#but lucanis has the inverse effect on lleyth where they feel all tied up in knots and confused and making a mess out of them | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

lucaanis · 14 hours ago

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okay sorry im having post-panic attack clarity (my brain is actually letting me be insane about characters again bc i pushed thru the horrors) and i gotta get it all out of my system

sighs.... i just love how lleyth is constantly pacing in their room arguing with themself like "no no no this is bad. romantic feelings are the distraction that will bring complete annihilation. i must find an antidote for this feeling at once. im better than this" and then lucanis smiles at them and remembered to get the fancy chocolate they like from the market without them having put it on the grocery list and it's immediately Over. all common sense left in their brain dies on its sword and they feel like they're going to throw up from the sheer amount of love they feel for their fucking coworker

#💾#literally shredding my pillows with my teeth rn like a wretched little dog #bc i just think about lleyth blushing and talking really fast around lucanis because they're just So Overwhelmed by their own feelings 😭😭#and the fact that they almost kiss and then dont HAHAHAHSHSHGDI god #i just know the way lleyth could feel his breath brush against their lips for that split second drove them literally insane #they were both on opposite sides of the lighthouse staring out at the void after that. pondering it all #it's just so fucked up because they finally got the confirmation they were looking for (reciprocated feelings)#and then they BOTH got so scared by it and immediately backtracked. what a fucking disaster #maybe thats what ill try to write about tonight... ive been meaning to do little journal entries for lleyth for ages now #i also still love the idea of excerpts from lleyth's journal appearing around the lighthouse and everyone reading it behind their back #like weekly telenovela updates. everyone's business now #also something very sweet and narratively interesting to me #is like. how lleyth is so good at 'disarming' lucanis and keeping him grounded when he needs it #walking into his giant mess with a cleaning crew etc etc #but lucanis has the inverse effect on lleyth where they feel all tied up in knots and confused and making a mess out of them #not in a bad way but he has them completely thrown off balance. or whatever they think their balance should look like #they really are like a pair of magnets pulling each other towards the center of opposite extremes. to me #it gives me a migraine

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