to put them into, rotate them through the roster etc.e tc. Kenma as a goaltender????? i take the most autistic person and i stick them in the net.
Akaashi would not be a good goaltender, there isn't enough action. I do think he would be a really good center, though - maybe he'd be the center with Kenma as a left wing and someone else as a right.
Tsukki wants to be a d-man but he didn't ever care enough to put actual force into his hits so he slowly got stuck more and more into the goal until he begrudgingly decided it was cool.
im sure i'll have more thoughts later. it is my bedtime.
#haikyuu#listen i need to combine all the things I love they all need to be together forever#take the gay sports anime people and put them into the other gay sport#everything is a gay sport if you're brave enough#iwaizumi and oikawa aren't here only because 1) i do not care about them as much and 2) oikawa would NEVER play ice hockey.#he's a figure skater instead :)#and Iwaizumi is his scary ass d-man boyfriend who drags Oikawa to practices with him and soemtimes gets him on the ice and#oikawa swipes the FLOOR with them during a pck up game and since then he's not allowed to touch a hockey stick
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TW: 200th rant about the stupid "HP fans are all complicit in antisemitism and transphobia" discourse, brought to you by my OCD-induced suicidality.
I've by now become so wary of trans people and enbies on social media, especially Jewish ones. I'm like "this person is GOING to be on their Harry Potter bullshit and trigger the hell out of my OCD" and my hackles go up automatically. Then my OCD goes "haha you hate them because they're Jewish and/or trans, you're an antisemitic transphobe so they're clearly right about people who defend HP! SUFFER bitch!" Cue hell loop until my brain is flayed over anything nobody actually even said or did.
I don't even LIKE HP that much anymore, why is wanting to stop having PTSD episodes about stupid shit the thing that also dropkicks me down seven circles of hell??? It's made all the so-called "leftist" enclaves of the internet a minefield. Why are people with OCD everyone's favourite collateral when it comes to stuff shitty rich assholes do? Is it so fucking hard to stop making up thought crimes to attack people over??
It's an extra layer of horrible when the same people have no problems applying "no ethical consumption under capitalism" to stuff like Coca Cola and NestlƩ products. Y'all can't possibly live without child slavery chocolate or making brown people drink NestlƩ's toxic filth or anything that's subjecting Indigenous communities and people in entire Global South continents to long, lingering, horrible deaths, but this one franchise whose author royalties are funding the UK transphobic lobby is the one line that matters. Fuck all the trans people in those places I guess. Every single Global North consumer moral policing is western leftists's dehumanization of our people writ large. Fuck all of you.
#yeah i know i keep bringing this up. that's the nature of OCD#and the sheer prevalence of this rhetoric and the lack of opposition to it#sometimes it's like Im the only one speaking out#and it's because my fight and flight response is set to fight and I can't disengage#not because Im brave or something#in order to avenge the UK's trans genocide it's people like me all over the world#who can't even afford books and games#that need to be killed off first#when you're triggered into suicidality over and over because of your love for a book#that helped your child mind escape while cowering from the adults in your life#even without having paid money for anything HP related in years#how exactly are you supposed to rise above that#i've systematically lost my entire friend group to this clown circus this year#because apparently ''this thing you're doing is ableist and also making me suicidal'' is just me being lost in the fandom sauce#and not caring enough about real issues#it's no use singling out the western left anymore bc USAmerican internet hegemony means even my people take their political cues frm them#''you're being influenced by western imperialism'' went down about as well#as did ''if my wellbeing is not enough for you I literally know trans HP fans wth OCD who are suffering even worse than me''#harry potter#knee of huss#scrupulousity#pure ocd#actually ocd#western leftists#white queers
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Do you want to do cuckhold roleplay with me? š„¹šš
are you trying to hit on my wife??????????? get outta here
#ask danny#if you're genuinely asking me to rp with you you gotta be brave enough to come off anon#and despite the fact that it has consumed my entire blog i do not think i'm into cuckoldry enough to be a good rp partner for that#also im possessive. i only share my beautiful wife (the bit) with my metamour (fish) :/#im also devoted. i would never betray my wife to fuck your wife.
