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amaranthdahlia · 1 year ago

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i wonder what wouldve happened to kazumas wellbeing if ryuunosuke was the one to die in the ship instead of him ?? like its very much obvious ryuunosuke means ALOT to kazuma, to the point he told him things even susato was surprised of not knowing, did things for him that wouldve costed him his life mission, trusted him more than anyone else

would his world just turn upside down again but this time possibly permanent? would his mental state just plummet? be a hollow of himself ? hed still be driven by his mission, just moreso with the lack of care of his own life ? would living just. not matter to him anymore ?

#itsasoryuu angsty thinking times #asoryuu #like kazuma fr needs help like theres alot unestablished mental health issues there 😭#like idk ig in my pov i think kazuma wouldve just stop caring about living and shit #like he wont do that to himself #but moreso hed be 10x reckless and self destructive #like if what the kazuma we saw in dgs2 was bc he was driven by vengeance (that was stemmed by grief )#what wouldve happen if he lost someone he loved so deeply from a purely avoidable accident #that was just near his proximity ? someone he had brought along to this ship in the first place?#theres no vengeance that could satiate the grief this time #but just the what ifs and i shouldve #what wouldve kazuma felt if he lost his aibou like that instead?#grief wouldve consumed him but its guilt that would destroy him

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