#but my INTJ self cannot comply

[endless-ineffabilities]

Write 1 confession then send this to 10 people for them to do.

not really a confession, but since I haven't shared an iota about myself on my blog (apart from my age range and mbti 🥲)....

hi, my name is ______ , my parents named me after a Norse goddess and I used to despise that fact and wished I had a more popular name like Taylor (can you tell I've always been a Swiftie) or Emma.

But now I'm chuffed about it and I love that my name is F_____ 🙃🖤

[portlandbycalifornia]

My Perfect Match

Portland OkCupid profiles that I have matched with an average rate of 85% copied verbatim (spelling mistakes and all) and complied to create the ultimate dream man.   

My Self-Summary

Vegan INTP bike nerd. I consistently test on either side of INFJ/INTJ.  Very into self-improvement, various energy healing modalities, healthy living, escaping the matrix, etc.   I Love to go to festivals. Fire dancing is my favorite hobby but crafting my wearable leather art is my passion. I take care of my body. I am attracted to women that take care of their mind, body and soul. Non-monogamy is a gift that my partner and I have given each other.

I smile and encourage others in passing. I am going through a period of transformation, renewal, and brutal honesty. Finding wisdom in deeper levels and adopting a fresh perspective on my relationship with the world. I savor genuine human connection and I am resourced and ready to face whatever comes in its way.  I have a vision and I need you and your vision. I need the vision to come down and be embodied here in community. I love the transformation and creating something beautiful and lasting.

I am a highly sensitive person, with extreme shifts between introvert and extrovert, who feels emotions on a grand scale and often cannot hide this with masks, barriers, or boundaries. I am a glorious mess with a lot of love to give, digging deep to find that love for myself which will provide the foundation from which I will seek balance in all that I give – to myself and to others.

I just want to let you know my hair is to my butt so if that is not your thing or you judge a book by the cover pass me by.

Let's play together!

What I’m Doing With My Life

Unraveling the mysteries of the universe.  Daydreaming about getting out in the woods for a week.  After ending a long term relationship last year I devoted most of my spare time to internal examination.

I have passed through eleven years of severe mental health issues that have put my life and the pursuit of my dreams and happiness on hold. I submitted to the Western Idea of Medicine – to only soothe the symptoms, and not address the root cause.

I raise happy animals and plants to feed wise and caring people. I am spreading love, happiness, and joy wherever I go. It's who I am and a big part of what I bring to this world. Learning is a hobby as well as my vocation

I'm into tribal dancing. I pray when I dancing. I do ancient dancing sacred to Mayan and Aztec. I can make shoes. I can fix cars. I garden. I'm kind of everything as I age. I see so much wisdom I have and knowledge in the seen and unseen. Being on here discredits my karma and manifestation abilities. I'm not part of sex positive not will I club up for love. I'm very serious I might add. I'm the real deal. I know medicine well. Even Latin. I'm not some rich kid. I'm actually poverty

I am wearing a couple kilts in my pictures. I enjoy wearing them, I am getting more in touch with my Irish heritage. Yes, in two of them, I am also wearing tights. They are tights for men, but still tights. They are comfortable, and nice to wear. More and more men are beginning to realize what woman have known for a very long time. Leggings, tights (and even bodysuits) are really very comfortable.

I am living everyday striving to become my most authentic self by practicing AHO. I am currently in the midst of a revolution. It is beautiful and it is heartbreaking. It is inspiring and it is painful. It is passionate and it is overwhelming. It is full of challenges, ideas, roadblocks, breakthroughs, breakdowns, searching, yearning, learning how to take care of myself for the first time ever, and attempting to find community, my own family or tribe where I can continue this journey surrounded by support and love and possibility and responsibility. The past year has been surreal and fascinating.

I run. I hide. I fall into deep pockets of introspection and isolation. I get foggy and lose track of time, and it is difficult to focus on anything that doesn't feed into this ancient evil of helplessness, hopelessness, agony, and suffering.  I work at festivals like the Oregon Country Fair, Pacific Fire Gathering to name a couple.