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i'm not doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm not fucking doing anything !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i just sit and rot and worry and yearn whilst other people are out there living and feeling and breathing and experiencing and still i just do nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#'you're young there's still time' you do not understand#i don't do things because i'm unwell. chronically. it won't ever go away !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#that doesn't mean it can't get better i'm sure it will one day#but it will never be what i want it to be#i get so overwhelmed by all the things i'm not doing#i need to stop watching videos and films about people living the lives i want#been procrastinating my hrt shit for ages now even though all i have to do is send two emails and ask my friend for one link#i'm putting off the new tattoos and piercings i want because i always do that and then i get sad that i don't have them yet#i'm putting off my assignments for a degree that i actually enjoy and want to do well in and i do not know why#i'm just WAITING. what am i WAITING FOR. the change is INSIDE OF ME. why am i waiting#i guess i am holding onto safety and predictability because it's the only thing i have control over#i bounce between that and the image of a future me that is completely unattainable#and i tell myself there is no possible middle ground so i just give up#i can't be all the things i want to be. i will never been seen the way i want to be#but that doesn't mean i have to stay stuck like this forever wasting my life feeling miserable about everything#but i still choose to keep doing it every day anyway because i don't know how to stop#is it too much to ask to be a beautiful man who is not technically a man but is perceived as one and gets silly about it#is it too much to ask to be nice and well and attractive and successful#i don't want to be normal. i don't want to be cis. but i would like to be myself in a way that feels right#but i am not brave enough to start doing anything about it
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every day i wake up and go "hmm i think i will draw something quickly:) probably wont render it" and then black out and wake up at 3 am with a full piece in front of me. anyway
#TO THE ONE OTHER PERSON IN THIS TAG POSTING ART: HIIIII YOU'RE SO COOL#I DIDNT REALISE I TOOK SO MUCH INSPIRATION FROM UR āTHIS CANNOT BE THE ONLY WAYā PIECE#BUT IT'S SO AWESOME!!!!#erm anyway im trying 2 figure out their designs by mashing together their canon designs with those in the first act's cd case. very fun:)#im normal i promise.#<- lying#the protomen#not brave enough to put this in the megaman tag. maybe someday#tumblr wont stop fucking up the layout so no bonuses today#hash tag sosad#bug.png
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*gasp* :D mai naybor uzed ta livv dare!!!
:3 i fink it wuzza nayborhood neaw an airbase, cuzzhe drew a biiiiiiig airplane on da adress.
X3 no doksing doe, cuzzi wont say wut color da flowerz were.


#XD god that was probably the most insane set of words i've written#like man. commitment to the bit is hard#had to throw in as much obsurdity as i could with just...#consistently terrible spelling#yet perfectly coherent sentences#pulling from my legit childhood where i did live near an air base#and then the absolute cherry on top of the address bein secure because you dont know the flower color#XD i hope you're happy#that was YEARS of writing experience focuessed into one joke#somebody please show these tags in the reblog i want my work shown!#anyway this bit was brought to you by the diaperfur community#diaperfurs: the only ones brave enough to have a power fantasy about flunking from growing up#lets be real. we ALL hate growing up. but at least us diaperfurs embrace that fantasy as aspirational#potty training is like gender#we didnt choose to learn either really#so we should just reject both#did i make ya laugh? i hope i did. that's all i really want#have a great day everyone#signed in crayon. Luna Stardust
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if you're aware of the Vulture article on Neil Gaiman, there's not much i can add; if you aren't and you go looking, my only advice is that if you hit a point where you're wondering if you should bail, do so, because the details of his behavior only get more vile as it goes along.
however, one thing i WILL say is to be on the lookout for smear campaigns against the sources and/or the journalist, Lila Shapiro, in the coming weeks and months. i cannot stress enough how brave this article is. if there's one thing more hazardous to your reputation than blowing up a rich and influential serial predator in the entertainment industry, it's making the church of scientology look bad, and she's managed to do both in one stroke. remember Lila Shapiro's name, and be extremely skeptical if it suddenly turns up later this year as the target of some slimy allegation.
