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aceteling · 21 days ago

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head hurts at 5 am and I'm spiralling into bad thoughts

What's the point of all of this. Man. I don't want to struggle I just want to snuggle. I feel like I'm not doing enough but what I am doing is already too much and overwhelming and I've been having bad sleep for a few days and want to cry

Is life really going. To just be this all the time

please oh please gods give me something good and not abstract to look forward to that's gonna feel like it's worth it

#cant help being a cancer 👌👍#fr my qpp just had his existential crisis did he pass it on to me??#but mine is more like. im hurty and exhausted and overwhelmed #idk. whats the point. ive been asking myself #my aunts bad words technically dont affect me but now at 5am they do they do #if life is just a miserable path of having to 'work hard' then i dont know if i want it #i feel like im just taking the easy path and hoping it will stick but what if it wont?? ill have to die then i guess #and if the easy path is doing this levels of exhaustion for me what would the hard path do #im really a weak person huh #cant even handle 4 days of intense stuff happening huh #sorry. in the morning ill be back to 'everyone is different' uwu 'different levels of energy' etc but now im wallowing in self hate #well aware of how stupid it is to think so #but my head is exploding so maybe if i get myself to cry itll ve better #negative #death mention #how i wish i was neurotypical sometimes whT the fucj is wrong with me #im not gonna survive outthere #maybe i really just am lazy like people tell me i am huh maybe i deserve this haha #domi talks #vent

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