What I am Looking For

What I am looking for? First of all, I am not a bigot, or racist, or anything, but I prefer to date within my race. Please. Also, I DO judge you by your profile pic. Shallow?...no. I just am more likely to click on your photo if you are smiling, or you have made it a point to look like you are enjoying yourself. Has nothing to do with how attractive you are. Some pictures....they could double as county jail in-processing pictures. SMILE Fer fuk sakes!!

I find that SOME of the ladies who write that they don't want to see pictures of a mans junk, who are here for a serious intentions, and not here for a quick fling are quite often the same ones who have their camera half way down their shirt, showing me how large their cleavage is, how big their breasts are etc....Frankly, I really don't want to be seeing how big your chest is, anymore than you want to be seeing my junk.

I prefer to look for someone who already has children or willing/interested in adoption, (for that is the ULTIMATE show of love) If you have kids, the younger they are better. Because yes, I want to experience all that being a father brings. Being up 2 hours after I went to sleep to change a diaper, or woo them back to sleep, or holding them after a scary dream. I yearn for the days of showing them how to do things like holding a bat catching a ball, tying their shoes, going to games, and recitals, and yes....even going so far as to play dress up. (Yes, I am cool with that, you should be too).

I believe we transfer energy by who we hang with. So No Burners please. Your weird and high. Not my kind of people.

I’m Really Good At

Getting present via: breath, tapping cortices, lips & tail (energy points), mindfulness, adrenaline, focused effort, etc. Falling apart and putting myself back together again.  Spinning fire for the masses, helping others, loving you, expanding my consciousness and all I set my mind to. I’m REALLY good at talking.

The first things people usually notice about me

Perhaps it's that I emanate a god-like quality of peace, love, and understanding to everyone around me, also my eyes. Bonus points if you find something else to compliment first.

Favorite Books, Movies, Shows, Music, and Food

Science and Sanity by Alfred Korzybski Immediatism by Hakim Bey Mother of the Universe: Visions of the Goddess and Tantric Hymns of Enlightenment by Lex Hixon Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu Theory of Harmony by Arnold Schoenberg

I don’t own a tv.  You shouldn’t either.

Lately I've been listening to Beats Antique, String Cheese Incident, Job To Do, Bassnectar and Blue Lotus. Music is whatever can get me moving, enrich my soul, make me cry, reminds me of something special. Right now I'm listening to a lot of 5 finger death Punch and Tool repetition, polyrhythms, heaviness, swing, bass, texture, sweetness, darkness, contrast, ambience. My own music has been an attempt to reconcile my love of the traditions springing forth from dub reggae and gay disco.

Heathy food is a big part of my life. I am a big juicer and my superfood bullet is the best purchase ever.

Six(teen) Things I Could Never Do Without

Music

Intellectual stimulation

Physical stimulation

My bike

Reflection

All my special people

Reclaiming my power to create change

Rest Laughter (especially that of children) Tears Artistic expression Human connection Surrender

Festival season

Passport

Sex

I Spend A Lot Of Time Thinking About

How to get the perfect balance in my life between all my conflicting goals and desires. Discovering how to leave a positive impact on humanity, loving life and those in it, entrepreneurial activities (in conscious business), etc.

Where I should ride on my weekend. Road or mountain bike? Probably mountain bike, but which trail and how far am I willing to drive this weekend? Should I camp somewhere?

Doing what I'm here to do, and helping others get on their journey to do the same. I've been feeling more & more tuned in to the fact that we're all perfect the way we are, going through what we're going through (we each have our own reality that may or may not make sense to each person), and could all use reminders to dial in to our divine selves even more in each moment. How can we live & be more authentic in every moment, while turning up the volume on who we really are and what we're really passionate about?

On A Typical Friday Night I am

I am into spontaneity and flow. Making homemade cashew ice "cream".Making rhythmically driven noise (pretty & noisy types). Working on a deep poem. Practicing dancing or doing Danza.

The Most Private Thing I’m Willing To Admit

I tend to Meow a lot. Usually out loud, and sometimes at inappropriate moments.