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(reblogs are enabled again for the time being; please try to behave yourselves. this post is a heads-up, not an open mic night for your tangential hot takes or your personal feelings about gaiman's work. furthermore, tumblr's resident TERF circle-jerk is disrespectfully invited to piss off and take a long walk off a short fucking dock.)
#lila shapiro#neil gaiman#if you're wondering why it took so long for a thorough and well-sourced article to come out: the publication's lawyers had to sign off.#and you'd better bet that in an article where two sources had to break NDAs and prominent scientologists get sideswiped in passing#there's a *bunch* they had to leave out and what remains is carefully selected to be airtight and bulletproof.
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Is it just my bi ass, or does anyone else think every aggressively straight person is secretly just closeted?
#I feel like I was the same#took ages to come out of that#maybe they fight our existence so hard so that they don't have to admit they're not ānormalā themselves#kind of extending the self-chastising to other people#and I get it#I really get it#it's not easy if you grew up being told the only way to be is to be straight#especially for bi people#you feel the attraction but you find excuses#āI'm really straight! I love men. I just think women are neat.ā#if you admit other people can be gay and bi and ace and...#you're admitting that you might be too#and that's just hella scary#so you put up a fight to protect your own scared little self#not everyone is brave enough to fight this#and I really mean the aggressive straights#if you're an ally you've probably thought of your own sexuality with enough honesty to know you're not queer yourself#(I came out - to myself - shortly before hitting 30y and I'm still far from comfortable)
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nanami tells you he loves you for the first time when he knows you can't hear him. you've dozed off in the middle of your movie night...again, popcorn fallen to the floor and kernels scattered. which isn't much of a surprise to him. in fact, you fall asleep during almost every movie night. work has been hard on you lately and you just can't seem to stay awake long enough to finish a movie.
it doesn't annoy nanami either. he finds it quite endearing, really and often finds himself observing the pretty way your lashes fan across your face. how your lips do this cute little pouty thing that makes him want to kiss you. how sometimes you snore (but he'd never tell you he knows that). he can't get enough of you. it only confirms what he'd known only two weeks into dating.
he loves you
there are not many things in this world nanami fears, but he does fear scaring you off by falling too hard, and falling too fast. he does fear you not returning his feelings. and he even fears how intense this love he has for you is. but, he couldn't have avoided it if he tried. before he knew it, he was already smitten with you.
and it's still far too early for him to build up the courage to say these three little words to you when you're wide awake and able to respond (the most terrifying part to him), but he knows what he feels. that's one thing nanami is absolutely certain of.
so when you nuzzle further into his chest tonight, the noise of the television fades into the background for nanami, and he finds himself leaning down to press his lips to the crown of your head where he whispers, so so softly, "I love you."
a part of him wishes you'd hear it, surprise him by opening your eyes and smiling up at him. maybe tell him you love him, too. but your soft and even breaths tell him you're deep into dreamland.
'that's alright,' he thinks. because he's certain of his love for you, and he's sure that one day he'll be brave enough to tell you just how certain he is.
#how can you not be in love with nanami kento#he's just the sweetest thing like i love him so much#nanami kento x you#nanami kento x reader#kento nanami x reader#kento x reader#kento nanami x you#jjk fic#nanami kento drabble#jjk x reader#jjk x you#nanami fluff#nanami kento fluff#anime x reader#husband namami kento#soft nanami kento#nanami kento x y/n#nanami x you#nanami x reader#kento nanami#nanami kento#jujustu kaisen#kento x you#kento x y/n#jujutsu kaisen nanami#jjk nanami#jjk kento
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wolf-hybrid!simon x bunny-hybrid!reader | PT3 | pt2 | pt1 |
apparently simon wasn't the only one who loved your scent.
other males had been trespassing on his territory, coming dangerously close to his den. to you.
simon tried to make his scent more pronounced. to keep them away. to keep his bunny safe.
fortunately, so far, no one had been brave enough, to deliberately come after you. and simon thought that nobody would be.
until that day.
simon had left for water that evening. he wouldn't have been gone for long. it was always risky to leave you alone, without his protection. but simon promised to be quick.
unfortunately, that was enough time for him.
you shouldn't have been so naĆÆve. so stupid. you should've stayed vigilant. but you were just cleaning the den. you didn't feel threatened. you felt safe.
heavy thumps on top of the den. that's what you heard first. you looked up, a little bit of dirt fell down from the den ceiling, and dropped on your head. it must be simon. it has to be. right?
but then. there was slow struggling at the den's entrance. you couldn't see it, it was behind a curve. but you could hear it. simon didn't have to struggle to get inside. it was his den after all, it was just big enough, to let him inside.
maybe he was just struggling with the water. yeah. it's simon, you tried to reassure yourself.
"s-simon...?" your voice was meek, scared, unsure. you've stopped messing with the nest, now only focused on the noises coming from the den's entrance.
the obvious struggles at the entrance stopped.
why? simon would give you an answer, wouldn't he?
the weather was beautiful. there was only few clouds covering the blue sky. the sun glared down, hot and bright. it made the snowbanks sparkle beautifully.
the hot light made the snow melt away, uncovering calm, small rapid. the clear water ran over the rocks underneath it's surface. only more and more snow kept melting into the water, small droplets falling down from the melting ice, and snow.
simon knelt by the river. filling a carved, wooden bucket, with the cold, refreshing water.
he had to keep himself, and the bunny hydrated, after all.
the bucket filled pretty quickly, and simon was ready to head back to the den.
the snow crunched under his steps. simons hot breath came out as steam, as it hit the cold air. frost was starting to form on the tips of his hair.
the wolf's movements stilled, as smell hit his nose. a musk. another male.
simon dropped the water filled bucket, and began to run. you were alone. hopefully you were alone.
but he wasn't there to protect you. oh, god.
panic flared inside simon, his heart beating out of his chest.
the den was just a rocks throw away from the river. simon was quickly there. that didn't calm him down. somebody was kneeling at the den's entrance, trying to dig in. trying to get to his bunny.
simon panted heavily as he approached. the trespasser heard him coming. with a smirk on his face, the intruder turned around, to look at simon. simon's hands clenched into fists, his skin turning white.
he gritted his teeth. "mace." the wolfs voice resembled a growl.
here this bear was, trying to steal his bun. simon knew him, a territorial rival. and now he was attempting to take his fucking mate. his mate. his.
the black bear chuckled darkly, as he stood up.
"can smell her... you're hiding a sweet thing in there..."
"time for you to go, mace." simon grumbled.
mace grinned. "i'll leave you be, for now."
he walked down from the den's entrance, towards simon.
"might wanna keep her in there. never know when she's going to get snatched up."
mace's shoulder knocked against simon's, when he walked past him.
simon was fuming. his whole body moved, as he took heavy breaths.
the wolf listened, until the sound of footsteps faded away, before rushing to the mouth of the den.
"bun? come here." he called out, into the tunnel.
he had to wait a moment, before he saw your head sticking out of the hole.
simon sighed. "come here..." he signaled for you to come closer with his hand. slowly, and hesitantly, you crawled to the entrance of the den, where he was waiting for you.
"you okay, bun?" simon mumbled, his hand gently holding your cheek. after a meek nod of your head, simon leaned in and kissed your forehead.
simon leaned away, and gently guided you back down into the den, following suite after you. once you were down in the nest, simon made sure to hold you tight against his chest.