You Should Message Me If

You appreciate being present and want to discover someone to share memorable moments with. You are truly open to an abundance of possibilities. You've got more passion/drive in life than most.  You choose to live life the way that makes sense to you (rather than following everything as pre-described). You've explored enough about yourself to deeply know you. You actually know the world we live in, and you're still in gratitude to be here in this time! You'd love someone to learn, grow, & live passionately with. You get that logic has its limits. You get the gist of me and my energy from this, even though there's SOOO much more to me (I am a Libra)! ;)

You work to be kind to yourself and others. You can manage your expectations and can trust me to manage mine. You don't hide from your despair and you know joy. You are strong at the broken places.  

If your profile is real and you live near or in Portland. I am very busy and do not have time for games

I will NOT meet expectations of masculine behavior. I am strictly sexually submissive. You will have to pursue me and make me feel desired.

[typologycentral]

What's my type? LSI vs ILI? Beta vs Gamma?

Hi, I'm recently started learning about socionics and I've been having trouble figuring out my type :unsure:. I taken a ton of tests online and I've gotten either LSI and ILI for the most part. In terms of quadras, I find myself relating to Beta and Gamma depending on my mood. In MBTI I prefer INTJ and my enneagram type is 3w4 so/sp, 358 tritype. People have told me that INTJ translates to ILI, while others have told me that types don't translate well from system to system, because of the functions have different definitions. I would really appreciate it if you guys can give me your thoughts on what my type is, along with the examples of how I used certain functions in this questionnaire. Thanks :) ! Personal concepts 1. What is beauty? What is love? Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Love is a deep attachment to any person or object. 2. What are your most important values? Honesty, being inclusive, accepting, forethought, respectful, not being a bigot,making decisions while taking other people into account, consensus, and loyalty to those that you care about. 3. Do you have any sort of spiritual/religious beliefs, and why do you hold (or don't) those beliefs in the first place? I don’t personally subscribe to any spiritual belief, but in my everyday life I behave more as a stoic. There is no rational basis for believing in spiritual/religious beliefs, so I choose not to subscribe to it. 4. Opinion on war and militaries? What is power to you? War occurs when there two nation states cannot resolve disputes through diplomacy. It should comply with international law and there should be a consensus between states in UN. War is incredibly disastrous for both parties involved and it comes at the cost of countless of lives unnecessarily. While war can be extremely disastrous, it sometimes necessary and justified. It can be justified in cases of self-defense from an aggressive state or humanitarian aid, such as a genocide. Likewise, militaries are a necessary evil as a means of self-defense and diplomacy. Militaries should be used primarily as a deterrent and play a secondary role to diplomacy/consensus. Power is anything that gives you the means of influencing people or institutions in your favor. Interests 5. What have you had long conversations about? What are your interests? Why? Politics is a personal hobby of mine. I can have extended conversations about it for hours at a time. I love politics mainly because of the different power dynamics that involved in it. Also, a part of me has always been interested in politics--that's the part of me that wants to save the world. I believe that some of the most daunting challenges in the world today--poverty, disease, war--can be solved if people can put aside their petty differences and preconceived notions and do what they know to be right for the world/country. I’m also interested in history, philosophy, science, dancing, music, and coding. 6. Interested in health/medicine as a conversation topic? Are you focused on your body? While I don't for the most part care about body, I am extremely self conscious about my appearance and I always try to look my best. I am also interested in and use recreational drugs. 7. What do you think of daily chores? I cannot stand daily chores, but they are a necessity. 