"you know that I would never let anything happen to you. you know that, don't you, bunny?" the wolf murmured into your ear, his free hand slowly making it's way down your stomach.
"what can i do to calm you down, huh? you're still shaking." his hot breath hitting your ear. simon was being sneaky. before you even knew it, his calloused fingers, pinched your nub.
he chuckled at the squeal you let out. his fingers began to gently massage your little clit.
"i'll never let that happen again. okay?" his voice got more serious, and his touch harder. your legs kicked out at the increasing pressure on your sensitive clit.
his touch didn't relent. it only got more determined.
determined to distract you from the scary situation, you had to go through.
determined to make you feel good.
the feeling was foreign. his touch was so tough, just like him. but his words were so sweet. the pressure in your belly grew. your breathing got heavier. simon noticed. with a wicked smirk on his face, his movements got faster.
"give it to me. c'mon bunny... i know you want to." he so meanly teased.
it just suddenly hit you. your legs tensed up, and your breath hitched. luckily, simon decided to show you mercy. he helped you get down from your bliss, before pulling his hand from in between your sweet thighs. your juices coated his fingers. simon grinned at the sight.
the bunny was now completely limp in his arms, panting and exhausted. simon wiped his dirty fingers against the fur on your stomach. simon's hand grabbed your chin, turning your head to look at him.
"go to sleep, bunny..." he murmured quietly, laying you against his side. his arms rested around you, in a protective hold. he couldn't even imagine how scary it must've been for you, being trapped down here, with no way out, while somebody was trying to crawl inside.
but just as he promised, simon would never let it happen again.
authors note: that poor bucket, alone in the cold forest :(
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I've gotten most, if not all of these in my long career. My favorite is my big mug of salty reader tears.
AO3 Writer āAchievementsā
I know there are way more than ten possible achievements, but I stopped at ten because itās a nice round number.
#in order:#I know I've had people go ācanon!ā at me for various things#usually when I'm writing about obscure characters?#can't remember a specific though just that it happened#oh I love to squeeze those salty reader tears!#I try to get enough sleep but have gone to work on 4 hours because of working on fanfic#and have stayed up 'till dawn on days off#I think the only time I got a comment on all chapters of a fic was one She-Ra fic that was 18 chapters by one person#I don't know if I've had people follow me to other fandoms though#outside of reccing videogames to a friend but that's just gaming#I was so thrilled when someone commented on a Trigun fic to discuss V.A.T.S. in Fallout when I made a ref to it#I coined āRem Does Crimeā for Trigun but I think I'm the only one who uses it#I am a flamewar veteran yes#I got a commentator liking a fire emblem ship they weren't into the way I wrote it once#Trigun's Rem you are so so dead in so many of my fics#not my fault that you're the non-spoiler dead character#and you died brave
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Heylo my maggotsies... I'm sorry to do this but I have a thing that I really, really need to do (thank you Ash for helping me realise that) but I'm terrified to. so well. I'm going to make one of the posts (Neil reblogged me a couple of days ago so I feel pretty safe making one now since he only lurks by once in two weeks so this is as good a time as it gets to make a post and not expect many notes, yes I'm an overthinker and I'm actually scared of this getting notes).
Sigh. Here goes.
...I'm scared of even typing it.
Nope okay I can do this let's go.
If this post gets 1k notes, I'll look up jobs in design and film making that don't need a college degree.
2k notes, I'll sign up for an Alliance Francaise course so I can have another language on my CV, and I'll find a course that teaches me how to use design software.
5k, I'll look up distance learning alternatives, because just talking about physical college yesterday made me spend the whole morning and afternoon today in and out of nightmares screaming. Fuck.
10k, I'll tell my mum that I can't do the offline college. She's been talking to me about it, but I've been dodging because I'm not well-off and I really need to be earning and idk how to do that without college and I feel so guilty.