8. Books or films you liked? Recently read/watched or otherwise. Examples welcome. Books - The Prince, 1984, The Art of War, The Republic, The Alchemist, A Song of Ice and Fire, Harry Potter, Brave New World, 48 Laws of Power, Uncle Tom’s Cabin, Lord of the Rings, The Far Seer, Kissinger The Idealist, Catcher in the Rye, The Giver, Fahrenheit 451, Rules for Radicals, Catch-22, The Anthem, Walden, Civil Disobedience, Crime and Punishment, Brothers of Karimazov,and Under the Dome. Films – The Godfather, The Christopher Nolan Batman trilogy, The Matrix, Ghost in the shell, Goodfellas, Citizens Kane, Malcolm X, Schindler’s List, Lord of the Rings, Pulp Fiction, Inception, Forest Gump, Harry Potter, Star Wars, Gangs of New York, Taxi Driver, I am Legend, Glory, Goodwill Hunting, John Wick, Lincoln, Saw, American Gangster, 12 years a Slave, Titanic, Big, and Star Trek. 9. What has made you cry? What has made you smile? Why? I almost never cry, but I do get teary eyed when I watch a heartbreaking documentary of poverty or war crimes. A clever sarcastic joke will always make me laugh. 10. Where do you feel: at one with the environment/a sense of belonging? Anywhere where I can discuss topics that I am interested in and feel included. Evaluation & Behavior 11. What have people seen as your weaknesses? What do you dislike about yourself? Being arrogant, argumentative, condescending towards people, not being able to relax, being vulnerable, power hungry, lack of emotional awareness at times, antisocial at times as well. 12. What have people seen as your strengths? What do you like about yourself? Intelligence, cleverness, thinking before acting, ambitious, charming when I want to be, confident, tough-minded, protective, analytical, inclusive, loyal person. 13. In what areas of your life would you like help? Opening up to people emotionally and vulnerable with them. I've been told that at times I can be extremely cold and unapproachable. Also, to understand myself better as a person and who I am. 14. Ever feel stuck in a rut? If yes, describe the causes and your reaction to it. Whenever I can’t reach my goals, it causes me to be critical of myself. I also start doubting myself, which causes me feel ashamed and vulnerable. It causes me to become depressive and cynical. People & Interactions 15. What qualities do you most like and dislike in other people? What types do you get along with? Overly emotional people, stupidity, willful ignorance, hate, bigotry, tribalism, people who don’t think about how their actions will affect others or the future, zealousness, lack of loyalty, and weakness. 16. How do you feel about romance/sex? What qualities do you want in a partner? I think its overrated to some extent, but it’s a wonderful feeling and experience that you share with someone. I usually look for someone who is thoughtful, funny, sarcastic, clever, good looking, ready to challenge me, and someone you I can feel completely vulnerable with. 17. If you were to raise a child, what would be your main concerns, what measures would you take, and why? I would want my child to have a proper education and also develop into healthy self esteem. I would also worry about demanding too much perfection from my child. Also, get the balance between being overly strict and giving them enough freedom to fully express themselves. 18. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward and outward reaction? Inward I think that they are either an idiot or just misguided. Outward, I try to figure out why they believe what they believe by debating them. 19. Describe your relationship to society. How do you see people as a whole? What do you consider a prevalent social problem? Name one. Until recently, I held a very cynical outlook on humanity and even considered myself a nihilist of some sort. However, I have faith in humanity to make the necessary progress to ensure our survival. I truly believe that most people are good and well intentioned in most cases, even when it doesn’t seem that way. While I still hold that view, I also think most people are too naïve, emotional, and irrational in most cases. Also, people don’t take the time to understand what’s going on and latch onto some demigod who makes all kind of promises. A prevalent social problem is still the hate that we have in the world for each other. People think way too much in terms of tribalism. 20. How do you choose your friends and how do you behave around them? My friends are chosen based on similar interest and ability to have conversations beyond superficial things. Also, someone that I can be brutally honest with and vice-versa. Even with my friends though, I feel as if I can never fully open up emotionally to them, so I feel as though a part of me is always missing. But I'm usually much more blunt, sarcastic, and to the point with my friends. 21. How do you behave around strangers? I try to be extremely polite and accommodating on the outwardly. I also try to be more extroverted than I usually am. Inwardly however, I judge people on their comments, politeness, intelligence, beliefs, actions for the most part. http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/socionics/89234-whats-type-lsi-vs-ili-beta-vs-gamma-new-post.html?utm_source=dlvr.it&utm_medium=tumblr