15k, I'll officially back out from the college (does that count as dropping out, if it hasn't begun? maybe half. i am a college and a half dropout, my 11th grade self would hate me and my 10th grade self would refuse to believe it).
I don't know what I'll do then. I don't know how to live as trans here in India, I don't know how to earn enough to be able to help my family, I don't know what I'm good at and I'm so fucking terrified. But. I spoke to @random-doctor-on-the-internet last night (I love you Ash you're such a fucking amazing human) and they made me realise that well maybe landing in a hospital with steroids to relieve an allergy attack because of exam stress isn't normal and so.
Well. Here I am. I know I can't do it, but I'm scared to risk everything, it's just not something people do here, dropping out. But also (TW s**cide statistics mentioned below the cut)... And so I've just. Got to do it, got to save myself and say no to college (cue say no to school, kids joke). Somehow be brave enough. And yeah.
To quote a financial express article: "In an alarming situation, a total of 7,62,648 suicides were reported in India between 2018 to 2022, Of this student suicides account for 7.6% at 59,239". Maybe if more people did say fuck you to the system here, that wouldn't be the case. That number could have been 59,240 (aside from everyone who wasn't counted and hushed up), that could have been me, and I don't want to put myself in that situation again. You know? Yeah.
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Hello! I wanted to make a gift for you ā„ Been wanting this for so long, and Christmas is the best time for giving gifts!!
BGC
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7 metallic swatches
Earring and Modular (piercing) versions;
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How Task Force 141 would react to you placing your hand on their upper thigh in public:
Captain Price:
This 40 year old man wouldnāt let you get away with a stunt like that in public. The moment your hand is on his upper thigh, heād firmly place his own over yours, squeezing it just enough to warn you. "Behave." Heād say quietly, eyes locking with yours to make sure the message lands. If you were cheeky enough to push your luck and keep going, he wouldnāt bother with more words.
Instead, heād order you up, his voice firm as he tells you to get to the car while he takes care of the bill. The drive wouldnāt last long before heād pull over somewhere secluded, roughly bending you over the bonnet. "Thought youād act up, did ya?" Heād mutter, hands already on your hips, ready to teach you a lesson you wouldnāt forget.
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Kyle "Gaz" Garrick:
Kyle would notice your hand sliding onto his thigh but heād stay still, just to see how far youād take it in the dark of the movie theatre. Heād pretend he didnāt feel it, keeping his eyes on the screen but heād be holding back a grin. As your hand moves higher, closer to his growing bulge, his patience then would snap. Heād grab your wrist suddenly, leaning in close to whisper, "Fine, then. If you're so brave, letās finish it here."
Without waiting for your answer, heād drag you to the dirty bathroom, pushing you into a stall. "You wanna act like a dirty girl? Then you get treated like one." Heād say, motioning you to kneel on the filthy floor just to make sure you understood the consequences of teasing him like that.
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John "Soap" MacTavish:
Johnny would light up like a Christmas tree. The moment your hand rests on his thigh, heād lean back with a grin, his legs spreading just a bit wider to invite you in. "Aye, donāt stop now.." Heād whisper, clearly enjoying the game. Heād egg you on, guiding your hand even higher, fully aware of the risk of being caught in the middle of the cafe.
If you hesitated, he wouldnāt let you off easy and his own hand would find its way between your legs under the table, not caring who might see. "Guess weāre giving āem a show today, bonnie."
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Simon "Ghost" Riley:
There's no beating around the bush with this man. He would catch on immediately and wouldnāt let you get away with it. Heād grab your wrist before you could move further and give you a knowing look. ''Youāre not doing that here.'' Heād say, his expression serious.
Heād tease you a bit, asking if the three times he had you earlier werenāt enough and calling you greedy. ''Be good until I finish my whiskey, then we'll sort you out.'' Heād promise. Youād know to behave, or else heād make sure youād regret it but only when he decided it was time.
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